Showing posts with label finding a job. Show all posts
Showing posts with label finding a job. Show all posts

Friday, 14 December 2018

THE RULE OF THUMBS


I have .. let us say several jobs .. well I had quite a few before various public services that started out claiming they was going to help then completely screwed it up.

So let us say that I was .. going to get another job .. to bring in some much needed cash .. and for y current location ..

Remember you are now often checked out online .. I know as I have had it done to me ..

  • White British
    • Rules me out of any shops within a half mile
  • Centrist
    • Rules me out of another lot of jobs because I am Alt-Right
    • Whatever the hell Alt-Right means
    • Help Agencies riddled with leftists wont take me
  • Honest and hate Lying
    • Rules out sales
  • Heart Issues
    • Rules me out of a series of jobs
  • Bad Motion Sickness Issue and ..
  • Blackouts
  • Overheating Body Issue (Summer) ..
  • Feet, Back and Shoulder Pain
    • Makes travelling bloody hard without heart issues
  • Short-Term Memory Loss
    • Think that might put people off?
  • Unregistered address
    • Cannot register here at all ..
    • Just do not get me started as to why .. would be a long one

Except with my health being worse than it ever has been previously and with the government twice previously and 5 or more Doctors previously stating I am unfit for work .. I did the following ..


  • Written Books
  • Asked for help starting my own business three times
  • Bought Equipment
  • Taken thousands photographs
  • Thousands videos
  • Written 12 Blogs over 6 years
  • Went into bad business partnerships twice
  • Lured in and lied to by Google
  • Screwed over by Google
  • Applied for shed load of jobs full and part time
  • Applied for volunteering work but would not even take me?!

One person I know, Mario the social worker, stated to me recently ..

Martin, your in a catch 22 with no way out and I feel so sorry for you”

Same person that cannot believe how shit I have been treated and would happily stand up in court and swear under oath I am not a liar. Now says all the things he though I was wrong or mad about that

You were right, you were right about everything!” by which he meant the councils, social services of which he worked for over 20 years, the Police and at the time he mentioned it, was because of the NHS. Oh and the DVLA!

His last job was working for an antique watch shop in Farringdon Road, selling watches to Hollywood actors and musicians, and he always said that ..

If I lost my job tomorrow I would have one the day after even sweeping the roads!”

That was two or maybe three years ago .. no job for this professional with a disability either!

EDIT: After being ruled unfit twice by the DWP and my government, prior to heart issues and blackouts, I am now ruled completely fit which is simply a lie and .. well as you see I have tried various ways.

Wednesday, 25 April 2018

THE UNIVERSAL HELL

Except .. it is not 'universal' is it? It is just the UK.

I wonder if anyone actually running this country has actually considered what this is like for people that are actually on the outside looking in? Probably not. Or maybe have but just do not care? Or perhaps care so little about it that the thought never entered their minds?

But the fact is that they have not caught on that countries do not live in bubble worlds where it takes a long time for people from foreign nations discover things that are going on within another country.

Almost bizarrely and in the UK this is something the news media do not think about unless they are finding something newsworthy of them in foreign climes.

As reported in the first link below to Sky News people are stating that Universal Credit is like "hell on Earth" and I cannot think of anything more degrading than what this has been.

I have been fortunate .. well .. up until now .. but it has still been a distraction and the only reason it has not been hell on Earth for me thus far is because the other things I have going on .. would put Universal Credit in a far worse light than it already is in, if that is even possible?

What I find disturbing is that anyone that regularly works but go through periods of being jobless, which let us be honest must be a fair few in recent times, are subjected to this .. degrading process and I am sure that the numbers that hate this system are rising week on week.

I also see that the timeline has shifted again and in the second link, again by Sky News, it states that the roll-out finishes in 2022 .. two years further away than the quoted year of 2020 I was last told .. which was a delay from the previous date I was aware of.

Of course members of the biggest group of liars within the UK state that it is helping, helping, people back into work but not only do I call bullshit on that as they will be massaging the figures in a number of ways, but it is not about forcing people back into work but about having the jobs there to begin with and KEEPING those jobs.

In America a certain white male Hollywood Director is stating that a bunch of people should lose their jobs because they are white males. I am sure the same attitude exists here in the UK too? It may well exist in certain countries in Europe too?

Oddly I have always actually thought that my skin colour would prevent me from getting a job and now I am hearing statements that seem to prove, to some degree, that odd feeling I have long since had?!

It is weird how they insist on going down this road, despite all the warning signs and the obvious and inevitability that eventually it will fail catastrophically and that we .. and more importantly they will be the laughing stock of the world. The western world at the very least. In fact I have not only seen dozens of comments by Americans on YouTube and forums essentially taking the piss out of Britain but I have even had a comment on one of my videos taking the piss out of me and assuming that I am like these idiots.

Inhumane, amoral and .. evil. No matter which was you slice it.

Note the woman in the first link is a volunteer, fuck me forcing you to work for free too, at the bloody Job Centre?!

https://news.sky.com/story/line-18-universal-credit-claimants-say-it-is-like-like-hell-on-earth-11339306

https://news.sky.com/story/what-impact-is-universal-credit-having-11343838



Sunday, 22 April 2018

CARER CAREER CATASTROPHE

This is late ..

I mention Deep Vein Thrombosis later but since I wrote this and prior to posting it it has turned into something else.

Bearing in mind the woman in question has cervical cancer, fibromyalgia, high blood pressure and now DVT and was going to go back to work as a carer .. caring for other people while she has all that and four children to look after and one severaly Autistic which she gets no support or money for whatsoever .. despite this going on for almost a year.

I don't believe this one .. Allied Healthcare are in trouble?!

Oddly I think someone I know worked for them? I sent them a link so I'll find out tomorrow .. at some point.

Also my daughter .. cervical cancer .. Fibromyalgia not fucking diagnosed yet .. severe Autism in one child not fucking fully diagnosed, (paediatrician now failed to turn up twice in four months) and while there seem to sound like a DVT issue too? I thought .. naaah .. they couldn't possibly have fucked up on three things .. well that's just the NHS I'm talking about. Include everyone else and the mistakes, all fucking deliberate I assure you, will be in the dozens! DOZENS!

Well .. it seems like they did and the NHS not having fucked to my own life beyond repair I'm attempting all the time .. seem intent on killing my daughter .. thrice!!

There's the cervical cancer .. now DVT to be added to my recent findings that those with Fibromyalgia have links to increased risks of cancer ( umm hello?!), anxiety issues and suicide (umm hello?!).

I think it's time to email .. someone?

I think someone needs a kick to the arse or .. a little accusation or suggested finger pointing? I have been putting it off and putting it off but .. after these last two incidents .. and I keep paying when not even in receipt of what I used to receive sure to lying and tricks.

Enough is enough.

I'm going to be upfront .. from now on. No more protecting this blog and suffering pain, anxiety, money loss and .. liberty. No .. more!

It's time to fire my salvos which need some dusting off, if I'm honest. Not done this in awhile.

You see you keep giving everyone the benefit of the doubt when I don't have any.

Over and over again they prove to me that I'm right and have always been right.

I've so wanted to be wrong on each occasion and even in this one but no. It always goes the same way and gets progressively worse with every few incidents.

The future looks that way too .. fucking bleak and it is .. torturing me .. slowly it feels intent on killing me in the longest possible way and the most painful.

I saw this on the BBC and thought you should see it: Allied Healthcare: Home care provider seeks rescue plan - http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/uk-43850046

Sunday, 16 October 2016

THE CALL OF THE MOUNTAIN KING

Suffering.

That is what it has been feeling like of late. Even just the new job of looking for a … job.

Sometimes I just do not … think.

But then that is one of my primary problems.

Sometimes it can take me a while … but I normally get there eventually.

This morning the rain patted the windows and thoughts of freedom were limited and the sands of time running dry before my eyes.

I turned to the task of finding a part time … vocation. Many things I had seen would not really lead me anywhere of note or that would suit me. Finding things close to hand also looked impossible and even a strange look from my new Jobcoach forced me to ask myself if he thought the task impossible? Or even the wrong conclusion that I was not really interested? Or perhaps he had seen or may … be … read something that made him realise that any new … vocation forced upon me would lie not last long or perhaps even backfire?

Perhaps Jobcoaches just have other distractions on occasion?

So I plundered through bob title after job title and detail after little detail. The strange things is I do not even know how it came about, whether I did a search … umm, no, ,or come across a webpage purely by chance? But I did come across a webpage that peaked my interest and would solve all my current problems … well most of them,, in one fell swoop. It may even turn out to do a great deal more than that … once I got thinking and once I spotted a couple of roles that were advertised.

Jesus. Why did I not think of this before?! Well … I kind of … did! But I obviously never gave it enough thought.

So here is a clue … why don't I … just do what I have already been doing already for bloody years?! LOL!

Stay with me here …

For the last four years plus now I have been writing and blogging and in so doing I had intentions of helping others.

So why don't I just do that?

But, I hear many now saying, you have to go look for a job because of this Universal Credit and jobmatch thing?! Well who says it cannot be a job? Especially when you ..

VOLUNTEER!

I am such … an idiot!

I saw this role that included meeting people who have things on their mind or issues of one kind or another. It basically stated that anyone that has a lot of experience can use this to help advise others.

If there is one thing I have from dark periods to bereavements and even to studying all the way to a BSc Degree and even stupidly turning down a Doctorate that is one thing I have in spades.

Added to that is my extremely long list of interests to which I not only have a great idea of knowledge in but that which I ccan get or encourage others into as a way of finding a distraction. I possess knowledge that spans several areas of the animals kingdom, astronomy, astrophysics, quantum mechanics, botany and orchids and carnivorous plants especially, kung fu, cycling, computers, technology, photography and many others besides.

As I read this paragraph it was almost as if a flagpole emerged from my head, raised ever so slowly up until it caught a breeze and a flag unfurled revealing a light bulb.

It was like a calling!

There is a slight delay as the web-page seems to be taking awhile to register me and … well it wont let me do a damn thing until it seems me an email with a confirmation link, well it has to be that.

There was even one I could do from home … though I am not sure I want to be stuck indoors … so I may end up registering for two different positions?

Whatever it is that is troubling people I can explain to them what I have done and I can even show them! Even if it about the state of the country or the world I can show them that there are people or groups endeavouring to do something about it. To bring about change. Even if it is a little bit at at time.

Dumb, dumb, dumb. I am staggered that in the last four years plus that I never thought about this before. It would give me something to do and hopefully something to get me out of the house and I can actually help others.

Trumpets started to ring out and sound all around me as I stumbled upon this realisation and suddenly things look … different. Things feel different.

Where IS that damn email? Still not there.

Of course this course could lead to other pathways? The possibilities are, I am not going to say it, many.

It did occur to me that with others that may be in a similar predicament that instead of being forced into somewhere you do not like, not suitable or bloody far away from where you live it might be an idea for you? You can see something you like, close by and it may lead to other things?

There were … couple I could not apply for … due to me and these organisations having something of a … history! Lol. The very sight of my name is liable to cause the paper they read it on, CV or computer to burst into flames of fire and brimstone. Putting it mildly, lol.

That, umm, applied to some of the jobs I saw advertised too! I was like 'Oh who is that for? OH! Yeah … no! They would probably ask me in for an interview just so that could hiss and spit at me like an angry cat?!' Well … you shouldn't tell lies to your customers or the public in general. You shouldn't do it for those that you work for either. Hmm something else that will not get ma many jobs or fired from them in no time at all. Probably?

Interested to see where this path leads me to. I am actually genuinely interested in this one and the very idea that I have several to choose from that are actually reachable without nigh on killing me slowly or quickly over time.

Oh where the sands of time will travel? If issues are held together and the path trodden the destinations sought can be assured and perhaps sped up?

Those trumpets are now accompanied by the voices of angels whose notes soar like Swifts chasing down flies while but a glimmer in the distance of a clear sky.

For the briefest of moments the autumn becomes the summer again and one we barely had.

The thought if this had occurred a year ago was met with realisation that a year ago many other things were ongoing. For the most of 2015 and this year of 2016 this occurring to me would have been .. difficult. To say the least.

Now the question remains is whether or not the DWP and Jobcoach are happy with volunteer work or their latest drive to get people off benefits and save money does not allow room for volunteering? Nothing would surprise me at this stage.

I have never been as eager to register as I am now and nor has it ever taken as long!

Typical, it is probably the only registration in history, or that I have applied to,, that is bloody manual and will not be done until tomorrow?!

Probably about the same time the reply email from the Jobcoach will state that volunteer work does not count? Lol.

The mists of time have become murky of late and still hold many secrets that insist on hiding from view. These could decide to show themselves in the ever lengthening weeks or could still remain doggedly hidden.

Oh what difference there would be with the benefit of a little foresight? Something akin to an ocean as expansive as that of the Pacific. Or perhaps the boredom and meanderings of a chess grandmaster that is yet to reveal themselves?

You simply have no other choice other choice than that to … play the game.

Upwards I am ever climbing following that of a distant sound as if my name echoed out there in the darkness? Beckoning me onwards and upwards. Like a mountain it continues on only seemingly endless. Perhaps a hall awaits me at the top that is littered with answers? Perhaps a doorway to some other worldly place and my next and more peaceful destination? Maybe an area to wash away my sins, troubles and memories so sore in thought? Would I gaze upon all that which I leave behind or continue on without a second thought? One my many questions I have so desired the answers to.

Like the beating of a drum my heart races with yearning. Scouring every corner for the answers I desire and seeking out signs of the changes I seek. The path winds ever on gradually fading into the mists atop the mountain before me.


One foot and then the other ever onwards, ever upwards.

Friday, 20 May 2016

THE SEARCH

Before very long it would have been a whole four years since I started my very first blog.

It would take another year to eighteen months before the other catch up to this figure.

The whole time I was posting on this blog there were always a list of possibilities that could arise from it.

  • There was the helping is someone's court case which proved much of what I said, getting the documents and publishing them on-line
  • There was the possibility that I may start to generate some money through advertising, but was fed a load of crap about that in the beginning
  • There was the possibility, or more inevitability, that once I had attracted enough people and made a certain number of people aware of me I would get my three books published
  • That some honest organisation would come along one day and say 'Jesus! This guy did all this with no money, resources, support? What would he do if he was given a mountain of resources?! We have to have him working for us!!”
  • Which all started off to try and forewarn and help as many victims or unaware about to be victims, as I could
  • Plus I had no less than twelve other subject matters across other blogs and a YouTube channel also aiding in other areas, including logging WILDLIFE
  • Or even a job or career is some capacity involved in the other and much lighter subjects I cover
  • Someone would make an offer I could not refuse to buy one of my blogs from me

I had thought about other possibilities too.

  • Re contacting the News Media but saw this as hopeless as I suspect them also
  • Trying to become affiliated with some group or other

All I needed was to put in the time, effort and commitment and although I was prepared to do that I must say it has taken longer then I first thought it would. IN the beginning I thought a year at least, maybe two. Pretty soon it would have been four years.

I do feel for all the bloggers out there that were led to believe in something only to fond out it was not as it first appeared.

I had figured recently that I must now be within a year, going by numbers alone, for one of these to occur.

Well that is barrring the very first one as I seem to have been disowned and sentenced to a relative living hell I must now work towards trying to get out of with the remaining things on that list.

The really bizarre thing is thee first one taking place would have made all the other ones happen overnight, metaphorically speaking. Certainly within days or weeks which would have been just great.

As regards the being affiliated I often thought how nice it would be to be linked and meet up with some group or organisation with similar goals to my own. I even wondered about anarchy groups, though admittedly I am not sure what any of their goals are and added to this I am not sure I like the word 'anarchy' unless only applied to them by the establishment to make them appear in a bad light?

Though I genuinely believe that my healt conditions will not allow me to live much beyond another 8 years and it is a fact I have to deal with every single day.

I now know that both my father and grandmother had the same condition but whereas my grandmother was always forced to walk everywhere and a mile from a market to home with the shopping my father was not active in this way and not very fit.

As a result my grandmother died suddenly at 75 and my father at 56.

The problem is as much as I try to keep myself active and fit, with cycling and such, I have many more symptoms than either my father or grandmother showed.

When I found out I had Fibromyalgia I had long made many links to things that had happened with both my father and grandmother with their symptoms. They were both terrified of hospitals and Doctors and simply never went to any. At all except for very late on with mny grandmother when she was having serious back pains, like I have had the last few years. I have had the back pains well over a decade, possibly more than fifteen years but its been the last 5 years they have suddenly taken a nose dive into unbearable now and then.

These days I take both Tramadol and Methocarbamol just for the back pain alone.

With the help and advice I give it is not just 'look at for the feckers, they are out to get you' but I can even do money saving, though they likely never realised it, by stating that many gig electrical chain stores are now selling refurbished goods to survive. Then finding out later that at least one of them had been doing this at least as far back as 2003!

Many might have turned away, without looking at any evidence, and did a brain-dead thing and automatically think I was wrong. You would be surprised how many people think they have this automated built in wisdom that can detect the wheat from the chaff in milliseconds. I see it on-line all the time. But later might have been picking up an item from Argos or some other store … see these red and white along with clear seals over the boxes, the clear one stating 'void' in gold, and thinking 'hang on a minute? This is faulty and I remember this guy talking about watching out for some suspect void seals on the boxes? What gives?!' Then probably cannot remember the web address of my blog? Lol.

DOH!!

Of course the blogs and YouTube channel can become useful in other little ways too, like in a big arguments as is about to occur over the coming months?

I said the other day to friends who remembered that I thought I was filmed recently and not once but a couple of times. I do not care. I also recalled about how a GP who suddenly left for pastures new, only recently asked me if I was recording our appointments?

I reminded them that I said I thought something was coming my way over the next couple of months from the DWP and two mornings ago it arrived.

Some probably came here for the first time, read it and thought I got lucky.

Well … I get bloody lucky a hell of a lot.

Annoyingly this is never in the things that matter.

I used to think I had bad luck attached top me and my grandmother thought it was preposterous until a day I will never forget when yet another things happened to me and she looked at me and said “You know I think your right? How do so many bad things happen to you?”

Yet when it comes to me deductions I am very rarely wrong.

I used to do good and picking out the names of both horses and greyhounds in races that would win.

A friend asked me to do it one day to show a friend of his in a bookmakers. The man's eyes went wide with wonder and a big smile on his face and he said … “LETS PUT ALL OUR MONEY ON THE NEXT FEW RACES!”

My mate turned to him and said “Naaah. As soon as he puts money on it or I put money on a name he picks out it never wins! It is bloody weird!”

So in other words whenever it is anything that is beneficial to me personally it never works out but I thought that my blogs were the one thing that I could control that would? I would just have to be bloody patient. I am beginning to realise I might need the patience of a saint?!

With eight years to go?!

I just hope those eight years are not sitting around watching this country and others tell more lies, ever more corruption being revealed and actually start turning the corner for the better.

But familiarity breeds content.

I even thought about joining a club or even doing a course somewhere? Though feck knows how I would get there and cope with my personal life while doing anything?

I would definitely require certain … support and tools.



Monday, 20 October 2014

THE ICING SUGAR

Well I thought I had fallen asleep and awoke finding myself within The Twilight Zone?!

Knowing what one of my difficulties had been over the years and one that fell upon deaf ears, though ears long gone this still occurs! My other... problems that have been systematic in bringing a great deal down into the doldrums.

I may have touched upon the one I have linked below several times within these pages. However, never did I dream I would ever see a news report that echoes what I have stated fire many years?!
Being, hmm let's just say, smart/wise is a curse and guess against you I am afraid unless you range serious steps to hide it. Oddly enough I could draw many conclusions from this and the state of things in a list so long it weighs need is own... umm BLOG?! LMAO!

YOINKS!

Anyway here is a link where it is claimed that the further up the corporate ladder you go the "dimmer" people get, but no doubt the more greedy and lazy they get too.

Oddly enough I am working, mentally right now, on a piece that will be to do with the computer game industry, it's utter greed and how they do not give a fuck that is obvious and reasons this needs to stop. And stop now!

Unfortunately it won't make for a good read fit those culpirits and I am afraid I am going to hit home runs while giving a ticking off to naive users handing money over hands over foot like the naive prices they are and helping ruin things for the rest of us with working grey matter!

Taking this claim about those higher up being more dim-witted the higher you get? Well I did state from the start of this blog I shingle to try very hard to get threatened with being taken to court and then taken to court?! Some months ago I have up on them being smart enough to have people on the payroll looking for people like me and instead declared this blog to a few, not all but enough, lol.
For instance not my last GP that claimed I did but I did the GP previous to him and I did the NHS recently. I did not to Atos but did to the DWP.

I had theories I had long since stated on here and was fully intent on proving them. One method was to mention to some of what I was up to, imply that I had divulged to all and let the loosest lips sink the biggest ships. Of course as I stated there were a great many facets to all this and here I explain another.

Damn it! I just remembered something I had forgotten and I bloody well forgot what it was... 

AGAIN!

oops yeah, even that there, annoying as I find it, is indeed another facet!

Riddle me this...

When one argues with them all
Be he angry at the fool
When not one have yet to see
Forgotten rhymes for all to read

Why firms don't want you to be brilliant http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/business-29617115

Thursday, 24 April 2014

GIS A JOB!

Well I do not know of any other news report that I have come across to sum up something so simple add this one!

In a very short report by the BBC it states that in America, sorry not here folks ... at least not yet, at some function a teen year old girl approached err Mrs Obama and handed the first lady her father's CV starting he had not worked for several years! Mrs Obama hugged the little girl!

That about says it all really. But mainly it states that there are still some serious issues regarding work in North America and that we seem to almost shadow them in these respects?

I read things like this and then wonder the will the quotes of our own government admit how much better we are doing and how this will improve?! It had always been a sad fact to me at any rate that we seem, as do others, to rely on America doing well for our own sakes? But then as our own pioneering industries have been systematically destroyed, dissolved or sold off many of these industries have been in great need in recent times.

In fact I an name two obvious ones of gold and science but with the admission that I am totally befuddled but pleased that the wonder material that had been the buzzword of recent times was created here between ourselves and the Irish. Though I am not entirely sure of the nationality of one who could be eastern European or even Russian?

That material is of course Graphene!

Being completely interested in many cutting edge areas of science I am quite excited by this creation. I cannot wait to see the effects of its use in electronics! But I am in for a nail biting wait add they are hoping to have manufacturing plants producing the material by the kilo by the end of 2014? We can only hope!
Looking about my other blogs, which I now need to start beavering  away on and making them more of a priority over the next 6 months, you wool not that my interests are far and wide. The vast majority are sciences from both ends of the spectrum and many between. I often soak of how scientists can become narrow minded to one area and got a brick wall when having an interest in many gives you a better idea and often answers seemingly unsolvable questions. The areas of animals would have the least benefit of Graphene, other than the gadgets that are used for their husbandry of course, but the areas that will see the greatest benefits could be computers, even if not at first.
The central processing units that sit inside the device you are using that is essentially the brain, for want if a better word, had biting hitting brick walls for awhile now. Anyone who followed this and had done for awhile week tell you that microchips are essentially slithers of silicon with tiny switches inside. You might immediately think of a light switch and this is essentially what they are! Each one represents a value from a choice of two, on and off or 1 or 0. There are a few mite details involved but this is what they are and the two number system used is of course binary. Now I could start cartwheeling off about the emergence of a process to represent three values in a single atom, spinning left/right/both ways but this is for another time. Simply realize that a single atom can carry three. Currently the switches and pipelines are a tiny fraction of the width of a human hair and when last I checked a two year old or more CPU at either 90 nanometers or 45 nanometers was about 40 atoms across. The trouble is they keep attempting to shrink them every couple of years and of late they get issues with the process. Now as the tiny sizes get smaller there was once upon a time two benefits; the smaller size meant mire transistors ( switches ) packed in and it ran with less heat. The heat which is produced by your CPU, including your PlayStation or XBox, is the wasted material or result of the inefficient chip! Might sound odd but when the frequency of the chip is cranked up the electrons are pushed through faster, but did to the nature of the design some of these quite literally leak out, this results in heat. So it is safe to say that the hotter a chip is the less efficient it is. In the two main companies there is a swapping around every so many years as to who had the hottest chips, because one cranks up the click frequency to try and compete with the other because gamers seem to think that 80 frames per second playing something like my Elder Scrolls Skyrim game is far better than 60 frames per second despite the fact your eyes cannot detect this?!

Essentially there is only one reason you could reliably give, without sounding like an idiot, as to why you purchase a system that  way over powered for anything you can buy today! I know because I built a system like this and would do so again if I could and that is that if you pay the money today then you know that in three years time you can still play the latest games with all their extra graphics and realism and not have to build another system just yet.

But it's not quite like that with others. For some strange reason many gamers not only replace these chips very regularly but they also do so with two extremely powerful graphics cards linked together?! This is known as either crossfire or SLI depending on which of the two graphics chips families you plump for. Yes they put there own graphics cards up for sale in the hope of then receiving the money to add to their own to buy cards, costing up to £700, and some far higher, each to them play the same games they were playing with no visual difference whatsoever on the one they just sold just so they can see a test that states it is 25% or more or so many frames per second higher than their last RIG.
Then despite the fact that the current cards all play everything effortlessly, unless your an idiot at the tight added end of the scale and pay way less than £100 for just one card, they are on the Internet complaining that the newest to of the range chip is only 5 or 10 percent faster than the one is replaces?! Quite obviously spoilt by the release that had bigger increases in speed!

They actually get into camps of one company or the other and fling insults at each other and poking fun at each others CPUs our graphics cards?! Doing the work of companies worth billions of dollars who could not give two hoots about their customers! Especially one that has a microchip out that physically had eight cores inside it, effectively eight chips in one, yet only 6 of them work! You can trust me on this that this is quite intended and is extremely rife practice and you own something that is far more capable than you think but had been deliberately hindered. Your smart phone for one! They are the worst because you have no less than there companies fecking about with it bit wanting you to be able to do certain things with the device you just handed them 800 quid for!!

In the case of the 6 core CPU that is actually 8 this happens for one of two reasons. In this instance it is because their rivals chip that did have right cores (is 8 don't argue and get a life) was not add good as the creators had hoped so the first company switched off two cores, either lasered of struck through before grown on the silicon wafers. Because if there is no competition there is no need to sell you something that week last you much longer!! The fact that they do this when they are one of the richest and most famous companies in the world I find utterly disturbing and I am not alone on that!

The company is Intel (of the Pentium fame) and the chip is their to Core i7 chip. It should also be noted that this chip costs on its own before you but motherboards, memory, hard disks, cases, peripherals and monitors is closer to a thousand quid in English money! For that they deliberately hamper your chip! The other eight core chip was lambasted by fans of Intel for being somewhat less powerful and yet it was fat in some aspects and cost less than 200 quid on release?! So they complained about a chip that was 60% of the speed in some cases yet cost 20% or so of the other chip?! Arguing the toss about this they was, lol.
Now it might not immediately mean much with all this talk about the number of cores and you might think what is the point? But I can explain it quite simply. If you have a fair amount of music CDs and your converting them into mp3's or some other audio format for your mobile music player a single core chip from a decade back would convert a singer song in a few minutes. Today they can do this in second! But wait?! If they have 'x' amount of cores then they can do 'x' amount of songs at the same time! Oh yes and that is why we get excited, well because people like me can see ask the benefits! A show single core might have been able to control a couple of AI's, artificial intelligence, of people/aliens/animals, in a game. Today each core might be able to handle two to for times this and multiply that by the number of cores!

If you are not aware the specifications of the latest PlayStation 4 and XBOne surprised me. They both use the same chip but with slight differences. They use the underdog company, which is AMD and not Intel, but the chip uses less powerful cores but had EIGHT of them! You cannot buy this chip! I also expected them to use two graphics chips. This is because the underdog company produced a CPU with their very good graphics chip built INTO the CPU!! They have been doing this just a couple of years and it's now gotten to eyebrow raising proportions. The retail chip had only four CPU cores but now turns it that programmers can use the 8 graphics cores in the chip to handle non game related coding?! If out to good use in time this means that there is far less power used, or wasted, and can handle both having and noon gaming with aplomb! In essence a 12 core core chip?!

Price? £150 and they are complaining about that! Lol! Sometimes I scratch my head at the things I read about I really do! Added to this and admittedly there are issues but it's still early days in this technology but you can add just ONE graphics card and have your dual graphics set up! These new chips are quite correctly referred to as, not CPUs (Central Processing Unit) or GPUs (Graphics Processing Unit), APUs (Advanced Processing Unit).

For me these chips are teetering on the very edge of bedding extremely interesting, even now I very much would like to build one of these cheap systems. Of course despite computers being my thing, or one of them, the subject of my Degree but I am relying on them more and more for my chosen ... CAREER! LOL! The laptop I purchased two years ago plus was not the one I wanted at the time. I have been frustrated fur a long time by both it's lack of grunt and the typical Windows slowdown effect that had driven me nuts for years. It's painful right now and I am very averse to using it, which is a shame. To change some of this I stinky have to move away from using the normal hard disks, which work like audio tape but look like a whole set of record players stacked in top each other. For a free years now instead of the moving arms of the magnets shifting in and out of of all these disks you now have the option of something I stated to students at my University had to come at some point! Now you have Solid State Drives or SSD instead of the old HDD but these were expensive to start with. But there are no moving parts so less likely to breakdown but are several times faster and then some than hard disks! I wait seventeen minutes for Windows 7 to load where it would take merely seconds on an SSD. This also applies to everything that would normally be slow whether to load or compute things or load more things while using it!

The thing to do is have both dives while you out all your programs on the SSD due to loading and running things while files like documents, movies, music and the like would go on the HDD. Because these files do not need to load fast, add you watching and/or listening it's already losing it faster then it's playing! So you don't notice it. Unless your watching several movies at the same time of course!

I digress. So much so I have forgotten why I started this post! Lol!

This is of course my constant battle and chase of the tools I need to help me improve things. To help take away the aversions to work on things and therefore increase my production. In fact every aspect and every tool I use needs to be replaced by better ones and have done for something now.

I am currently determined to do something I know is either extremely hard or nigh on impossible. Build a PC and I am not talking about a thousand pound CPU  and two 800 pound graphics cards and a triple monitor screen set up! Oh no. A £140 APU motherboard, memory and SSD drive. So instead of £3000 we are talking ... umm let me fink?! Hmm around £500 plus the cost of a monitor.

Someone closer to me told me something that is very true and this is something that leads me right back around to the very reason I stated typing this post out ...

You have to spend money to make money!

However the people that are running my country, into the ground is all the evidence I ever see, do not seen to refuse this when they think they can snap their fingers and everyone sits simultaneously 'how high?'
While requesting help for living with my condition and telling the truth and consistently so, only forgetting certain aspects of it out from time to time, I have had it refused repeatedly. Desire the fact thus hero would have helped me in a job!
Running in parallel to these requests have also been the requests to help me fund a way of helping myself and creating my own business as such which had also been refused.

Yet these very organizations seem to know, no it's definitely know, whenever I spend a largish sum and the demands due payments for things that I not only should not have to pay but actually get no physical or visual benefit of!

If I decide to build this budget computer it will take me write awhile to do. Each item I buy week have to sit there untested until I complete the while system. Many individual items will take a month before I have the cash together just to buy each one and I would have to completely forego buying anything else! So it could be that it would take twelve weeks or more before I can build it! Twelve weeks of getting by with difficulties.
In other words it is a somewhat daunting task. It is also a daunting task I have been eyeing up the whole time I lived here which is 7 years! Lol! Last time I incorrectly decided on a laptop, a laptop less powerful than I was after and bought it from somewhere I should not have done after being misinformed about it. What I thought was ex demo was in fact refurbished! Not only this but built by probably the biggest name in computers it then broke down after some months and the casing came apart! The breakdown turned out to be the first hard drive failure I had experienced in ten years plus! The company was Hewlett Packard whose previous laptop I had lasted much better despite being plastic to the current ones aluminum housing?! Plus it took for years before the text started to come off the keys. About four of my keys on my current laptop had completely gone after just 6 months!!

Oh and it gets hot and is quite unmanageable is a portable device! Which kind of defeated the object of buying a laptop and I don't own any engine hoists! Lol!

I decided yesterday that I going to finally build this computer and I have already changed my mind, lol, while thinking if the other things I need like a working bike that's bit going to be the death of me in more ways than one!!

Life? What a pain in the fecking arse they make it while choosing to be Christian?!

Lol!

Girl gives father's CV to Mrs Obama http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/world-us-canada-27152091

Wednesday, 6 November 2013

LAYING TRAPS & GROUND RULES (Part Deus) - A LESSON IN CHESS

Well to accompany my last post I must also cover all areas pf potential finger pointing which will occur before very long now.

I have previously hinted that I have been....UP TO SOMETHING?! Lol.

Well now I am going to put a few things here which will allow me much more in the way of a defense against all comers and all accusations. Just as I have previously done for health. Also as I have previously done with my martial arts skills. Also as I have previously done with my intellect.

NOW IT IS THE TURN OF BEING LAZY!!

Now it could be argued that my blogs in themselves are proof positive that I am by no means lazy...badly motivated at times and terribly disorganized yes. But LAZY? NO!

HOWEVER...one could argue that I want o earn money sitting on my arse and am afraid of REAL WORK! Not so but I cannot get very far and even if I could I am not going to work dishonestly and nor am I going to put of with a master with a whip due to my health. BEEN THERE DONE THAT!

I stated recently that I dug out an old idea and dusted it down and kept it in the fore front of my mind. I also hinted that I have talked about this in recent times and I have also spoken to many about it?

Well as the blogs have taken longer than I expected and due to the incompetence of others as well as rife corruption costing me both time and money I decided that an old idea may help me in the interim period I now appear to be in.

Now when I say LOSSES I mean that these are directly attributed to BOTH private companies and public offices and have lost over £20,000 at a wild guess, because of it all.

So here now is a picture of a collection of items that I recently purched and got together, when Eon Energy pissed me off, and am nearly ready to begin!!


In the picture are Mad Harry's Tools with a Glass Cutter, Tile Cutter and Snapper, a HOBBY VICE, two clamps at 6 inches and 12 inches a tile/ceramic file, two different adhesive smoothers applicators and a set of tiny screwdrivers!!

Added this picture as a little hidden gem that links this to the last post, PART ONE, as not only is it far too hot in my house in the SUMMER but far too cold in the WINTER but I have the added disadvantage of having sunny days reward me with sunlight directly in my eyes.

SO im my tiny house of little room for maneuver the sofa seating position, sofa cannot go anywhere else quite literally, requires Mad Harry's Hat!! VIOLA!


Can you see where I am going with this?! LMAO!!

A collection of tools and I need a few more and some materials. My plan? Custom manufacturing of items the designs of which have been knocking around in my head for about 15 years or more. Courtesy of no less than TWO of my interests I have blogs on!! Ooh YEAHH!! LMAO!

Now do you think that there will be any reasonable and available government help?

Now I have managed to badger and bully various sections of the NHS and have narrowed my health condition down to Fibromyalgia do you think there will be a difference?

Do you think that I am in pole position now to run at the public offices with all guns a blazing shooting down in flames all the statements they have made over several years about how they ARE THERE FOR YOU?! That they can help you get back to work? Behind those willing to work for themselves? Odd really on how it os all now coming together to a finale that will likely only cover a period of a couple of months, maybe even a couple of weeks?!

I love watching a plan come together!!

LMFAO!!