NEVER THE PAINS SHALL MEET

I have, if you have not read this bit by now, an ongoing personal battle.

In fact it is true to say that I have several ongoing personal battles.

I have a couple of health conditions, possibly several, that render me into world of disabled people and more details about this will be forthcoming throughout this year, 2016.

First and foremost is Fibromyalgia and of the 200 odd possible symptoms I have around 120 odd that could be attributed to this condition. It is not a nice condition. Not in my case. The combinations of symptoms from those 200 are, as you could imagine, endless.

Do not think 'pain' when you read symptom. A symptom is what it states.

However as well as the obvious pain symptoms others can fall into other categories just as bad if not worse than the ones within the pain category.

One category that should be obvious is feeling ill.

One other is embarrassing.

Another one is bloody annoying and very distracting and then there are the mild ones.

I experience half a dozen pains across both my feet and the same pain in each ankle, calf muscle, both knees, hip, lumbar, thoracic and neck region along with shoulder. That is sixteen pains straight off the bat. I am working with them, around them and battling to find solutions all the time. I do not get a great deal of help.

Moving into the illness category, that I am to focus on for this post, I have three symptoms that include nausea. One of these I realised recently was occurring in the late afternoons and was linked to not eating enough throughout the day. In other words worse when I had not eaten anything at all.

There are two others and I have covered both of these many times but I do not think I have covered them together.

One is literally feeling sick to the point of throwing up but without any dizzy sensations at all. Quite weird. This was initially linked by the NHS to Oesophagitis, Grade C. Though many years later one honest GP pointed out that the Lansoprazole medication I took for it was only supposed to be taken until the Oesophagus healed up and not anywhere near the 12 years I had been taking it. I pointed out that stopping the pills would result in me having the bad heartburn I also get with it.

Another symptom I get, which I do not think I initially linked to my Fibromyalgia, is that of motion sickness. I have had this fro a child but only ever occurred when I wa the passenger and if I never ept my eyes on the road.

A few years back that started to change.

I started to get occasions when the motion sickness would just appear even while watching the road while showing an extreme polar opposite to a few times when I simply would not get affected at all. I could even take my eyes off the road on some occasions and still not become affected.

Around a year or so back I would even get this bad motion sickness without even travelling in any kind of moving vehicle whatsoever! Now that was worrying.

There often odd symptoms I have that I have often worried might start occurring at the same time that was extremely worrying and had felt lucky that they had not.

Two days ago this changed.

I had started taking Metaclopramide many months ago and two days back a friend was driving down to Gravesend in Kent to drop off his son at his girlfriends house. I decided to go with him. I was OK for most of the journey going there and had taken a pill. Before I left I had the feeling of throwing up, always accompanied with coughing, that I mentioned that seems to be brought on by any trapped air within my stomach. So I rarely get trapped wind pain as the vomiting comes on long before this happens these days. On the way back from Kent I started to get the motion sickness and by the time we got to Waltham Abbey it was bad. I was also getting the vomiting feeling too and  this was the very first time that these two things had both occurred together. Really the only time the motion sickness will then pass completely would be several hours after stopping being in a moving vehicle and often only after a night's sleep. Though not every single time but mostly.

Worrying.

Getting to me also is the fact that my back pain has gone from something that occurs a few times a month to a few times a week and for a large number of month now an every single day thing!

I race and battle to find solutions to these things while battling to remember to bring them up with those I should do because of one other symptom that causes temporary short term memory loss. Do not even get me started.

So two days ago the two most obvious symptoms to do with feeling ill both occurred simultaneously for the very first time.

I can honestly state that I have lost count of the number of times when I have asked myself how our own bodies can be so effing cruel to us and why on Earth we would evolve bodies that can cause such an array of symptoms with each one driving you beyond the point of distraction to the edge on insanity on occasion? How on Earth so many things can occur within one individual is beyond me and how it has gone unnoticed, disregarded and ignored by the mass populaces for so long is even more staggering. Head shakingly staggering considering the number of so called scientists that have existed for the last few hundred years plus.

Te funny thing is about this occurring now is that I had thought that a couple of months before Christmas, 2015, I would be in a position to actively pursue solutions in a completely new and NHS-less way. I have not and I do not know why just yet and now one of my fears has actually come to light.

The NHS have previously first ignored, fobbed off, wrongly diagnosed, diagnosed but not divulged and lied about my symptoms. Oddly I was asked recently if the lies were simply them getting it wrong? Well apart from the fact that would mean almost every health professional I had ever met on the NHS being an incompetent twat, around three dozen or more, no. Not when one admitted falsifying an ultrasound (on tape and on here) and another admitting that they do under orders from high up in the NHS, definitely no! I would not need the times when things were admitted to me to now that they had been lying. I simply cannot state how long for beyond around 18 months.

As for the things promised to me that then never materialise the list is endless and goes back twenty years. Oddly each and every Doctor has not considered either the consequences nor even the possibility that I might spot this and might do something about it!

Even more bizarre is the fact that they never stopped to consider of the NHS would hold their hands up if a patient either realised the truth or caught them red handed, blatantly in the act?

These are supposed to be educated and intelligent people? Each one I have met also act as if a medical Doctorate or degree trumps all other scientific degrees and Doctorates on the planet! They do this even when I point out that I was offered a Doctorate, I stupidly turned down, that involved Computer Science creating a simulation to train surgeons on how to perform keyhole surgery, so was in the world of medicine and surgery. In other words you have to be fully educated in BOTH fields, or at least will be by the end of the project.

I tell them this and it gets forgotten.

Maybe I should take my Degree in with me when I first go on a GP Surgery's register because maybe they think I am lying? Lol!

I was offered the Doctorate by Peter Pasmore, my graphics lecturer, at Middlesex University back in 2000 because my thesis was a computer system that stored data on the animal kingdom, of which I am also an expert and have several blogs about. Oops. I did state from the outset that everything I did was connected and part of a bigger plan?! Lol. Which incidentally got interest from several zoos and museums both here in the UK and overseas including the USA.

http://repsamphibsfish.blogspot.co.uk/ MINE!

http://understandingtropicalorchids.blogspot.co.uk/ MINE!

http://britishwildliferare.blogspot.co.uk/ MINE!

http://myastronomyastrophysics.blogspot.co.uk/ MINE

All backed up with my YouTube channel and I also have several other blogs covering other topics to boot! Oh dear!

I already have other combinations that have gone on for years but have been worried for bloody years that these combinations might, over time, get other things occurring with them.

It is hard to imagine how unbearable things would be become with the increasing frequencies of symptoms overlapping in these ways.

So you can see that things are something of a battle. No. a series of battles and I try to work hard towards something while trying, all at the same time, to uncover the truth about corruption and help other people who are victims?

Things do not always go according to plan and when they do not II have to ... improvise ... a lot!

Through all the negative sources and naysayers into the ring and you might just start to get the idea that things are not an easy or a free ride?

I often have to change direction and plan things differently. I suddenly found myself with a gaping hole of several months right through winter, not good, that I had to fill. I am also in need of a new high powered zoom camera preferably before the Spring arrives so I can photograph and film animals.

The fact that my getting around is extremely limited due to the pains, motion sickness and embarrassing symptoms along with a lack of a car is a major pain in the butt!

Once again this should have all changed a couple of months before Christmas and it did not and there were several posts pointing this this up and coming big change. A change that I decided would take place in mid February at the very latest, though I still do not know the reasons why there is a date, or two in fact, in mid February that are both constants and would strongly hint to things changing at that time.

Both are birthdays!

For the time being and looking more and more likely to be the case for the rest of 2016 I have to keep trundling on. At least for another 18 months and then...who knows?

A NAUSEATING UPDATE

Well not looking good.

Woke up around 3.30am and felt the nausea from the get go! Damned annoying!

Was due to visit a friend and as I opened my front door to leave it was raining. Great! Then I wondered if the low air pressure had some link to this damned nausea. I seem to recall it being heavy cloud the last few times this damned nausea occurred. Might just be coincidence.

As it has done each time it has occurred it persisted all day and was a bit iffy at times and I had the urge to vomit again. Last night I started rubbing heavily into my neck and I remembered a few times some months ago when I woke up digging my fist into my left neck. I seemed to be leaning heavily to really dig in deep to something. When I woke up fully I thought I was dreaming doing that?

Some days or weeks later, I do not recall, I woke up doing the same thing and just thought I was dreaming again. It was a little like the Twitcher devices, if I remember their name correctly, they use on a horses top lip. Like a wooden vice that you tighten which looks barbaric when watching one being used but presses on some gland that releases something that calms the horse. I remember have this odd nice feeling as I was digging my hand into my neck and thought it was some memory about a thoroughbred/appaloosa cross horse I used to care for.

One morning I woke up quicker and found I did have my left hand on the left side of my neck and was indeed leaning heavily into my hand so that it pressed into some tender region within my neck.

Whether this has anything to do with the nausea or not I do not know. It is not a million miles away from ground zero to the kink in the central nervous system that causes the Fibromyalgia Syndrome I have and all its many odd symptoms. As, of course, the nausea is within this region then it all starts to look a but suspect.

But syndromes are called 'syndromes' for a reason. They are not fully understood so it may not be listed anywhere that there is a link but does not mean to say it definitely is not linked.

Now it is 72 hours, from Monday morning but for some reason I thought it was Thursday this morning and not Wednesday. Yeah I get that a lot.

So tomorrow is squeaky-bum time, Friday the look of defeat time and then wishing to God I had moved to Sweden a few years back! Lol!

Something else I was going to type, forgot it, remembered it again and then forgot ... oooh I remember ... when I get the nausea I cannot even look at my computer monitor and even a TV screen without feeling ill!

Oh and Fallout 4, a PC game, is out on the 10th November and I will be so pissed off if I still have this nausea when that is released! Not looking good as I have had it for weeks already now!

Just had a phone-call from my friend to say I left something at his place too! Yeah I do that a lot too.

In fact my record number of returns to my house because I have forgotten something, after leaving to head somewhere, is four. I often wonder when I will break that record and it is damned frustrating when I do it. Two returns are quite common.

I am amazed of late that I have kept to all my appointments ... umm though I keep missing my Fibromyalgia Support Group meetings, lol.

SWAYING THIS WAY AND STOP

I am somewhat nauseous tonight.

This is ... ANNOYING!

Was playing the game that dues tens to make me nauseous at the tunes when I am fat mitre prone to it than normal ... unfortunately when this is realised ... it's to late!

However I do not want nor have mentioned this nausea each time that I have had it, unless distracting, distressing and affecting my ... endeavours. There are other times and other reasons I would want to mention it too! This is one of those times!

You see yesterday I was playing that same game for many, many hours and ... NOTHING! NADA! ZIP! ZILCH!

It was weird after having so much trouble in recent days with it, since the new monitor and the new position it is on and that I sit looking at it!

I have plans to get the original mount for this monitor which I am certain will stop this as I played a game using the same game engine on my laptop and used a different position, huh just my luck!

The monitor is to my left instead on my right as it was before. It is also higher up than my eyes whereas before it was much lower. It is also 7 inches bigger and sits closer to me by about a foot. The original arm I planned on getting would bring the monitor further over to the right by several inches and will be able to be lowered by about 8 to 12 inches!

I have considered a slight upheaval in changing the position of the take it is attached to over to the right but this still leaves me with the higher position.

I do forget to shift my position when seated to stop the nausea as well add constantly furthering to take the Domperidone and Prochlorperazine, though I have had no signs that either if these do anything and plenty that they do nothing!

Still I have two more things on the way right now and in less than two weeks the project will be completed more or less.

I have one hard drive to get, the mirror image one can be bought much later, a Blu-Ray writer possibly a graphics card but this could be much later to?

That just leaves this other arm!

THE TWO PRONGED ASSAULT

I am not in a good mood ... oh you could tell? Lol!

I have had this good damn nauseating feeling that had been dogging me for days and it's more often there than not lately.

I have tried two pills of the Domperidone, two pills of the Prochlorperezine, I think they were called, and I have even tried both at the same time with two of each! Nothing, Nada, zip, zilch!

It really is getting me down!

Anything I do that can bring it on dies in mere moments and even seconds. I started playing a game and after several grabs of my neck in the space of five minutes I literally gave up and could not even look at my desktop screen afterwards!

I decided to get up and do something I completely forgot about because I felt I was going to throw up, despite having only had two slices of toast. I tried to them just lie down but befit I could the feeling was pissing me of so I headed for the toilet and such two fingers down my throat several times but could not income vomiting to the point of bringing anything up.

I had hood to force something that either have the feeling finally go afterwards, though with my luck ...

I have resorted to this from time to time despite not mentioning it on here, our at least I do not think I have?

The thing with this blog is that I do miss things out. I have missed out a lot of things which I do not really worry about at all.

Some could be forgiven for thinking 'how in the hell can their be things missed out with everything that has been posted about in two years?! The answer is ... a lot. A hell of a lot!

For instance despite how much I posted in the early days I did not post anywhere near as much as I sent to the tabloids and TV News media! Possibly even as much as 50% was left out and with many I had intended to go through things and post much more but fugues I had posted more than enough. To get some peoples attention at least and I dare say that there are tens of thousands of people that have been on here the last three months have no idea to the mountain of documents and recordings I posted up in the first two or the months?!

So incomplete.

Then there is the reason that not only was it enough but I would continue to set things up over the next couple of years so I would get more ... a lot more.

Now here is where those that have access to these recordings of audio, video and mountains of documents on here are privy to something the news media and tabloids never were. That would let people to their own realisations I already knew and namely asking a series of questions starting with the word 'why'.

Asking the way there were many things I intended to post but did not, forgotten mostly due to Fibromyalgia, other distractions going on our likely both or could not be bothered then forgot.

So incomplete then.

But that is how I wanted it really but it worked out better than I thought and have two accounts with the media posting and the blog posting with both incomplete.

Both together are indeed incomplete and will never have a full account performed by myself. If ever done this would have to be undertaken by someone else, whether this be an extremely focused and driven individual or some large group.

Then there is the issue of trust and should go without saying that there should be some ... caveats before this could occur. This really should be in the minds of some right now, if not later in the year followed by an approach someone after. If it ever reaches that ... no it will reach that just could be later than I think. Depends how narrow minded some week stubbornly remain? Or perhaps when the story outweighs any ... fringe benefits had up until that point.

So I sit here typing, no sliding my stylus to and fro bow feeling sick while giving my fingers sideways glances wondering if ... no when this will occur. However this will likely be between to he post, pardon the pun, by other things also rapidly approaching the time they should start to occur?

Not the thing you might think either, which still provides details of a much larger corruption scandal by the biggest name there is in the world they will never survive. No not that as it was obvious before to long that this is definitely FUBAR! I just had to show this to be the same FUBAR I see to everyone else. Already in the dog house and a rapidly growing number if people who distrust and even hate them they don't care.

Because like a lot of idiots they think that acquiring a massive amount of cash is all you need. They think that desire showing disrespect to their customers and user base this has no effect on them. What they fail to realise with all their intelligence is that all this does is provide a slow and certain death.

Because as people see the truth the now that need to see the longer it takes. Here is where they are extremely naive and stupid but think themselves so not.

They also miss the fact that with so many people naively using them and not knowing the mitre there are then the longer it takes.

Important point number three missed is that the longer it takes then the longer they are seen to have performed their evil acts when it reached a tipping point!

Fortunately there simply is no way around this ... except to wait until the population of the planet had doubled then it takes twice add king to get around. The outcome is the same though.

In fact I do have this interesting theory that the longer it takes and the longer it is realised en masse that they have been at it I think the demise will turn out to be far worse in severity for the longer the duration they have been at it?

But it's only another one of my mass theories, what do I know?

After all I am never right, no that's not right ... I am hardly ever right ... no, wait a minute?!

Now if you will excuse me I have to go and stick two fingers up!

EDIT:
This really needs to be placed in my Fibromyalgia Two Zero Two post but is kind of the epilogue, lol, to this post too.

It turns out I was reminded of a couple of things I forgot to include in my Fibromyalgia report, but I am sure I would have mentioned them in here in the past.

I found out what at least was making the feeling sick staying stubbornly on awful levels as well as what was making me want to vomit!

The former was lack of food and I just do not get hungry sometimes and also forget to eat.

The other one is air and this of faint dispositions stop reading now ...

a second and determined go with the two pronged assault resulted in vomiting ... AIR!

IF IT IS NOT ONE THING

I have absolutely no idea what is wrong with me today?!

I did the things I needed to do yesterday, did not sleep particularly well arose this morning and went to retrieve some things from my friends store that I forgot to acquire yesterday. After about an hour I started feeling nauseous so I left and went to the library.

After awhile I was feeling OK and then I went home. It had turned warm and I was soaked with sweat when I got in the house. I pulled out a table I want to get readyt for something next week and put on my laptop to play a game. While playing I started feeling nauseous again and it started to become distracting. DIstracting to the point that I kept rolling my head and neck around listening to the familiar crunching in my neck. AFter awhile ot just got worse and I started to feel cold instead of hot while still sweating.

I tried to rest my head and turned off the game and let my head fall back to the settee and rest my neck but the nausea and cold sweat has persisted. I cannot really put an illness to it other than maybe food poisining.

The one thing about Fibromyalgia, I am not sure if this is linked to it, is that there are a number of things that are just fecking horrible and when you are bad with it you think 'no this is the worst of the symptoms!' until you get another particular thing and then think the same with that and so on.

I have taken more Tramadol than normal the last 12 hours but still well within the maximum dosages for the period and so its not that.

The temperature outside got quite hot and the sun was on my head and neck while walking home, or limping I should say, so not sure of I have heat stroke?

Cannot remember if I have eaten so working my way through a packet of Cherry Tomatoes which were really meant to go with cheese in sandwiches, lol.

My taste buds are off kilter too, I know that much.

Thought of something to post about on here on the way home and cannot remember what it was now either!

Boy I feel like absolute crap and I hope to God this is not another bloody symptom of Fibromyalgia ot go with all the others?! Over the last twenty years I do sem to have slowly acquired a new symptom every few years with almost all of them down to FMS. I have often got nausea with it but not quite this bad and indeed nausea to thwe point of blacking out is what I often get but this is nausea to the point of feeling sick and wanting to throw up instead which for me is worse as I hate feeling sick.

Think far too much to drink to the point of being dizzy and going to pop at any point, chuck in a cold sweat and your as near as dammit!

Oooh now I remember I managed to almost walk past my GP Surgery and forget to go in to make an appointment ... well almost! I have now made that appointment and I have a little plan for when I attend that appointment.

This is going to be, quite bizarrely an exact re-run of what happened at my last GP over the lies about the ultrasound test results. The GP there, John Gubbay, was given the choice of lkistening to the evidence which as a Doctor and carere/healer to his patients he should have listened to. He chose most unwisely.

Now let us see how this GP chooses to side?

THERE IS MY MATE HUGGGGHIEEEE

Yeah well if you did not get the title, I am having that sickness, nauseous and out of it feeling I always get but am always praying I don't after getting no sleep at all!

Than the lord for drugs! Lol! Well I have two types of drugs here with Domperidone, which I think is used for sea sickness, and another one called... ummm....Lol called something brand wise starting with 'S' like Stemsil?! Darn it! Cannot find an empty pack and the pills are in my waistcoat which is downstairs and I cannot be motivated to go and retrieve them, until I want another tea that is!

I have mentioned this other drug previously and they are the drug that my last GP stated did not exist and that the only anti vomiting oil was Domperidone. I hope that from that you can take it that I was bit given them by him and instead the hospital and were provided to be by Chase Farm Hospital after being taken up the by someone! Oh it was Harry, as in Dirty Harry which he would Rio around with laughter if he read this! It was an I'd nickname for him.

Oddly Harry has a fair few stories to tell regarding local councils and schools and I would dearly love to cover them on here. But without permission I cannot do that whether it be friends, family or people I have only just met.

It has become so ingrained into the very fibre of everyone's psyche that they can rant off about it but offer to go public on it and get the chance to get help and they suddenly become wary of upsetting the applecart.

It is a shame because what had been done to them by their own authorities had been nothing short of appalling and I do feel bad for them! They have been deserted by public organisations, tricked, lied to and even setup by the very authorities granted powers to help the public and do the opposite.

It is also the case that children have suffered over this too and all of them, bit just one or two, in a most horrific fashion.

Whenever he has shown if it I have always stated how infuriated I get knowing that they are sucking the taxes dry and therefore the country.

It is quite alarming really because not only do their authorities make five that I know of to pull this crap with one of mine being 250 miles north west of here but for several years now I have been told by countless people that there councils and public organisations are the same?! I would not even like to hazard a guess at how many different local councils have been complained about to be but certainly around a dozen at least?!

After awhile when you have heard enough horror stories that your suspicions then start to appear to be pretty close to the truth? That is that you would be hard pressed to find a local council, certainly in England, that someone did not have a horror story about?!

Yup, alarming and despite what I used to tell a solicitor I used to be a Personal Assistant to about Local Councils it had long since proved far worse then even I had imagined!

I...probably wandered off subject there? Just typing this out and trying to not bid off while trying to think of somewhere I can head to at this very easy hour? Hour and half before friends open up but I won't be much fun like this, Lol. Bloody Irwin Mitchell Solicitors have just aired an advert on Planet Rock Radio?! Well I suppose when you only take on the slam dunks while tossing all else to the gutter you will make enough cash to advertise on radio and TV, Lol.

Yup back on topic, err which one? Yup trying to be comical now! Yes I do not think the library is open early? Shame! But then I would privacy end up slumped in the corner?! Still it would be nice to actually go in that building without finding every single seat, desk and spot taken up?! I noticed people plugging their laptops into the wall sockets too last time and did not realise that the library gives away free electric? 

Probably why their selection of books is utterly appalling and been like that since I moved here 7 years ago?! Lol!

Still if you visited three around mid afternoon with your laptop, tablet, phone you city's run them all week on the councils electricity bill?! Lol.

Seriously though I can never figure out why there are so many prior in the place. I mean I only go in the rarely and it is because of that reason if it being full that I avoid it. Annoying for me as it would make a good place to go and get done work done one or twice a week. But you go in and up the stairs and walk an entire circuit and find all place are taken every time! When your having your feet hurting, pain in the groin and knee too it's one of the things that makes you want to scream at everyone and trek them to f... Go away! Lol.

Most other places would involve spending money to hang about in and still be packed anyway!

Hmm I often think how it would be cool to be a member of a club or some sort of get together once or twice a week. A club involving something I am interested in and meeting like mine people. Hmm I did hear that there was an Aquarist Society in Enfield recently which I did not know about.

Oh and now I am rambling! Lol.

I DON'T LIKE SUNDAYS

I still do not feel good.

The weather is absolutely atrocious.

My plans for tidying up my extremely messy home have been slowly heading south for the winter!

I do not know why I still feel nauseous to the point of feeling sick.

I keep doing little things and then stopping and it is not going anywhere very fast. I have things to do on several of my blogs too including the recordings from Chase Farm Hospital oh and shock of shocks a couple of videos too. Oops no four videos and am behind at getting pictures up too! Oh and there is a horrid smell in my kitchen which is the combination of something becoming ever more unspeakable I have now dealt with combined with that damned washing machine what leaks water inside it which goes stagnant. Oh that is because I had to open it.

Well at least I have a wading machine full of clothes on the go at long last!! Lets hope I am still conscious and capable when it's done?!

In the meantime I am glancing over at my laptop and trying to recall what devices I now need and where they are in my house.

Still I am listening to a Best of, of Creedence Clearwater Revival I got in Sainsbury's a couple days back. Oh yeah I want to sort out some music on my Sony Walkman too!

Boy I hope I shake this feeling off and oh for the love of GOD I wish it would stop raining long enough so I can start using my bike again?!

Oh God, the bike! Something else that is old and needs replacing! I might make an active attempt to try and find a second hand one that I can get to?! Trouble with me doing that is some twats will just not say it how it is and I do so hate that. But this had been made worse over the years because it's a fecking pain in the arse, more accurately a pain everywhere EXCEPT my arse, getting anywhere!!

Oh yes that reminds me, I have a Freedom Pass to apply for and have to email the DWP ripping crap out of them for not sending me a PIPS form!!

Happy Days.

SICK OF SICKLY SICKNESS FEELINGS

When I was a kid and right up to adulthood if there was one thing I hatred it was being sick.

If there was one thing that kids did that I did not it was spinning on the spot to make yourself feel queasy, not me.

Roundabouts in children's playgrounds and local parks were something I never went anywhere near. In fact I remember getting on a ride at a fairground with a couple of cousins on the seat in front and it was horrid and terrifying and I wanted to jump off, despite being 12 feet in the air.

So to think these days I feel sick and am sick a hell of a lot is pretty much a nightmare for me fairly often.

That is how it is right now and I have a damned headache too boot! I am fighting off the urge to go running to the toilet to vomit everything up...

Oh dear..

I'M SO DIZZY MY HEAD IS SPINNNING!!

OK nicked that line from a CD single I had years ago...err was that comedian guy whose name escapes me as my head really is spinning!

I had a friend arrive today and I opened the door quickly and I spun around and bent over to do something and then came up at an acute angle and as I did my head SPAN like a top and I nearly went OVER and dropped to the ground!

Was the same chap that too me to A&E last Friday. He asked me how the funeral went for our friend and I then had to explain that I could not go due to these dizzy spells. Though I did state and will do so here that to refer to them as 'dizzy spells' does not really do them justice and is an understatement!

I had planned on going out to have a chat with the Dentist and book that appointment with the Doctor and maybe just handing in my prescription for the anti dizziness pills, Prochlorperazine 5mg, so that I get some more but no I feel like I am going to be sick at any point and has been like this for an hour so do not want to go out at all?!

Catch 22 if EVER there was one!

Now wondering if I should take a second pill so that I have taken 10mg n the hope that would help enough to go out and hand in this prescription?!

I did do some research on the advertising to nail down a few facts, which I should have done some time ago and spurred into action by the patronizing hired help on that Google AdSense forum. Seems I was right and I have listed a load of details down to keep an eye on and see how it all turns out.

Right I get too embarrassed at going out when I think I am going to vomit for sure. I always have this fear every time I go out and it is a real possibility and happens fairly often. If I g somewhere where a lavatory s nearby and NOT a public one then this is great.

Anyone that thinks there is not a problem with going out when you have this vomiting problem well all I can say is that each time you go into a public lavatory and for the next year then get down on your KNEES in each one?!

Then after a year then think that I would have done that, that many times in the course or two to four weeks?!

Another one is travel across London say about 10 miles with NO CAR and do that without standing still?!

Or try carrying an Umbrella, Walking Stick AND shopping?! LOL.

Then imagine while doing all this you have bolts of pain in your foot arches, sore stone like pain in your left foot, stinging and/or aching in your groin and sharp or intense pain in your back, shoulder and neck?! Oh and the painful clicking i your heels when descending stairs too! LOL. In summer pain in knees when on foot caused by use of a mountain bike.

Go one I dare you?!?!?!

LMFAO!!

A DAY OUT AT ACCIDENT & EMERGENCY

Well that is another day lost and no answers!

I did not feel good at all this morning and feel like crap right now!

My friend turned up and after he saw me an hour into his stay he insisted he took me to hospital which I pretty much wanted to do anyway.

My tooth and gums are playing up to and were this morning also.

After a rude nurse initially saw me, now completely out of it and had spent an hour trying to stay conscious so that I could hear my name being called I spent another hour fighting to stay conscious while feeling bad.

My friend returned to the hospital, to my surprise and I was able to stay alert much better than before and the I was seen and checked over and felt alot better.

Series of tests and listening to lungs and then a heart trace was performed, look in my ears and all, they tell me, was normal.

They then tell me they are going to give me tablets to stop me feeling dizzy which also turn out to treat for vomiting and ...wait for it ...Anxiety Disorder?!

Only some months ago when I asked my GP if there were any other drugs to help with the dizzyness and vomiting he said no only the Domperidone.

Another GP who has LIED and bare-faced lied.

I am also somewhat certain that I had recorded him when he said that so that must be on here somewhere?!

A loo on Wikipedia shows that there are not one or even TWO but SEVERAL drugs for vomiting and dizzyness.

I have copy and pasted an excerpt from Wikipedia here and you can clearly see it states that...

" It is critical for the physician to find out what type of dizziness the patient has"

" Most patients will be prescribed anti-dizziness medications such as Antivert (meclizine), Valium (diazepam), Xanax, Phenergan, or Compazine"

Both the above can be found at ...

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Labyrinthitis

Spinning dizzyness can be Vertigo?! Great!!

Or Ménière's disease, also causing Vertigo.

Of course and naturally so and after what the Neurologist said I am wondering of there is something here that us behind everything instead of Charcot Marie Tooth?!

Well I was told several times that all my ailments could not possibly be linked, but after no less than TWO, possibly MORE, GPs have been caught lying to me and one taking my private X-Rays and stating there were no other ant dizzy-vomit pills other than Domperidone (used for travel sickness) but actually turns out there are TEN or more I just cannot trust anything any Doctor, Nurse or Specialist either in the NHS, or otherwise, what anyone says any more!!!

The pills given to me are Prochlorperazine 5mg tablets.


I am now unable to deal with the tooth problem as I spent all day in Chase Farm Hospital's A & E Department which did not seem a problem around 3pm but now all my teeth are aching and I feel so fecking ill that I am scared to take even one single solitary pain killer!

Here is a scan of the prescription for the Prochlorperazine pills and if you think that is great wait until the next POST!!