ARE YOU THE DOCTOR?

You are not a Doctor?

What DOES that mean? Why do people say this line to you when they do not agree with you? Are they aware of how daft they sound? The line does not mean anything at all and does not give a releveant explanation or indeed argument. But every now and then this is said to me and it was so today.

Today I had two conversations with two very different people. One had, had his own troubles himself and had bared witness to the horrors that go on which have ended up taking lives whereby the Masters do not bat an eyelid.

I told the gentleman in the second conversation about my blog and what I had done and he said “be careful, they will try to label you as all kinds of things to protect themsleves and make people doubt you! They will make up things like you are a rapist, a paedophile a thief anything to cast doubt upon your personality!” I told him it was too late and that I had been accused of 'POSSIBLE' viloence and he looked puzzled while I shrugged my shoulders.

As for the line stating that I am not a Doctor I was left puzzled and it was the second time he had said this in as many weeks. To be honest the only thing I can take from this is that someone is saying “You are not that intelligent” along with “Your GP is vastly more intelligent” which is stupid because he hardly knows me and he certainly does not know my Doctor.” The first time it was when I mentioned that I had wanted Pregabalin and was the only reason I went in there the last time. He said “the Doctor is not going to give you whatever you ask for?” and I replied that I had NOT specifically asked for it, some people just do not pay attention. I then said that what he gave me was NOT a direct replacement for what I had stopped taking and was a different drug altogether for completely different things.

The funny thing about it was that I had gotten a feeling from him that was rather like someone else I knew and the whole situation is a mirror image of what went on before and will NOT be repeated. HE had mentioned help with his animals and due to my experience and knowledge. But being told your stupid twice made me think...oooh so I am intelligent enough to help you with animals but nothing else then?

I had broken of a previous friendship for the exact same reason and indeed the hatred and loatching to admit that I had bred many amphibians for him led him to tell people that a man called Andy Gray of Manchester University had bred them for him. Except I looked after them and set them up for breeding and I do NOT take advice from others. Added to this Andrew had spent the whole time safely stashed away up in Manchester and never set foot into my old friends house! Three days a week I spent running around looking after a whole heap of animals. Two aquariums, three ponds, Red Eyed Tree Frogs, Flying Tree Frogs, Fire Bellied Toads and various other things.

It was literally like a kick in the teeth and a slap in the face at the same time. In fact I did this and expect nothing in return and got nothing in return and yet when our friendship parted I had produced and left him with over £20,000 worth of amphibians that I had bred and I alone. About a year later he had not repeated his breeding and ended up getting rid of his precious frogs to people I know who told others that they did not want me to find out, for some reason. Lol,

So when it suits people I am good to have around to garner and suck knowledge information and experience of along with my hard labours but when I speak about anything else I am an idiot. The peculiar thing is that I had sudden visions of my old mate a coupe of months back during conversations. Then when he said that twice it was too close to what went before for comfort, lol. I would not mind but he was a customer in a different shop a couple miles away where I was regularly slagged off and which has now closed down, lol.

As far as intelligence goes it kinda goes like this...

My GP has always told me he is not a specialist and has had NO KNOWELDGE in any of the areas of my conditions, whereas I do and ths makes me more intelligent than him, sorry but true. On other subjects, baring in mind I outwitted his plans as well as his sarcasm, I have a whole list I am far more knowledgable in than he would be!

He has gotten things wrong, he has made changes to my drugs he has then forgotten all about, he has cut me off mid-sentence so many times I lose count, which is rude in anyones book. He has also refused to listen to evidence and falsely accused me of things when I was recording him the whole time.

SO exactly whst does the term “Your not a Doctor” REALLY MEAN?! LMAO!

I can only think that lines like this are from people that want me to be wrong but cannot argue or give me one single thing to prove they are right. A cop out. A throw away line so to speak. AS for asking what PILLS to give me...well the GP very rarely decides what pills to give and he has not really given me anything from his own knowledge except the very last one which was the wrong pill and not what he stated it was.

Or what I am trying to say is that your SPECIALISTS, as he always liked to remind me, are the ones that decide on your medications and write to your GP and TELL THEM what t hey should prescribe me. I ended up saying “Err mate, you have seen the news and know that on the BBC there is a story about how there have been over 8,000 complaints to the GMC about their GP in the first 6 months of this year alone?”

I was trying to say that unless you fully understansd the world of medicine then using throw away lines like that will make you look silly.

Also I had started off by speaking today about how I hd gotten refused by a GP for violent behaviour and he said I should not have told them and looked annoyed that I had. But I tried to explain you cannot hise this it will only make you look guilty and you will endf up being kicked off the next register anyway because they will be informed. He said they would not and I then explained what happened at the third one I went into and he said “yeah you told me that” to which I thought well why the fuvck are you saying all this then if you KNOW?! Then I thought well he thinks I am mistaken or lying and I said that I had only found out myself that morning so they had been informed. I then added that she only insisted that I had gone in there as she wanted to hide the fact that they all get informed via computer about these things. In other words NOT explaining what had gone on previous would only go against me.

Some people!

Also when I said that they made no mention of my proof he said, well they are Doctors, they do not have time for all that to which I said “well they DO have personal assitants and secretaries” this was getting boring and I wished I had not opened my mouth but I only did so because and this is the best bit...

THIS HAS ACTUALLY HAPPENED TO HIM AND I ONLY WANTED TO KNOW WHAT WOULD HAPPEN!

His reply, baring in mind he he said “well of course they will” when I said I had been rejected? “Do not worry they will give you a GP in Enfield?!

Errr....WHAT?!

Now to me it was bloody obvious that once a Doctor suggested you were violent and kicked you off there register they would have to report it. It was also obvious to me that this report of my violent nature would then be sent to other GP's in the area to pre-warn them in case I walked in, registered and then bopped one on the nose.

But I am an idiot for trying to register with a GP giving therm my side of the story and providing access to the truth?

Go figure.

Then I thought 'Jesus Christ, I hope the majority that visit my blog and read bits are not this naïve as I would have spent 18 months nearly doing all this and wasted my time?!' LMAO!

But then I thought the best way to get through to people when they do not want to listen is let them read instead at their own pace. I pray I was right, lol.

Hmm maybe I should have asked him if he was aware I had a degree and that I was OFFERED A DOCTORATE and turned it down thinking I was too old?! LMAO! Maybe I should have also told him that had I accepted the offer I would have been working on the systems to train keyhole surgeons?!

I call that taking the High Road, lol.