The wider public and not just in the UK but across Europe and Canada, America and others have been slowing coming to the realisation that things are not right .. in the western world.
Public services like health (NHS), local councils, DWP, Police and many others and even the European Union .. and were talking right across Europe here .. the Armed Forces and therefore the EU Army and many .. many .. others.
The Home Office, Justice Departments and even DEFRA is included and .. the list is very .. very .. long. Whatever it is you have issues with or have been screwed over by or simply have questions about .. it may well be here on on their website somewhere.
Now all these have been accused of or found to have been corrupt or maybe just run extremely badly but what if I told you that they were all run by just one company?
Would you believe me?
Was shown this a long time ago and I posted about it previously but it never gained much traction .. not enough knew me, not enough had realised something was not right in the world and so I was probably just thought of as a tinfoil hat conspiracy theorist?
However today is not only very different I can drive a lot more people to my blogs .. and although forgotten about for a long, long time a story came up.
This story involves some talk from politicians about letting in far more refugees into the UK alone while on the very same day a country seem to be reported by Reuters to have won a contract for ..
Refugee Housing of close to £3 Billion?
Odd as in the UK there have been tens of thousands and very likely hundreds of thousands of suicides becaue of the lack of help, funding and housing.
This has been so bad that it has affected the following three groups just to highlight just how bad it is ..
Children
Disabled People
Armed Forces Veterans
So with those three in mind how could you possibly allow more people in that all need housing and why the hell would you?!
Money and power and not the resident already here is the answer. But they wont tall you that and Sajid Javid is portraying himself as the great humanitarian over this.
Well that company is Serco and that contract they run and as I stated reported by Reuters here ..
Now as I stated I was told this years ago from a lady and I literally thought she was of the conspiracy theorists that belonged in the tinfoil hat category. She urged me to read their 'About Us' page and I did and sure enough .. everything she said was true.
This story popped up on social media and it jogged my memory and I went back to their site .. oddly enough it has changed a little and had to click around for a fair old while before I could get everything I had read about previously.
Now bizarrely I knew about this over 5 years ago and published it and even at the time I was surprised they was boasting about it on their website. I figured someone at some point would see the pitfalls in this and take it all off.
It is still there.
Now would you need a company and a private one at that to run all these services and why the God damn hell would you get a single company to run them all?!
Many have talked about some elitist group or some New World Order and George Soros running things and there most certainly is something.
Now I knew there was something very corrupt and something or someone running everything and that our government in the UK were mere puppets and asked the question repeatedly 'who are the puppeteers?'
I was given Serco by someone that see what I had done and what I was trying to do.
At the other end I was being given all these other theories that included Soros and others .. when all that was left to do was to find a link between your preferred theory/culprit and Serco.
Serco also claims to be British but is American now why would you do that?
In finding the truth and the culprits and exposing them I do not care who they are nor what they are and they are who they are .. I am not going to focus on this group or that group because I have no preference in who it is I wish to be responsible.
This narrows your field of view and will stop you from finding the truth.
If I can one or more of my posts regarding corruption, secret recordings, cover ups or blowing apart CO2 climate change arguments or showing the truth about pole shifts it will please my daughter.
My finances, despite my disabilities, have been frozen and likely because I speak the truth and am only interested in the truth. I have been hounded by thousands on social media and had to battle wars that drew big audiences.
My daughter wants me to move to Wales and I wish to do this but am unable to do this and have been hammering social media hoping that either they will start paying ..
Realising that the increased traffic will be obvious and someone will take up my cause to help us ..
Or someone will take up our cause to help us ..
Or I get hired because of what I can do despite my .. handicaps?
Now are we getting closer to the Puppeteers that have string to all the politicians I, we .. YOU all believe now are puppets?
If your looking for a link in particular that is not here or you just want more trust me .. dig around on their sites as its somewhat .. disjointed these days .. conveniently enough ..
EDIT: I'm an idiot, the DPA or Data Protection Act was brought in to stop three organisations from accessing the databases on individuals on other public services taught to people in computer science Degrees .. if I recall it was ..
In the middle of writing another piece to do with the ongoing situation regarding the Earth's Magnetic Pole Reversal when something pops up on my radar on social media.
Even when I saw the headline I simply could not believe what I was reading and I cannot express just how serious this is, what a massive betrayal has been performed on the British Government for decades there has been and what I have stated for a long, long .. time.
I have maintained that it is absolutely ludicrous. Not just from a displacement issue but a voting issue to from a Conservative Party point of view. Possible voters with conservative values being put on the street only to be replaced by Muslims that are in effect right-wing but will vote in the fucking nut-jobs of Jeremy Corbyn and friends who will help them take over Britain.
Only now living on the street, starving to death, freezing to death and with no access to benefits or health services and angry with the government along come those evil #Devil's minions they call #Muslims to convince them to convert to #Islam and fight for #Jihad?!
The level of fucking stupidity and the absolute anger I have towards the three main parties, those fucking scum Antifa and prats like John McDonnell and toss-pot and yet another traitor like Jeremy Corbyn is off the chain.
I best not say too much about what I would like to do if I had the tools to do it.
That's just sad and too late for everyone involved.
Deaths were going to happen and at an increased rate than ever before in the UK's history outside of the two World Wars. Maybe a few others. Peace Time, yeah that's the phrase they prefer to use in the news media.
If they didn't know this was going to happen then they should all be fired .. and charged .. with incompetence. If they did then they should be charged with murder!
Instead and as is the usual way they stay quiet and feign ignorance until someone dies .. no .. until there is a death that the mainstream media cannot bury then they come out, feigning sorrow, feigning shock and call for things to be done.
After all they can't make it too obvious they are only interested in their careers, can they now?
So the news story below reports on a homeless man being found dead not far from the entrance, 'on doorstep' in headline, of parliament.
Well .. they will all be feigning like there is no tomorrow right now and for the next few days to a few weeks?
Yeah sorry .. I unfortunately predicted stuff like this, starving, freezing, dying, losing parents, killing, crime rates going up and so on, prior to the financial crisis.
Odd then that each time something occurs it always comes as a complete surprise?
The one and only surprise for me is that same one and only reason the death was reported. It was on parliament's doorstep.
To become a sad symbolism for the future of UK politics?! I reckon so.
How many times this has happened to me I have lost count ..
.. technically I am a hair's breadth from it right now and will be for about a month or two at the very outside. Hoping for a miracle in that time. There are two and one that should have happened already but it not for one thing or another.
Receive a load of money, try to build for what little future you have left, ten years I estimate, help others .. end up in this situation?!
So I heard from someone a little fact that was reported that for me highlights just how bad things are getting i this country. It also gives me the chance to point out something that is a common factor in all this that no one points out. Or does not want to point out .. I am not going to point it out. I am simply going to state that it is there, obvious and that no one points it out.
One particular homeless man has been seen huddled under cardboard in a church doorway or curled up under bushes. No matter who this is .. this is bad. But .. someone gets the news media treatment when it turns out to be someone that was of some significance once. or more accurately that some previous fact of the homeless person can be mentioned within the report to bring a stark contrast between then and now.
This man is to be found in Bournemouth, of all places.
He was also the driver of once Princess Diana?!
His name is Mark Roberts.
In the Mirror report he was reported as saying ..
I feel let down by my country. I desperately need help from the authorities, but they don’t seem to care. I sleep rough just yards from the council building. But I don’t feel there’s going to be any help for me any time soon
Just like the Policeman blinded by that Raoul Moat and every other situation whereby someone ends up in the media .. the public services will no doubt admit their was a clerical or administrative error and they will be house, paid, left alone?! Of that I have no doubt.
It is just a shame that every other homeless person, disabled person, single parent and jobless that has been victimised by tricks and lies and suffered badly by the lying public services were not all linked to someone or something .. famous?!
Hmm maybe I should do some work for free for someone or some organisation that is well known?! Oh I turned down that when a bunch of others, around 80, and myself were all asked to work for the NHS for free despite being fucking lied to, in my case, for 13 years plus?!
Had the NHS not lied to me over and over and over again I likely would have accepted the offer .. but not five full working days a week I would not have done!
Oh if that previous fact shocks you about being asked to work for an NHS that lied to me for years and for five days and for no money and you doubt it? Sorry .. but the recordings of that are even on here.
Oh and this was supposed to be a support group for people in pain too. At the end of all three you hear someone talk for ten minutes or so about us considering working for the NHS as a volunteer but that it is five days a week. Yeah .. sorry about that!
SO whenever you see these reports about homeless people and indeed even see them there is common fact that links all of them and no .. it is not that they are mostly male. But it is just as obvious.
This man also suffers from Post Traumatic Stress Disorder but as many of us are now well aware .. mental health issues are not a disability any ore and have not been since long before the financial crisis. A fact I have mentioned several times over the years that points to the fact that the government knew years before it even started that the financial crisis was coming. Even I knew there was something going on that was not being reported about. Meaning all the 'Oh no's' from the House of Commons when the financial crisis started was to fool the public into thinking it was a genuine shock to them? That is a fact in my own head.
I would wager that the number of homeless, people being displaced in properties, has been steadily rising at an ever increasing rate for a number of years and will continue to do so. I have to wonder of this will become exponential at some point? If it has not already?
Terrible times that historians of the future will no doubt have a field day with?
Let's get this one out of the way to start with ..
.. I still have a damned cough. One that only yesterday someone said I should get it looked at and .. well, yeah. It should.
But I've been in hospital the times with this Australian flu and I've been in A GP Surgery twice. Nothing. No offer of a flu jab.
Right now .. I technically have no GP either, which I didn't think about at the time.
The cat that's out of the bag is that I'm currently in London. I have been for several days and my car is back too and currently sort of in the process of registering it to sell it.
It managed to come all the way back to London without so much of a hiccup.
So it would seem my anxiety caused me to panic.
But it didn't do that alone .. it had a lot of help from many different public services, though I loathe to call them that.
Some of the failures were down to, in varying degrees, the NHS for not making me realise what my anxiety would do to me.
Most failures are down to the DWP for taking my disability, or Personal Independent Payments away from me. For lying and going back on an agreement about being self employed, New Enterprise Allowance agreement and payments and Working Tax Credits.
Even if your a dumb arse amoral twat .. you don't agree to something for 13 weeks and then pull the rug from under people. That's not helping people .. that's tricking people by way of lying.
Lastly the blame goes out to Wirral Council, Victim Support and the Family Support people who I very literally have trouble seeing the point of .. at all. Same goes for the Independent Review Officer. I not only was not receiving money from the former mentioned public services I was paying money out because of the latter public services.
I .. loathe calling them public services.
At the end of the day I was trying to do their jobs for them and then because of them .. could not.
Oops .. accidentally published this ..
Umm EDIT!!
I am also back here with a package for my solicitor.
I'm pretty sure I'm supposed to sign some these form too?
Now I have a barrage of other things I need to have sorted out or need advice on before I move forward. I don't even know if moving forward is possible.
It's a mess, I'm not going to lie and all that time I had that damn flu too.
I had to return at the worst possible time but .. well some things just didn't make sense to me.
Oh I could say I heard this and another person said that but it won't make any difference.
I came back in a hurry due to the very real possibility that someone could scratch or destroy my car. I was told to be careful.
I was already bad with anxiety and then at the very last I get some work .. warnings along with anger so I thought it best to just be somewhere else for the time being.
I was accused of some silly stuff too .. but it's hard to just shrug some things off and call others merely 'silly' in the situation I was in. If this had all occurred within a fifty mile radius of London no problems would have occurred. But they didn't and they did.
Since being here I'm being told different things by different people as per usual.
I also had a bizarre tyre failure by one of the top of road tyres you can buy and two tyres losing half their pressure and then bizarrely staying up.
Tyres don't lose pressure and then stay up for weeks.
I'm willing to bet everything I have the same thing happened to the brand new Pirelli tyre that failed?
Then there was that focus and warning I received regarding the exact same car.
If I'd had a cheap £500 or £1,000 car I would have just ignored it all. But I don't have a cheap car!
Since being back here I've had to do two more journeys and I was .. very anxious about it.
I'm worried now that I might have my driver's licence taken away, being declared unfit for driving.
When it's only me that suffers when things are like this.
Plus .. being back here I don't have to drive and I know the transport system .. will outside of those situations were in momentarily don't know where I am out where this bus or road ends up.
I'm far from out of the woods just yet .. though my solicitor is meant to be getting in touch and of and when we meet everything could change. In an instant. Possibly. Hopefully.
I panic about it but every now and then I tell myself that I'm back five days earlier than I originally thought I would be.
Oddly the registering of the car looks as if it will take place the same day it originally was .. Monday.
There's also an element of guilt being here .. well a few elements of guilt. No eight elements of guilt. Well you get the idea.
My afternoons seem to be improving but I just get things done .. though I wonder if there is any point to it all?
This fear of the unknown in my case is torturous and .. stupid, admittedly.
My solicitor said she would be in contact today but wasn't. Had a tough or urgent things going on, as she put it, and would get back to me today.
I didn't think she would. God only knows what's going on over there .. I hope it's nothing serious.
I also pray that eventually they will be able to help .. because the situation is somewhat .. impossible.
Despite being happy with the house I lived in for ten years and the new turf I spent a few weeks laying, trust me it's not a big garden, they were happy. Nor happy enough to forward a reference or my deposit though.
Shame then that I can prove I lived there for ten years! Bad tenants don't live in properties for ten whole years and especially when I can prove that it was my decision to leave.
Some people just don't think things through.
Ooh that's something I missed from my report .. also it's the first of two deposits that are owed to me. Though the second technically isn't owed to me until the end of the tenancy.
I don't have to think about that right now at any rate!
During the period that I typed this my old GP practice called me and .. rather biazarrely kicked me off their register .. lol. Go figure .. could not wait to get rid of me .. despite the fact that I told them I did not know whether I was going back or not and had no GP ..
My medical records are going into limbo .. or some central crap until otherwise called for .. by my solicitor as I pointed out.
Odd ..
Never happened before .. it is like they have been officially sealed and stored away somewhere safe from prying eyes.
Hmm did I not do a
piece recently about some poor homeless people that died of the cold?
Horse gone, stable door closed a little but still ajar.
Never fear though,
Theresa May is doing something about it in or by 2020 so .. we wont
have many more years of people dying in the freezing cold before it
gets sorted.
It wont get sorted
though.
We will wait two whole
years and just like Brexit we will have no idea what will
happen and whatever it will be will probably be .. not good?!
Oh my God .. Members of
Parliament are stating this too?!
It states that there
are 9,000 rough sleepers and 78,000 families in temporary
accommodation?! No mention of families that are homeless. I saw a
documentary about this ten years ago and I cannot see it being any
better today seven years into a financial crisis like nothing we have
seen and getting worse by the week.
They are calling it a
'national crisis' which I thought it ha been for years anyway but ore
interestingly are the accusations of being .. 'unacceptably
complacent' towards the government.
Umm .. they are seeing
what everyone else is seeing with the bastardisation of the welfare
state?
Oh, wait? No .. they
have totally ignored this other then the little stint in the House of
Commons calling for the rollout of Universal Credit to be paused
until fixed.
Not going to happen and
would take several years to fix it .. no .. more than that as it was
conceived about ten years ago.
I saw it as sensible at
the time except .. I could not shake the feeling it was an excuse to
screw the poor and vulnerable and I did not know they would roll all
of the benefits into one, change Disability Living Allowance into
Personal Independent Payments without the word 'Disability' used any
longer and even then .. change their minds yet again and roll that
into Universal Credit too?!
My prediction that they
were going to stealthily remove obligation to help the disabled by
removing the word from the benefit that replaced it as only a first
step turned out to be correct.
Quite how it took
everyone else so long to work this out I have no idea.
Now how the mainstream
news media, who lets face it despite all the accolades awarded, are
crap!
In some areas one in
twenty five are homeless?!
More than 250,000
homeless in the UK and I bet that is not even close. How can you keep
track of that and .. well let u ask the difficult question .. how
many die each year because they are homeless and either because of
exposure or not getting the right medical treatment for medical
conditions?!
I got chatting to someone I know who frequents the DPAC Facebook site and he told me something about Universal Credit crumbling and I asked him what he meant to which I was then given a link.
I told my local council, after it had gone digital online only, that you cannot do this while everything is changing and it wont work and will go wrong.
It turns out that for at least a year it has been going wrong.
Hmm maybe I should add that you should not then just assume that as this has been reported on in the media that it is the one and only thing that has been going wrong. I guarantee that it has been failing in other ways and that is just Universal Credit.
I have already exposed ESA to be getting things wrong and still continuing to do so along with JSA too presently. Now that I think about it I exposed Universal Credit to be doing things wrong too!
For instance UC was designed to replace JSA, unless your a complete idiot and think that they just added three more departments with PIP, ESA and UC for no reason?
So they are still running six departments with UC, JSA. ESA, IB, PIP and DLA and have been for a few years. Except UC has rules that do not line up with JSA and until they do you have to run both.
So it would seem that in certain circumstances UC has not been paying housing which has lead to arrears building up that local councils have had to pay.
Now do you ever remember at least one of the times that I have stated that the one thing you can use is that corrupt and evil organisations never, ever help each other out? Well I rely on that for catching them out and despite the lack of things posted on here for the last couple years which may have disappointed many I am ... umm, still doing it!
It just takes ... longer in the later stages of doing the things that I do. It is just the way things are and quite unavoidable.
So local councils and the DWP have very obviously not conversed with each other about the changes that have been intended? Leading to yet another right royal fuck up.
Why would I not be surprised if I ever see a news report that stated that despite kicking everyone who is jobless along with the disabled in their nether regions that they have instead been haemorrhaging money instead of saving it with their welfare changes?
YOU voted these people in who then take large sums of money from YOUR taxes and this is what you get?! Kicking certain groups of people until it hurts, they bleed or die while they reward themselves?!
I had a previous post titled 'Uncivilised Society' for many reasons and here is one of them.
Well I call it a day of
help but I have this terrible nagging in the back of my mind that
continues to be negative.
Today is the day when
things could change back around in my favour and I hope it will do so
because it could, should, mean the end of the anxiety. Except for
that nagging in the back of my mind I have had the last couple of
weeks.
It could turn out to be
a blessing in the oddest of disguises.
If things go very well
and they would have to go very well, it should give me a massive
boost that should propel me. I am already thinking that if my
feelings get a lot better from a good day then hopefully I will be
back on my drive to get out with my two new cameras to get lots of
content for my other blogs and my YouTube channel.
Except I see raindrops
for the first time in weeks and the weather seem to say we were going
to have a couple of rainy days. Still, I am thankful for the cooler
temperatures as it was only compounding everything. But it might take
a couple of days for the thoughts and feelings to get back to normal
anyway and for the anxiety to go completely, I just do not know.
Of course this is all
replying on the fact that I get the first actual help after asking
for the umpteenth time and over a ten year period.
I have lived here for 9
years and for a couple of years before I lived here I had asked for
help for similar things. I would wager heavily that I have made over
200 approaches for help in thirteen of fourteen years and there have
been times even before that I have requested help.
Going on ratios when it
comes to receiving help from anyone I have had zero percent and when
I have helped myself it has been a poor success rate of probably less
than fifty percent, though in the recent past this has improved
somewhat.
There ave been five
legal challenges against me and every one of them has failed so you
would think that this time I should be full of confidence? But I
wasn't, got struck by the dreaded anxiety and no one was more
surprised than I was.
One way or another I
need to actually do something about this condition of mine because it
is clear it is not going to go away. Mind you that could all become
academic after next month depending on the outcome of the hospital
thing. I might not have long to live or might be epileptic and even
if it turns out to be the latter it could stop my cycling. That would
not be good to live with, let me tell you as I basically survive on
cycling during the warmer months when I cannot travel by bus or
train.
Ooh my first cup of tea
in many days.
Just been looking up
what other causes could be behind my seizure and blackouts and I had
seen various types I had never heard of and a couple of no-epileptic
seizures called PNES and NEAD where the 'NE' stands for
Non-Epileptic.
I do no know about
either of these but my money is on me NOT being epileptic because of
when it is tat they occur. It is always from rising and until lately
where I was just standing upright from leaning forward a few times
have always been from crouching or a sitting position and standing
up. It is not spontaneous or random. Almost always occurs from around
midday until around 5pm for he most concentrated occurrences. Indeed
this is why the GP thought it was Postural Hypotension but they were
so strong and I was on the verge of collapsing so many times that I
had my doubts about that. Though I never thought of looking up if
Postural Hypotension can actually do that ..
Te worry for me is that
the fatigue and lack of drive had been kicking in long before the
trouble with the DWP started brewing. It was something I had planned
to bring up with the GP, despite him having only just become a GP,
when the anxiety struck.
I have my list of 7, or
might be 8 now, reports printed out and stapled together where they
need to be sitting beside me.
I will take all of the
reports with me and see what they are interested in keeping a hold
of. The reports are for a variety of people I will be seeing over the
next four to six weeks. As stated before my memory has been bad a
very long time and slowly getting worse. SO I cannot always think of
things which as probably screwed up a lot of meetings and
appointments if I am honest. It has been amazing how many people do
not take this into account. Including friends.
Damn! I just remembered
my old phone. I forgot to charge it last night, remembered this
morning and then forgot about it again, really that is how it goes,
and after being awake for over 3 hours remembered it about 20 minutes
ago and then forgot again. I just turned to look at where it is meant
to be charging and was not there. So the whole time I have been
typing this out, every ten or twenty minutes or so, I had not
remembered it once. I forgot to charge my new phone too but that
takes only about 20 minutes to charge fully, often less as it is
still always 50% to 90% charged from the day before. Without using,
my old Moto G runs out almost completely, or does in the middle of
the night, and seems to take 2 to 3 hours of charging to get to full.
Still I only need enough battery power for the phone to stay in
standby for around 5 hours. Or in other words, until I get home.
Really it is mainly
because of one phone-call that never seems to come though others
might not have my new number as I may ave forgotten to give everyone
it. Oh like my landlord! I must do that!
Having serious issues
with my 'H' key among others. Keeps missing keystrokes and I seem to
get letters in spellings the wrong way around. Been happening for
some months and is somewhat … worrying what with the other symptoms
pointing towards a possible brain tumour, lol. But that is something
that will be looked at in two weeks time. Well .. a little less than
two weeks and I have a report for that! Lol.
Will NEVER buy another
keyboard from PC World.
Sometimes when you have
too much time to kill before an important meeting or appointment in
can be a pain in the arse. Been debating whether to go to it by bike
or bus but I do not want the bike getting stolen, it is a somewhat
higher crime area than that where in live by several levels, lol. I
thought about visiting some friends beforehand but would be too much.
I have been on the bike for three days solid so hopefully the being
on foot should not be too bad. Fingers crossed.
I think that may what
has been diminishing my drive, at least partly? Lately even the
shorter distances I do ave seemed like a ten mile hike for each and
every one of them. I think about shopping and then think about the
journey to my nearest Sainsburys and I think 'Ugh!' It is why I got
my old bike out as I am simply not doing things and going places, not
that I have a lot to do and I stopped window shopping 6 months ago
when a line of communication became cut off. As I have said many
times, weather been crap and I ave been .. apprehensive of even doing
my work at closer distances since that full on seizure. The thought
of damaging the new cameras does not help either! I am hoping for a
pill that will result from the hospital appointment that I can take
around midday which will stop any blackouts or seizures from
occurring? I hope and pray.
Of all the lists of
things one would have to hope for and worry about mine are ..
starving to death, being made homeless, becoming unable to walk and
dying from a brain tumour in that order. Though if the first three
start to look likely or even become fact the last would be a
blessing.
Hmm August and
September this year, 2016, already look to be the most two bizarre
consecutive months of my entire life?!
If you had not worked
it out, or more likely had it long before you read this, I have a
meeting with Citizen's Advice today. Whether this will lead to any
more meetings I do not know but I also ave a Neurology appointment in
a couple of weeks. Then another meeting of Minds in early September
and whether anything else, oh crap local council .. must do that
tomorrow, will occur I do not know.
Have had some anxiety today and some restlessness and with nothing to do, other than go out and buy tobacco which I am trying hard not to do! Not as bad as previous but unwanted and worrying all the same.
I was writing a post
about something I found a distraction while I had some other serious
issues going on.
I bet you would find
that no matter just how disabled someone is, except the most extreme
cases, that they get things done and then sit around for days waiting
for someone else to do something?
My own present problem
is the fact that I have no confidence in something but that this 'no
confidence' thing is actually quite widespread in many things.
Whenever anyone thinks anything about any given situation it depends
on a number of things.
The
sincerity of those they are dealing with
What they
have experienced before
What they
are told or assure
These are three very
basic principles but three principles that I for one have noticed
very few take into account.
The feelings of both
panic and anxiety stem from fear and yet when they occur not many
people seem to be well seated to be able to deal with them for you.
Their attitudes normally revolve around some self belief or even over
confidence in their own abilities. Yet these are never put across to
the people that need help.
On the merry-go-round I
am on this time I have noticed this and I have realised that what
people need are assurances or examples that show success to show that
the worst case scenario is not very likely. Of course the reasons why
they are not likely are key here.
This becomes a far
greater drag when you have a number of other things you have to
contend with each and every day and even worse when there are
possible blips on the horizon.
Two health
blips on the horizon, each with its own possibility of being
terminal
Degenerative
health blips aplenty occurring from monthly to daily
The feeling
of impending doom of being without a home before long
I had one of my
brothers find out yesterday what has been going on with me for a
couple of weeks now and he said something strange. He works running a
Ford car showroom but said ..
“I don't know what
they are playing it but I keep hearing they have been kicking people
off for six weeks then taking them back on?!”
I thought that was
strange as I was not aware he knew anyone that was claiming any
benefits and I only know one other person and that as only happened
to him of late. He was a social worker for Camden Council for 15
years then worked for an antique watch shop in Farringdon Road for a
number of years until they had to let him go due to the recession.
There is a local
sufferer of mental health who has a habit of latching on to me, there
is a community of them in a building nearby, but you can hardly ask
him about these things.
I have grown to dislike
my life and I do not like sitting around doing nothing which is why I
blog on so many blogs when I am at home and out with a couple of
cameras on my bike when I can and weather permits. Not a great deal
of late that is for sure.
I always feel like I
should be going out and doing something. I do ave an overactive mind
that always wants to be doing something too.
But after the recent
singling out of me by the DWP for the umpteenth time I now feel like
there are several things I should be getting out the house and doing
every single day. When your not doing this or you simply do not know
what it is or what more you can do it makes things somewhat …
anxious.
But no one seems to get
that.
For all these help
groups and charities no one seems to understand these three basic
things I have listed and no one caters or plans for it. I would
imagine they have all these procedures they follow and all these
protocols and I wonder if actually dealing with the victims problems
comes into these steps at all?
It may be that they
simply cannot? Though I doubt this would be the case in every
instance and surely if there are contributing factors this makes a
difference to it all?
Well I have several
contributing factors and I have not had the slightest evidence that
anything is different so far.
I spend my days
wondering when the day will come when it does?
I have been in this
situation roughly around two weeks, since I first approached people
for help and advice.
Granted I had been in
this situation several times before and all shown in the archives of
this blog but they all went very differently. I have no idea why this
time and at the worst time it got so extreme.
It may well be that
this fizzles out to nothing now but that does not help me right now
and I have literally a few days left before I find out. Though I got
a text message on a very old phone number not used for years that a
decision is made on the 20th July, so three days. But when
this decision gets to me I do not know. I guess I can expect to be
told by the weekend? But my very last payment of that benefit occurs
the day after the decision and therefore will be a gap before seeing
the Citizen's Advice again.
Now I have contacted
several others and a couple of these are meant to have advocates and
one said to have a legal team or people. I have heard nothing yet but
maybe I might get to meet one of them this week, with one in
particular I know I can get to.
The rest of the time
you should be off doing your stuff and enjoying other stuff. But you
cannot and it is like having days being stolen from you. Time being
stolen. In essence that is what it is.
As everyone knows you
need time to do anything and in this digital world where there are no
hoards of bloggers because everyone has a smartphone in their pocket
you need more time than ever before to get anything achieved. Or even
get up to a level that becomes noticeable.
When I say 'noticeable'
I really mean that enough people are aware of you that shows that
your heading in a direction … a good direction or the right
direction.
Another annoying and
rather unwanted distraction is this weird irritation I have around my
eye as it has been playing up more and more the last few months.
It should be some
replied that I finally have a hospital appointment about it after
mentioning it to several GP's over the last 4 years or so. Would be
just my luck, perhaps a gift, that it would turn out to be a tumour
or growth of some kind that needs an operation. Yeah that being a
gift does sound strange but when everything has been as difficult as
it has been at times you get fed up with trying to find or fight a
way out of it. Especially when it is down to finding other people to
tell you what to do, help or even act for you and they are few and
far between.
Well almost
non-existent to be honest and if the Citizen's Advice comes to
nothing then it would have been completely non-existent.
There are times when I
think that despite my blogs it would take nothing short of my death
for things to change?
Maybe that is just how
it is destined to be? Who knows?
Maybe by attempt to
help others on-line was always going to turn into my demise and even
death on-line to wake people up? To make people care about others
more?
To me it always comes
back around to everything being negative and impending doom to
finding a way to turn it back around the being positive.
The urge is to dig into
the skin above the eye socket as well as put pressure into and around
the eye socket because it feels like there is something there, like
pressure, that needs release. This is my right eye socket, or from
the view of someone else, my left eye.
A quick search and
something called a Lipoma seems to fit the description … only that
with Lipomas there is no mention of an irritation or sensation with
other people noticing the lump being literally the only symptom. It
basically is a build up of fatty tissues and they do noot seem to
know why it happens.
Almost oddly perfect in
this is the fact that I also seem to have an issue with my throat on
its right side and always had an issue with my right ear, the latter
for a very, very long time.
Also weird is that many
of my long list of symptoms are either located on my right side or
appeared on my right side before later appearing on my left to become
bi-lateral, meaning occurs on both sides of the body. Both feet or
both legs etc.
So I have an irritation
or lump on my forehead and there is such a thing as Forehead Cancer,
a type of skin cancer. I feel like I also have a lump inside my eye
socket too, it feels like the two things are connected but may turn
out not to be.
I am also to have a
colonoscopy at some point due to recurring trapped wind type pains
that are pretty severe.
But I was socked to
find out something extra about brain tumours. Now you may or may not
know that I have been having not just a return of my black outs but
that these have been rampant and I have experienced a full on
seizure, blacking out to the point of unconsciousness and remaining
that way for ten minutes, according to Mr and Mrs Harfcell who just
froze 100 metres away from me and just watched. The two harfs make a
hole in this instance, lol.
So where tumours in the
head or brain are concerned it already does not look now sound that
good so what if I was to state that I have discovered by a surgeon on
YouTube, that brain tumours can cause abdominal pain?!
So now it really does
not look good, right?
Well you have to face
these possibilities and oddly if you try to talk to anyone about this
they tell you you are being morbid and not to think or talk like
that. Like not talking about it cures the cancer if you have it!
I know people react
like this so I do not even bother to talk like this. They know I have
the upcoming neurology appointment and that is about it.
I would imagine that
some would panic about losing me or me just not being around any
longer as I am a go to person when things get really bad, tricky or
something complicated needs solving or an understanding or
explanation given in layman's terms.
That first appointment
is in August and I do not know what will happen and nor do I even
know if I will have a home around the time I have the appointment. It
is likely that I will but just about barely or barely hanging onto it
via the help of some other group, body or organisation?
Fingers and toes well
and truly crossed here but if I am destined to be kicked out of my
home and lose all the tools and gadgets I have worked so hard to
acquire to help me and my blogs then a death sentence via cancer
might just be more humane than living through all that yet again?
I may even turn out to
be epileptic?
Imagine though for a
moment . Needing surgery and either being homeless at te time or
about to be? All this because they failed to diagnose a condition for
over a decade and then refuse to give any support because the name is
not as widely known as something like 'diabetes'?
I have said this before
… say the 'C' word, diabetes or even epilepsy and everyone is like
'oooh poor thing … let us help' but say something rare or they have
not heard of and you get nothing more tan a shrug of the shoulders.
Sometimes metaphorically speaking too where the attitude is nothing
more than a shrug of the shoulders.
It is almost like a
'get out of jail free card' whereby they do not have to worry or more
accurately seen to worry because no one knows what it is or very few
people know of the condition's existence?
Now I imagine that this
is the only concern of just about every charity out there that
specifies in one condition or other? Be it heart problems and a long
list of other things right around to my own condition of
Fibromyalgia?
Ask for money to have a
website and write the odd letter to your government asking them to
take more notice of said condition? Other than that you contact them
for help, they tell you they cannot and then explain how to spot your
condition? A bit annoying when you have spoken to one of the top
people in the country on your condition and they did not even know
the name of the only drugs that deals with the very core of the
problem. Yup .. annoying!
Now with this digital
age and with the Internet in almost everyone's pocket if not at home
it would be very easy for a list of the world's biggest companies to
spend just a couple of weeks getting everyone aware of a list of
debilitating conditions. That is if they did not mind giving up
primary advertising space that normally goes at a premium price
similar to a telephone number?
Google and Apple are to
that you could consider capable of doing this with the number of
users they have not just an iny given country but across the world.
So how about on a
particular web-page not having some silly logo or some reference to
something or the other you have a debilitating condition for a few
days or weeks?
'Condition name and
here is what it does!'
Something like that. If
both companies did this they would get almost all people on Earth as
they normally have an Android phone or an Apple phone. Throw in the
other of this particular evil trinity, of Microsoft and you have just
about everyone with maybe a tiny percentage that do not have
smartphones, tablet PCs or computers.
Do not worry as they
are bound to hear about the condition advertised from someone they
know that does have a smartphone or PC.
While I have been
typing this I have been listening to a brave and poor young girl that
had to have treatment on a brain tumour.
The poor girl has an anxiety disorder too!
It is eight months old and I hope she pulled through it and actually scared to look for more videos in case she did not!
This is the second one
I was playing as I reached the end of this post ..
I don't believe that homes should be down to a lottery or luck.
Now homes for British people dropped down to another lottery league on regarding whether you had a job or not. Like the homes lottery this is down to things other than that which it should be.
Whether or not your a 'yes man', not more brain dead than your interviewer, ability to flow commands no matter how questionable or immortal and ability to lie convincingly in your interview.
This had been that way for the longest time and I have never agreed with this and knew it would come to no good.
So strange then that a series of adverts sponsored by Barclays Bank teach you how to not be stupid and put on a false persona.
You could be forgiven for laughing like a drain if you had caught yourself watching done science fiction episode or film, like Star Trek, where the setting of the future has one where everyone is a lot more honest than they are today and work well together. Of course those posting closer attention would have noticed that there is no monetary wealth as such and this is not the primary pursuit of humans. Well not those in Starfleet. Lol.
Yanking anyone now dreaming of Eutopia with a quite understandable feeling of euphoria back into present day and dies it not then raise an eyebrow that presently we seem to go out of our way not to do this?!
I am looking into gathering some media at the present time that will rock the proverbials for some time to come. Call it a classic example of that which I have referred to here and have done several times lately.
For now though here is someone, or several people, campaigning to get new homes built. This will be prevented, I have other doubt, by a consortium of landlords because they property makes then richer each month and to stupid to realise that if the economy hits the breaks once again a vast majority of them simply won't have anyone out there to afford the rents charged.
They say they needed 40,000 signatures and are a little short by couple of hundred. I don't think 40,000 is a lot at all and there won't take notice of this small number in my opinion. Add a zero and your likely to get noticed add they don't like to think everyone thinks badly of them. They slay have an idea of that what with the UKIP results of late and are showing their nerves.
So here in is a link and let us try and get these campaigners noticed by showing what moral fibres we possess and giving them a voice that is equal to a Banshee's scream?
Does seem unlikely to me that they both just happened to die through the same overdose though?
It is far from understood because the sad fact is many do not want to that life at the butt end of society is worse than you can imagine.
For example far took many people are cold and without compassion our understanding, like my current GP, and a plan bring meticulously followed only needs one of the many idiots who works for a public service, like 99.9% I have met, to day one thing in the wrong easy to cause despondency to make someone take the ultimate way out.
It would not surprise me if there was a sudden shocking report or documentary out at some point revealing the truth and gravity of the numbers, along with those same numbers being buried by an individual or group then wondering while they are on trial for murder and/or have rocks and bricks hurled at their family homes not long after?!
Well fecking...DUH!!
I have not heard of FLACK before but I now bow to the people now attempting to raise money to provide this couple with dignity in death.
Now it is nigh on mid April and coming up this week is the start of something that will take a minimum of four weeks and as much as eight weeks to complete.
Now in certain cases, namely me, I am not sure what is going to happen over these next eight weeks.
Currently my Benefit has been cancelled for the second time and I have NOT been put onto ANYTHING else and told I no longer get any money of any kind!!
Added to this another benefit has been cancelled and the is my Local Housing Allowance or as they wrongly called it Housing Benefit.
Now the question is what will come first for this disabled person?
DEATH OR HOMELESSNESS?!
On top of this I HAD thought that my working my butt off and my efforts would afford me some of the money I had lost over several years and I could REPLACE what I was already defrauded out of, get things I need to help me as well as get things I want as well as need for the work I already started.
SO here is a few shopping lists...
Household SHOPPING:
Quilts, Pillows and Covers.
Air Cooler or Air Conditioner
Dyson Vacuum Cleaner (small one I can use while standing upright)
Oil Free Chip Fryer
Bread Maker
Mechanical Potato Peeler
Dishwasher
REPLACEMENT SHOPPING:
40" TV had stolen by Waltham Forest Council 4 years ago
Blu-Ray Player I had stolen by Waltham forest Council 4 years ago
Omega Watch I had stolen by Waltham Forest Council 4 years ago
Mountain Bike I had stolen by Waltham Forest Council 4 years ago.
WORK & WANT:
AMD FX 8350 Windows 7 PC with Radeon HD7970GHZ Graphics and 240GB SSD
AMD FX 6350 Linux PC with nVidia 660 Graphics with 750GB Hybrid Drive for work
So I have done the work of many others worth about £250,000 while asked for nothing. Done a years work coming up I should already be receiving money for but am curiously not and having the benefits cancelled that will see me starve to death or be homeless in the coming weeks, whichever comes first!
It is mid April 2013 and a two phase period has started first one ends mid-May and second one Mi-June...
I liked this when I read it but typical it would not be in the UK?!
I wish I did read more reports like this one but it is very rare indeed and cannot foresee a time that a situation and series of events like this of honesty, respect and gratitude that led to an amazing take of someone taking the rewards from doing the honourable, honest and right thing.
