THE SEARCH

Before very long it would have been a whole four years since I started my very first blog.

It would take another year to eighteen months before the other catch up to this figure.

The whole time I was posting on this blog there were always a list of possibilities that could arise from it.

• There was the helping is someone's court case which proved much of what I said, getting the documents and publishing them on-line
• There was the possibility that I may start to generate some money through advertising, but was fed a load of crap about that in the beginning
• There was the possibility, or more inevitability, that once I had attracted enough people and made a certain number of people aware of me I would get my three books published
• That some honest organisation would come along one day and say 'Jesus! This guy did all this with no money, resources, support? What would he do if he was given a mountain of resources?! We have to have him working for us!!”
• Which all started off to try and forewarn and help as many victims or unaware about to be victims, as I could
• Plus I had no less than twelve other subject matters across other blogs and a YouTube channel also aiding in other areas, including logging WILDLIFE
• Or even a job or career is some capacity involved in the other and much lighter subjects I cover
• Someone would make an offer I could not refuse to buy one of my blogs from me

I had thought about other possibilities too.

• Re contacting the News Media but saw this as hopeless as I suspect them also
• Trying to become affiliated with some group or other

All I needed was to put in the time, effort and commitment and although I was prepared to do that I must say it has taken longer then I first thought it would. IN the beginning I thought a year at least, maybe two. Pretty soon it would have been four years.

I do feel for all the bloggers out there that were led to believe in something only to fond out it was not as it first appeared.

I had figured recently that I must now be within a year, going by numbers alone, for one of these to occur.

Well that is barrring the very first one as I seem to have been disowned and sentenced to a relative living hell I must now work towards trying to get out of with the remaining things on that list.

The really bizarre thing is thee first one taking place would have made all the other ones happen overnight, metaphorically speaking. Certainly within days or weeks which would have been just great.

As regards the being affiliated I often thought how nice it would be to be linked and meet up with some group or organisation with similar goals to my own. I even wondered about anarchy groups, though admittedly I am not sure what any of their goals are and added to this I am not sure I like the word 'anarchy' unless only applied to them by the establishment to make them appear in a bad light?

Though I genuinely believe that my healt conditions will not allow me to live much beyond another 8 years and it is a fact I have to deal with every single day.

I now know that both my father and grandmother had the same condition but whereas my grandmother was always forced to walk everywhere and a mile from a market to home with the shopping my father was not active in this way and not very fit.

As a result my grandmother died suddenly at 75 and my father at 56.

The problem is as much as I try to keep myself active and fit, with cycling and such, I have many more symptoms than either my father or grandmother showed.

When I found out I had Fibromyalgia I had long made many links to things that had happened with both my father and grandmother with their symptoms. They were both terrified of hospitals and Doctors and simply never went to any. At all except for very late on with mny grandmother when she was having serious back pains, like I have had the last few years. I have had the back pains well over a decade, possibly more than fifteen years but its been the last 5 years they have suddenly taken a nose dive into unbearable now and then.

These days I take both Tramadol and Methocarbamol just for the back pain alone.

With the help and advice I give it is not just 'look at for the feckers, they are out to get you' but I can even do money saving, though they likely never realised it, by stating that many gig electrical chain stores are now selling refurbished goods to survive. Then finding out later that at least one of them had been doing this at least as far back as 2003!

Many might have turned away, without looking at any evidence, and did a brain-dead thing and automatically think I was wrong. You would be surprised how many people think they have this automated built in wisdom that can detect the wheat from the chaff in milliseconds. I see it on-line all the time. But later might have been picking up an item from Argos or some other store … see these red and white along with clear seals over the boxes, the clear one stating 'void' in gold, and thinking 'hang on a minute? This is faulty and I remember this guy talking about watching out for some suspect void seals on the boxes? What gives?!' Then probably cannot remember the web address of my blog? Lol.

DOH!!

Of course the blogs and YouTube channel can become useful in other little ways too, like in a big arguments as is about to occur over the coming months?

I said the other day to friends who remembered that I thought I was filmed recently and not once but a couple of times. I do not care. I also recalled about how a GP who suddenly left for pastures new, only recently asked me if I was recording our appointments?

I reminded them that I said I thought something was coming my way over the next couple of months from the DWP and two mornings ago it arrived.

Some probably came here for the first time, read it and thought I got lucky.

Well … I get bloody lucky a hell of a lot.

Annoyingly this is never in the things that matter.

I used to think I had bad luck attached top me and my grandmother thought it was preposterous until a day I will never forget when yet another things happened to me and she looked at me and said “You know I think your right? How do so many bad things happen to you?”

Yet when it comes to me deductions I am very rarely wrong.

I used to do good and picking out the names of both horses and greyhounds in races that would win.

A friend asked me to do it one day to show a friend of his in a bookmakers. The man's eyes went wide with wonder and a big smile on his face and he said … “LETS PUT ALL OUR MONEY ON THE NEXT FEW RACES!”

My mate turned to him and said “Naaah. As soon as he puts money on it or I put money on a name he picks out it never wins! It is bloody weird!”

So in other words whenever it is anything that is beneficial to me personally it never works out but I thought that my blogs were the one thing that I could control that would? I would just have to be bloody patient. I am beginning to realise I might need the patience of a saint?!

With eight years to go?!

I just hope those eight years are not sitting around watching this country and others tell more lies, ever more corruption being revealed and actually start turning the corner for the better.

But familiarity breeds content.

I even thought about joining a club or even doing a course somewhere? Though feck knows how I would get there and cope with my personal life while doing anything?

I would definitely require certain … support and tools.

LITERALLY THE LITERARY

There have been a few things I have been waiting for a long, long time to start.

This one was waiting for my to take a trip out of town for a month or two. That kept getting delay after delay and now is not happening at all. So there is something that is not occurring along with this endeavour but there is some hope that it will within a matter of weeks.

However I will still not be out of town.

Now I will follow this up with updates as things progress, or go sideways or go backwards and likely the last two, which is why I am posting this endeavour up.

I have absolutely no doubt that there will be hoards of people that will feel some emotion or other like familiarity, recalling disappointment and confusion. I know because I had this before.

When I did this last time, four years back, things were confusing.

If you have not worked it out by now I o not like confusing and I do not like being left in the dark, I tend to get really miffed bout it. Lol.

So what I decided to do, without the other things taking place or occurring ... well not to my knowledge and not yet, I typed up a report regarding everything I do, everything I have done, all my blogs and all my subjects.

Of course this is primarily about all my data and the corruption.

I decided to test the water and sent off a wave of letters, less than half a dozen I think.

I then decided to send of s second wave of around eight or more and then filmed the envelopes upside down, in the video below, and then post about what I was about to do. Sort of an analysis and a piss take of those that think themselves a cut above those that go cap in hand to them.

Yeaahh they are not going to like it.

But they will only have themselves to blame.

Well some are not going to like it.

Now what riled me previously was this same thing I get ion a lot of professional industries, even below that of the professionals themselves, of this attitude that there way is the only way to do things, should be obvious, attitude that everyone does it the same way.

The problem with this attitude? All three attitudes are completely and utterly wrong and everyone that has contacted more than one literary agent will know that even font types, sizes, line spacing and even which chapters they want will differ from one agent or agency to the next.

Morons.

Well ... morons, if they have that attitude and more so when they are patronizing.

Now for me literary agents started to pop up because publishers become too big for their boots and I remember being totally confused that you would not speak to the publishers directly as an author. How effing insane that is.

It appeared to me when I become embroiled in this that the agencies were becoming too big for their own boots and I wondered how many years away we were before Literary Agents Agents started popping up? Literary Agents Agents Agents, anyone?

If I wanted to buy an Aston Martin I would not say, 'No I do not want to deal with you, can you end the car over to a Ford showroom and I will buy it from them?' LOL! Or vice-versa.

Although I expected to report a particular thing I did not expect it to happen so soon and I expected only to report in in part two ...

But what with a six page report and a three page letter there is no way that anyone could answer what I sent off already, which is one reason I like to do things in waves. But they have.

Meaning?

They did not read the included report and certainly failed to visit a single blog that I provided them?

This literary agency also stated it was not a subject they do, which is quite bizarre because all the agencies I have on my list were specifically picked out because they publish non-fiction.

Remember my subjects? Corruption, Amphibians, Reptiles, Fish, Computer Science, Astronomy, Self Help, Orchids, Photography, Music and films among other things.

So along with sending a reply far too quickly, that is idiotic Bell Lomax, I also od not fit into their non-fiction criteria and they never bothered to look at a single blog?

How do these people make money?

Actually as I typed that I wondered if things with one companies might be some sort of tax front? It is inconceivable that someone that not only has my broad spectrum of knowledge, done all this with my blog and still going would be dismissed so quick by so called literary professionals?

Maybe some people just make a living only acting as agents for mimicry authors that take something that ha made tens of millions, like Harry Potter, and settle for a tiny percentage of that with each publication?

There is a whole bloody library or hugely popular things and it turns my stomach when I see people mimic other things and even in the title ... I simply want to throw up.

I saw the title "Fifty Shades Of Black" somewhere the other day and was like "WHAT?! REALLY?!"

Someone said to me the other day how hard it is to get published and I said "You ever been in a bookshop or library? How many things do you walk straight past? How many really crap books get published?" he said "Yeah, that's true!"

I do not right crap! Or lies of fabrication!

I said from the beginning this blog was a series of traps.

I also mentioned several times throughout that some of the industries would not be dealt with until the end. The other one has been falling into said traps all along and like everything else, because for some reason people do not believe or act upon one single thing alone, I had to do this and keep doing it year after bloody year until I had enough to make things incontrovertible.

If people could be bothered to look.

Which is kind of ironic if they do not because it is one giant self help book regarding almost everything! LMAO!

This Roccat Ryos MK Pro professional keyboard I have because PC Worel (there)sold me a refurbished and badly dammaged (there) (Solid aluminium plate) Corsair Vengeance K70 Keyboad. For the past month this Roccat has being missing keystrokes, adding keystrokes and drivingg (there) me up the effing wall.

You cannot even buy professional stuff without getting crap!

NOT FORGOTTEN

What does one do when faced with a corner?

There is only one thing that any living thing would do when faced and forced into a corner of any kind...come out fighting.

I ponder many things most of the hours one would be awake.

There are times when the bridge before you is burning in flames. The heat and tips f the flames lapping at your ankles, set alight out of blind stupidity and stubbornness.

But once the ashes fall away rebuilding the bridge can take some extreme effort and other times left completely beyond repair.

Often this involves a date or a key event on the annual calender of life.

Somebody close to me recently stated that playing games with me is a complete waste of time because you cannot win. It is true enough but I am not, despite my outward appearance, always impervious. Just impervious to many.

Sometimes you can walk among the ashes while your feet burn and you have to ask yourself that one and often insolvable question. Why?

I may well be approaching a point when I ask myself 'why' of my own endeavours and efforts?

The one person that had kept me going throughout and for many years has been … evasive, secretive and incommunicado.

If I cannot trust them they join a long list of people I cannot trust. Which will lead me, inevitably to the question of if there is anyone worth saving or helping?

So why should I continue?

It is a question I do not want to ask myself. It is a question I never thought I would ask myself. On the night of Christmas Eve it will be the most primary question in my mind.

What did I do it all for?

There are times when things get you down. There is only so much you can take on board in a given period of time. Then the weight of everything can get too much.

The one thing I have always managed to work without is things or events to be uplifting. Something that shows you that your cause is worthy or that there are plenty of people worthy of your sacrifices.

I have had a few minor moments. Too few and far between I am afraid to say.

Currently I am endeavouring to acquire that elsewhere.

I am contacting literary agents. I have contacted a number of them by now and I have had a little positive feedback which is far more than I had gotten four years back.

I ask myself if the readers of my letters will see what it is I am trying to do, who and how many I am trying to help and become a part of this?

Now that would be uplifting.

I wrote two books and have a third to start up and work through but sometimes, like right now, I wonder if I have the energy to do this?

I am not a bad actor in Hollywood, nor kicking a bag of wind around or fighting others for it or smiling away in some glamour magazine or dirt digging journalist in a gossip column.

Yet these command big salaries as does looking the fool on TV.

I lived a life of pain and confusion, realised some things were rotten to the core and decided to research them. Only to find that everything was rotten to the core everywhere I looked and far worse than even I first thought.

I then thought about all of the victims out there whose lives have been destroyed and even ended by this dark side to the British nation while floods of others come here to make things even worse than they are.

I realised that almost all others will not be aware of how bad things are and in how many places and that those that do concentrate on one particular aspect and are blind to all the others.

I was well aware that as things stood things would only continue to spiral downhill.

I seemed to be the only one that was aware of the vast extent of how bad things were and had predicted many things for a very, very long time.

I simply wanted to do something about it.

I wanted to change things.

I wanted to change a country, a whole country and then maybe, just maybe, the world … one country at a time. I would never have lived long enough to see that.

Though some will never be changed and remain a diseased wart on the face of the world while idiots continue to pander to them because they are convinced they will. Until they are wiped out. I see this but cannot do anything about it. I can just give my opinions and sometimes am harsh, to give an idea of how many are feeling.

That, I confess, is deliberate. I have said and repeated many times that actions speak louder than words and I could only ever be judged by my actions. Not my words.

So I played on that. To sound extreme. To get noticed and stir feelings and emotions as I thought that would get people talking. Talking about this blog. Talking about me.

I would say things in anger as I would post about them while I was angry about something … again quite deliberately. That was how I played it.

The ultimate and real truth was always kept back and would be revealed when I thought it was necessary to do so.

I am losing count of the years I have spent doing this. I am losing count of the number of days I have been hurt, heartbroken, suffered so many pains and made so many sacrifices.

The whole time I had hoped that those I had attempted to help would see these things for themselves? Again … seeking another corner where uplifting events can occur.

It seems I have an enemy and I do not know who it is. More upsetting is that someone else should see his too but have not and care not.

Sometimes you do not need to know them or see their faces. Because the sacrifices made a clear to see and actions and in this case, inactions, are clear to see and tell a story. A very clear story.

There are many things I could have done with my life and I have an endless list of regrets but I had boulders lobbed before me on each and every one of them. This sees to have turned out no different to any of the previous times.

Unless something changes in the coming couple of months?

I imagine I am on an island. A gentle and cool breeze disturbs the hair above my temples and the sun is setting and coats the horizon in a golden glow. The only sound that is audible is distant birds singing on high.

The leaves of nearby trees glitter as they twist and turn in the breeze, the sunlight flashing from their surfaces as they turn.

I am somewhere far, far away from all that I hate.

I lay back and my arms outstretch when I think of a nation of blind people clambering for their wants and desires that are meaningless in this vast and unexplored universe.

A tear breaks free from the corners of my eye when I think of the utter extremes many are prepared to go to fill in the gaps of a very short life. The evil that people are willing to do.

I sit upon my island and gaze into the direction of a place once called home. I wonder if they will ever see? I wonder if they will ever stop? I wonder of they will ever free themselves from the tyrannies and the darkness?

Why do they require so much and why are they willing to go to such lengths to achieve this?

To fill up a period of thirty or forty years with things others do not possess, could never possess?

Do the actors that only drink champagne costing thousands and eat meals costing the same really have to do this? Do they see how they look to anyone intelligent, outside that of the celebrity journalists themselves desperately hunting sound bites?

Or those on TV pleading for a few pounds to save lives that posses the amounts to feed third world countries for several years?

The world around me is full of holes. The deceit is surrounding. The pictures so utterly clear. The hardest thing to endure is to watch everyone else walk past these pictures as if they were not even there.

So the only thing that allows evil to persist is for good men to do nothing is it?

Well one good man decided to do a little more than just something.

One man decided to do many things and for a very long time.

He painted a series of the starkest pictures.

That was my vision.

At the present time and quite bizarrely big numbers are only the tiniest of percentages. A stark reality.

So some metaphorical fuses have had to be lit.

Time given to see where the sparks lead.

The weeks are running speedily out and that island may become a very tempting prospect?

Then what will history make of it all?

As I feared, most likely?

It takes a death before anyone becomes interested and even then after some time.

Those stark realities of what it is to be human.

But, I wonder, what does that make me?

I can only hope that you do not forget about me.

At least in my life I tried to do something right … something good.

NOT FORGIVING

When I glance at my balance in my bank account I never expect it to be anything other than what it is.

That is kinda sad. A sad reality. Never mind.

However things may well change.

I have spent almost an entire year not doing as much as I could, for various reasons. I am about to change that.

Pretty soon I am going to re-publish a number of things and a series based on a report I have been working on. For a particular industry.

I will publish this in certain pieces ... leaving one until the last moment containing data I do not want to publish ... not just yet.

I have an unusual and unexpected Christmas racing towards me.

A number of endeavours I thought I would be embarking on have been pulled from under me. But not pulled out completely. I always have back up plans and other plans can be carried out ... even if not in the locations I expected to and with the obvious ... backing I thought I would have.

I am about to reach a half way point in one of these endeavours. Already it has born some interesting developments and I have had some interesting things said to me.

Yet I have only just started.

It is something I have not attempted in awhile and around a year before the blog started. As that is now three and a half years nearly you can see it has been a while.

These previous attempts numbered in the dozens with two industries. The results ... were ... not particularly good.

The numbers this time are only at 3 for one and 5 for the other and already each one has had a much more positive result than they ever did recently.

I must be aware of secret squirrels!

Also I have had a journalist on the phone for almost two hours.

It has not gone unnoticed that there was a bomb scare in my local town centre. Sorry fellas ... I was way out of town when that happened, lol.

I was not there, for once. I only know about it because locals and three friends saw it and told me about it. In fact I was told there was a controlled explosion, whether this is true or not I do not know.

I have not looked it up. (EDIT: Have now, many reports of controlled explosion)

If there was anything it is the second time something has occurred within spitting distance of my home, metaphorically speaking.

Of course the reasons why this is can be found on the archive of this very blog.

There are some groups that need to be verrrry careful. If they screw up not only would this bring me into the limelight they have been trying so hard to avoid but could well blow up in their faces. Pardon the pun!

Being targeted by various groups was not only a possibility in my mind but an absolute certainty, I just could not be certain of all of them that would target me. Took steps to hide myself you see.

Anyone dies within ten miles of me due to any terrorist acts and questions may well be asked and answers demanded.

I did everything I had to. I did everything I could do.

Did you?

What happens next is anyone's guess.

It may have turned out to be something and covered up, like the attempt on the River Lea at Waltham Abbey three and a half years ago, just prior to starting this blog?

It may turn out to be nothing but due to the vicinity they thought it may be something?

But I am here.

I have made several attempts and several pleas to leave.

Had I done so that important information would be available here. But I have been thwarted several times in my attempts to move home in the last few years.

In other words ... they have a target. Or at least a target area. Remove this and you take away their ability to target. Prevent the target from moving and one has to wonder as to their ultimate intentions and their ability to be compassionate towards human life and innocent people?

Oh dear. That will not be good.

So I have started to embark upon a new quest. Not in some desperation or fear that they might get me if indeed they are targeting me. Just starting what I was going to start about now anyway.

In about a week from now that endeavour should be well into its planning. Fingers crossed. About then I will publish pieces of a report I made out. In parts on a weekly basis, just remember I have short term memory issues, lol?

At the end of that I will explain all, for those that have not been digging around my archive and worked it all out.

After all I have been told that a bunch of people found things a rather enjoyable read.

Someone that dismissed me four years back, lol.

I will likely have furthered another endeavour by then? I may be posting about the outcomes to this too?

These cannot fail to be positive for me, whether the responses are positive or negative they fit in with what I do either way. This may come as a shocking realisation as to how I do things? Too late for many of this I can assure you.

Only a grand length of time would allow me to show the truths beyond all and any doubt.

That time is here.

So there are four things going on right now and I am trying to start another ... oooh which reminds me I have to go and try and start that one up ... AGAIN!

But then repeated failures also can show a story and repeated enough they become blindingly obvious!

I absolutely guarantee that once again a very large organisation is seriously underestimating me and will woefully be shown in a bad light. Well a few will but I am speaking of one in particular and I prefer not to let them see me coming.

After all ... something was taken away from me. An avenue was rudely slammed in my face. Well I can slam several faces at once in response to this. And I will.

Then there is the one phase that is not far off now I have thought about since before this blog was even started up. The ultimate endeavour.

At some point I must start preparing for this ultimate of endeavours.

But that is something for some point in 2016.

Ooh ... I just thought of another endeavour!

I have a particular video to upload to YouTube I have been sitting on for several days.

Damned FIBROFOG!

Yeah so I have a few things coming while I watch a rather bizarre Christmas approach and being left in the dark by the one person I could trust?

My word .... this is going to be an odd couple of months.

By the 1st January 2016 you will know exactly what I mean. Hopefully?!

STRANGE DAYS ARE HERE

Well this is odd.

A few days back, while I was ... extremely nauseous and in all day I mentioned in a post that I had a lot of ... texts in one afternoon. A lot.

I do not know many people, you have to remember, as I have lost three family members I could talk to, one friend died and another ran way without any further contact. Nearly 300 miles to be precise.

Leaving just one person.

Now everyone has their own lives these days, one serious buggered up, one somewhat ... complicated and heading for trouble and three with careers to deal with.

Others are headaches. Lol.

But five people contacted me on the space of a few hours, a couple several times, and this would be highly unusual in the space of one week.

I am now finding out why this is.

I have, as I have alluded, been sort of directly but slightly indirectly involved in a legal case. Just about everyone I know, knows about this but was kept from them for a couple of years. Until, that is, it was at the end and I had some concrete stuff to tell.

This involved the one person I could talk to. The one person I stated I had left.

I kept stating that things will be divulged in periods of time but it never happened. It still has not happened.

I had a lot of naysayers that committed their opinions far and wide and I knew this could be an issue but never thought it would come to that. It did.

Family and friends were not the issue and the one thing I did have there is that they knew I was not lying about anything. Never have I been accused of bulllshitting anyone. Though I have to admit to one person I do not have much dealings with claiming I was full of bullshit. But as some found out this was down to an ego, or jealousy that has gone on for years.

They were jealous of my knowledge and ability in three subjects, the five attarctice ex girlfriends I had, though I have been single for 13 years plus, along with everything else I knew and I could do.

Yes I suppose I can do a lot and I possess an extremely broad spectrum of knowledge ...

• Computer Science (To which I have a Degree)
• Amphibians (To which some would say I am unrivalled and have a Blog. I appeared in Asian Magazines)
• Reptiles (I have a blog)
• Fish (Specially Tanganyika, Malawi, Killies, American Darters/Dace plus Blog. I appeared in Asian Magazine)
• Orchids (Keep Tropical Orchids of hybrids and botanicals plus Blog)
• Astronomy & Astrophysics (Have a blog)
• British Wildlife (Have a Blog)
• Carnivorous Plants (No Blog)
• Lilies (Plants, no Blog)
• Wing Chun Kung Fu, Six & Half Point Pole, Nunchaku & Bo Staff (Very neglected blog)
• Photography
• Musical Knowledge (History, have a Blog)
• Mountain Biking (Appeared in What Mountain Bike with custom built Litespeed Ocoee)
• Also a crack shot with a gun, lol

But me personally? I do not think I have anything that others should be jealous or envious about but one particular person is. To a number of the above and my ex-girlfriends or all of the above and my ex-girlfriends.

Possibly my do-gooder personality too and that others see me as a kind of people's hero? I have had names like 'Modern day Robin Hood' and 'Sherlock' mentioned when others speak of me. I dare say that sort of thing happens with visitors to the blog too? At least the ones that have seen and listened to enough stuff?

I can sit in a room with professional people with far too high an opinion of themselves and their knowledge and run rings around them and get them to say things that destroy themselves.

Doubt that and you quite simply have not heard enough of my recordings I am afraid. Lol.

I get a lot of things right, not all but a lot more than most others would.

So when something goes wrong ... people take notice, often for completely the wrong reason. Often these would be unexpected reasons.

I was offered to stay overnight at a family members home just this morning. It was suggested when they recently visited.

As it turns out they are worried about how I have taken things in light of what recently has or rather has not happened.

They have realised that, that which they predicted was not a good theory to come true all along as that particular outcome would be ... hard to take.

They think it is mad.

They think it is grossly unfair. On me.

They think it is a huge undertaking I have taken it upon myself to achieve in just this one single endeavour.

They do not understand why it is currently in the place it is. That I can understand fully as I ddo not understand it either.

Theyu think my theories are sound and have admitted as much, or some have, but still think it is an evil think that has occurred while having difficulty coming to terms with their theories being reality and how anyone could do a thing like that.

See? No forethought! Lol!

So it turns out that many have started to worry and I imagine that they thought that if it was them ... well they would not be able to take it, handle it or get through it until the truth is revealed.

But I keep telling them the same thing over and over again.

This is the same thing I keep stating on here over and over again.

I plan for every eventuality. Every possible outcome.

I planned for this.

If I cannot get what I need to vindicate myself from the channels I expected there is always another way.

Plus there as always the possibility that I was being lied to.

So what is it that I do?

Well one is what I always do ... not put much in the way of recordings on here lately have I?

Now 100GB is a lot and though I have only put roughly a quarter of that on here that in itself is a hell of a lot.

I still record. I always will record.

I can publish the recording where the case is explained and a figure of £850,000 is asked for by a solicitor! Oops!

As for the case itself and me looking like one giant hoaxer on-line? Well no I am not and I have told people that if I got this wrong then I got this wrong and will hold my hands up to it.

But I need something to hold my hands up to!

Now I have endeavoured to find out through my own methods but it is just too hard and the British legal system is a mess and always has been. So what do you do?

You employ ... others with a vested interest to go after the documents!

I have held this back but I have three back-up plans and each of these has several ... facets. I have put two of them into effect.

Some nights ago now I was called within twenty minutes of sending an email off by a journalist who then spent nearly two hours on the phone listening in awe.

Compared to an attempt to get the news media industry involved in the past that was Hyper car speed that lightning would turn green over!

Hmm ... the News Media? 

Yes I said all along and from the outset that along with the legal industry and everyone else that the News Media was under my proverbial microscope!

I have not said much and that in itself has been key to my studying them.

Started by sending them a set of Four DVDs to see what they do with the contents, of which I have lost count of the mirror image stories that have appeared in the news.

I never even got a reply of thanks, either!

Now think of a national tabloid? I sent them my stuff!

I also sent them to a number of local newspapers too in Liverpool, Manchester, London and a few others besides. Nothing. Nada. Zilch!

I told them of the exact situation and told them that the payout was £750,000 ... or a little over! Yes siree that was the payout and as I said I have a recording regarding details of an amount asked for £100,000 higher than that.

It should have been over £1 Million!

Something went ... wrong! Never mind though ... the devil is literally in the details!

These journalists mounted their rocket-ships and prepared for launch to go and so their thing.

Instead of being left in the dark for an unknown amount of time I now have people that will report (no pun intended) back to me one way or the other.

So I have written two books on corruption and things that went on prior to this blog starting up three and a half years ago.

I have a third book to write about what went on behind the scenes while writing the blog and the things that occurred. Things I did not put in this blog.

As I said to a friend, I wanted to write a book about how I managed to succeed in the end and therefore reach even more people and help other victims too. I did not want to write that book about how I was a victim to one of the biggest hoaxes the UK has ever heard about!

So people have admitted that the not knowing and unfair treatment of lack of being paid back some of the £5,000 or my PIPs money might be having a detrimental effect on me that is an understatement to say the least.

I told them what I told my GP when he expressed the to me his concern about me regarding all this and thought the treatment of me confusing and unfair.

After things I have had to deal with over the years, all in my books waiting for a publisher, it is water off a duck's back my friend, water off a duck's back.

I cannot control not knowing and that is down to someone else not being very fair or nice about all this. Nothing I can do but wait.

I did what I now do because I do not have a choice. The explanation of which no one would disagree with and I cannot remain in the dark indefinitely. Because it is not only down to how I may appear but I also held much of my own stuff back to improve my life exponentially but also sacrificed a SLR Camera to help me with the blogs and YouTube and also a Reflector Telescope and a few other items.

I need to be able to explain I was right or hold my hands up and state clearly that this time I got it so very wrong and hold my head in shame at my naivety, stupidity and ignoring all the signs.

There were signs for both sides of the argument.

Well now that is being done for me by a number of different groups and I still have the third one available to me. Possibly available. 

That depends because if I was right and I have been ... cut off then I have option number 3. If I was wrong then option number 3 is going to be extremely unlikely. Still possible but just extremely unlikely.

That countdown to finding out has now begun.

I am just not going to predict a time frame but I am hoping it is before Christmas ... this year?!

LMAO!

Sorry about the wait ... it really is not my fault. I apologise anyway.

NOW NEVER A LONG TIME TO WAIT

Well ... now it will never be a long time to wait.

Previously though that has not been the case. Regarding the ... case! Lol!

However I realised it was pointless saying any more until I was absolutely sure. I was absolutely sure three weeks back but I still decided to wait.

Well Id did initially start by stating I do not trust anyone. I also stated that I was right in 100% of my investigations but was not able to investigate courts and judges. I needed to be able to go through the entire process ... though I did this indirectly ... kind of. Lol.

I could reveal it all but this would be foolhardy...due to the fact that some very unsavoury characters, two in particular involved directly in the case and both shaking with fear regarding me right now, as I made promises I have kept and intend to keep!

I really need to ... well, be there. Prevention is better than cure and all that jazz.

Well I am in the dark right now about this ... I am ... unable to plan and give a date because I suspected that the planning ... well might be taken out of my hands. Not in a bad way.

Recent statements have actually shown that I look to be quite correct in this, though still al little fuzzy in the details.

So all I can state right now is that after several really annoying and lengthy extensions that it is not only over but has been over for a while now. Trust me on that one.

No doubts on that score at all ... just not too sure how it is going to play right now. There could be a waiting period over a ... let us just say 'purchase' and then a surprise might be sprung. God I better act surprised when it happens, having the closest person to you being sop smart that you can actually predict the actions of someone that you are not supposed to know that well might be too disappointing?

Because of this I do not give it much thought into working out exactly what and when it will happen but it has had a couple of days to be put into practise. A couple more days and it might well be in place and I am suspecting that anywhere between this Wednesday, the 28th October, and the following Wednesday at the latest, the 4th November, it will be sprung.

This is the 'taking things out of my hands' I referred to, lol.

I am also starting to think that with each day now that passes that anyone visiting here that have been wondering what in the hell I have been on about will actually find out elsewhere. Like in the News Media. In fact it may even turn out to be the case that visitors here may read about it or hear about it in the coming days or couple of weeks and not even realise that what they are reading about is me and what I have been alluding to.

Trust me when I say that if this does turn out to be the case with some of you that despite all the I have alluded to previously there will be utter shock when the link is made. Absolutely no doubts on that particular score!

In fact once the dust settles there will be stunned visitors, maybe even many that stopped returning for whatever reason, who will then be hit with "oh my bleeping GOD! So this is what he was referring to?!" when they thought I was being over the top or pandering to some goal or another.

No goals. Just straight forward truth and when the time comes it will be abundantly clear why I was cagey about it and did not reveal all the details.

In fact I have spent several days now with my mind turning towards other aspects of all this. The possibilities that will present themselves with the fallout. I also need to advise my 'partner in crime' on what they should do, or ask what they would like to do, now all this is done. Well ... not really 'done' as such, just the very hard and lengthy part is done.

In comparison to the last four years and because things needed are now not so needed any more and that being a very long way off ... things will happen relatively ... quickly. In comparison.

This may well be all relative. It may not appear quickly to some ... umm even me, lol.

Oh God there I go alluding once more! Well not for long ... I just have to make sure that it is safe to reveal things and right now it is not. I need to know a few things first. I need to be somewhere else when the local reveals are made. I need to assess the situation for any pitfalls or dangers.

After all the hard work and the waiting I just want to be sure that in a short space of time it does not all come to naught?!

Umm ... yeaaaah ... when things are revealed you might exclaim as to how this could possibly happen, when your aware of certain ... details? Trust me when I will explain this too ... and I will even point out that most of the details have been on this blog for a very long time too!

One or two smarter visitors may well have worked all this out and know exactly what it is I am going to reveal ... except for the ... details of the final outcome, so to speak?

In fact this is regarding what would be considered the most outlandish story and claims I have ever put on here, make no mistake. No matter what else I have put about anyone else, though proof is provided for all ... I think or nearly all, this is the most fantastic of them all ...

Proof final and ultimate of the outcome of my most outlandish ... hmm was going to put anecdote but that ... just does not come close to qualifying!

My most outlandish and horrific story and claims?

Yeah that sounds better.

All the while for a few years before I started and the 3 years plus I have been posting and all that I have done and all that I have shown and the 4 cases won and my 100% record and all the while something absolutely humongous has been waiting in the wings.

Something I have invested the most time in, made the most sacrifices for and paid out the most money, all my PIPs for the last ten months and then some, to complete.

No exaggeration and there will be others that will come on here and state ... errr things! Lol.

And no they ont be stating them on here exclusively either. Like I said ... a news media ban is to be lifted, if it has not done so already. A solicitor has stated repeatedly for four years that they want to go to the media. A solicitor that has stated all along that the case just keeps on getting bigger and bigger to the point that judges started to say this too.

As i understand it there has been well over 30 court appearances alone, not including meetings with solicitors off course.

1. Magistrates Court
2. Civil Court
3. Family Court
4. Crown Court
5. High Court
6. Supreme Court

These are the courts I have heard mentioned.

I also believe a little squirming and wriggling out of things has occurred but I will not know this for sure until I have read all the legal paraphernalia.

I am not even going top bother to TAG (label if your Google) this one. Just for the regular visitors anyway.

However where one big giant door closes this now leads to many other doors that are not off in the far distance that no matter how fast you run appear to stay the same or get smaller, or further away. There are now several doors and some with both names on and some with only theirs or mine on.

In fact it has been within my power to get one of these days opening, albeit slowly, at any point along the way. As a matter of fact one of these doors has always been a little open from very early on in the life of this blog. Someone who was paying attention to me and the blog, at least they was in the beginning.

Who might this be?

Well that would be a Literary Agent, though I am not stating which one!

I could have started that ball rolling at any point on the life of this blog but I decided not to. In fact I decided that many things that I could do, as I have so often done in the past, will be put off or delayed until things are well and truly over.

Though my love life has been non-existent for soo long I am not sure I could find one now ... or even if I wanted one?! Lol.

So you want to know how sure I am? Well I do not lie and it is a fact, it is done and all dues are paid and if I maybe add that I have typed up both a report and several letters witht he intentions of sending off to several literary agents?

Not ... just ... yet. By the weekend though, most definitely!

There were some ... difficulties ... I could say a couple of dark days about a week back but these were quite unnecessarily caused by people I know and were to do with all this, yes. But that was lived through, dealt with and avoided. Others are now wise enough to keep the greyhounds at bay. Umm look up what they call the ... things they put greyhounds in before the off, lol.

Hmm ... maybe if a literary agents does not reply with blinkers or very dark Ray-Bans on I might get to tell them of my other 11 blogs and their subject matters?! Oops, lol!

Hmm maybe I might even get the time and space to continue the novels I started writing a little over ten years ago I gave up due to .... umm well all this! Or more specifically public services not doing their jobs, lying, refusing to help legitimate people using more lies, fraud and other bollocks.

Hmm stay tuned sounds corny. Hmm so does watch this space. Listen out for thunder might be more apt?

LOL!

THE AUTHORS & THE AMAZONIANS

I was speaking to two friends recently about how I completed three books, many others stated but not finished, and how the publishing world is a nightmare.

I explained how literary agents seem to be only looking for the next Harry Potter, Star Wars or some other rip off of an adjust five theme or format. Or they are only interested drivel about celebrities lives because there are no end of people that seem to think that this is the be all sand end all to their lives?

Well maybe not drivel at times but only a tiny fraction of them for me.

Instead of championing something new, bold and that which can possibly cause a riot, metaphorically speaking, they look for similar things to that already done that made the most cash? It does not work like that! Everyone knows that the sequels are never as popular as the first film so why would you look for a blatant rip off? It's bloody dumb in my estimation!

But they do!

Then you have these self publishing outfits who will contact wannabe authors and praise their writing, despite responding so quickly it's obvious they have not read a single damned word of it! Sharks then!

In my discussions over my blog I do explain that one hope I had was that interest in the books I wrote, which are both forerunners to this blog, would eventually cause a literary agent or publisher to want to read them?

Added to this the fact that I had 140,000 visitors and counting and over half a million to my Google Plus profile would help matters?

I also explained that since I started this blog I had not approached a single person regarding the publication of any of my three books and that even lately it has not crossed my mind and I had not thought due one moment about doing so. I am not even sure when I would do?!

Possibly when my oldest blog, two weeks shy of being two years old, had acquired 100,000 visitors in total? It had around 38,000 to go to reach that milestone. I have not worked out how long that would take either!

I have never thought about approaching Amazon about publication either but that's because the old traditionalist in me, despite my BSc in Applied Computing, likes the idea of paper based books! This surprised many fellow students at University when a debate was held over Digital Libraries! They had me down in the digital books camp.

So it generated a bit of interest when I spotted this report regarding a disagreement between Amazon and a publisher over the pricing of books. First off I immediately assumed Amazon was in the wrong due to their behaviour of late over several things, corporation tax being one. But as I read it seemed that the publishing house were trying to keep the cost of the books artificially high which despite the lack of overhears want to increase their profit margin?

What it does not explain is how the cut that Amazon takes compares to the costs of overheads for publishing paper based books!

As for authors well many have signed an open letter to be published in a famous tabloid to state quite clearly to Amazon that they are disappointed in them, their greed and their tactics and to stop it at once, in a round about way. Though some authors declined to sign this petition.

But then another wave of authors have actually signed a letter in defence of Amazon?! Hmm I wonder if they are fully aware of their tactics?

This could turn out to be an iron clad example of how people make snap decisions without possessing all the facts? The very reason that my corruption blog exists!

It matters not that life is to busy or that the time cannot be found because this is how the evil ones get away with things. They use these excuses and in all honesty if you cannot take ... no afford the time to take stock of certain things out situations then we are doing something very wrong. Perhaps we have been for a very long time and doing these things fur so long they have just become the accepted norm?!

I think it's time to take stock and say no more! Because as more and more situations like this arrives those that make snap decisions may end up feeling and more importantly looking very foolish indeed!

We are in the age of the Internet where everyone gets to find out everything ... eventually! You cannot hide anymore or have lane excuses. It's time to realise that bit bothering can have very adverse effects on what you do ... or even what you earn?!

Many may not agree and this is their prerogative but then so are the pitfalls and punishments if you gamble and get it wrong!

There are many whispers going around that many seem to believe are true facts of the most unlikely people. They may or may not be trying to control things getting out and most of this is via the tabloids and TV News media. If this is the case I can assure you that this is a mistake, non greater than the news media groups that may have decided to do add they are commanded, regardless of the benefits that may be on offer. The truth will out in the end.

When this eventually happens then I am afraid to say that I stated this king before now but a while row of houses made of cards will all be blown to the ground by the incoming storm!

In the meantime I will try to remember this story and see what occurs once the open letter has been published? They seem to be selecting authors to punish to get back at the publisher which is not fair no matter which way you slice it.

Authors rally in Amazon dispute http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/entertainment-arts-28703264

THE AUTHOR OF BAD TIMINGS

LMFAO you will find this one funny...

Now having reached the one hundred thousand post I was thinking if the things that will likely happen this year and wondering whether to just WAIT for them or actually find some time to contact them myself.

One of those was literary agents and/or publishers.

I was about to close down my hotmail page when I spotted something and was half way through a bottle of Krystal, metaphorically speaking of course, when I read the whole thing...

I mean yeah I figured that if I was at this long enough that maybe sonmeone would be interested in printing my stuff?

I mean I did all this that is on here, I wrote three books, two on all this and can write a third too. I have attracted 100,000 visitors and this is rising all the time. I had long planned to try and break into being an author!

However I never thought in a million years it would be about politics and corruption! I never dreamed I would be running around recording all of these corrupt and lying people either! Hell, I did not even know the corruption was as bad nor as widespread as it was!

If someone had come to me ten years ago spouting all this I would have dismissed them as crazy. Well that is why I decided years ago to record it all before making a right tit of myself online, lol.

I had started writing a multi book science fiction set as that was what I always wanted to do, and would you believe it five chapters into that books I still posess the public services come along again and turn my life upside woen and yes I was a Fibromyalgia sufferer nback then and long before. Cheers NHS, lol.

Just for a moment there and just at the worst possible time I get sent this damned email, fancy sending emails out to aspiring authros with the words "three book deal offer"? Especially to someone that has WRITTEN three books and techinically can write three and have long stated as much on here all in the corrption area?!

I just had the bloody other email about being a Senior Medical Writer too?! Lol, are they taking numbers and getting in line?! Bring it...ON!!!

LMAO!

It is that PESKY test once again, naff off!! Lol!