UNFAIR TRIALS & TRIBULATIONS

This one I've wondered whether or not to speak about but as progress on so many things has been so slow .. I thought I would.

Domestic violence is a bad, bad thing.

It is not something I ever thought would happen to someone I was related to but has now happened twice that I know of.

This latest one end up with scarring on their arms, one child nearly thrown out of a window and they're are other things that must be far worse because they won't tell me.

There are things I have been told that are just too graphic to put on here.

The victim of scared about a lot of things ..

Three cancer scares I keep taking about.

Two autistic children.

Her other odd symptoms she now knows is a disability she inherited from me which involves memory problems.

Two other children, four in total, and getting them stuff for school, to school and everything else that comes with it.

I watch her struggle in the mornings .. and yet the children somehow have a good attendance record. I simply don't know how.

This morning she was later than usual. You could see her frustration.

Two autistic children screaming over something or the other and needy-boy bleating, he is always loud and high pitched, about food or other things.

The very idea that this might become my responsibility fills me with absolute terror! If I'm still alive of it ever comes to that.

Last night she said something that worried me I never mentioned in that previous post ..

.. she is intending to refuse treatment is inevitable they are going to need to have to give her.

Basically excision of pre-cancer. Might be worse yet, they don't really know. It's just classed on high-grade based on what are small biopsies.

We still have a biopsy result from another area yet!

And I'm sitting here waiting for this damn double flu to pass so I can help more than I am?!

I've made sacrifices I never dreamed I would make.

I'm living in an area I never dreamed I'd ever live in, in a million years.

I'm wondering if my heart will give up at some point or I'm rushed into hospital.

But I have to watch in silent frustration and anger as she does what she has to do.

It's a date worse than death and by the looks of it, for both of us.

I've often championed good causes on here over the years .. I never imagined I'd become part of a really bad one myself?!

Maybe she will change her mind again like she did the house?

So .. will he get sentenced?

I heard one accusation .. despite being unconscious with a fever for an hour or two while another support worker was here .. in a zombie like state I had to hold back, or try, convulsions as I wanted to laugh.

It involved having something done to him that was .. phallic and .. a place where sunlight does not come to rest?!

I have suddenly been asked for a Police check. No problem there .. kinda funny. I wonder what he said about that which would warrant a Police check? I gave my addresses and date and place of birth accordingly.

Maybe when they have checked I might get told what this accusation is? Well I know he is a lying piece of scum but then every single one of his type have turned out to be like that anyway. I am told its part of their .. culture towards others.

In fact he and his brethren have made my life a living hell for the last ten years. That is ten years and despite the fact that they have been helped and allowed to do this .. the victims and sufferers of their actions have been kicked in the teeth .. repeatedly.

I have lost count of the number of times I have ended up in A&E. The number of Doctors and Specialists across GP Surgeries and Hospitals. It is now seven for the former and six or seven for the latter. Though I am expecting the latter to increase.

The torture of what these people are allowed to get away with along with the symptoms I have had to endure, anxiety being the worst and has you praying to die, what your own public services do to you on top of all this is .. just inhuman of the highest order.

So here we are wondering if he will get away with it because we hear of others that have gotten away with it.

If he does he fully expects to get back into the fold, so to speak, as if nothing has happened.

We thought that maybe there was something .. wrong with him .. like being autistic himself but one of the visiting support workers says no. He states that he is very nice normally and polite but when the subject of his .. wife rolls around he .. turns.

If I die and an forced to return to this Earth at some point them I pray it's a far better world than this one?!