DEATH TO THE DOUGHNUTS

Noooo, that is how you spell 'doughnut'.

Sorry, assuming here I will get American visitors that forgot how to spell 'dough', lol. Will they must have done?

Any hoo, I was sent a report to my tablet from my AppyGamer that had a little to do with the announcement of a game called 'No Man's Sky' being delayed.

There are some bizarre people in the world. Very ... bizarre.

Sometimes i even wonder to the percentages of a given population belonging to the bizarre group? After all, naivety seems to be of an extremely high percentage? Perhaps globally? Who knows but blogging about a given subject teachers you more about the subject as well as people interested in said subject. Plus some general things.

There are some very bad people in the world that do and say some very bad things.

Plus there are those that do and say very bad things that are actually just intellectually challenged morons.

You are the bizarreness of this video game report states that Hello Games have stated that they have received 'death threats' .... going to let that sink in for a few moments ... yes, 'death threats' over the announcement that the game had been delayed?!

I'm not being funny or anything and there is a lot of corruption and shit going on with video games companies and publishers. Lots and lots of new tricks to get large sums of money followed by another even bigger sum, in a series of small amounts, to keep you playing.

Then there's the whole, 'this is what the game looks like, we will hype it up but will look like crap when you've bought it' crap.

But, common? Death threats? REALLY?!

I didn't think to look to see if the game was linked to UBI Soft? I grew up with these companies but they have morphed into something quite unpleasant at times. UBI get more complaints than anyone else and have staff and rules that are first idiots and secondly draconian.

There has been a hell of a lot of Earth's resources wasted on a great many people. 'What resources?' I hear you say...

Why oxygen of course!

Do not feed the trolls! Seriously though something has been long overdue about doing something regarding trolls and bad people on the Internet. At least the Police and the Secret Services of this world have been building up a catalogue about who is basically good and who is bad.

I am not sure I would want to see the percentages of those lists of who is good and who is bad?

http://www.pcgamer.com/no-mans-sky-team-has-received-loads-of-death-threats-following-delay/

A NEW DIMENSION

I had been wracking my brain for some time and how to do something new and different for some of my blogs for many a month now.

Now I had thought I was going to spend some time in a different part of the UK as well as in different countries but I am currently around three months overdue that taking place.

It also does not look like it is going to take place any time soon, if at all.

Although there is always the chance to see, film and photograph something new with British Wildlife it does not happen that often, especially when you do not get anywhere near far enough, like me. As much as I would love to!

So I have four destinations locally and a fifth and sixth if I go by bus ... or am fit enough to cycle to the fifth?

Now I was into birds as a child, both British and exotic, but all my life I have been into aquatic life, hence my aquarium as well as my terrarium. Frogs, toads, salamanders, newts, caecilians (amphibian version of a snake) and fish. I love reptiles too but not any on my usual routes that I have seen quite unfortunately.

I had often seen the GoPro cameras in my local PC World but they were a bit pricey for what they essentially are. Not much more and I could buy an SLR, even a waterproof one! A smaller waterproof camera I could slip into a small space, said the vicar ... SNIP, nneext to my Nikon P900 that hardly weighed anything would be ideal.

One night while looking up photographic accessories I found something like a GoPro by a company called CamPark and like the more expensive GoPros, or around the £180 mark upwards, I could control this one via my mobile phone using WIFI, like I can with my Nikon P900 albeit only an auto for the Nikon.

Except this was less than a third of the price ... of course until I wanted to order it and it was out of stock! Still I found one for £60. So I ordered that along with a pole, or like a monopod, to fix it to.

It arrived today ... well they all did in two separate boxes, despite Amazon splitting them up because they stated some things were not in stock? Logistics? I think not.

I was not sure whether to order an accessories back, with like two dozenn items, or not as the pictures seem to show lots of accessories and a case coming with it. I doubted that for the price.

But it did!

As well as the case there is a bike clamp, several hinge attachments both straight and right angles, a spare back door, two batteries (very cool), several straps and some velcro straps too. There were several other fixings besides.

Hopefully within a few days I will do the videos I have been thinking about since I ordered the camera and these are totally submerged videos of British aquatic life.

There are of course the possibilities with more exotic aquatic life too!

So I did a little unboxing video of the camera, the SmaPole monopod like accessory along with other bits that arrived with it all...

Oh and I have been attempting to save the life of a Wood Pigeon that was hit by a car, or more accurately it flew into the wheel of a car likely scared by a cat ...

THE OBSTACLES FOR LIVING

There are medium days and there be harder days

Days that are filled with searching

Days that are low and have searches for reasons

One wonders what it takes and what to do

When the simplest things seem to require the most effort

Minutes pass by with frantic searching

Does one do this or does one do that?

What time constraints and what weather permits

Then when all it seems is the effort required …

..there is the remembering

Do I have this or do I have that?

First fifty yards and I may recall this and I may recall that

So much effort

So many ailments

To fill ones days with the simplest things

One often wonders ..

Why so much effort?

THE STONEY LOACH

This story linked below is one I heard about a few days ago.

British film director Ken Loach wins a Palme d'Or award for a film about a widower and his difficulties with the British welfare system?!

Ken Loach actually attacked the system with the words "dangerous protect of austerity".

I think they need to change the word 'welfare' for something else? Like ' torture'? You know the same way they have eradicated the words 'disabled' and 'disability' from any benefits.

Now you have not just a film about the DWP but an award winning film about the DWP to go along with the United Nations investigation.

It cannot be long now before the whole DWP's real truths are out in the open and dozens of court cases are started up?

I'm guessing that not long after that two other big and very British institutions will also get the same treatment. Institutions, I might add, that were once great institutions but two major political parties have reduced to one steaming pile of a series of corrupted mess.

A film and an investigation by the biggest institution in the world?

Ha! If that doesn't work then the country and the world is heading for the Dystopia I recently alluded to.

Also that politicians are showing themselves to be the lying, leaping puppets that jump on command that they are. Time to find out soon who are the puppeteers and make them pay by law.

Then perhaps we can move on into a brighter, better and fairer world?

Cannes 2016: Ken Loach's I, Daniel Blake wins Palme d'Or - http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/entertainment-arts-36355313

MORE TWISTING OF THE BRITISH LAW

In one of the tabloids it had basically accused the Supreme Court of creating a law for the rich and famous as regards privacy.

Now I first want to mention that i was told of a report that states a load of paedophile accusations against celebrities in the USA is going to break before very long.

I also want to remind people, and those judges that might visit here, of the fiasco of the paedophile accusations that have gone on in the UK.

On both sides of the Atlantic these are heinous acts that occurred decades ago, literally, and of course there are three Statutes of Limitations I've also always complained about.

In other words what do you think the chances are of ever bringing any cases against the rich and famous in the future?

Bearing in mind that these are accusations against people that range from near pensionable age to near death's door of actions performed decades previous.

Maybe they might find out one the rich and famous have been in the ground for ten years?!

Jesus I don't know if these overpaid twats are stupid, don't care or actually protecting themselves because they have all been up to things too?!

It had to be one of those three because there is nothing sane and sensible about their actions.

How the hell does money or fame render their evil actions as OK?!

I'd love to come back in a hundred years to see how history remembers these people, the law and the judges. I bet it won't be in a good light?

Newspaper headlines: Air crash horror and 'free speech' fury - http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/blogs-the-papers-36338814

THE LIARS DELUSION OF GRANDEUR .. ALWAYS

I have had a reply, a little snooty if you ask me, after sending them letters, reports and x-rays that none of this stuff is enough.

So there Doctors, which are either not/nurses/de-registered GP's, cannot find out from the data I supplied whether it will be both painful and dangerous to have me travelling around? Or that I am capable or not?

Not very good at health issues are they so how can they assess you by meeting you?

Also note that they failed to comment on the United Nations investigations and nor did they answer as to why they are assessing me for a benefit I have NEVER RECEIVED?!

They think they are so bloody clever this people and yet time after time they prove that the opposite in fact the truth!

I will add here that I bumped into that couple that see me fall and have a seizure. Apparently I was out/down for ten minutes. I told you they were up there a great deal. They just walk a circuit and I had already seen them several times when they see me pass out and do the Shakin' Stevens.

As usual I have gotten annoyed with the so-called ... (looking at letter) ...Centre for Health and Disability Assessments. Because of the time it has taken and the number of correspondences just to get my ailments across and an answer to why I am being assessed for a benefit I have not only never received but also is not even supposed to exist any longer and being phased out at some point any way?

If anything I should be being requested for an assessment of either Universal Credit, if disabled people get that, or Personal Independent Payments, which I do get.

I feel for those that pay a lot of taxes. I was talking to a guy today who I would estimate is now worth a couple of million and drives an Overfinch Range Rover Sport, the latest one. He was telling me how fed up he is with the amount, 40%, on taxes and I was explaining how it was spent and he said he was even more fed up now. Well I would be after hearing what I had to say and provided I was unaware of it beforehand.

EDIT: Hmm when I heard the name Capita to begin with as performing a sentence I thought it was odd because I heard of another name I thought started with the letter 'M'. I had and it is called Maximus?!

http://www.theguardian.com/society/2015/jan/18/after-hated-atos-quits-will-maximus-make-work-assessments-less-arduous

So that is now FOUR organisations being paid to kick people off benefits!

Four groups of staff being paid up to £900 per day, the assessors that is, what do the company executives get?!

This is their idea of saving your taxes? Pay scores of people £900 to stop paying out a few hundred extra quid each month? Yeah, that is the worst example of economising I think I have now ever come across? Feel for the taxpayer, really I do.

END EDIT

Dear Mr Haswell

If you wish to be assessed at your home for your work capability assessment, the onus is on you to provide a letter from your GP explaining the reasons for the request.

Please be aware that if your GP charges you for providing the letter, we are not in a position to refund you for the cost of this.

with regards

Dear Idiots

I BELIEVE your request stated SOMETHING from my Doctor stating why I cannot attend/travel to your assessment.

I BELIEVE I provided the evidence to my REASONS in my last email.

I BELIEVE it is not very difficult to fax through a request to a number I provided OR make a phone-call.

I BELIEVE I have made this clear to everyone on the blog I provided.

I BELIEVE that you are now showing your true colours in that you and the DWP are looking for any excuse to kick people off benefits, if they do not attend they no longer need benefits and if they DO attend then they are fit enough for work.

I BELIEVE I was awarded my PIPs TWICE now and THEREFORE have ALREADY proved I am eligible for this plenty of times ALREADY and now provided you with FURTHER evidence. Which can be easily followed up by you sending me a letter to contact my GP if you want hard copies or make a phone-call with this verified.

I BELIEVE I have asked you already, and the last time you did this several years ago, why your are assessing me for a benefit I do NOT get and I BELIEVE I made comments about the fact ALREAY that you are NOT explaining yourselves.

I BELIEEVE I have already told you that I have an appointment next Tuesday 31^st May 2016 so that anything that can be got will be got then. But then are you likely to ask for something else? THEN you will want to contact the GP directly?

I BELIEVE that if you have Doctors you have no need to have a letter from my GP to see that travelling for me will be both painful, embarrassing and possibly fatal and I simply cannot do it!!

I BELIEVE therefore that if you cannot ascertain from the information I provided that I dO require a HOME VISIT then you and your organisation are NOT fit for purpose. Hilarious that your claim is to see whether members of the public are not FIT or not when it is you that are not fit, nor is Atos and from what I understand neither is Capita.

Freedom of Information Request ... DO you get paid up to £900 a day to assess people like Atos and Capita are paying?

PLEASE do not contact me and speak in a patronizing way and please note the letters after my name, I am not 12 years old and you have no right to speak to people like that because you are too lazy ... oh I am sorry set up so that any excuse you can find to take disability support away from disabled people.

FUNNY you failed to remark about the fact your being investigated by the United Nations?

Yours

Martin Haswell BSc

THE LIARS LIE .. ALWAYS

See below ... 'if you do not feel ...' means 'ooh please give us an excuse to cancel your money?!'

This is a little set of correspondences I am having with the Department of Work and Pensions via their third hired gun, yup THIRD, to kick disabled people of DLA and PIPs.

Note that I was only awarded it fourteen months or so ago so it has neither been 3 years nor a single year for being asked to be assessed.

Also note how this time they wont Doctors letters to explain why you need to be assessed by their non-medical professional staff, on non-specialist staff, at home?!

That is two correspondences with Atos, one with Capita and now several with the Care and ... , care my arse, those people and all to get a message across that they have to do a Home Visit, like is on the file they have on me that I have requested a DOZEN times before!

HAve any of these people heard of 'Logistics'?! No, because they are not interested in doing their jobs properly ... they have a one sided agenda!

Its getting fucking ridiculous!

Note I have yet to mention NHS England, the PHSO and even the United Nations to them, well other than the fact that the United Nations are conducting an investigation?

Oh and please note that I have sent them a dozen letters and x-rays from Doctors, various and latest, and hospitals along with my x-rays. ;) 

Dear Mr Haswell

Thank you for your further email and your details.

I can confirm that a work capability assessment has been booked for you for 9 June at 1.00pm at the Highgate Assessment Centre.

This is in respect of a claim for Employment and Support Allowance. If you do not feel it is necessary for you to undergo the assessment, I would ask you to let the Department for Work and Pensions (DWP)  know this, as they can withdraw the referral if it is no longer appropriate. The DWP can be contacted on: 0345 608 8545.

with regards

Customer Relations

Centre for Health and Disability Assessments

Room 4E04, Quarry House. Quarry Hill. Leeds. LS2 7UA

tel: 0800 2888 777

customer-relations@chdauk.co.uk

WEBSITE: www.chdauk.co.uk

Dear Sirs

Here, why don’t you fax a request over?

Town Surgery Enfield FAX: *************

As it turns out my normal blacking out and passing out has just developed into a grand mal seizure and I scared the shit out of a couple who was walking towards me.

So despite the fact that the black-outs are on file I now have to speak to them about this as the Postural Hypotension looks to be completely wrong, surprise, surprise for the umpteenth time in the NHS’ history with just me alone. But then we both know why that is do we not?

You can fax over a request otherwise I am in the Doctors surgery next Tuesday. On Tuesday while at the Doctor’s I have to talk about diverticulitis and the possibility of having it. The appointment was made yesterday morning and the grand mal seizure occurred in the afternoon, go figure.

So your statement over me not needing to be seen you did see as an excuse to kick someone else off PIPs?! Nice people.

Was you aware that your under the investigation of the United Nations for the bad treatment of disabled people? Way to go to bring the British society crumbling down!

Jesus, when are the halfwits that work for public services going to realise the damage they have been causing as well as the lives you have ruined?

Did those in the top tiers warn you about my blog? No, I bet they didn’t?

Yours

Martin Haswell BSc

Sent from Mail for Windows 10

Dear Sirs

************

I do not get Employment and Support Allowance so I am not sure why you want to assess me.

Your answer sounds like your saying I do not need help any more and that you, or rather the DWP, will cancel my Personal Independent Payments?

You have not made it very clear what is going on, once again, and you have asked me about this in the past.

I am struggling to cope with things presently, see below, and my GP has been somewhat worried, more so than I, about my health and stated I have a lot of things wrong with me and going wrong with me all the time, see below!

I can, however, provide a list of what now sits on my medical records ...

I strongly urge you pass this on because changes in circumstances work both ways, not just when you or the DWP want to attack disabled people and mental heath sufferers and take support away from them.

I can tell you with absolute certainty that history will not remember these times and the culprits well!

I can also tell you with certainty that it is I that will be the main reason things are remembered in a factual way, not just he impressions given out by public services.

I have been telling the DWP for over ten years about all this and have now proved with absolute certainty that not only have I been telling the truth all this time but I am owed £45,000 in cancelled payments and not the £4,500 lump sum of one year I was paid back in January 2015!

Records are records and even my correspondences go on public record.

·         Fibromyalgia Syndrome excess of 100 symptoms (Guy’s Hospital) List of painful, embarrassing and irritating things

·         Right Knee defective (Guy’s Hospital)

·         Collapsed Discs in my back (X-Ray available)

·         High Blood Pressure, Hypertension Stage 2 and beyond even with 10mg Ramipril reads above 150 always, been above 180 and Systolic also always above normal

·         Postural Hypotension that with above to black out and fall

·         Oesophagitis Causes embarrassing sudden vomiting

·         Hiatus Hernia

·         Inguinal Hernia (left)

·         Inguinal Hernia repair (right) stinging and aching

·         Night cramps

·         Diverticulitis

·         GP Left family practice and told me he would talk to his brother, Dr Alex, and his father, Dr Thievendra, about me and that I should come in regularly as there is a lot wrong with me

Medication ..

·         Gabapentin (FMS) @500mg daily

·         Tramadol (Back) @ 200mg daily

·         Methocarbomol (Back) @1250mg daily

·         Metoclopramide  not sure what weights

·         Ramipril (HBP) @ 10mg daily

·         Amitriptyline (FMS) @ 30mg daily

·         Quinine Sulphate (Night Cramps)

Is this list enough for you? I can assure you it is far too much for me and I am convinced my life will not reach the age that my father died which is 56 meaning I have about 8 years.

I look forward to confirmation that my records have been updated and any extra support due is put in place.

As for my medical records you can get them at

Town Surgery

37 Cecil Road

Enfield

Middlesex

EN2 6TJ

PHONE NUMBER

I very much look forward to hearing from you.

Yours sincerely

Martin Haswell BSc

Dear Sirs

OH, and since WHEN did I have to send a letter over to prove that I am not able to attend?!

I just realised!

You have my file ... or did you burn it when I asked for it?

I can send you something ... one second...there.

Let’s see now, x-rays of back and neck, mention of knee, feet, back (wrong area as usual), Inguinal hernia they tried to lie about for you, Fibromyalgia which means many pain and memory problems, hypercholesterolaemia, high blood pressure, ankles and the piles problem which is looking like diverticulitis.

You should have aske me! I have documents and recordings going back 7 years or more for the latter and 20 years plus for the former ... meaning I am owed as I have mentioned several times, in the region of £45,000 in wrongly ceased benefits.

These documents and a mountain more along with dozens, but no where near all, secretly recorded audio can be found on my blog with a day to day and week to week account of my ills and actions seen by over 300,000 people and rising.

The people that asked you to do this, and lie and cheat about it, know of the blog. After all someone phoned a previous GP from high up in the NHS and told them I was recorded them ... albeit 4 years or so too bloody late!

Also you claimed to have medical reports on me that ‘weren’t up to scratch’ over three separate applications for DLA and PIPs after you wrongly cancelled it for 8 years. Strange then, is it not, that when I requested these medical records your legal department called me up to apologise and tell me they had all disappeared and there was not a single shred of paper concerning my health to be found?!

Sad then that when you did I had already published letter from you to state that you DID have medical records on me and it was these that were not up to scratch?

Oh and if your bosses think they have worked out something to get me on some technicality ... think again, go ahead and let me know how that works out for yah!

·         asaintcalledallnights.blogspot.com

Yours

Martin Haswell BSc

THE COMING TO TERMS

I have spent the last several hours forgetting what took place this afternoon, then remembering and then being shocked ask over again.

I am simply stunned I had a grand mal seizure.

I shouldn't be, or at least not as shocked as I am. I knew it was heading for something. They seemed to be getting stronger every now and then and I collapsed completely a couple of times recently.

When I say that I mean collapsing completely to the floor, not against a shelf or magazine rack and holding on for dear life as is normally the case and has been for a number of years now.

It keeps flashing through my mind how weirded out I was at finding myself lying on the floor. On my left side I think. I only remember feeling like I was being violently shaken but in an involuntary movement kind of way and sitting upright and staggering into my knees.

As far as I can find the postural hypertension I was diagnosed with does not come up as a cause for seizures. Many things do and unfortunately many are fatal.

Many of the ones that aren't fatal can easily be ruled out, bit leaving the prognosis looking too clever.

Well I did state several times that I don't think I would make it to the age my father did at 56.

To think, I thought enough people would realise the truths hidden in this blog, tell family and friends about it who would do the same and I'd get to have a private Doctor look at me before the NHS killed me?

Fat chance.

Was not that long ago I told a friend it looks like I have diverticulitis and he said that, that , could kill me.

Oddly one of the not so nice possible causes does state fogginess of the brain and more importantly, gut problems.

I had settled in diverticulitis because it was obvious that bacteria was involved each time I had a fourteen hour dose from hell. Unless the guy problems listed for the condition I saw involved bacteria?

Seems funny really waiting eight days to see a Doctor over things that have a 50/50 chance of being the worst kind of news! Lol.

A friend of mine said I am not eating enough. He says that for everything that ever happens. I'm sure fit some bizarre reasons he wants me to get fat?

Except I have spent twenty plus years not eating breakfast and I had a banana and a couple of Jaffa cakes with milk this morning.

So it's not lack of food not is it low blood sugar.

EDIT: I also forgot to put in the very thing I forgot to mention in the previous post. I had scraped my arm in one place and a scratch on the opposite side of my forearm. So I deduced that as I fell my arm went through the wire of the fence. 

I also felt a stinging in the back of my leg and after a few minutes a stinging feeling also on my forearm and later realised I had landed in a load of stinging nettles.

It is only now I am wondering what would happen if someone had a fit and fell into a she load of stinging nettles?! Ouch!

END EDIT

I had forgotten until I see the BBC News below that along with getting several movies and several photographs of some of the British wildlife I saw a very large wasp while I was out.

It was so large it had to be a Hornet but not one over seen before and certainly not anywhere around here. Whereas Hornets are slightly hairy this had a smooth abdomen just like your average wasp. It was almost exactly the same colour as the average wasp. Just over twice the size.

It flew down into some grass right in front of me. I tried to tease it out with a stick to film it but no joy. It must have had a burrow in the soil to not come out when teased?

Are 'killer' Asian hornets on their way to the UK? - http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/science-environment-36349379

SEIZING THE DAY

There I was in a very secluded spot with my camera on a macro tripod taking pictures and videos of some of the British Wildlife. For my British wild life blog.

I saw a couple coming along the secluded path and was annoyed I had to get up. They were around fifty years or so from me. I stood up and turned around expecting a familiar feeling to come over me.

The postural hypotension had been dogging me for the last hour. It is annoying at the very best of times and this was real edge of the black-out territory.

My new Nikon Coolpix P900 camera was on my right side on a quick release strap. My new camera bag was on my left side and as per usual I had my walking stick in one of my hands.

I felt the feeling wash over me, it really is a good description, and I grabbed a fence post with my right hand. I felt as if I was going to get through it when suddenly I was getting up off the floor!

Worse still I could feel convulsions both in my head and in my body, like sudden extremely strong jerks as if I had been plugged into an electrical socket.

'What the fuck?! How did I get on the floor?!' I thought as I was automatically trying to sit up.

I then realised what had happened and then remembered there was a couple coming along the path just prior to this happening. Where were they? Were they still there? It did seem like seconds but the last time I had one of these that strong I was actually out for thirty minutes. Except at the time it felt like I was only gone a few seconds.

I got to my knees an looked in the direction I saw the couple with their pram. They were still there! But just standing still and looking worried. I said “It's OK” out loud so that the message would be heard and waved them towards me.

As they got close I asked them what they saw. The mother said that I had disappeared out of view like I was falling but were worried in case I was … 'hiding'. “No, no, no sorry … I just had a fit of some kind.”

She told me she had wondered if I was having a fit because she herself was epileptic.

After wee finished speaking I continued on my way but feeling a real warm and fuzzy feeling, I still feel it right now in fact. A funny feeling in my head. I do not know how to describe it.

I then panicked as I had just bought a new camera only a week or so ago. “Effing typical!” I said out loud as I spotted three largish marks on my camera. Turned out to be dirt and I just brushed it off. A few minutes later a friend rang me and I told him what had just happened. He came and picked me up.

Oddly enough I had made an appointment with my GP, or new GP and the brother of the one I had previously who left for pastures new.

So now that is two immediate problems to deal with and I need to find out how I can stop pstural hypotension from doing that?

The trouble is I have high blood pressure along with the postural hypotension. Hypotension basically means it goes lower than it should. So my blood pressure can go from very high to very low very quickly.

So what do you do?

How can you take a drug to bring your blood pressure up, if there is such a drug, when your taking other blood pressure pills to keep it down?

Unless there is a drug that is better at keeping your blood pressure in a more uniform level but as per usual it is more expensive so you get the crap, like Ramipril?

Hmm … foundd Postural Tachycardia Syndrome! Christ, I must be collecting the syndromes? Lol. I wonder which branch of my family I have to thank for this one? The human body is a miracle indeed! HOGWASH! LOL!

http://patient.info/health/postural-tachycardia-syndrome-pots-leaflet

In that webpage it mentions a few things I experience and it mentioned Chronic Fatigue Syndrome which I am sure is just early stages of Fibromyalgia Syndrome from everything I have researched. So interesting that is mentioned.

Excess Heat: Yup established long before starting the blog that I do not like it hot!

Syncope or Fainting: Yup always get that.

Palpitations (feeling your heart beat): Yup, had that only yesterday and thought I was having a heart attack and stopped in the street.

Gut problems: That is what I booked appointment for as I thought I might have Diverticulitis.

Brainfog: Fibrofog lol

Tiredness: Check

Sweating: Check and long established on here

Poor sleep: Check … Fibromyalgia includes no restorative sleep

Chest Pain: Costochondrytis? Had that!

Shakiness: Yup … hands. Wondered if I had Parkinson's, it is in family, the latter.

Bladder Problems: Yup, over a decade. Went to Whipps Cross Hospital about it.

Anxiety: Yup, been hospitals and even psychiatrists over that

Dizziness: Check! On trains, both types, feeels like train is falling down a hole and I grab the bars for dear life! God knows why.

Hmm so looks like something else three dozen overpaid Doctors have missed?! Blimey this is going to end up very embarrassing for the NHS.

I had a grand mal seizure once before and a very long time ago. At a friend's place and he and his mate stated it was due to the cannabis. I never thought it was down to that and that the cannabis just magnified something already there. I was often having black-outs and this occurred over twenty years ago. Yup, OVER twenty years ago. It was reported to my GP, a Dr Tennekoon, at the time along with the other black-outs and falling over. Nothing was done and after a while it went a way for a few years until around 8 years ago.

I had gone to the communal loo in the bedsit and the next thing I know I am lying on the floor of a very narrow toilet room in an old Georgian, I think it was, house and a banging on the door. I have my trousers half way down my legs and I unbolt the door. My friend appears in the gap of the door and asks if I am OK. I ask why he has come out and knocked on the door and ask him how long have I been gone. Now I think I have been missing from the room for mere moments. Turned out I was missing for thirty minutes!

That time as I came around I remember feeling a violent shaking going on and I got back to his room and laid on the floor. The next thing I knew I could not feel anything in my body from the neck down!

I stayed on his floor all night! The next morning I was OK.

Like I said … that was about 23 years ago.

This thing that is … happening to me. I can tell you I do not like it, especially as afterwards it feels like someone has been performing horrible experiments on my head then played football with it!

I hope there is a way to prevent this?!

RETURN TO THE CAPITAL

I mean punishment!

In this report by the BBC, of all people, that states that child trafficking in the European Union had risen.

I am sorry but I agree with America on one thing and that is capital punishment. I might disagree with it in certain instances but this is one instant whereby absolute scum of the Earth should be eliminated.

I would not hesitate to carry this out one on one, or more, saving the government and taxpayer money. Helps against global warming by decreasing the amount of CO2 being produced!

It a win-win!

There is a small list of criminals that I would love to see exterminated as what they do shows they are the most evil and most amoral of animal scum. If the devil had people in the world doing such scum sucking things these people would be on his payroll!

Funny actually as I wonder if I might be conversing with the United Nations in the coming weeks?

Now provided they stand for what they claim they do, for the love of God let me find just one, it would be such a relief. It would also be very cool if they themselves decided I had a unique combination of skill-sets and employed me as an investigator. Going after really bad guys?

Oh how I would wallow in absolute joy doing something like that.

The resources, gadgets available to me and the ideas I would come up with would be mind-blowing, even mine, and the feeling that you would get from doing such good deeds.

To me they're is no better feeling than that of knowing you have done some good.

It boggles my mind how people can get into such degrading and heinous activities.

Unfortunately and to me they are created by a system that refuses to change and leaves too many black holes in society and turns there back on them.

Thru seem to pretend, or mute accurately deluded, that everything will just work out in the end.

I even heard about the state of prisons in the UK and they allowed the BBC News reporters into one.

This prison was an absolute joke, some were going in skint and actually coming out rich or wealthy. Judy about every drug available was freely ... well ... available! They were even smoking cannabis out in the open in full view of the reporters.

One member of staff wanted to talk about nothing else other than corruption.

See it really is everywhere you look and long as people keep buying their heads in the sand the worse each and every corrupt system gets.

To me this is selfish and add I said to another bigger recently I call this 'The Osterich Paradox'. You start to talk to help people by forewarning them and they bury their heads in the sand. In effect your talking to deaf people and nothing gets heard.

Selfish because I think like thus...

I hear of the horrid things going on and I immediately don't think of myself and think that if this continues it will get worse. It will also spread by employees going from organisation to organisation and company owner and top did learning the tricks from their friends.

I ... don't ... want ... my ... daughter ... and ... grandchildren ... to ... live ... in ... a ... world ... like ... that!

Why I think the majority see the details and go 'no-no-no-no-nooo, it's not happening. Doesn't affect me so I'm just going to ignore it.

Meanwhile over time things get worse and your younger lived ones grow up in a world like this.

Even the United Nations are currently tasked to investigate the way the British government has been testing disabled people.

Now to me do you know what I think now?

I think that every single news network and political journalist should stop speaking to almost all top tier politicians including David Cameron, George Osborne and that ex idiot, I mean PM, Tony Tory. I mean Tony Blair.

Because they have treated the most vulnerable in society like absolute shite and kept hiding it while they were obsessed with money and doing their hands into taxes forced out of us or go to jail!

Everything is upside down and backwards and they are so sure they're is no Legal rights anymore they are even in your face about it.

I've spent year telling each and every one of them that I've got recorded evidence and they don't put do much as an eyelash out of place.

Once upon a time someone with my evidence works have been bought off for a humongous amount of money.

But the one thing I pretty much knew because of their demeanour is that an offer like this would not occur. Unless maybe I hit a few million, maybe?

I still don't think it would happen, unless it's tend of millions and the 'establishment' thought the rest of the world were raising an eyebrow over the British governments and fat-cats avarice and contempt for other human beings, especially the most vulnerable.

It remains to be seen how the United Nations will act in all this? They are not my last port of call though. That comes in a few weeks and a good time as I might...just might be corresponding with the UN.

In the meantime I constantly look for signs that the good guys are winning.

Or even that the good guys are out there. Not the ones wearing rise tinted glasses, they are useless and mire or less blind along with stupid.

No prior that will tackle things most others would be weary of dealing with. I don't see enough of them. Everyone seems to be pally with each other. All cronies to one another!

I said to a friend today. From what I've learned there is no effing way is want to be a celebrity. Because done of them are, or at least were, into some pretty awful things.

You could end up dead, murdered in front of your boyfriend but at least you could go to the next world knowing he will get a great job from God studying?!

Or be a passenger in a car and end up ploughing into a stone pillar at high speed in a spot accidents never occur?

Yeesh!

Migrant crisis: Child trafficking on rise in EU - http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/world-europe-36338022

THE SEARCH

Before very long it would have been a whole four years since I started my very first blog.

It would take another year to eighteen months before the other catch up to this figure.

The whole time I was posting on this blog there were always a list of possibilities that could arise from it.

• There was the helping is someone's court case which proved much of what I said, getting the documents and publishing them on-line
• There was the possibility that I may start to generate some money through advertising, but was fed a load of crap about that in the beginning
• There was the possibility, or more inevitability, that once I had attracted enough people and made a certain number of people aware of me I would get my three books published
• That some honest organisation would come along one day and say 'Jesus! This guy did all this with no money, resources, support? What would he do if he was given a mountain of resources?! We have to have him working for us!!”
• Which all started off to try and forewarn and help as many victims or unaware about to be victims, as I could
• Plus I had no less than twelve other subject matters across other blogs and a YouTube channel also aiding in other areas, including logging WILDLIFE
• Or even a job or career is some capacity involved in the other and much lighter subjects I cover
• Someone would make an offer I could not refuse to buy one of my blogs from me

I had thought about other possibilities too.

• Re contacting the News Media but saw this as hopeless as I suspect them also
• Trying to become affiliated with some group or other

All I needed was to put in the time, effort and commitment and although I was prepared to do that I must say it has taken longer then I first thought it would. IN the beginning I thought a year at least, maybe two. Pretty soon it would have been four years.

I do feel for all the bloggers out there that were led to believe in something only to fond out it was not as it first appeared.

I had figured recently that I must now be within a year, going by numbers alone, for one of these to occur.

Well that is barrring the very first one as I seem to have been disowned and sentenced to a relative living hell I must now work towards trying to get out of with the remaining things on that list.

The really bizarre thing is thee first one taking place would have made all the other ones happen overnight, metaphorically speaking. Certainly within days or weeks which would have been just great.

As regards the being affiliated I often thought how nice it would be to be linked and meet up with some group or organisation with similar goals to my own. I even wondered about anarchy groups, though admittedly I am not sure what any of their goals are and added to this I am not sure I like the word 'anarchy' unless only applied to them by the establishment to make them appear in a bad light?

Though I genuinely believe that my healt conditions will not allow me to live much beyond another 8 years and it is a fact I have to deal with every single day.

I now know that both my father and grandmother had the same condition but whereas my grandmother was always forced to walk everywhere and a mile from a market to home with the shopping my father was not active in this way and not very fit.

As a result my grandmother died suddenly at 75 and my father at 56.

The problem is as much as I try to keep myself active and fit, with cycling and such, I have many more symptoms than either my father or grandmother showed.

When I found out I had Fibromyalgia I had long made many links to things that had happened with both my father and grandmother with their symptoms. They were both terrified of hospitals and Doctors and simply never went to any. At all except for very late on with mny grandmother when she was having serious back pains, like I have had the last few years. I have had the back pains well over a decade, possibly more than fifteen years but its been the last 5 years they have suddenly taken a nose dive into unbearable now and then.

These days I take both Tramadol and Methocarbamol just for the back pain alone.

With the help and advice I give it is not just 'look at for the feckers, they are out to get you' but I can even do money saving, though they likely never realised it, by stating that many gig electrical chain stores are now selling refurbished goods to survive. Then finding out later that at least one of them had been doing this at least as far back as 2003!

Many might have turned away, without looking at any evidence, and did a brain-dead thing and automatically think I was wrong. You would be surprised how many people think they have this automated built in wisdom that can detect the wheat from the chaff in milliseconds. I see it on-line all the time. But later might have been picking up an item from Argos or some other store … see these red and white along with clear seals over the boxes, the clear one stating 'void' in gold, and thinking 'hang on a minute? This is faulty and I remember this guy talking about watching out for some suspect void seals on the boxes? What gives?!' Then probably cannot remember the web address of my blog? Lol.

DOH!!

Of course the blogs and YouTube channel can become useful in other little ways too, like in a big arguments as is about to occur over the coming months?

I said the other day to friends who remembered that I thought I was filmed recently and not once but a couple of times. I do not care. I also recalled about how a GP who suddenly left for pastures new, only recently asked me if I was recording our appointments?

I reminded them that I said I thought something was coming my way over the next couple of months from the DWP and two mornings ago it arrived.

Some probably came here for the first time, read it and thought I got lucky.

Well … I get bloody lucky a hell of a lot.

Annoyingly this is never in the things that matter.

I used to think I had bad luck attached top me and my grandmother thought it was preposterous until a day I will never forget when yet another things happened to me and she looked at me and said “You know I think your right? How do so many bad things happen to you?”

Yet when it comes to me deductions I am very rarely wrong.

I used to do good and picking out the names of both horses and greyhounds in races that would win.

A friend asked me to do it one day to show a friend of his in a bookmakers. The man's eyes went wide with wonder and a big smile on his face and he said … “LETS PUT ALL OUR MONEY ON THE NEXT FEW RACES!”

My mate turned to him and said “Naaah. As soon as he puts money on it or I put money on a name he picks out it never wins! It is bloody weird!”

So in other words whenever it is anything that is beneficial to me personally it never works out but I thought that my blogs were the one thing that I could control that would? I would just have to be bloody patient. I am beginning to realise I might need the patience of a saint?!

With eight years to go?!

I just hope those eight years are not sitting around watching this country and others tell more lies, ever more corruption being revealed and actually start turning the corner for the better.

But familiarity breeds content.

I even thought about joining a club or even doing a course somewhere? Though feck knows how I would get there and cope with my personal life while doing anything?

I would definitely require certain … support and tools.

PLEASE ENTER DOORS NUMBER THREE & FOUR

Well this little letter about disability assessment just gets stranger and stranger.

I had en email from Atos yesterday who were quick to tell me that they had already contacted the DWP with their report and gave the dates. I had assumed they had realised they had made a mistake and sent something back to the DWP. Until I looked at the dates they contacted the DWP which was over a year previous?!

HUH?!

In other words ... it was not them!

Do you know what this means?

It means that there are now, and I should state at this point 'minimum', of three, count them, three organisations assessing disabled people!

Now as a taxpayer ... just stop and think about that for a moment.

• Only a small percentage of the populace are disabled
• A large percentage of those are incurable and progressive
• Everyone has a Doctor I have proved a large percentage lie
• First port of call ... ask for a Doctors letter

So why are there no less than three organisations set up to assess disabled people when all you need is a Doctor? A genuine Doctor who is not a liar nor an idiot. Well that is if your an assessor organisation that is not asking Doctors to provide fake documents or having someone else get them to do this for you?

Also do not forget it was already reported in the news media what seems like a bloody long time ago that these assessors are getting paid £900 per day!

So on the letter it states the 'Centre For Health And Disability Assessments'.

Now I had one person try to make excuses for why this is happening like 'Oh maybe noww they have changed it they assess you once a year'? *GROAN*

People simply do not think before opening the flood gates.

• Incurable & Progressive condition
• It's not a YEAR, it is in fact around 16 months

Just two off the top of my head but here is another two ...

• Yet again why ask a disabled person to travel several miles and ...
• Why not ask your Doctor first or request a Doctors letter?!

If they suddenly out of the blue ask you to go a long way you know there are corrupt, dishonest and up to no good before the traps are even open. They asked someone I know to go to Chelmsford from Hackney! I told them not to bother but they were sure they would get it. They didn't.

The Russians are only one level below us in their remarks about disabled people.

I would rather have been gassed to death by the Nazis when my condition was first realised than go through all this shit, pain, nausea, passing out, sickness irritable symptoms lack of sleep and everything else that comes with the crap I have to live with every single day of the rest of my life.

Oh before I post the link to the contacts page for them here is an interesting letter whereby an investigation by the United Nations, no less, into the way that the disabled people are treated by the UK in The Guardian newspaper! Now recall I said recently I have had flashbacks to 1939? DO not ask me why, lol

http://www.theguardian.com/society/2015/oct/20/un-inquiry-uk-disability-rights-violations-cprd-welfare-cuts

Oooh a report does not come out until NEXT YEAR? Hey, UN?! Save more taxpayers money, I already did it!

I am sending them an email about my blogs! Done! It says on their site 'It's your world' which is funny as my world is pretty crap! Lol.

I decided to contact the UNITED NATIONS no less, a different department providing more detail and see what I get from them?

I am sure I contacted a body in Europe to do with Human Right? But it was a long time ago now and may have even been before I started blogging. I simply do not remember.

So I did a little Google search and I found this website and email address ...

https://www.chdauk.co.uk/contact-us

Now I have sent them an email and I am getting somewhat annoyed that I was faced with putting details about myself that could be a security threat into t third successive email to contact them about one fecking letter!

So I didn't ...

EMAIL ..

customer-relations@chdauk.co.uk

Dear Sirs

Firstly who are you? 

I have rather surprisingly been sent an appointment letter for an assessment that is so obviously another ploy to cheat me and others out of help and support for disability, please do not insult my intelligence over this...

I have already contacted Capita and ripped them a new one, only they phoned me and told me the letter was nothing to do with them and I would have to contact Atos?!

Atos who I thought were gone, through my own endeavours no less, as they said in the media they had gone and Nick DeBois MP told me to my face that ‘they’, the Tory Party, found out what they were up to and ‘got rid of them’. Until I pointed out who I was, what I have done and what I was currently doing. That was around a year ago.

So you can imagine that the very idea of shaking up the welfare system to save money and be fairer is nothing of the kind as it is based on cheating, lies and on top of that I then find out that there are not one but TWO organisations paid for by the British taxpayer with many employees, not Doctors or struck off Doctors ergo NOT Doctors, being paid £900 per day, was a bloody shock!

But then I get an email from Atos stating “It was not use that sent you the letter”?

So now reeling from the possibility that there are now THREE organisations I have found your website and asking you.

When you find my details, as I am getting a little worried about sending my national insurance number out to a whole stream of untrustworthy organisations, please note that if you want to assess me you need to visit my home to do so.

Yours

EMAIL TO UNITED NATIONS ...

Dear Sirs

I really am tired of writing this stuff over and over again. Now I am contacting you after reading about an investigation about the way that the UK is treating disabled people due to welfare cuts.

I am afraid to say I have already done this job for you.

It is also far worse than the title of your investigation suggests.

• The NHS get Doctors to lie on medical records
• The safety net is the letters are burned if asked for by victim or legal people
• This allows NHS, DWP and Local Councils to save money
• They falsify test results
• Falsify medical notes
• Know what you actually have wrong with you for at least two years without telling you!

Now I would suggest at this point you are looking at this in disbelief?

Probably thinking, if your actually an genuine organisation and not as corrupt as those I have dealt with, it cannot possibly be true?

That I am crazy or suffering with mental health issues, well not according to the NHS themselves but ...

Not only can I prove everything I say with 100GB plus of data, including many dozens of secretly recorded audio, but I have published enough of it on my blogs to make it not only incontrovertible but out of 330,000 visitors I have had in only 3.7 years I have not had one single comment about being wrong or being mad.

I have had many comments of thanks from many and even one from a man of the cloth!

I have two blogs, one backing up the other in case I got closed down by the British government ...

•  asaintcalledallnights.blogspot.com (or .co.uk as both work)
•  BLEEEEP! LOL

Also what is most troubling is the state of human rights in the UK and the British justice system.

I have been through every process imaginable and contacted everyone imaginable.

From News networks to Ombudsman personal injury organisations and solicitors direct. Not one has been interested but fell prey to a little trick of mine because I 100% of those I have been in contact with have been corrupt.

They failed to do a single thing but most importantly I believe they are all faked to fool the public into thinking their is a safety net because ...

·         Not a single organisation anywhere has asked me to send them the EVIDENCE

·         I never told any of them about the blogs

Have I provided plenty of food for thought to keep you fed for the next 12 months or so before you get around to finish your investigations?

Yours faithfully

Martin Haswell BSc