THREE OF MY BAD DAYS

Going two better there than one Roger Waters, from his and Pink Floyd's lyrics to the track One Of My Turns, if I remember correctly, from The Wall album.

Good job with the live alum of the latest live concert to The Wall, Roger, but about time you did a follow up to the very good Amused To death? Maybe? Lol.

Anyhoo on to my bad days.

I agreed, though I shouldn't have done really, to look after some pets for a friend while they was in Italy. Odd as they always lectured me on how to spend money and one is broke and the other not worked for 18 months but have been to both Norway and Italy this year alone.

I have no doubts that there annual 3 week visit to Crete is only a couple of months away too?

Well the day before my first visit to feed both aquariums, four ponds, five tortoises, a Goldfinch Muel, Canary and one talking Budgerigar I got tired in the afternoon, despite doing very little. I had to return home but had a GP appointment to get to and I had a print-out I wanted to give him, as my memeory causes me to forget to mention things to him. I had so many now that some might be important, crucial or even life threatening. Unless we, or rather you, are a Doctor you simply do not know. Funny how the government expects us all to be Doctors though? Lol.

At home I was drained, still intending to make my appointment and went to go upstairs to get something and my right ankle, or Achilles tendon, clicked badly and I jerked in pain and then fell onto my wooden stairs. Ouch!

Fell asleep on the sofa and never made my appointment. First time that has happened in a few years, do not know if I am going to be charged that £10 they talked about for that.

The following day I was waiting for a package to arrive, from the UK E-CIG store, a bit odd, of e-liquids for my ... ahem, well e-cigarettes of Marshmallow Man, Suicide Bunny's Original Bunny and Donuts Juices ... umm Donuts. I had a quick run through all the major vape stores websites when I spotted something at the Juice Shop's website.

A Smok TFV4 micro atomiser!

I had wanted one of these since finding out they existed but thus far they only seemed to come in a kit with a box mod. I own two box mods and really did not want another one. As I have Joyetech's Cuboid and Laisimo's Snow Wolf 200W why would I need another one? No one locally stocked the kit anyway and just the day before I ended up buying a Smok TFV4 Mini. Yes smaller than my TFV4 Full but not quite as small as I wanted.

So the Juice Shop in Edmonton had them ... except they were also part of a kit ... but with a difference.

These ones came with a cylindrical battery and I like these designs. Added to that it was a lot cheaper than the box mod kit, around £15 to £20 cheaper.

So I got my three e-juices and promptly jumped on a bus.

Scott at the shop must have heard me and come out to chat but the Smok One Sticks, as they are called, were not on show. Think they were surprised I had spotted them and come down for one as they were pretty new and not long had them.

There were four colours and I was interested in the black tank so bought the black kit. There was silver too .. just checking .. dumb-arse, yeah red forgot about that and white.

Saw a Pipe design battery, I think by Smok also, had a look at the other Stick one with a Nano TFV4 too and eventually left.

Bus back to Sainsburys, bought some Warburton's Hot Dog Rolls, as all I had were in my freezer, then headed for my friends house. Not that far to go but I started feeling tired again as I had done the afternoon before. It got worse rather rapidly too.

Doing the chores expected of me wore ou any energy I had. I put their TV on to watch something and tried to relax for a bit to recuperate.

I was reminded of doing stuff like this when were previously friends four years beforehand.

I also realised that doing my own stuff was going to get hard and become stressful and was already stressing. Even right now I have run out of one of those things that will make others cringe.

Toilet roll! LMAO!

When I eventually got home about 6pm I went um my stairs, feeling really rough at this point, and crashed out on my bed, asleep almost immediately. Woke up wondering where I was.

On my second visit to the house I fell asleep on their sofa and woke up thinking I was at home, before then groaning and then realising I had other things to do before I could even leave to go home.

Doing my own stuff is a pain in the arse due to rushing and/or forgetting, due to both a list of pains I experience and my short term memory losses that drive me to distraction.

Doing things like this for someone else I am quite literally losing half of my time foing favours for others.

I am now reminded that I will be asked to do this for three weeks ion a couple of months and I am going to have to say, no.

When I woke up at home in the evening on my second day of feeling rough I suddenly realised something else and something that was extremely vital to all that I had said and done and the points made on here. The same points I have made to my GP in a print-out he never received last week...

..I had forgotten to take my pills for two days running. I first realised I had forgotten them that morning and as I was feeling like crap the day before it made me think about how I left the house the day before and where I was going when I realised that I had also forgotten them the morning before as well. Going back three days is impossible for me.

In the Juice Shop Scott had experienced having a cold or flu virus. I told him that I never really get them and co go several years without contracting anything. That was that morning of my second bad day and had not taken any pills.

Would you believe that when I woke up on the third day my head was banging a little, I had a very sore throat and felt very whoozy and a burning nose?! Damn it! Bocked myself there?!

But the I had not taken my pills and as a result was very run down and so probably why I had contracted the flu?

A third day not good enough for you?

Then how about this?

I took the pills on the third morning I had forgotten for at least two mornings previously. Now I have always maintained to various Doctors that there is something up with my nasal passages and have had difficulties for years. The last two years I had thought there was something wrong at the back of my throat and like a hole or a gap or something. this was due to the way air moved through it as one day it just felt different. This was a few years back now.

Well ... one of my pills felt like it was in an odd and unusual place at the back of my throat and as I washed them down with milk it felt like it went somewhere it shouldn't. I thought it was my imagination.

Except as I was sipping my mug of tea suddenly I started to get a burning sensation at the back of my throat and realise this was a pills that was dissolving and must be in some hole somewhere?

I drank more tea to wash it away and the burning only got worse, I guess from ore of whatever pill it was dissolving. I ended up snorting to try to move it and BAM!

Suddenly  the burning became painful and I felt something go into my lungs that did not feel right!

Now this continued on for over an hour and in that time I resisted the temptation to dial '999' several times and probably not wise due to a potential problem with a lung?

Anyway I got over that period, thank God.

But I ended up with some kind of cold like virus and has played havoc with my taste and smell as food and drink I love tastes like crap and those e-juices of Donuts by Donut Juice, Marshmallow Man and Suicide Bunny's Original Bunny all tasted the bloody same!

Well either that or someone is faking or repackaging empty bottles with the exact same e-juices?!

LMAO!

I doubt that of course, hopefully my taste will return soon. But then the same company did try and sell an e-cigarette known as a Vicious Ant Vari-Ant for a lot more than the already ridiculous price £500 on an eBay auction. Lol.

I never made it out today either, Monday now, not even to rebook my GP appointment.

Hopefully tomorrow I will get out and hopefully I will finally remember to get some BLOODY BOG ROLL?!

LMAO!

A SIMPLE QUOTE ABOUT FIBROMYALGIA

This morning I was just perusing my wishlists on my Amazon account when I spotted a book, thrown up by Amazon as I have researched books quite heavily on this subject, on Fibromyalgia. I was not familiar with the title or the cover so I had a quick look.

However what I found was a rather interestingly written synopsis for the book I thought I would include here on a post along with a lonk to the book.

This brief paragraph explains to the absolute letter what it has been like for me. Bear in mind this is not for a year until they discovered it. Nor is this for two or three years until the diagnose it. No, no, no this is for thirteen years until it is I that diagnosed it and then realising I have suffered with it a great deal longer than those thirteen years. Also asking useless hospitals and GPs within the corrupt NHS about these other symptoms also.

In fact if you persue this blog a great deal and you head back in time through the archives you will find that the comments below are not only listed a great deal during the life of the blog but I list key points, ones that I REMEMBER OF COURSE, that go back over ten years.

There are millions of women and men worldwide who suffer from an invisible disease called Fibromyalgia. Often times these Fibro warriors hear insensitive questions/statements from family and friends like… “But you don’t look sick.” “Why do you stay up so late?” “Why don’t you want to come over anymore?” “Just push through it.” “Are you faking it?”. Michael R. Holien has written a little book to help usher people toward compassion and ultimately make people aware of this real and debilitating disease. Loving Those With Fibro will give you practical ways to love people struggling with Fibromyalgia.

This is just one single aspect of the utter turmail that has been my life thus far with Fibromyalgia and a prime example of the deteriating affect your life can take because a string of greedy people with titles that they do not deserve and should be stripped from them decide that telling a few white lies here and there and a bit of fobbing off is OK to save money.

As if to rub it in even more the title of said book is none other than ...

Loving Those With Fibromyalgia ... by Michael R Holien ...

and with this very brief post I can sum up not only how difficult it has been made by the NHS and its army of lying and incompetent Doctors the majority of which do not deserve the title. The the word difficult is something of an understatement and really does not do the nightmare justive. Lol.

Remember this is just one aspect, forgetting the never ending bloody list of painful areas along with the distracting and somewhat annoying symptoms.

I think on this aspect and at the best possible time for my pursuits I rest my case.

The Amazon link ...

http://www.amazon.co.uk/gp/product/1499294239/ref=s9_newr_gw_d79_g14_i2?pf_rd_m=A3P5ROKL5A1OLE&pf_rd_s=center-7&pf_rd_r=0TVTQDR299VNDMRX0N10&pf_rd_t=101&pf_rd_p=455345467&pf_rd_i=468294

PS Do not forget that the Oesophagitis, Hiatus Hernia with the Heartburn and Vomiting along with the Groin Pain from an Inguinal Hernia Repair and now another Inguinal Hernia since lied about along with the, now separated from Fibromyalgia, knee pain I still need to listen to the tape to see what it is of course are separate issues.

Fibromyalgia + 4! Not including the inguinal hernia that shows no symptoms whatsosver. But then they generaly don't other than a popping feeling and protuberance. It is Gangrene and death that Inguinal Hernias can cause, if the popping and protuberance is ignored for too long. So don't! Lol.

A DAY FOR FORGETTING

You might be thinking that it was a bad day to the point I want to forget.

You would be half right but the forgetting reference is not how it sounds.

From the moment I awoke I was in trouble. A friend of mine had been waiting outside having knocked on the door and I had not realised he was there. I had for the past two nights had my sleeping difficulties. Sleeping difficulties in Fibromyalgia, at least in my Fibromyalgia, seems to come in two forms.

You do not sleep properly but you do not realise it. This inevitably scrambles already wonky electronic signals going to your brain.

Then there are the nights you ARE aware of and these are worse than the others. A few nights like this in a row is... quite simply horrific.

I spent two days not leaving the house. Yet I awoke today with my legs aching badly everywhere. I put on some Movelat gel someone had given me.

After awhile my friend left and I had previously had a text from another friend asking for help. I left the house and forgot two forms I was supposed to take with me. I had not gotten far when I remembered and returned to retrieve them. After getting half a mile limping badly on very stiff and painful feet I then realised I had left my nicotine gum behind. I did not have my Tablet PC either as I had forgotten to charge it the night before. Not sure how I did that. I then got two names of roads mixed up I should not have done and both named after bovine animals one being Donkey and the other Goat. Took me an hour to get over how I made that mistake as I am familiar with both roads. Very well indeed.

My friends did not need the help so I high I would venture to the town to try and burn some energy with the hope of sleeping tonight. But as I was waking there I suddenly remembered I had an appointment with the Nurse at my GP clinic. As I walked to the clinic I decided to record my visit.... just in case.

While I was there I made a terrible error and the receptionist stated there was nothing on screen for me. I remarked this was of as this was the second time someone had made an appointment for me that had then disappeared. She said she would look on the system and said to wait and then I said 'oh wait?! Maybe it is the fourteenth?' and as soon as I said this out loud I remembered that the fourteenth WAS INDEED the date!!

I apologise and state to the receptionist that my memory is bad and it is down to the condition of Fibromyalgia. I then tell her it's been bad for a few years and fourteen wise but that previous Doctors just out it down to the pain I have to endure. I may then have remarked that it took me thirteen years before I myself found out what it actual is? Cannot remember but I will put a link in to the recording I made of the visit and you can hear me being confused and then realising, lol.