THE FOUR THINGS

Hmm ..

I have four things to achieve.

Well .. there are some other things to achieve to but mainly there are four things .. though technically one of those jobs is then down to someone else. Or more accurately turns over to the responsibility of someone else.

A very early story I ran on this blog now turns out not to be the case.

I ended up looking the fool over it and .. well it was something I did not expect. Nothing I can do about it and I was not there. I only relayed what I was told .. I simply was not anything like close enough to see things for myself.

I have thought long and hard about it and .. the whole thing I have seen as some sort of punishment and I think that continued on?

Yeesh .. for someone that loves to stick to the facts this was something that was well and truly wrong. It might seem easy for me to say that this was not a misleading story that I have concocted as I was not involved.

I also believe that something else was involved and it involved some rope where knots get tied?

Still that was then and this is now and it is time to move on.

To start with I have these four things .. and some questions.

Crap! I have been shown some things and it is later than I thought it was!

Almost as if on queue de to one or both changes .. my flu is losing its grip .. having just a lighter cough and not keeping me up all night. Well .. not last night .. or waking me up every twenty minutes or so.

Either that or I was being poisoned .. lol. Less stress .. better sleep, less exertion and maybe other things?

Two things that are quite unusual have happened in the last twenty four hours .. first off .. I noticed that a recent post of mine is rocketing. I really do mean rocketing and has grown faster than all posts around it by about 900%!

Secondly I received a comment on YouTube and .. someone noticed that my blood pressure readings were not good. Particularly mentioning my heart rate being fast .. well sometimes as it is all over the place in all honesty.

So someone noticed something important and showed some concern. Wow that was a first.

Secondly .. a post I published has just rocketed skywards .. first off when I noticed it posts around this particular one had attracted numbers of between 12 and around 30. But this one had attracted 798 visitors.

In fact right now with the posts immediately prior and post this particular blog, 'The Slow Death', the numbers now read '18, 960, 19'. Bizarre!

I simply do not know what it is. I have looked at the tags for this post, sorry 'labels', and I have no idea what it is that has caused so much attention to be drawn to that post?!

Maybe I was ill or completely out of it and it is being used across universities or schools on how not to write .. or just how not to write a blog post?! LMAO!

At the rate it has gone up, 200 in a few hours, it would not surprise me at this stage if the visitors had tipped over 1,000 by the time this post gets published?

To give some .. perspective .. I have searched back to find a post with three figures and I had to go all the way back to .. hmm .. to the 18^th October 2017. A little while after I contracted that dreaded Aussie Flu. Nearly three months ago. You have not herd the funniest part ..

I said it was three figures in the visitors but it is only 103! Three months and 103 visitors.

Eight days and now it is 961 visitors!

Except .. I have not posted this yet so could still tip over the 1,000 mark by the time I post this and .. well .. it is kind of posted on another site!

So a little period is over and from now on things will be kept strictly .. political and .. scientific ..w with maybe some other things thrown in.

I will also be working hard to .. return to something else I was dearly loving and enjoying while hoping I do not receive any bad news along the way.

I was sure that this would not be bad news but you never know. Was not going to be good news but was sure it would not be bad news. Well not the worst news.

I suppose that I could just drop dead before the return to doing what I love takes place? You never know hat life is going to throw at you at a moments notice.

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Oh an overnight break there.

I should not be feeling anxiety but I still am.

I am currently staying elsewhere but I now seem to have lost other things .. too?! I have to relocate my car .. then re-register it and then sell it.

I currently am also nowhere near the GP I am registered with and I am getting these little lectures about what I should be doing .. which is no good because I have a list of things I have to try and keep track of. Unfortunately now that I am here people seem to have gone into sleep or slow mode .. like because I am here they need not have any concerns any more. Well to be honest I thought that but .. the mornings are bad still and I cannot find my Diazepam right now.

In fact I am being told to sort my things out which I have been doing and secondly .. am not here very long so .. seems to bit odd to sort out my things in any order and place them away in this area I have.

Sell the car, sell the car, sell the car. That will be a big headache out of the way.

Hear from or phone and get to the solicitors .. that is the second things I need to do.

What I cannot make someone understand is there not only needs to be an order to things and that I have a bad memory but that the anxiety makes things worse. Start telling me what I should be doing next, sorting things is not going to get my anything nor anywhere, and I will get more anxiety and so the memory will get worse and I may forget to do the important things.

Yesterday afternoon and evening I was OK but then I ended up talking to someone I have not spoken to in awhile and who was quiet. So I thought that was it and I would feel better .. but no!

I thought that being in this location I would feel better and I kind of do but not as good as I thought I would. It looks alien because it looks very busy here .. but I kind of suspected it would. But being away as long as I have it looks weird, well from within a car that is.

Oh Jesus .. it just seems never ending.

Oh and then there is the GP issue .. I never even thought about that one.

THE LEAFY DRUG WAR

I find the statements released in recent times regarding cannabis as... head scratchingly hilarious. Confusing while funny.

This BBC report I found tonight was sobering of a surprise.

After the recent reports starting that cannabis causes psychosis and I said rubbish I now read this report and raise they were playing both loose and fast with the truth.

I have stated for many more years than this blog has been live that I believed... no I was convinced that it causes problems in people that already have problems. If there is an underlying mental issue or even perhaps a family history of things then your at a high risk from smoking cannabis. However I can't tell you how high that risk is. Because it may only be specific illnesses and may need certain doses but because cannabis was just totally ignored because of sometimes agenda we... basically don't know.

This report now states this in detail and even separates the two chemicals within cannabis and discovers some surprising things about the stuff. Some of it  surprisingly good especially if you suffer from epilepsy. I know someone I would wager won't like hearing this but more about that another time.

It now turns out... allegedly that the THC that everyone talks about can cause the problems with psychosis and memory issues...noo my memory has no connection whatsoever with me using cannabis in the past as that was... bloody ages ago and I was not a big smoker of it anyway. It had fantastic affects on my Fibromyalgia and then many years later on discovering my Fibromyalgia then discovered it had good effects from cannabis. I told several Doctors this too and still Fibromyalgia was never, ever mentioned as a possibility.

It also turns out that the other chemical, the one that sounds more like the chemical that gets you high, CBD, cannabinidol, helps improve memory as well as slow down, stop and even prevent epilepsy?! Mad! In this report it turns out that parents of children with bad seizures have used something called Charlotte's Web which contains the CBD drug to amazing results. Trials are now ongoing, probably not the UK because of the corrupt NHS and powers that have large broom handles sticking out their arises and still in the mud laid down in medieval times, lol!

So when they said in the initial report that your for times more likely, or whatever figure it was, they were saying three quarters of the public are bonkers?! Lmao!

If they were aware of the fact that preexisting mental issues were why the numbers raised they were very, very stupid to word their report the way they did. Well either they are the stupid news media that reworded it to suit headlines, lol.

Either way the facts I stick to still remain the case.

Epilepsy suffered everywhere will have raised an eyebrow by now, then lowered, then raised it again, then lowered it before their legs and arms follow and the fall to the floor having another seizure.

Joking apart it's not nice to have. Though I have met many that have got used to them I don't know how. I had one many years ago, oddly aster getting stoned and everyone, including Doctors, blamed the cannabis.

Now what am I supposed to think? Lol!

I stopped taking Amitriptyline five days ago and went to my town to get a passport photo and a passport application form. Been trying to do that for two weeks. Got to a friend's place for a cup of tea and showed him the odd bits I bought from Maplin, key ring scissors, blank DVDs, pouch for headphones. Sat down and said "Oh fuck!! Remember I said when I left here earlier that I needed something in the town? Well I just remembered what it is... passport photo and application form!"

He finally realized what a problem my memory is and looked shocked and asked if I was joking!

Son of a bitch!

Cannabis: Promise, risk and controversy - http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/science-environment-31518546

THE DATES ARE THE KEYS

Today is a key date and a very key one at that.

In fact I have to put 'key date' in the tags so that I can find this post in the future at another key point that is not in my hands. If I have found myself back here what you, or I, am looking for was in the last four weeks and you will liely know the subject matter and if not you will upon reading this.

Now this key date will liekly be searched for around November time. It might be earlier I just do not know.

As far as Amazon are concerned I have now managed to speak to two of my three neighbours and despite the fact that Amazon have since stated that the item is 'Geo-Tagged' and in my vicinity. They have now sent a replacement one to the one they claim to have sent by like I told Amazon who have now taken what I hav stated on board and speaking to their logistics people …

1. You never and I do mean NEVER leave a parcel with a neighbour that is not in! When I told my neighbour what they had done he said, oh so they posted a parcel through a door which was wrong with nobody inside? That's intelligent! 'I know, do not start me off!' I said as I walked down his path and through his gate.
2. The item I suspected would arrive last and I thought was comoing from Germany arrived today, though the two other key items have not but then I was talling a mate today that I do remember actually getting a knock on my door on a Sunday and having someone from Amazon hand me something?!

Now this KEY seems to be … well the KEY?!

Or maybe keys are fashionable? Lol! It is all about the keys and future preparation and I can guarantee you know you have won whatever battle you have when it becomes obvious that it has been taken out of your hands rather deftly.

In this respect the actions and body language are key points!

Oh my word! I forget everything, my bloody passport! It ran out last year and I need to get it renewed, as I keep telling everyone I am going to Europe and do some buying but wont if I keep forgetting to renew the damned thing!

All these things to remember and keep on top of while handling a pet project and with a bad memory to boot! (Just then I forgot that I was going to end this sentence with a bad memory?! LMAO!)

Oooh maybe if I have forgotten yet again then reading this will remind me to go out and do it now! As it is taking a lot longer these days to get one, I cannot even remember what the given time span is? Six weeks I think, cannot remember and I will have to look it up.

My friend burts out laughing as soon as I walked into his shop right after saying … “Soooo your on the lookout for another GP then?!” Yeah OK I burst out laughing too, lol.

I said they just do not get it, they seem to think it must be for amoral reasons I do it?! The funny thing is that there will be a hard push for this over the next few months and it will explode all over their faces, lol.

In the end each and everyone of them will be looking at me, across a court room most likely screaming 'How could you DO this to me?! I did nothing to you!' and I will simply state, 'well thats why I did it to you. Because YOU DOID DO NOTHING!' and then point out that it was indeed themselves that did this to themselves as sopme readers havce stated to me on a fair number of occasions now, 'what they are going to take you to court for telling the truth?!'

I said 'Well they are more than welcome to and I often delberately provoke it but as of yet it has either failed tp happen or that were going to and back-peddled or they lost in court and even forced to pay me money on one occasion.

Now I did state both before Christmas and after that I would be taken to court quite a few times throughout 2014?

Now if you recall and look back you will also note that I also stated to many and on here that this is the year that it will all happen?

You would also note that there are points when even things I did not expect started to look as if they would come together around the same time?

Well this would have been proved beyond a shadow of a doubt by the end of 2014 and that will be removed from my hands in the coming months I believe.

Blimey these things really do need to take numbers and stand in line! Hehehe!

I have to remember to ask my brother about his endeavours regarding what was done to him and his girlfriend.

The writing really is on the wall for all involved right now and I will pay close attention to the media news reports from now on.

After all this is the very essence of a blog, its an online diary and blog is short for web log. I initially thought tyhe name 'BLOG' was a bit stupid and here I am several years down the line writing several of the things!

A DAY FOR FORGETTING

You might be thinking that it was a bad day to the point I want to forget.

You would be half right but the forgetting reference is not how it sounds.

From the moment I awoke I was in trouble. A friend of mine had been waiting outside having knocked on the door and I had not realised he was there. I had for the past two nights had my sleeping difficulties. Sleeping difficulties in Fibromyalgia, at least in my Fibromyalgia, seems to come in two forms.

You do not sleep properly but you do not realise it. This inevitably scrambles already wonky electronic signals going to your brain.

Then there are the nights you ARE aware of and these are worse than the others. A few nights like this in a row is... quite simply horrific.

I spent two days not leaving the house. Yet I awoke today with my legs aching badly everywhere. I put on some Movelat gel someone had given me.

After awhile my friend left and I had previously had a text from another friend asking for help. I left the house and forgot two forms I was supposed to take with me. I had not gotten far when I remembered and returned to retrieve them. After getting half a mile limping badly on very stiff and painful feet I then realised I had left my nicotine gum behind. I did not have my Tablet PC either as I had forgotten to charge it the night before. Not sure how I did that. I then got two names of roads mixed up I should not have done and both named after bovine animals one being Donkey and the other Goat. Took me an hour to get over how I made that mistake as I am familiar with both roads. Very well indeed.

My friends did not need the help so I high I would venture to the town to try and burn some energy with the hope of sleeping tonight. But as I was waking there I suddenly remembered I had an appointment with the Nurse at my GP clinic. As I walked to the clinic I decided to record my visit.... just in case.

While I was there I made a terrible error and the receptionist stated there was nothing on screen for me. I remarked this was of as this was the second time someone had made an appointment for me that had then disappeared. She said she would look on the system and said to wait and then I said 'oh wait?! Maybe it is the fourteenth?' and as soon as I said this out loud I remembered that the fourteenth WAS INDEED the date!!

I apologise and state to the receptionist that my memory is bad and it is down to the condition of Fibromyalgia. I then tell her it's been bad for a few years and fourteen wise but that previous Doctors just out it down to the pain I have to endure. I may then have remarked that it took me thirteen years before I myself found out what it actual is? Cannot remember but I will put a link in to the recording I made of the visit and you can hear me being confused and then realising, lol.