MERRY GO HEALTH

I am somewhat .. concerned.

The temperature has risen faster than I can handle and I have currently not slept all night .. at all and when I state 'not a wink' I really do mean it!

I had managed to do three photo shoots since Sunday. One was at a Gardening Club and I went with someone else in their car. Still missed 25% of stuff with my .. edginess over pain.

Went out by bus somewhere and over did it two days later.

With another days gap in-between I was undecided and worried about getting to two places nearby .. figured first one was only short bus ride and I can always come back. Tried to get to Alexandra Palace but only made it to Finsbury Park. Then had trouble coming back.

I had a series of chest attacks and lost count of the number of times I stopped and was either bent over my walking stick, waiting for the palpitations to dissipate or sitting down and even lying down at one point waiting for the same.

I do not know how but I got back to where I am staying .. sorry as I can not bring myself to call it home .. it is the house from hell in all manner of ways, stressing me out and .. a 6ft by 9ft room that does me little favours.

But at least I got out!

I had planed to try and get to Alexandra Palace today but .. if I was unsure before it is an absolute definite now! No effing way!

Bah humbug!

Also if this insomnia becomes a permanent presence as it was for several years .. several years back I am screwed ..

.. because I wont make it to the court hearing and will lose because I have not turned up .. despite turning up to the lest one, the three before that and even turned up one day when there was not a court hearing on?! I was a week early. Did not know I actually had memory problems back then, well I .. did or rather, that they were linked to a condition called Fibromyalgia.

Still any excuse to railroad any of us ..

• Oh you did not win because you did not turn up ..
• Oh you did not win BECAUSE you turned up and are therefore fit

Oddly the people supposedly helping me .. have not said a single thing to me about challenging this no-win situation which surely cannot be legal?!

So along with the usual feet thing my back and shoulders have been killing me some days .. anxiety is killing me, heart palpitations and tightness and now Sleepless in Seattle, except without a sniff of a beautiful caring and intelligent woman, all over again?

Oh how I thought it would be cool to have something happen to me like Sleepless in Seattle or You've Got Mail? Except when it did it was .. violent. Yeah .. unfortunately for the NHS this was not me but my ex who used to love to just attack me, even with heavy and sharp objects. I ran away so quick I left a car behind I could not get to start!

More like Sleepless in Hell and You've Got Nails?! Lol.

THE LAST WEEK

OK, now we are getting somewhere.

Now I was going to post this a couple of days ago but as I was getting closer to the 2nd June date I started to become .. apprehensive.

I have also found myself being somewhat .. superstitious about an imminent event that is also inevitable.

I have also lost track of time on something which had a weekly .. let us say 'event' to it which stopped abruptly a month ago ... or so. Yeeeah short term memory loss, you see? Lol.

Anyway I have put in an application that was available to me which is a loan. Only not only is it likely that I will not need it, it now turns out there is an unexpected .. twist to applying for this loan and .. well, in all honesty this is something that could have come up during thee five remaining meetings I expected to take place but never did.

In fact I have now sent off three emails and have yet to get a response. Huh, that is weird. It is like they suddenly become terrified of me or something? Lol.

Anyhoo it also turns out that you have to be registered to make loan applications of above £2,500  and you have to wait two working days for them to get back to you before you continue. Two and a half grand is a laughable amount to start a business - a professional camera body costs more then this. Bloody good luck if you need to buy a car or van for your business!

Still it was a process, experience and above all else, learning experience too. Well the pan was for it to be a learning experience but I .. cannot really think of anything I actually learned. I did get to realise there were things I needed to think about but I could have gotten all that from a pamphlet, in all honesty.

I am expecting pressure the day after they are due to email me back and that will be interesting to say the least as it is also a day after the 'earliest date'.

You see I have managed to get an answer from a certain solicitor and I still did not get one of the numbers I asked for and only a rough one for the second. That second figure is actually a date and I am told that this will be between the 7th June and the 14th June. This turns out to be for both confirmation and .. receipt, though in theory it could take a couple of extra days for receiving things by post?

Then there is a brief wait of about a week. No more and no less and things would have been confirmed by then .. it is just one of those unavoidable waits upon others you cannot get around. Though I did ready a while back this was going to change. But not until 2018, I think it was? Hmm the year 2020 is popping into my head now?

In preparation for said event I have been working on things harder than I ever have, like my house for one! Also and added to this I have been .. well, panic buying things and just two days ago, so the 2nd June for the record, I took receipt of a parcel at my door which were a pair of Orthotic shoes and the fourth pair I have bought in as many months. Three pairs were not cheap.

If you are familiar with Salomon shoes then you know what I mean when I say they are not cheap by any stretch of the imagination. But each pair has been doing the job I purchased them for so I am not really bothered by this and am relieved to say the least that I have shoes I can turn to! Most of the time!

My second pair turned out to be a mistake as they were Gore-tex shoes and so when it turned warm my feet got hot. Looking at the shoes I then realised they were Gore-tex and thought 'you idiot!!'

I spent ages looking for another pair for summer and ended up with these Adidas trainers but with a different Ortholite sole I had not tried before and they did not work as well. Well not for standing stationary. They also discoloured and stained pretty quickly and as they are pure white .. do not loo very good now!

So yeah .. unlike the last event I was waiting for at the end of 2015, that then did not occur as someone vanished into the dark of the night, this one I am actively preparing for.

I have a few days to go of light preparation and then when I am contacted again and know exactly what and when .. I will go into overdrive. In more ways than one. Then around a wee or so after this happens and when it is truly .. let us say finished it will then become obvious on here and my YouTube channel.

Meanwhile I am now doing things that I know are for the last time, or second from last time. I have purchased my last box of Yorkshire Tea bags and my next pack of tobacco will likely be my last or second from last at best.

It is funny how you use mundane things to count down time in your head? Oh? Maybe that is just me then? Lol.

I am also packing some things into boxes and throwing other things out.

When I have the full details I will be packing a lot more into boxes and throwing a hell of a lot more stuff out.

It is kind of weird because as I already started this process I have to work out what can definitely go and throw it away. Then figure out what is definitely staying and pack that up.

Decisions, decisions!

Still I am entering what will be the last week now. This will be the last week in which nothing happens .. that is if nothing happens in which case iot was actually the previous week to this one that was the last week.

There are a lot of lasts that will be going on for the next week or two and one I can think of at the end of the month!

On and thee business start up is through the New Enterprise Allowance scheme, though like I said I am not sure what they are .. playing at, at the moment. Until I get an answer out of them, that is.

I made a video to help people with heel pain and show them the shoes that seem to cut this pain right down to a more ... discomfort level, at least for me ..

I do briefly mention up and coming changes .. (chomping ..)

THE DAY OF IRONY

A little while before I typed this out I was standing in a queue .. in Sainsburys .. in pain.

Now the bizarre and not the ironic thing about this is that I had this pain despite being out of the house for only an hour or so. Also I had not been out of the house all day yesterday.

So what was the ironic thing, I hear you asking?

Yesterday I waited in all day for a parcel to be delivered but it never arrived. I had paid extra for this to be delivered quickly, through Millets via Amazon as because, as I have stated over and over again, … the local Millets store is garbage for their actual stock. I could not even find these trainers at other stores and despite going on buses to other areas. After spending for the second time in Millets in as many months buying the WRONG shoes, all from the same brand!

At the end of the day yesterday Amazon was still stating the shoes were out for delivery but when I bothered to look at DPD's website it stated that there was an attempt to deliver the the day before but that it failed and a neighbour refused to take the parcel in?!

• Amazon stated it was to be delivered on the 31^st
• They were ordered on the bank holiday
• They attempted to deliver them the next day, the day before Amazon stated
• I was told I would get a text message stating what hour of the day they were to be delivered but that never arrived
• There was no card left in my door, suggesting they never actually knocked
• No neighbour has even refused a delivery for me, also strongly suggesting they never actually came here at all
• After tearing them new one they said they had not contacted me as they had no details for me provided to them by Millets .. so how exactly did thee text message come through?
• This is the service you get when you pay for the dearest delivery service?!

Oh the irony of it all and standing in pain in a queue doing something I could have done yesterday had the shoes arrived? Well they are the proper Orthotic shoes!!

Just prior to leaving the house to get a few things I needed, and then realising I had forgotten a couple of things on returning home a few minutes ago, I got an email I was waiting for. Waiting for for bloody weeks .. except ..

It did not have one figure I have desperately needed and the other one I desperately needed? A rough figure at best.

This second figure I got was only the date and even then it spreads over an entire week .. and even then only an estimate.

As it turns out the public service I have previously alluded to in all this only got everything on the 18^th May, 2017, and apparently it takes 3 to 4 weeks to get things back. So going on 3 weeks this brings us up until the 7^th June and 4 weeks will be the 14^th June and obviously these are earliest and latest dates.

A bit lower than I had anticipated and .. well .. that 3 to 4 week period? Yeah .. in nothing and nowhere have I read and in anyone have I heard up until this point of a 3 to 4 week period. As I have stated many times the two periods I read about were 2 to 8 weeks and 8 to 12 weeks dependent on a particular thing being involved or not.

So it is not written anywhere about this 3 to 4 week period despite trawling loads of websites, including government ones, and a couple of boos on the subject.

Sooo .. it it turns out that the only people with the knowledge of these periods is that of solicitors then .. why was the whole thing not detailed and the separate periods listed and explained?

So the only answer I have managed to get out after poking them for the second time has just made things even more confusing.

As I have now pointed out to two of my siblings … the fact that the solicitors stated in their letter, in a footnote, that they are ceasing using Hayes DX for their legal documents handling is not .. a good sign. Not for them. Though this may turn out to be in our favour at a later date? Though admittedly this remains to be seen.

I am also told now by one sibling that we are to get w are to get a huge tax bill in all this for something that is not .. as a matter of fact, ours?!

Though I have answered him back and stated clearly that not even the solicitor would be privy to this information and they will not be until they receive it back from the courts.

So very literally what is being followed right now are laws .. laws that were brought in to be fair and nothing more and nothing less.

Now this is how you have to see it right here and right now .. as I will publish it all at an even later date than previously thought ..

• We are going to get a tax bill for something we did not receive!!

I am going to let this one sink in for the next ten days and I can assure you of this much ..

• When readers find out what this was for and what is involved it will blow your mind, if wee get the tax bill that I HAVE BEEN STATING THAT WE CANNOT GET
• It will show that the legal industry is well and truly FUCKED and they have forgotten the very purpose of the LAWS, what they MEAN, what they REPRESENT and WHY they were brought about in the very first instance and EVERY instance since laws inception
• That neither side of the wall in the legal industry is fit for purpose and is the most VASTLY overpaid

Oh well .. that cannot be good then?

Here is another snippet that might now look obvious to readers concerning all this?

• This is an 'I cannot lose' scenario

OOPS!

Well there can be a worst case scenario from this which would be soul destroying for not just me but eight or nine family members! Except I still cannot lose. Well sort of. Maybe?

I can, however, make some changes and be prepared just in case that I do lose in a worst case scenario that would counter act what I would lose almost completely.

I am being kind of forced into this scenario but .. as always .. I have a back-up plan to my back-up plan and I will put this into motion this weekend.

Also as I have a latest date they will do something and I already have a figure for the number of says for this to pan out I can use it. There will be a number of things I need to do before I go fully official that can take a few weeks so if I add a month to this latest date I should be in the clear.

The funny thing is if this ll goes tits-up for some reason then what I have done will cause a humongous legal battle and it will all get aired publicly. Oops! That will not be good for the legal industry and the courts. Oh dear.

But that is only if it all goes wrong which it is extremely unlikely to do. Because there are no believable explanations for it going wrong when the law is very short and very clear on these matters. Because not doing so would mean that the legal industry have broken the laws, or at the very least been unfair. Oops. That is the very reason laws exist. At least that is supposed to be why they exist in the UK.

It would then look an absolute fact that there exists two sets of laws and this would apply to a great many things that have been stated for years. I will say that every conspiracy theorist in the western world would have a bloody field day with this!

This does not even include the ruckus I will start up with several ombudsman and governing bodies in all this where each in turn will all play into my hands and do the exact same things all previous ones have done which I also correctly predicted!

Double oops!

Hmm? I just realised .. these dates run up now until a time whereby a company that wants to help promote me is going to ring me for the third time! Oh that is weird. I thought I would be emailing them around the middle of next week but now it seems when they ring me next time is when I can tell them some confirmed dates and times?! Here's hoping!

Oh feck me! My Salomon Orthotic shoes have arrived. The shoes regarding the irony I mentioned earlier? I wonder if anyone else sees anything else in this delivery of shoes business that can apply to anything else? No?

Look .. carefully.

Here is a big clue .. now I own THREE PAIRS of Salomon Ortholite shoes?!

Now what have I previously been talking about doing very soon and for the foreseeable future and why would I need three pairs?

Well really and technically I only needed two pairs. But there can be n argument made for three pairs, especially if you were to my imminent plans?

LMAO.

Now let us test these shoes and give them just a tad of wearing in?

UNBEARABLY INTENSE PAIN

I a writing this more as a reminder .. to myself due to my damnable short term memory issues in which I can often forget things that have recently occurred.

Even when this involves intense pain.

Well I just had some pretty intense pain and .. in an area I have not experienced before. Oh it is an area where I have experienced, and still do, several pains. Though they have been quiet of late.

My feet.

I have experienced three pains in each of my feet, some of which are bilateral, meaning they occur in exactly the same place in both feet, applies to all limbs, and some are not.

But as I said this one was in a new area, was brief, thank God, and I am sitting here nervous that it might reoccur, whether this be in a few minutes or at any bloody point in the future!

This was on my right foot and on the outside edge of the sole of my foot, about an inch or so back from the base of my little toe.

This was a throbbing that just started out as uncomfortable but gradually increased in its intensity which itself increased in speed. As I was only just moving my foot about due to this discomfort it suddenly intensified extremely quickly to the point I was actually yelling out!

For me to actually yell out, or whimper at all due to pain, takes a fair amount of intensity. I have lived with various pains for many years now. In many different places. One of the most intense pains among others is what they call 'night cramps' where a calf muscle just decides to lock up in the middle of the night. In my case this is so bad that you cannot even talk .. which is a very weird feeling when you first realise you cannot talk and even on the following occasions. This has occurred with my late grandparents being present as well as one brother and my mother. On each occasion they thought I was being attacked. Lol. Me waking up yelling my head off, you see.

You find out because your asked what is wrong and you open your mouth but ... nothing comes out and your struck by confusion amidst the intense pain and wondering why nothing came out of your mouth.

There was one other pain in one other area that had the opposite effect to that of the night cramps whereby I am awake .. but passed out from the pain. I am .. not going into that one but I have previously and it is not nice.

Another one is chest wall pain which I am happy to say only occurred once but I do dread that this will one day return. You cannot breath in without pain and the more air you try to take in the more intense the pain gets. It literally feels like your only able to draw in about 25% of that you need.

Oh and what I call the toe-locking pain. I am unable to speak with that one too. This one has a 'tell' to the viewer because I will likely, or used to, collapse and roll around on the floor. Also unable to speak. However this has occurred far less in recent years and had previously figured a way to stop it .. provided I am not wearing any shoes. I have a deformed toe, not noticeable until I bend it backwards which it does too easily. When this pain starts the toe starts to bend backwards on its own in conjunction with a kind of spasm. If I have no shoes on and I grab this toe and refuse to let it bend back the pain will hold out at the level it is. If I let go it will just go through its motions and cause intense pain. Hold onto it long enough and eventually it calms down and everything returns to normal.

This new one was ... up there. I darted around on my sofa for the few seconds it occurred and was bloody relieved when it did not last very long and died down again.

I am currently without a shoe on my right foot!

Speaking of feet? I am still on the lookout for another pair of Ortholite trainers .. crap! I have been fully intending to do a Google search to find a pair but I have been forgetting to do this for well over a week now!

Excuse me while I go and .. Google search something.

ADDITIONAL: Yeah it has happened a couple more times .. luckily without my shoes on, lol.

For those that do not know I suffer with Fibromyalgia Syndrome. For those with Fibromyalgia Syndrome I have spent a long, long time with this condition and though it was only diagnosed something like three years ago I was asking about it for 13 years prior to diagnosing it myself and when I then looked into it and realised I had actually suffered from it for 20 years.

For 13 years they said it was Plantar fasciitis, well most of the thirteen years, and I spent tn of those years telling them it was not. It was not.

Have you been told you have Plantar fasciitis? Do your feet hurt the more you use them like mine do? Well ... look it up, Plantar fasciitis does not work like that!

Along with in excess of 6 pains that are spread across both feet I also suffer with pain in other areas along with short term memory loss. I have trouble dealing with heat above 20 degrees Celsius too. I also have high blood pressure which they 'think' is down to this condition.

Though I have only had half-arsed tests ... like a 48 hour heart monitor which was put on due to chest pains and heart palpitations. Unfortunately this was attached AFTER I re-started my blood pressure pills as requested and the symptoms went from every other day to every other week. Bizarrely it was also the NHS that told me to stop taking the blood pressure pills!

This is because they are instructed to NOT check things thoroughly to save money.

I have a separate knee issue, the NHS spotted twice, have a recording of, and still not on my medical records proper, though I DO have NHS documentation stating knee problems.

Ben checked for anything in particular?

Do a Google search to see how any tests there are for something like you were tested for and compare how many there are to how many you have had.

Oh and as for the search for another pair of Ortholite Shoes? I gave up looking locally and went through a myriad of online places before ordering a pair of Salomons from Amazon that are coming from where? Millets! Just like the last two I ordered! Lol.

I also now know, despite asking Millets and Ortholite in the past, that the soles that wor best for me as the ones with th 'injected EVA Heel Cups'.


Oh and I hav caught the NHS testing me eithr thee wrong way or on the wrong area and have don this several times with each. If  call them out on it I get called in for a meeting and they have attempted, and failed every time except with the GMC's help, to accuse me of being violent. Me? Violent? LMAO!

REVELATIONS 3: WHEN YOU DO OR DIE FREE

Well … I had to go back to something I have referred to previously, at least I think I have, as I have been speaking to people about it but could not state where I had heard about it.

I also have a couple of other things I want to touch on too.

First off I am on a program … of sorts. A course to get my blogs and YouTube channel into focus to help do more work throughout this year so that I might generate an income at some point.

Due to my health issues and that I am disabled it seemed a good idea to work towards something that may well make me self sufficient. There is nothing I would like more than that and have wanted as well as worked for this for a very long time now.

So I am coming up to the half way point of an eight week long process to get things in order and plan towards creating my own business.

Also this business will be getting help from another source too and I have been working towards trying to get these two things to come to fruition at about the same time. In a certain order but with a few days to about two weeks between them.

So I have some extra running around to do.

However two things have occurred I did not expect to. One is one of my health problems screwing things up that landed me in Accident & Emergency in North Middlesex Hospital. This was over slight chest pains and discomfort along with heart palpitations. I was urged to do a blood pressure test during a mild attack and it measured 197/121.

Due to the blood pressure being so high I phoned a health helpline, '111', and they begged me to admit myself to hospital. To my friend's shock I was not offered an ambulance.

While at hospital it measured 167/110 and they were quite concerned with the diastolic rate of 110 and I said “Umm if your worried about that being high, it was 121 before I left the house and if the blood pressure is linked to the chest pain and palpitations I can assure you that it has been higher than this on several occasions”

Dr Andrew De Stempel looked concerned about that.

Reasons for me stopping my cheap crap blood pressure pills were requested for the second time that day and I told them that I was told to stop taking them by Dr Josephine Swanton, I think that was her name, of Chase Farm Hospitals Neurology Department. This was because of blacking out either partially and momentarily while being able to stay on my feet, apart from some collapsing into a crouching position,, by grabbing onto objects and focusing on holding tight … or waking up one time on the edge of a wood in some stinging nettles. They call this 'Syncopy'.

Around the same time as coming off the blood pressure pills, no thanks at all to the NHS who have now endangered my life on more occasions than I can count, I was also going through a process of purchasing orthotic shoes. First a waterproof boot for winter by Salamon called the Quest GTX with Ortholite insoles. Then when it was getting warmer and for the first time ever I returned to Millets and bought a pair of Salamon that were more a trainer or sneeker type pair with Ortholite insoles.

Unfortunately and after several days of wearing them the weather become unusually warm for the time of year my feet started to heat up leaving me confused before I realised that I had failed to realise that my new Salamons were Gore-Tex ones! Had I spotted this when I was buying them I would not have done so. I was annoyed with myself over this as I had now purchased two pairs of Salamons with Ortholite insoles at £100 a pop!

So I found myself in Sports Direct's Enfield store looking for airy trainers that has Ortholite insoles and to be honest I lie wearing those half sandal lie shoes but never seen a single pair with Ortholite insoles.

I found a pair of Adidas that were very airy and I bought them.

I had never purchased so many shoes nor shoes costing this much in such a short space of time at any point in my life. Ever.

Then a friend wanted me to go to the forest with him and we stopped at McDonalds to get a couple of latte coffees and as we were driving to our destination a woman in a Mazda drove into the side of us. I was told by my friend, who called me earlier today, to be told that the insurance company want to 'write-off' his car.

Yesterday and for the first time since before Christmas something unusual was happening with me and while at a friend's store I noticed my heels were starting to hurt a bit. We were deep in conversation on several subjects and I kept shifting my feet about and lifting my heels off the floor and alternating this between each foot.

I eventually left and when I was eventually home I suddenly remembered that I had been in thiis accident the day before, that Fibromyalgia is caused in the first instance by a whiplash event to the neck and realised it must have been down to the accident?

Then I started to panic.

I am right in the middle of a process that I have to adhere to and has me running around doing stuff and now this happens?! Even as I type this out I am hoping to God that the Fibromyalgia symptoms were just aggravated by the jolt and will calm back down? I am crossing everything over this!

But while on the phone earlier telling my friend whose car has now been written off by the insurance company we talked about the course I am on, the DWP and then about the cars they have been taking away from disabled people. Even Diabetes type 2 sufferers which is what he is. He had stated previously that this would never happen but I had been telling him that I met a man with diabetes who had told me that they have refused him mobility, a car, after first telling him he qualified for it, though he initially refused it as he did not need it when offered.

That is an honest man right there who then gets fucked about and lied to by the DWP.

He also told me that in recent times he had also been fucked about and lied to by the NHS.

I told him about my blog and what I do, predict, expose and that I also help and advise people on here.

Here is a video that describes the things I have done to battle one type of pain and that is foot pain, or more specifically heel pain and how I combated this particular symptom and if you have Plantar fasciitis or any type of heel pain … yooooou just might want to watch this …

I then told him of an article I had read somewhere that the DWP have been so bad at doing this that they and central government have been reported as being guilty of controlling the mainstream media which means TV News and national tabloids.

As I went over this I could not recall where I had heard or read about it and even if I had posted anything on my blogs about it.

Checking for links as I am typing this post and now I need to say “Ahhh here it is …”

http://evolvepolitics.com/secretive-dwp-documents-prove-they-silenced-media-from-running-stories-they-dont-approve-of/

It was a website called Evolve Politics. It will be interesting to see what comes out about this … though …

I was thinking thee other day and I stated this to my friend on the phone … I said ..

“What I cannot figure out is … if they do indeed get their hands on these documents … who do they take them too?!”

I mean that if you think about it for a moment … imagine that all UK TV News networks are on this list with all of the national tabloids … to who do you then go to with all these documents?

Not one of the national tabloids or TV new networks is going to say ..

“Oh here is a report that we were involved in covering up about a list of people that died or suffered under the hands of the DWP and/or NHS!”

It is just not going to happen is it?

I bet the TV News Networks also did not report on this one?

https://www.moneymarketing.co.uk/waspi-hires-lawyers-take-legal-action-dwp/

This has something to do with an organisation called WASPI which is something to do with women … ore women's rights.

Or how about the Royal National Institute of Blind People, RNIB, threatening to take the DWP to court?

https://www.theguardian.com/uk-news/2014/feb/19/rnib-dwp-blind-court-action-benefits

Or the TV news networks reporting that the DWP's sanctions against benefit claimants have been ruled as being unlawful?

http://www.independent.co.uk/news/uk/politics/dwp-defeated-in-court-again-over-unlawful-retroactive-benefit-sanctions-a7006466.html

Or that the Atos assessments do discriminate?

https://johnnyvoid.wordpress.com/2013/12/04/dwp-lose-again-atos-assessments-do-discriminate-says-appeal-court/

Ooh peaking of which … PIP have gotten in contact with me and want me to attend a disability assessment … remember this is a disability ASSESSMENT and if you look back through this blog over four years you will note I have been telling them for over TEN YEARS.

You know it is funny … I know about this new age technology called files were you document details about people and keep all the paperwork on a cardboard of plastic file which is kept in a drawer full of folders and files.

Oh no … wait a minute … they are all using computers now! Still the same thing applies you scan or copy documents regarding people's details and they are stored in a file. DIGITALLY.

Oh and you know what else this means?

It means that you do not have to get out of your seat with your paperwork and go to another room, possibly on a completely different floor, to either store or even retrieve said files!

Easy right?

I have been telling them about my health conditions and the symptoms for 14 to 15 years now and … well … they want me to go to Chelmsford in Essex which is around 50 miles and awkward ones at that from where I live in Enfield.

Oh and for the second time, I cannot recall what it was last time, they picked a date that I cannot even attend anyway.

Yeeeaaah … remember I was in Accident & Emergency recently with a sky high blood pressure? I was raced around so fast it was unbelievable and I knew they were worried long before they told me they were worried. Well very soon I have to have an EEG monitor on me for 48 hours and,, stone the crows, if they do not go and arrange it on the day I am having the monitor fitted?!

EEG Monitor.

Mind you I am not so sure that they will find anything from the testing as the number of incidents I have had has dropped right away to almost nothing since I started taking those cheap, crappy Ramipril pills to bring my blood pressure down.

I am, however, experiencing blackouts, syncopy, again and am feeling that strong urge to fall asleep in the afternoons.

Oh right … did I forget to mention that through fear of the threats of sanctions by the JSA which I should NOT be on … that the business thing I referred to is the New Enterprise Allowance, or NEA, via the DWP and done with the Job Centre?

Umm yeeeeaaaaah they know about this blog. Are you laughing yet? Or has it not sunk in yet?

I am getting help to set up my blogs as a business, along with my YouTube channel, and have had my hand forced so I have told them about it. I have TOLD them about my blogs. My blogs on corruption. Yes I even said “..in the public services”.

Are you laughing now? Please do not tell me it has not dawned on you yet?!

I am receiving help from a public service to turn improve a blog that talks about and exposes corruption within the public services.

Are weeeeeee there yet?!

LMAO!

Also starting this course was also how I got my Pregabalin prescriptions … yeah you know I mentioned that some time ago? “I am being forced to run around and start a business in pain … I have got a hold of Pregabalin and they are working better than Gabapentin and if I am being forced to run around by one public service then the other one had better give me the best drug available!” his how I actually asked!

LOL!

Hmmm yeeeaaah I do not always tell the whole story straight away because it is not always the best tactical move.

Some tactical moves can take many months or even a couple of years or more!

Wink-wink. Oops!

Hence why I have been more proactive on my blogs and YouTube channel lately and hence one reason why I have been a little … silent on …. data.

Except … if the DWP now want to penalise me and take away Personal Independent Payments from me now this could cost both them and myself later on. Or in other words could cost them a lot more in the long run.

Look? When I told the business adviser about the blogs I … left a folder in my bag. I started off by telling him he will ask me a question and when he does I will get out a folder I have tucked away.

When I promoted the idea of a business based on a series of blogs and a YouTube channel I got a lecture about how it takes too long to build up a decent number of visitors, as a question. Did I not think so, more or less. I said “Umm you know that question I said you would put to me and I would then get out my folder?” and he replied, yes. I got out my folder.

I splayed the clear hard plastic folder before him and I turned each page that showed screenshots of eah of my blogs with details about the numbers I was getting. I told him how long I had been doing it and he was already showing surprise and sitting up right when I then broadsided him completely when I said “I have not done the sums for a few months but I estimate I am close to half a million visitors” he just looked at me and said …

“I do not even have to speak to my company to tell you that you WILL be accepted on the scheme” or something to that effect.

There are those that think I say the wrong things at the wrong times to the wrong people,, or have a big mouth in other words.

Not done to bad on here though have I? Not been closed down yet and running rings around people even when they have sent mme down a dark road that appears to lead to nowhere else than oblivion.

I am always doing something. Always.

What those people fail to realise is that I am extremely tactical and sometimes I have to be extra careful because of the fact that one of my symptoms is 'short term memory loss'.

Considering that handicap I think I have done … OK? Lol!

I am still doing OK, despite everything.

So yeah … that is one of the two things I have had in the pipeline. Well one of the two MAJOR things in the pipeline.

I have had some people tell me that the NEA thing is just a con … it is just so that the DWP can kick you off to save money and they can make their unemployment figures loo good. I said I did not care as it made no difference whatsoever as there is no downside for me in this. Lol.

There … is no downside for me in this.

I am receiving help and advice … not as much as I expected thus far and I have been given some spreadsheet templates and everything has made me think of it all more from a business perspective. I have been made aware of things I never thought about or considered and read up about things I never thought about or considered.

I have been out killing myself on my bike for journeys of over 10 miles and these are now up to 18 miles, for my last attempt.

What? You thought I did all this by helicopter? Or did you miss the part where I get no mobility help and cannot afford to run a car and have not had one for several years?

The wildlife part of the blogging and YouTube channel takes a hell of a lot of cycling and when I do what I do I am keeping records of both flora and fauna that experts and conservationists can come and check. So I am helping the wildlife, at least locally at any rate.

But I am very good with wildlife and if I could get further afield than I currently am I can do so much more and discover so much more. I was tipped to be the next David Attenborough when I was a kid. Yeah … after turning down an offer from ITV and BBC Wildlife Magazine I kind of missed that ship. Sailed a long time ago now, 25 years maybe?

Being able to go further afield means I can do a whole lot more with exotic animals too.

Oooooh yeeeeaaaaah then there are the tools that are coming? I have not really gotten into that side of it in any detail .. because I am not currently sure how big it is going to be.

It will be big … ish at the minimum.

Humongous at the maximum and then there could be a whole raft of extra things occur that could be very exciting … especially for my readers.

I like seeing people excited. In fact I will admit that one thing I have become hooked on is reaction videos to cinema trailers, though generally only the films I like or that have a big history. Comic book movies and Star Wars and the like.

I get an absolute joy out of watching those and when I thin about the possibility of putting myself in a position where I could provide people with that amount, or even half that, or joy it brings a tear to my eye.

Unfortunately for my most popular blog on corruption that is a difficult thing to do and is mostly misery and bad news. But … it is not .. completely impossible. It would just take a long time and I would have to perform certain … actions.

Help enough people that you could be seen as a hero to them.

Educate enough people that you could be an inspiration to them.

Admittedly I have been harsh at times and even angry at others but above all else I wanted this to show through. I wanted people to see that I hold nothing back and I talk straight down the line, so to speak. I wanted people to think that maybe they could see the fears in others to maybe even understand their anger or actions. I wanted people to realise for themselves what can be done as well as what cannot be done. Who are what you can help and who or what you can never help. To not waste your time, blood sweat and tears on things that are immovable and concentrate on the things that you can do something about.

I did have this philosophy when I started out that like the old saying of 'You have to be cruel to be kind' and so had to kind of lay it on the line in places. So you see allowing my anger and frustrations to show through I thought was important.

But yes and long before I started I could see things others simply could not but more importantly I could work it out. Sometimes that was sooner and other times it was much later. But I would always get there in the end.

As I did this I discovered that as I worked out an escape route or plan that I attempted this only to find that the government had shut that exit door long before I even got there.

As I did this I could talk and type about it on-line. If others were being driven into their own personal nightmares full of frustration and pain that I might be able to help them too?

Every single visitor that I ever received was someone I could potentially help and even if it turned out it was just one … it was worth it.

It would be five years this August, 2017 that I would have been posting, about corruption, for five whole years. The others need another 6 months, I think, before I can say that they have gone five years.

The important thing for people to be realising is that due to the government we have got and the ones we have had … everything has had a cost.

What I tell people is that what I have issues with is that if there are costs then I would accept things a lot better if I was TOLD about these costs. But I never have been even when I have more or less invited them to tell me so.

So with each and every one of them the order of the day and the many, many days and years previous they decided to lie and cheat. In every public service and every facet of society. Just lie. I also hate the fact that people just accepted this and they have been doing so for a very long time. I have also known for a very long time that this would just compound the problems caused by this attitude and it would build up to gargantuan proportions until the day it was in such a mess no one would know what to do.

There are things that can be done but … they will not like them and are probably well aware of them but refuse to take these paths? I know where my money would be.

I have been rambling on because I am waiting for a video to upload that shows a few things about me … that might come in handy in my defence or in one of my attacks.

At the very, very same time … this video can and probably will help people in pain. Foot pain to be precise. I explain that not everything is how it is perceived or even promoted to be by the National Health Service and its … professionals.

I have discovered things on my own that have not been stated to me in fifteen years and if they have failed to educate, help, prescribe or even provide me then they must be a lot of people out there suffering?!

This is also the case in a great many areas and that list is a long one, like Calum's List is very long, but I can only get to one thing at a time. On this occasion I have returned to an area that adversely affects me and that is foot pain. Specifically it is heel pain. Heel pain is not something you can escape from as the original rheumatologist I saw, back in 2003 (yes two thousand and three), told me “The moment you get out of bed your on the thing that causes you pain and will be most of the day until your back in bed. Many people are not going to be understanding of that!” but what failed to realise all those years ago is that I was going to discover that among those not understanding will be Doctors and other health professionals and specialists.

Never once have I been asked if I live with anyone to help me since 2003. For the last 14 years the answer to that question has been a very lonely “No”.

Government and public services would have forced me to be a burden on anyone I lived with even more so than I already was.

So another punishment dealt out by the government and public services is loneliness.

I have spent a very, very long time knowing that they really do not give a shit, despite what they claim when the cameras and microphones are on.

But now we might be soon discovering that the so-called freedom of the press is anything but. Also that the Press have been caught out to be aiding central government in hiding some of the worst cases of the breaches of human rights as well as manslaughter the world has ever seen.

Right here in the UK where the perpetrators love to go on TV and preach to other countries about human rights.

Tut-tut, go figure.

On a final note and one I thought was very funny, if it was not so utterly ridiculous and I told people they were idiots for agreeing with this one … sugar tax and being threatened with court action over it …

http://www.telegraph.co.uk/news/politics/georgeosborne/12202886/EU-Referendum-George-Osborne-to-salvage-his-credibility-as-he-defends-Britains-role-in-Europe-live.html

FIBROMYALGIA SYNDROME BREAKDOWN

It has been a long time since I published any details regarding my symptoms and findings for people with Fibromyalgia that come here.

So I did a list, and I included my other odd symptoms, a detailed breakdown of the condition along with the drugs I take as well as those I am supposed to take.

Remember and for those that do not know or narrow minded, regardless of what you read or find there is only one single solitary drug that works on Fibromyalgia and all of its symptoms. Just one for all potential 200 symptoms.

As anyone with Fibromyalgia will tell you, including those I am told never get out of bed at all, it is a horrid condition. Just think about it, any number up to a potential of 200 symptoms? Think about what having quarter of these symptoms must be like?

In my case I get over half of them!

There will be people far worse than me!

I learned how to deal with my own condition and later found out that this is what they tell sufferers to do, like cycle and light exercising.

Unfortunately and for well over ten years this caused hell in my life as family and friends thought I was making things up. A couple years back I bumped into a nice Scots fellow online, now on my Facebook list, who had the same condition with the same effects on both family and friends.

Yet he had suffered for a couple of years. Two or three if I remember and that in itself is bad enough.

But imagine what 13 years is like?

I would LOL if the memories of it, what few memories Fibrofog leaves me with, were not so bloody bad. Lol.

Ailments list, Cause, on Medical records or not

PAIN

• Both Feet (Plantar fasciitis symptoms in reverse, Fibromyalgia) – ON RECORD
• Metatarsalgia, left foot
• Both Arches (Fibromyalgia) [two pains, one stab one ache] - PAIN ON RECORD
• Both Ankles (Snapping, Achilles Tendinitis?) - PAIN ON RECORD
• Right Knee (Physical Problem) _ PAIN ON RECORD
• Left Knee (Less than right, Fibromyalgia)
• Hips (Fibromyalgia)
• Groin Right (Inguinal Hernia repair) – ON RECORD
• Middle/Upper Back (Collapsed Discs) – PAIN ON RECORD
• Base Neck (Osteopenia/Fibromyalgia Source region) – PAIN ON RECORD
• Outside of right hand ache
• Locking middle TOE left foot (Inverted) – PAIN ON RECORD
• Night Cramps (Calves) – ON RECORD
• NOTHING IN ARMS (Thank God)

PROBLEMATIC

• Memory Loss (several daily, Fibromyalgia, Fibrofog) – ????
• Vomiting without warning (Oesophagitis but Fibromyalgia though memory theory?)
• Heartburn (Hiatus Hernia 20 yr, Fibromyalgia through memory theory?) - ON RECORD
• Nausea Blacking out Standing (Postural Hypotension, pain behind eyes) – ON RECORD
• High Blood Pressure (Fibromyalgia)[from hight to low above-blackouts] – ON RECORD
• Sensations of seizures (normally when standing but while falling asleep lately)
• Insomnia (dogged for over five years, OK last year) – ON RECORD
• Get tired in Body
• Mind always on the GO

EMBARRASSING

• Skin Conditions – ON RECORD
• Scalp Condition – ON RECORD
• Oral problems (an ace) – ON RECORD
• 'Too embarrassing to mention' problem (bleeding) – ON RECORD
• Diarrhoea – ON RECORD
• Constipation – ON RECORD

OTHERS

• Feeling, irritation above right eye (feels like lump)
• Varicose Veins
• Tight feeling hamstrings
• Aching calf muscle, right leg
• Occasional shaking hands
• Heart Palpitations
• High Cholesterol

INSIGNIFICANT OTHERS I HAVE FORGOTTEN ABOUT

• The number is unimportant but there were in excess of 100 when I went though a Fibromyalgia checklist of 200 symptoms
• There is another more complete list that exists on this blog from a couple of years ago, do a search on Fibromyalgia is your interested
• Had periods of depression and anxiety I just remembered so there are two! Lol.
• Symptom does not always mean pain!

DRUGS

• Methocarbamol (for back pain, latest and seems to be very, very good!)
• Tramadol (for Back Pain)
• Gabapentin (for Fibromyalgia)
• Amitriptyline (for Fibromyalgia)
• Atovastatin (High Cholesterol)
• Ramipril (High Blood Pressure, still 170 give or take)
• Lansoprazole (heartburn, had many different types)
• Metoclopramide (for nausea)
• Quinine Sulphate (for Night Cramps)

DRUGS ACTUALLY FOR FIBROMYALGIA

• Sodium oxybate (only drug that provides RESTORATIVE SLEEP, i.e ONLY DRUG!)
• Milnacipran (research shows it has better effects on the pain in Fibromyalgia)
• Pregabalin (modern version of Gabapentin not meant to cause illness, nauseas side effects)
• First one not allowed, except for Narcolepsy
• Second and third NOT APPROVED?!

EDIT: VERY SIGNIFICANT TO FIBROMYALGIA DIAGNOSIS

Completely forgot about these lately as had no issues, 48 hours after typing this had pain putting kettle on one morning!

• Pain on Upper Side Shoulder Joint (raising arms more than 10 degrees)
• Lump feeling Under Side Shoulder Joint (arm pit, wearing pullovers or even t-shirts)

ALSO FORGOTTEN

• Had Costochondritis (You really, really do not ever want to have this and I constantly fear its return, when I do manage to remember I had it! Hurts like hell the more you breath in more than around 33%, wondered if oxygen would help?)

BREAKDOWNS

• Kink in the central nervous system I the neck
• Gets kinked even further, physical injury, whiplash
• Scrambles signals to brain (does not CREATE signals, i.e, MAD)
• Loss of restorative sleep
• Any combo of all bodily functions not kept in check
• Prognosis is this will get a lot worse getting into older years
• Had it twenty years
• Asking about it 13 years
• Doing fuck all about it now and as it is getting worse!

So this is only part of the reason I spent 15 years keeping records and the last 8 recording everything and the last 3.5 years publishing most of it on here.

So I believe that Chronic Fatigue Syndrome is the early stages of Fibromyalgia Syndrome and therefore the same thing. Because one seems like the other with a longer symptom list.

FUNNY FEET

I am somewhat ... well a little worried.

Today for most of the day I've been unable to walk. Not difficulty walking or using my stick to get home but unable to walk. At all.

In fact had I left the house and gotten any distance when this thing occurred I would probably not have gotten home, unless near a bus stop wherever I ended up. I still doubt I would have reached home once I departed said bus.

It's been a nightmare just getting up and down my stairs!

What concerns me right now is that I will still be in this state in the morning, or worse still all day tomorrow or a number of days?!

Sharp pains are affecting both my feet but the left is the worse. I've also not had pains like these before, despite the fact I experience six pains across both feet. These now raise that total to eight.

Putting any weight down on my left foot results is sharp pains that seem to shoot across my whole foot, from the sole upwards.

This is weird as other pains are in very specific places like heels (plantar fasciitis), ball of my foot (metatarsalgia) and arches I've never seen nor been given a name for, also shooting pains but from the top down. I get painful clicking too but that's in my ankles and mostly occurs descending stairs (Achilles tendinitis).

I have been wondering, for the past couple of hours or so, who in the world I should call and when?

How long are you unable to walk before you call someone? When you run out of food? Lol!

Wonder if I can sleep with my fingers crossed?!

Lmao!

THE APPROACHING DAWN

Been busy trying to tidy up the place. My home that is.

I have been busy with other things I will get to before too long.

I have also managed to give up one vice while I have also got into something new, once again more on that soon when I manage to get around to it and take some pictures and maybe a movie or two?

I am also on the cusp of two events.

It has been a very, very long wait. I am hoping it comes to an end and while I type that I know that one way or another it will come to an end.

Either something happens or it does not. If it does not then the message given out is very clear, very clear indeed. Not one that I either wanted nor considered for single second I would get the whole while I was helping and working on something.

They always speak about things in life being there to both test you and teach you ... but not this one ... this is a learning process that no one wants to experience.

I am also late in getting off a second wave of letters to literary agents and am also considering at this point at contacting solicitors now as well as companies with goof reputations in the hope of getting some advertising deal. In the event it turns out that money I thought would be returned last October, 2015, is not returned and indeed not there at all. That was what I never considered.

It has been a miserable winter and my heart goes out to those in the north of the UK getting far more intensity and frequency of that we have had in the suburbs of London!

After God knows how many storms we, or rather they, have Henry incoming.

Those that have been here enough times and long enough know that I cycle a lot. For anyone trapped indoors or have difficulty or being put off going too far I implore you to get a cycle of some kind.

For me it is a mean to escape, I can get among the wildlife and nature in about 30 minutes and not be near anyone else. It allows me to think too and I can even get creative by carrying in my backpack notebooks, pens and even a tablet PC. I often carry other gadgets too like a bridge camera for one, if it is good weather, Spring or Summer or I am able to get somewhere to film British birds that are winter visitors only.

I have pains in my feet, hips and other places caused by Fibromyalgia. I also have some kind of back problems and a physically damaged right knee. The cycling helps with most but does aggravate the knee, if I am honest. Luckily not too much.

Also Fibromyalgia can, if your really unlucky, get so bad that you can wind up bed ridden.

Anyone that knows about Fibromyalgia, including the very few Doctors out there, will tell you that light exercising keeps the pains at bay, not gone per se, just at bay and stops you winding up bed ridden.

Do not do too much and do not become a couch potato. It will only get progressively worse.

In the news I see that the sudden deaths of celebrities keep on coming with Terry Wogan being added to the list. It is quite bizarre I must say.

Also more corruption keeps on being exposed.

One wonders when it will end? Hopefully and eventually they would have exposed everyone and it will end. Hopefully then things can and will get better?

I have done my bit to expose as many as I can and the list runs into dozens ... no literally, lol. To the point whereby people high up in organisations pick up the phone to warn others of what I am up to. They also still try and second guess me but ... well, they are just wasting their time.

Carry on playing games and trying to second guess while wrongly assuming your the most intelligent man in the room and you just play right into my hands.

Tomorrow is February 2016.

From tomorrow we have seventeen days. Seventeen days where a great deal can happen.

Separate from this are some endeavours of my own. I have to send off a second wave of literary agent letters, but I am not expecting to be taken on, just lied to and I have already which I will get around to aty some point. I own books on becoming an author that states that almost all literary agents are basically idiots. Almost all sit around waiting for a template that has already been created.

Putting that in a straightforward example everyone would love to get something along the lines of Harry Potter because of the popularity and the money it made. Except Harry Potter has already been done and anything else would seem like a rip-off and not make 1% (one percent) of the money that Harry Potter made.

Quite possibly the percentage should be in small fractions? Lol.

Some state that they are destroying literature.

It is all about have something interesting to say, explaining and proving facts not known before, or theorised and/or suspected. It is about getting things across that everyone can fully understand and see without the chance they will walk away without really looking.

Now save for posting my secretly recorded audio files and photocopied reports in every single post when they number in the many dozens I do all of the above in the previous paragraph.

I have also always been told this by fellow degree students, friends and family and have even been told by them all and a member of Mensa that I have a unique way with words and explaining things. A previous employer, two solicitors also friends, also said the same and stated I was very good at teaching and should do that.

Dozens and dozens of intelligent people, professionals, scientists and solicitor along with many of your average bods all of which number in the hundreds have told me to do EXACTLY what I a doing now. As well as write the books I have written.

For some strange reason literary agents cannot see what hundreds of others have all seen.

The only difference between all of these people from my past and that of all the literary agent is that the former have met me. Maybe that is the key difference?

I am often told after a first meeting that I have blown people's minds or they cannot believe how much I know and even that I should me a millionaire with my knowledge.

Oddly there is someone I should currently be teaching absolutely everything that I know and everything that I can do.

Annnnd were back to that approaching dawn.

I have also just remembered of another item I need to take photos of and post about which is very disappointing and involves two companies. Two more companies to add to the ever growing list and one a manufacturer and one a retailer.

I am shocked to have to say what it is I will say. Especially when I tried to purchase every other item from the high street retail store and they did not have a single one ... or pair, I should say.

In 1985 I bought their product and swore I never would again and here we are thirty years later and once again I am stating that which I did in 1985. After already having good item of the exact same thing which I have owned for two years. Bonkers, is what it is, lol.

The other new gadget I have I have loved, found a bit tricky and then went out and spent a lot more on another bigger and better gadget! Money I had not planned on spending but I simply could not resist after buying the first one.

I cannot put the damn thing down!

I have looked into this ... past-time and discovered a few odd things. Both good things and bad things and after doing a post on here I might skip it over to my computing blog? Or maybe keep it going on here?

So I am working on several things currently and we have seventeen days in February that re going to be ... a little odd, if I am honest, and quite ... productive in more ways than one.

I also wonder if this year of 2016 will be the one whereby I end up hearing something linked to me being mentioned?

In the meantime I have to endure such rotten weather that induces such painful levels of boredom that it is simply unbelievable.

Dammit! I also still have to look up the insurance cost for the car I have been offered!

I keep forgetting. I forget a great deal of things. Thank you Fibromyalgia!

I have got to expand, or find a way of expanding this year.

I had planned to be moving north about now. This would be to allow a relative of mine to be able to get to me within an hour. So they could see me whenever they felt the need to. I thought that would be happening about now and probably would too had I been allowed to do as I wanted to and not had a door shut on me.

Yes it can be better late than never but it is starting to very much look and feel like never. With one man's words ringing in my ears like a loud foghorn has gone off beside my head!

These boots were bought for walking, lol pardon the reference, have now presented me with a problem. So if I was asked to whisk myself away I am back in the boat I was in back in September and October of 2015!

So may things and tools needed and not enough cash to acquire them all!

Even more annoying when these things and tools should have all been purchased by Autumn 2015 and I simply have no idea right know of when that time will be! Autumn 2016 will be ... a bit of a stretch and I have estimated I am about 14 months late, due to another endeavour that looks to now have been unproductive. I was informed all along the way that it was and indeed the moment hat it was productive. But all I have right now is a pea-souper of fog and I cannot see a damn thing! I also cannot even blame this on the symptom of Fibrofog I experience often!

I plan to instigate something, all the same. To try and get and put an end to this four year long ordeal once and for all.

Because I have spent the last three months wondering whether or not I have been a naive idiot taken for a fool. I have the absolute best excuse in the world, mind you!

Like I said, the 17th February 2016 is they key date ion all this and II had also figured in a 12 week period which has now passed. The number of weeks in that period is not finite and can be variable. So a couple of extra weeks allows things to ... happen, or not, as the case may be.

While that happens I will work on a few things to keep me busy. There are a couple other things I want to work on but not quite got all the tools I require. A little worried that I will do myself a physical injury in the space I have that could easily wind up losing a digit (finger or thumb), hand, arm or even kill me! LMAO!

You gotta do something. No one can sit around on their arse all day and it drives me nuts trying to sit still for a single day! Simply not possible. Not here at any rate. Not with my current ... surroundings.

I also need to go to the local council, so potentially more audio, and check what their Housing Benefit monthly payments ceiling is. Because at the possible worst time my landlord has informed me they have to put the rent up. Dammit!

I have lost count of the number of things that have occurred in the period between November to date, January 31st 2016! Even my health and particularly back pains have been going into overdrive like never before!

So I have endeavoured to turn each of these things around into something ... else! Lol.

Eighteen days from now the horizon could look very different and I am hoping that it is a darned sight closer and not a darned sight further away?!

Here's hoping.

THOSE ANNOYING REPETITIONS

How would I explain a bad day by being utterly annoying?

Today would be a good day.

It's not supposed to rain for starters ... it currently is, making typing difficult.

I left the house wanting to get some things in the house prepared. Despite the fact that I now won't be hearing a date tomorrow that allows me to book a ticket out of town.

I left with the intention of checking out one item ... mobile broadband, thanks Rio Virgin Media's incompetence and greed. PC World only had EE ones and despite these being 4G they are boy only limited but 3G in my house is virtually non existent. Despite the fact every single company states it's strong and fast, not a single one of them has been.

I live in Enfield, not Timbuktu. Technically North London.

I don't buy one ... again!

My next items are easy plastic flower pots, small bag orchid compost and a metre by half a metre humidity tray.

B&Q have not got the pots!

There is another nursery near me so I check Sainsburys for any new blu-rays. Only the Monsters sequel I can't recall the subtitle of. But it was supposed to be rubbish yet tree cover has four out of five stars all over it. Quick check of Amazon and ... no. 1.5 out of 5.

My second blank of the day and its only been an hour!

I decided not to look at new shoes I need and decide as I'm aching to grab some fried chicken and go home.

Except as I'm now close to the store I realise I forgot to get cash from the ATM?!

I decided to continue on to get the pots I need, the orchid compost and the humidity tray.

I get to the nursery and they have the pots, cool! Except no orchid compost they normally always have in stock!

Fuck it!

I pay for the pots and leave. I get 500 yards and realise along with it raining and the weather said no more for two weeks I have forgotten the fucking humidity tray!

Aye Chihuahua!!

Lol!

Oh yeah. When I got caught in the torrential rain I totally forgot I had normal pair of trainers. So yesterday ... err think it was, I put on the Puma trainers. I had not had anything in the way of foot pain for weeks.

One of those rare occasions when I thought I could actually go back to bit being so careful with my shoes? Perhaps the Fibromyalgia cycles things and u might get some rest bite?

No.

Hence I was thinking of shoes today as I wear half sandals.

EDIT: I get indoors after fighting with the blog apps on the phone, one of refusing to upload some simple text, told you it was utter shit here, I knock my bike as my house is far too small, and knock the pots I just bought all over the place!

I then shout out loud "For fuck sake! Is anything else going to go wrong today?!"

Go out for a possibly five items. Come back with one and in pain.

But according to the morons that win this God forsaken country the public transport runs like clockwork and there are no issues with getting across London on it as they are plenty of seats and you can do it all without being forced to stand still!!

Good God, I hate days like these!

All because everything is run like shit and no one had the stock in anymore, provide the service they claim to or even sell goods that are actually new!

This country?

One of these days people in the United Kingdom might actually wake up?

I long for that day.