THE DEPLETING MAGNESIUM

After yesterday ..

I was sitting in the park and suddenly realised my thighs were hurting quite a bit and remembered they ached a little last night.

I should have taken pills last night when I noticed they were aching and I forgot. I also shot out the house, do not even get me started on this, and forgot to take them this morning.

I cycled for three days in a row hoping that the cycling might reduce the heart issues but seems to have succeeded only in depleting my magnesium faster than I can absorb it.

I had stayed out for around four hours on the third day of cycling and this looks to be a mistake .. but only if it was the cycling that had this depleting magnesium effect and it is not just something that happens at random?

Making this even more bizarre is that I have actually eaten normally and all meals with leafy vegetables and meat, known to be high in magnesium.

So the only things I have changed recently and leading up the trying to get to a GP and then feeling like I was having a breakdown and then barely able to walk was the cycling and eating normally.

I have even asked myself if it could even be possible that eating brought this on, but it makes no sense at all and I simply cannot think of even how this could be possible?!

Exercise does deplete magnesium and as I had been doing this for three days, with the irony of it being so that I could make this journey without issues, I have to conclude that this is what caused the issue.

So I ate ..

• All Vitamin Pills taken for four days with no misses
• Chicken Salad Sandwich
• Steak Pie and Runner Beans and mashed potato
• Salad with slices ham, rocket, cabbage, egg, boiled potatoes and spring onions
• Two home made Burgers with lots of salad rocket, lettuce, gherkins (no chips .. EVER)
• Purdey's Drinks on odd occasions, with Vitamins

So with that and the Magnesium, Calcium and Vit D3 pills along with the B-Complex pills and even Glucosamine Sulphate how could I be low on bloody magnesium?!

Now remember? A magnesium deficiency is and had been fatal even to sportsmen and often out of the blue and with little or no warning. A .. deficiency.

I am getting king-sized headache, metaphorically speaking, warnings and this is more now than just a deficiency and is a malabsorption problem and .. well .. they kind of need to find out why .. because if I die in my present circumstances a lot of people are going to ask some very awkward questions of ..

• NHS
• DWP
• Local Councils .. two in fact

Well .. I have been viewed by a fair few people and those that have read my health stuff will be a wee bit more than merely suspicious.

The rest that do not will ask why .. look into it .. find out and come to the same conclusions.

Then there are my family members, though one of which I do not want being hurt with everything she has going on. That is what bothers me the most about all this.

THOSE THAT DO NOT LISTEN

Well ...

I have said it and I have stated it and I have fucking well shouted it but people do not listen, make up their own minds and cannot even be bother to just check it out on their fucking phones ..

.. because nothing can get in the way of Candy Crush or Angry Birds, no fucking doubt? Or Twitter?!

Now then .. let me stress something because I am sure and have been for a while that doing too much is causing me a lot of harm. Because I often do too much and it fucking well hurts. Always. So I end up doing a day here and a day there and if the first day is not too much hassle I might do a consecutive second day in a row? This happened recently when I was taken by a car somewhere that then did not involve much else and I got a load of photographs while missing a few. I then went somewhere else the following day. Take the opportunity while it is there, is my motto.

But while I am out I am always wary of something untoward happening and as I am normally carrying a professional camera I get even more panicky because I cannot lose that camera.

I .. currently want to die and yet .. I STILL do not want to lose my camera because it is everything to me. Yes .. I am missing two lenses and it weighs a God damn ton .. but it is part of what I do and part of what I had been working towards for five years, when I finally got it.

Oh and it is paid for. Not on hire purchase or anything like that. I do not do hire purchase any more it is just not worth the hassle.

In recent times you cannot rust the government not to fuck you around so .. you cannot guarantee you can make payments on hire purchases or loans. So why would you even bother?

I refuse to even get a monthly mobile contract and have done for years, using pay as you go only which is way easier to deal with anyway.

Also remember, or look up, that I used to switch a lot my methods for getting around. I have long since stated on this very blog that I might cycle one day and if I was out for too long and went too far I would then switch to using a bus. Long, long, long have I stated this. Because sometimes I simply am buggered to cycle again the following day and if I try I used to end up with a lot of muscular pain .. despite the fact that Guy's Hospital told me that if I had not already figured out that cycling helps with Fibromyalgia symptoms .. they would have told me to buy a bike! But they key word they gave me was ..

"PACING!"

Yeah well .. it turns out there is more to it than that .. but then that Dr Kirkham was not even aware of the only drug that works with non-restorative sleep was Sodium Oxybate.

In some cases over-exercise or over-training has even resulted in cardiac arrest and death on the track. - https://www.elektramagnesium.com.au/dangers-over-exercise/

Yeah well there it is!

It was not that long ago that I stated that one of the many times I thought I was going to have a heart attack was travelling on a bus to the court hearing. You know? That first one where they did not even bother to turn up but then became guilty of double-standards by pulling me about not turning up to the second one?!

Over-doing it has resulted in cardiac arrest and death. Told yah!

Another thing I have always hated and I should state here, what it states on that webpage, you should be aware of if you have low magnesium levels, or Hypomagnesemia?

I absolutely loathe diet drinks and now it turns out that some sweeteners will deplete your magnesium levels? Are you frikkin serious?! Did they not tax sugar so that they put less of it in our drinks to help our health?! Now it might turn out that the increase in the use of sweeteners will increase death rates?! I .. I .. simply .. do not believe it!

I wonder how long before this little nugget will actually come out in the news media or to put it another way .. how many people will they kill before they realise that the sugar tax was all and only about money?!

Ooh wait .. was it suggested by Doctors? The same Doctors that NEVER look at their patients magnesium levels as stated in several places all over the Internet?!

The same Doctors that ignored my magnesium levels for years that has nearly killed me several times, out me in Accident & Emergency over half a dozen times and might now be well on its way of killing me for sure? THOSE DUMB-ARSE DOCTORS?!

LMAO!

FAMILIARITY WITH THE NIGHT BRINGS DEATH

I'm fucked.

No .. really.

According to this scientific study many of us that have trouble sleeping well become familiar with death a lot sooner than others.

Ooh craaaap! That means .. night workers too?!

I have to look into this deeper before I post this because I simply don't understand it. How can this be?

What was occurring or what was noticed due them to even begin a study like this?!

I honestly would never have thought anything .. like this .. ever.

Sleep is a needed thing that all animals have to do and .. well .. not everyone .. or everything .. sleeps at night. In fact some animals have puzzled us for years how they ever manage to sleep at all .. like ..

How do Dolphins sleep? Whales, even? See?!

Sleep has been both a mystery to me and a bugbear for many, many years.

Along with one other bodily requirement and it's two connected things of food and waste it's the third thing that holds us back. It's probably been responsible for countless deaths that would be staggering to discover. Well by that .. I mean accidents because of feeling tired, sleepy or even falling asleep. Like at the wheel of a car? Or operating dangerous machinery?

It's one of those things that when I have harped on about Fibromyalgia being ignored that readers would realise on their own.

I really don't like and try not to spell everything out for everyone. I like people to go off, even in a tizz or angry with me and then realise later and come back. It just had not happened as much as I liked or expected. Well I'm closing in on a million but I thought I'd be closing in on ten million after all this time?! Ooh well .. still helping.

So yeah .. I'm a little surprised and taken aback with this one.

Night owls more likely to die earlier than morning larks, first study finds http://flip.it/PsZBK0

THE DRAGGING DAYS

Oh boy, I really do not know what is wrong with me lately.

I feel so bloody tired and to do anything takes a monumental effort from me.

I have had my Neurology appointment, awaiting a scan at the Royal Free Hospital.

Got a letter for an appointment yesterday morning for an appointment in 2017?! I first thought this was the colonoscopy appointment I was waiting for. Turned out to be another Neurology appointment and must be a follow up to the scan I have to have at Royal Free Hospital. I think I stated I was told I was not epileptic and I told the Doctor/Specialist that I knew this already? I had to have some blood tests yesterday too for the same thing I also planned to see a friend. Got the bike out flat back tyre. Pumped it up, now had to go to Halfords and get another slime tube. Went there. Got that slime tube and had to buy another air pump as the one I got would not work with Schraeder valves. Was going to get bus up to hospital and realised while I was out I had left my Freedom Pass at home?! Went home, took back wheel off and inner tube out and then realised I had the wrong inner tube, Presta valve. Used another inner tube I was sure had a leak still as I thought I had failed to repair it. Now back on bike and back to Halfords. Did not have the right inner tube so had to make one for me. Told me it would be cheaper but actually cost me £1.50 more. Back to bike and tyre still inflated? Huh, that is weird. Up to hospital … noticed half of hospital was missing. After blood tests back to see friend at his store, got something to drink but was too late and now feeling … well, fucked. So went on to other friend's house to feed his animals and clean a couple out. Found his female tortoise was really ill, wondered about what to do. Text my friend, owner, in Crete about it. Watched Quatermass & The Pit while I was there. No answer from friend so went home.

Jesus! One bloody day!

Lately nothing good ever happens. It is also becoming the norm too! What with everything I have seemingly happening to me these days are simply not on!

Got home felt dizzy and ill while sitting on sofa. Got down on the floor and laid there for a while going from my side to my back. Felt sleep as I normally do late afternoons but this was with feeling sick on top. Went upstairs to y bed and the next thing I knew it had gone from around 6 or 7pm to midnight!

Got up next day feeling fucked.

Decided to go to friend's store but he was not chatty at all. So I decided to leave him in peace and I went to get some stain remover for clothes I have been forgetting to get for around 8 weeks, was shocked when I stopped and realised how long I had been forgetting it. Also some washing up liquid I had been forgetting for like a month.

Actually finally got them.

Drag, drag, drag or loads and loads of crap. This is all my days consist of lately. Two family members that had been ringing me fairly regularly have stopped, one on holiday and the other one God knows where.

I am feeling so tired all the time.

Got to contact Eon Energy and make a payment to them and give them an explanation as I keep forgetting to pay them. This is why I did not want to look after anyone's house and pets while they was away. One week would cause me problems enough but we are talking about 5.5 weeks, and yes that is five and a half weeks.

Hmm I just coughed. Oddly I started to have this cough as of yesterday and the funny thing is a I rarely ever cough, do not often get coughs even when I have contracted a cold from somewhere. I then remembered yesterday that I was asked if I had a cough by the specialist/Doctor. The answer art the time was a 'no' but now I do have one.

I have had no answer to either of my two emails about my rent payments from Enfield Council.

Considering what the news of the possibility of being homeless did to me I do not appreciate their usual time wasting.

I already have a court hearing that will take place a half a mile from my house because the DWP refused to come to my house which is an awful waste of time and the taxpayers money and I will be bloody well stamping that down with gusto at the hearing I attend.

They did all that and for what? Because they would not get off their arses to get to someone who is disabled so now they have to come to the place they initially refused to come to anyway? To attend a hearing? Yeah that makes perfect fucking sense.

They will have the audacity to speak to me like I am an idiot and when they do I will rip them a new hole so big they would be able to drive a car through it. They wont dare do the same to their next intended victim.

You see when I get like I am, no energy, blacking out every five minutes, cannot get things done and keep forgetting other things I start to get angry. I have told enough people about this and no one seems to even take note, let alone give a shit.

Lie giving a shit when it comes to salaries of hundreds of thousands of pounds though, don't they?

But you see there comes a time when things become … inevitable. I have had a couple of people now mention to me that they realise that the NHS and the government do not give a shit whether people are dying or not as long as they are saving money. I was also told it wont ever change? I say that is not entirely correct. It might seem like it wont change for a fair old while but it will.

Because as they rightly have realised people are dying and before long there will be numbers so great that not even the news media that seemed to have been bought off or silenced somehow cannot ignore any longer. Oh they will make some excuse of how they missed it or clearly state how it was kept hidden from view up until the point that they reported it but it will not be correct. When this does occur, and it will, there will be no stopping it.

Despite how horrific the Harold Shipman revelation was this will dwarf it in ways no one could have ever imagined.

I was in the hospital for my Neurology appointment and I got the time wrong, do not know if I mentioned that? I got there are 12.15pm and the appointment was not until 2pm, yup … more shit.

When I eventually re-emerged at the correct time I found myself in a different part of the hospital form earlier on, but one I had been to before twice so was familiar with. I sat there for twenty minutes and it was lie a ghost ridden deserted old hospital! There was not a single person around at all and I could have wandered in and out of different clinics without being spotted. Yet when I saw the specialist she remarked as if they were inundated. I wondered whether or not her patients were all deceased as there was no one outside. This was because a nurse came in with a file and the specialist or Doctor said “Another one?” Odd.

Other parts of the hospital seemed normal … well apart from the large areas that had been demolished and I wondered if they had sold off large sections of the hospital to property developers? From what I could see, or rather could not see, was the the old Accident & Emergency, Maternity building and Chase Building seemed to have gone, probably along with others? Their were two or three of those large cranes that tower upwards around 100 feet or more. There used to be a one way road that went right around the hospital grounds but this was bordered off by tall blue solid steel walls right where the carp park ended. Before you get to the old A&E.

I was also a bit surprised when I was told I had to go to Royal Free Hospital … again. I had to go there about three years for an Electromyography or Nerve Conduction Study.

Huh, I just realised as that was requested by Neurology at Chase Farm Hospital and I was then discharged without warning after being given the definite impression by Royal Free Hospital, and I have that recording of course, that I would be seen again and that the guy I was under, Dominick Mort, would find out what was wrong with me?! Lol!

Jesus … if I die I might be the very patient that brings down the NHS?! I kept telling them there was something wrong but just like they always do act like they not only know better but have x-ray vision. This was what I used to call it, the x-ray vision attitude. That was before I then realised I was being deliberately messed about and suspected I was being lied to. I had this for several years before I even started recording them all. I have also been recording them all for around … I cannot recall five to seven years. I did not just decide to record them out of the blue … I had to realise first I had in fact been lied to and then record them. After all it would be madness to approach anyone and just state that all NHS Doctors are lying to a vast majority of their patients. No I could not do that … I would have to not record them doing this one or twice over a few months. No, I would have to do this dozens of times over several years and that is what I did.

The only thing is I sent this off with other stuff to the tabloids and TV news groups and I got nothing, nada, zilch and a zero just to top it all off. There was only one reason I would get no responses from all of the news media. It had to be corrupt too.

Someone recently realised how much I had and how much I had done and for how long. He asked if I sent anything off to the media and I said, hell yeah! Well .. in a round about way, lol.

After this I realised there was only one other way I could fight this and get the message out there … I started to blog.

It has still taken an inordinate amount of time though!

Still … I am currently a damn site closer to the end than I am to the beginning! Truly a damn site closer as I have been working on this for about 8 years coming up. Maybe more?

Maybe I have slowly burnt out? Maybe that and with a quick succession of things going on around now and the weather seemingly working against me I am just become a burnt out shell?

What worries me in times like this is having the energy to carry on.

Hopefully that energy may return someday?

It even occurred to be while out today that I should try some multi-vitamin pills? Jesus I would try anything just about now and I even remembered what someone told me the effect a certain drug had on people and I was thinking, hell I could do with that right now?!

My legs have been aching like crazy too. It feels like I have run a marathon and am still in my first or second day of recuperating?

I had a call from my friend's daughter and she reminded me how we still had twenty days of looking after the animals before my friend, her father, returns! Great, I really needed reminding of that! Lol.

I wondered is she and her boyfriend was feeling it too as somehow my friend managed to make sure someone was at the house every single day when only every other day was needed. Do not even get me started! Lol.

Maybe I will come out of this and hopefully soon? I hope it does not linger on for the next twenty days?! I am not sure what will be left of me.

I still have the council to sort out and hopefully they wont call me into that Royal Free Hospital appointment too soon? Oh yeah and I suppose the hearing could end up being arranged within the next couple weeks too?

Good God man! Does no one know the meaning of the term 'time out!'?

Oh well, have to keep soldiering on I guess?

This is partly why I have slowed down in my posts .. all of this and I never thought it would affect my posting on my blogs.

WHEN THE DAYS GROW LONGER

It has been a week and yet it feels more like three.

I still feel a little tired and it always surprises me when I get like this. Thursday I had a a lot to do in one day. Though my mother did not end up coming at the end. I had to go with two brothers to pick up suits for a wedding I do not even know I will be able to attend yet. That was lakeside and always feels weird whenever I am out of Enfield. Probably because I do not get to leave the area much?

On the way back they shut down a slip road onto the M25. Then we travelled along the A13 and suddenly there was traffic and there had been an accident. The journey back ended up taking a fair amount of time. I left my house between 5.30pm to 6pm. All we had to do was try on the suits and then come home. No more than two hours was needed if it was straight there and back but we did have to pick up another brother and a nephew.

It was somewhere between 10.30pm and 11.30pm when I got home.

The following day I felt like I had run a marathon the day before and was completely out of it all day. That was very weird. I had only done a lot as far as these days go and what I can manage while in reality I had done very little. The things I did were broken up with a few hours in between here and there. I would not even class it as anything close to a normal working day. Yet I was in a slumber and daze the rest of the next day.

The weird thing is my mind still wants to do things and hates the boredom of doing nothing but my body was feeling the opposite. The only thing I had to do that day was to spend an hour or two at a friend's house looking after his pets, I go around 4pm. But I had trouble doing that and really did not want to!

I woke up this morning and I looked at the aquarium and see the water was down to about 70% … 'groan'.

At least my mother decided not to complain about the state of the house and actually admitted for the first time that I am having difficulties because of my condition. Very good at playing down other people's ailments while talking up her own usually. Maybe it will go back to that before long?

God I feel so tired.

I only have to feed the animals today and a good job it was not me having to do it on Thursday.

But when I am doing this job for others my own stuff will get neglected and it is why I did not want to do it. Along with the feeling tired and the crap storm of my own life I have to sort out.

I have managed to work out that the wedding and the hospital appointment are going to be on days when I would normally have to feed said animals. So I have to wait and see how the temperatures are going to be for the wedding day, too hot and I cannot go, before I find out wether I am going to be forced to miss a day.

OK for something a little … weird.

Due to a particular subject that is familiar to me the world ended … umm two days ago at the time of typing! I missed that, the world ending, very obviously.

Weird?

That is no what was weird and neither is the fact that I am about to state that I heard this over the radio … though that is kind of part of it.

What was weird was that on Absolute Rock Radio they were talking about a news report that stated the world was going to end because of a 'Pole Shift'. This is a process whereby the Earth's core, which has different densities of iron which causes our magnetic field, switches the densities between the northern and southern hemispheres. I bought a DVD of a film years ago called The Core that was based on this possibility. It does this naturally every few hundred thousand years or so. Basically after the event your compasses will point in the opposite direction. But it is what goes on in between the magnetic pole going from north to south they do not know about.

In the film The Core it predicts catastrophic events. Which … are a possibility, we just simply do not know because we have no records of them. But … none of the previous ones have wiped out all life on Earth. Obviously. The process could take hundreds of years for all we know. Yes I would imagine it would screw up many instruments based on reading the magnetic north pole, which will not be there any more. But then there may not be many instruments that do this any more? I am not entirely sure to be honest.

No what was weird was when I decided to look at where this news story came from and I saw that the Telegraph and another national UK tabloid had run the story in a joking sort of way. It was sourced from a site called 'Armageddon News' and the weird bit came when it said a computerised female, I think it said, voice did the reporting.

Nothing that weird about a computerised voice except for the fact that I have suddenly found myself coming across these in recent weeks, after look at several things about Bigfoot due to someone I know sending me things. Because I have looked up a few things myself YouTube has decided I must like these types of stories and keeps recommending more. A very large majority of them are absolute tosh and yet they have attracted many, many views. I said before that someone spews utter bullshit and gets tens of thousands or even hundreds of thousands of views. Someone else does a few things on a few sites to help, show evidence and advise people about the truth and corruption and you, or rather I, get a tiny portion in comparison.

Lol.

I have said before that a great many of the things I have uncovered and spoke about have ended up in the news weeks, months and even years later. A few weeks back I find a load of these videos screaming 'doom' or mad 'conspiracies' with these odd computerised voices and suddenly for the first time ever I hear them mentioned in the mainstream news? That .. is weird.

Yet another coincidence in several years of a long list of coincidences that are blatant copies of extremely late to the party? I do not know for sure but that many coincidences is a little hard to swallow.

It was thought possible that this shift in magnetic poles could cause a great deal of things and it may even be why there has been an increases in volcanic activity and eruptions? But an increase in eruptions, if caused by the shift, could just increase a little over a long period of time, build up to a crescendo or suddenly increase exponentially over a short period of time? Once again we just do not know. They may discover this in time or they may not. My guess is that they will … st some point.

Many of these videos will claim that many things are already known, though they claim to make statements of facts that are known instead of worrying about what it is they do actually know which just confuses the issue so that you cannot separate the wheat from the chaff. In other words many off these morons do more harm than good to the actual cause they believe they are working towards. Many of them are probably just working on the idea that sounding like there is an impending apocalypse attracts a lot of people and therefore hits, even if they are naïve people … naïve people will probably click on that link to buy a bunker, for instance?

The pole shift is just one of these possible catastrophic events along the line of meteor strikes and global warming. Speaking of which no one has ever mentioned the possibility of the increase in frequency and, at times, size of volcanic activity towards as regards to global warming. Forget everything else you can think of as a volcano must heat up billions of cubic metres of air and with an increase in the number of eruptions this must have a very noticeable effect?

Funny how we worry about the things we do not know about? Well some of us while the others continue on being amoral and extremely selfish and inhumane towards others when doom could be lurking around each corner? Ever corner may sound a little too much but at the end of the day it only takes one corner. I would bet that the volcanologists, astronomers and several others are all putting their own cases towards their own governments every so often about the possible dangers and why their budgets should be raised or not cut? Meteorologists too. The list of potential dangers are long and there has long since been an attitude of complacency. 'It has never happened in 100 years so it wont happen for the next twenty' and nature will always teach us a serious lesson about each and every one in time. But I do not know when that will be. Whether that is next week or 100 years I simply do not know. No one does. But there seems to have been years and years of people that claim to only to be proved wrong? But like the 'every corner' phrase I used earlier … it might only take one?

Oh yeah, I forgot about Einstein's, I think it was, theory on continental shift, also having its own theatrical film in '2012'. The film '2012' and not in '2012'. Yes the idea was of a Mayan calender prophecy theory but continental shift, or drift, is nevertheless a possibility. This may come about because of a Pole Shift? After all the Earth's crust sits on liquid and that liquid is what we are talking primarily about here. That huge amount of molten liquid shifting about could very well move the crust at the surface around. It is by no means a stretch of anyone's imagination to see that happening. Along with monumental earthquakes. But that would rather depend on the speed of the core moving about and it may well be that this has taken places both quickly and slowly in our distant history? Once again we simply do not know …. yet.

The funny thing is if it does happen in the next few hundred years we would have wished to God we had poured all our disposable taxes into space exploration and flight. It might not be just a pole shift that may make us regret that … meteor strikes and other things may make us regret that?

Speaking of which that is yet another thing that some conspiracy theorists have questioned and that is the sudden quest to get people on Mars. They think the government know something which is why there has been a huge drive towards space flight and Mars in recent years. But there are two things to bear in mind and one is that us travelling in space is somewhat … late. Very late. When I was at school they taught us that man would likely walk on Mars around 2004. So we are twelve years late and have no real definite date, I mean just a year, when this might happen. The other thing is that if indeed they are right about their theory then the approaching catastrophe must be some ways off? Unless of course men are on Mars right now and they kept that a secret? Lol.

Hmm now that I think about it there was some odd reports about millions of things like food and packaged water being ordered in America? Hmm that sends a shudder down my spine! In fact I am remembering claims now that there was some agreement with Russia, 'claimed', about using their troops to Police people in America as if they were expecting something?

Despite what you may or may not think about conspiracy theorists and their wild claims they do all have one thing right. We would not be told or at least not until the very last minute and we would be expected to be grateful that they told us at all. Lol.

The real question to ask, especially of the real conspiracy theorists is ...'How are you going to know?' Your not. You can only look for signs and guess. Maybe one day something will crop up that will be difficult to ignore? You can claim that they are keeping a lid on it in the media but that only goes so far. If too many in the media being privy to such knowledge someone will speak out or give the game away in one way or another? Loads of journalists moving to or buying land in Siberia or Greenland might be one? That might be a bit extreme but sudden large numbers of people emigrating might be another one? A bit like the migrants flooding to Europe? Except it would have to be a country capable of spotting this approaching Armageddon. America, Europe, Britain, China, Japan or any number of others?

Kinda makes me wonder why in the hell I have been getting humongous anxiety attacks over a public service, or the UK government's, attempt to make me homeless?

I stated that my anxiety makes no sense to me and seems to have a mind of its own and no rhyme or reason to the attacks happening? Well there is one case in point. I think on this occasion it is undoing all the work I have done while struggling with my health conditions and the losing of all the tools I have acquired? Even though I had somewhere … mapped out to … umm sleep during the time I was homeless not only would I have the pains and the embarrassing things going into overdrive I would not have access to my tools to continue working on my blogs and YouTube stuff.

There me exactly a year ago today thinking that by now I would have vastly expanded all of my blogs and YouTube channel and being on cloud number nine? That ended up getting extended by at least 18 months and now with about a year to go I just got knocked unconscious by a very large spanner.

Where are the conspiracy theorists now?