HEART BREAKAGE

Was just set upon by the resident leftist in the building and as always over something stupid .. trivial .. meaningless.

But they have a skill like no that has people running for cover when they see them coming.

Barged into the room, without knocking as usual because they think it is there automatic right to do so that drives everyone nuts. Including one other who was walked in on naked one day.

Stated she need to get to the radiator .. because there are issues with an airlock when I had already explained weeks ago it cannot be an airlock in my radiator because it is switched off. For it to be an airlock within this specific radiator the water needs to be flowing through it, which it is not nor ever has been.

But I don't care check it if you want .. if it makes them happy, because they can ever .. ever accept that they are wrong.

No announcing .. no warning .. just barge in .. in the morning. No chance to get my shoes on or charge my phone just a bull in a china shop as usual.

So I decide to make a tea instead but I know it wont be a simple checking the radiator .. it is going to turn into something else like it always does. The very thing that has driven the rest of us nuts for years.

Bearing in mind that everyone knows about my health issues, my disabilities and namely my heart issues which cannot and are not affected by any arguing on Twitter, I might add. Nope but this person can set it off single handed.

I have warned them .. I have warned others .. but it matters not when she suddenly decides she wants to create wounds she can then go cray bout to others. Have a dig to force someone to attack them and they are by definition the centre of attention.

My room is untidy .. that was what it switched to. The some stern lecturing about me doing things that will set my heart off, which I do anyway and did some this pat Sunday. But it is not about tidiness as all that know her are well aware.

Yelling match ensues and like a true leftist she lies to make herself look correct .. telling me that a brother does not visit the house because of me. Well no .. it is because of her and I pointed that out .. sternly and told her in no uncertain terms she was a fucking liar and has driven us all nuts for years.

This brother does not answer the phone to her .. remember that for after I explain this ..

She fucks off downstairs .. I sit in my bed, bedroom turned upside down, all 6 feet by 8.5 feet of it, when suddenly I get this absolutely massive pain across my chest and back and I roll back screaming. It subsides for a few seconds but then comes rushing back again. This happens several times and eventually I roll off the bed and am wedged between a cupboard and the bed face-down.

At this point another brother comes in the room, wrongly assumes it is a back pain, yup I did state that I warned them about this, and tells me I am in the wrong position. Well no because after it occurring one more time it is now subsiding in intensity and I am frozen to the spot now. A sign that this intense pain is now subsiding I do not want to move so much as a muscle.

It stops.

Then the brother that refuses to answer the phone to her rings me after a few minutes ad I have not spoken to him for several weeks. Uh-oh!

She rang him .. he answered the phone to her and admitted he made a mistake.

He knew she was in the wrong as she always is, throws a hissy-fit about that on every occasion as we are supposed to agree with her even when she is wrong.

I tell him that I just had these pains, could have been a heart attack but I do not think so. Actually seemed too intense but I do not know .. maybe it was? He is shocked.

As he is telling me how this woman is completely batty and has been driving us nuts for years the door flies open. I think it is another brother .. but no .. it is her.

Listening outside the door .. realising I have been called and this is a sign that no one agrees with her she storms in with a stern look on her face and shouts "YOUR A LIAR!" to which I answer "No, YOUR the liar!" Tell her who I am on the phone to, she says she knows .. yeah she cannot stand that. Keeps on .. while on the phone to my brother who has now guessed she has walked in the room I say ..

"Will you leave?! I may have had a heart attack that you brought on and I did warn you about .. and I DO NOT want another one thank you! All because you have to be right and want all the attention!"

She fucks off!

My brother says "There has got to be some way of you getting out of there? She is losing it and this is like a fucking slow death, a slow and painful death for you!"

They have screwed everything up from the moment I got here by making a mountain out of a molehill for everything and then turning that drama into a crisis to draw attention to herself.

Two children born, one operation .. appendicitis and a death (not present) and someone dying of cancer (not family) and on every single occasion they have crated a massive problem in each case that had hospital staff shocked when they realised.

She is oppressive like you would not believe .. and .. family and friends and others run from her and I am constantly asked my my social worker friend, Mario "How have you not gone insane stuck there?!"

Along with his disbelief at no one offering to help me .. or us for that matter.

Heart condition that the NHS new about for two years and the decided to look into just before my life got turned upside down and now do not loo at, at all. Great.

LATE ADDITION ..

• Would not allow me my car outside so I lost £4,000 on it
• Kept telling me I was doing everything wrong
• Always told me I was right-wing
• Alienated friends, family and even grandchildren who refuse to see her
• Keeps telling me I do everything wrong
• Everything is about her
• Side Effects from low dosage epilepsy drugs for epilepsy she does not have is worse then two operations my daughter juts had, cervical cancer and strangulated hernia
• Its our fault because of our father .. unless it is the whole world's fault
• Keeps telling me I am doing everything wrong
• Tells me how the Internet works, used it on phone for 5 minutes I am BSc and was offered a PhD in Applied Computing back in 1999 
• GCHQ were interested in me ..
• Keeps telling me I am wrong
• Insists she is right on politics because of things form 20 years ago and groups that have not existed for years
• Keeps telling me I am wrong
• Tell her video evidence exists on YouTube she laughs and shakes her head
• Still tells me I am wrong
• Sister tells her I know my shit ..
• She repeats "No-no-no-n-no!"
• Sends messages that are 1,500 words or more long
• Runs out full battery on your phone in one phone-call
• Tell you she is caring but has never asked me nor my brother about her grandchildren ..
• But the tells everyone how hard things are for her because she has all these grandchildren to think about
• Friend and one granddaughter and two sons think she needs serious psychiatric help
• Lies when you prove her wrong
• Bare-face lies and twists it when you tell her we all think the same "NO! YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT THEY SAY ABOUT YOU!" Crap
• Keeps telling me I am wrong
• Roots round other people's stuff and blows up being pulled about it, one of only two relatives fell out with her years ago for that one
• Keeps telling me I am wrong
• You get to talk for 60 seconds only and never hears any news through to the end
• Normally followed by changing the subject to be about her .. then talks for four hours .. you insist on talking to finish what your saying at the end and she tell others later "I was not allowed to get a word in!" and I am being literal
• Mario says she is evil and there is something very, very seriously wrong with her
• Does not knock on your door .. just waltzes in .. courtesy does not apply when it is her house
• Did I mention she keeps telling me I am wrong?

THE LINES OF BEAU

I just wanted to get this out there quickly as something may happen to me ..

• Heart Feels likes it is n a constant grinder
• Anxiety is through the roof
• I have to do stuff when ..
• I have had zero offers of help
• Got moaned at though
• But that is how the British are these days it seems?

A couple of weeks ago I did not do a post on it but I noticed something .. with a toe nail.

On the large toe of my right foot I see these deep ridges running horizontally across my toe that just looked .. weird. I wondered whether or not this might be a sign of deficiency and might be a sign of how serious it had become? So I looked it up at the time and what I discovered was a bit of a surprise .. to say the least.

One of the possibilities was something called Coronary Occlusion which is an obstruction of the blood flow in a coronary artery. This can cause a heart attack. Mild pain, tightness and vague discomfort is what is listed on Wikipedia but the events, which I believe cause the two line .. yeah .. two, were somewhat stronger than these described. It also states that the muscle tissue of the heart may get damaged?

Now I .. have trouble believing it but I have been wondering now if I had a mild heart attack and this is why the symptoms were worse than that described?

• BEAU'S LINES
• https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Beau%27s_lines
• Hypocalcaemia - Linked to Low Magnesium
• https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hypocalcaemia
• Coronary Occlusion
• https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Coronary_occlusion
• Malnutrition
• I did go off food and am off it currently but do not think this is the reasoning
• Chemotherapy

Yes I have tried to get help, remember I have no GP right now and they wont register me? I was supposed to register at a GP that was a mile and a half away but I had an event .. or series of them and pretty horrifying, on my return. I was then supposed to go back just to register, yup .. SECOND visit, and I freaked out and got off the bus in three stops and then .. collapsed against a wall.

Yet I have emailed organisations like HealthWatch and all they say is get to that Doctors and register?!

Yeah .. an NHS Surgery where in my experience ..

• They do nothing
• They take forever when they actually do, do something .. normally for cancer
• They fob off
• They .. lie

I seem to have something in common with the subject of a documentary I saw years ago regarding Oetzi the Iceman..

THE FOURTH DEATH

Jesus .. you just cannot win.

I have to consider that there are various ways I can die .. as I only recently discovered though the feelings I get in my chest and heart have been something of a warning for some time now.

Heart attack, cardiac arrest and Sudden Death Syndrome.

What is that you say? That is only three? Oh yeah ..

The fourth is bloody boredom!

Yeah on the rare occasions I do feel OK I have my old enemy dog me and it feels like it dogs me to the edge of death.

When I am OK I hate having nothing to do .. well .. nothing constructive. Like my photography, for example .. oh my God how I would like to be getting out a lot more often than I have been.

It is such a frustrating waste of time and the tools I spent so much money on.

I mean I have managed to use it but I seem to get things flung at me, intended too on occasions, that prevent me from doing what I want to do.

It is odd as with all my previous non-professional cameras where I could have gotten ten times more pictures that I did with a professional one, I had all the time in the fecking world!

The moment I have something of professional standard I started getting shite in the form of obstacles flung at me every five minutes. Almost all of them the public services.

I used to be a short cycle ride from some many very good place to use my camera.

Now I am several bus rides to most of them!

Buses are of course an issue for me ..

• Body gets way too hot in warmer months
• Pain in my feet
• Pain in back and shoulders
• Seizures
• Heart Palpitations, Chest Tightness and Breathlessness (only recent)
• Possible Sudden Death Syndrome, Heart Attack, Cardiac Arrest to think about

It is just such a humongous and .. scary thing to consider those and no one would be blamed for not being able to do things with any one of the above.

It is also far from everything and just the most major ones. Like the memory loss issue for instance.

Now with a bit of luck and with many a year of waiting this might finally come to an end in a matter of weeks. But the waiting just makes everything worse.

I do have plans to help this along a bit but I cannot do anything until the time comes around and then is down to a little .. pleading. Just to show that things are fare worse then they imagined. I am sure the suggestions mentioned by them themselves will likely come to fruition once they see the bigger picture? Fingers crossed. Well .. it has already been stated of their intentions .. it just remains to be seen if it will benefit from a little encouragement? Or pleading?

It is also typical that after freezing my nether regions off .. yesterday morning for several hours despite putting on full length cargo trousers for the first time in weeks and leading me to but a waistcoat .. I get fried alive today. It started out very cool but OK. Then wet to a nice gentle warmth and by 2 to 3pm I was racing for the shade and wished I was wearing shorts!

I guarantee if I had gone out wearing shorts I would have spent the first hour regretting that decision!

It is also odd as I have been surprised at feeling the cold but the I have probably lost around two stone in weight. So I am proper thin and therefore probably why I have been feeling it on colder days?

Since I acquired my professional camera I have opened my eyes to a far wider range oh photography from landscapes to architecture, skylines and geometry and symmetry of buildings. My usual passing interest of monochrome has gotten a lot deeper too and I am constantly on the look out for photographs that give me other ideas too.

I have thought and even actually looked to see if I could find a photography friend .. this way I would feel a lot better being with someone, knowing that if I fall unconscious my gear will be safe. They would have to be aware of the possibility I could just fall unconscious and not only be OK with it but know what to do .. like ring an ambulance. Not that I have any confidence in the NHS but I would like to at least try to remain alive until my daughter is out of her own fiery pit located somewhere in some hot corner of hell?

Yeeaah I do not have anyone that can actually do that.. No chaperone and the only person that could possibly do it is an overgrown child who has zero patience who throws a tantrum if you talk about things he deems are out of bounds and storms off in a huff over feck all. Yeah .. about as responsible as Guinea Pig. Well give you an idea .. out with his grandmother one day she fell down the stairs of a bus and ended up in hospital. Of course as their behaviour is famous and widely known everyone wondered it it was down to his zero patience.

He walked off while I stood still to the point he got a quarter of a mile or more and was out of sight and when he found me two hours later, because he wanted to get a move on ad was getting annoyed, actually asked in a sarcastic tone “Where did you go?!”

Three people I know reacted with complete shock at this and simply could not believe it and I said ..

“Well, yeah. I was [effing] standing still until the point he had walked a quarter of a mile out of sight and he [effing] asks me where I went?! I wanted to say, [effing] nowhere you [effing] dick! I was standing still, it was you that [effing] walked off and left me!!”

Oh and yeah .. he knew about the chest issues and that I had been to hospital but the knowledge of the sudden death, heart attack, cardiac arrest ad other things were not known to me until around a week later, maybe a little sooner? But still .. oh no wait? Yes .. I did know as I distinctly remember saying it at some horse paddocks at the end of one day before returning here.

Yes despite his later lies to someone else that I went on about it for three days .. well it was actually four but never mind, which only makes him like look a selfish twat because you cannot say that I talked about how I can suddenly drop dead for four days when you have just arrived back twenty minutes ahead of me!

Yeah .. that is the effing logic I have to put up with .. while they want sympathy over the spilt milk they have while not only disregarding fatal conditions, claiming something that is not dangerous is worse than something that is most definitely fatal, like cancer, but do not even ask.

Yeah when they are trying to force me to listen to their whines and whinges I start to get angry inside thinking of how months have passed by and my deadly and painful conditions are not asked about nor is that of my daughter.

Even more amazing is their faces when they realise from the look on my face that I am not interested in their painful arm, painful back or mild epilepsy that I have never seen. Lol.

Remember .. these are the worst health conditions in the world according to them and their attitudes and behaviour while cancer and sudden death or not only not even worth asking about once in four months .. it is not even worth hanging around you to make sure your there to call an ambulance of the person collapses.

I would not trust them with my pet hamster in all honesty and I do not even own a pet hamster!

The funny part about it was hearing the “Oh noo ..” or “Whaaaat?!” from three people I know who themselves can be guilty of .. absent mindedness and difficulty believing things you tell them.

I think I have this disbelief well and truly quashed now with one as he did claim as he always does that I was being lied to once again. As I stated previously and probably happens with the readers of my blogs .. just because you think your right and even if something happens that suggest you might be right and have a right to your own opinion .. even combined these things do not make you right.

You have the right to be wrong and being right makes you right, along with the facts.

Something that every idiot in every corrupt, they all are, public services in Britain seems to have forgotten and they all think they are right and often this is down to delusions of grandeur. 'Oooh I work in the NHS .. that makes me a pro .. that makes me right'. No .. I have proven every Doctor I have ever met wrong .. sorry. Lol.

But yeah .. I think that the recent magazine finally quashed one source of negativity towards a situation and I am well and truly pleased about that. Because prior to this the negativity and attitude still put me off going there, along with my .. ailments of course.

You see there was this .. person. Someone kinda of involved from the start .. who kinda started it all and when I did bite the bullet and mention this person I got the usual ..

“Oh? She tell you that, did she?” ergo she is lying.

Unfortunately for them and very fortunately for me .. the magazine article proved that he and everyone else that stated the same was wrong.

It would be nice if they then realised that maybe everything they ever claimed about me, my daughter and the situation was .. wrong? Chance would be a fine thing. But then I do not need them to realise this because I am afraid it is going to be done for them.

Another very hard price both of us have had to pay for many, many .. years!

But while I await this third publication I have to try and deal with the frustration of not walking around the bases of sets of tall buildings and looking skyward to see if I can see a good shot.

I have to deal with the frustration of not being able to walk around an old cathedral, castle or other ancient building looking for some unique shots I can play around with post-processing.

I cannot look for buildings with crazy and unique designs and/or textures that would make an interesting shot I could mess around with in post-processing.

And I am certainly too far away from anywhere that would produce a great natural landscape and can only dream of what I had planed for last year that did not come to light ..

Scottish west coast and Highlands and the Himalayas! God damn it!

Now with a it of luck and at some point next week I may be able to find out if there is a way of dealing with these damned chest and heart issues? At least tat is the plan .. if I do not drop dead trying to get to the GP that is too far away?! God damn it!

LMFAO!

I have no choice presently .. I have to go. I just keep thinking .. it is just two trips, it is just two trips and I am hoping they do not try and blame it on pills I have not taken for three months?!

Yeah .. they have done this sour times previously and have a failure rate of 100% I will very happily point out if they try it.

Oh .. guess what I will take with me so that I am not fucked about? That magazine!

EDIT: Oh-oh-oh and art photography too!

I have always lie art .. paintings and sculptures mainly. At a Hopper exhibit at the Tate years ago, day my dad died unfortunately. Pre-Raphaelites, Rennaisance, the Impressionists and others.

THOSE THAT DO NOT LISTEN

Well ...

I have said it and I have stated it and I have fucking well shouted it but people do not listen, make up their own minds and cannot even be bother to just check it out on their fucking phones ..

.. because nothing can get in the way of Candy Crush or Angry Birds, no fucking doubt? Or Twitter?!

Now then .. let me stress something because I am sure and have been for a while that doing too much is causing me a lot of harm. Because I often do too much and it fucking well hurts. Always. So I end up doing a day here and a day there and if the first day is not too much hassle I might do a consecutive second day in a row? This happened recently when I was taken by a car somewhere that then did not involve much else and I got a load of photographs while missing a few. I then went somewhere else the following day. Take the opportunity while it is there, is my motto.

But while I am out I am always wary of something untoward happening and as I am normally carrying a professional camera I get even more panicky because I cannot lose that camera.

I .. currently want to die and yet .. I STILL do not want to lose my camera because it is everything to me. Yes .. I am missing two lenses and it weighs a God damn ton .. but it is part of what I do and part of what I had been working towards for five years, when I finally got it.

Oh and it is paid for. Not on hire purchase or anything like that. I do not do hire purchase any more it is just not worth the hassle.

In recent times you cannot rust the government not to fuck you around so .. you cannot guarantee you can make payments on hire purchases or loans. So why would you even bother?

I refuse to even get a monthly mobile contract and have done for years, using pay as you go only which is way easier to deal with anyway.

Also remember, or look up, that I used to switch a lot my methods for getting around. I have long since stated on this very blog that I might cycle one day and if I was out for too long and went too far I would then switch to using a bus. Long, long, long have I stated this. Because sometimes I simply am buggered to cycle again the following day and if I try I used to end up with a lot of muscular pain .. despite the fact that Guy's Hospital told me that if I had not already figured out that cycling helps with Fibromyalgia symptoms .. they would have told me to buy a bike! But they key word they gave me was ..

"PACING!"

Yeah well .. it turns out there is more to it than that .. but then that Dr Kirkham was not even aware of the only drug that works with non-restorative sleep was Sodium Oxybate.

In some cases over-exercise or over-training has even resulted in cardiac arrest and death on the track. - https://www.elektramagnesium.com.au/dangers-over-exercise/

Yeah well there it is!

It was not that long ago that I stated that one of the many times I thought I was going to have a heart attack was travelling on a bus to the court hearing. You know? That first one where they did not even bother to turn up but then became guilty of double-standards by pulling me about not turning up to the second one?!

Over-doing it has resulted in cardiac arrest and death. Told yah!

Another thing I have always hated and I should state here, what it states on that webpage, you should be aware of if you have low magnesium levels, or Hypomagnesemia?

I absolutely loathe diet drinks and now it turns out that some sweeteners will deplete your magnesium levels? Are you frikkin serious?! Did they not tax sugar so that they put less of it in our drinks to help our health?! Now it might turn out that the increase in the use of sweeteners will increase death rates?! I .. I .. simply .. do not believe it!

I wonder how long before this little nugget will actually come out in the news media or to put it another way .. how many people will they kill before they realise that the sugar tax was all and only about money?!

Ooh wait .. was it suggested by Doctors? The same Doctors that NEVER look at their patients magnesium levels as stated in several places all over the Internet?!

The same Doctors that ignored my magnesium levels for years that has nearly killed me several times, out me in Accident & Emergency over half a dozen times and might now be well on its way of killing me for sure? THOSE DUMB-ARSE DOCTORS?!

LMAO!

THE WRONG FEELINGS

Just to keep a note of the date and the symptoms ..

Bloody bad flu .. again but really intense .. sinuses in pain, intense headache and  worst of all ..

Anxiety so strong it feels like I'm having a damn heart attack that woke me up ninety minutes ago!

Finally found diazepam and taken one of those while smoking .. and a Propranolol.

No idea what brought this on .. trying to remember to get things done and get to Doctors is making me feel worse for some bizarre reason?!

Thought of calling ambulance bit don't want to do that. Going to walk in centre? Too ill to drive!

It's like my body sets of the wrong feelings at times.

My God .. I wish I would just die and be bloody done with it?! How can the human body torture itself this bloody much and still be alive?! I just don't get it .. ooh pounding on my head too .. nice, as if the anxiety was not enough?!

Don't know where I'm going to hide of I need to tomorrow??

For .. FS!

EDITED at 10am: Had a few mornings being OK finally and now this happens?! I do not know if it was the intense flu virus I had that amplified it? I had not done anything the day or night before.

It has calmed down now as has the intensity of the flu symptoms.

I cannot keep doing this! I have now had three lots of flu like viruses since I got here and that is more than I have had in the last 6 years plus combined.

A social worker friend previously said it is because I am around children that bring viruses home from school but .. this is ridiculous.

I felt like if the anxiety was not going to kill me the intense flu symptoms would and there was a long period where I would have welcomed death with open arms.

Now .. I just recalled there was like a family .. get together yesterday .. minus me and a few family members I have not seen in well over twenty years. I was always popular with them and my ex is with someone that many do not like. One of his own step-sons included.

A fat layabout drunk .. is what he is normally referred to me as. Some remarks were made by a sister and a mother about me being around and that she should .. expel the drunk and get back together with me.

That .. terrified me in all honesty.

A lot has been said and a lot has been one over the years and well .. as well as not being entirely honest, see the old posts on here, she is both not my type any longer and .. I am not even sure I have one.

I have been on my own for like 14 years or more and it turns out that has something to do with Fibromyalgia too?!

So I do not know if that was playing on my mind during the night that set off the anxiety? It just woke me up and was off like a damned rocket and I wanted to take a knife and plunge it into my chest.

That sort of physical pain I can deal with.

It really, really peeves me off this anxiety as it makes no damned sense to all. How can it just affect you like that?

After a few days of things being easier my chest also had some signs of the heart palpitations and possibly irregular beats. That may have something to do with it?

Or maybe that I have had so many instances of extreme stress that it has, had an effect on my heart ad caused these things?

Good God, I hope they get sorted out before very long?

I have some testing to be done just after Boxing Day.

Oh and I discovered little Miss Autism, the difficult and older one, was for the second time in as many weeks first filling the bath up, last time water came through the ceiling. Then after being stopped she was bailing water out of the toilet and this was only noticed when I wondered why I could hear a splashing sound coming from the kitchen downstairs? Water was once again pouring through fro the bathroom upstairs.

It is purely mental ..

Also the remote to the main TV has packed up and even dismantling it and cleaning it has had no positive effect. It has been doused in a mug of juice since I have been here and apparently been through the washing machine previously. It did work for about a week but has now died. I am amazed it has lasted this long. She will let them mess about with stuff and you the think it is just a matter of time.

An iPod purchased has been doused in water twice and has since died. They just do not get things when they should at their ages. Another 3 or 4 year old would have taken notice when you told them that water would break their device.

Worse still is that when something does not work she thinks it does and whatever it is she wants that we do not have when you tell her it does not work or we do not have any she demands that we show her?! How do you show a child that something is not there or is broken?

So I have ordered a remote but have been trying to find the model number of this smart TV and have been unsuccessful. I might need the model ti gt the new remote working with this TV?

It was summer when I was first told that one of my grandchildren was Autistic and when I came down here I was in shorts and a vest.

It is now well into winter and there has been nothing in the way of help thus far.

The one thing in all this is that my daughter has always reacted that these things and a proper diagnosis takes time, despite two or three tests thus far proving positive for Autism.

Her mother then asked why things were taking time and why she had not rung them for help and when it was explained that things take time her mother said "Well, it never used to!" My daughter answered "That is what Dad said!"

So the combination of all of the health issues and disabilities involved with four out of six of us and the other scares we have to deal with along with the inordinate and extremely unfair and cruel WAIT .. it is killing us.

In the meantime our symptoms are trying to kill us, destroy every item in the house or even bring the bloody ceiling down in the kitchen!!

My memory is still forgetting to do things.

At least my head and sinuses are not in s much pain and the anxiety has dropped off a little .. still .. left me feeling like shit though.

THE SECRET & SLOW SUICIDE PILL

Diclofenac? DICLIFENAC?!

Well this is one hell if a mind job for me this truly is!

This is one of the drugs that I have thought for some years now that it's one of those cheap crap drugs they give you that do not work!

Why do I think this?

Well because I was on this years ago and it did bugger all and I was also on accelofenac too which also did nothing!

Now I could write a decent list of drugs I have been given over 12 years plus that do not work on pain.

I could also do the same for drugs for my stomach problem which left me acquiring oesophagitis years later...

...ooh?! That is WHY they switched the dates on my medical records?! Of course not providing the right drugs directly led to another condition!

Anyway I digress.

So after more than ten years they have now performed one neurological test that does not test for everything but then lied and said neurological problems were ruled out. But at same time and not linked to other specialists or departments I was under a Pain Specialist prescribed a Neurological Drug called Gabapentin that works. When I ask why as they insist I have no neurological problem they tell nd it's not for neurological problems, gabapentin that is, it is simply a pain killer.

Tonight I find out that one of the shitty crappy drugs they kept giving me years ago was actually doing....something! Increasing the risk of a heart attack?! I have now had two members of my family, maybe a third  that died due to heart problems and since my father died my family started writing about me and my heart?!

Well other than a selfish grandfather that seems to be going on to live forever, funny how it always works like that lol, I am the oldest in this branch of my family!

I wonder if any of them will read or hear about it and ask me as I've been prescribed lots of NSAIDs over the years!

This drug has been knocking around fire donkeys years!! God it must have been ten years back I was prescribed it?!

So how the hell are they only finding out about it now and how many people have died because of it?!

Before above wonders the answer is no the family members I know to have died sure to heart problems never took pills ever, lol. One did not even have a Doctor!

Of course I imagine that many people who have lost someone close to them is now going to wonder of they took this drug?! In the case of a spouse this would be probably known but if a parent our adult child out could be more difficult to found out if they lived alone.

Time will tell if there it's anything more to this or not? Let us hope out was only an increased risk and never came to anything?!

Only with the amount of time this drug had been around and how easily and quickly it is given out I very much doubt it!

Just remembered that I think my old cycling buddy was prescribed this for his bad back! I wonder how his nurse of a sister is now trying to explain this away as she did to him over my health and ailments that were ALWAYS?!

LMAO