THE CIRCLING VULTURES

Jesus things have gone bad in the last 24 hours.

Someone preyed upon someone within my .. tiny circle and now appears to have acted like a vulture and taking the piss. Things that were stated would happen were said to possibly happen within as little as a week. I called BS on that and passed it off as sales speak. I thought it was more likely I would be told something positive in two to three weeks. It has now been 4 weeks and this week is the fifth.

In a conversation I was told that everyone is full of it.

I am rather worried that something else has happened? Someone thinks that if nothing has happened by the end of March (2018), which is five weeks away, then it should be given up as an option. Well it was more an answer to a dozen prayers to be honest.

It is also beginning to appear that .. they may have lied. They stated that some big names were pressurising them to get a hold of this particular person. Almost like he was being rushed by one or more organisations? Well after going a few days into our fifth week the last thing that was said, when an question was put to them, is 'these things take time'?! Yeah .. that is NOT what you said well over four weeks ago!

It might be this frustration along with several intense pains I was having that allowed me to be draw into an argument that has now cost me dearly, as it turns out. Not having an ounce of understanding for anyone else my health condition, disability, current situation and having someone with cancer to be concerned about who may be homeless with four children within six months should all be forgotten about due to a health condition that is not that serious and that is provided they actually have it. Yup .. all other considerations are secondary. Because they get light headed once in a blue moon and even then that is if they are going through that particular period of experiences these light headed symptoms. Just one of my 270 symptoms is this and if I go through a period without experiencing them it has only been for a few days, rarely weeks, in the last twenty years. They have only been experiencing theirs for a few years. But it is a massive thing.

A friend of theirs was actually in hospital while dying themselves from cancer and when asked why she was kept in longer than planned the terminally ill friend said “they discovered tachycardia” to which this other person replied “Oh I had that” before going into detail .. to someone dying from cancer?! The terminally ill patient then said “Oh? Is that another one to add to your list, [NAME]?” This was explained to me by the person who got that reply and I sat there in disbelief when they simply did not understand what she meant by it, as their was a strong tone of sarcasm involved!

That is how bad it is and we have had this all our lives.

They had a go at one of their sons once because had had to cur a visit short after an hour or so because his dog was ill and they said “what about me? I'm ill!”

Fast forward a few years to today and she has a dog herself and keeps banging on to everyone, me included, because a daughter has not ordered shoes, several people laughed on the phone, for her dog because of something called Alabama Foot Rot! If this dog was to become ill they would forsake everyone else to race him off to a vet.

They never .. EVER see that they have spent thirty years whining, bitching and complaining about the very things they do themselves. When she try and point out that they do things wrong they have a hundred excuses. The favourite being 'family problems' and to the point hat everyone accepts it until I recently asked one of them “Exactly WHAT family problems are there?” to which I had a response of a very long “Errrrm?!” to which I then said “Exactly! It is manufactured and they harp on with this line so much you end up being convinced that there are!”

I explained to two people in the phone, one a social worker for adults for a couple decades, and they both went from “They are very unfair” and “They need to see a professional person” and “I cannot believe they have spoken to you like that!” to “They are completely fucking mad!”

I came back seeking help .. I have not had anything but hindrances both financially and emotionally along with mentally. I was better off staying where I was except I had no choice but to come back. There were things that needed to be done here in London but .. these have taken an absolute age to achieve and I am going nuts with it all.

So the circling vulture who may turn out to be someone that likes to peruse court hearings for people with unbelievable stories of suffering, has only added to all of this .. well, suffereing. All to make a buck!

Do not get me wrong .. it was great at first and signatures were even provided and I knew that the speed of it would not be that which they stated and that was the first thing that both annoyed me and sent alarm bells ringing. But it did make us think there was a way out. That in a couple of months all our problems would be over for the rest of our lives, save the cancer.

But then it looked like you could go and get the best cancer treatments anywhere in the world, though some of the best may be in America some are here in the UK.

I also thought it would boost my bogs no end and at the exact same time cause literary agents to scramble for my own signature?! This way I could also be there to help and that things would be very different to before?

There has also been some .. very EVIL things going on .. many evil things. From an evil manipulative .. relative to EVIL public services. A council .. the DWP and .. the NHS are all the evil organisations involved in the story and hence why there is a circling vulture.

I might have attracted media agents and literary agents to me and sent them on but .. I have not been publishing anything because of this one and a contract that was signed.

In fact I have been keeping quiet about the details for .. five weeks or more!

Now personally I believe something else form the possible reasons why this circling vulture has gone quiet .. government involvement. As I stated to the other one involved in this .. I believe that it will be extremely damaging to the government and that it may be the case that the British public would decide that all local councils be dissolved and that the NHS, DWP and the Police get a fucking good kick up the backsides. When it comes to cost we are talking tens, hundreds or even billions of pounds here. Not to mention a hell of a lot of jobs and changes to the way government and politics as a whole works. Also you only have those five Tory supporters running all of the news media.

Now here is the funny thing ..

If this turns out to be the case ..

• We have not told anyone about this
• Nothing has been stated on social media anywhere
• We have talked about it on the phone
• We have talked about it on WhatsApp only

This means that they would have been listening in on our phone conversations and/or WhatsApp messages.

They would not know what damned agent to listen in on!

Either that of this media agent is a cut-throat agent, full of shit and/or does not know what he is doing?

What also ires me is that there are a number of ways I could help or could have been continuing to help this situation were it not for lying Job Centres, the DWP and Google!

Yeah I could still be getting my own PIP, oh a social worker refused to fill in a DLA form section recently in all this, and Google Adsense should not have banned my blog adverts for two mistakes that were down to their shitty software ..

• A typo and misplaced comma had them take of adverts
• Trying to then out them back on I ended up with two dozen ads because ..
• There Chrome Browser was not showing the ads as there so I could trying to put them back on
• Only looking on my desktop computer recently showed that I had in fact two dozen ads on their and therefore I am still banned?!
• I have sent them several feedbacks about the latter issue and have not heard a damned thing

How can it be that so many things are going wrong?

Even the other person involved in this says it is the worst luck or the worst kind of bad luck and lots of it all at once. Not a single thing is working out for either of us! Her words!

SO much so that she is refusing an operation that if she does not have she will be dead in five years, before she is thirty years old, leaving five children behind.

Yeah, nice country this. Funny how everyone else coming here seems to get everything and have great lives and get given everything?

A family with at least three and looking to have four disabled people out of six, a seventh being unknown at this point, gets treated like shit. Oh and £25 rent payments awarded out of £100 we was only informed about AFTER moving from a house where at least £120 per week was being paid in full?!

Oh and did I mention this was AFTER an incident of serious domestic violence where the husband was supposed to be locked up until 2027 but actually gets out next month?!

Another one of those Muslim men coming here and getting away with murder, metaphorically speaking ..

https://www.liverpoolecho.co.uk/news/liverpool-news/controlling-husband-cut-decorations-tree-14174554

There! I finally mentioned something and put in a link to page that has been in the public doman for several weeks. THAT is part of my and her story! That is the one I have been talking about for so very long and got nothing in the way of help and support with.

It fails to mention the lack of help, the lack of finances, the docking of money, threatening to throw children out of a window or the damned cancer!

Obviously no investigative journalists at the Liverpool Echo as no investigating was involved and there are errors in the story, would you believe?

No one from them spoke to any of us .. probably why there was errors?!

And where the fuck is Jeremy Corbyn when they are doing something wrong?!

Oh and I lost my Freedom Pass just a couple of uses after getting it back?! All because of that argument I had with the way over the top self-obsessed person.

Oh and I was so fed up, disappointed and down last night that I fell asleep around 8pm and woke at at 3am and been awake ever since, eventually typing this out!

THE DAYS AHEAD

I'm not really sure about these coming days.

I feel like I'm in a prison. Trapped.

I'd give anything to have someone here, someone totally familiar it even understanding for the next week.

I had the option to pull the plug today .. but I didn't. Because of money and the damned Job Centre. I feel like I've got to go to my meeting and explain that I'm going home and just show them why. That is something I can do.

But it's this lonely prison. My own thoughts and the thoughts that things might go wrong in the meantime.

Fight and flight .. that bloody idiot trying to lecture me on something I know about .. but not quite well enough it seems?

No TV signal either. Only a DAB Radio where I'm listening to a station that woke me up in the mornings back in Enfield.

Yesterday morning it was very odd as I was reminded of this by hearing the voice of Frank Skinner! I was so used to hearing him Saturday mornings back home.

Today I'm back to the reality of the living hell in a prison and nowhere I can go.

It really is the worst time of the year too be going through this .. cold in here .. very cold. But putting heating on most of the time to not use any more money.

At least I ate yesterday .. but I'm not going to be eating very much during the next week. I just don't want to eat .. except yesterday at the hospital and I was given a cheese and ham sandwich and a cup of tea by two very nice ladies.

Hmm .. can't even make a tea here, never got around to getting a kettle.

Boy oh boy .. of all the times I've felt bad and suicidal this has to be the worst.

When I think of the times I had been like this in London and didn't want to go out I find it .. in a funny way laughable now.

I'd give anything to be able to go out in familiar surroundings .. visit people.

Though to be honest .. some of those people I'm not quite so sure I would want to visit.

They are these ones that instead of saying they are sorry it didn't work out, though one has he then, they rub your nose in it that they were right!

Two family members said .. "Oh?! This wasn't a good time to say something like that!" Yup.

A shame too as he could have come up and helped? Maybe? I doubt he would though.

Then, if and when I get back I've got to radically rethink my life. I can't go back to the life I had, or at least some of it. I have to change things. Radically.

I've also emailed a few organisations about the situation.

That's why I decided to stay longer .. or at least another reason. To allow people and organisations to try and prepare. Space for my stuff, couple things from storage, like my bike and computer!

I'd give anything to ride my bike again!!

Oh boy what a hell I managed to create for myself. I really hate this damned condition.

It's not upset so many people it doesn't bare thinking about.

I had so many plans to help me achieve what I wanted and nothing worked out ..

Me as a carer ..

Me on New Enterprise Allowance ..

Me on Working Tax Credits ..

The Google AdSense Advertising which keeps disappearing over the course of the last year ..

The Patreon account ..

The two Crowd Funding accounts ..

Hoping to get part time work .. did look and even emailed Chester Zoo but no reply lol ..

Maybe even getting my books published?!

There was something else but it's slipped my mind. Oh .. I know! Forgetting the £35,000 that was robbed from each of us .. there was that extra £3,000 or more I thought I'd get. But turned out to be £800!

None of that panned out while I kept discovering more mistakes I had made. I had made. No one else made but me. Well .. due to my condition.

I have to return to get rid, or rather sell, my car. I had no choice in that when I realised three days ago that I didn't have the logbook. Had I realised 6 weeks ago I could have done something about it.

This came far too late in the day .. I was preoccupied with other things .. responsibilities of you will that just caused me to forget or not check soo many things. Again that's my fault .. I didn't figure in just how many fuck ups were possible for me to make.

I made a shed load of fuck ups and ignored things and signs.

I don't know how I'm going to get back and back on my feet?

But once I'm back I'll be a lot better at it and have the time, energy and people and places to do something about it. Unless something goes wrong of course?!

I can't do that here and I can't lose what I have or I'll be financially broken for all but a single tool I've wanted and needed for so long.

This Fibromyalgia really can end up being the condition me in hell itself with just one other condition I've ever heard of being worse.

Chronic Regional Pain Syndrome.

I wish it was I that had cancer! Or wish that my heart would just fail in the night.

If you have Fibromyalgia I implore you not to rush into anything ..

I rushed coming up here and I made a shed load of mistakes in doing so and kept making more.

This stressed me out and I became less and less of a help.

AND STILL THERE WAS ONE

Well we had another meeting today.

Well .. I didn't .. mores the pity. My daughter did and once again it was a meeting with what are supposed to be several staff from the social workers department, bosses I believe and other Wirral Council staff.

I have wrongly, or more accurately omitted to, report previously that someone from the youngest girls nursery is supposed to be in attendance.

Along with them is supposed to be someone from the school as well. Maybe several as three children go to the same school.

Also meant to be present is someone from Victim Support too.

Another meant to be in attendance of those of which I am aware, is a health visitor.

Lastly is an Independent Review Officer who I am told hails from Northampton, oddly a place I visited for the first time briefly before I moved to the Wirral.

These are for four children on the at-risk register and two of which have now been diagnosed, albeit short of an academic audiology test that clearly is not needed and only a means as yet another in a long line of stall tactics.

This was meeting was number five.

Everyone was present at the first meeting as far as I know.

Since then every subsequent meeting there has only been one person in attendance and today was no different bar one thing. The health visitor did not attend and this not only was the first time the only one I deemed as professional failed to turn up but had previously warned that she could not make it this particular Monday anyway.

So how is it that .. the only one to arrive regularly and on time could not get a meeting date that she could actually attend?

Bizarrely and as the title suggests .. one did turn up and this time it was the social worker. She was flabbergasted that no one else turned up, tried to book a room and was told they were all booked up and stated that he had worked with a number of councils and had never come across one like this one.

I was kind of expecting that sort of reaction from her but I did not expect her to actually say it. I guess that given the embarrassment of said situation she felt compelled .. to say .. something?

“No wonder children are dying around here all the time?!” My daughter stated to me after once again stating that there was a no show from almost everyone.

“Yeah .. funny how it is completely ignored by the news media despite them being fifty yards from this door when that Policeman was killed deploying a spike-strip?!” I replied.

Oddly there had been a rumour among the locals that stated that this Policeman had not ha the proper training in the deployment of spike-strips. That did not seem to get any reporting either.

As I said .. two children have died within fifty yards or so of that Policeman dying and one of the worst cases or domestic violence of which the legal case will be classed as historical. Plus an entire family mostly consisting of disabled children and adults who are not only a victim of said domestic violence but also ignored and not offered one iota of help from anyone either have also gone unnoticed.

My mind boggles at te thought of the number of things to occur within the UK that were previously right under the noses of so-called professional and research journalists?

I am afraid they have become like film celebrities for the most part .. too bothered about their image and fame to realise what is going on right, fucking, behind them.

Currently I am awaiting news of some hospital tests concerning someone close to me while I have an autistic duo that have somehow managed to avoid having a double meltdown. It has come close, believe me.

So the complaint has now been escalated .. again! I simply said “Umm .. exactly how many times is this going to be 'escalated' before this Independent Review Officer does something?!”

Remember .. they can make all te noises in the world and they might thik that they say all the correct things but .. I learnt long ago to take no notice. Words mean absolutely nothing to me in any way shape or form. Nothing has even come of the use of words whether in the form or encouragement, promises or otherwise.

So today we had to get the kids to school, go to a meeting in the pouring rain on foot that a bunch of people supposed to be professionals and have cars given to them cannot be bothered to turn up to. We were supposed to look inside a new house and maybe that is going on right now? A hospital visit an calposcopy to rule out the dreaded 'C' word and then pick the remaining kids up from school? Oh, wait? A friend is picking one up from school and will be here at 4am, or around thirty minutes at the time of typing.

Oh and we had two do two bits of shopping and as I have now heard from the DVLA for the first time in two months, I had photos to get for my drivers licence. Yeah .. I still have not gotten around to doing that!

Oh and there were two other things I was meant to do today, check out my nearside rear wheel as it seems to be leaking air and … fill and in and send off some forms. Tomorrow it is then?! SIGH

The funny thing is that when Rotherham Council was deemed 'not fit for purpose' I expected several others to follow on from that. I certainly expected Wirral Council to follow on as a second place?!

You simply cannot tell me that Rotherham Council was the only bad egg out of several full baskets of eggs?! No bloody way!

So where are all the others?

Yeah .. I cannot help but continue to think that I have thought for a long time and that is that the things we get to hear reports on are not even ten percent of all that goes on and situations where they were used as scapegoats, getting thrown under the bus, so to speak, to then be able to bury anything else they know is rotten to its very core?

No matter the industry and both public and private .. none of them cease to amaze me .. well, to a degree. I know that each one I deal with will I turn, tu out to be lying conning tricksters loaded to the brim with naïve jobs-worths. I am just always slightly surprised when I find yet another one in what is a very long list and has a failure ratio of 100%.

Oh crap!

There was a long pause before I typed 'oh crap' and something has occurred. It is not good.

I had previously stated that we both have serious issues going on as well as the usual spate from our shared disability.

In the past .. it has been hard to tell whether any of the more serious things that have occurred with me have been something .. separate or down to the Fibromyalgia.

My previous GP practice was quick to put things down to my Fibromyalgia while my new GP has stated that it is dangerous to do that, which was pretty much obvious to me previously.

Of these are the very high blood pressure readings at rest, in the area of Hypertension Stage 2 and Hypertensive Crisis a majority of the time.

If that alone was not bad enough then combine that with postural hypotension where raising from a seated, crouched or lying position where your blood pressure drops a lot and .. whammo. Your out of it and either blacking out, greying out or passing out completely. Forgetting everything else the falls alone are dangerous depending on where you are unless your a compete moron.

My right knee pain turned out to be a physical thing and not down to the Fibromyalgia so you could remove that from the 120 odd symptoms I have experienced that could be the Fibromyalgia.

The there was the anxiety attacks as a result of the DWP just cancelling everything 18 month back an suddenly my legs do not work, turning out to be something called Fibromyalgia Rubber Legs that once a fucking gain I had to diagnose myself.

Then I had these odd spurts of discomfort in my chest that I ignored until a few times when they were quite strong, very distracting and had me wondering whether I was having a heart attack or angina?

As stated previously somewhere between the middle of 2016 and up until September 2017 I found myself in Accident & Emergency three times without even calling '999' a single time. Despite spraying something under my tongue they use in the event of a heart attack this is not what I had. They never found out what these symptoms were .. though they were worried enough about test results to take me into A&E those three times.

As I have also stated the very last time was like two weeks or slightly less before moving here to the Wirral to help my daughter and try and held my grandchildren and am admittedly way out of my depth and doubt whether I help every single day.

Only since being here those chest pains, tightness and heart palpitations have increased and I have noted that the irregular heart beat symbol has not only been displaying but working my way through the memory it has been going off for a very long time, probably more than a year?

A bloody cardiologst they want to refer me to just before I go away!

Sorry .. I just have not been able to get over that just as several people I know have not been able to get over it either.

The appointment is this Thursday as I finally managed to arrange it while up here and it is a rapid appointment, or something he called it.

Except despite that being a slight concern .. only in that if anything happens to me then I am no longer a help to my daughter or grandchildren .. or anyone on here for that matter. No that is not the concern.

The concern was first getting the confirmed diagnosis of the same thing with my daughter and .. well .. something else sorted out. But on doing those two things .. two other things have reared their ugly heads.

After a couple of visits a couple of days back today was an more .. internal examination and after a long day doing other things in-between and not even finding the time to look at an unsuitable house that has been offered .. the internal exam was done.

I had a female friend in the house and we were just chatting about things when her face changed an glanced past me through the living room window. She said that she was back, not looking good and moving slowly.

I leapt up to go and unlock the door and barely walking she came in with another woman in tow looking .. scared. Scared for the first time ever in thirty years that I have ever witnessed. More scared than when I took her to high court, even.

This was not what I expected, not what I expected at all and suddenly something that I had thought and had hoped would be routine was nothing of the kind.

Some details were explained to me that I have not been able to comment on in any way, shape or form and .. a biopsy that was not expected was taken.

I text one person I know back down south who had previously played it all down, stated it was routine stuff despite how good I am at .. reading between the lines, and is male. So did not really count.

But one woman down south said the same thing and that she had, had it and that it cleared up by the tome he was checked. Umm .. no. She had failed to realise or remember just how good a researcher I am and I pointed out that in her case there was no infection to the virus and that when there is it .. remains. For good. Also that depending on the type of the virus and/or infection which normally has a number associated with it, depends on whether or not this now permanent infect virus can increase the chance of a cancer you do not really want.

Yeah .. not only is it THAT type of infected virus but .. they have now see it and needed to not only take a biopsy but also even talked about treatments available which was, for me, not the right time to mention this.

I have to text this other person but the first one, the guy in the equation, simply answered “Oh dear!” when I text him.

Oh dear indeed and I replied by stating that he simply cannot believe the crap going through my head right now. Because there are four children that have to be thought about not to mention a childhood friend I thin will have a breakdown over this and while she is heavily pregnant too!

As was put to me a couple of times in the last couple of weeks ..

“Dad? Why does this crap keep happening to us?”

“Corrupt, lazy and greedy pubic services, I'm afraid”

A shame my Patreon page has not burst into life.

THE MAKINGS OF A HARD LIFE

Why do I say the things that I do?

Why is it that I sound cynical about everything?

It is not someone being cynical … it is speaking from experience and I realised that before very long if I approached everything with a cynical attitude I was hardly ever being proved wrong.

That is just how bad things were, are and getting worse.

It is why I voted to get out of Europe.

I ask myself if I made a mistake and will always continue to do so.

It is why I will be paying close attention to what those running the country will do over the next couple of years.

I also imagine it is highly likely I will be sending letters to both Nigel Farage in time and likely to the next Prime Minister, whether this is Boris Johnson or someone else.

AN EXAMPLE OF A HARD LIFE

• Picked on/bullied continuously at school by Jamaicans (never affected me but not good)
• Parents divorced after years of fighting
• Knocked off racing bike by a car about 13 years old (along bonnet, up windscreen onto roof then off the side) which would come back to haunt me later on in life
• Kicked Out 14 (after row between mother and father)
• No Qualifications as a result
• Kicked Out 15 (I never broke laws or had bad habits by the way – by grandmother)
• Left homeless by Local Council (Brighton and forgot about this one)
• Get a great deal of really painful heartburn, diagnosed with Hiatus Hernia
• Left Homeless 24 with a Baby Girl (Homeless five or six times in total)
• Court Case for custody while at College (to get into UNI!)
• Watched Grandmother die in hospital after wrong diagnosis
• Ex girlfriend stole my home and I was left homeless, while at UNI!
• Stabbed in back by Middlesex University over Degree grade (Despite Distinction on Thesis)
• Beaten up repeatedly by ex-girlfriend
• Along with other niggling pains beforehand my feet start to hurt
• Found out person I cared about most was raped, had child
• Dad humiliated on BBC TV for things he did not do (though he did bullshit)
• I get attacked by bailiffs who take one of a kind £4,400 mountain bike that features in What Mountain Bike Magazine plus 4 other things, they lie and tell me they sold it all for £735 (JBW Group) but I know the bike sold for £2,800 (parking ticket £550)
• Despite trying hard and using forums I do not get Police interested in bailiif fraud
• On a forum I get intercepted by a woman claiming my case against bailiffs worth millions
• After getting details of witnesses and all my paperwork woman who contacted me via Community Action Group vanishes along with my witness (who saw bike sell for £2,800)
• Person closest to me was abused and held against her will be radical Muslims
• Found out radical Muslims were asking about Stratford, prior to London Olympics (they was in Liverpool)
• Eventually get my hands on the Home Office file on one of the radicals I still have today, published on blog long ago
• Start recording background conversations and sending the DVDs to MI5
• He was left homeless by a Local Council
• My father died prematurely at 56 (all 500 people at funeral blames the BBC)
• DWP Kick me off disability
• Get involved with someone to start a business but he turns out to have .. problems and a bit child like and a bit of a bully
• I get stalked and get hate mail and photos over a period of about 6 months to a year
• Grandchildren stolen by evil ex
• Uncle dies at 58 leaving me feeling guilty to this day I did not see more of him
• I decide to start BLOGS
• Court case gets started up over my grandchildren and failures of the local council
• After asking for 13 years about my feet I find out most of my 100 plus symptoms are due to Fibromyalgia
• Court case leaps across five courts (Magistrates, Criminal, Family, Crown, Hig and Supreme Court)
• I quickly realise upon research that the NHS already knew about Fibromyalgia and repeatedly lied to me through maybe a dozen General Practitioners (diagnosis I made confirmed at Guy's Hospital but they tried hard not to refer me)
• I manage to get back on Disability after proving that the DWP are corrupt and when you ask for the medical evidence they burn them (meaning Doctors all lied on letters too)
• Court case of person close to me is won by person close to me and large damages awarded (or so I am told), they then disappear and still awaiting contact
• DWP go after my Incapacity Benefit instead of my PIP benefits with via lying along with the lamest of excuses proving they have no medical knowledge whatsoever and no medical professionals ... AGAIN! (post later in week)

• Capital Punishment is more humane
• Driven by the thought that these things can still keep happening to the person that is closest to me, others and my grandchildren
• During all this I get 120 symptoms that prove to be Fibromyalgia
• Right knee physically damaged, just before father died, with a pop
• Hiatus Hernia and Oesophagitis
• Extremely High Blood Pressure
• Postural Hypotension
• Falling unconscious and seizures
• Collapsing discs in my back
• Anxiety and Panic Attacks
• Full on breakdowns
• Suicidal Periods

• Paperwork and documents going back 20 years plus
• Recordings cover several Local Councils, NHS, two Police Forces & others (much on here)
• Also several retail chains selling refurbished goods as new to me (Littlewoods, Argos & PC World) – missing from that list
• Did not list all disasters, thought it would be too long, and …
• Should be mostly in chronological order
• Ailments: Fibromyalgia (120 odd symptoms), Inguinal hernia Repair Pain, Inguinal Hernia, Hiatus Hernia, Physical problem right knee, High Blood Pressure, Postural Hypotension, High Cholesterol
• Now having seizures too, falling unconscious

POSITIVE THINGS

• Passed driving test
• Had a daughter (later to turn bad of course)
• Learnt Wing Chun basics
• Attended University
• Got a BSc Degree in Applied Computing
• Owned three Alfa Romeos, two cloverleafs and a GTV 3.0 V6
• Owened an Audi A6 Quattro
• Owned a dream one of a kind mountain bike, albeit briefly, that appears in What Mountain Bike Magazine along with my name
• Learnt advance Wing Chun

I have constantly asked myself if there are many others that have had lives like this and could there be those that actually had it worse than this?

They would have to have survived it all of course!

THE MEGA CRAP

It is funny how things go sometimes.

I am a person that strives to do things the right way. It is all in the planning and the preparation for me and always will be. A an old friend of mine used to state how I used to knock on his door to the very minute that I text him that I would.

8pm was always a common time.

Now that I never planned, it was always an estimate of how long it would take me to get there from wherever I was.

But in many other things I plan and like to be meticulous and although I can admit that this is not the case 100% of the time I get annoyed with myself when I am not meticulous.

I thought long and hard about writing this post out and during the brief period, less than 24 hours, several things went wrong. Two of them in the last few hours.

But in my case it is almost always down to someone else, so out of my control, or it is down to something to do with me that someone else was tasked to deal with and have not.

Just as I fired up my PC to type this up I was met with an error as I tried to access my bank account to see my … balance. It is not what it should be. Though I cannot state what it will be … just higher than it is. I will get to this shortly.

No internet connection!

I looked at my Wi-Fi device and no green light. This is odd as it I plugged into a USB Hub that has been fine so far, except that sometimes when I turn it on I get no keyboard, spotted early on as I have a Roccat MK Pro keyboard that lights up blue. Or in other words … NO LIGHTS!

After this happening for around the sixth time I decided I had, had enough, unplugged the keyboard and plugged it directly into my motherboard. No more issues. Well … until a few minutes ago when I had no WIFI device.

I then realised that said WIFI device was plugged into the same USB hub as the keyboard and had not failed to come on when the keyboard had. Or so I thought but now realise that I would not have accessed my browser with no keyboard working! Umm … I think. Well I can and I know how to. I just do not think I would have done that.

I then realised, or more correctly remembered, that I have had a terrible set of experiences with USB hubs. In fact the word 'terrible' is an understatement and I remember even a few years back wanting to look into things on the Internet as I was sure there was some universal issue with them?

Well let me put that into perspective …

I have purchased five HUBS, one for someone else recently and four for myself over 5 years and if this one is failing that will be a 80% fail rate for USB hubs. Meaning the only thing preventing this from hitting 100% is the new one plugged into a friends computer. A computer I recently rebuilt … AGAIN because a two year old Asus motherboard's USB ports were failing?!

YUP! You read that correct.

I have never had issues with USB ports of any kind until around 5 years back!

It also gets a little … weirder …

Yesterday I turned off my PC, with my keyboard that sometimes refused to come on now plugged into a USB socket on the motherboard. I was milling around doing some things before retiring to watch a film on Blu-Ray when I saw my keyboard still lit up and cursed myself for not switching the PC off as I thought I had, or wondered why it had decided to restart?

The screen was black. Wiggled the mouse and nothing. Hit keyboard keys and still nothing. Turned the monitor off and on again (groan) and nothing. Thought “HUH?!” looked down at my Corsair Tower Case and no blue glow from the front fans … the PC was indeed OFF?!

Looked back at the keyboard and still the thing was lit up like a Christmas tree!

Head in hands moment followed while shaking my head thinking “What the fuck is going on with everything in the world today?!”

Three hubs of the four have not worked out of the box!

That is with one motherboard's USB ports completely failing and taking me several weeks, upgrading XP to 7 and another USB 3.1 expansion card! Now my one playing games. These are not the cheapest motherboards on the market either. One second from cheapest model of Asus and my one the MSI Gaming Series motherboard. So around £50 and £90 respectively. Yes there are much dearer motherboards, those Intel ones being a complete rip-off, but there are cheaper ones too.

The only plus note before I continue is that I have managed to stop the pain from my new shoes, after spending over £10 on over priced sticky felt, corn pads, from Boots I now do not need.

Well that is something I guess, much relieved about that.

Except, and I think I have mentioned previously, that I have been having some real hell with my back pain and then some. I have not left the house in the last few months without it being painful within minutes of standing still somewhere! Quite literally.

I have had periods of this happening but it comes and goes for weeks at a time but this time it seems to be doggedly remaining and I said to friends I am going to have to request an operation if this keeps up!

One day I took a load of Tramadol and ended up very, very stoned!

However this is not the only thing as recently I have been getting some griping with my stomach and I have no idea why. Though admittedly due to donating everything I have for another cause several times I have not eaten correctly.

But along with the griping I have also been feeling sick, think real bad travel sickness to the point of throwing up, almost every day for the past couple of weeks.

Thank fucking God I have new shoes to deal with the Plantar fasciitis type pain and sorted out the other pain the Hi-Tec's were causing on the dorsal section of my foot. It seems you cannot tie the laces in the place I always tie laces on boots like this, second down from the top. If you do on these ones the tongue folds under the lumps that cover the lace sections and creates a series of over-size lumps that will grind into the top of your feet until it creates a sore area. An internal muscular sore area as opposed to a blister. Tie them up at the top holes and pull, or puff out, the tongue and problem gone.

The fact that I owned the previous design of these shoes and that never happened is a bit odd, I agree but this is what worked in the end.

So I have been sick several nights.

I resorted to using one of those knobbly back rollers I bought from TK Maxx a few months back when this pain had already lingered way too long. I also bought a TENS Machine at the time. Though like having skin tags on your back the GP tells you that you can deal with on your own … you cannot fucking reach! LMAO!

Those knobbly rollers, mine called Maji Roller, they feel great at the time but have no or little effect on my back pain.

So I have been pre-occupied and distracted by these things along with waiting for one of my plans to come to fruition. Well … it actually already has but I was actually waiting for that plan, involving … someone else, to sweep me up in its aftermath.

Now I am going to say … ooh my phones ringing and I will wager it is about this subject lol. I will say that no matter how intelligent you are you cannot always get some things right. You can narrow them down to a group of possibilities but unless an opportunity presents itself you cannot get one to stand out no matter how much you overthink it. Unless someone slips up or your there face to face it is simply impossible.

So you wind up with a list of possibilities. Some of these will not be good and are merely worst case scenarios. They may well be possibilities but like I keep trying to tell people over and over there is a reason I am so meticulous and a reason why I am right a large percentage of the time. Because some things might be possibilities to them but to me they are not because I have ruled them out using my own theory. It has always boded me well, more so in the last 5 years since I had to make some … tactical changes, lol.

Like my posts title 'TEN' and 'FIVE' I can only ever predict based on the behaviours, actions and statements of others. Yes this is referring to those posts.

I have not been able to publish the details due to it being both not the right time and positively self destructive.

I also had a prediction of when this will be.

Except that I was expecting a surprise visit by someone in a car, no not news media related but I have wondered about that it is true. That theory was also put forward as an excuse to why things had taken so long. People seemed to buy into it. I knew this would be brief.

So I decided a week would be long enough before I had to … do something. I gave nine days, almost, and … well had to say something.

Except I was told that it was going to have to wait another 3 months and would this be OK?

Well no!

I cannot place my own plans on hold for another three months.

I cannot pack up my daily pains into a box and put them away in a cupboard for another three months.

As to the naysayers? Yup, guaranteed three months of ripping the crap out of me!! I have had this for 4 months as it is for something that I was told was ending 7 months ago!

Oh dear!

Plus I have to plan to travel and … well I have planned and it has taken a lot of effort and a lot of work! All for naught now. Oh well, you live and learn but I am getting tired of how many times I have had to do that! Lol!

I have also put off being referred by my GP for both my still alarmingly high, as well as dropping way too low far too quickly, blood pressure. Or my back pain! AGAIN!

More bloody recordings to have to do now as I now cannot rely on anything.

I stated I had some proof being sent to me weeks ago now, remember? Never arrived.

I have not been able to acquire a single shred of evidence to that I have often alluded to in the last 7 months! Not looking good is it?

Pure logic, common sense and trust is all that I have had to go on and constantly promised I will prove all this at some point. But it has been going on for what seems like forever and I was asked if another 3 months was OK?! That is provided that just like that last 7 months there is not another delay or even series of delays?

If the latter was the case we would be looking at an entire year after I was told it was all over. An entire bloody year!

Oh plus it has cost me in the region of £5,000. Story of my life that would be fully understood if I explained it all.

Except I am not, because I am still protecting someone. Or several people actually. Still, a pain in the effing arse!

Ooh so maybe I could do something? Maybe I could move to get away from the negative people and the piss takers?! Except I have no cash! I will have in about two or three months but it is no good to me then!

Buy something? Been thinking about a few things lately actually. Nikon SLR D810a and an Astell & Kern Junior player. Except now its winter not much to take photos of and not feeling very jubilant and wanting to listen to music. Oh yeah, and I have no bloody money! Lol.

So what else can I do? How do I prove it?

• Paperwork? Tried that, did not arrive
• Money? Trying that now
• News Media? Out of my hands

I do in fact have another option. One I was going to do once I travelled out of town for a couple of months.

I have mentioned this option previously and have stated that I could have taken this option at any point in time. But decided to wait because the longer I waited the easier it would be.

I do not have to wait any longer and I have decided I am not going to wait any longer.

Now this will take a small amount of money, I still do not bloody have right now, and it will take time. Except it wont take four months. In fact it will not take three months.

I have attempted this previously … very, very previously! It can take a week to a month but at least when it does and provided I get something positive I will put it on here.

So I have two options remaining and one is supposed to be taken place today, waited 24 hours for a role reversal that I have done in minutes.

Despite having 24 hours to do what I did in return in minutes I am not expecting it to happen today, if at all.

My word, how bad does that sound? Lol.

In fact someone said to me that now that you have turned the tables around I bet they do not act as fast as you have acted, doing the exact some thing?!

Oops! Clever point to make that one, one I cannot argue with either. All I can say is just lack of thought, forethought or consideration.

Plus I have had something I had forgotten about brought up in conversation. Something that happened that looked decidedly bad and handled really badly at the time. Yup … that was true … this event did happen and it did look bad. I simply could find no argument to that one.

Yup, well it has been a full 24 hours now since making that request and I am afraid nothing has changed in the bank statements.

Someone said yesterday that “It's just another excuse and another delay. Delay after delay, excuse after excuse.” there was some other things said but I am not going to go into that right now.

GROAN!

I dropped enough hints about this.

What they decide to do about the request is up to them, but it is to release me of a fuck load of pressure and provide me with proof that what I have been told has been happening … well, has been happening!

They can honour the request and it still may not prove anything, quite the opposite in fact!

So things are a little on tender hooks right now. Because what may take place or nothing taking place will be decidedly final in more ways than one!

Though it is which of these finalities that remains to be seen. Hence the tender hooks!

Fashionably late is not out of the question and this can be anything up to four days. So in the event of nothing taking place the tender hooks can last anything up to four days.

Tender hooks is a regular occurrence in this particular subject. Admittedly it is rarely these days but these are events whereby each of which no one person on Earth would want to have to deal with.

Many? Death or the funny farm spring to mind when I think of others endurance to these things, lol!

Was that enough crap?

Well just this morning my stomach griping has turned into crap! Literally! LMAO! So I am now stuck indoors when my pets need food as the usual place was unable to obtain my usual regular purchases. Always down to others!

See? The Mega Crap!

EVERYONE WANTS TO BE GOD

God, Google really have screwed up this Quick Office. Starting to wonder about Android too. I have only had this tablet a couple of weeks and a week after i bought it, it told me if an available update so I did it. Then literally a few days later it told me of another one and I thought what the hell, that was quick getting up to 4.4 and KitKat.

Only it was not. Odd as I thought it was running 4.2 when purchased but I must have been wrong and been 4.1? Since the last updated I have had a few issues. Quick Office, the interface has been ruined to my utter horror, has frozen a few times causing the loss of several paragraphs and then some. Sometimes it had managed to keep hold of documents I typed out and sometimes it has not...oh wait let me save this, Lol, I have had a really annoying issue with Swype and am now wondering if they bought that to and ruined it?!

Dies not look good for Google and their Android when they pointlessly purchase the best utility apps and then ruin it while being it into their operating system? You could almost see this action as a knee jerk reaction as they do not want anyone with their framework become too big and popular?! But why then ruin the software?! Begs belief.

Today also the thing would not wake up. The keyboard won't capitalise an I in a sentence so you end up going back to change the 'i' in to upper case and added to this it become very confused after you toured an 'i' and switched off the swyping?! So as you drag across you hear this 'dit-dit-dit-dit' as the Steen then toes out each of the letters you move the stylus or your finger across! Grrr.

I did say I did not like tablets!

I saw, and now setting again, tablet PCs as something not finished. The operating system and hardware was basically rubbish compared to a laptop and really still is. Eventually I kept seeing the pros of worrying more often as well as being kept occupied, because of Fibromyalgia and only to a degree. Also I can use its calendar too but yes it could be argued I could use the phone but those paying attention will know that this dies not work and had not since I received it. I got it from Very Catalogue and it was supposed to be a brand new phone but was not only a second hand phone but was also American and faulty and with loads of American words and names that we just do not use at all in the UK.

I did try to sort this it out but for some reason the Very customer service just ignored me and I put this down to the fact that I had discovered they were selling used and refurbished products as brand new. It become more bizarre when I involved ask the necessary Ombudsman who first said yes foul play and then stated the opposite. For anyone interested who died not know they ignored me and took me to court and are now losing, lol.

They will lose as all of them will lose because this blogs primary role is to act as evidence from my actions as to what I did, how I did it and how I was lied to by everyone. So is my YouTube account.

Added to this I had wanted to find out about courts and judges too. This is because everyone had tried to ignore me both public and private organisations and companies. It was of they did not care and even ignored me when I fully informed them that by ignoring me they will therefore cost me and won't win. I explained that if you do not win then that means you will lose. I stated that if the lose them they will have to face the music, so to speak, and that both themselves and judges cannot ignore the fact that I have incurred a great deal of costs because of this. Also that I have ne'er attacked and defrauded to buy bailiffs on behalf of public offices.

What do they all have in common?

They ignored me and acted with arrogance when told me that they obviously think there is no way they can lose. No I'm my mind there is only one reason that public offices and private companies can act with that much confidence. They already know they are going to win.

Of course there is only one way they can be sure of that and that is they already KNOW, or in my case THINK, that the judges wiki already find in their favour?

So how do you think that all on here that think themselves big and unbeatable are going to start doing when they realise I have won the first case? Then how will they react when I win the second? Start to tremble perhaps? Wet their beds?! Lol.

Ops wandered off the beaten track they for a few moments, Lol.

Yes so the phone does not work so well then. So doing things intricately on a much smaller screen then this 7 inch one on a faulty device would be like pulling teeth. Recall that with Fibromyalgia I have difficulty focusing, concentrating and short term memory problems which makes everything far more frustrating than they need to be.

I honk phones are vastly overpriced and cannot nor do not want to pay 500 pounds or more for something less powerful and much smaller than I am using right now. For and a half n to Five inches of less power for five or six times as much as what I paid for the device I currently hold with stereo speakers and a sub woofer and an SD Card.

Other people have made it obvious they are different from me but I do not like companies taking the piss out of me. Magazines are of no bloody hell either as they are all biased and taking back handers. The Google Nexus 5 phone came out and I thought it was very good but cheaply made. A well known magazine mentioned done things lacking and said they had to do this to keep the price down. Like an SD Card slot. The price stated at £300 for the 16GB one with the 32GB costing more.

Now how do the these magazine journalists know this? I thought to myself when I read this ' Oh so you asked Google and LG how much it cost to make and they said 'oh about 250 quid?!'' No so shut up!

A few weeks later that journalist got down yo a little because Google released the Moto G phone here in the UK and the 16GB version is not only a hundred pounds cheaper that the Nexus but also had the water proof nano-coating like you get in the Sony Xperia Z!!

Still no SD Card skit though but proof positive that yes they could have put an SD Card slot on the Nexus and the coating. But no not only had this now being left out of phones the memory sizes of these phones had also froze. Obviously they do not feel they have to compete with Apple anymore as the iPhone can be purchased with 64GB where currently the Android only has 64GB. At least on smaller and proper phone sized devices anyway?!

Of course I did not know that a Moto G phone, albeit with an unusually tiny memory, that was waterproof was going to go on sake for 100 pounds! That is what Tesco is selling it for, but they state they have none in stick and oddly none of their Tablets called Hudl either. Maybe when they are in stick the they will be dearer? Lol.

Still doing what I am doing right now on a screen a little over half the size I would not like to try. For instance this document in Quick Office is displayed onscreen at an absolutely terrible magnification and I cannot find settings to change it as yet. I have no eyesight problems as of yet and yet I feel like I need to be wearing reading glasses to see the typing without staining my eyes?! That is on a SEVEN INCH TABLET!!

Also Microsoft got done for being anti competitive by including their Internet Explorer and yet this version of Android cane with their ruined version of Quick Office?! I mean Goggle have actually bought one of the better Office Suites, got arrogant like many directors and actors do when slimming a super hero film or Davis book thinking themselves far superior and then set about running it. Rather terribly so in this instance I have to say. Then they give the thing away free which puts people of actually buying one!!

OK I am a bit of a hippocrit they as I do believe an office suite of some kind should be free and part of an operating system. A Shane then that Microsoft did not do that with their Office Suite, eh? No they want you to pay by the minute using it now, or however they are doing it, and use it online?! Thanks but I think I will stay with Open Office or any of the others I have used. Come back Lotus, all is forgiven, lol.

Still you see what I mean.

I still have some frustrations with my phone though. After all I took have to make contact with friends and family on it and 99.9% of the time this is dove via WhatsApp mostly out text message through SMS. Yes there is an app called Tablet Talk but not sure if it handles all messages and it is hardly likely to be sensible to pull out a 7 inch taller each time you get a message!! It would drive me nuts and yet others out there text a great deal more than I do. In fact now and then if a few things have happened I then send some family and some friends a message about it. But I always think it ends up to long and feel guilty and do not text them for a couple of weeks. By then I have had several more things and it starts all over again.

I do know why it is like this for me though because my ailments and problems have gone back way over 12 years and I have been aware that for many of this years many people thought I was making things up. Though I was never s one for doing this the very idea that the NHS and dozens of Doctors would neither diagnose it or give up any possibilities to the source of the problem was difficult for them to accept.

I do understand why this was of course.

But that did not help me though if course as I had to desk with these knock on effects and for 12 years I told every single Doctor that this was difficult for me to accept. This simply had to have an effect on me and would anyone.

Now I state at the outset and throughout this blog that it is a miracle I have not ended up dead via my own hands, someone else's or in a straight jacket and locked in s padded room. Fur a time I did think I was losing it and someone even convinced me I had bipolar disorder. I absolutely drove several health departments crazy during this time. I was suffering quite badly and I spent all night not being able to sleep and with my heart racing like a Gazelle and feeling it was going to to straight through my rib cage and out of my chest. I do so mean literally too! I wanted it to stop and badly and begged and pleaded with Doctors to help me but to no avail. I pushed my arse in varies mental health clinics but got sent away being repeatedly told there was nothing wrong with me. Eventually I saw a blind psychiatrist twice who told me I had an Anxiety Disuse and was not mad. She said "have you not noticed how this in the waiting room with you are a little different to you?" as they always focused on me and some would love to start charting.

So you see it was a bit annoying when know that g p actually turned around and said i need a psychiatrist after everything i went through and all the begging that I did my family found out i was not crazy I just had an anxiety disorder. Now this Doctor Cody was without a few facts at the time, what situation my daughter was in and the radicalised Muslims and my real health condition!!

So would it shock you to read that she said that due to the history that I had experienced up until that time that it was little wonder that I had an Anxiety Disorder and that it was nothing short of shocking that this was all I had and actually still alive?

As I said some of the worst horrors actual happened after this but things would plait rather differently.

That Doctor realised something immediately and that was that I had endured much, MUCH more than is normally humanly possible.

She also did not get told absolutely everything, I just wrote out some diaries for her and she suggested I write a book or two as I am very good at expressing myself. I told her she was not the only one that had told me this and that I had in fact written two books. I told her as I have previously stated on here that I started to write a couple of books recently and that the unfair system we currently live in within the UK had put a stop to that getting finished.

To my surprise she told me in only our third and last meeting that she herself had actually found out that much of what I said about the NHS and the DWP was true. After getting told by a few to many patients that they had their disability money stopped she says she went through the books one night.

She explained that no one in her big surgery in Enfield Town, oddly right opposite the Civic Centre which is Enfield Council, was ware nor has been informed by the  government or the DWP that this was going to take place. That was around for years or so ago now.

I have often seen one particular bipolar patient who used to like charting both begging in the Town Centre as well as steaming from local ship's owned by foreigners.

They were quite angry over him stealing and I had to calm then down and tell them about he had health issues. I then picked up the things they took from him, paid them and then went outside and have them to him which shocked everyone into silence. Not by any stretch if the imagination the first time I had shocked people and certainly will not be the last.

I just wish I was in a far better position to help those who cannot help themselves. Though I am planning that if all currently pans out how I planned I may well be able to do this in 2015.

So yes I get some rare moments where things do come together. Sometimes this can be in a brief moment of frozen seconds and other times needs much longer stretches in time. I do now now why this is which is a great relief.

So yes it dies frustratingly take a long time with some things and desire my conditions I am still on the ball compared to most others.

A see in point is that there are individuals that were naysayers as far as where all my blogs are concerned and seen to think that they must be failures because it would have paid off by now. I am hoping this is what my enemies were thinking too.

Like my brother said there must be a topping point...

1 Those naysayers are expecting that most if the country have read enough of my blogs now to go viral, or in other words they 'get it' and yet they have not done this themselves

2 At any point that number one takes place well I had not finished and even when I do I still need enough people to have read it all which includes my last posts. That's a while off yet.

3 That amusingly do seem to be blind to the fact that everyone else is just add busy as they are. Or if I asked why they had not read enough of it I would hear all about their jobs, their problems, their family issues and everything rise that is going on.

4 But I have been through all that and it the other side. I KNOW what is really going on and is akin to bloody Satanists running things and simply not on. That only stood when everyone is aware of it and accepts these things as facts. Only then can they all act and speak as one.

5 I DO NOT KNOW HOW LONG THIS TAKES, Lol. I can predict certain things provided the numbers all match up, which they do not nor have ever done under Google and only they know why this is and not speaking, no matter how many times I ask them. God complexes, don't you just love them?!

I really need to do something about the Internet and Good Complexes in 2015. I also want to make a number of things totally illegal in the Internet. If not complied with them that firm should be banned from having a website at all. The  punishment will be a humongous fine as a warning. Any further ignoring of the rules puts the owners of the firms in jail for a very long term. No excuses and no legal loopholes.

But it will be awhile if at all I get around to this. If it is not done along with some other things the Internet is going to become an even more horrid place than it is right now.

Google, Microsoft, Apple, the NSA and GCHQ have all made sure of that last fact!

Everyone wants to be God, lol.

What was it that Matt Johnson sang on one oh his tracks off his classic album called Mind Bomb?

             If the real Jesus Christ was to stand up today..
             He would be gunned down cold by the CIA
             - Matt Johnson

PS If parts of this line or the quotes about do not cone out in a bold font then it is because when I edit in Google's crap Quick Office it is because as soon I start editing it alarmingly turns off the bold on varies words here and there with no rhyme or reason. Lol.

Told you they were crap and only interested in money and not people, hehe.