MORE MUSINGS

Was searching for news reports as I have not seen any nor written about any for several weeks now, thanks to this darned anxiety of mine.

I seem to be in a period whereby it comes and goes in waves. What worries me is that it is like a calm before a storm and will just set off on its own or someone, probably at the JobCentre, will set it off.

I also think I am just in this suspended limbo because the court is over and I am just relieved not to be thinking about it and my anxiety running to 8 and 9 and the extremity scale.

I did wake up ... this morning I think with an anxiety attack. This actually passed within minutes but I actually had this while I was asleep and it woke me up to confusion. I was thinking like 'What the hell?!' and wondering how I could have an attack while I was asleep?!

Ahh I remember now ... damned memory. Let me think ... around 11 years ago after my father died and I was threatened with homelessness I had a breakdown that lasted like a year or more. I remember in the early stages and for weeks I would not fall asleep until after 1.00am and then wake up at 4.00am with an anxiety attack. This happened every morning like clockwork. It was very weird.

I am seeing two or maybe even three people soon and I will have to ask them about that, anxiety attacks when your asleep. Makes absolutely no sense to me how that works. When you awake, yeah, your thinking about the things that cause the fear. But asleep? Nope, makes no sense at all to me. Either you have thought about your current fears in a dream, which never occurred with me ever. Or when this thing sets off it works by its own clock or programming that goes on unknown to you?

I found this little link that has everything to do with what has just happened to me. Concerns about the latest huge drop in numbers for people eligible for ESA, or Employment Support Allowance.

I always knew I was part of a bigger plan, even an A&E Doctor admitted that was going on...

http://www.disabilitynewsservice.com/esa-figures-show-very-disturbing-drop-in-number-placed-in-support-group/

How about the DWP making changes to fitness to work that put many disabled people at serious risk and then lied about what it had done?

http://www.disabilitynewsservice.com/dwp-issued-guidance-that-made-suicides-more-likely-then-lied-to-cover-its-tracks/

It is funny really because that judge I saw used her first sentence to sstate that she was independent of the DWP' but anyone in the world standing there would conclude by the end that she had lied. She was totally biased, of this there was no doubt. So much so that I felt shell-shocked when I left the building. I limped back to where my bike had been locked up and got twenty yards before I even thought about smoking an cigarette.

Normally I would be rolling a cigarette while still in the bloody building!

I do so hate it when government, central or local, make changes that they know will cause deaths, any idiot would, and show that their real inner thoughts towards human life are zero at the highest. Some that are secretly amoral may even get a kick out of people dying?

If you was an individual that caused deaths or a company was liable for a death in the workplace then the law would come down on them like a ton of bricks.

So how is it that those in public office and government can make changes that will obviously result in the death of innocent people? To me that is manslaughter at the very least.

Except time and time again it is shown that the law does not apply to certain levels and tiers of British society.

http://www.disabilitynewsservice.com/comment-long-awaited-peer-reviews-suggest-ministers-failed-to-act-after-deaths-of-vulnerable-claimants/

It is funny because in all the people in the medical profession I have spoken to I have had my Fibromyalgia described as a chronic illness. I first saw a notification on Facebook a little while ago, which is how I got to typing this out, and it stated something about the DWP now not assessing people with chronic illnesses.

I had to look that up as I thought the post was wrong ...

https://www.theguardian.com/society/2016/oct/01/dwp-scraps-retesting-for-chronically-ill-sickness-benefits-claimants

I am going to have to clear up a few things over the coming weeks to do with my own illness. An illness I believe is only gifted from hell. People with far less symptoms than I experience as described it as a living hell. It is. No two ways about it.

I have often posted about my boredom, that is how I got into the habit of photographing and filming wildlife for my YouTube channel.

But I still get days where I am stuck indoors, they never got to hear that, and it really, really, really gets to me. I get sooo bored, I really and truly do.

I even mentioned to a couple of friends over the last 6 months or more that I even thought about doing some volunteer work somewhere. I even stated to a member of staff at Mind that I thought recently about approaching help organisations, except the Citizens Advice Bureau, to offer my services. Help others like I do on here.

I have now spoken to two separate organisations that deal with helping others and they are Mind and Maytree. Each person I spoke to got to hear about this blog at some point, what I type about and what I try to do in enlightening others. Both of these people were really pleasantly surprised and said how fantastic that was. One lady even did a fist pump!

I have not finished going down these two particular paths and a third is about to start imminently. I had hinted to my GP and the previous one for probably 6 months to a year about having difficulties doing things and my memory problems. When that damned anxiety decided to come back with force I was forced to force the issue.

So far two people have not been impressed with the letter I have from my GP and a third would probably be the same if they saw it. I think, however, I am going to get a third one disappointed in it very soon?

Ooh boy, I am not looking forward to the next few weeks and I just know they are going to be a nightmare. I know that whoever I have to visit to do with Universal credit is going to be a twat, they often normally are.

I am going to tell them how it is and they are going to try and force the issue, with nothing to force it with. Other than threats they cannot carry out. I would so like, and I hope, to find someone I can genuinely work with. Not someone who is going to lie about things and use a whip because they have an agenda put upon them by others.

Of course I still have these damned results from the head MRI and the EEG. Though if I do not hear anything within the next seven days I could most probably rule out a brain tumour being found. Was a bit weird though the MRI chap telling me my results will arrive in two weeks when it states clearly on their wall that only cancer and tumour results go through in two weeks. It also stated that all others go through in eight weeks.

Even the appointments came through quick for thew two tests and being two or three weeks time for one and three or four weeks time for the other. That was the first flag that popped up that alerted me that they thought this might be something bad. Then a guy that had seen the MRI of my head telling me the results will be rushed through in two weeks?

So it was a real surprise to not get a phone-call or a letter in the last two weeks. I seriously thought I was going to have a letter tp take with me to court?! But it never arrived.

So I stil have that to look forward to and if it is a cyst but not particularly dangerous right now, despite the fact that I do have blackouts, I might not be told about it until early February. That was on an appointment letter that surprised me when it came through my door. It arrived PRIOR to me having the MRI or the EEG. After what happened, as I explained, with the MRI and because of the symptoms I have that include some odd ones I thought I would get a call or letter a lot earlier?

Mind you, saying that, Chase Farm Hospital is renowned, seen by its own staff and surgeons, for losing paperwork and files. I could not comment about Royal Free Hospital.

I always hate looking for news reports to talk about. Especially those that are big names. Because I have not only known for years they are avoiding many stories that zip about on people's phones like wildfire but of late it has been noted that they are ... selective and in a very bad way. Now and with America's CNN they have been shown to edit things to mean one thing when the real thing, or it or in one case a film piece, meant something else in its entirety. That particular issue with CNN was so badly done they were forced to apologise for it.

I often thought that the American citizens are being lied to as well by the national news networks?

I sometimes complain on here about America but when I do I mean their government.

For the people I empathise with those that realise they have shit and corrupt news networks and the terrible choice, or so it seems, between Hilary Clinton and Donald Trump.

A fair portion of them must be going out of their minds and an even bigger faction just totally blown away with the two choices they ended up with?

Oh we have the BBC reporting on Kim Kardashian yet again and I know her name because she has been reported on so much but no bloody idea who she is! I am guessing here something to do with yet another deplorable reality show?

Ooh another article about Theresa May and Brexit and that reminds me that one of the things that occurred to me in the aftermath of the court appeal hearing is thinking ... 'If Theresa May is anything like that judge ... this country is fecked and even if several of them have these attitudes and lack of empathy ... this country is truly fecked and I may have made a mistake on my vote?' though that would not have changed the outcome.

I had at least two people state the line 'this country is fecked' after being told about what happened at my court appeal hearing.

Oh and Noel, I am assuming Gallagher, is eating Tofu ... well that's nice.

Oh and a former spy talking about how he foiled a terror plot ... better not be the one I damn well helped with, mate! Details and a slither of proof and all the evidence to it have been on this blog for dour whole years, sunshine!

*SIGH* They just do not understand how technology and the Internet works! Dumb-arses!

Some people throwing stones at a Romanian in Northern Ireland? Wow, did not expect them to be having trouble with migrants. A bit silly and not very nice throwing stones though. It does not help your gripes and only makes you look like twats.

A married couple sending money out of the country to their Islamic State militant nephew? My word most people complain to me that they just think that the money has been disappearing out of the UK for years because of the foreigners and migrants in the UK? Of course they would be right ... but how bad it is if it is really high enough to cause a problem? I simply do not know. But that does not matter when people think something en masse. That is a problem and if not dealt with becomes a far bigger problem. So better deal with ... ooh wait? Yeah we had the referendum and its already blown up in their faces!

Going to be a tough couple of years, that's for sure.

THE CONSTANT MARCH OF THE MASTER RACE

Well my dear God one of the deluded incompetent evil and Satanic morons belonging to the group suffering from way of the chart delusions of grandeur had done it again!

In what must be one of the worst, if not the worst, some moron claiming to be religious and belonging to the well known nut job group, or just being their fool guy, Islamic State has murdered several dozen people in satanic like cold blood in Orlando, Florida in the United States of America.

I said it before and I said it again, in the most widely believed idea of foolish deities you have a God and a Devil.

Now take a guess at which one of the two this kind of handy work belongs to? It can only ever possibly be one of the two opposing beings unless your completely barking mad crazy. Oh wait?!

Perhaps they think that both God and the Devil are just two murderous morons with one lot justified and the other not? Still stark raving bonkers crazy.

I really despise these people and I have stated it before and started it again they are doing the work of Satan. Even though ... Satan does not exist, don't even try making that Devil's trick line, only an imagined and cruel sounding figure of the Devil could concoct such barbaric and evil actions.

Good they shot him dead. Now if they can just work on the rest and send them all to the same place? The fiery pits of hell!

As usual the BBC do a series of tasteless things like do a top ten of murderous mass killings and ask everyone for pictures and videos.

Evil doesn't only lurk in the Islamic State and other radical Muslims but resides in a great many places. Funny thing is there are a few local Jehovah's Witnesses that would agree fully with that their away line. I imagine a huge number of others likely would agree also?

Those poor people and I feel extremely sorry for those left behind that cared about them too! God only knows what they must be going through?!

Orlando gay nightclub shooting 'an act of terror and hate' - http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/world-us-canada-36513658

THE ARGUMENT FOR DELUDED LOSERS

When is it or more accurately what is it that a group or populace does that assures their demise and makes absolutely certain that they would never gain any support for their hair minded and twisted cause?

When they act like demented gibbons and smash, destroy or obliterate rocks because of some ancient writings or beliefs!

Fucking morons!

Sorry, I do get angry over some actions by people deluded with the twisted belief that they are far superior and not advanced than any other species, err dream on, people or culture (your surely having a laugh?!) but then beat up rocks to show it.

Rocks?! Really?!

You self deluded twats without an ounce of intelligence nor technology who destroy anything made by anyone else unless it serves a purpose of course. Out their clothing or trainers, maybe? Their guns? Elements of their bomb construction? Bullets, missiles of even cars and trucks?!

You are hypocrites.

Why on effing Earth would you destroy rocks?

What possible benefits can you gain from destroying them?!

I would love just one to answer me. I would do like to try them into pieces as their answer would certainly be brain dead and have me the chance to rip shit out of them for hours over it. Then making them look and been that which they are... inferior forms of life while dogs possess more intelligence, hell I've known birds with more intelligence.

What both puzzles me and pisses me off also is the fact that they would do this against ancient customs, beliefs and traditions that have long since been dead!

Oh unless of course they were small items containing our made from valuable items whereby they they become walking contradictions of their own insisted upon beliefs and sell them for money manufactured by this'd they hate, so should burn it immediately, to buy things that kill maim or large scale destruction created by, once again, those which they hate.

In all my life I have never seen such a show off the lack of intelligence as I have of radical Muslims and members of the Islamic State. They themselves rendering their claims of superiority towards other life forms a complete, cackling inducing joke.

I am a scientist in many areas and what I do, I do to educate others to help protect life, whether human or animal. But some life forms I see as lower than either if these two and won't shed a tear over loss of it.

Being a scientist I therefore am not in anyway religious and in fact it's safe to say that I absolutely hate religion of any kind but unfortunately cannot do anything about it. No matter how much power and money I could end up with I could never do anything about it. I am not explaining why ... consider this a puzzle and the answer lies within many of my thousands of posts.

But I accept that in history and the ancient artifacts as well as paintings and drawings depict life as it was within a given period of time. I want and reserve the right to know what went on in mankind's history no matter how good or how bad.

The funny thing is I find this particularly offensive religion to be hypocritical because they want the fucking world to know and want it's sympathy when something is happening to them they don't like. Anyone else though and including their own actions at times and they want to smash and destroy it. It's command through living fear and their is only one entity depicted by a few religions who does that.

THE DEVIL!!

So I find it rather bizarre that a religious fruitcake faction that wants to point the finger at everything else, not going round murdering, maiming and destroying others, and accusing it or then to be in league with the devil are actually behaving just like the devils disciples themselves!!

Remember, we are supposed to also see cheeky that they are the master race in every way so it's OK to lie, I mean act like the devil's disciples against this that don't because they claim they are the devil's disciples ...

Oh crumbs! Well I did state they were twisted!

Once again this faction claiming to be God's disciples once again think this means that they kill, main or destroy because their God is so fucking powerful that he obviously cannot use any of his power to perform and if these acts they themselves perform because the power would be so over the top that it could destroy the entire planet?!

In fact I wonder if he has lost his powers because it's been an inordinate amount of time since anyone witnessed him using it?!

So there though go again... the brave warriors of an all too powerful God that has not managed to get himself in film or camera flexing his muscles and using his power in the hundred or so years since the camera ... hmm ... I think it's over a hundred years since the camera was invented?

We still await this photographs or film?! He had better hurry up as before long I really will be dead from old age!

Simply twisted, delusional morons who want to rule others by force, pain, that of death, torture and every other possible evil way of the devil himself.

Got nothing? Yes we'll you either destroy it or are so busy obsessing over the death of others ... sorry I meant everyone else that you have built but amassed nothing. While the rest of the world proceeds onwards with advances in many areas you will remain stationary. You will be left behind.

The gap between developed worlds and yours while crest a chasm so bloody vast that you may as well exist in different galaxies.

That's until you blow up someone who is cared about by someone with more money and let than God himself and he invents fine kind of genetically engineered pathogen that my attacks certain ... gene pools ... or species. Released in water it will be ineffective and completely unnoticed until it's drank by its intended victims.

Dumb-arses!

Islamic State video 'shows destruction of Nimrud' - http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/world-middle-east-32273672

SOME MORE WITH STUPID

Once again that lot that believe in a God so all seeing and all powerful that he had to send in demented, angry insecure men in to murder innocent people for him because he is busy... out to lunch and has his hands full?!

Morons.

That is all they will ever get to pull off these stupid attacks. They think no one knows that they are just trying to get the locals in the area they were accepted into while they raped and pillaged to react to their low life animal like antics.

This is purely so they can can speak to their own people and say "look?! We told you they all hated us! Jihad!!”

Yeah right you bloody idiots.

If your God is so powerful and great hire cone he had not struck you down dead for being such utter failures for years?

Everyone is on this planet for a finite amount of time. Yes some are dishonest, corrupt and underhanded but that gives you no more right to do what you do than it does me!

I am willing to bet my list of reasons far outweighs yours?

Do I run around wanting to kill people? Threatening to kill people? Threatening violence? No.

Yes they take advantage of this and yes they think they have the God given right to lie, corrupt and have a right to a large portion of the money.

Their longevity will still be a finite length of time nonetheless.

I always think that my own life will not be long enough to worry about a whole shed load of things. You cannot decide what those you leave behind are going to do as they will go their own way.

It is also bloody hilarious how you hate anything associated with anything that is not radical like you?

Umm well what about you? At some point your ancestors would not have thought like you do and therefore you are from stock that was not radical and far enough back boot ever religious.

Does this mean you should all collectively their yourselves off a bridge?

Do you really think that because a small and powerful section of the western world behave like careless murderous lying twats that this gives you the right to do the same?

Only they kill on secret and do boot want anyone to know that they kill and do not give a crap about it. That works be the same people that you have decided your going to kill one by one but want everyone to know your doing it?!

Of your capable of intelligent thought then how is it you do not think your actions through?

Now it is Canada's turn to have terrorism issues and God only knows how this will play out.

You also only succeed, quite unfortunately and sadly I must say, in desensitising people to your actions.

All for a war your never going to start and that if you ever did manage it you would only get wiped out anyway based purely on numbers. You do not even have to bring the list of tools and weapons into the equation. You have barely minimal things but are so backwards that something slightly powerful in your hands and anyone would think you had a nuclear gun?! You don't manufacture any of these things that you love so much. Not the guns, computers or anything else is manufactured by you. So when you have murdered half this that are different where are you going to get your toys from?

Canada 'not intimidated' by attacks http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/world-us-canada-29735163

ARE IS INCOMPETENT

Funny, is it not?

It simply amazes me that a bunch on misguided incompetent twats fly half way around the world to then video themselves complain about how the west treats Arabs and Muslims and then run around executing mountains of them normally after torturing them!

I mean, <em>REALLY?! SERIOUSLY?!</em>

<em>Maybe you could be a little more precise in future and say something like ...</em>

<em> <strong>'</strong><strong>If the west does not allow is to beat on our women and cover up every inch of them because we are so Neanderthal and so insecure that we would not be able to handle it normally and become drunks that we well run around and do far worse things to our own people than the west had ever done!'?</strong></em>

Yes something like that and then you won't be seen as a bunch of incompetent liars and may be taken at least half seriously. Well not by me as I am atheist and that is my right. Even if I have been treated like crap all my life by others who likely claim to be Christian, Catholic, Muslims (don't even get me started .. well not just yet but in a few days ...) and many others, including a Jehovah's Witness many years ago, that to me every religion appears to have nothing but two faced people add followers?!

No doubt spending all their times in confession? Lmao!!

It amazes me it really does how weak minded people can be and this includes these nincompoops who only need to be shown that the west is corrupt and they are then terrorizing, killing, maiming and beheading people!

Err<strong><em> <em>HELLOOOO</em></em></strong><em>!! </em>Have you not noticed that we do not like the fact out governments are corrupt?!

As for thinking that your beliefs and small group of people are superior to everyone else? Do you know who has had this way of thinking before? No?

<strong><em>Nazis</em></strong>
<strong><em>Ancient Egyptians</em></strong>
<strong><em>Americans (will some and awhile ago now)</em></strong>
<strong><em>Ancient Greeks</em></strong>
<strong><em>Romans</em></strong>
<em><strong>Babylonians</strong></em>

What they all had in common was that they either killed people, enslaved them or both! But they are all different races and included there are Arabs. There will be others too that I have but thought of, but I think I make my point.

What needs to be discovered, I say this with some hesitation about their being an answer, is what is it exact that makes them so violent? It's certainly not the reasons they give, yes more lies. That is another funny thing and that is the lying. They lie to non believers, infidels, because they, or we, are seen as a lower life form than that of a dog and I am not speaking metaphorically either.

Except in all this and my own involvement in these sorry affairs there seems to be one deliberate mistake.

Now when you realise that, regardless of your beliefs, you are seen as a worthless piece of shit by then you start asking yourself how many believe this? You cannot find out the truth either because of they lie because your not one of them your screwed!

Now I have some input on this and the best well be left until last. But for now I will say that if you lie on a video and then publish it then your lying to your own people. Deliberate mistake number one!

I assure you that deliberate mistake number two is far, far better and well cine add an eye opener and ... reason to be concerned. Very good reason to be concerned!

Until a certain court case is finally over with I simply cannot disclose it along with several other real doozies I have to tell the world.

Iraq crimes 'on unimaginable scale' <a href="http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/world-middle-east-29013275">http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/world-middle-east-29013275</a>

THE LITTLE BIG COUNTRY

Tonight I heard two people who are journalists speaking on the BBC about recalling parliament regarding the treatment of people in Iraq and the headline send in the warplanes?

Yeah and how are you going to pay?! Are you going to come forward with your own cash to go into some special tax kitty to pay for this?

How is it with all the troubles the UK is in, all the money we owe, so much so that they are tricking the British public as well as testing them with contempt that there are always people willing to take things for granted?

How many countries are there that have the ability and the money to help? Why is it always Britain that has to do it? We all know how it had ended each time in the past?! Badly and in more ways than one!

It is that same culture one again causing grief, mayhem and murder and the one which was an MP in the UK seems to be doing the same? Not a good advert for her culture and not very bright to say the things she has done by suggesting that the Muslim community in the UK is so large as to influence who gets in power?!

That Warsi woman must have left her grey matter at home that day and if this does not incite rage in a whole barrage of people over the next year then she has gotten away with murder, metaphorically speaking.

The more and more people I speak to the more and more they seem to believe that the British Public is being manipulated to fight among themselves. This would be for no other reason than so that this'd that react to things like this can then be given the labels they themselves are scared of being given. As time passes I find it fascinating how people first utter these theories and then slowly become convinced by them with each time we correspond.

One cannot help but wonder where it will all end? Not in a good place I fear unless people really start to see what the facts actually are?

Through my own endeavours I have had to deal with figures and then try to figure out how long it would take for everyone to become fully informed via this blog. It cannot inform people of all, that is for sure but instead I like to think that it can inform people of enough?

Recently I was given a bizarre figure by someone that made me wonder what the hell I have been eating my time for? Instead, however, I had to tell myself there was something wrong with the figure I was given. Either that or the figures being presented to me are outages lies being intercepted or the powers that be forcing someone to change them? But then not only have I wondered this for awhile but numbers presented to me from elsewhere along with two blogs in comparison suggests something extremely smelly has been going on for some time now?

Someone on the Internet blogging for not that long and not providing anything like I have but blogs about current affairs news just as I do, minus the pictures, secret audio, movies, gets 50,000 visits per day?? I simply find that astounding and write incredible. That's the entire pullulation of the UK in less than two years?!

I do not achieve that despite all that I have done not the fact I have a dozen blogs on other subjects. So unless they are cheating with their tags or offering free stuff then the figure seems rather unbelievable. It was not the only figure that was unbelievable with the other being quite impossible based on the facts I am familiar with.

I have stated how I am affected by a huge number of symptoms on here and they are a dizzying amount to take on board. I know because I went through the list and had to do a recount as I could not believe it. Yet there were many symptoms I did not get and there is one that had been added. I also do not know if other little things I have are down to Fibromyalgia? Many things out of the 200 are gender specific meaning that as I am not a woman there were so many, guessing anywhere from a dozen and up to twenty, are not applicable to men.

So you can imagine my confusion when a chap tells me he had the worst case of Fibromyalgia and gets all 200 symptoms?!

I really hate it when people do that and state that their is the wrist case because you cannot possibly know this?! I could not dream of saying something like that I only day I would not wish my condition on the devil himself!

Over the years I have realised that you have to keep active to a degree as this stops the condition taking hold.

If you do too little the condition can get worse and the same applies if you do too much. This might not mean that if you get the balance right you are pain free! Not by a long shot! Your simply able to be mobile and this is what I have unknowingly done for a number of years now as acknowledged by the Doctor at Guy's Hospital in the recorded appointment.

Others sufferers may not have figured this out or figured out that diet plays a large part too? I did with this too, though I had disability living allowance so could purchase healthier food. Not now I can't, rather annoyingly.

So I have had some very bizarre figures that make no sense and I am not sure why the exaggeration was made to be honest. Quite why people need to over exaggerate situations I do not know but then we are treated so badly in the UK maybe people think they need to? That would not really surprise me.

Also from remarks made me it sounded like despite adverts being present they did not get paid any money?! Lol, at 50,000 visits per day?! The affiliates should all be placed against a wall and shot if this was the case! Five million in 100 days?! No money from advertising?!

This simply makes no sense whatsoever in all honesty and you could not put a billboard poster up in a small village with a couple thousand people without paying through the noise for it!

I do believe that there are some absolute piss taking going on with a great many of them and it's easy to spot because it won't be so easy to know.

For arguments sake a recent search stated that you would require 7,500 to 10,000 unique visitors per month, making the claim of 50,000 per day look silly. In my figures I could not find out how many I have?! In all I get over 10,000 per month but I some this is all visits?

Now quite why you cannot easily find the numbers on the Internet to compare with your own is a bloody mystery! It's like some huge secret and people are being deliberately vague?

So I fear that a huge, dizzying number of blog authors are being screwed over I am afraid. A lady from one affiliate I previously mentioned contacted me stated I need around 2,000 per month to get an income?! She said nothing about unique visitors!

Why they cannot put out the following formula ...

IF VISITORS >= 'X' OR 'Y' THEN EXPECT BETWEEN 'A' TO 'B' EACH MONTH ..

heaven only knows!!

One page did state one thing that I agreed with and that is that you should not even consider advertising for at least two years!

Still before this year is over I should be getting an idea finally and though some affiliates might claim that things are done differently from affiliate to affiliate the formula above still stands!

They have access to these numbers and are always assessing peoples behaviour online and that is something that blog writers simply have no access to. They would know what they are paying out and for what as well as to how many.

I would like to email them and ask why they cannot inform publishers of this and state that under no other circumstances, no exceptions whatsoever, would they get away with this!

It is an abuse of position and power over something that is not policed, that includes Ombudsman as they actually are in the pockets of their respective organisations or industries.