THE DEFICIENT & THE INEFFICIENT

Folate Deficiency .. Vitamin B12. I think.

Yup .. a fecking nother one!

Once again this is not me as I have not had a GP for months but my daughter was diagnosed with it and called in to her GP Surgery yet again. So much for what a patronising GP said to her a few months ago, another GENERAL Practitioner blessed with X-Ray vision and not GENERAL at all, your too young to be having 'X'.'Y','Z' and cervical cancer. I bet he is feeling somewhat thick right about now.

Once again and once explained what it does my daughter was also absolutely convinced this was part of my condition and I suffered from the same. I did not think so .. until I looked up what it does and even saw that your vision can become affected and can get confusion along with the others.

Oh .. dear.

I then realised two things .. the GP that diagnosed the Hypomagnesemia (low magnesium) might have suspected this as well which is why he might have suggested Holland & Barrett's Vit ABC+ pills? Secondly that I switched this over to Holland & Barrett's Magnesium Calcium and Vitamin D3 pills. The idea being that I would get more magnesium?

But after hearing and reading about the folate deficiency I started to wonder if perhaps this is why I am still getting pains in both legs? Maybe there was something missing from the new Magnesium specific pills?

So today I decided to go and get some Vitamin B-Complex specific pills. While there I decided to get some Glucosamine Sulphate pills too .. for my ankles. Do not want to fall over when I am out while carrying camera equipment. If I ever get to do that again? Well they were cheap at £2.99 a bottle or two for £5.00.

Only on the way back the heart palpitations, which I had felt several times, got strong enough to slow me down to which I then became breathless and had to stop a couple of times. If the feet and hip pains were not enough right now!

I just know one of these days I am going to collapse.

I just hope that these pills will now make a difference? Only I do not have much confidence in them doing that and for two reasons. Well two reasons other than it is hard to imagine ever feeling normal and fully fit ever again. Because it has been such a long time since I have ..

First off if it is down to malabsorption then the magnesium and/or vitamin B-12 is simply not going to get absorbed no matter how much I ply myself with. That is how malabsorption works compared to what is just a deficiency. Deficiency just means your low on it and most likely down to diet. But malabsorption means that your body is not actually .. well .. absorbing it which will be down to another underlying problem and without a GP currently and them not investigating it for three years .. or even realising it was causing my conditions ..

Not only have they cause me a great deal of pain and suffering and placed other people's lives in danger but may well have signed my death warrant. All to save money and ordered to do these things by the government.

Regardless of who the fecking health secretary is!

But it is perfectly OK to pay salaries of between £50,000 per annum and £500,000 per annum to countless people to lie to you.

Oh and my thighs are aching too .. ooh .. took the B-12 but just remembered I had not taken my magnesium?!

Added to this my daughter tells me this morning that she went to go and speak to an organisation about working?!

Yeah ..

She then told me that her memory was getting worse. I reminded her that I told her when I was up there that her memory was bad. I watched her make mistakes all the time and three days in a row while she was out doing light shopping she forgot to being something back I had asked for. I remember her face on the second and then the third day of asking her getting more contorted each day. It was funny enough to make me laugh by the third day. She recalled me telling her this several times. She said ..

“Dad .. it is driving me mad. I keep leaving the house and getting 50 yards away and then start thinking I did not lock the door or leave the cooker on and going back to the house twice!”

Does this at all sound familiar to anyone that has been coming on here a very long time?!

Yeah .. it is me.

I reminded her that I went a few years of locking myself out many times, which she has done, but then suddenly never doing it ever again. Been going back to the house two or three times every time I leave it for for around six years or more.

She then said something very bizarre by stating that she now feels really sorry for anyone that has Alzheimer's Disease and been telling people that she thought that is what she had!

Yeah .. I told her it was down to the Fibromyalgia and that I had, had this for years and said the exact same things to my own family and friends.

Yeah so she said that she spoke to this guy, my .. was not a woman for once, and he suggested being a mentor?! Sound familiar? Lol. He suggested this after she told him about her domestic violence but she asked him about other help and told him the rest of it. He just sat there wide eyed and in shock as the story unfolded. It is not the only time this story is set to unfold but more about that in the weeks to come.

He was in sock because she had been forced itnto this position by the government and public services despite ..

• Cervical Cancer not even been operated on yet .. CIN Stage 1A
• Fibromyalgia Syndrome (Long list of symptoms in itself, pain, mental health, memory)
• Behcet's Disease (Long list of symptoms)
• Hypomegnesmia (Which can itself be fatal, can affect vision, can affect memory, Heart, Liver and Kidney Disease, Cardiac Arrest, Heart Attack, Sudden Death Syndrome)
• Trigeminal Neuralgia (Extreme facial pain)
• Folate Deficiency (Long list pain in the arse symptoms, can affect vision, memory, confusion)
• Borderline Right Axis Deviation (Heart Palpitations)
• Sinus Rhythm (Irregular Heart Beat)
• One child severely Autistic and getting worse
• Another one possibly .. does not talk
• Two other children
• Half rent being paid
• Victim of Domestic Abuse
• Victim of many other things
• Not a single bit of help on anything from the NHS, DWP and Wirral Council

Yeah .. he sat their wide eyed as all the details of the above unfolded before his eyes.

Then he became helpful!

Started talking about how she would be well paid.

That she would get her child-care paid and to speak to the school about it.

Said that she would get the one thing I so wanted for her as a child .. to get trained and qualifications like me?!

I have to speak to her further and will delay posting this up to get the name of the organisation she spoke to .. to publish the name and people can have a look around to see if there is anything around near them that may be able to help.

I have now found out the nae of the organisation and they are ..

Involve ..

www.inolvenorthwest.org.uk

So north west only it looks like? Unless there exists a Involve North-East, Involve Central, Involve South-East and Involve South West?

There is no doubt that a lot of planning went on with the Puppet Masters (remain hidden), the Puppets (UK Government), the NHS (First who save money and do the same for ..), the DWP and Local Councils. Do you know what that is? Secret group, person or monarchy ordering the government to conspire or corrupt the NHS to break Hippocratic oaths and kill and risk people's lives to save money? That is a ..

GOVERNMENT CONSPIRACY

Does not mean a mad and untrue theory. Planning or conspiring to deceive or cheat. If it is the government doing this then it is a government conspiracy. The end. Sorry, no tin foil hats needed for this one. Nor any of my other claims.

Not claimed the earth is flat and do not even get me started on them.

Not claimed to have seen or believe in Bigfoot.

Not claimed to have seen or be abducted by aliens .. though .. the jury is still out on a small number of reports out of all the thousands and thousands.

Do not believe in a fantastical and impossible deity of any kind. I am first and foremost a scientist which means I am big on facts! I tried to show these in recent posts.

Batrachology, Ichthyology, Herpetology, Astronomy, Astrophysics, Quantum Mechanics, Orhidaceae, Carnivorous Plants, Seismology, Volcanology, Meteorology and many others. Yeah these subjects and any science, apart from the hacks and TV whores, is about about the facts. A shame that many people are not about the facts and even manufacturing their own while not caring about others?

Lol.

As for me? Yeah .. a little difficult to know what I am going to do or how I am even going to get out of my current situation?

However I should not be in this current situation as I have been working for nearly six years to avoid events like all of those that have happened to me in the last seven months or so.

I blogged for all that time on different subjects and a blog dedicated to exposing all of this and therefore help others. Mostly the idea of pre-arming others by pre-warning them of what they are walking into. Therefore removing their blinkers.

Funny as it did not go viral. After six years it is still only on a slow climb. But I am helping others?

Yeah well ..

The woman that set up that petition against the PHSO went on Facebook today to encourage more people to sign it and I am guessing that this is because it has been growing very slowly? I know that feeling!

She is asking in the wrong place, unless it is one of many she has posted. Because you do not get enough people on there to make a difference and most have probably already seen it and probably already signed it. It is all about reaching new people. Which is actually the problem I have had.

Yeah .. yeah I had people tell me that my blog was popular two or three years back.

Oh and I just had to explain this to the woman who set up the petition as she left a comment directed to me. She said that which I have said that ..

“Unless it happens to them, people do not care”

I said that I know this, can prove it with a screenshot .. here it is and make a note at the numbers on the right column. You will note that the one picked out by the red arrow is way, way, way bigger than all the others? Aussie Flu ..

Yeah that went viral .. to a degree and all because of one thing ..

Everyone was shit scared about themselves and scared about getting this Aussie Flu as they heard people were dying from it.

But people are dying because of the government, the NHS, the DWP, Local Councils and the hidden Puppeteers.

They do not care until they have to deal with one of the evil trinity. While they have nothing wrong why bother to help? Probably think financially things will get better for them, less taxes so why bother to complain? Not happening to them or anyone they know so why bother to share these posts? In fact why bother to even read them?

How do I know this? Because I have been helping people for six years and I have not received a single penny .. while others cannot spent a few minutes spreading a few posts. That's how. Lol.

In fact when I do get likes or followers they are basically people making money .. have a business and charge for it and hope that anyone they like and follow will go to them, become a potential customer and even if they get paid by ten percent of these people it is an income.

Not all the time this is the case but half the time it is.

As for that petition that lady is disappointed with? Well I did state that not many bother with the complaints process as it takes too long and there are three hops of fire you have to jump through before you get fecked over by the PHSO and realise they are corrupt and lie too. So it was never going to get that many .. and the government know only too well that due to amoral people, naïve people and very few that have gone through the process that no one will sign it Because they are amoral, think it wont happen to them and it cannot possibly be true. Even when you spell it out that you have the evidence to prove it .. they then turn into what I call sand-heads. Lol.

https://petition.parliament.uk/petitions/212437Justice

They must all be laughing their heads off at how stupid everyone has been and how they designed and planned things so well that they could get away with this year after year after year and nothing would happen and none of them would have to face any consequences ..

Jimmy Savile stylee?!

Facebook Page for NHS Negligence ..

https://www.facebook.com/groups/578088858916429/permalink/1760514100673893/?comment_id=1760664447325525&reply_comment_id=1769039686488001

Another Facebook Page for NHS Negligence ..

https://www.facebook.com/groups/nhscomplaint/?ref=br_rs

Disabled and starting to think your being screwed over you might want to check ..

DPAC's Facebook Page ..

https://www.facebook.com/groups/DPAC2011/

Government Corruption? Over 27,000 people have liked this following page ..

Stop UK Lies & Corruption ..

https://www.facebook.com/stopukliescorruption/?ref=br_rs

GIS A JOB!

Well I do not know of any other news report that I have come across to sum up something so simple add this one!

In a very short report by the BBC it states that in America, sorry not here folks ... at least not yet, at some function a teen year old girl approached err Mrs Obama and handed the first lady her father's CV starting he had not worked for several years! Mrs Obama hugged the little girl!

That about says it all really. But mainly it states that there are still some serious issues regarding work in North America and that we seem to almost shadow them in these respects?

I read things like this and then wonder the will the quotes of our own government admit how much better we are doing and how this will improve?! It had always been a sad fact to me at any rate that we seem, as do others, to rely on America doing well for our own sakes? But then as our own pioneering industries have been systematically destroyed, dissolved or sold off many of these industries have been in great need in recent times.

In fact I an name two obvious ones of gold and science but with the admission that I am totally befuddled but pleased that the wonder material that had been the buzzword of recent times was created here between ourselves and the Irish. Though I am not entirely sure of the nationality of one who could be eastern European or even Russian?

That material is of course Graphene!

Being completely interested in many cutting edge areas of science I am quite excited by this creation. I cannot wait to see the effects of its use in electronics! But I am in for a nail biting wait add they are hoping to have manufacturing plants producing the material by the kilo by the end of 2014? We can only hope!

Looking about my other blogs, which I now need to start beavering  away on and making them more of a priority over the next 6 months, you wool not that my interests are far and wide. The vast majority are sciences from both ends of the spectrum and many between. I often soak of how scientists can become narrow minded to one area and got a brick wall when having an interest in many gives you a better idea and often answers seemingly unsolvable questions. The areas of animals would have the least benefit of Graphene, other than the gadgets that are used for their husbandry of course, but the areas that will see the greatest benefits could be computers, even if not at first.

The central processing units that sit inside the device you are using that is essentially the brain, for want if a better word, had biting hitting brick walls for awhile now. Anyone who followed this and had done for awhile week tell you that microchips are essentially slithers of silicon with tiny switches inside. You might immediately think of a light switch and this is essentially what they are! Each one represents a value from a choice of two, on and off or 1 or 0. There are a few mite details involved but this is what they are and the two number system used is of course binary. Now I could start cartwheeling off about the emergence of a process to represent three values in a single atom, spinning left/right/both ways but this is for another time. Simply realize that a single atom can carry three. Currently the switches and pipelines are a tiny fraction of the width of a human hair and when last I checked a two year old or more CPU at either 90 nanometers or 45 nanometers was about 40 atoms across. The trouble is they keep attempting to shrink them every couple of years and of late they get issues with the process. Now as the tiny sizes get smaller there was once upon a time two benefits; the smaller size meant mire transistors ( switches ) packed in and it ran with less heat. The heat which is produced by your CPU, including your PlayStation or XBox, is the wasted material or result of the inefficient chip! Might sound odd but when the frequency of the chip is cranked up the electrons are pushed through faster, but did to the nature of the design some of these quite literally leak out, this results in heat. So it is safe to say that the hotter a chip is the less efficient it is. In the two main companies there is a swapping around every so many years as to who had the hottest chips, because one cranks up the click frequency to try and compete with the other because gamers seem to think that 80 frames per second playing something like my Elder Scrolls Skyrim game is far better than 60 frames per second despite the fact your eyes cannot detect this?!

Essentially there is only one reason you could reliably give, without sounding like an idiot, as to why you purchase a system that  way over powered for anything you can buy today! I know because I built a system like this and would do so again if I could and that is that if you pay the money today then you know that in three years time you can still play the latest games with all their extra graphics and realism and not have to build another system just yet.

But it's not quite like that with others. For some strange reason many gamers not only replace these chips very regularly but they also do so with two extremely powerful graphics cards linked together?! This is known as either crossfire or SLI depending on which of the two graphics chips families you plump for. Yes they put there own graphics cards up for sale in the hope of then receiving the money to add to their own to buy cards, costing up to £700, and some far higher, each to them play the same games they were playing with no visual difference whatsoever on the one they just sold just so they can see a test that states it is 25% or more or so many frames per second higher than their last RIG.

Then despite the fact that the current cards all play everything effortlessly, unless your an idiot at the tight added end of the scale and pay way less than £100 for just one card, they are on the Internet complaining that the newest to of the range chip is only 5 or 10 percent faster than the one is replaces?! Quite obviously spoilt by the release that had bigger increases in speed!

They actually get into camps of one company or the other and fling insults at each other and poking fun at each others CPUs our graphics cards?! Doing the work of companies worth billions of dollars who could not give two hoots about their customers! Especially one that has a microchip out that physically had eight cores inside it, effectively eight chips in one, yet only 6 of them work! You can trust me on this that this is quite intended and is extremely rife practice and you own something that is far more capable than you think but had been deliberately hindered. Your smart phone for one! They are the worst because you have no less than there companies fecking about with it bit wanting you to be able to do certain things with the device you just handed them 800 quid for!!

In the case of the 6 core CPU that is actually 8 this happens for one of two reasons. In this instance it is because their rivals chip that did have right cores (is 8 don't argue and get a life) was not add good as the creators had hoped so the first company switched off two cores, either lasered of struck through before grown on the silicon wafers. Because if there is no competition there is no need to sell you something that week last you much longer!! The fact that they do this when they are one of the richest and most famous companies in the world I find utterly disturbing and I am not alone on that!

The company is Intel (of the Pentium fame) and the chip is their to Core i7 chip. It should also be noted that this chip costs on its own before you but motherboards, memory, hard disks, cases, peripherals and monitors is closer to a thousand quid in English money! For that they deliberately hamper your chip! The other eight core chip was lambasted by fans of Intel for being somewhat less powerful and yet it was fat in some aspects and cost less than 200 quid on release?! So they complained about a chip that was 60% of the speed in some cases yet cost 20% or so of the other chip?! Arguing the toss about this they was, lol.

Now it might not immediately mean much with all this talk about the number of cores and you might think what is the point? But I can explain it quite simply. If you have a fair amount of music CDs and your converting them into mp3's or some other audio format for your mobile music player a single core chip from a decade back would convert a singer song in a few minutes. Today they can do this in second! But wait?! If they have 'x' amount of cores then they can do 'x' amount of songs at the same time! Oh yes and that is why we get excited, well because people like me can see ask the benefits! A show single core might have been able to control a couple of AI's, artificial intelligence, of people/aliens/animals, in a game. Today each core might be able to handle two to for times this and multiply that by the number of cores!

If you are not aware the specifications of the latest PlayStation 4 and XBOne surprised me. They both use the same chip but with slight differences. They use the underdog company, which is AMD and not Intel, but the chip uses less powerful cores but had EIGHT of them! You cannot buy this chip! I also expected them to use two graphics chips. This is because the underdog company produced a CPU with their very good graphics chip built INTO the CPU!! They have been doing this just a couple of years and it's now gotten to eyebrow raising proportions. The retail chip had only four CPU cores but now turns it that programmers can use the 8 graphics cores in the chip to handle non game related coding?! If out to good use in time this means that there is far less power used, or wasted, and can handle both having and noon gaming with aplomb! In essence a 12 core core chip?!

Price? £150 and they are complaining about that! Lol! Sometimes I scratch my head at the things I read about I really do! Added to this and admittedly there are issues but it's still early days in this technology but you can add just ONE graphics card and have your dual graphics set up! These new chips are quite correctly referred to as, not CPUs (Central Processing Unit) or GPUs (Graphics Processing Unit), APUs (Advanced Processing Unit).

For me these chips are teetering on the very edge of bedding extremely interesting, even now I very much would like to build one of these cheap systems. Of course despite computers being my thing, or one of them, the subject of my Degree but I am relying on them more and more for my chosen ... CAREER! LOL! The laptop I purchased two years ago plus was not the one I wanted at the time. I have been frustrated fur a long time by both it's lack of grunt and the typical Windows slowdown effect that had driven me nuts for years. It's painful right now and I am very averse to using it, which is a shame. To change some of this I stinky have to move away from using the normal hard disks, which work like audio tape but look like a whole set of record players stacked in top each other. For a free years now instead of the moving arms of the magnets shifting in and out of of all these disks you now have the option of something I stated to students at my University had to come at some point! Now you have Solid State Drives or SSD instead of the old HDD but these were expensive to start with. But there are no moving parts so less likely to breakdown but are several times faster and then some than hard disks! I wait seventeen minutes for Windows 7 to load where it would take merely seconds on an SSD. This also applies to everything that would normally be slow whether to load or compute things or load more things while using it!

The thing to do is have both dives while you out all your programs on the SSD due to loading and running things while files like documents, movies, music and the like would go on the HDD. Because these files do not need to load fast, add you watching and/or listening it's already losing it faster then it's playing! So you don't notice it. Unless your watching several movies at the same time of course!

I digress. So much so I have forgotten why I started this post! Lol!

This is of course my constant battle and chase of the tools I need to help me improve things. To help take away the aversions to work on things and therefore increase my production. In fact every aspect and every tool I use needs to be replaced by better ones and have done for something now.

I am currently determined to do something I know is either extremely hard or nigh on impossible. Build a PC and I am not talking about a thousand pound CPU  and two 800 pound graphics cards and a triple monitor screen set up! Oh no. A £140 APU motherboard, memory and SSD drive. So instead of £3000 we are talking ... umm let me fink?! Hmm around £500 plus the cost of a monitor.

Someone closer to me told me something that is very true and this is something that leads me right back around to the very reason I stated typing this post out ...

You have to spend money to make money!

However the people that are running my country, into the ground is all the evidence I ever see, do not seen to refuse this when they think they can snap their fingers and everyone sits simultaneously 'how high?'

While requesting help for living with my condition and telling the truth and consistently so, only forgetting certain aspects of it out from time to time, I have had it refused repeatedly. Desire the fact thus hero would have helped me in a job!

Running in parallel to these requests have also been the requests to help me fund a way of helping myself and creating my own business as such which had also been refused.

Yet these very organizations seem to know, no it's definitely know, whenever I spend a largish sum and the demands due payments for things that I not only should not have to pay but actually get no physical or visual benefit of!

If I decide to build this budget computer it will take me write awhile to do. Each item I buy week have to sit there untested until I complete the while system. Many individual items will take a month before I have the cash together just to buy each one and I would have to completely forego buying anything else! So it could be that it would take twelve weeks or more before I can build it! Twelve weeks of getting by with difficulties.

In other words it is a somewhat daunting task. It is also a daunting task I have been eyeing up the whole time I lived here which is 7 years! Lol! Last time I incorrectly decided on a laptop, a laptop less powerful than I was after and bought it from somewhere I should not have done after being misinformed about it. What I thought was ex demo was in fact refurbished! Not only this but built by probably the biggest name in computers it then broke down after some months and the casing came apart! The breakdown turned out to be the first hard drive failure I had experienced in ten years plus! The company was Hewlett Packard whose previous laptop I had lasted much better despite being plastic to the current ones aluminum housing?! Plus it took for years before the text started to come off the keys. About four of my keys on my current laptop had completely gone after just 6 months!!

Oh and it gets hot and is quite unmanageable is a portable device! Which kind of defeated the object of buying a laptop and I don't own any engine hoists! Lol!

I decided yesterday that I going to finally build this computer and I have already changed my mind, lol, while thinking if the other things I need like a working bike that's bit going to be the death of me in more ways than one!!

Life? What a pain in the fecking arse they make it while choosing to be Christian?!

Lol!

Girl gives father's CV to Mrs Obama http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/world-us-canada-27152091