Due to really bad and wast of space
digital banking leading to a unforeseen turn of events that meant
that I would have to either decide to eat food or go without and get
my internet connection.
I decided to take a break from the
Internet and slaving over the blogs, or more specifically this one.
It turns out that there were several
errors that the digital banking made and I went without either and
this digital banking, well with the Royal Bank of Scotland at any
rate, really cannot be relied on at all.
At times like this I cannot help but
wonder about people that deal with larger amounts of money and who
earn a half decent salary to others up in the higher echelons?!
Still as ever I will survive and I
wonder what the six days of being offline will bring as I am never
offline that much and with the subject matter of my last post and
this being an unplanned departure of sorts as well as the fact that
my absence was spotted even after a couple of days by members of the
DPAC group this is...longer than anything in recent months.
Still I am able to get around to do
other things I have been putting off for many, MANY months and
though I have re-arranged my house and tidied it in the past I have
never...fully finished what I started...or if I am honest I always
plan to get over the last hurdle and never do.
One of the things was a broken glass
vase that has sat on my dining table, never used for dining, which
has sat there since a few days after I bought it from TK Maxx when it
exploded n my hands. I finally got to get rid of it and re-arrange
the house as well as re-pot a few plants too. My Aloe plant and a
Cactus which were each sharing a pot with a Silver Squill now have
their own pots as do the Silver Squills.
The laptop was never even switched on
at all until I became all philosophical in thought while I was
attempting to do the many things I always tend to put off.
Oddly and may come as a surprise to
some I hate an untidy house and it does not help that my house is
quite small either and the smaller it is the easier and faster it
becomes untidy.
Added to this my house looks pretty
with its hard pine veneer flooring but it is not good for my feet but
I was just so desperate to get out of where I resided before I never
thought twice. In fact I did not really think it would be that much
of a problem but it has been a bigger one than I had anticipated but
I have managed to get by.
During my spring clean I overheard a
few things and one of these was an interviewee who worked as a
Fireman, I think he was, were he was answering to a remark of a
colleague being called a hero after a car crash because he had been
injured or maybe even died. I did not really catch the whole news
report it was more what he said that caught my attention and started
me thinking as I laboured.
“He did what any of us would do”
was what I heard or something very similar. It almost seemed as if he
was miffed that everyone was harping on about this one man when there
were indeed many men. At first I thought it was amusing as he would
likely get a backlash for saying it before it suddenly dawned on me
that I had misread what he was actually insinuating. Or maybe it was
just me reading more into it than is actually there. Even so the
things that I realised still stand just the same.
This man who was injured or killed was
called a hero but this only came about because of an injury or death.
I have a huge admiration for people that put themselves at risk to
help others and I DO MEAN HELP OTHERS. DO not take this to mean that
because someone wears a uniform that insinuates that they do help
others to those that actually DO. There is a big difference and the
waters have certainly been muddied by behind the scenes meddlers in
recent years.
The sad fact is that these people are
taken for granted until their sacrifice costs them either seriously
or ultimately. This is a sad fact and this has not been lost by the
people who put their lives on the line. This was picked up by me on
hearing then end of the news report and it sounded like it was picked
up by others too. An example of the media being blunt, thoughtless
and seemingly blind to a bunch of people who work for the emergency
services who were obviously run ragged at the scene.
Yes I could fully relate to that and
even more so in recent times too as lack of any kind of
acknowledgement for the sacrifices I made did not even warrant a
thank you email from any one single person I contacted. I also say
that even though I did not expect a response and indeed went on
contacting as many as I can while spending much of my Incapacity
Benefit to highlight the things I knew and the data I had to see how
many would not acknowledge me.
Indeed this lack of acknowledgement
caused me a great deal of difficulties and I then went on and non
thinking of more and more genius ways to get things out and knew I
had to keep going. You see I was involved in a whole list of things
each of which could have gotten anything from a small column to prime
time news and the fact that one individual did all this would have
garnered a fair deal of attention. It did not and it was not the lack
of acknowledgement that was a problem it was the knock on effect that
this had on others around me.
Instead of getting trust and support
individuals decided that I must be bullshitting and never once asked
to see any of my data. In fact one friend ran out of my house like a
Gazelle and moved north to the Newcastle area when he saw one
government document that I had actually told him about 4 to 6 months
before hand.
So I discovered the hard way that the
Police, the NHS, Local Councils, the DWP and even the media that
includes all the major tabloids and TV News channels were so utterly
trusted that it was I that was doubted. It was highly likely that
this was indeed the plan of the powers in hand but this was going to
end up being an extremely bad choice to make.
There were two problems and the first
being that there was no way on earth I was going to rest until I had
proved my point and that I had been telling the truth all along and
it was a double edged sword that not only did I have an obvious way
of doing this available to me but that I could reach a lot more
people. This blog.
I had stuck my neck out and took what
could have been and still turn out to be the ultimate sacrifice and
yet I found myself slap bang in the middle of a system that was set
up to punish me for doing the honourable thing. The right thing.
Before this all started I felt persecuted by the public offices, the
civil servants, and even the Doctors and was struggling to know why
this was and how it worked. After I spent two years doing all this
and then after it was, or at least appeared to be, over I then
started to feel persecuted because I did all this and did not get a
wage for it.
It is just totally insane from my point
of view and to me it is as if the world has gone mad.
For those that have read a fair few
posts you would have noted that one of my pet hates is sound bites.
In fact Pet Hate is something of an understatement and it infuriates
me when people want to make snap decisions based on as little
information as they can take in because they are bored or do not want
to take the time to understand. It is not hard to get me to react
to...comments that have obviously been made on this basis and
especially when it has been worded in such a way that the individual
posting the comments talks with a kind of authority that they simply
do not have or even a knowledge or wisdom that they simply do not
have. When the answers to their comments are actually all here and
found with a simple search it is worse.
My point in all this is that nothing is
as it seems, nothing actually works and it is all a charade and I say
this WITH authority as I certainly been through it all and taped it
all to boot.
The need to back myself up via this
blog long since passed by a long time ago so I do this for others.
I have been down all the paths for
advice and help and it is totally lacking while they have attitudes
developed from delusions of grandeur. This is the worst kind and in
my eyes it will always be the worst kind of waste of public taxes.
Large amounts of money for organisations that do not do what they
claim to. In fact it gets worse for me when on their websites they
talk themselves up at how much good they have done and I wonder if
the ones that come up with these lines actually leave the house, but
a newspaper or own a TV?!
All these help and advice agencies and
yet these are the worst times I have ever witnessed in my 45 years. I
also know it is far from over and not quite rock bottom just yet,
unfortunately.
As scaremongering as that sounds it
happens to be the truth and it really does me no favours at all.
After all if next month we start rocketing out of the never ending
slump and people start to spend money and the government then thinks
it can stop kicking people when they are down for me it will take
off. The fact that I thought it should have done before now is
neither here nor there.
Because people will visit my OTHER
blogs and click more links and there will be more purchases and this
means more income for me where I get none right now. I would be like
that of a surfer riding the crest of a wave.
But this will not happen any time soon
so my path to an income to replace the disability money I lost, well
at least that at any rate, has been a long drawn out one. Best of all
the income that I may or may not acquire would be done based on
honesty and openness and no trickery, illegalities or misleading. A
good honest income based on my abilities to help, write, capture
peoples attention and imaginations and help them to see and maybe
even teach them a thing or two.
I stand by the claims about the numbers
present to me on my blog accounts but I will make a great deal of
noise on here if I think there is the tiniest chance I am being
played or used as cheap labour. After all I have no one to CONTACT
about it so I will make a great deal of noise so that the hosts or
possible perpetrators will think twice, change anything that may be
in place to fool me and maybe do the decent thing and open a line of
communication so that I can correct anything that is wrong, though I
was told that all is fine.
Of course the one thing I was sure of
was that I had gotten noticed before I started this blog. I was also
well aware that I would cause a great deal of waves that would grow
to Tsunami like proportions and that this would make a great deal of
people...very uncomfortable. To counter act this I would often
insinuate that if any one of them was to take some kind of action
that this would only serve to make themselves look very guilty and
added to this would make them a target of chatter and as there were
17,000 visitors when I had last looked would have a great deal of
tongues wagging.
You can not buy off the Internet and
this was always going to be my ace up my sleeve where all this was
concerned. When all else had failed I would turn to the Internet to
finish what I started so therefore I used all the avenues that are
available to people who are suffering and when none of it worked I
came on here. I would be pretty stupid to come on here and talk about
this without doing the obvious things first and indeed I have
traverses many avenues that very few people are aware of.
It is … quite simply … BAD. There
are a countless amount of organisations and help agencies and they
are not helping people, or at least are biased about who they ARE
helping. I have had a few highly professional people admit this to
me. Without inviting them to do so too. “The government have all
this money and give it to all the wrong people” was on line that
burned into my mind and left me speechless.
When the recession started the one
thing I knew is that there is far too much money being wasted in this
way and was part and parcel to the problems that the UK faces and
that this would need to be addressed before we could ever come out of
this mess.
Nobody spends money and no one borrows
money because they do not trust the system though I am sure for the
most part they do not even know WHY it cannot be trusted but it clear
nevertheless than it CANNOT be trusted. No dodgy courts and no dodgy
judges can do a damn thing to change that but are quite probably part
and parcel to them problem.
Many things I have touched upon has
likely probably touched upon by others of this I have no doubt. The
difference I thought I could make is that while each person has
followers to do with this particular subject. People become narrow
minded in develop tunnel vision.
To cure a patient you need to know all
the facts and all the symptoms. If a Doctor is not familiar with ALL
AILMENTS then it stands to reason that all symptoms throughout the
body need to be logged and studied to see if there is a link, not one
symptom at a time as is currently the way it is done.
So groups pursuing their one 'thing' or
focus and pushing all their time and energy thinking that this one
thing will solve all problems are misguided and wrong. You need to
know all the problems and then have a course laid out to deal with
each of these symptoms in turn. AS each ailments is cured so
gradually will the patient be cured.
Hanging on to the old ways out of fear
or bloody mindedness and even purely amoral reasons because you think
that YOU will lose something is NOT the way and will only ensure the
suffering is long and prolonged.
Wile this long and protracted hell
continues the more often the pressure cooker will boil over and that
escaping steam will scorch and destroy things around it with varying
degrees.
Depending on whereabouts you poke a
savage Tiger will ultimately have varying effects of getting away
with some deep scratches a few dozen stitches can put right or it
will take your head off. Plus there is all the possibilities in
between.
I have memories of conversations with
people that span many previous decades that always led to the
individual I was conversing with coming to the conclusion that I was
here for a reason. I had brief connections of areas of the occult to
along the lines of divination but was never one to believe that fate
was mapped out for me as that meant no matter what path I took I
would revisit that one way path that would lead to some preordained
destiny.
I could never really quite go with that
even if an age old theory of mine was that the multi-verse only
consisted of the same universe but with its different 'lives' based
on the idea and theory of the universe repeating itself. From the Big
Bang to the Big Crunch and so on and so forth with only slight
deviations allowed by some cosmic rule from one of these dimensions
to the next. Then of course this could explain that this 'divination
of the future' was just some way of tapping into a pre-existing
universe that we already existed in?!
Brr the thought of constantly re-living
my life is enough to want to make me take my own?! Oh no but wait, if
that is the case then I will only return to the beginning?!
BRRRR!! THE SHIVERS!!
Coming back down to earth from my
philosophical meanderings of life, the universe and everything I am
therefore able to more easily explain away my lack of understanding
of the general reluctance of the wider public to want to understand
or take in too much detail?! Do you have a wedding to get to? Perhaps
you have just been diagnosed with the Big 'C' and only have mere
weeks to live?! Perhaps people think that they have something so
vitally important that seeing the bigger picture is not and that
dealing with this one thing, which will only return in another guise.
Will solve or your issues. Well until it returns in another guise.
Hmm did I not just say that? De Jevu! Or IS IT?
No the truth is I have always been able
to tell my stories and philosophise and draw a crowd of willing
listeners. Once I get started it will go in into the small hours and
has done so on a great many occasions. There was a time when I was
deliberately prompted at gatherings by people that had previously
heard them and because there were people I had not met before present
that had heard rumours of them. I have been told a great many times
that I would end up being a great many things and one of these is a
successful writer but like the others this never came to be. Well for
one thing my life never seemed to go very long without turmoil
sometimes created by some unsavoury individual that entered my life
whose cares never spread very far beyond their own needs and wants as
well as death to someone I either knew or was related to. Never
getting a diagnosis for my list of ailments never really helped
either.
Several times I started a book on both
fiction and non-fiction but it always become shelved because of one
thing or another. Indeed the very odd thing about these partially
complete books is that many years later I went on to start 3 separate
books and nigh on finish them. Then I got wrapped up with Literary
Agents who all seemed lecture about the industry and what was wanted
and with each saying something different to the last and then me
finding out that a vast majority of the time they and the publishers
they dealt with seem to have very differing ideas on what was wanted.
Namely the smell of money led many
literary agents to go after something that had already been done, the
sequels are rarely as successful as the originals unless your James
Cameron. So many waste their time looking for the next Star Wars, the
next Harry Potter and even the next Shawshank Redemption and the
publishers know that the next truly big hit that will become a money
spinner and franchise will have to be something...NEW.
Mind you I always think that it must be
hard for many as often there can only be so many stories to tell and
many must already have been told.
Currently I am awaiting the 'next big
thing' to come out that might encourage some people to spend money
and I quoted this over a year ago and stated it is what it would take
and stand by it today. We need one or two new things at least. A
couple of 'wow' factors and something that makes us want something so
bad that we would do almost anything, within reason, to own one. I
very much doubt it will be the Play-station 4 or Xbox 720 either as
we kind of know what to expect with that. A recent report I read
stating that they had created artificial skin that can sense touch
and the amount of pressure that would do wonders for prosthetic
limbs, MUCIS TO MY EARS I CAN TELL YOU, and obviously robots too.
This could well lead to the next big thing or things and indeed there
could be many different possibilities with this technology.
However technology has been increasing
and improving at a rate of knots for years...we just have not seen
it. Or more accurately allowed to see it! I believe most of this
technology has been locked up under wraps by the military in various
countries. I suppose it stands to reason that there must have been a
point in time when the military decided that not too much technology
should be available to the public. Well they would lose
their...'edge'. I also wonder of there were things that did come out
that the military did not realise at the time just how far reaching
these things would become. After all there was a point in time when
an ex military man started working for Microsoft.
Now despite not really being able to
speak of any technology they may have, because we simply do not know,
I do wonder how different things would have been had they not held
back a lot of things. This is for my money a very bad thing to do and
stifles the human race's progression along with one other thing and
that is inventing a company to get money out of nothing, or for
nothing. Here in the UK we have an old saying 'Made in Heaven, sold
on Earth!' which we use to describe the greedy water authorities and
heir humongous annual bills for something that falls out of the sky
for free. I remember a Jasper Carrot sketch years ago when they
started charging for water and as he walked through the hallways to
get to the stage he would pass various people with pump dispensers
looking identical to that in a petrol station (gasoline pump) and
when he was almost at the stage there was someone selling AIR!
If you base society on a system whereby
you get used to acquiring a vast amount of money and taxes on
something that either IS free or SHOULD BE FREE you are doomed to
failure eventually. The longer it goes on the more confident and
greedy you get and the more you get used to having so that when a
time comes that you suddenly do not have all this available wonga
coming in any longer you will run around screaming at everyone
because it is not there any longer. Well you should not have had it
to begin with and you only have yourselves to blame.
Another one of these is fuel, or more
accurately energy. This is a commodity that has become ridiculously
relied on for extremely large amounts of cash. But we have had solar
power for bloody donkey's years! There is a huge battery floating out
in space and life itself exists because of it and it powers most
natural events on earth! I read quite some time ago now that a new
solar panel had been invented that would collect and charge batteries
for times as rapidly as they were currently charging and this was
impressive. Where are they? Come to think of it the maximum amount of
energy that can be squeezed into a rechargeable battery has barely
changed in a fair few years now and any that quote a higher amount of
Milli Amps per Hour normally...DON'T!
Anyway...we need these wow factors that
is for sure and even so I am not sure it would get anything really
started and even if it did I am not sure how long it would last. It
is just that they have built a society that we entrusted to them out
of lies and deceit and it has got to a stage now whereby it is too
far to go back and yet there is no more road to traverse. Sideways
motions are also off the agenda too and my mind wanders at times with
the possible alternatives that simply do not exist. As some tried to
convince me of let there is no solution that involves removing anyone
or two key elements/people/leaders and in so doing all that would
result from this is that these stubborn people who believe that there
way is the only way while the world and societies crumble at their
feet doggedly stick the these outdated plans while driving societies
into ever more depraved depths of suffering and anguish.
Someone, somewhere is needed to teach
them while THEY themselves need to be humble and this is the only way
out failing this 'wow' factor theory. The trouble with the latter is
that you will wind up back to square one at some point, maybe not in
our lifetime but maybe our children's or our children's children's
children.
No it truly is a right pickle we are in
and as we have seen already how long it continues for and how bad it
will get is solely down to how stubborn and how greedy a minority of
people truly are.
I sometimes wonder if I will even see
us out of this predicament in the remainder of my life and in all
honesty … I simply do not know.
After all I do NOT know
everything....just MOST things, LMAO.
Now I must remember that when I have my
Internet connection back up and after posting this I must start
looking up companies behind these robotic prosthetics on the cutting
edge of the technology and as of them if they are in need of a
'guinea pig'!
