The mind is a strange beast and plays
the most awful tricks on you with the intention of bizarrely causing
self harm to one#s heart and soul.
After having a series of dreams
consisting of one old flame, one unknown flame I have now had yet
another one consisting of a familiar face once again but of more
recent times. In fact it gets somewhat more intriguing as this face
was not only more recent, well a couple of years back, but someone
that was NOT an old flame but I became aware that she had a soft spot
for me.
I have not seen much of her in several
years instead of a very brief interlude where we simply said hello to
each other. I never see her at all around town and that time that I
did see her was probably the first time in around three years?!
But just last night I had this dream
with the most intense feelings of all and it was she that was the
object of my all consuming feelings of love. There was even brushes,
literally, of intimacy too that would entwine the heightened feeling
of arousal with those of intense and burning love that continued
apace until I awoke with my heart racing like that of a sprinting
stallion and other bodily functions going completely haywire!
My face must have been quite the
picture with the frowning and shock along with surprise that must
have been plain to see!
I had little time to ponder the latest
dream nor have I at the time of typing as I had to leave the house to
help a friend in his store for a couple of hours while he was off
sorting out someone's pond. Now that I think about it, it IS quite
puzzling as I very rarely have dreams like this and maybe the odd one
every few years. This has gone quite mad of late and I know not why
as there has been no love interest in my life and not even that of a
passing interest. The spiritualist in me wonders whether I am picking
up on something about to happen to me while the scientist side tells
me that it is nothing. But then I remind myself of my age old theory
of the Universe infinitely repeating itself with tiny alterations and
that the seeing of the future is possible, and ONLY SO, if we are
receiving flash images or feelings of the past?!
God I do hope it is the latter and that
these feelings that have been re-awoken in my dreams are to become
more the norm in the not too distant future?! Ooooooooooooh BOY!
Well in recent years I have often
wondered if it was at all possible for me to ever love again as it
has been that long since I last experienced the feeling! But these
recent weeks have shown me without a doubt that not only am I capable
of still feeling love but that the feelings I experienced are so
strong that it felt like electricity coursing through my veins and
fibers and brought about a feeling so wondrous in nature that I was
heart-broken that it turned out to be merely a dream.
Later in the morning there was a woman
in the store I had not seen before. I was chatting about something
and she turned and looked at me. When dealing with her she looked at
me several times too. As she was leaving she showed in interest in
the Fire Salamanders and when she left I realized that as she was
speaking tom someone else she had kept glancing at me.
Now this has happened before to the
point whereby my friends and people in the store at the time were
convinced I would be dating in no time but nothing actually developed
from it, much to everyone's shock. That crossed my mind of what had
gone on previously and that maybe the dreams WERE a sign but then
thought NO!!
Maybe in time it will show itself to be
whatever it is? Most likely is that they will just cease to occur and
it will be nothing more than my mind and body pining for feelings
absent for so very long. I am sure the devoted hoards of
spiritualists will read much more into it while more matter of fact
individuals will see nothing much in it at all.
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