IT IS ALL ABOUT THE MONEY

I was just explaining to someone earlier about how much debt we are in, how long the cuts have gone on and how long it will take to get out.

We wont get out because they go after the money in the wrong places, people with health conditions, disabled people, unemployed and the low paid. Very little money has been saved in comparison to how long we have now been at this.

So then how about going for it in the right places?

I stated that if Doctors, Hospitals, general Practitioners and Nurses have been asked to lie, lie and lie again then ... why have them at all?

I mean surely to God money will be saved a damn site quicker if you just shaved everything back to its bare essentials until you rebuild something better and more efficient?

How much money is being wasted employing people to say 'no' or 'computer says no!'?

The answer is; an effing lot!

So due to some things going on I have been looking around researching some things when I came across this webpage to do with drugs for Fibromyalgia. It is on www.drugs.com but will place the direct link below.

There is a long list of drugs that is something of a surprise to me and then some. Of course Lyrica, Pregabalin, is one of the most taken drugs as it is one of the best, but not the best, drug for the condition. 

Milnacipran I have discovered works a great deal better than even Pregabalin but this was refused to be allowed for Fibromyalgia by Europe! You know ... Europe!!

That same Europe also disallowed the one and only drug to deal with the root cause of Fibromyalgia, lack of restorative sleep, which is sodium oxybate. In effect it is a sleeping drug. Except it is not allowed because ... well basically it works too well.

But I hear you thinking ... but wait a minute? There are loads of sleeping drugs on the market? Are there? Because I have taken several and they did not do a damn thing. Well except for a whole string of people in a line making money out of it though. Apart from that the drugs do not work ... unless takenm in a very high dose along with tranquilisers. I know this because I have done that!!

When your desperate and those tasked with helping you do fuck all then desparate times means desperate measures, I am afraid to say.

I did not know about Cymbalta, or duloxetine but have Savella, or Milnacipran.

Tramadol is a suprise addition to that list because a pain specialist told me it would not work on my Fibromyalgia over two years before Fibromyalgia was diagnosed ... yeaah I am going to let that one sink in a little tiny bit ...

If and when you look be careful as some drugs are listed twice .... Lyrica, which is Pregabalin, is listed along with the drug in its chemical name ... errr Pregabalin. Meaning close to 500 people reviewed the drug for the condition and by far the highest on their.

Except I cannot tell you what it is like because I have been refused it for three whole years.

Anyway if you have Fibromyalgia or Chronic Fatigue Syndrome you might want to use the last below. Many of these do not work or only work minimally for me but they might work for you?

Oh and one last thing ... if I wanted to use the system to get money then when accused of being mad and need psychiatric treatment by a previous GP, because he was a liar and a wanker, then I would have said ... YES!! Dumb arses!

Just wanted to say that one last thing, lol.

https://www.drugs.com/condition/fibromyalgia.html

THE MISSING MOTIVATION

I am just lacking in energy and drive of late.

I have hardly been out of the house the last two days and I am struggling to find something to motivate me today, really, really most unlike me.

The weather is crap and looks to stay that way a number of days, marvellous.

Plus there was some bizarre name dropping recently and some information reached my ears that not only did no one tell me but involves someone I recently mentioned.

God, I hate it when the men I know allow the egos to rule them.

There has also been a death in the family though I found out several days late, as one member of the family has failed to delete a five year old mobile phone number from her phone despite being asked to do this a dozen times.

Also my sister is expecting her first ever baby, and I wish her luck with that. However she is finding and will continue to find over the next ten months that we now live in a country lacking compassion, despite the number of help, advice and support organisations there claims to be out there.

This will hit her hard as she has worked her backside of for twenty years or more often at the expense of many things friends and family related.

She is already living with ... well 'in laws' despite them both working because the house prices and rent prices went way beyond ridiculous over a decade ago.

Stupid, stupid prices that are not realistic in any way only made worse by the constant influx of you know who combined with the lack of building both cheap homes and social housing. Then you factor in to all this the growing number of Londoners, though there aren't many left.

Good God I really lack energy, I really do.

There are things I need to get and have done a couple of days and trying to use these menial chores to get my arse out of my door.

None helped by the fact I am stuck in a rut I never saw myself being in at this moment in time.

And I STILL need to replace my damn camera! LMAO!

Oh and a prescription pill has disappeared into a gap, as it did about two weeks back, in my throat and I only know as something is seeping out and burning like hell as it does so!

I cannot have this happening any longer and will discuss this with a dozen other things at my next GP appointment.Good God it burns ...

One of the following ...

• Gabapentin (which I oddly have wanted replacing years ago) - Fibromyalgia
• Tramadol (which needs either upping or replacing with something better) - Back Pain
• Ramipril (This not been checked for an age now ..) - Stage 2 Hypertension
• Oh its 173 Systolic and 108 Diastolic, Blood Pressure, so yeah not dealth with
• Atrovastatin - Blood Pressure and High Cholesterol
• Lansoprazole ( I have wanted Nexium for 4 years or so) Oesophagitis, Hiatus Hernia
• Metoclopramide - Bad nausea, Postural Hypotension, travelling on Bus in Cars or just in thoue HOUSE
• Quinine Sulphate - Night Cramps, really bad night cramps, I cannot speak a single word
• Amitriptyline - Fibromyalgia
• As the first three are contained in capsules I will assume that it was one of those three getting stuck?! Need LIDOCAINE!!

THE MEGA CRAP

It is funny how things go sometimes.

I am a person that strives to do things the right way. It is all in the planning and the preparation for me and always will be. A an old friend of mine used to state how I used to knock on his door to the very minute that I text him that I would.

8pm was always a common time.

Now that I never planned, it was always an estimate of how long it would take me to get there from wherever I was.

But in many other things I plan and like to be meticulous and although I can admit that this is not the case 100% of the time I get annoyed with myself when I am not meticulous.

I thought long and hard about writing this post out and during the brief period, less than 24 hours, several things went wrong. Two of them in the last few hours.

But in my case it is almost always down to someone else, so out of my control, or it is down to something to do with me that someone else was tasked to deal with and have not.

Just as I fired up my PC to type this up I was met with an error as I tried to access my bank account to see my … balance. It is not what it should be. Though I cannot state what it will be … just higher than it is. I will get to this shortly.

No internet connection!

I looked at my Wi-Fi device and no green light. This is odd as it I plugged into a USB Hub that has been fine so far, except that sometimes when I turn it on I get no keyboard, spotted early on as I have a Roccat MK Pro keyboard that lights up blue. Or in other words … NO LIGHTS!

After this happening for around the sixth time I decided I had, had enough, unplugged the keyboard and plugged it directly into my motherboard. No more issues. Well … until a few minutes ago when I had no WIFI device.

I then realised that said WIFI device was plugged into the same USB hub as the keyboard and had not failed to come on when the keyboard had. Or so I thought but now realise that I would not have accessed my browser with no keyboard working! Umm … I think. Well I can and I know how to. I just do not think I would have done that.

I then realised, or more correctly remembered, that I have had a terrible set of experiences with USB hubs. In fact the word 'terrible' is an understatement and I remember even a few years back wanting to look into things on the Internet as I was sure there was some universal issue with them?

Well let me put that into perspective …

I have purchased five HUBS, one for someone else recently and four for myself over 5 years and if this one is failing that will be a 80% fail rate for USB hubs. Meaning the only thing preventing this from hitting 100% is the new one plugged into a friends computer. A computer I recently rebuilt … AGAIN because a two year old Asus motherboard's USB ports were failing?!

YUP! You read that correct.

I have never had issues with USB ports of any kind until around 5 years back!

It also gets a little … weirder …

Yesterday I turned off my PC, with my keyboard that sometimes refused to come on now plugged into a USB socket on the motherboard. I was milling around doing some things before retiring to watch a film on Blu-Ray when I saw my keyboard still lit up and cursed myself for not switching the PC off as I thought I had, or wondered why it had decided to restart?

The screen was black. Wiggled the mouse and nothing. Hit keyboard keys and still nothing. Turned the monitor off and on again (groan) and nothing. Thought “HUH?!” looked down at my Corsair Tower Case and no blue glow from the front fans … the PC was indeed OFF?!

Looked back at the keyboard and still the thing was lit up like a Christmas tree!

Head in hands moment followed while shaking my head thinking “What the fuck is going on with everything in the world today?!”

Three hubs of the four have not worked out of the box!

That is with one motherboard's USB ports completely failing and taking me several weeks, upgrading XP to 7 and another USB 3.1 expansion card! Now my one playing games. These are not the cheapest motherboards on the market either. One second from cheapest model of Asus and my one the MSI Gaming Series motherboard. So around £50 and £90 respectively. Yes there are much dearer motherboards, those Intel ones being a complete rip-off, but there are cheaper ones too.

The only plus note before I continue is that I have managed to stop the pain from my new shoes, after spending over £10 on over priced sticky felt, corn pads, from Boots I now do not need.

Well that is something I guess, much relieved about that.

Except, and I think I have mentioned previously, that I have been having some real hell with my back pain and then some. I have not left the house in the last few months without it being painful within minutes of standing still somewhere! Quite literally.

I have had periods of this happening but it comes and goes for weeks at a time but this time it seems to be doggedly remaining and I said to friends I am going to have to request an operation if this keeps up!

One day I took a load of Tramadol and ended up very, very stoned!

However this is not the only thing as recently I have been getting some griping with my stomach and I have no idea why. Though admittedly due to donating everything I have for another cause several times I have not eaten correctly.

But along with the griping I have also been feeling sick, think real bad travel sickness to the point of throwing up, almost every day for the past couple of weeks.

Thank fucking God I have new shoes to deal with the Plantar fasciitis type pain and sorted out the other pain the Hi-Tec's were causing on the dorsal section of my foot. It seems you cannot tie the laces in the place I always tie laces on boots like this, second down from the top. If you do on these ones the tongue folds under the lumps that cover the lace sections and creates a series of over-size lumps that will grind into the top of your feet until it creates a sore area. An internal muscular sore area as opposed to a blister. Tie them up at the top holes and pull, or puff out, the tongue and problem gone.

The fact that I owned the previous design of these shoes and that never happened is a bit odd, I agree but this is what worked in the end.

So I have been sick several nights.

I resorted to using one of those knobbly back rollers I bought from TK Maxx a few months back when this pain had already lingered way too long. I also bought a TENS Machine at the time. Though like having skin tags on your back the GP tells you that you can deal with on your own … you cannot fucking reach! LMAO!

Those knobbly rollers, mine called Maji Roller, they feel great at the time but have no or little effect on my back pain.

So I have been pre-occupied and distracted by these things along with waiting for one of my plans to come to fruition. Well … it actually already has but I was actually waiting for that plan, involving … someone else, to sweep me up in its aftermath.

Now I am going to say … ooh my phones ringing and I will wager it is about this subject lol. I will say that no matter how intelligent you are you cannot always get some things right. You can narrow them down to a group of possibilities but unless an opportunity presents itself you cannot get one to stand out no matter how much you overthink it. Unless someone slips up or your there face to face it is simply impossible.

So you wind up with a list of possibilities. Some of these will not be good and are merely worst case scenarios. They may well be possibilities but like I keep trying to tell people over and over there is a reason I am so meticulous and a reason why I am right a large percentage of the time. Because some things might be possibilities to them but to me they are not because I have ruled them out using my own theory. It has always boded me well, more so in the last 5 years since I had to make some … tactical changes, lol.

Like my posts title 'TEN' and 'FIVE' I can only ever predict based on the behaviours, actions and statements of others. Yes this is referring to those posts.

I have not been able to publish the details due to it being both not the right time and positively self destructive.

I also had a prediction of when this will be.

Except that I was expecting a surprise visit by someone in a car, no not news media related but I have wondered about that it is true. That theory was also put forward as an excuse to why things had taken so long. People seemed to buy into it. I knew this would be brief.

So I decided a week would be long enough before I had to … do something. I gave nine days, almost, and … well had to say something.

Except I was told that it was going to have to wait another 3 months and would this be OK?

Well no!

I cannot place my own plans on hold for another three months.

I cannot pack up my daily pains into a box and put them away in a cupboard for another three months.

As to the naysayers? Yup, guaranteed three months of ripping the crap out of me!! I have had this for 4 months as it is for something that I was told was ending 7 months ago!

Oh dear!

Plus I have to plan to travel and … well I have planned and it has taken a lot of effort and a lot of work! All for naught now. Oh well, you live and learn but I am getting tired of how many times I have had to do that! Lol!

I have also put off being referred by my GP for both my still alarmingly high, as well as dropping way too low far too quickly, blood pressure. Or my back pain! AGAIN!

More bloody recordings to have to do now as I now cannot rely on anything.

I stated I had some proof being sent to me weeks ago now, remember? Never arrived.

I have not been able to acquire a single shred of evidence to that I have often alluded to in the last 7 months! Not looking good is it?

Pure logic, common sense and trust is all that I have had to go on and constantly promised I will prove all this at some point. But it has been going on for what seems like forever and I was asked if another 3 months was OK?! That is provided that just like that last 7 months there is not another delay or even series of delays?

If the latter was the case we would be looking at an entire year after I was told it was all over. An entire bloody year!

Oh plus it has cost me in the region of £5,000. Story of my life that would be fully understood if I explained it all.

Except I am not, because I am still protecting someone. Or several people actually. Still, a pain in the effing arse!

Ooh so maybe I could do something? Maybe I could move to get away from the negative people and the piss takers?! Except I have no cash! I will have in about two or three months but it is no good to me then!

Buy something? Been thinking about a few things lately actually. Nikon SLR D810a and an Astell & Kern Junior player. Except now its winter not much to take photos of and not feeling very jubilant and wanting to listen to music. Oh yeah, and I have no bloody money! Lol.

So what else can I do? How do I prove it?

• Paperwork? Tried that, did not arrive
• Money? Trying that now
• News Media? Out of my hands

I do in fact have another option. One I was going to do once I travelled out of town for a couple of months.

I have mentioned this option previously and have stated that I could have taken this option at any point in time. But decided to wait because the longer I waited the easier it would be.

I do not have to wait any longer and I have decided I am not going to wait any longer.

Now this will take a small amount of money, I still do not bloody have right now, and it will take time. Except it wont take four months. In fact it will not take three months.

I have attempted this previously … very, very previously! It can take a week to a month but at least when it does and provided I get something positive I will put it on here.

So I have two options remaining and one is supposed to be taken place today, waited 24 hours for a role reversal that I have done in minutes.

Despite having 24 hours to do what I did in return in minutes I am not expecting it to happen today, if at all.

My word, how bad does that sound? Lol.

In fact someone said to me that now that you have turned the tables around I bet they do not act as fast as you have acted, doing the exact some thing?!

Oops! Clever point to make that one, one I cannot argue with either. All I can say is just lack of thought, forethought or consideration.

Plus I have had something I had forgotten about brought up in conversation. Something that happened that looked decidedly bad and handled really badly at the time. Yup … that was true … this event did happen and it did look bad. I simply could find no argument to that one.

Yup, well it has been a full 24 hours now since making that request and I am afraid nothing has changed in the bank statements.

Someone said yesterday that “It's just another excuse and another delay. Delay after delay, excuse after excuse.” there was some other things said but I am not going to go into that right now.

GROAN!

I dropped enough hints about this.

What they decide to do about the request is up to them, but it is to release me of a fuck load of pressure and provide me with proof that what I have been told has been happening … well, has been happening!

They can honour the request and it still may not prove anything, quite the opposite in fact!

So things are a little on tender hooks right now. Because what may take place or nothing taking place will be decidedly final in more ways than one!

Though it is which of these finalities that remains to be seen. Hence the tender hooks!

Fashionably late is not out of the question and this can be anything up to four days. So in the event of nothing taking place the tender hooks can last anything up to four days.

Tender hooks is a regular occurrence in this particular subject. Admittedly it is rarely these days but these are events whereby each of which no one person on Earth would want to have to deal with.

Many? Death or the funny farm spring to mind when I think of others endurance to these things, lol!

Was that enough crap?

Well just this morning my stomach griping has turned into crap! Literally! LMAO! So I am now stuck indoors when my pets need food as the usual place was unable to obtain my usual regular purchases. Always down to others!

See? The Mega Crap!

THE WHOOZY SYNDROME

I feel very ... strange today.

The pills I have been given along with the ones I was already taking seem to have had a very bizarre effect on me which seems to have become stronger each of the three days I have taken them.

I feel tired and slow and that is an understatement, let me tell you. I ... I'm having difficulties thinking straight and carrying on with this post. I just want to lie down all the time and yesterday I was messaged in the late afternoon to be invited to a barbecue and I was out of it on the sofa. When I did read it I did manage to get there.

It is very weird and I hope it goes, I will not be able to function like this at all!

Oh my word! I am going to have to lie down even though it 5.17pm and I have been lying down upstairs for God know how long?!

The drugs are 300mg Gabapentin, 25mg Amitriptyline, 50mg Sertraline, 200mg Tramadol and 30mg Lansoprazole.

MORE THAN A PAIN IN THE NECK

Oh my word!

I do not know what had been going on the last few days but I have one hell of a pain in my neck!

I had intended to go cycling but first the wester lookee fine then there was some clouds and then I got tired. That annoying tiredness where I want to fall asleep on the sofa which like my grandmother is quite unlike me and yet for a couple of years now it is becoming much more frequent. I do suspect that the Amitriptyline might be affecting this, causing the increase in frequency that is. The sleepy days are not exactly new but have increased, partly why I do not like starting in. Well along with the boredom and the psychology of thinking if I do not do enough I will not sleep which then gives me an unspeakably horrid time the next day. Sometimes two.

So I ended up doing some housework, switching from a bit of tidying to a bit of washing up and getting done much needed clothes washed. In between all this I did stints on the computer but kept getting a really stiff and painful neck to the point of feeling sick.

What was bloody annoying is that I had gone to bed lady night hoping it would be give in the morning as I this yesterday too!

I have been changing things about and wonder if maybe the new positions are the cause of the neck issues? Oddly enough in trying to budget I did not buy the thing I wanted so bought something £15 cheaper. 

Unfortunately as much as I like the new gadget it might be a mistake? The gadget is in a position for me to use but has two differences to the one I originally planned. Height and length!

Oddly enough I decided that if this gadget was not suitable for its position I could get the original one I wanted at a later date and use this one I have now elsewhere.

I was not bargaining on this much aggravation and difficulty though! Now I am just using my tablet to type this out while laying on my back relieved the pain has subsided a little and I am not flinging my head back while starting at the ceiling while my right hand furiously squeezes my right rear quarter of my neck hard in the good that something my give/move/free up and the stiffness would simply evaporate. Instead all that evaporated was any hope that I could ease its intensity and it only got worse.

Gee whizz! Lol! I had my annual bath (joking of course!) during all that too! The diary of a fibro guy never reads the same twice! I imagine it is like that for women too? I really need to come into contact with those that suffer from Fibromyalgia, but in reality I secretly hope that there is no one else in the world that has to endure this!

Hmm maybe tomorrow? Maybe I will get out? Then it's three days until a payment arrives that allows me to all but finish Project Zero.

Which reminds me! I have a fair few videos I need to upside to the computer!

Hmm now where did I leave my Tramadol?!

PAIN, PAIN GO AWAY COME AGAIN ANOTHER DAY

Well what do you know?

I found this web page regarding Amitriptyline and pain which is the first time I have made a connection between these two.

Shockingly it actually refers to neuropathic pain too?! Why it has taken me this long to find out the details is beyond me.

What caused me to look is that one area of pain has been a little easier the last couple of days. But I do not know if I am just having a few good days or whether it IS the Amitriptyline. I have also not been out very much for three days, which is very, VERY rare for me.

So it will take a little while longer to ascertain if these pills are actually helping my pains. If so it will be only the second drug, bizarrely directly after the last, which has had any effect on this area. I still feel that the Pregabalin was the more sensible choice as this could have also replaced my Sertraline too to deal with my Anxiety Disorder, which I very much doubt the Sertraline has any affect on.

The Amitriptyline is also NOT making me ill either so that is a big bonus. It just remains to be seen that the current lower pain levels remain that way?! I have had less pain in my feet which includes the Plantar fasciitis pain along with the heel pain, bolts of electricity type pain along my feet.

Unfortunately it has no effect on the Metatarsalgia, knees, hip, groin, hip or back pains. But I take 100 to 200mg of Tramadol too which may or may not be effective. Not, at times that is for sure.

Of course I do not know how many pains  Pregabalin would have been effective towards? Also Gabapentin certainly did not help my back or shoulder pains, but was told this beforehand, or my groin or hip pains either.

Still relieving some pain to a more tolerable level I will be extremely thankful for. But falsely accusing me I will not be forgiving about, lol.

I found this page as the curiosity got the better of me, funny it is a UK web page, lol. Wonder what I might find if I search for the best painkillers?!

http://painconcern.org.uk/amitriptyline/

KITE FLIGHT TO VENUS

Well what a strange day.

I had to go and retrieve a prescription from my dentist and while there he asked which tooth it was.

Now I reminded him that it was next to the tooth he had previously removed and that because I did not flinch he said he would send me to the orthodontist.

He stopped me to correct new and said no he did not he sent me for...and I interrupted him for interrupting me and said yes obviously because I had an under bite. He then said yes but one statement does not follow the other.

At that point I thought I am not getting into this but could have embarrassed him extremely easily because one statement following the other is exactly how it occurred.

You did not flinch!! Hour getting tooth out that broke in two and you hardly moved.

Look you have an under bite that roll cause you problems and pain when your older, I can send you for free work to Chase Farm Hospital for treatment, students blah, blah, blah!

That is one statement following the other!!

But I was very high and had warned them. Due to yesterday and the amount if pain I had I decided that this morning I would take two Gabapentin, 200mg, and two Tramadol, 100mg.

I had the easiest walk I have had in over 12 years! Albeit high as a kite and still am  lol. Also I used to not take the tramadol until later in the day going that it might esse the effect of the gabapentin but did not think it had.

Do I was probably taking less tramadol than I normally did. Oddly I have had several drinks throughout the day and this time it was immediate throbbing but the combination of the two drugs seemed to be working on the tooth pain.

This really surprised me but I could very well be wrong. Even the Dentist got confused st how this was acting up and said i did not need antibiotics because I did not have an infection and I asked well how come the metranidazole work then? He said "well how do you know I have not given them to you?!" I said "well I have already stated on the phone that I had just finished a course s few days do and the pain had returned done the course ended!"

The receptionist, who could be his wife as I know she works at the practice looked sideways at him then at me and rolled her eyes and I smiled.

I do like him and he is a nice enough chap but today he really thought very highly of himself and obviously thought the fact her was a Dentist makes him more intelligent than his patients in all subjects but just Dentistry, lol.

I normally react to statements like his which is why just about every office and a few private companies across the UK walk around on eggshells when they gest my name our see my face.

Today I was NOT in the mood to turn around and point out that what he stated not to be the case was in fact exactly how it occurred!

I spent the entire day in a daze and floated around the place high as the proverbial kite!

Felt a bit uneasy when crossing Roads our must be said. Hopefully in a few days that will settle down. Bit too much right now.

Right now I'm fighting to stay conscious, lol.

A PERIOD OF A HIGH

OK that is what I currently am but it is somewhat weird.

I took my last pills, tipping me into overdose territory around 2pm. The feeling of being high started about 5pm, 3 hours later and I am till experiencing it now.

Bloody hell that is a cheap way to get stoned?! Certainly a great deal cheaper than Cannabis, lmfao!

So I find it completely bizarre that the stoned feeling came on three hours later and remained for several hours.

Definitely feel drugged up to the eyeballs and lack of anything to eat a large contributor to that.

My word that is going to take place a hell of a great deal over the next 3 weeks until I get paid IF I get paid at all?!

It has also just occurred to me that I had better watch myself to as this could be highly dangerous especially now I am on my bike a large majority of the time?!

Hmm come to think of it is there a law against riding on the road on a Mountain Bike while intoxicated?! I have been left with little choice in the matter if this is the case, lol.

JOINING THE SPACE CADETS

Owww, my God my right arm is in bloody agony...or I should say it is if I try and change the angle on it at the elbow?! Hmm despite 100mg Tramadol and 1000mg Paracetemol?! Hmm or was it 150mg Tramadol....

This is also somewhat weird I feel stoned now I am indoors and sitting down! Very weird.

I HAVE had bad reactions to general anaesthetics in the past and am sure I have mentioned each one in here at least once but I have never had a reaction to a local anaesthetic before hand and I have had plenty of them over the years!

Oddly the friend I had visited yesterday....woozy there for a moment,yes this friend had described similar things to what I had experienced and I said that was odd as I had felt like that for several days and thought something was 'going round' and perhaps I had some bug or virus. The weather has been up and down like there is no tomorrow and never before have I seen so many confused weather men, and women, who seems to be at a loss to explain it and constantly apologising for something that is neither theirs to control and nigh on impossible to predict with any certainty...

...ooh yeaaaaahhhhh but Oxford Council seem to think so, I had forgotten about that?! LOL!!

Well I had thought maybe it might be a bug but other than making me feel light headed and nearly passing out there has been nothing else other than the usual fair and run of the mill, WELL run of the mill for ME, stuff.

My word that must have been the worst day ever outside the house, other than that time I got very sick in my brother's car in Hertford?!

I will NOT be going out now for several hours at least, despite the fact I bought no shopping back other than a jar of HONEY and I seem to have errr three bike lights and intended to buy ONE! I have bought a headlight I already have in a set with a rear light I do not. Hmm seem to remember thinking twin headlights in my handlebars. These are a One23 set and I have an Oxford rear light that looks like the One23 rear light and along with that I have a head torch?! Oh yeah I know why I bought the head torch, lol. Amazing what my brain can bloody still think of when I am out of it?!

A shame it does not stop to calculate the BUDGET?!?!

Ooh now due to my woozy head and numb mouth added to the fact I cannot eat for several hours, hmm now have I eaten at all?! Err I digress I am considering watching a film or two in the hope that I will be with it again by the end?! 

Hmm I just realised I think it is my bicep in my right arm that hurts like hell and I cannot think why for the life of me...ooh I was doing a post on here and was typing it out as I walked to take my mind of the journey, woozyness and pain...

..nope cannot remember what hand I was using to hold the phone or type and nor can I even think where my rucksack was on my body?! It feel like I have carried a heavy weight a long way and my muscled has seized up from it but I only had my backpack and my phone, oh well and my walking stick and nothing heavy at all!

Maybe it will come back later on or tomorrow morning?!

Eyelids are heavy, maybe I will just fall asleep here at the laptop?

OK this is turning out to be one very weird day!

Decisions, decisions!

My Health: TANKED ON PAINKILLERS

Had to make a Doctors appointment I meant to have weeks ago regarding my vomoting involuntarily.

While out I went to the main library to check these blogs as I can never see if they are working correctly, they are than god.

I have had a great deal of headaches this last month ad today was a king size one as i stated on my Facebook account. SO that prompted me to go out to the Docs and I popped into a friends for a cup of tea and a chat about this kind of stuff on this blog, well it always ends up on this subject as so many conversations I have lately do.

Due to going out too much and not using my bike my feet were overworked and my headache was pretty distracting so by the time I had left the house I had taken already...

100mg Tramadol
1000mg Paracetemol

But while in my friends shop the headache was not shifting and feet were being extra cruel and I ended up taking another 50mg Tramadol and 500mg Paracetemol.

So I sat in the library on a computer for an hour researching blog viewer numbers and checking these and spotting they need so ... tinkering. So I got to rest, then thought I had seen a ghost as someone that was a spitting image of my late friend, Kenneth Walter Bunn, to right down to the clothing. Tried to get a photo of him on my smartphone but he ducked behind a book rack. When I searched the library for him but nowhere to be seen. Ken was a regularly in my friend's pet shop in Baker Street in Enfield and I wanted to show him the picture of how reminiscent of Ken this chap was. I failed to find him.

On leaving the library I had my least problematic walk back home that I had experienced in a very long time. So I thought right OK it takes...

75% of my daily allowance of TWO painkillers to deal with the pains for a couple of hours?!

Interesting conversation I am going to have with this new GP.

Will also be interesting to see if he lays the blame of the headaches on the Tramadol and then tries to give me a cheaper and less effective drug?! Odds are pretty good on that front I think?!

So interesting walk home, surprised I did not flake out and wake up hours later on the pavement, sidewalk if your american! LOL! Had not eaten much you see and normally not good as I get pretty nauseous.