THE BETRAYAL

Let us get something very clear ..

If your out of work or disabled and the DWP and Job Centre suggest that you start your own business and that you can get help and support from them to do this ..

.. RUN A FUCKING MILE .. AND THEN RUN A FURTHER FIVE MILES!!

When I did it this was called New Enterprise Allowance for the financial support and .. umm .. something else for the program itself. It no doubt went under different names in the past and no doubt will in the future.

I am one such disabled guy that did this and got stabbed in the back and although there are a whole host of other knives in my back from this point on .. this one was the start.

Make no mistake over this .. I ended up homeless from all this .. twice!

The support, help and money was pulled five days after I went, technically, self-employed.

By this time I had found out that my daughter and grandchildren had been subjected to domestic violence and the Police were involved. This was 250 miles away.

I then moved to help them .. expecting that the public services would help my four grandchildren and my daughter eventually and after a couple of months and I would be free to restart my business.

I expected help and support while this went on too but four months went buy and there was not a single fucking sign that we was going to get any help, quite the opposite in fact.

This set off my health conditions to the point I was self-harming .. a lot. Which I did not know at the time was down to some chemical unbalance due to low magnesium, a diagnosis that the NHS had made several years earlier and had failed to link, despite being well documented, to my symptoms. Nor did they realise that the heart palpitations were down to this too!

“All in it together” and ..

“We are helping people back into work” stated by ..

Hypocrites and liars of the Tory party, like Esther McVey for one, were outright lies and the fucking well knew it!

If you think for one second that the higher echelons of government, the NHS, certain local councils like Wirral and others along with the DWP have not been reading this blog you are very much mistaken ..

.. a previous GP from five years ago got a call to warn him about this blog and that I had been recording our meetings, his lies, and I was kicked off the practice because of it. So ..

Bearing in mind everything that I have published as fact since then until now .. the stabbing in the back over my health I have since proved. My daughter has proved. Everything else I have proved. The stabbing in the back over going self-employed, despite the fact that I have attempted to do this with my health conditions. The fact that is is easily proved that I have been working towards becoming self sufficient for nearly six years. I had a few pauses along the way, by the way through health or the public services sticking it in my back again and again.

So if they have been watching my blogs .. where is my apology? Where is the missing money I was due and that which was supposed to help me?

Where indeed?!

I now do not even want to live any more but I keep trying in these fleeting moments to continue to work towards my original goal. I seriously doubt I will get there and the recent ceasing and then seriously reduced food intake shows that. Along with losing two stone in weight.

Basically I am suicidal but have some serious issues about plucking up the courage to do this .. only manage some superficial or slightly deeper cuts. Starvation seems like a long winded but easier route.

I had to self diagnose Fibromyalgia to which I got lies and falsifications of letters over and had to use a lot of pressure and outside help to get referred to Guy's Hospital.

• Pains in feet (plural), shoulders and back among other places

Then I discovered that they lied by omission regarding my Fibromyalgia, despite begging the for years, and the low magnesium level effects.

• Artery Calcification, Heart Disease (Nan died of) & Sudden Death to name a few

Within days and via my daughter's diagnosis I realised that they had lied by omission once again regarding my Fibromyalgia over the fact that not only do I have Behcet's Disease but have had this going on twenty years and it may well have been the root cause of the Fibromyalgia and therefore the Hypertension, low magnesium and all of the other two hundred plus symptoms I have experienced. Along with the anxiety and self-harming?!

• Decreased Vision, Blindness, Motion Sickness (hard for travelling in vehicles including trains), Aneurysms (Dad died of at 56, I am 49), Abdominal Pain to name a few

Do not even get me started on any other possible support .. even just moral support .. even just being left alone without being emotionally pummelled to death .. or to the edge of insanity.

• Not even mentioned the things so embarrassing you would want to die!?!

Like how I am supposed to forget about my many dangerous symptoms, pains, and mental suffering or the fact that my daughter has cervical cancer because light dizzy spells in someone else is much worse? Or that I cannot talk to another about it because they do not want to hear it but instead your supposed to only speak about the things they are interested in, like headphones or some other such shit?!

Or the myriad of help organisations that receive millions or even tens of millions of pounds each year that think all that they need to do to be able to state to the British public that they help is talk to you I the phone for an hour or two?!

My daughter said she was she could get paid £40,000 per year to sit in a few houses each day just talking shit for an hour or speak to someone on the phone talking shit for an hour. That one made me laugh. I said “Now you know what I have been up against for many years now. You keep telling people even those that are supposed to or are tasked to listen and they simply do not fucking listen!”

More and more people are remarking in popular social media sites that this country is disgraceful, that human rights abuses are scandalous and getting worse and that this country is finished. I personally have been worried about this for a number of years and made this abundantly clear on my blogs. I am finding myself starting to agree with this new wave of opinions I am afraid.

Yet somehow .. ,any organisations like think of themselves or portray themselves as socialist, left-wing?! You simply have to be fucking joking?!

LMFAO!