Now I was going to post this a couple of days ago but as I was getting closer to the 2nd June date I started to become .. apprehensive.
I have also found myself being somewhat .. superstitious about an imminent event that is also inevitable.
I have also lost track of time on something which had a weekly .. let us say 'event' to it which stopped abruptly a month ago ... or so. Yeeeah short term memory loss, you see? Lol.
Anyway I have put in an application that was available to me which is a loan. Only not only is it likely that I will not need it, it now turns out there is an unexpected .. twist to applying for this loan and .. well, in all honesty this is something that could have come up during thee five remaining meetings I expected to take place but never did.
In fact I have now sent off three emails and have yet to get a response. Huh, that is weird. It is like they suddenly become terrified of me or something? Lol.
Anyhoo it also turns out that you have to be registered to make loan applications of above £2,500 and you have to wait two working days for them to get back to you before you continue. Two and a half grand is a laughable amount to start a business - a professional camera body costs more then this. Bloody good luck if you need to buy a car or van for your business!
Still it was a process, experience and above all else, learning experience too. Well the pan was for it to be a learning experience but I .. cannot really think of anything I actually learned. I did get to realise there were things I needed to think about but I could have gotten all that from a pamphlet, in all honesty.
I am expecting pressure the day after they are due to email me back and that will be interesting to say the least as it is also a day after the 'earliest date'.
You see I have managed to get an answer from a certain solicitor and I still did not get one of the numbers I asked for and only a rough one for the second. That second figure is actually a date and I am told that this will be between the 7th June and the 14th June. This turns out to be for both confirmation and .. receipt, though in theory it could take a couple of extra days for receiving things by post?
Then there is a brief wait of about a week. No more and no less and things would have been confirmed by then .. it is just one of those unavoidable waits upon others you cannot get around. Though I did ready a while back this was going to change. But not until 2018, I think it was? Hmm the year 2020 is popping into my head now?
In preparation for said event I have been working on things harder than I ever have, like my house for one! Also and added to this I have been .. well, panic buying things and just two days ago, so the 2nd June for the record, I took receipt of a parcel at my door which were a pair of Orthotic shoes and the fourth pair I have bought in as many months. Three pairs were not cheap.
If you are familiar with Salomon shoes then you know what I mean when I say they are not cheap by any stretch of the imagination. But each pair has been doing the job I purchased them for so I am not really bothered by this and am relieved to say the least that I have shoes I can turn to! Most of the time!
My second pair turned out to be a mistake as they were Gore-tex shoes and so when it turned warm my feet got hot. Looking at the shoes I then realised they were Gore-tex and thought 'you idiot!!'
I spent ages looking for another pair for summer and ended up with these Adidas trainers but with a different Ortholite sole I had not tried before and they did not work as well. Well not for standing stationary. They also discoloured and stained pretty quickly and as they are pure white .. do not loo very good now!
So yeah .. unlike the last event I was waiting for at the end of 2015, that then did not occur as someone vanished into the dark of the night, this one I am actively preparing for.
I have a few days to go of light preparation and then when I am contacted again and know exactly what and when .. I will go into overdrive. In more ways than one. Then around a wee or so after this happens and when it is truly .. let us say finished it will then become obvious on here and my YouTube channel.
Meanwhile I am now doing things that I know are for the last time, or second from last time. I have purchased my last box of Yorkshire Tea bags and my next pack of tobacco will likely be my last or second from last at best.
It is funny how you use mundane things to count down time in your head? Oh? Maybe that is just me then? Lol.
I am also packing some things into boxes and throwing other things out.
When I have the full details I will be packing a lot more into boxes and throwing a hell of a lot more stuff out.
It is kind of weird because as I already started this process I have to work out what can definitely go and throw it away. Then figure out what is definitely staying and pack that up.
Decisions, decisions!
Still I am entering what will be the last week now. This will be the last week in which nothing happens .. that is if nothing happens in which case iot was actually the previous week to this one that was the last week.
There are a lot of lasts that will be going on for the next week or two and one I can think of at the end of the month!
On and thee business start up is through the New Enterprise Allowance scheme, though like I said I am not sure what they are .. playing at, at the moment. Until I get an answer out of them, that is.
I made a video to help people with heel pain and show them the shoes that seem to cut this pain right down to a more ... discomfort level, at least for me ..
I do briefly mention up and coming changes .. (chomping ..)
A little while before I
typed this out I was standing in a queue .. in Sainsburys .. in pain.
Now the bizarre and not
the ironic thing about this is that I had this pain despite being out
of the house for only an hour or so. Also I had not been out of the
house all day yesterday.
So what was the ironic
thing, I hear you asking?
Yesterday I waited in
all day for a parcel to be delivered but it never arrived. I had paid
extra for this to be delivered quickly, through Millets via Amazon as
because, as I have stated over and over again, … the local Millets
store is garbage for their actual stock. I could not even find these
trainers at other stores and despite going on buses to other areas.
After spending for the second time in Millets in as many months
buying the WRONG shoes, all from the same brand!
At the end of the day
yesterday Amazon was still stating the shoes were out for delivery
but when I bothered to look at DPD's website it stated that there was
an attempt to deliver the the day before but that it failed and a
neighbour refused to take the parcel in?!
Amazon stated it
was to be delivered on the 31st
They were ordered
on the bank holiday
They attempted to
deliver them the next day, the day before Amazon stated
I was told I would
get a text message stating what hour of the day they were to be
delivered but that never arrived
There was no card
left in my door, suggesting they never actually knocked
No neighbour has
even refused a delivery for me, also strongly suggesting they never
actually came here at all
After tearing them
new one they said they had not contacted me as they had no details
for me provided to them by Millets .. so how exactly did thee text
message come through?
This is the
service you get when you pay for the dearest delivery service?!
Oh the irony of it all
and standing in pain in a queue doing something I could have done
yesterday had the shoes arrived? Well they are the proper Orthotic
shoes!!
Just prior to leaving
the house to get a few things I needed, and then realising I had
forgotten a couple of things on returning home a few minutes ago, I
got an email I was waiting for. Waiting for for bloody weeks ..
except ..
It did not have one
figure I have desperately needed and the other one I desperately
needed? A rough figure at best.
This second figure I
got was only the date and even then it spreads over an entire week ..
and even then only an estimate.
As it turns out the
public service I have previously alluded to in all this only got
everything on the 18th May, 2017, and apparently it takes
3 to 4 weeks to get things back. So going on 3 weeks this brings us
up until the 7th June and 4 weeks will be the 14th
June and obviously these are earliest and latest dates.
A bit lower than I had
anticipated and .. well .. that 3 to 4 week period? Yeah .. in
nothing and nowhere have I read and in anyone have I heard up until
this point of a 3 to 4 week period. As I have stated many times the
two periods I read about were 2 to 8 weeks and 8 to 12 weeks
dependent on a particular thing being involved or not.
So it is not written
anywhere about this 3 to 4 week period despite trawling loads of
websites, including government ones, and a couple of boos on the
subject.
Sooo .. it it turns out
that the only people with the knowledge of these periods is that of
solicitors then .. why was the whole thing not detailed and the
separate periods listed and explained?
So the only answer I
have managed to get out after poking them for the second time has
just made things even more confusing.
As I have now pointed
out to two of my siblings … the fact that the solicitors stated in
their letter, in a footnote, that they are ceasing using Hayes DX for
their legal documents handling is not .. a good sign. Not for them.
Though this may turn out to be in our favour at a later date? Though
admittedly this remains to be seen.
I am also told now by
one sibling that we are to get w are to get a huge tax bill in all
this for something that is not .. as a matter of fact, ours?!
Though I have answered
him back and stated clearly that not even the solicitor would be
privy to this information and they will not be until they receive it
back from the courts.
So very literally what
is being followed right now are laws .. laws that were brought in to
be fair and nothing more and nothing less.
Now this is how you
have to see it right here and right now .. as I will publish it all
at an even later date than previously thought ..
We are going to
get a tax bill for something we did not receive!!
I am going to let this
one sink in for the next ten days and I can assure you of this much
..
When readers find
out what this was for and what is involved it will blow your mind,
if wee get the tax bill that I HAVE BEEN STATING THAT WE
CANNOT GET
It
will show that the legal industry is well and truly FUCKED and they
have forgotten the very purpose of the LAWS, what they MEAN, what
they REPRESENT and WHY they were brought about in the very first
instance and EVERY instance since laws inception
That
neither side of the wall in the legal industry is fit for purpose
and is the most VASTLY overpaid
Oh
well .. that cannot be good then?
Here
is another snippet that might now look obvious to readers concerning
all this?
This
is an 'I cannot lose' scenario
OOPS!
Well
there can be a worst case scenario from this which would be soul
destroying for not just me but eight or nine family members! Except I
still cannot lose. Well sort of. Maybe?
I
can, however, make some changes and be prepared just in case that I
do lose in a worst case scenario that would counter act what I would
lose almost completely.
I
am being kind of forced into this scenario but .. as always .. I have
a back-up plan to my back-up plan and I will put this into motion
this weekend.
Also
as I have a latest date they will do something and I already have a
figure for the number of says for this to pan out I can use it. There
will be a number of things I need to do before I go fully official
that can take a few weeks so if I add a month to this latest date I
should be in the clear.
The
funny thing is if this ll goes tits-up for some reason then what I
have done will cause a humongous legal battle and it will all get
aired publicly. Oops! That will not be good for the legal industry
and the courts. Oh dear.
But
that is only if it all goes wrong which it is extremely unlikely to
do. Because there are no believable explanations for it going wrong
when the law is very short and very clear on these matters. Because
not doing so would mean that the legal industry have broken the laws,
or at the very least been unfair. Oops. That is the very reason laws
exist. At least that is supposed to be why they exist in the UK.
It
would then look an absolute fact that there exists two sets of laws
and this would apply to a great many things that have been stated for
years. I will say that every conspiracy theorist in the western world
would have a bloody field day with this!
This
does not even include the ruckus I will start up with several
ombudsman and governing bodies in all this where each in turn will
all play into my hands and do the exact same things all previous ones
have done which I also correctly predicted!
Double
oops!
Hmm?
I just realised .. these dates run up now until a time whereby a
company that wants to help promote me is going to ring me for the
third time! Oh that is weird. I thought I would be emailing them
around the middle of next week but now it seems when they ring me
next time is when I can tell them some confirmed dates and times?!
Here's hoping!
Oh
feck me! My Salomon Orthotic shoes have arrived. The shoes regarding
the irony I mentioned earlier? I wonder if anyone else sees anything
else in this delivery of shoes business that can apply to anything
else? No?
Look
.. carefully.
Here is a big
clue .. now I own THREE PAIRS of Salomon Ortholite shoes?!
Now what have I
previously been talking about doing very soon and for the foreseeable
future and why would I need three pairs?
Well really and technically I only needed two pairs. But there can be
n argument made for three pairs, especially if you were to my
imminent plans?
LMAO.
Now
let us test these shoes and give them just a tad of wearing in?
I a writing this more as a reminder .. to myself due to my damnable short term memory issues in which I can often forget things that have recently occurred.
Even when this involves intense pain.
Well I just had some pretty intense pain and .. in an area I have not experienced before. Oh it is an area where I have experienced, and still do, several pains. Though they have been quiet of late.
My feet.
I have experienced three pains in each of my feet, some of which are bilateral, meaning they occur in exactly the same place in both feet, applies to all limbs, and some are not.
But as I said this one was in a new area, was brief, thank God, and I am sitting here nervous that it might reoccur, whether this be in a few minutes or at any bloody point in the future!
This was on my right foot and on the outside edge of the sole of my foot, about an inch or so back from the base of my little toe.
This was a throbbing that just started out as uncomfortable but gradually increased in its intensity which itself increased in speed. As I was only just moving my foot about due to this discomfort it suddenly intensified extremely quickly to the point I was actually yelling out!
For me to actually yell out, or whimper at all due to pain, takes a fair amount of intensity. I have lived with various pains for many years now. In many different places. One of the most intense pains among others is what they call 'night cramps' where a calf muscle just decides to lock up in the middle of the night. In my case this is so bad that you cannot even talk .. which is a very weird feeling when you first realise you cannot talk and even on the following occasions. This has occurred with my late grandparents being present as well as one brother and my mother. On each occasion they thought I was being attacked. Lol. Me waking up yelling my head off, you see.
You find out because your asked what is wrong and you open your mouth but ... nothing comes out and your struck by confusion amidst the intense pain and wondering why nothing came out of your mouth.
There was one other pain in one other area that had the opposite effect to that of the night cramps whereby I am awake .. but passed out from the pain. I am .. not going into that one but I have previously and it is not nice.
Another one is chest wall pain which I am happy to say only occurred once but I do dread that this will one day return. You cannot breath in without pain and the more air you try to take in the more intense the pain gets. It literally feels like your only able to draw in about 25% of that you need.
Oh and what I call the toe-locking pain. I am unable to speak with that one too. This one has a 'tell' to the viewer because I will likely, or used to, collapse and roll around on the floor. Also unable to speak. However this has occurred far less in recent years and had previously figured a way to stop it .. provided I am not wearing any shoes. I have a deformed toe, not noticeable until I bend it backwards which it does too easily. When this pain starts the toe starts to bend backwards on its own in conjunction with a kind of spasm. If I have no shoes on and I grab this toe and refuse to let it bend back the pain will hold out at the level it is. If I let go it will just go through its motions and cause intense pain. Hold onto it long enough and eventually it calms down and everything returns to normal.
This new one was ... up there. I darted around on my sofa for the few seconds it occurred and was bloody relieved when it did not last very long and died down again.
I am currently without a shoe on my right foot!
Speaking of feet? I am still on the lookout for another pair of Ortholite trainers .. crap! I have been fully intending to do a Google search to find a pair but I have been forgetting to do this for well over a week now!
Excuse me while I go and .. Google search something.
ADDITIONAL: Yeah it has happened a couple more times .. luckily without my shoes on, lol.
For those that do not know I suffer with Fibromyalgia Syndrome. For those with Fibromyalgia Syndrome I have spent a long, long time with this condition and though it was only diagnosed something like three years ago I was asking about it for 13 years prior to diagnosing it myself and when I then looked into it and realised I had actually suffered from it for 20 years.
For 13 years they said it was Plantar fasciitis, well most of the thirteen years, and I spent tn of those years telling them it was not. It was not.
Have you been told you have Plantar fasciitis? Do your feet hurt the more you use them like mine do? Well ... look it up, Plantar fasciitis does not work like that!
Along with in excess of 6 pains that are spread across both feet I also suffer with pain in other areas along with short term memory loss. I have trouble dealing with heat above 20 degrees Celsius too. I also have high blood pressure which they 'think' is down to this condition.
Though I have only had half-arsed tests ... like a 48 hour heart monitor which was put on due to chest pains and heart palpitations. Unfortunately this was attached AFTER I re-started my blood pressure pills as requested and the symptoms went from every other day to every other week. Bizarrely it was also the NHS that told me to stop taking the blood pressure pills!
This is because they are instructed to NOT check things thoroughly to save money.
I have a separate knee issue, the NHS spotted twice, have a recording of, and still not on my medical records proper, though I DO have NHS documentation stating knee problems.
Ben checked for anything in particular?
Do a Google search to see how any tests there are for something like you were tested for and compare how many there are to how many you have had.
Oh and as for the search for another pair of Ortholite Shoes? I gave up looking locally and went through a myriad of online places before ordering a pair of Salomons from Amazon that are coming from where? Millets! Just like the last two I ordered! Lol.
I also now know, despite asking Millets and Ortholite in the past, that the soles that wor best for me as the ones with th 'injected EVA Heel Cups'.
Oh and I hav caught the NHS testing me eithr thee wrong way or on the wrong area and have don this several times with each. If call them out on it I get called in for a meeting and they have attempted, and failed every time except with the GMC's help, to accuse me of being violent. Me? Violent? LMAO!
Well … I had to go
back to something I have referred to previously, at least I think I
have, as I have been speaking to people about it but could not state
where I had heard about it.
I also have a couple of
other things I want to touch on too.
First off I am on a
program … of sorts. A course to get my blogs and YouTube channel
into focus to help do more work throughout this year so that I might
generate an income at some point.
Due to my health issues
and that I am disabled it seemed a good idea to work towards
something that may well make me self sufficient. There is nothing I
would like more than that and have wanted as well as worked for this
for a very long time now.
So I am coming up to
the half way point of an eight week long process to get things in
order and plan towards creating my own business.
Also this business will
be getting help from another source too and I have been working
towards trying to get these two things to come to fruition at about
the same time. In a certain order but with a few days to about two
weeks between them.
So I have some extra
running around to do.
However two things have
occurred I did not expect to. One is one of my health problems
screwing things up that landed me in Accident & Emergency in
North Middlesex Hospital. This was over slight chest pains and
discomfort along with heart palpitations. I was urged to do a blood
pressure test during a mild attack and it measured 197/121.
Due to the blood
pressure being so high I phoned a health helpline, '111', and they
begged me to admit myself to hospital. To my friend's shock I was not
offered an ambulance.
While at hospital it
measured 167/110 and they were quite concerned with the diastolic
rate of 110 and I said “Umm if your worried about that being high,
it was 121 before I left the house and if the blood pressure is
linked to the chest pain and palpitations I can assure you that it
has been higher than this on several occasions”
Dr Andrew De Stempel
looked concerned about that.
Reasons for me stopping
my cheap crap blood pressure pills were requested for the second time
that day and I told them that I was told to stop taking them by Dr
Josephine Swanton, I think that was her name, of Chase Farm Hospitals
Neurology Department. This was because of blacking out either
partially and momentarily while being able to stay on my feet, apart
from some collapsing into a crouching position,, by grabbing onto
objects and focusing on holding tight … or waking up one time on
the edge of a wood in some stinging nettles. They call this
'Syncopy'.
Around the same time as
coming off the blood pressure pills, no thanks at all to the NHS who
have now endangered my life on more occasions than I can count, I was
also going through a process of purchasing orthotic shoes. First a
waterproof boot for winter by Salamon called the Quest GTX with
Ortholite insoles. Then when it was getting warmer and for the first
time ever I returned to Millets and bought a pair of Salamon that
were more a trainer or sneeker type pair with Ortholite insoles.
Unfortunately and after
several days of wearing them the weather become unusually warm for
the time of year my feet started to heat up leaving me confused
before I realised that I had failed to realise that my new Salamons
were Gore-Tex ones! Had I spotted this when I was buying them I would
not have done so. I was annoyed with myself over this as I had now
purchased two pairs of Salamons with Ortholite insoles at £100 a
pop!
So I found myself in
Sports Direct's Enfield store looking for airy trainers that has
Ortholite insoles and to be honest I lie wearing those half sandal
lie shoes but never seen a single pair with Ortholite insoles.
I found a pair of
Adidas that were very airy and I bought them.
I had never purchased
so many shoes nor shoes costing this much in such a short space of
time at any point in my life. Ever.
Then a friend wanted me
to go to the forest with him and we stopped at McDonalds to get a
couple of latte coffees and as we were driving to our destination a
woman in a Mazda drove into the side of us. I was told by my friend,
who called me earlier today, to be told that the insurance company
want to 'write-off' his car.
Yesterday and for the
first time since before Christmas something unusual was happening
with me and while at a friend's store I noticed my heels were
starting to hurt a bit. We were deep in conversation on several
subjects and I kept shifting my feet about and lifting my heels off
the floor and alternating this between each foot.
I eventually left and
when I was eventually home I suddenly remembered that I had been in
thiis accident the day before, that Fibromyalgia is caused in the
first instance by a whiplash event to the neck and realised it must
have been down to the accident?
Then I started to
panic.
I am right in the
middle of a process that I have to adhere to and has me running
around doing stuff and now this happens?! Even as I type this out I
am hoping to God that the Fibromyalgia symptoms were just aggravated
by the jolt and will calm back down? I am crossing everything over
this!
But while on the phone
earlier telling my friend whose car has now been written off by the
insurance company we talked about the course I am on, the DWP and
then about the cars they have been taking away from disabled people.
Even Diabetes type 2 sufferers which is what he is. He had stated
previously that this would never happen but I had been telling him
that I met a man with diabetes who had told me that they have refused
him mobility, a car, after first telling him he qualified for it,
though he initially refused it as he did not need it when offered.
That is an honest man
right there who then gets fucked about and lied to by the DWP.
He also told me that in
recent times he had also been fucked about and lied to by the NHS.
I told him about my
blog and what I do, predict, expose and that I also help and advise
people on here.
Here is a video that
describes the things I have done to battle one type of pain and that
is foot pain, or more specifically heel pain and how I combated this
particular symptom and if you have Plantar fasciitis or any type of
heel pain … yooooou just might want to watch this …
I then told him of an
article I had read somewhere that the DWP have been so bad at doing
this that they and central government have been reported as being
guilty of controlling the mainstream media which means TV News and
national tabloids.
As I went over this I
could not recall where I had heard or read about it and even if I had
posted anything on my blogs about it.
Checking for links as I
am typing this post and now I need to say “Ahhh here it is …”
It was a website called Evolve Politics. It will be interesting to
see what comes out about this … though …
I was thinking thee other day and I stated this to my friend on the
phone … I said ..
“What I cannot figure out is … if they do indeed get their hands
on these documents … who do they take them too?!”
I mean that if you think about it for a moment … imagine that all
UK TV News networks are on this list with all of the national
tabloids … to who do you then go to with all these documents?
Not one of the national tabloids or TV new networks is going to say
..
“Oh here is a report that we were involved in covering up about a
list of people that died or suffered under the hands of the DWP
and/or NHS!”
It is just not going to happen is it?
I bet the TV News Networks also did not report on this one?
Ooh peaking of which … PIP have gotten in contact with me and want
me to attend a disability assessment … remember this is a
disability ASSESSMENT and if you look back through this blog over
four years you will note I have been telling them for over TEN YEARS.
You know it is funny … I know about this new age technology called
files were you document details about people and keep all the
paperwork on a cardboard of plastic file which is kept in a drawer
full of folders and files.
Oh no … wait a minute … they are all using computers now! Still
the same thing applies you scan or copy documents regarding people's
details and they are stored in a file. DIGITALLY.
Oh and you know what else this means?
It means that you do not have to get out of your seat with your
paperwork and go to another room, possibly on a completely different
floor, to either store or even retrieve said files!
Easy right?
I have been telling them about my health conditions and the symptoms
for 14 to 15 years now and … well … they want me to go to
Chelmsford in Essex which is around 50 miles and awkward ones at that
from where I live in Enfield.
Oh and for the second time, I cannot recall what it was last time,
they picked a date that I cannot even attend anyway.
Yeeeaaah … remember I was in Accident & Emergency recently with
a sky high blood pressure? I was raced around so fast it was
unbelievable and I knew they were worried long before they told me
they were worried. Well very soon I have to have an EEG monitor on me
for 48 hours and,, stone the crows, if they do not go and arrange it
on the day I am having the monitor fitted?!
EEG Monitor.
Mind you I am not so sure that they will find anything from the
testing as the number of incidents I have had has dropped right away
to almost nothing since I started taking those cheap, crappy Ramipril
pills to bring my blood pressure down.
I am, however, experiencing blackouts, syncopy, again and am feeling
that strong urge to fall asleep in the afternoons.
Oh right … did I forget to mention that through fear of the threats
of sanctions by the JSA which I should NOT be on … that the
business thing I referred to is the New Enterprise Allowance, or NEA,
via the DWP and done with the Job Centre?
Umm yeeeeaaaaah they know about this blog. Are you laughing yet? Or
has it not sunk in yet?
I am getting help to set up my blogs as a business, along with my
YouTube channel, and have had my hand forced so I have told them
about it. I have TOLD them about my blogs. My blogs on corruption.
Yes I even said “..in the public services”.
Are you laughing now? Please do not tell me it has not dawned on you
yet?!
I am receiving help from a public service to turn improve a blog that
talks about and exposes corruption within the public services.
Are weeeeeee there yet?!
LMAO!
Also starting this course was also how I got my Pregabalin
prescriptions … yeah you know I mentioned that some time ago? “I
am being forced to run around and start a business in pain … I have
got a hold of Pregabalin and they are working better than Gabapentin
and if I am being forced to run around by one public service then the
other one had better give me the best drug available!” his how I
actually asked!
LOL!
Hmmm yeeeaaah I do not always tell the whole story straight away
because it is not always the best tactical move.
Some tactical moves can take many months or even a couple of years or
more!
Wink-wink. Oops!
Hence why I have been more proactive on my blogs and YouTube channel
lately and hence one reason why I have been a little … silent on ….
data.
Except … if the DWP now want to penalise me and take away Personal
Independent Payments from me now this could cost both them and myself
later on. Or in other words could cost them a lot more in the long
run.
Look? When I told the business adviser about the blogs I … left a
folder in my bag. I started off by telling him he will ask me a
question and when he does I will get out a folder I have tucked away.
When I promoted the idea of a business based on a series of blogs and
a YouTube channel I got a lecture about how it takes too long to
build up a decent number of visitors, as a question. Did I not think
so, more or less. I said “Umm you know that question I said you
would put to me and I would then get out my folder?” and he
replied, yes. I got out my folder.
I splayed the clear hard plastic folder before him and I turned each
page that showed screenshots of eah of my blogs with details about
the numbers I was getting. I told him how long I had been doing it
and he was already showing surprise and sitting up right when I then
broadsided him completely when I said “I have not done the sums for
a few months but I estimate I am close to half a million visitors”
he just looked at me and said …
“I do not even have to speak to my company to tell you that you
WILL be accepted on the scheme” or something to that effect.
There are those that think I say the wrong things at the wrong times
to the wrong people,, or have a big mouth in other words.
Not done to bad on here though have I? Not been closed down yet and
running rings around people even when they have sent mme down a dark
road that appears to lead to nowhere else than oblivion.
I am always doing something. Always.
What those people fail to realise is that I am extremely tactical and
sometimes I have to be extra careful because of the fact that one of
my symptoms is 'short term memory loss'.
Considering that handicap I think I have done … OK? Lol!
I am still doing OK, despite everything.
So yeah … that is one of the two things I have had in the pipeline.
Well one of the two MAJOR things in the pipeline.
I have had some people tell me that the NEA thing is just a con …
it is just so that the DWP can kick you off to save money and they
can make their unemployment figures loo good. I said I did not care
as it made no difference whatsoever as there is no downside for me in
this. Lol.
There … is no downside for me in this.
I am receiving help and advice … not as much as I expected thus far
and I have been given some spreadsheet templates and everything has
made me think of it all more from a business perspective. I have been
made aware of things I never thought about or considered and read up
about things I never thought about or considered.
I have been out killing myself on my bike for journeys of over 10
miles and these are now up to 18 miles, for my last attempt.
What? You thought I did all this by helicopter? Or did you miss the
part where I get no mobility help and cannot afford to run a car and
have not had one for several years?
The wildlife part of the blogging and YouTube channel takes a hell of
a lot of cycling and when I do what I do I am keeping records of both
flora and fauna that experts and conservationists can come and check.
So I am helping the wildlife, at least locally at any rate.
But I am very good with wildlife and if I could get further afield
than I currently am I can do so much more and discover so much more.
I was tipped to be the next David Attenborough when I was a kid. Yeah
… after turning down an offer from ITV and BBC Wildlife Magazine I
kind of missed that ship. Sailed a long time ago now, 25 years maybe?
Being able to go further afield means I can do a whole lot more with
exotic animals too.
Oooooh yeeeeaaaaah then there are the tools that are coming? I have
not really gotten into that side of it in any detail .. because I am
not currently sure how big it is going to be.
It will be big … ish at the minimum.
Humongous at the maximum and then there could be a whole raft of
extra things occur that could be very exciting … especially for my
readers.
I like seeing people excited. In fact I will admit that one thing I
have become hooked on is reaction videos to cinema trailers, though
generally only the films I like or that have a big history. Comic
book movies and Star Wars and the like.
I get an absolute joy out of watching those and when I thin about the
possibility of putting myself in a position where I could provide
people with that amount, or even half that, or joy it brings a tear
to my eye.
Unfortunately for my most popular blog on corruption that is a
difficult thing to do and is mostly misery and bad news. But … it
is not .. completely impossible. It would just take a long time and I
would have to perform certain … actions.
Help enough people that you could be seen as a hero to them.
Educate enough people that you could be an inspiration to them.
Admittedly I have been harsh at times and even angry at others but
above all else I wanted this to show through. I wanted people to see
that I hold nothing back and I talk straight down the line, so to
speak. I wanted people to think that maybe they could see the fears
in others to maybe even understand their anger or actions. I wanted
people to realise for themselves what can be done as well as what
cannot be done. Who are what you can help and who or what you can
never help. To not waste your time, blood sweat and tears on things
that are immovable and concentrate on the things that you can do
something about.
I did have this philosophy when I started out that like the old
saying of 'You have to be cruel to be kind' and so had to kind of lay
it on the line in places. So you see allowing my anger and
frustrations to show through I thought was important.
But yes and long before I started I could see things others simply
could not but more importantly I could work it out. Sometimes that
was sooner and other times it was much later. But I would always get
there in the end.
As I did this I discovered that as I worked out an escape route or
plan that I attempted this only to find that the government had shut
that exit door long before I even got there.
As I did this I could talk and type about it on-line. If others were
being driven into their own personal nightmares full of frustration
and pain that I might be able to help them too?
Every single visitor that I ever received was someone I could
potentially help and even if it turned out it was just one … it was
worth it.
It would be five years this August, 2017 that I would have been
posting, about corruption, for five whole years. The others need
another 6 months, I think, before I can say that they have gone five
years.
The important thing for people to be realising is that due to the
government we have got and the ones we have had … everything has
had a cost.
What I tell people is that what I have issues with is that if there
are costs then I would accept things a lot better if I was TOLD about
these costs. But I never have been even when I have more or less
invited them to tell me so.
So with each and every one of them the order of the day and the many,
many days and years previous they decided to lie and cheat. In every
public service and every facet of society. Just lie. I also hate the
fact that people just accepted this and they have been doing so for a
very long time. I have also known for a very long time that this
would just compound the problems caused by this attitude and it would
build up to gargantuan proportions until the day it was in such a
mess no one would know what to do.
There are things that can be done but … they will not like them and
are probably well aware of them but refuse to take these paths? I
know where my money would be.
I have been rambling on
because I am waiting for a video to upload that shows a few things
about me … that might come in handy in my defence or in one of my
attacks.
At the very, very same
time … this video can and probably will help people in pain. Foot
pain to be precise. I explain that not everything is how it is
perceived or even promoted to be by the National Health Service and
its … professionals.
I have discovered
things on my own that have not been stated to me in fifteen years and
if they have failed to educate, help, prescribe or even provide me
then they must be a lot of people out there suffering?!
This is also the case
in a great many areas and that list is a long one, like Calum's List
is very long, but I can only get to one thing at a time. On this
occasion I have returned to an area that adversely affects me and
that is foot pain. Specifically it is heel pain. Heel pain is not
something you can escape from as the original rheumatologist I saw,
back in 2003 (yes two thousand and three), told me “The moment you
get out of bed your on the thing that causes you pain and will be
most of the day until your back in bed. Many people are not going to
be understanding of that!” but what failed to realise all those
years ago is that I was going to discover that among those not
understanding will be Doctors and other health professionals and
specialists.
Never once have I been
asked if I live with anyone to help me since 2003. For the last 14
years the answer to that question has been a very lonely “No”.
Government and public
services would have forced me to be a burden on anyone I lived with
even more so than I already was.
So another punishment
dealt out by the government and public services is loneliness.
I have spent a very,
very long time knowing that they really do not give a shit, despite
what they claim when the cameras and microphones are on.
But now we might be
soon discovering that the so-called freedom of the press is anything
but. Also that the Press have been caught out to be aiding central
government in hiding some of the worst cases of the breaches of human
rights as well as manslaughter the world has ever seen.
Right here in the UK
where the perpetrators love to go on TV and preach to other countries
about human rights.
Tut-tut, go figure.
On a final note and one
I thought was very funny, if it was not so utterly ridiculous and I
told people they were idiots for agreeing with this one … sugar tax
and being threatened with court action over it …
Today for most of the day I've been unable to walk. Not difficulty walking or using my stick to get home but unable to walk. At all.
In fact had I left the house and gotten any distance when this thing occurred I would probably not have gotten home, unless near a bus stop wherever I ended up. I still doubt I would have reached home once I departed said bus.
It's been a nightmare just getting up and down my stairs!
What concerns me right now is that I will still be in this state in the morning, or worse still all day tomorrow or a number of days?!
Sharp pains are affecting both my feet but the left is the worse. I've also not had pains like these before, despite the fact I experience six pains across both feet. These now raise that total to eight.
Putting any weight down on my left foot results is sharp pains that seem to shoot across my whole foot, from the sole upwards.
This is weird as other pains are in very specific places like heels (plantar fasciitis), ball of my foot (metatarsalgia) and arches I've never seen nor been given a name for, also shooting pains but from the top down. I get painful clicking too but that's in my ankles and mostly occurs descending stairs (Achilles tendinitis).
I have been wondering, for the past couple of hours or so, who in the world I should call and when?
How long are you unable to walk before you call someone? When you run out of food? Lol!
