THE WAIT

I have been walking around aimlessly.

I got wind that someone I know is in hospital and fro someone sobbing on the phone.

God I knew something like this was going to happen and I tried to stop it in several ways, even set up a crowd-funding thing months ago.

Their battery died too so I do not know what has happened .. but I have a theory and it is something I predicted many months ago.

Anything happens I can assure you if I am right then it is as a direct result of the UK government and public services and their lies and neglect.

I might have to email someone I have been holding off over for weeks if anything bad has happened and I have only held back because I know everything I do is .. monitored.

I simply do not want them to get a hold of our contact so that they can run around and bury their lies and murdering ways.

Ah! The boy is OK and it was convulsive fit and vomiting which are?

Symptoms of Hypomagnesemia!

Which if proven to be the case now affects five generations ..

• My grandmother
• My Father
• ME
• My Daughter
• Two Grandchildren it now looks like?
• Though this is somewhat alarming to me now
• Them being so young and all

As this condition also causes heart, kidney, liver disease, osteoporosis, cardiac arrest and heart palpitations and arrhythmia among other things .. this has serious connotations.

Low magnesium will deplete your calcium, hence osteopenia and osteoporosis, and your potassium, hence Sudden Death Syndrome.

You see it was missed in me and is genetic and even when they did they failed to tell me of the dangers, link previous symptoms and symptoms that have arisen since the diagnosis and of course .. tell me it is genetic so that I might tell me daughter. Who could then keep an eye on her own children.

They also missed it with her and when diagnosed what did they not do? All the same things with me and now we have had a chat .. I have told her what they did not .. AGAIN!

Because two things that low magnesium causes as well are vomiting and seizures .. just like the hundreds, not an exaggeration I assure you, of seizures I have had for over twenty years.

My very, very first bad seizure took place at a friends house a little after the mother of my daughter left me to go and live in Birkenhead.

She left me 23.5 years ago give or take.

I had already been having them and that was the worst one and yes I saw my GP of the time about it .. a Dr Tennekoon.

Twenty five years later and not only have they never sorted this out for me .. it is now affecting my own daughter and my grandchildren.

Yeah .. nice to see what all your tax money is doing for all those salaries for all those years when I could have been fit, healthy and had a career all my life?!

OLD NOTIONS

I wish I could step into the distant future.

A time where society as a whole had woken up and stiff and stupid laws have changed.

Laws that they claim are to protect us but which at times only serve groups that have old fashioned and outdated notions that are not just wrong but have been proved to be so over and over and over again.

How is there even a legal fight of any kind to be allowed to stop someone's pain or suffering?! Just how the fucking hell do we get into a situation where the law on something serves absolutely no other purpose than to cause suffering?!

Then you have to look into just how long this has been in place. Then how long it will stay in place. Then consider just how many people have suffered agonising symptoms, shaking, pain and other ailments in all the years this blind incompetence has gone on?!

I only see two words pop up in my mind when stupid laws exist that cause suffering ..

Money from fear of lack or decreased work and/or difficult to tax and ..

Religion .. because some fucking outdated notion that something is linked to a non existent figure, red with horns, living in a fiery pit.

Really?! No .. fucking REALLY?!

You have to consider that among those suffering will be old people and .. CHILDREN.

Here is another example of a complete waste of time and money that was completely unsuccessful in getting a bunch of overpaid people who are leeching off the taxpayers to uphold the rules that serve no one. A ridiculous example where the answer was to pop across the English Channel with their son and administer a drug for a rare condition that proved successful.

I mentioned that one possibility of this stupid law is saving money or over money? Well .. read this ..

This child was experiencing 3,000 seizures in a single year and 48 of these resulted in a hospital visit!

Despite this condition and form of epilepsy being rare .. very rare, with only six cases worldwide, many conditions exist that cause shaking and convulsions.

Now think about that. How many people that have trembling or shaking to deal with? How many with convulsions? Epileptics? Parkinson's? How many other conditions? How many affected within the UK?

But all of these have to suffer because of difficulty introducing taxes or an action being linked to the devil's work?!

Fucking REALLY?!

Good God how I would love to live in a country where it's not predominantly made to of a populace that are secretly amoral, mostly naive and the rest sit on their arses and do nothing. A country where they are not mostly right wing in all the wrong areas and the wrong reasoning .. to keep to the appearance that they are left wing. Helping one or more groups at the expense of another.

The drug is not even the one that I'm not allowed, which is Sodium oxybate which is not allowed anywhere in Europe. Nope .. we are talking, of course, of Cannabis.

Who was it that denied this child the only drugs, out of the tens of thousands of drugs they make billions on, that worked?

Why that would be the Home Office of course and giving the umpteenth example of a complete mockery of the law and the government and a complete waste of taxpayers money while letting down those they were tasked to protect.

God, I hate this country at times.

I am sure if you complained they would answer ..

"No but that's the way that it is"

No, that is a bloody mess and the way that you constantly leave it in.

I saw this on the BBC and thought you should see it: Home Office denies medical cannabis pleas for boy age six - http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/uk-england-coventry-warwickshire-43101716

THE COMING TO TERMS

I have spent the last several hours forgetting what took place this afternoon, then remembering and then being shocked ask over again.

I am simply stunned I had a grand mal seizure.

I shouldn't be, or at least not as shocked as I am. I knew it was heading for something. They seemed to be getting stronger every now and then and I collapsed completely a couple of times recently.

When I say that I mean collapsing completely to the floor, not against a shelf or magazine rack and holding on for dear life as is normally the case and has been for a number of years now.

It keeps flashing through my mind how weirded out I was at finding myself lying on the floor. On my left side I think. I only remember feeling like I was being violently shaken but in an involuntary movement kind of way and sitting upright and staggering into my knees.

As far as I can find the postural hypertension I was diagnosed with does not come up as a cause for seizures. Many things do and unfortunately many are fatal.

Many of the ones that aren't fatal can easily be ruled out, bit leaving the prognosis looking too clever.

Well I did state several times that I don't think I would make it to the age my father did at 56.

To think, I thought enough people would realise the truths hidden in this blog, tell family and friends about it who would do the same and I'd get to have a private Doctor look at me before the NHS killed me?

Fat chance.

Was not that long ago I told a friend it looks like I have diverticulitis and he said that, that , could kill me.

Oddly one of the not so nice possible causes does state fogginess of the brain and more importantly, gut problems.

I had settled in diverticulitis because it was obvious that bacteria was involved each time I had a fourteen hour dose from hell. Unless the guy problems listed for the condition I saw involved bacteria?

Seems funny really waiting eight days to see a Doctor over things that have a 50/50 chance of being the worst kind of news! Lol.

A friend of mine said I am not eating enough. He says that for everything that ever happens. I'm sure fit some bizarre reasons he wants me to get fat?

Except I have spent twenty plus years not eating breakfast and I had a banana and a couple of Jaffa cakes with milk this morning.

So it's not lack of food not is it low blood sugar.

EDIT: I also forgot to put in the very thing I forgot to mention in the previous post. I had scraped my arm in one place and a scratch on the opposite side of my forearm. So I deduced that as I fell my arm went through the wire of the fence. 

I also felt a stinging in the back of my leg and after a few minutes a stinging feeling also on my forearm and later realised I had landed in a load of stinging nettles.

It is only now I am wondering what would happen if someone had a fit and fell into a she load of stinging nettles?! Ouch!

END EDIT

I had forgotten until I see the BBC News below that along with getting several movies and several photographs of some of the British wildlife I saw a very large wasp while I was out.

It was so large it had to be a Hornet but not one over seen before and certainly not anywhere around here. Whereas Hornets are slightly hairy this had a smooth abdomen just like your average wasp. It was almost exactly the same colour as the average wasp. Just over twice the size.

It flew down into some grass right in front of me. I tried to tease it out with a stick to film it but no joy. It must have had a burrow in the soil to not come out when teased?

Are 'killer' Asian hornets on their way to the UK? - http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/science-environment-36349379