THE MANY ANSWERS

Well I have been at it a little more in the last few days.

There are several things to sort out still but I am getting there. I have managed to do several things in the last few days. So this week it has been solicitor, bike, blog, DWP and a little sorting out of my storage facility.

So four things in a week and a little re-arranging. Not all re-arranging required but somewhere close to half of it.

There are other things that have occurred but am not going to go into them at this time .. due to safety reasons and a few other things.

I still .. think about someone and I do not think that will ever stop .. but there may be an answer to that one. A light at the end of the tunnel, if you prefer?

I cycled ten miles yesterday and two things became obvious .. I was not going to make it and .. cycling is what causes the stinging and aching in the area of my inguinal hernia repair. I had always strongly suspected it but .. after not having been bothered by it for many months, five maybe, it was back yesterday.

I did get back in the end, with some walking along to let my legs rest, but I kept collapsing after I got back as my left knee was striking with pain every now and then trying to crouch down. Odd as there is a physical issue with my right knee, as spotted by two NHS Orthopaedic surgeons that was later omitted from any report. No, this was my left knee in pain.

Of my tasks .. there is one I need t do myself and one someone else is supposed to do for me and another I need help and a van for.

The one I can do myself .. will take time once it is done. But I will need to do it and so it is something I will do very soon.

As for the journey yesterday .. I forgot that when I did it there were puddles everywhere and I had originally intended to wait a few more days for them to dry out. The weather app on my phone stated that it was supposed to remain dry from Thursday, 25^th January, to Monday 29^th January. Except today it states something completely different. Tomorrow it is supposed to be raining?!

The other thing I forgot about the journey is that as soon as I got down to the river path a wind was blowing straight at me. This got stronger and I had several periods were it blew fairly hard and one where it stopped me altogether. That was despite the fact that I had been in a very low gear and on my smallest chain ring. I never ride in the smallest chain ring and nor do I use such a low gear either but that is what I did for the entire journey.

Not heard anything about the car .. which is becoming a trifle .. worrying. Everything else could have been sorted with that and I thought that at least by now I would have heard of a couple of people enquiring.

Has me doubting it has even been advertised which considering I have been back here awhile now and got many other things done .. is somewhat confusing.

I have also managed to work out that when my anxiety dissipates the heart palpitations start to occur and when the anxiety is back the palpitations seem to bugger off on their holidays?!

You just cannot win with some things.

Next week is going to be somewhat .. interesting and the four weeks that follow on from that as there are some things in the pipeline that might just work out. It might become obvious as soon as next week? Time will tell. This will be pretty good .. all around for a whole number of things. It could mean some more major changes but we will wait and see. Been in this situation before on here and if there is one thing I have learned in the past three years or so .. nothing quite works out how you think it will. So I am just going to let it play out.

I wish I could say more because I could get a particular someone quite excited and pleased but I cannot nor will I. I also could get into trouble legally for saying anything and very likely would at this stage. If a particular thing happens next week then that changes everything so .. if your reading this .. yes, you, then just hold out a bit longer.

I have made some pretty big mistakes the last few months and I think now I may be able to rectify all of these mistakes. It certainly looks and sounds good right now. There will be some major repercussions that I have personally been waiting for, for a long, long time.

Trust me on this when I say that I cannot wait for this and it is kind of imminent.

There will be some panic stricken knee jerk reactions but that has already been prepared for and let us say for now that there will be some .. FOCUS .. on a great deal of things.

In fact this has already kinda started and is in the public domain but .. it is only just beginning and I kind of knew what would be coming next. I had to explain this to others that got something of a shock. I then reminded them by saying “If you recall .. I Did state this the other day?!” to which they then remembered exactly what I had said a few days beforehand.

From this .. a great many things are possible and despite the fact that they might not all unfold as as already been explained .. many will.

In fact let us just say there is some .. investment in this.

I have kept this quiet because of certain parties finding out about it but some have now realised and .. there have been odd phone-calls, phone conversations, refusals to requests that were outright lies and I am expecting at least one more from one single source.

You could say that there are cracks in three of the four walls and I would be over the moon with any single one of them but .. to get all three?! Then add another to the usual three?!

Trying to not be excited by all this is somewhat .. bloody difficult.

But I keep saying to myself that let us just wait and see how it plays out. It will certainly play out, that is for sure but it is difficult to know who to trust right now.

Someone was going to be told but then later it was decided that they would not .. things certainly do whizz around at times. It is hard to know what to do and who to talk to.

I know who it is I want to talk to.

Not anyone around here that is for certain.

I am excited but that is because I am also kind of sad. I have been sad for awhile now and if it is not anxiety it is worry and when it is not worry it is sadness. Though I do not really show it. Nor do I talk about it either. Well there is only one person I would like to speak to and that feeling I have had for awhile now.

There are those that said I should have taken my chance at the time and now say I should have taken my chance while I still had it. But I did not want to do this in the .. mood I was in. Though knowing me I could have likely pulled it off .. maybe?

So I am excited because I may be able to end the sadness along with everything else? I may already be on the road to actually doing this already? But .. imminent events can put the proverbial tin hat on that in a single heartbeat.

Still .. something might slip out I the meantime? It might tonight, for all I know?

Sometimes distance gives you some perspective and .. sometimes that distance also might mean that you have burned all or just some of your bridges. As it has been turning out I have not .. but there remains one bridge that needs to be built and .. it is a pretty big bridge! But then the imminent thing is a pretty big thing and I have already made strides in correcting my previous mistakes and those things I forgot or was not aware of. Big strides.

Google, the DWP, the car and a whole swathe of other things .. darn it?! Just remembered I might need to get a temporary GP?!

That white woolly hat.

I have actually had one or two ask me if I have a picture. I do not, sadly. I have also been asked to look for someone on Facebook but as I told them, that would be too weird and besides that I simply would not know where to look. I do not have all that I would need to preform any search anyway.

Yesterday pain and worry actually stopped me from thinking about that which I normally do .. which was a first. I was worried .. about something .. in fact I felt guilty when I realised I had not thought about it because of pain, tiredness and muddy paths combined with strong winds. In fact a couple of people did not think I would make it and even noticed it was windy and thought I would .. conk out, so to speak. Well I kinda did .. but I did not care as it was preventing me from thinking about too many things.

Paying today though and though I am surprised I can actually walk after that ten mile ride .. I know my legs are buggered. Still .. at least I am not getting the knee pain today I was yesterday that had me collapsing against the walls and nearly falling down the stairs several times!

I was tempted to get out on my mountain bike but thought I had better not push my legs and knees .. oh not forgetting my groin, too far. Inguinal Hernia repair .. stings a bit if I overdo it with the cycling.

Still cannot believe I have felt like I do as .. well .. it .. umm .. was so long ago last time I simply cannot recall and I might never have felt like this before?

Funny when I think about it .. love, revenge and a few other things might be just around the corner?

MY MATE, THE SOD

Yup, so much is he that they named a law after him!

I am a little fed up as he is always hanging around and driving me nuts. He only ever strikes just when I am about to do something else.

I was planning on a new camera in a few months time, which did not work out, when my one took a bloody tumble and I am still, trying to get it replaced. Of course I need that for all of my blogs and my YouTube channel I have now spent 3.5 years working on.

Of course I am still missing several items and the necessary space to all that I want and am capable of doing.

I left the house today forgetting something else, as I more often than not do. My Fiio hi-res music player and RHA headphones. So back to the house yet again and annoyingly when I thought it was about 10am was actually midday! Grrr.

Rummage around and no music player. Must of left it upstairs then? Umm ... no!

Oh, it is in my backpack? No. Inside pockets? No! I used a different bag? No! I have put it down somewhere and placed something on top of it? NO!

Crap!

Last time I remember seeing it, ... I THINK, was the morning before yesterday when I was picked up by my brother to go birdwatching. He called me 'Go, Go Gadget' and 'Inspector Gadget' because of all my devices and wires. I told him there were still half a dozen or more gadgets I did not bring out, like my audio recorder, radio scanner ... umm other Windows phone and probably others?

Where does 'sod' come into all this?

Well I was hoping to get an Astell & Kern AK Jr at some point which I would be doing about now if it were not for the fact that I desperately need a camera and the camera unfortunately takes precedence.

Yeesh!

How I do not know but it always, and I do mean always, happens like this. I start planning something, start working towards something and then something else comes along and goes wrong just about the time when it is about to go right!

ALWAYS!

Like some bloody court papers I was meant to get a hold most of last Summer and then should have done in November only for that to go south for the winter and not even knowing why that is.

I listen to music most of the time when I am out to take my mind of the 100 things that often go through it. Half a dozen or more of these are pains, either dealing with them or constantly worried they are going to flare up. Or the half a dozen symptoms that are 'hope a crack in the floor opens and you fall into a bottomless pit' embarrassing!

Jesus! I am going top miss having that player.

The only upside is ... or bloody well should be, is the fact it is Spring and the warmer weather means I should be out on my bike with my ... faulty camera most days. Except it is not good weather and we have only had a couple of full days and a few half days of decent weather.

Rain, rain, nothing but rain is all we get lately and even several of the sunny days have had rain at some bloody point! Should be good for the wild British Orchids but I am betting it will rain right through the periods when they are in flower and I wont get up there?! Lol.

Damn this Fibrofog and Fibromyalgia, it really is the bane of my life in so many ways I lose count! If someone was to ask me in how many ways I get driven nuts by my health I would say ... well four, except one of them has so many bloody ways on its own that I cannot even give you a number!

Over a dozen that bog me down I would say. Both feet, right calf, shoulder, memory, vomiting, skin conditions, umm two others, oh yeah ... and that one lol (not telling on those three), high blood pressure, postural hypotension, light sensitivity, sleep problems and umm am I forgetting anything? Memory, lmao!

Several back problems, lumbar, thoracic region (middle) and neck.

Physical problem with right knee.

Severe heartburn.

These are the main ones that are in the forefront of my mind.

Jesus, why is it so effing hard?

JESUS, why is there no EFFING HELP?!

I keep asking but I never get an answer, from anyone else, nit only Jesus.

Steps to getting help ...

1. Find organisation that claims to be advice/action in your field, ask for help ...
2. Get told they do not actually do that
3. Ask them why
4. Get lies or crap in answers
5. Ask them about deliberate mistakes I lead them to make
6. Get told to ask 'x' organisation
7. Go back to '1'
8. Repeat
9. Repeat Steps 1 to 8 a dozen times before you realise ...
10. None do anything, they all lie and their names are intentionally misleading
11. LAUGH YOUR ARSE OFF
12. LMAO!
13. Then realise you gotta just keep doing this crap even though it hurts in more ways than one!
14. Feel like sticking your head in a mincer

THE APPROACHING DAWN

Been busy trying to tidy up the place. My home that is.

I have been busy with other things I will get to before too long.

I have also managed to give up one vice while I have also got into something new, once again more on that soon when I manage to get around to it and take some pictures and maybe a movie or two?

I am also on the cusp of two events.

It has been a very, very long wait. I am hoping it comes to an end and while I type that I know that one way or another it will come to an end.

Either something happens or it does not. If it does not then the message given out is very clear, very clear indeed. Not one that I either wanted nor considered for single second I would get the whole while I was helping and working on something.

They always speak about things in life being there to both test you and teach you ... but not this one ... this is a learning process that no one wants to experience.

I am also late in getting off a second wave of letters to literary agents and am also considering at this point at contacting solicitors now as well as companies with goof reputations in the hope of getting some advertising deal. In the event it turns out that money I thought would be returned last October, 2015, is not returned and indeed not there at all. That was what I never considered.

It has been a miserable winter and my heart goes out to those in the north of the UK getting far more intensity and frequency of that we have had in the suburbs of London!

After God knows how many storms we, or rather they, have Henry incoming.

Those that have been here enough times and long enough know that I cycle a lot. For anyone trapped indoors or have difficulty or being put off going too far I implore you to get a cycle of some kind.

For me it is a mean to escape, I can get among the wildlife and nature in about 30 minutes and not be near anyone else. It allows me to think too and I can even get creative by carrying in my backpack notebooks, pens and even a tablet PC. I often carry other gadgets too like a bridge camera for one, if it is good weather, Spring or Summer or I am able to get somewhere to film British birds that are winter visitors only.

I have pains in my feet, hips and other places caused by Fibromyalgia. I also have some kind of back problems and a physically damaged right knee. The cycling helps with most but does aggravate the knee, if I am honest. Luckily not too much.

Also Fibromyalgia can, if your really unlucky, get so bad that you can wind up bed ridden.

Anyone that knows about Fibromyalgia, including the very few Doctors out there, will tell you that light exercising keeps the pains at bay, not gone per se, just at bay and stops you winding up bed ridden.

Do not do too much and do not become a couch potato. It will only get progressively worse.

In the news I see that the sudden deaths of celebrities keep on coming with Terry Wogan being added to the list. It is quite bizarre I must say.

Also more corruption keeps on being exposed.

One wonders when it will end? Hopefully and eventually they would have exposed everyone and it will end. Hopefully then things can and will get better?

I have done my bit to expose as many as I can and the list runs into dozens ... no literally, lol. To the point whereby people high up in organisations pick up the phone to warn others of what I am up to. They also still try and second guess me but ... well, they are just wasting their time.

Carry on playing games and trying to second guess while wrongly assuming your the most intelligent man in the room and you just play right into my hands.

Tomorrow is February 2016.

From tomorrow we have seventeen days. Seventeen days where a great deal can happen.

Separate from this are some endeavours of my own. I have to send off a second wave of literary agent letters, but I am not expecting to be taken on, just lied to and I have already which I will get around to aty some point. I own books on becoming an author that states that almost all literary agents are basically idiots. Almost all sit around waiting for a template that has already been created.

Putting that in a straightforward example everyone would love to get something along the lines of Harry Potter because of the popularity and the money it made. Except Harry Potter has already been done and anything else would seem like a rip-off and not make 1% (one percent) of the money that Harry Potter made.

Quite possibly the percentage should be in small fractions? Lol.

Some state that they are destroying literature.

It is all about have something interesting to say, explaining and proving facts not known before, or theorised and/or suspected. It is about getting things across that everyone can fully understand and see without the chance they will walk away without really looking.

Now save for posting my secretly recorded audio files and photocopied reports in every single post when they number in the many dozens I do all of the above in the previous paragraph.

I have also always been told this by fellow degree students, friends and family and have even been told by them all and a member of Mensa that I have a unique way with words and explaining things. A previous employer, two solicitors also friends, also said the same and stated I was very good at teaching and should do that.

Dozens and dozens of intelligent people, professionals, scientists and solicitor along with many of your average bods all of which number in the hundreds have told me to do EXACTLY what I a doing now. As well as write the books I have written.

For some strange reason literary agents cannot see what hundreds of others have all seen.

The only difference between all of these people from my past and that of all the literary agent is that the former have met me. Maybe that is the key difference?

I am often told after a first meeting that I have blown people's minds or they cannot believe how much I know and even that I should me a millionaire with my knowledge.

Oddly there is someone I should currently be teaching absolutely everything that I know and everything that I can do.

Annnnd were back to that approaching dawn.

I have also just remembered of another item I need to take photos of and post about which is very disappointing and involves two companies. Two more companies to add to the ever growing list and one a manufacturer and one a retailer.

I am shocked to have to say what it is I will say. Especially when I tried to purchase every other item from the high street retail store and they did not have a single one ... or pair, I should say.

In 1985 I bought their product and swore I never would again and here we are thirty years later and once again I am stating that which I did in 1985. After already having good item of the exact same thing which I have owned for two years. Bonkers, is what it is, lol.

The other new gadget I have I have loved, found a bit tricky and then went out and spent a lot more on another bigger and better gadget! Money I had not planned on spending but I simply could not resist after buying the first one.

I cannot put the damn thing down!

I have looked into this ... past-time and discovered a few odd things. Both good things and bad things and after doing a post on here I might skip it over to my computing blog? Or maybe keep it going on here?

So I am working on several things currently and we have seventeen days in February that re going to be ... a little odd, if I am honest, and quite ... productive in more ways than one.

I also wonder if this year of 2016 will be the one whereby I end up hearing something linked to me being mentioned?

In the meantime I have to endure such rotten weather that induces such painful levels of boredom that it is simply unbelievable.

Dammit! I also still have to look up the insurance cost for the car I have been offered!

I keep forgetting. I forget a great deal of things. Thank you Fibromyalgia!

I have got to expand, or find a way of expanding this year.

I had planned to be moving north about now. This would be to allow a relative of mine to be able to get to me within an hour. So they could see me whenever they felt the need to. I thought that would be happening about now and probably would too had I been allowed to do as I wanted to and not had a door shut on me.

Yes it can be better late than never but it is starting to very much look and feel like never. With one man's words ringing in my ears like a loud foghorn has gone off beside my head!

These boots were bought for walking, lol pardon the reference, have now presented me with a problem. So if I was asked to whisk myself away I am back in the boat I was in back in September and October of 2015!

So may things and tools needed and not enough cash to acquire them all!

Even more annoying when these things and tools should have all been purchased by Autumn 2015 and I simply have no idea right know of when that time will be! Autumn 2016 will be ... a bit of a stretch and I have estimated I am about 14 months late, due to another endeavour that looks to now have been unproductive. I was informed all along the way that it was and indeed the moment hat it was productive. But all I have right now is a pea-souper of fog and I cannot see a damn thing! I also cannot even blame this on the symptom of Fibrofog I experience often!

I plan to instigate something, all the same. To try and get and put an end to this four year long ordeal once and for all.

Because I have spent the last three months wondering whether or not I have been a naive idiot taken for a fool. I have the absolute best excuse in the world, mind you!

Like I said, the 17th February 2016 is they key date ion all this and II had also figured in a 12 week period which has now passed. The number of weeks in that period is not finite and can be variable. So a couple of extra weeks allows things to ... happen, or not, as the case may be.

While that happens I will work on a few things to keep me busy. There are a couple other things I want to work on but not quite got all the tools I require. A little worried that I will do myself a physical injury in the space I have that could easily wind up losing a digit (finger or thumb), hand, arm or even kill me! LMAO!

You gotta do something. No one can sit around on their arse all day and it drives me nuts trying to sit still for a single day! Simply not possible. Not here at any rate. Not with my current ... surroundings.

I also need to go to the local council, so potentially more audio, and check what their Housing Benefit monthly payments ceiling is. Because at the possible worst time my landlord has informed me they have to put the rent up. Dammit!

I have lost count of the number of things that have occurred in the period between November to date, January 31st 2016! Even my health and particularly back pains have been going into overdrive like never before!

So I have endeavoured to turn each of these things around into something ... else! Lol.

Eighteen days from now the horizon could look very different and I am hoping that it is a darned sight closer and not a darned sight further away?!

Here's hoping.

WORDS TO THE NONE THE WISER

I have had some emails from Atos sitting there in my inbox for several days now but only just got around to reading it.

Of course I knew that it would be a passing the buck email which I'd kind of what I hoped. Had it fit years of them but like everything the I am not using it against them and teaching them a lesson.

A lesson they have to quite learned but will learn it extremely heavily over the next three months. Lol.

Now in this instance it's a passing the buck email. How could I possibly turn ducky a shirt email around and have it go against them?

Easy.

They previously have claimed on here, via pasted emails, that they are Doctors and health experts and yet they are not concerned that they have made several mistakes that could be detrimental to a disabled persons health?! Oooh... that's gonna hurt in the morning son!

They also have no concerns about the facts I have them but that it's on my site. Obviously think the British public are either idiots ate just a large bunch of known twats that one show humanity when they are in the TV or radio? I think that might just backfire on them before very long?

Added to this, though it is mentioned below and I may have mentioned it already, but journalists have been to a friends home complete with camera men. I lost track because I've been feeling unwell and rushed off my feet and only had my blood taken today for those tests. That's two weeks today since I was asked to do them and I was bloody in agony and have very painful and stiff legs and feet.

In fact this pain and stiffness in my legs seems to be extremely common of late?! I keep forgetting to mention it but I get in knackered and sit down. If I sit for more than ten minutes I then experience a large amount of soreness in my legs and mostly in my muscles. It's bloody worrying as I am doing a daily impression of a ninety year old man!

Those words of Dr Kirkham ringing in my ears!

I am going to have to talk about Pregabalin when I return to my GP about test results in the weeks time?

Oh and a message to Putin... if your in the wilderness and a Bear appears and shoes it's teeth to you... well if your able to do it you will rip out its fangs! Don't show your teeth and you won't have your fangs ripped out.

Dear Sirs

Pathetic.

That's the worst get out of jail line I have ever heard.

First you made a mistake or do you not care that you have been ineffective of that it is obvious your just being paid to trick disabled people?

Secondly not only have you not had a single item regarding my medical records in your hands but as I keep pointing out to you brother do you have access you anyone that is a specialist in my main condition of Fibromyalgia, never mind my oesophagitis bow getting a lot of attention, was in hospital again today for tests, not my bugged right knee all of which I have evidence if that you conveniently did not request.

Do NOT patronize me. Your position does not bless you with some higher form of intelligence and if you think it's breeding, well I'm a scientist I can explain the holes in your theories.

Your email I'd staying that you neither give a shite about the ailments of disabled people not that you do your job properly for what you are paid.

You just might be interested to know that the first person I know of that it my tricks to the test is not only a witness to the fact your liars, because she contacted you with a friends Doctors details of her Fibromyalgia but that this was actually by you and you informed the DWP that she should be paid and she was. So your lying.

Ohh sorry my mistake, I digress.

This same person has now had a tabloid journalist visit her home with a camera man who have taken pictures and have taken records she did with housing first lying through their teeth and then threatening her with the Police and solicitors, falsely I might add, to shut her up.

Now you can imagine how they are now knowing that a journalist had arrived. So early next year I am going to make an example of pathetic jobsworths as my first victims are literally thrown into their own swords by their own bosses and more fool them for caring out underhanded things and being too bloody incompetent to know or care about what was going on.

Now I can go to my blog and paste this email so that everyone can see without a doubt that you not only know I know they facts, so no excuses, but that add my 7 simultaneous plans unfold during 2015 it will be the year remembered when I have given the asses of a whole long list of huge corrupt organizations a kicking that will smart for a decade while talked and written about by many.

One of the most brilliant and memorable things from all this will be how I called dangled clue after clue in front of you each time and you failed to pick up on it every singles time.

So not only will I prove your lying about having experts assessing people but that your also far too incompetent to be able to live up to your claims of having health professionals.

My goal was set out 7 years ago, but my evidence gifts back way longer, like the proof I have that you have lied every single time I have contacted you about everything. No is no buts, you can say what you like I really could not give a flying...scotsman!

None of you ever realised that your negativity and excuses not only made no difference at all to be but actually was expected all along.

If ant if you or your dastardly puppet masters had any intelligence whatsoever they would have read in the first month of my blog back in August 2015 that...

Watch me do all the correct procedures, forms, letters, send in evidence and watch add every single time they change the rules, lie and then when I want then too they well lose the very files you will see evidence on here if me sending them.

I get so many people thanking me you don't have no idea. I never really mention anyone who thanks me too friends unread their is something if note shot them.

Now imagine everyone's faces when I told them I received a big thank you from a vicar who did his family had thought that all the public services thought they were lying and now know via my efforts to expose the truth that there were in fact lied to?!

This is just one of many examples of comments, oops did the other masters not think to check them out? Imagine all those hundreds of thousands that read my blog and the comments from anyone of note and wonder to what I have taught them to do?

I know of at least one GP in Liverpool that had been struck off, the last GP to lure to me repeatedly on behalf of both you and the NHS had realised he put all his chips on the wrong color and it appears that, like thousands of others, have deserted the NHS.

This is exactly what I expected when I manipulated you all to bin ask the health evidence I have proof that you have had, even in your own words and that of the DWP.

It's now cherry on the bakewell tart of 'game over' and not only will 2015 prove to be EXTREMELY uncomfortable, hence why everyone is voting for UKIP, but I have seven simultaneous plans currently in effect to finish up around March 2015.

Ooh dear.

You could have all so easily avoided all this by doing what you are still supposed to do for the taxes you are paid but also that which you have constantly clarinet that you do.

But like I said I always knew that you wouldn't.

In fact everything I did too destroy most of the public services and all associated governing bodies and ombudsman all relied on the fact that I would pursue you all repeatedly while providing proof each time from other areas I was also getting lies and corruption event from, like in this case the NHS, and catch you all...

Tripping up not only at the exact same time but also contradicting yourself and each other.

If you really need me to join up the dots for you... you recently sent me a letter?In fact I had four letters in the days that followed a couple of letters from a couple of weeks ago and a stunned DWP stressed member dealing with legal requests lists for words out what had gone on, where my health evidence is and both how and why I was refused countless times for my applications over the last few years.

On my blog right now are those letters and forms along with, soon, this email. Everyone had also recently realised that it's NOT illegal to record anyone receiving public taxes or indeed retail outlets that lie. Now when I get a copy of the tabloid article and people felt hard done by n know they can record meeting and tests to garner attention from the tv news and tabloids... well, lol, ever heard of the term... 'floodgates are opening'?

The funny thing is I have never contacted the media about my issues or blog, well not since its inception are any rate. I knew that at just the right time they would approach me. Have a guess at when I think that will now happen?

By the way I'm no fool. I know the puppet masters peruse and you can tell them this...

"Whatever you THINK you know? Just stop. Just don't! I assure you that you REALLY don't!"

I would help you that only the most incompetent of people would make everything they are doing that obvious. And I'm no fool as like the NHS you, the DWP, two Police forces, for local councils will all discover along with others.

Funnily enough you probably already have this proof but not connected it to me just yet but then this was fully offended too. Well... Like I always say... IT'S ON THE BLOG!

Like I told you already on here, in previous emails and from the beginning...GAME OVER!

We well be communicating again in the Spring, though you clearly do not want to. Maybe you have failed to realise our the DWP have not warned you about me yet and your still naive?

Well you have the evidence set your disposal that the NHS student realised what a threat I truly was and phoned my last GP! An hour long row all recorded, published and not the public services all hoping someone else gets the blame that's will inevitably come.

Because it's not long now before most if the UK public will know what's been really going on. I am afraid if IS THAT you simply cannot lure yourselves out of. Ooh there is a general election in May too?! Not good! Not good at all!

Martin Haswell BSc

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Tuesday, 09 December 2014, 09:42am +00:00 from "R customer relations" <custrelations@atoshealthcare.com>:

Dear Mr Haswell

Thank you for your email, a record of which will be retained.

We do not have a current referral for you in relation to an ESA claim.

Any concerns you have about a PIP referral should be sent to the email address previously provided

Regards

Customer Relations

From: Martin Haswell
Sent: 08 December 2014 16:18
To: R customer relations
Subject: RE: HOME VISIT REQUEST

Dear Sirs

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Remember me?

Dear Sirs

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Remember me?

Well I am back and despite having a mountain of things for you to look at on my blog I knew you would not.

So I put in motion a number of plans that ran simultaneously.

Oddly enough I also have a large number of things, at least six if I remember, running concurrently as of this moment that will take 3 to 6 months to achieve.

Did I ever mention that Which? Magazine were in correspondence? Or that a Vicar and family have expressed their gratitude for what I have done?

They really have not seen anything yet.

Now about your defrauding of the British taxpayer, I need to pint out to you that this was never ever about you awarding me money as I knew that both you and the DWP would not! In fact I was BANKING on this.

I did not want a caning of staff.

I did not simply want to make a very long list of psotions untenable.

What I did want, however, was to get enough of the ublic to know what your up to that would cause an event the likes of which wopuld make sure that this contempt shown towards human life and the British public would never, EVER happen again.

That is not ewven the main thing.

I have provided a number of attachments to the very things that I had run concurrently up until today and how these have paid of, oh and the scanned letters is not all and I strongly suggest you read a copy and paste of a letter I have also emailed to ICE?!

Oh and remember... I am not done yet and have 6 plans in place running concorrently right now.

Yours

Martin Haswell BSc

Do you remember that so called investigation you did as regards my case?

Well I have one more request of you and a whole bunch of letters I have had from the DWP not only stating in their own words that they have screwed up in a rather large way, unfortunately for both them and you I DO KNOW why, plus I have their own words that they not oinly did not process my claim correctly and in line with the law but have dropped both themselves and your right 'in it'!

These letters arrived within 48 hours of each other...

*  Did not provide me with the documentation I requested via a Subject Access Request instead sent me copies of my own emails to them?!

*  I trust you KNOW how a SAR works? No its not saracasm, well maybe a little...

*  Then claimed they did not send me what I requested because I did not state 'which benefits I was referring to

*  Silly me I had thought the line 'Please send me all correspondence and forms pertaining to evidence requested of the NHS' was pretty self explanatory?! I guess not.

*  They claimed to have sent me a SAR form, they did not, and then sent another one to files they cannot find?!

*  The last letter is the one stating they cannot find it and I have a recorded telepohoine call from several months ago stating they cannot find them

*  Oh and the letter states I requested them in June 2014? Lol, oooh no! I do not think so! I asked them this when I put in my claim for PIPs that I was just refused despite the fact that they have not contacted a GP regarding my health!! Oooh DEAR!

For your perusal I have included a series of blood tests I am about to have because my GP, unlike the last two that chose to lie and side with you and the DWP, is now somewhat concerned about my health. I have already had Emergency Response Teams sent to me and orderedf to hospital where they though I had either stomach or colon cancer and were shocked I knew what they were looking for.

Now picture a barrel floating on a creek without a paddle in sight and a rather amorous Pteradactyl is flying in at full pelt?

Now guess what you are all bent over?

I was never happy with just you showing that your not dfoing the jobs your paid a rather large sum of money for, hence my previous Freedom Of Information request.

I was never ever going to be happy with simply making a large number of highly paid careers by the British taxpayer purely unteneable either.

The years I spent plouging, pardon the pun, everything I could for evidence was to show the British public the truth and that there would be so much anger that eventually an event woukld take place that would never ever allow the same thing to happen again....EVER!

Thanks to the incompetence of everyone I have battled this has been made extremely easy apart from the inordinate amopunt of time it takes all you over paid people to do the simplest of things.

Oh? You do not agree? Well then I will simply refer you to both the above as well as the blog you should have paid more attention to but which I both knew and hoped that you would not.

I will let you all ponder what that last point was made.

Yours

Martin Haswell BSc

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Subject: RE: HOME VISIT REQUEST
Date: Tue, 4 Nov 2014 15:03:08 +0000
From:  custrelations@atoshealthcare.com

Dear Mr Haswell

Thank you for your further email.

We do not have a current referral for you from the DWP in relation to a claim for Employment and Support Allowance (ESA) and we have no record of corresponding with you regarding your ESA referral since 3 rd October 2014 when we sent you form BF223 to complete, explaining why you did not attend the appointment. On the 2 nd October. Your referral was closed and returned to the DWP office dealing with your ESA claim when you failed to attend the appointment and there is no record of any further contact with you regarding your ESA referral. The reason why a home visit had not been authorized for your ESA referral has already been explained and I can add nothing further to this.

ESA and PIP referrals are handled under different contracts and I am unable to assist you with any concerns you have about a Personal Independence Payment (PIP) referral or whether they have asked you to attend an appointment at a venue outside Enfield.  Please contact the PIP Customer Service Team at  PIP-customerservice@atos.net should you have any concerns about this.

Your Subject Access Request for copies of all documents we hold has been noted.  The Health Service Directorate are responsible for all data held by Atos Healthcare and as such, I have referred your request to them.


Regards

Christine Hughes
Senior Complaints Manager

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From: Martin
Sent: 04 November 2014 14:35
To: R customer relations
Subject: HOME VISIT REQUEST

Dear Christine

It seems you have had something further to add to what has already been stated?!

Well what do you know? After denying making arrangements to come to my home on threee seperate occasions and recently denying you made an appointment for me in August 2015 after asking you why you made the second one in October 2015 it now turns out you have written to me with a third appointment?!

Is your corrupt organisation going after a record breaker?

I laughingly showed the letter to several people that had no idea a year ago how corrupt you and the DWP are along with the government. They were first speechles over the location in Lambeth, South London I mean could you GET any further away from Enfield while still being in London?! Then when they saw the time of 9am after they were shown your email about how you do not deliberately do that to people they just laughed before then getting annoyed.

You really could not have exposed yourself any more if you had tried!

Now I then posted it immediately on my blog so that everyone can now see that only one of two possibilitites exists...

1 Your definately corrupt or...
2 Your definately incompetent

Or both of course?!

I also explained another possibility and that is that your organisation has not been able to get out of the contract becase you have been threatened by the British government with having all the blame at your door?

As stated this has been explained on the blog @ asaintcalledallnights.blogspot.co.uk and nothing on this blog can be undone.

I would also like to explain once again my reasons for not turning up are the exact same as they were the last 6 times I did not turn up and added to this my health has taken a dramatic downturn. But then if you kept abreast of the blog, only complete and utter morons would not be perusing it regularly, you would know this.

I could not even tell you what is up but I assure you that death was an inviting proposition! I had an emergency response unit come to my home late one night and only found out he was an emergency response guy when I was in Barnet Hospital having a barrage of tests primarily looking for stomach or colon cancer!

I have had diarrhea for 9 weeks now and this has been joined with severe abdominal and back pain with severe vomiting and emmiting sulphur like aromas from everywhere. Oh yes and blood.

What you also have failed to realise is that in all your decisions of the last two years I now know that you have no medical evidence of mine at all, at least that is whjat was stated in a telephone call to me apologising from the DWP?!

Now as I stated to the lady on the phone, who was not part of PIPS/DLA/ESA/ATOS and is responsible for their extremely late Freedom Of Information request, which I have also made to you with no response, how have you refused me my applications for DLA five times in the last two years?! She did not know! I also informed her that there was an application going on right now and in the process of being refused for the sixth time and she was completely confused and did not know what to say.

So once again...

FREEDOM OF INFORMATION REQUEST...

1 Can you forward me all documents you possess on me please!!

ALSO ...

1 I cannot travel beyond Enfield unless assisted
2 I REQUEST a HOME VISIT for the FIFTH...oh I have lost count!!
3 I have Fibromyalgia that causes a dozen areas of pain one being heels which is why I dont do public transport, MEMORY LOSS, other symptoms that make it terrifying to travel and an aversion to it! Oh yes and best of all is the sleep depravation which happens most of the time!!! In other words its common for me to not get to sleep until 3am to 8am and not wake up until midday, rather bloody annoyingly.

Now please NOTE:

You do not have one excuse in my case, you have way over a dozen! All clearly linked to Fibromyalgia and not including a real physical problem now diagnosed in my right knee. I have still not PLAYED THE RECORDING AT GUY'S HOSPITAL BACK AGAIN to find out what this was. I was too busy screaming in pain and it was conveniently left out of the letter to my last GP. Oh and I should now mention that I passed by it yesterday and is now the second GP practise I have been registered with to close in as many years!!

That is another point you have failed to pick up on. I was already told by a GP you were lying and so were the DWP and that you lied about a previous GP of mine regarding the forms being filled in. Oddly enough she was the one that first spotted my knee and I know that the hospital rerferrals had the hospitals go out of their way NOT to diagnose it. One referal even shifting focus from my knee entriely to my feet, then did x-rays I knew where just to fob me off and I was already well aware X-Rays do nothing and they knew it.

You see thats been going on for a very long time and quite unfortunately for eveyone, you and the DWP included, I knew this and recorded every meeting I had for several years. This spans 5 GP Surgeries and God knows how many Doctors along with no less than FIVE hospitals consisting of...

1 Chase Farm Hospital
2 St Michaels Hospital
3 Royal Free Hospital
4 Barnet Hospital
5 Cannot remember fifth

This also includes documentation from other hospitals going back TWENTY years including...

North Middlesex Hospital
Whipps Cross Hospital

Probably others I have forgotten?

I then spent two whole years publishing what I had on my blog and predicted what you would all do over the next three years and carried on recording and publishing as I went.

A brother of mine who now want to find legal representation to take a public service to court for malpractise involving manslaughter was shocked to hear I had collected around 100GB of data.

So I am giving you fair warning once again to all this and I have also made something very cclear to you that when bought up in court will have any accusations about me redundant and will be thrown out. It is quite obviously in your face and down to you to work out asndf not for me to tell you. That is how it works and how I cover myself while making you all look bad.

In other words I am giving you opportunities over and over again to do the right thing and stop the lies and corruption. If you fail to over and over again you simply just carry on proving me correct, its hardly rocket science.

Yours

Martin Haswell BSc

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Subject: RE: <No Subject>
Date: Thu, 9 Oct 2014 15:10:49 +0100
From:  custrelations@atoshealthcare.com
To:  saintallnights@hotmail.com
Dear Mr Haswell

I have nothing further to add to what has already been stated.

As requested, I have forwarded your email to the DWP

Regards

Christine
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From:
Sent: 08 October 2014 18:34
To: R customer relations
Subject: Re: <No Subject>

Dear Christine Hughes

I have been lied to get again by Atos and my questions/complaint has not been dealt with, well there is a surprise.
First off no documentation regarding my health exists with you or the DWP and I have had a phone call from the dwp stating this and apologising for it. Ooh did I forget to mention that recording?! Yes that was awhile ago now.

So your statement that you requested medical evidence and s bit sufficient is built crap too. You have not contacted my gps as I asked them. Oh yes and I do mean gps,  PLURAL, because I have caught two GPs in a row lying about conditions, drugs, dosages and the existence of NHS Departments. I also have two Doctors falsifying ultrasound tests and in the last four years I have recorded every meeting I ever had with anyone.

Unfortunately the GPs kicked me off there register after I told them I knew what was going on. They attempted to falsely label me as first mad, second violent and when this failed accused me of breaking the law by secretly recording public services for four years!

Oops, so you have not contacted my latest GP, as you would not know who they were, and nor the last, unless of course your willing to tell me that my previous GP did get contacted from you, put in the letter what he was told to and lied to me about it?!

That really WOULD make my year!

You might find that a bit of a problem proving the contents of the letter he may have been instructed to write. Let me just say that there is an easily proceed lack of professionalism which is very easily proved, ergo I possess proof, and leave it at that.

Hmm now what's next? Oh yeah..

1 Your the complaints department, another blatant rip off of British taxes, and yet you have made no comment at all about the lies about Home Visits bit being made!

2 The fact that I have had Home Visits before therefore means that I qualify,  Fibromyalgia is a progressive condition and once again you expose your own lack of knowledge in the world of medicine.
3 You have made no remark I came across about the fact I was told that you claimed you did not make an appointment in August?! But you seem to be admitting I have a pending claim for PIPs soon...  are you saying I am right or something else?

4 So your insisting on sticking with the line 'well you qualified for a Home Visit severance times in the past but despite the fact we are claiming to have letters staying your Fibromyalgia (the dozens of symptoms I have told you and the DWP of for a decade, which you did not have for ALL PREVIOUSLY AGREED HOME VISITS), Oesophagitis Grade C (sudden vomiting without warning), Hiatus Hernia (severe heartburn), painful groin from your inguinal hernia repair and the knee problem which I have a letter about from 3 years ago or more and have a confirmed diagnosis of on tape diagnosed by Dr Kirkham at Guy's Hospital the same time he diagnosed the Fibromyalgia, but later incompetent omitted to former from the letter as per instructed?

Are you serious? Really?! Please remember while I laugh and smile that this would have been on my blog for 12 hours or more by the time you read it!

Please forward these emails onto the DWP.

Yours

Martin Haswell BSc
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Monday, 06 October 2014, 02:54pm +01:00 from "R customer relations" < custrelations@atoshealthcare.com >:
Dear Mr Haswell

I am now able to respond to your email of 2 nd October 2014.
Further medical evidence was requested but this was insufficient to recommend that you meet the Support Group (SG) or that a home visit was necessary, which is why you were asked to attend an assessment.

We appreciate you have provided copious amounts of information; however, we are unable to advise that you meet SG criteria.
We have previously explained why a home visit was not authorised and I have nothing further to add to what has already been stated.
For your information, customers who are in receipt of a benefit are periodically referred to Atos Healthcare for advice and the majority of those are required to attend an assessment at some point. It is noted you have not been seen since 200 8 when you claimed Incapacity Benefit and it would have been helpful to be able to provide the DWP with an up to date picture of how your condition currently affects you. It may be useful to explain that ESA is different to IB and the criteria to reach benefit threshold is different. You can find out about ESA and the WCA on the DWP website, in particular, the ESA214 will be of particular interest regarding the criteria that needs to be met in order to meet benefit threshold.

We do offer home visits; however, as previously explained, we do require supporting medical evidence to show why a home visit is required. We have not received sufficient medical information in yo ur case to warrant offering a home visit. There is no record of you being offered a home visit due to an IB or ESA referral s. Whilst it is possible y ou may have been offered a home visit in relation to a previous DLA claim; the criteria for this is v ery different to ESA.

As you failed to attend the appointment booked for the 2 nd October, your ESA referral has been closed and returned to the DWP office dealing with your claim. Form BF223 h as been sent to you for you to complete and return to the Decision Maker explaining why you did not attend the appointment.

I have been advised that you currently have a live Personal Independent Payment (PIP) referral. Any concerns about this should be directed to the PIP Customer Service Team at

PIP-Customerservice@atos.net

regards

Christine Hughes
Senior Complaints Manager
Customer Relations
0113 232 7032

The registered office for each is at 4 Triton Square, Regents Place, London, NW1 3HG.The VAT No. for each is: GB232327983 err it's in PARIS!

THE FISTS OF RAGE

Right, now then let me try this once again and using a word processor as simple word processing,  even just holding onto a few paragraphs is way beyond Google's capabilities.

I wont go into the subject of swiping on your keyboard where you stay off with your stylus our finger on the letter 'K' on the far right off the keyboard and Google will then decide the keys you still swiped to before stopping, changing direction to your second letter in your intended word are not relative to each other at all?! It well then decide that the letter you intended to use must be 'w' on the far left of the keyboard?! It then decides on a string of letters to make a word you not only did not want but letters you never went anywhere near while swiping. Often the word it replaces your intended one with renders the sentence confusing. Sometimes you repeat the process determined to teach the Goggle Eyed idiots a lesson,  or it's operating system which they claim learns but is total BS, and it will absolutely refuse to give you the word you want and even refuses to offer it on the list of alternatives?! Bizarre.

The best one is when you sometimes highlight the word starting with the letter from the other end of the keyboard and the alternatives pop up and dead centre in orange saying 'Did you mean this word?' and it gives you the effing word you swiped through, like it's deliberately winding you up?! Upon reading this some might be tempted to comment that it's my device or my standard keyboard and tempted to tell me to try others?

BLAT-UURRRT!!

WRONG! LOL!

I have two very different devices. I have tried the Google Swipe, Swype (oddly brilliant on previous phone and android), TouchPal (right now) and several others. The results are always the same. It's like it is the core that is broken? Well it is, this much does not take place so often and so similarly in different products unless it's the underlying mechanics that are at fault.

My devices are, using now, Advent Vega Tegra Note 7 which had developed a hardware fault and the rubber tip off stylus broke off months ago. And me being extra careful with my gadgets too?! Just for the record and sorry PC World but you had neither a hand in the design or the manufacturing of this tablet pc. Designed by nVidia and manufactured by EVGA (VEGA acronym) though not very well it seems. The new nVidia tablet had only got the same number of cores as this one, though more powerful, an inch bigger screen but 2.5 times the price?! Err I think not... nVidia!

Yoy!! That rumbled on longer than I intended! Also remembered, as it occurred in that lady paragraph, that sometimes, oops did it again, Google coders must get bored and mischievous as well as lazy and incompetent as every now and then it less to suddenly move the cursor to somewhere else normally two to ten lines further back and mid sentence?!

Rank amateurs intent on taking over the world by taking over the Internet.

Now enough of all that.

This is an attempt to rewrite a long detailed post about...

umm anger management and memory loss, lol. 

What must be almost two weeks ago now something happened. Something I expected for a long time I have been lucky with but on borrowed time. I kind of got lucky again. 

I was hit by a double axle van. Not enough to knock me down but enough to knock me into the A10 dual carriageway.

I had been out the house retrieving items I had likely forgotten for a day or three before hand and possibly did on this day. Despite doing feck all really I went over the line and did too much. Despite the fact I take a lot of pills that despite doing something do not do enough and are totally the wrong prescription drugs anyway. I can't take any higher dosages as you end you feeling dizzy and sick all the time, Gabapentin.

When I get into these over doing it periods I get impatient, stressed and angry which I am ask the time anyway due to the memory blanks a dozen times a day or more and the usual pains.  Despite the pills and trying to go out every other day, unless I've forgotten things of course.

I was returning home from Sainsburys and heading along the A10 when a van was coming out a storage rental store. Now in my impatient and angry mode where stopping and standing still will now exacerbate things I went around the rear of the van. Only when I got to the far side the vans body was up against the gate post so I could not get through. I then decided to travel around to the front of the van as it was not moving. As I was rounding the near side corner I noticed the was a man of the passenger side so there were two in the cockpit. I managed to get right in front of the driver when suddenly... WHAM!! This van his me on my right side and I'm knocked a few feet to my left. I...was...enraged!
I had noticed that the two men were foreign looking and could have been Muslims, but then again maybe not. I thought this because with my bags in hand I sharply raised my arms up by 45 degrees and glared at the two men as if to say 'What the fuck?!' Having had my first bullet dodged for years hit my square in the face, err or rather the side, I was now expecting my second bullet to hit me rapidly... two angry foreigners making have and fist gestures of the rude kind.

I was very literally loosening the grip on my carrier bags and feeling the plastic edging ever further to my finger tips as I expected a huge physical battle to take place as I intended to follow up any hand signs and gestures with a lesson delivered the best way possible. Kicking their fecking arses. 

It was just what I expected to take place next and my frustrations, pains and anger were about to give way to a flood of chemicals. I had already decided that the passenger side guy was both smaller and older,  easy to get out and render unconscious so not having to worry about what he is up to behind my back. Leaving me to deal the younger, fitter driver by launching into the passenger side and while still digesting that I had the balls to take the two of the them on,  strike his chin hard, possibly breaking the jaw before reaching over to lever the door open and kicking him out to deal with him outside the van. Provided he had not given up through a broken jaw.

Luckily instead of reacting all cocky and with gestures they instead held their hands up SD if to both say sorry. Seeing this I dropped my arms and shrugged my shoulders and continued on home. After a quick meal and could hours into gaming on my PC I started to rub my right forearm and after doing this a few times I looked at it intently and wondered why it was hurting.

'Oh yeah, forgot...I got stuck by that van' I thought to myself. 

I then proceeded to continue forgetting and, despite my forearm having a muscular pain, forgot to tell my Doctor or two local friends for the next week.

When I was typing it this post and about this event previously, before those AMATEURS lost my text, I remembered the last time I lost it and nearly lashed out at someone. It was a few years back, had an audience...a big audience where...well where you would find audiences on the street. He rather deserved a good hiding in all honesty but the very hard northerner lost his aggressive, big mouthed,  cocky and rude attitude when I got both loud and threatening causing thousands of people to stop and look too see what the fuss was about... in the corner of Oxford Street and Tottenham Court Road. Well I did say where you would find audiences? Lol.

That was several years ago now and I think I was looking in Foyles bookstore and Blackwells and any others I could find. I think it may have been Orchid books? Likely a Saturday as even though it was around 6 years ago I would still not travel during a weekdays rush hour.

When traveling around walking hurts. The further I walk the pain gets progressively worse. I also and unfortunately get different pains depending on both what I am doing or even whether moving or stationary. Once the walking pain is in its early stages standing still brings on a very different but greater pain. The greater the walking pain gets the the greater the standing pain will be.

That was a brief description of only some of the pains in the areas of my feet. It dies bit include the sharp, flashing pain in the arches that renders me immobile momentarily or longer.

It also does not include the ankle clicking, achilles tendinitis like, knee pain, back pain or frozen right shoulder. Then consider managing all this and then compound all that with memory loss and the frustration that brings.

How the clock ticks.

Sensing the breaking bow..

After a slight break there for a moment to break the monotony, something else that both Google and myself do not seem to like.

The Oxford Street incident started when I, replete with walking stick, got barged on the stairs coming up from the tube station. The culprit was 6 foot 3 inches or more of a streak of piss wearing one of those army green jackets favored by the Mods, saw many today actually, and after the rude barging and never wanting to be out done or beaten by anyone at all, things not changed much then, I rounded another person and shoulder barged him towards a wall and got in front of him. There were some mumblings eminating (did not like 'eminating' and Schmidt really does have a limited vocabulary) from him I decided to make myself look innocent by commenting in a friendly manner about the amount of people.

It was at this very point that he managed to sing a few words together even if some did not belong when he said "Eh, dont go trying to make friends with me, like!"

He was Geordie, like that of a long term friend I had at the time. Now annoyed I was in phase one of punching someone's lights out when I sarcastically said "Like what?" you which he said "Eh?" to which I said "you ended your sentence with the word 'like', like what?" and he failed to see I was being sarcastic now in an attempt to piss him off to take a swing a he sit sounded very aggressive. I need not have worried as he got angrier and obviously was seeing me as an easy being when he said "I mean it!" before deciding I needed to be communicated with sign language by showing me his right fist landing a punch into his left palm with both being oddly only at waist height. I realised immediately he was trying to hide his threats from prying eyes. A mistake to do that to me, especially with a large audience!

So then at the top of my voice I then shouted out... 

"What?! You think your going to give me a good beating?! Well COME ON THEN!! I will even put my walking stick down and give you the first swing!"

Now what seemed like thousands of people stay to slow, stop and oh at the fuss now building while a now shocked Geordie who may now be realising that it was not his... wisest decision to pick on me. He continued making the punching gestures into his left palm but was now backing up against the wall of people that had formed in an effort to continue house threats before slipping away into the crowd. I would have normally used the word 'unnoticed' but the truth was he wasn't and didn't. I decided to give him more food fur thought fur the need twenty or so years when it loud once again I said...

"No, no! It's no good making gestures with you been hands about punching me. Your left hand won't hit you back! Now I have offered to put down my walking sick now it is time for you to make good on your threats?!"

Eventually he disappeared into the sea of bodies and I turned my attention to Charring Cross Road.

I had long since forgotten the incident in Oxford Street from around 5 years ago or so until I was typing out the post regarding getting hit by the van and expecting to fight two guys.

I live on the capital city. It has far too many people with far too many racist views while being standoffish and I'm not speaking about white people, though they have their own idiosyncracies too I have pointed out on so many occasions. The public transport is shit and using it during busy periods, so around six hours a day, is a nightmare and any condition that causes pain it's a no-no. The same for wheelchair users though oddly you get less sympathy if you have two legs despite causing half a dozen shite pains but someone in a wheelchair which you cannot escape and you get the sympathy.

Now I realised that a very long time ago and thought it both very odd and really ignorant.

So you can imagine that after I successfully diagnosed myself as suffering with Fibromyalgia and while having it confirmed had my suspicious right knee confirmed at the same time I later found out that the worst of my 4 conditions, 4th being tested, is called the 'invisible disease'. 

Now there are several aces I have held onto for some time now. They are intended to completely destroy the DWP & Atos when the time comes in 2015. You would think by now that my enemies have cottoned on to the fact that each time I reveal a killer blow I still have way better in my arsenal. Also the arts always things in the pipeline, several get put in motion this coming week.

The beauty of understanding how all the ailments work, ailments do not mean pains or rather symptoms do not always mean pain, is that it allows you to be able to focus more than you could before. Also you can gain an element of control over things that can be a benefit to you, or so it was with me. I will get to that during 2015 too.

I am absolutely dying to see how they react to my recent correspondences within, and without lol, the DWP. I also wonder if the have caught onto the fact that I can get many different types of really terrible attitudes out of them by contacting many different departments at the same time. Oops.

1 We have got it.

2 We did not know what you wanted.

3 You never asked for it.

4 We don't have the NHS documentation (meaning the two years they processed two claims, meant to take 12 weeks in total including, they did not contact my GP once!)

5 You never filled in the correct forms.

6 We will use the excuse that you never filled in the correct forms despite not sending them to you and not possessing a single document any longer anyway because we don't want to be taken to court for paying/forcing a Doctor to lie about you on your forms and letters.

So you see there were a few events and there are others I likely don't recall for now that took place over the years. 

I cover a great many over the last 2.5 years while providing documentation going bad back two years before this blogs inception (Radicals and Merseyside Police), 12 years when it comes to the NHS.

I just realised I really do not want to list all of my victims and the length of time I have held files on each. Pain in the posterior.

THE FRUIT BEARING TREES

It is a tiring thought at all the ideas that I put into practise that I know will take time and effort but have trouble doing...enough.

I feel like I have been at mt blogs for half a lifetime and wonder to the day things will all fall into place?

It does not help that I have had an extrememly unproductive year and to give an idea of this my YouTube videos should number over 2,000 by now but hardly krept up from the 1,100 or so from one year ago. Considering my one YouTube account acts primarily as a back up for a dozen blogs on a dozen subjects, that...is...terrible! Lol.

I should have been in a very good position by now but due to one thing and another this has not quite reached the heady heights I wanted it to.

Now I have to admit that yes it still could have done. The factors that meddled with things could have been batted away with a simple swipe of the hand. But this would require....how do I put tthis? Help.

During 2015 this very notion of help...or really more correctly support, will become more prevalant and it is hard to explain why right now.

Much of things that I have said seem cryptic throughout the life of this blog and they were quite deliberately so. It might seem very long winded to many but this simply could not have been helped not just because of the size of the enemies I went up against but because of the people I have tried to convey all this too.

People to me seem to have a very difficult time comprehending proof put before them. Why? I simply do not know. If I did my life would have been so much simpler than it is and has been. If everything was easy and straightforawrd I would never, EVER have to have started this blog. By that I meant I simply only had to go to the news media and the job was done. I suspected, however, that they were corrupt also based purely on their respective owners so I could not rely on that.

They did as I feared they would do, nothing...nothing at all not even a letter to say I was a raving lunatic, lol. Hmm or an email as I contacted each and every one of the big names in both formats. It was merely a test to see what was what with the news media and I am afraid each and every one failed. The odd thing is I only ever had one conversation with what I had, prior to the blog of course, and that was with Max Clifford's secretary!

So yeah you could say that the corruption was spread wider than even I thought it had and people thought I was mad, lol. No just smart, able to see things others do not and...I like to think...a visionary. True that the jury is till out on this last one. Until 2015 I would wager?

I, rather annoyingly, do not work. Or to be more accuarate I do not have a job. As I said this is most annoying. I thought that working on this for so long it would feel like I had a job, was doing something, was contributing to society (you see that?!) and helping others. It does feel half the time like I am helping others. It does not, however, feel like a job. But then I am not entirely sure what a job is and whether its somethintg that suits me. I think a career would be more apt a term in this instance.

My point is, is that I have wanted to do something for sometime and I simply cannot find anything hat fits in with everything I have going on. I mean the health, the other rubbish and ... other things besides. A career is not the only thing that I cannot fit into this web of crap I call my life and many others are plainly obvious as you delved further into my older posts.

I thought now that the winter has arrived I would be planning out my next big thing knowing it was a full gone conclusion but as yet I am not. I have to hope that I have a good Spring and Summer 2015 and next year the nest things will be falling into place?

Of course next year means nearing 3.5 years and this opens up a whole new can of worms and then some. Three and a half years that all this has been made available along with anything else I have acquired in the next year. Hmm I could go after a follow up investigation to my knee? Oh, listen to me 'a follow up'? I forgot, they left that diagnosis out of the letter from Guy's Hospital and I have still YET to listen to the all important part of that recording?! Hmm hold up there a minute?!

Right a little work in progress here but I have am finally listening to the damned tape! Takes me soo long to get around to things ...

Currently having trouble pinpointing the yelling out due to knee but found that at...

38 minutes and 14 seconds that he mentions I have the knee problem.

Its annoying the quality could be better in places but I could hardly stop and say "Ooh just a minute while I just fiddle with the audio recorder I am secretly recording you with?

The intention was to get a letter to the GP that was different to what was said on the day. If no one had realised this, sorry I did think it was obvious and sorry if it was not.

OK I think I was looking in the wrong half of the recording, it is...errr over 55 minutes long and I did think it was in the last 10 or 20 minutes? It appears not! Looking like it will be about 20 minutes in, if that and I know this because I have just been asked to get undressed at 15 minutes in. He leaves the room at this point and towards 16 minutes I am having a chat with the trainee. That starts of clearer and then dulls a little but you can still hear what is being said. In fact with the right equpiment you can here everything I think. My audio gear is pretty good, but could be a lot better and I am playing it on two old Acoustic Energy Aego speakers which are diminutive in size but produce a good quality sound.

I talk about the book Figuring Out Fibromyalgia by Ginevra Liptan around 19 minutes into the recording and am still waiting to hear me yell out in pain. I should be hearing the words, please stiffen your legs?

God, how can the loudest sound be so bloody hard to find?! LMAO!

Thirty minutes in and it must be coming up?! I am, being asked to do things with me legs I remember and I was on the hospital bed laying down. Maybe I did not yell out as loud as I remember? Lol!

Found it!!

Bloody hell at long last, now let me just double check the time to exactly when in the recording?

At 31 minutes 26 seconds he asks me to stiffen my leg.

The yell is at 31 minutes and 31 seconds, he states I have a knee cap problem at 31 minutes 45 seconds.

In there somewhere he also does the same thing to my left knee and I am very wary about doing the same thing and getting the same amount of pain. However to me surprise it does not hurt at all?!

The same could not be said for the right knee though and it bloody well hurt like hell.

And NOW for those that did not want to download and listen through 56 minutes of boring banter here is, and finally though I promised months ago the edited portion of that I speak of above.

So to add to the Fibromyalgia the dozen pains I experience the other 100 annoying irritations from it, the vomiting and heartburn from the Hiatus Hernia and Oesophagitis that now needs investigating once again is the second spot of an NHS Doctor of my right knee problem.

Remember the first was Dr Saksena at Chase Farm Hospital and I then ended up with a rather rude, thinking himself scary while still suffereing from delusions of grandeur, Dr Tai and the cancelled MRI for the right knee because they said I did not turn up, a LIE, and then when referred to Barnet Hospital they ignored it and WRONGLY looked at my feet, wrongly x-rayed me as if I was an idiot and then WRONGLY diagnosed it and disagreed with me on something that is well documented...

Here is the 'You have a knee problem!' I still cannot hear what he says and think now he never mentioned it so ...

http://www.wuala.com/allnights/Evidence/NHS/Guys%20KNEE%20PROB.mp3/

Now I do seem to be asble to find the test that he did which seems to be the same except it states nothing about pain in the test, no matter how many times I find and read about it.

Lachman test is the name it appears to be called but it states nothing about pain but does state that the Doctor will place his hand on your lower thigh just above your knee. Sometimes it states that the knee is bent and I could be wrong but I am pretty sure my leg was straight when this was done?

http://www.webmd.com/pain-management/knee-pain/physical-examination-of-the-knee

The pivot-shift test, anterior drawer test and Lachman test are used during the clinical examination of suspected ACL injury. The Lachman test is recognized by most authorities as the most reliable and sensitive test, and usually superior to the anterior drawer test.^[13] The ACL can also be visualized using a magnetic resonance imaging scan (MRI scan).

An ACL tear can present with a popping sound heard after impact, swelling after a couple of hours, severe pain when bending the knee, and buckling or locking of the knee during movement.

Though clinical examination in experienced hands can be accurate, the diagnosis is usually confirmed by MRI, which has greatly lessened the need for diagnostic arthroscopy and which has a higher accuracy than clinical examination. It may also permit visualization of other structures which may have been co-incidentally involved, such as a meniscus, or collateral ligament, or posterolateral corner of the knee joint.

- Wikipedia; http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Anterior_cruciate_ligament_injury

The term for non-surgical treatment for ACL rupture is "conservative management", and it often includes physical therapy and using a knee brace. Instability associated with ACL deficiency increases the risk of other knee injuries such as a torn meniscus, so sports with cutting and twisting motions are problematic and surgery is often recommended in those circumstances.

- Wikipedia; http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Anterior_cruciate_ligament_injury

Now if you have not followed the letter I got from this Doctor Kirkham from Guy's Hospital did not state a single thing about the knee, the test of it nor the pain I experienced from the test on my right knee. This right knee is one that I have given details of previously and several people were present when I did the major thing and it 'popped'. It may have been present previous to this I simply cannot remember. That popping took place over ten years ago because my father was present at the time.

The letter, laso to be found on here, also did not state that which he did at the appointment in that he had no problems telling my Doctor to prescribe Pregabalin.

I still have not been put on it but then I have not asked my current GP about it and decided to give a combination of Gabapentin and Amitriptyline a go first, though Dr Kirkham stated that I could take the Amirtriptyline with the Pregabalin.