I am stoned!
Stoned like you would not believe.
In fact at one point my legs suddenly felt like they were going to buckle under me and I was going to collapse?!
Fortunately I had been in my house several seconds when that came upon me!
Now here is the funny part...
I have absolutely no idea how this came about.
I had just previously been in Sainsburys and was planning a post about them in my head. No Kingsmill Toastie any more, the Cherry Tomatoes are not Cherry Tomatoes, no White Grapes yet again. Everything seems to taste like crap and I was wondering if it was my taste buds?
Belgian Sugar Waffles. Yeah, Belgian Sugar Waffles taste more than fine.
I had blacked out at the magazine rack like I normally do, well more often than not and quite literally so.
They did not have a single loaf of bread that to me did not taste like crap and feel ultra dry in the mouth, most of them I have tried. Now their bagels and their baguettes are top notch for taste, strangely.
I had been wondering for a while now if there had been a backlash from farmers of that farmers had refused to drop their prices lower and so Sainsburys had turned to sub standard food?
I was walking home across the park with cherry tomatoes on the vine, black grapes, a cheap jalapeno & tomato pasta, which oddly tasted like there was cheese in it and some baps and bagels. Ooh I forgot the strawberry laces I am now eating!
Oh yes and I got my old favourite of Duck with hoisin sauce in a wrap. That tasted like crap too!
I was wondering yet again on the way home what in the world was going on and could Fibromyalgia possibly affect signals going to the brain from your taste buds?
Or as I stated is there some backlash going on or are Sainsbury's in trouble like Tesco is but have manage to hide it?
As I was walking to my front door I realised the front door was ... well, moving!
I thought I was imagining this movement until I got inside and noticed things were ... well, swaying just a touch. It was then I noticed my legs felt like they would just go under me, this happened to me a very long time ago and in a stressful situation I found out where the term 'legs turned to jelly' came from when they literally buckled under me. My brain was telling them to move forward and the only direction I was actually moving in was downwards!
That feeling is quite ... surreal, let me tell you.
I then sat down and realised I was feeling very, very stoned and then I looked at the bags of food and what I had bought.
Well you know that thing they say comes over you once you have been stoned for awhile? That sudden ... urge you get to ... well, EAT?
Yeah half of this crap I bought home is now ... GONE!
My next conversation with my GP is going to be an interesting one!
I am pretty sure it is the Amlodopine. I could be wrong. Well I could always have been wrong all the way through. Done pretty good up until now!
LOL.
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Saturday, 23 March 2013
THE DENTAL APPOINTMENT
It seems I had forgotten...
First time I decided to do this and fully expected to turn out to be something completely different, if it turned out to be useful at all that is.
Instead I capture the first moments of a FIASCO to end all fiascos and just as it SEEMS I have just started to be manipulated into being cast off yet again.
Not that I NEEDED this but I did need it for YOU!!
http://www.wuala.com/allnights/Evidence/Evidence%20MP3/2013-03-21_13-53.mp3/
I hope its the right file I forgot to rename it and it appears the right date and time, lol.
Oddly enough you will note that the time initiated is 01:53pm and outside the dental practice and the appointment was for 2pm. However I do not realise the mistake at first but I am told I am late when asked to go in and I just smirk.
Thought I had lost track of the time somehow but did think I could not be more than a couple of minutes late. Well until I saw the time stamp on the file and realised I was a couple of minutes early if anything, lol.
Odd.
First time I decided to do this and fully expected to turn out to be something completely different, if it turned out to be useful at all that is.
Instead I capture the first moments of a FIASCO to end all fiascos and just as it SEEMS I have just started to be manipulated into being cast off yet again.
Not that I NEEDED this but I did need it for YOU!!
http://www.wuala.com/allnights/Evidence/Evidence%20MP3/2013-03-21_13-53.mp3/
I hope its the right file I forgot to rename it and it appears the right date and time, lol.
Oddly enough you will note that the time initiated is 01:53pm and outside the dental practice and the appointment was for 2pm. However I do not realise the mistake at first but I am told I am late when asked to go in and I just smirk.
Thought I had lost track of the time somehow but did think I could not be more than a couple of minutes late. Well until I saw the time stamp on the file and realised I was a couple of minutes early if anything, lol.
Odd.
Thursday, 21 March 2013
BAD DAY TAKES A TURN
Oops so that pay was on the wrong blog, lol.
Pitfalls of using the useless Android App version of Blogger a will as this shite phone, lol.
So earlier I went upstairs to watch a film and with heavy eyelids I could boot decide what you watch and fell asleep. I woke up about 8.30pm and had to go out to get things I failed to do earlier!
I was panicking a little as it was view dark and bloody cold and wondered what I would do if that day finally came when it was too difficult our I collapsed?!
Turned out things were not too bad exhort for the pain in my tooth that was fast greater than BEFORE I visited the Dentist, fucking typical of the NHS but doing jack fucking shit for years SMS when they do they make it fast worse than it was previously, that is the attitude today and then the government are ready to put a boot up you're arse and you're suppressed to be grateful you have been seen and go out to work and pay them buyer taxes they can go and squander in something no different to a roulette table for the rich and powerful.
Oops I digress, as usual.
On the way back I grabbed a kebab as if had not eaten all day and was worried fatigue would be the next thing to occur. But I crossed the dual carriageway and was just feeling relieved things had improved when a sharp pain in my right groin had me pull up sharply and my limp get far worse and getting the last few yards to my home looking increasingly impossible?!
It is there times that are hard to put into words how difficult to explain WHAT they are like. I have asked about what to do at moments like this with hospitals and GPs and you just get blank looks.
Do when you can't walk any further our can't get home or out to get your food...
...who you gonna call?
Ghostbusters?
You might as well as every single member of the NHS I have put this to seen to regress back to their ancient primate origins and make monkey noises and life the ability to communicate a string of words together.
Oh yes and I remembered while limping home...
...it turned our to be the first stroke of luck in write awhile when I remembered that for the first time ever, well I think, I RECORDED MY DENTIST VISIT as I thought I was going to be palmed off of doing the work on my teeth as I had been last time our asked about doing the £200 hygienist work. I did not but well that I referred to you should be able to hear once I get it all up, including being asked if I was ok a few times and told to sir in the waiting room.
About time a plan coincided with an odd and worryingly revealing occurrence!
Should be up over the weekend.
Tuesday, 19 March 2013
THE FIGHT TO REMAIN UPSTANDING
Now that headline might appear to mean one thing when indeed it actually means something else completely different.
As others now I have spent the last week messing around with a new operating system on my laptop and in the process lost my old one. The one I am currently using is a Linux OS called Ubuntu 12.04 LTS using Unity.
The one I have lost until I find away to return it as it was is Windows 7.
I have lost some applications, games, programs and files in the process though this should only prove to be temporary and for 2 to 4 weeks.
Now I am currently trying to install drivers that have caused a headache and all of the problems for the last 8 or 9 days. I am TRYING to get my graphics to work on my laptop under Ubuntu. Currently I have been attempting to install the drivers for the last hour and god knows how much longer it will take and if it will succeed at all.
But that is NOT what this post is about and I only state that to make it clear as to WHY I have been pacing around the house and am a bit lost with myself...
For sometime now I have had something a bit odd going on with me and I had put this down to the Charcot Marie Tooth Disease that I did, and still, bet the proverbial farm on that I suffer with, oh yeah still have to upload that sound file?!
Today while waiting for things to happen on my laptop I keep feeling dizzy and light headed and this happens a great deal. Sometimes I have mentioned it in posts and other times I have not.
It is weird and fecking horrid if I am totally honest and it feels like I want to sleep all the time. The mad thing is it only seems to occur when I am indoors and not doing much. Or waiting around for something like I am now.
Oops just checked something as my fan speed altered and I thought something had finished?! Turns out no it has not.
For the longest time this occurred only now and then and its kind of like that out of it feeling you sometimes get just prior to going down with a bad case of flu! Like when people say they do not feel right and think they are coming down with something?!
Only the feeling is becoming more frequent and stronger as time goes on and its becoming more than just an annoying distraction. I have had plenty of sleep and it is not like that feeling of lack of sleep but different. I have taken pills so it is not withdrawal that has crept up on me unnoticed.
This is kind of the thing I have to deal with every single day only my body presents my mind with new tricks and new obstacles.
I really HATE doing nothing I really do. I hate staying in the house and I know my house is pretty small but I honestly do not know if I ended up in a house four times the size a year from now and possessed a big garden and a greenhouse I really could not tell you at all if this would change!
My mind wants to stay active and you could claim that I am hyperactive to a degree...
Only many parts of my body, including even my head at the moment, are the exact opposite. Different parts bitch and groan in different ways entirely and with differing frequencies as well as different levels of bitching and groaning.
Only of late this is now being accompanied by a lethargic and light headedness that feels as if I am intoxicated to just beyond the point when you start regretting it!
Intoxication is exactly they way to describe it. As if I had taken to much drugs, had a drug administered without my knowledge and possibly my mind is thinking to when I was stuck in the loo and the force of pressure that my Vagus Nerve experienced that forced my blood pressure to drop, cold sweats and a feeling of overheating and then heart attack and breathlessness came over me before passing out. I did actually mention this in brief to Doctor Mort yesterday and I mentioned the Vagus Nerve and I think he laughed if I recall correctly. A look of surprise that I knew about the Vagus Nerve and that I had passed out. I did actually say that I wonder if my Hiatus Hernia is pressing on it at all and why I have these dizzy and lethargic periods?!
In fact I had spent 30 minutes wondering whether to just go out, which I have not done all day and also waiting for this darned program to install, or post about it just so that I have this on record, so to speak.
I decided on the latter, always good to have it on record but that when I get days like this sitting in front of my laptop screen only makes it worse.
I am LOSING on the SWING, I am LOSING on the ROUNDABOUTS!
Sorry that was a line sung by Fish when he was with Marillion, lol. Just popped into my head and thought it apt for the points I have often tried to get across?!
As the Charcot Marie Tooth listed Fatigue as one of its many symptoms I experience I was then pleased to finally have an answer tot that...
When you have a lot of things going wrong with you and only have 5% of the answers it is annoying. I am sure there are people that have not had a proper diagnosis to just one or two things for many years that can tell you the same. If the read this and the rest of the blog and realise that this amounts to a dozen or more going back up to twenty years I am sure they would do a double take and re-read the post just to make sure they had not read something wrong, lol.
Yes it is not nice and hence why periods of me being funny, witty and comical and can interspersed with ire and anger due to what I have to deal with while doing chores and errands I am finding it harder to do all the time.
This is probably one reason am an so charged up over things as well as passionate about things I type and post about. Why I get outraged at greed by so many out there when it is obvious these people do not know what suffering is.
This is where their downfall lies in all honesty as those that do suffer and have now been repeatedly and savagely kicked in the nether regions by the government will come out of corner like that of a caged animals gnashing and snarling as they come.
This is why I like to let loose on here when I do feel enraged at things. To show that not only am I human but what it will be like for people with lives of suffering and pain. Especially those who have had no help from no one while the ravishing wolves bark at your door.
Bark enough and what will emerge is something that would make a Polar Bear blush!!
As others now I have spent the last week messing around with a new operating system on my laptop and in the process lost my old one. The one I am currently using is a Linux OS called Ubuntu 12.04 LTS using Unity.
The one I have lost until I find away to return it as it was is Windows 7.
I have lost some applications, games, programs and files in the process though this should only prove to be temporary and for 2 to 4 weeks.
Now I am currently trying to install drivers that have caused a headache and all of the problems for the last 8 or 9 days. I am TRYING to get my graphics to work on my laptop under Ubuntu. Currently I have been attempting to install the drivers for the last hour and god knows how much longer it will take and if it will succeed at all.
But that is NOT what this post is about and I only state that to make it clear as to WHY I have been pacing around the house and am a bit lost with myself...
For sometime now I have had something a bit odd going on with me and I had put this down to the Charcot Marie Tooth Disease that I did, and still, bet the proverbial farm on that I suffer with, oh yeah still have to upload that sound file?!
Today while waiting for things to happen on my laptop I keep feeling dizzy and light headed and this happens a great deal. Sometimes I have mentioned it in posts and other times I have not.
It is weird and fecking horrid if I am totally honest and it feels like I want to sleep all the time. The mad thing is it only seems to occur when I am indoors and not doing much. Or waiting around for something like I am now.
Oops just checked something as my fan speed altered and I thought something had finished?! Turns out no it has not.
For the longest time this occurred only now and then and its kind of like that out of it feeling you sometimes get just prior to going down with a bad case of flu! Like when people say they do not feel right and think they are coming down with something?!
Only the feeling is becoming more frequent and stronger as time goes on and its becoming more than just an annoying distraction. I have had plenty of sleep and it is not like that feeling of lack of sleep but different. I have taken pills so it is not withdrawal that has crept up on me unnoticed.
This is kind of the thing I have to deal with every single day only my body presents my mind with new tricks and new obstacles.
I really HATE doing nothing I really do. I hate staying in the house and I know my house is pretty small but I honestly do not know if I ended up in a house four times the size a year from now and possessed a big garden and a greenhouse I really could not tell you at all if this would change!
My mind wants to stay active and you could claim that I am hyperactive to a degree...
Only many parts of my body, including even my head at the moment, are the exact opposite. Different parts bitch and groan in different ways entirely and with differing frequencies as well as different levels of bitching and groaning.
Only of late this is now being accompanied by a lethargic and light headedness that feels as if I am intoxicated to just beyond the point when you start regretting it!
Intoxication is exactly they way to describe it. As if I had taken to much drugs, had a drug administered without my knowledge and possibly my mind is thinking to when I was stuck in the loo and the force of pressure that my Vagus Nerve experienced that forced my blood pressure to drop, cold sweats and a feeling of overheating and then heart attack and breathlessness came over me before passing out. I did actually mention this in brief to Doctor Mort yesterday and I mentioned the Vagus Nerve and I think he laughed if I recall correctly. A look of surprise that I knew about the Vagus Nerve and that I had passed out. I did actually say that I wonder if my Hiatus Hernia is pressing on it at all and why I have these dizzy and lethargic periods?!
In fact I had spent 30 minutes wondering whether to just go out, which I have not done all day and also waiting for this darned program to install, or post about it just so that I have this on record, so to speak.
I decided on the latter, always good to have it on record but that when I get days like this sitting in front of my laptop screen only makes it worse.
I am LOSING on the SWING, I am LOSING on the ROUNDABOUTS!
Sorry that was a line sung by Fish when he was with Marillion, lol. Just popped into my head and thought it apt for the points I have often tried to get across?!
As the Charcot Marie Tooth listed Fatigue as one of its many symptoms I experience I was then pleased to finally have an answer tot that...
When you have a lot of things going wrong with you and only have 5% of the answers it is annoying. I am sure there are people that have not had a proper diagnosis to just one or two things for many years that can tell you the same. If the read this and the rest of the blog and realise that this amounts to a dozen or more going back up to twenty years I am sure they would do a double take and re-read the post just to make sure they had not read something wrong, lol.
Yes it is not nice and hence why periods of me being funny, witty and comical and can interspersed with ire and anger due to what I have to deal with while doing chores and errands I am finding it harder to do all the time.
This is probably one reason am an so charged up over things as well as passionate about things I type and post about. Why I get outraged at greed by so many out there when it is obvious these people do not know what suffering is.
This is where their downfall lies in all honesty as those that do suffer and have now been repeatedly and savagely kicked in the nether regions by the government will come out of corner like that of a caged animals gnashing and snarling as they come.
This is why I like to let loose on here when I do feel enraged at things. To show that not only am I human but what it will be like for people with lives of suffering and pain. Especially those who have had no help from no one while the ravishing wolves bark at your door.
Bark enough and what will emerge is something that would make a Polar Bear blush!!
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