THE SEARCH

Before very long it would have been a whole four years since I started my very first blog.

It would take another year to eighteen months before the other catch up to this figure.

The whole time I was posting on this blog there were always a list of possibilities that could arise from it.

• There was the helping is someone's court case which proved much of what I said, getting the documents and publishing them on-line
• There was the possibility that I may start to generate some money through advertising, but was fed a load of crap about that in the beginning
• There was the possibility, or more inevitability, that once I had attracted enough people and made a certain number of people aware of me I would get my three books published
• That some honest organisation would come along one day and say 'Jesus! This guy did all this with no money, resources, support? What would he do if he was given a mountain of resources?! We have to have him working for us!!”
• Which all started off to try and forewarn and help as many victims or unaware about to be victims, as I could
• Plus I had no less than twelve other subject matters across other blogs and a YouTube channel also aiding in other areas, including logging WILDLIFE
• Or even a job or career is some capacity involved in the other and much lighter subjects I cover
• Someone would make an offer I could not refuse to buy one of my blogs from me

I had thought about other possibilities too.

• Re contacting the News Media but saw this as hopeless as I suspect them also
• Trying to become affiliated with some group or other

All I needed was to put in the time, effort and commitment and although I was prepared to do that I must say it has taken longer then I first thought it would. IN the beginning I thought a year at least, maybe two. Pretty soon it would have been four years.

I do feel for all the bloggers out there that were led to believe in something only to fond out it was not as it first appeared.

I had figured recently that I must now be within a year, going by numbers alone, for one of these to occur.

Well that is barrring the very first one as I seem to have been disowned and sentenced to a relative living hell I must now work towards trying to get out of with the remaining things on that list.

The really bizarre thing is thee first one taking place would have made all the other ones happen overnight, metaphorically speaking. Certainly within days or weeks which would have been just great.

As regards the being affiliated I often thought how nice it would be to be linked and meet up with some group or organisation with similar goals to my own. I even wondered about anarchy groups, though admittedly I am not sure what any of their goals are and added to this I am not sure I like the word 'anarchy' unless only applied to them by the establishment to make them appear in a bad light?

Though I genuinely believe that my healt conditions will not allow me to live much beyond another 8 years and it is a fact I have to deal with every single day.

I now know that both my father and grandmother had the same condition but whereas my grandmother was always forced to walk everywhere and a mile from a market to home with the shopping my father was not active in this way and not very fit.

As a result my grandmother died suddenly at 75 and my father at 56.

The problem is as much as I try to keep myself active and fit, with cycling and such, I have many more symptoms than either my father or grandmother showed.

When I found out I had Fibromyalgia I had long made many links to things that had happened with both my father and grandmother with their symptoms. They were both terrified of hospitals and Doctors and simply never went to any. At all except for very late on with mny grandmother when she was having serious back pains, like I have had the last few years. I have had the back pains well over a decade, possibly more than fifteen years but its been the last 5 years they have suddenly taken a nose dive into unbearable now and then.

These days I take both Tramadol and Methocarbamol just for the back pain alone.

With the help and advice I give it is not just 'look at for the feckers, they are out to get you' but I can even do money saving, though they likely never realised it, by stating that many gig electrical chain stores are now selling refurbished goods to survive. Then finding out later that at least one of them had been doing this at least as far back as 2003!

Many might have turned away, without looking at any evidence, and did a brain-dead thing and automatically think I was wrong. You would be surprised how many people think they have this automated built in wisdom that can detect the wheat from the chaff in milliseconds. I see it on-line all the time. But later might have been picking up an item from Argos or some other store … see these red and white along with clear seals over the boxes, the clear one stating 'void' in gold, and thinking 'hang on a minute? This is faulty and I remember this guy talking about watching out for some suspect void seals on the boxes? What gives?!' Then probably cannot remember the web address of my blog? Lol.

DOH!!

Of course the blogs and YouTube channel can become useful in other little ways too, like in a big arguments as is about to occur over the coming months?

I said the other day to friends who remembered that I thought I was filmed recently and not once but a couple of times. I do not care. I also recalled about how a GP who suddenly left for pastures new, only recently asked me if I was recording our appointments?

I reminded them that I said I thought something was coming my way over the next couple of months from the DWP and two mornings ago it arrived.

Some probably came here for the first time, read it and thought I got lucky.

Well … I get bloody lucky a hell of a lot.

Annoyingly this is never in the things that matter.

I used to think I had bad luck attached top me and my grandmother thought it was preposterous until a day I will never forget when yet another things happened to me and she looked at me and said “You know I think your right? How do so many bad things happen to you?”

Yet when it comes to me deductions I am very rarely wrong.

I used to do good and picking out the names of both horses and greyhounds in races that would win.

A friend asked me to do it one day to show a friend of his in a bookmakers. The man's eyes went wide with wonder and a big smile on his face and he said … “LETS PUT ALL OUR MONEY ON THE NEXT FEW RACES!”

My mate turned to him and said “Naaah. As soon as he puts money on it or I put money on a name he picks out it never wins! It is bloody weird!”

So in other words whenever it is anything that is beneficial to me personally it never works out but I thought that my blogs were the one thing that I could control that would? I would just have to be bloody patient. I am beginning to realise I might need the patience of a saint?!

With eight years to go?!

I just hope those eight years are not sitting around watching this country and others tell more lies, ever more corruption being revealed and actually start turning the corner for the better.

But familiarity breeds content.

I even thought about joining a club or even doing a course somewhere? Though feck knows how I would get there and cope with my personal life while doing anything?

I would definitely require certain … support and tools.

THE NURSING OF AN AUTHOR

Its if funny how things go sometimes.

This is the first time in a few weeks I have typed out a post as I am doing now! It is the way I prefer but seem to have trouble getting around to doing. I am on my laptop which I have not spent an evening on for a week or two and each time I have not gotten around to posting on a few of my blogs though the material is there?!

Most of my blogs of late have been done on my iPhone 4S which is linked to my faulty Motorola as I can now do much of my typing without want to smash the faulty Motorola provided to me by Very to smithereens! Cool!

Now there is a local lady I know that used to be a nurse and she is a regular customer in my friends store. Her daughter was on the some drug as me, Gabapentin, and just like me it started off very good and then rapidly went down hill after a couple of months. Even right now I am feeling ill and this is down to the drug, though I have dropped the dosage now from 900mg to just one 300mg pill before I go out! But it STILL makes me ill and light headed. Angry about the fact they gave it to me KNOWING that I cycle is an understatement. The lady I refer to I know not her name but would not state her real name here anyway. After a chat where I told her what I had experienced and what I had collected she asked for this blogs address along with a couple of others. Of course I provided her with it and thought how interesting it would be over time to have someone who was previously a nurse study what I have here?

That was a few months back now.

Several days back I was outside my friends shop talking to another mutual friend I will call Jeremiah. He was asking me my opinion on the purchase of one of two types of snakes and I was giving him my opinion. The nurse I refer to had entered the store without me noticing and on her exiting she suddenly said...

“I was just telling your mate who owns the shop that YOU should definitely write a book!!”

I thanked her for saying it and off she went. But then as I stood there smiling that someone had suggested that I should, for the umpteenth time, I turned to Jeremiah and said “Oh hang on...a book about what?! She asked for at least THREE of my blogs and may have been more? Orchids, exotic animals, British Wildlife and the Corruption one! Well that is four and she did not mention which subject!”

LMAO!

When Jeremiah had finished his cigarette we re-entered the store and I asked Steve what she said and which subject she was referring to and he smiled and said “CORRUPTION!” and I said “Did you not tell her I had already written TWO?!”

It is nice when someone suggests that thought not quite as easy as it seems! Many that have known me previously and including those that urged me to do what I do originally suggested I wrote a book on the subjects I know. Corruption being one. Well I did so and previous to starting them along with during and AFTER writing them every now and then it was suggested that I write them. There were one or two that found out I was writing them and said “Why are you doing that? Who is going to be interested in that?” I always answered that for every one that thinks it was pointless there were ten that suggested that I do it so that they were in the minority!

Quite bizarrely it turned out that Literary Agents seem to agree with the negative people and I have NOT approached a single Literary Agent since I stared my blogs. NOT ONE! Also I might add that the people that were negative towards the books are not any more. In fact they peruse this blog gleaning it for information and to keep a track on what I am doing. There may even be those that keep a check just in case I suddenly decide to approach Literary Agents and something comes off? Or maybe they think I might suddenly get media attention?! Who knows? I myself do not really think about it all that much.

Though lately and every now and then I do ponder the approach of Literary Agents but I do not like what the industry has become and nor do I like the attitudes of Literary Agents as in my experience most of them are not too bright and suffer delusions of grandeur.

To show this as an example the majority of people think I should be published except for those that suffer the dreaded green envy!! What these have not realised is that saying one thing is great but if you keep saying it then the day you are proved wrong you are going to look the fool and only have yourself to blame. Not that I care that much, lol.

No my plan was that with the blogs all manner of people with all kinds of careers on all different levels would come here. Eventually those that I have been unsuccessful in hiring would then approach me. This stops me wasting MY TIME with people that are not going to bother reading that much before the manuscript I took time to spell-check, money to print out and send just has the first few lines read and then ends up on the slush pile as they want the next Harry Potter?!

I also know that the publishing houses, or at least the reputable ones, do not want clones of what has been done but want the next NEW THING. While literary agents only see dollar signs and want the clones hoping to get even a tenth of the cash J.K. Rowling made for her agents!

In the meantime I will just potter about and continue to ponder all that I witness and whether I would decide to approach these agents at some point in time?