Oooh boy am I stoned!
Due to some anxiety I decided that it would be a good idea to double up on my Amitriptyline for a few days until I see my GP?
I had also not realised that after waking a little after 4am, and alarm bells over that going off in a big way, but omly falling asleep a little after 2am I had not had a lot of sleep.
Being a Fibromyalgia sufferer we do not get restorative sleep at the best of times!
Restorative sleep is the most important part and comes after REM sleep and it is what it says where the mind and body go through checks and repairing of things. Muscles repaired, toxins repaired, brain cells flushed along with skin and a great number of things. Your talking about a whole body. The brain does not do what we need it to do.
This has serious consequences and likely the main reason our memories do not function correctly each and every day? That particular symptom has a name all of its own,, Fibrofog.
Anyway I had planned to go and see someone and ... well make an appointment. I went to hunt down some Mega Marshmallows and realised I was feeling a little light headed. It still did not occur to me what was going on. I caught a bus that has a terrible, terrible route and 'goes all around the houses' before it gets anywhere near my home. The bus route goes out its way at least three times and in opposite ways throughout its whole route.
Annoyingly it also does not go anywhere near a hospital!
So I am sitting on the bus, thinking how my feet are not too bad today while focusing on the light headed feeling. I realised it was intensifying. Before long I was stoned and every time the bus went around a corner I felt like I was in a boat as the bus swayed left and then right.
In fact it was so intense I wondered whether I should get off the bus by my Doctor's surgery?!
Also the nodding off has increased in my brains desire to just give in. Just now I had my head flung backwards and withj my eyes closed while trying to type out this post! Lol!
Sleeeeeepy ... must ... resist!
I was planning to order an item tomorrow to replace one I have that is very faulty and that would be my Moto G phone. I am sure many would be pleased to hear that is it has played up fairly badly in calling and texting. Added to this the screen surface has more or less worn through. Plus I have noted that I can leave it to charge with screen off for 3 hours and its only half full?!
So battery buggered. Some mornings I get up and there is still 75% on the phone while otherr times it can drain right down to the point of switching itself off. Weird that.
I have never had to phone 999 while I am out but not only do I know that day is coming but I have been ordered to to do is I have another bad seizure.
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Tuesday, 28 June 2016
Friday, 17 June 2016
THE ROAD TO EUPHORIA
I am not sure what is happening to me or what to do about it.
Today I had one of those afternoons where I am in effect, high. As in 'high as a kite', intoxicate or stoned!
I had been out to pick up something and just have a quick scan around at phones in these gadget shops as well as phone shops. Need to replace my phone, have one in mind and I seem to find it's sister phones, it little brothers but not the one I want. Which is a Motorola Moto X Style. Did want the Moto X Force but then found it is not entirely waterproof as it seems to suggest kn adverts.
I have had a great many Motorola phones and going backwards a Moto G, Motorola Atrix ( do ... NOT get me started on that phone), Motorola Defy and some odd other models going back the the StarTacs.
I have had others too.
Looked in half a dozen places over the last couple days and not found the one I want but not in a position to buy just yet so just looking. Idea being if I found one I would put down half the money.
There is one I have thought about getting in my local Game Store but it is a previous, 2nd, generation model and no SD Card reader. Only 16GB too. I have a 8GB Moto G and I would never have a phone with low memory ever again. Do not get me wrong the phone has been great for the money but you are just so limited with what you can do and install on the phone. You can forget music.
Anyhoo I had to pick up some things from a friends shop but when I got home I was a little out of it so I waited it out a couple of hours. Instead I felt sleepy so I went out as I did not want to go out tomorrow. As I was walking along I suddenly noticed I was walking along normally, which is rare as I normally limp, and my pains had died down. I suspected I was having one of these weird afternoons I have had recently where this does happen but then I end up feeling a little ... 'high' and I mean ... STONED 'high'. Like you have had a weak spliff, or cannabis.
As I was walking I started to feel it coming on and to my shock I continued on even higher and I even started getting the 'munchies'. If you do not know you get these cravings to eat when your stoned on cannabis. It is very weird and very enjoyable, even a little euphoric at times.
I was nearing a local shop and all I could think about was drinking and sugary things and when I went in I bought a can of Monster Ripper, I normally go for the green standard one, a carton of Orange Juice and a Snickers Duo along with chocolate raisins, strawberry pencils and some fizzy blue bottle ... things. Oh I recall the packet saying 'Bubblegum Flavour'.
I felt like Francine Smith in an episode of American Dad where she lets Jeff, Hayley's husband, smoke cannabis which he gets on prescription for his very over active libido. She gets stoned with him when she gives in, catching him ... well, pulling it several times, and downs a bottle of orange drink of something or other. Cannot recall what she called the drink, lol.
I downed everything as I was walking along and carried on getting higher and just wanted to stop walking and sit down. It was mad ... I kept thinking about just sitting on the floor or a wall and before long I did!
I eventually moved along but sat down again. Eventually moved along and then sat down yet again. I sat down around four times over a distance of about 100 metres. It was mad.
I get to my friend's shop around 4pm and I was very lucky as he was closing early, had to pick up his daughter from somewhere or other I think he said.
I had consumed everything by the time I reached him, grabbed what I needed, paid him and left.
Around another 200 metres later I started feeling like I was coming down but still remained light headed. I recall wondering if it was like some type of diabetes thing and that the sugar or perhaps something else, like caffeine, had brought me back up?
If I am in when this happens I wake up in the dark wondering what happened and most of the time do not recall falling asleep.
This is when I would get one of the major fits, or grand mal if that what it was. I always feel light headed first and it is always in the afternoons and early evenings ... it is very weird and you could set your watch to it.
About 1pm in the afternoon is when it would start and around 4pm is when it is at its strongest.
Now I have been ordered to go to A&E if I was to have another full blown fit and am also awaiting a hospital appointment letter, along with a colonoscopy letter too.
I had considered going to the hospital, bad time of the day for me and public transport, as the feeling might give the positive results needed to any tests done on me at the hospital. But then again they may not do and I may waste my time.
I deliberate over it and I still needed some things for home, like milk I have tried to remember buying for three days, and decided not to go to hospital. Me travelling on packed trains and buses is an absolute no-no and this is me being both cautious and responsible. I have one other problem with travelling on buses, less so trains except tube trains, and this is when it is hot.
I do not handle the heat well ... I really, really hate it and have done for years and often think about living in the antarctic! Or Siberia!
I will experience increasing pain if I am forced to stand still for more than a few minutes and with that I get short tempered and someone rude will be knocked unconscious in the blink of an eye. That is me being ... RESPONSIBLE!
That is only the feet pain and not being able to handle heat.
There are a great many other things in things in my pain list and there is also a separate list for embarrassing things that could occur that often stresses me out no end.
Then there is the blacking out and now these seizures. It is just too much and if not for these things I would have had a job and actually something to do and get me out of this damned house, long, long ago!
It is funny as this feeling I get is quite weird and edges closer and closer to euphoria until your completely feeling euphoric. A great many people would pay good money to feel like this but when it happens when it feels like it at some point in the afternoon and you live on your own it is becoming a major bug-bare. Things are hard enough as they are without this screwing things up.
So there I was walking down this road and heading straight for Euphoria.
I do not know if it just something else developing and you have to understand that with 120 symptoms there is always something knew developing every now and then. Or perhaps it is a drug I have recently been prescribed or an interaction between this new drug, Methocarbamol, and something else.
Today I had one of those afternoons where I am in effect, high. As in 'high as a kite', intoxicate or stoned!
I had been out to pick up something and just have a quick scan around at phones in these gadget shops as well as phone shops. Need to replace my phone, have one in mind and I seem to find it's sister phones, it little brothers but not the one I want. Which is a Motorola Moto X Style. Did want the Moto X Force but then found it is not entirely waterproof as it seems to suggest kn adverts.
I have had a great many Motorola phones and going backwards a Moto G, Motorola Atrix ( do ... NOT get me started on that phone), Motorola Defy and some odd other models going back the the StarTacs.
I have had others too.
Looked in half a dozen places over the last couple days and not found the one I want but not in a position to buy just yet so just looking. Idea being if I found one I would put down half the money.
There is one I have thought about getting in my local Game Store but it is a previous, 2nd, generation model and no SD Card reader. Only 16GB too. I have a 8GB Moto G and I would never have a phone with low memory ever again. Do not get me wrong the phone has been great for the money but you are just so limited with what you can do and install on the phone. You can forget music.
Anyhoo I had to pick up some things from a friends shop but when I got home I was a little out of it so I waited it out a couple of hours. Instead I felt sleepy so I went out as I did not want to go out tomorrow. As I was walking along I suddenly noticed I was walking along normally, which is rare as I normally limp, and my pains had died down. I suspected I was having one of these weird afternoons I have had recently where this does happen but then I end up feeling a little ... 'high' and I mean ... STONED 'high'. Like you have had a weak spliff, or cannabis.
As I was walking I started to feel it coming on and to my shock I continued on even higher and I even started getting the 'munchies'. If you do not know you get these cravings to eat when your stoned on cannabis. It is very weird and very enjoyable, even a little euphoric at times.
I was nearing a local shop and all I could think about was drinking and sugary things and when I went in I bought a can of Monster Ripper, I normally go for the green standard one, a carton of Orange Juice and a Snickers Duo along with chocolate raisins, strawberry pencils and some fizzy blue bottle ... things. Oh I recall the packet saying 'Bubblegum Flavour'.
I felt like Francine Smith in an episode of American Dad where she lets Jeff, Hayley's husband, smoke cannabis which he gets on prescription for his very over active libido. She gets stoned with him when she gives in, catching him ... well, pulling it several times, and downs a bottle of orange drink of something or other. Cannot recall what she called the drink, lol.
I downed everything as I was walking along and carried on getting higher and just wanted to stop walking and sit down. It was mad ... I kept thinking about just sitting on the floor or a wall and before long I did!
I eventually moved along but sat down again. Eventually moved along and then sat down yet again. I sat down around four times over a distance of about 100 metres. It was mad.
I get to my friend's shop around 4pm and I was very lucky as he was closing early, had to pick up his daughter from somewhere or other I think he said.
I had consumed everything by the time I reached him, grabbed what I needed, paid him and left.
Around another 200 metres later I started feeling like I was coming down but still remained light headed. I recall wondering if it was like some type of diabetes thing and that the sugar or perhaps something else, like caffeine, had brought me back up?
If I am in when this happens I wake up in the dark wondering what happened and most of the time do not recall falling asleep.
This is when I would get one of the major fits, or grand mal if that what it was. I always feel light headed first and it is always in the afternoons and early evenings ... it is very weird and you could set your watch to it.
About 1pm in the afternoon is when it would start and around 4pm is when it is at its strongest.
Now I have been ordered to go to A&E if I was to have another full blown fit and am also awaiting a hospital appointment letter, along with a colonoscopy letter too.
I had considered going to the hospital, bad time of the day for me and public transport, as the feeling might give the positive results needed to any tests done on me at the hospital. But then again they may not do and I may waste my time.
I deliberate over it and I still needed some things for home, like milk I have tried to remember buying for three days, and decided not to go to hospital. Me travelling on packed trains and buses is an absolute no-no and this is me being both cautious and responsible. I have one other problem with travelling on buses, less so trains except tube trains, and this is when it is hot.
I do not handle the heat well ... I really, really hate it and have done for years and often think about living in the antarctic! Or Siberia!
I will experience increasing pain if I am forced to stand still for more than a few minutes and with that I get short tempered and someone rude will be knocked unconscious in the blink of an eye. That is me being ... RESPONSIBLE!
That is only the feet pain and not being able to handle heat.
There are a great many other things in things in my pain list and there is also a separate list for embarrassing things that could occur that often stresses me out no end.
Then there is the blacking out and now these seizures. It is just too much and if not for these things I would have had a job and actually something to do and get me out of this damned house, long, long ago!
It is funny as this feeling I get is quite weird and edges closer and closer to euphoria until your completely feeling euphoric. A great many people would pay good money to feel like this but when it happens when it feels like it at some point in the afternoon and you live on your own it is becoming a major bug-bare. Things are hard enough as they are without this screwing things up.
So there I was walking down this road and heading straight for Euphoria.
I do not know if it just something else developing and you have to understand that with 120 symptoms there is always something knew developing every now and then. Or perhaps it is a drug I have recently been prescribed or an interaction between this new drug, Methocarbamol, and something else.
- Methocarbamol 2x 750mg
- Metoclopramide (cannot be bothered to look lol)
- Lansoprazole 30mg
- Quinine Sulphate (50mg?)
- Ramipril 10mg
- Amitriptyline 30mg
- Gabapentin 500mg
- Atrovastatin
- Tramadol
Hmm now that I am typing that out ... I remember getting to 900mg daily of Gabapentin and it making me ill and nauseous during the afternoons?
Maybe that taking it for long periods the same thing happens? Just takes longer?
That is how I got into a row with a GP that led me to discover they knew I had Fibromyalgia two years before I self-diagnosed it.
As I told a Jehovah's Witness recently who gets Pregabalin ... they refused to give it to me several times and the first time I asked was because Gabapentin was a horrid drug, cheap crap and makes not only me ill but everyone I have spoken to that ever took it except for one single guy. Oddly this guy that took it amazed me because he was taking 2700mg, two thousand seven hundred, daily without issues and did not understand why so many people had real problems with it. Most I have read about had issues long before reaching 1000mg per day.
I am going to drop the dose of Gabapentin and see what happens?
I just realised something else ... if it is the Gabapentin then it is this drug that caused an increase in my seizures to the point of passing out completely for ten minutes?! It simply has to be.
They knew I had a Hypertension problem along with a postural hypotension problem. So I have to risk dying now because the drugs I need are not allowed or too expensive for someone like me as I am seen as worthless? Nice!
LMAO!
Saturday, 6 June 2015
THE UNKNOWINGLY STONED
I am stoned!
Stoned like you would not believe.
In fact at one point my legs suddenly felt like they were going to buckle under me and I was going to collapse?!
Fortunately I had been in my house several seconds when that came upon me!
Now here is the funny part...
I have absolutely no idea how this came about.
I had just previously been in Sainsburys and was planning a post about them in my head. No Kingsmill Toastie any more, the Cherry Tomatoes are not Cherry Tomatoes, no White Grapes yet again. Everything seems to taste like crap and I was wondering if it was my taste buds?
Belgian Sugar Waffles. Yeah, Belgian Sugar Waffles taste more than fine.
I had blacked out at the magazine rack like I normally do, well more often than not and quite literally so.
They did not have a single loaf of bread that to me did not taste like crap and feel ultra dry in the mouth, most of them I have tried. Now their bagels and their baguettes are top notch for taste, strangely.
I had been wondering for a while now if there had been a backlash from farmers of that farmers had refused to drop their prices lower and so Sainsburys had turned to sub standard food?
I was walking home across the park with cherry tomatoes on the vine, black grapes, a cheap jalapeno & tomato pasta, which oddly tasted like there was cheese in it and some baps and bagels. Ooh I forgot the strawberry laces I am now eating!
Oh yes and I got my old favourite of Duck with hoisin sauce in a wrap. That tasted like crap too!
I was wondering yet again on the way home what in the world was going on and could Fibromyalgia possibly affect signals going to the brain from your taste buds?
Or as I stated is there some backlash going on or are Sainsbury's in trouble like Tesco is but have manage to hide it?
As I was walking to my front door I realised the front door was ... well, moving!
I thought I was imagining this movement until I got inside and noticed things were ... well, swaying just a touch. It was then I noticed my legs felt like they would just go under me, this happened to me a very long time ago and in a stressful situation I found out where the term 'legs turned to jelly' came from when they literally buckled under me. My brain was telling them to move forward and the only direction I was actually moving in was downwards!
That feeling is quite ... surreal, let me tell you.
I then sat down and realised I was feeling very, very stoned and then I looked at the bags of food and what I had bought.
Well you know that thing they say comes over you once you have been stoned for awhile? That sudden ... urge you get to ... well, EAT?
Yeah half of this crap I bought home is now ... GONE!
My next conversation with my GP is going to be an interesting one!
I am pretty sure it is the Amlodopine. I could be wrong. Well I could always have been wrong all the way through. Done pretty good up until now!
LOL.
Stoned like you would not believe.
In fact at one point my legs suddenly felt like they were going to buckle under me and I was going to collapse?!
Fortunately I had been in my house several seconds when that came upon me!
Now here is the funny part...
I have absolutely no idea how this came about.
I had just previously been in Sainsburys and was planning a post about them in my head. No Kingsmill Toastie any more, the Cherry Tomatoes are not Cherry Tomatoes, no White Grapes yet again. Everything seems to taste like crap and I was wondering if it was my taste buds?
Belgian Sugar Waffles. Yeah, Belgian Sugar Waffles taste more than fine.
I had blacked out at the magazine rack like I normally do, well more often than not and quite literally so.
They did not have a single loaf of bread that to me did not taste like crap and feel ultra dry in the mouth, most of them I have tried. Now their bagels and their baguettes are top notch for taste, strangely.
I had been wondering for a while now if there had been a backlash from farmers of that farmers had refused to drop their prices lower and so Sainsburys had turned to sub standard food?
I was walking home across the park with cherry tomatoes on the vine, black grapes, a cheap jalapeno & tomato pasta, which oddly tasted like there was cheese in it and some baps and bagels. Ooh I forgot the strawberry laces I am now eating!
Oh yes and I got my old favourite of Duck with hoisin sauce in a wrap. That tasted like crap too!
I was wondering yet again on the way home what in the world was going on and could Fibromyalgia possibly affect signals going to the brain from your taste buds?
Or as I stated is there some backlash going on or are Sainsbury's in trouble like Tesco is but have manage to hide it?
As I was walking to my front door I realised the front door was ... well, moving!
I thought I was imagining this movement until I got inside and noticed things were ... well, swaying just a touch. It was then I noticed my legs felt like they would just go under me, this happened to me a very long time ago and in a stressful situation I found out where the term 'legs turned to jelly' came from when they literally buckled under me. My brain was telling them to move forward and the only direction I was actually moving in was downwards!
That feeling is quite ... surreal, let me tell you.
I then sat down and realised I was feeling very, very stoned and then I looked at the bags of food and what I had bought.
Well you know that thing they say comes over you once you have been stoned for awhile? That sudden ... urge you get to ... well, EAT?
Yeah half of this crap I bought home is now ... GONE!
My next conversation with my GP is going to be an interesting one!
I am pretty sure it is the Amlodopine. I could be wrong. Well I could always have been wrong all the way through. Done pretty good up until now!
LOL.
Tuesday, 18 June 2013
KITE FLIGHT TO VENUS
Well what a strange day.
I had to go and retrieve a prescription from my dentist and while there he asked which tooth it was.
Now I reminded him that it was next to the tooth he had previously removed and that because I did not flinch he said he would send me to the orthodontist.
He stopped me to correct new and said no he did not he sent me for...and I interrupted him for interrupting me and said yes obviously because I had an under bite. He then said yes but one statement does not follow the other.
At that point I thought I am not getting into this but could have embarrassed him extremely easily because one statement following the other is exactly how it occurred.
You did not flinch!! Hour getting tooth out that broke in two and you hardly moved.
Look you have an under bite that roll cause you problems and pain when your older, I can send you for free work to Chase Farm Hospital for treatment, students blah, blah, blah!
That is one statement following the other!!
But I was very high and had warned them. Due to yesterday and the amount if pain I had I decided that this morning I would take two Gabapentin, 200mg, and two Tramadol, 100mg.
I had the easiest walk I have had in over 12 years! Albeit high as a kite and still am lol. Also I used to not take the tramadol until later in the day going that it might esse the effect of the gabapentin but did not think it had.
Do I was probably taking less tramadol than I normally did. Oddly I have had several drinks throughout the day and this time it was immediate throbbing but the combination of the two drugs seemed to be working on the tooth pain.
This really surprised me but I could very well be wrong. Even the Dentist got confused st how this was acting up and said i did not need antibiotics because I did not have an infection and I asked well how come the metranidazole work then? He said "well how do you know I have not given them to you?!" I said "well I have already stated on the phone that I had just finished a course s few days do and the pain had returned done the course ended!"
The receptionist, who could be his wife as I know she works at the practice looked sideways at him then at me and rolled her eyes and I smiled.
I do like him and he is a nice enough chap but today he really thought very highly of himself and obviously thought the fact her was a Dentist makes him more intelligent than his patients in all subjects but just Dentistry, lol.
I normally react to statements like his which is why just about every office and a few private companies across the UK walk around on eggshells when they gest my name our see my face.
Today I was NOT in the mood to turn around and point out that what he stated not to be the case was in fact exactly how it occurred!
I spent the entire day in a daze and floated around the place high as the proverbial kite!
Felt a bit uneasy when crossing Roads our must be said. Hopefully in a few days that will settle down. Bit too much right now.
Right now I'm fighting to stay conscious, lol.
Sunday, 21 April 2013
A PERIOD OF A HIGH
OK that is what I currently am but it is somewhat weird.
I took my last pills, tipping me into overdose territory around 2pm. The feeling of being high started about 5pm, 3 hours later and I am till experiencing it now.
Bloody hell that is a cheap way to get stoned?! Certainly a great deal cheaper than Cannabis, lmfao!
So I find it completely bizarre that the stoned feeling came on three hours later and remained for several hours.
Definitely feel drugged up to the eyeballs and lack of anything to eat a large contributor to that.
My word that is going to take place a hell of a great deal over the next 3 weeks until I get paid IF I get paid at all?!
It has also just occurred to me that I had better watch myself to as this could be highly dangerous especially now I am on my bike a large majority of the time?!
Hmm come to think of it is there a law against riding on the road on a Mountain Bike while intoxicated?! I have been left with little choice in the matter if this is the case, lol.
I took my last pills, tipping me into overdose territory around 2pm. The feeling of being high started about 5pm, 3 hours later and I am till experiencing it now.
Bloody hell that is a cheap way to get stoned?! Certainly a great deal cheaper than Cannabis, lmfao!
So I find it completely bizarre that the stoned feeling came on three hours later and remained for several hours.
Definitely feel drugged up to the eyeballs and lack of anything to eat a large contributor to that.
My word that is going to take place a hell of a great deal over the next 3 weeks until I get paid IF I get paid at all?!
It has also just occurred to me that I had better watch myself to as this could be highly dangerous especially now I am on my bike a large majority of the time?!
Hmm come to think of it is there a law against riding on the road on a Mountain Bike while intoxicated?! I have been left with little choice in the matter if this is the case, lol.
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