THE GREEN FIRE

I have got up feeling quite rough.

Now I thought I was going to be OK but .. no.

I have woken up with e very sore throat and a cough that began last night as just a minor .. annoying cough. I really thought that the way that I had bee hit that I might feel OK today? But .. no.

It is not having a good effect on my anxiety either and I have been coughing up green and yellow crap all morning.

My head is feeling light too and I am a little nauseous.

I simply cannot believe how this keeps on happening lately and I have so much to do! It simply does not bear thinking about and a knife to the chest seems attractive right now.

When I received my inheritance, half of which was stolen from me, I thought that was it and I would never be in this situation ever again and with these feelings.

But, of course, the government had other ideas. Only they did not tell me this. In fact it was quite the opposite ..they encourage me to invest in starting my own business .. encouraged everyone to start there own business without borrowing any money, which was frankly beyond ridiculous as well as unrealistic. Weekly meetings with advisors and another biweekly meeting with a Jobcoach, after previously being kicked off both Incapacity Benefit and Personal Independent Payments (disability) for which many Doctors have stated they should not have done anyway.

That reminds me .. I need to email Frank Field MP as well as the Work & Pensions Select Committee to see if they want me to forward them the emails I had regarding the NEA, JC and staring my business?

I have now done that!

I included a large breakdown of the major points and I even pointed out to Frank Field MP that my solicitor, Pauline Hunter from Mary Ward Legal waxed lyrical about him for twenty minutes once she got over the shock of him now being my MP.

I also pointed out that I have emails regarding the Job Centre and the NEA scheme which are all still sitting on my system that I can forward to either the Work & Pensions Select Committee or Frank Field MP or both.

I have also pointed out something that I only noticed recently .. yesterday or the day before, and that my blogs have been missing their .. ADVERTS!

Now this is funny and also a perfect example of how things can just go wrong because I was expecting my first ever payment from this about a year ago. But it never came.

Then all this happened ..

• PIP and IB cancelled (2016)
• Plans to go from JSA to WTC and NEA cancelled five days after going self-employed (2017)
• ESA refused (2016)
• Several Doctors, one A&E state that the DWP should not touch me with my medical records
• Farcical Atos assessment (2016 or 2017)
• Get talked into going on NEA by JSA when I hear of my inheritance coming
• Have half my inheritance stolen by a family member Probate Court does NOT investigate
• Spend well over £20,000 of my £32,000 inheritance on photography equipment and a car .. NEEDED FOR ALL MANNER OF THINGS .. my disability, relocating, photography, blogging, daughter, grandchildren etc (2017)
• That while in and out of hospital over self-harming, anxiety attacks and chest pain (2016 through 2017)
• Daughter victim of domestic violence (2017)
• Sparking up historical court case (taking place January 2018 Liverpool Crown Court)
• Job Centre pull rug from under me with NEA & WTC five days after going self-employed
• Get told one grandchild autistic .. major problems (2017)
• I offer to move to Wirral from London to help .. (2017)
• Expect help to not be forthcoming for grandchildren from authorities (2017)
• Expect to continue my blogging and photography business while here (2017)
• Discover my daughter has my disability while here .. been stumping her Doctors for months if not years
• Get told youngest granddaughter is Autistic, now two of four,  and worse then her older sister, already a major problem, showing signs of violence, aggression and several meltdowns each day
• Discover that for some bizarre reason the authorities are SLOW today when it comes to diagnosing or helping with Autistic children
• Pay another £2,200 for 6 months rent in advance
• Find out that Universal Credit is only paying me half the money, rent only .. no explanation
• Previous heart and chest issues of pain, palpitations and now irregular heart beating increases in frequency from once or twice a month to once or twice a day with a few days here ad there were everything is calm
• Find out the £3,000 final payment I thought I would get is only £800
• Discover my daughter has no less than three cancer scares and it does not look good
• Finally see a Doctor after an inordinate wait but sent to cardiologist and give diazepam to go with the other 6 drugs I have to take
• Contract three lots of flu-like viruses while here, first lasting five weeks, have one right now
• Anxiety through the roof
• Praying that Pauline Hunter of Mary Ward is successful in reinstating PIP .. not hopeful on this
• Discover that my adverts on my blog have been missing which explains why I did not get my very first payment about a year back when I expected .. Google being typically aloof and evil have not answered to requests as to why this is
• My daughter and myself or both worn down and our nerves are frayed t the very edges

Currently having difficulty getting back to flat a .. (OOPS WENT OUT)

That is the vastly broken down version of things to occur that I sent to Frank Field MP and the Work and Pensions Select Committee.

I omitted a few other things that happened in 2016 .. just wanted to concentrate, at least here, on just the events of 2017.

The idea being that there is no one that could stop and ask themselves just how many things any normal person can have happen in the course of a year! I mean you would have to be bloody naïve to not see how that is a major set of events to take place?!

But the government decided to shaft me anyway, still are and are doing it to the two generations below me too!

My daughter is till trying to get told of her diagnosis by phone because she forgot to attend appointment .. she has my memory issues and like I have said it can affect you regardless of the importance or severity of the thing you are forgetting.

She has now been told she needs to phone the hospital .. she has since done that and they now want her in tomorrow, I believe she said? She has gone out, my memory is foggy and I obviously cannot confirm this with her right now.

This is just one of two biopsies taken fro different parts of the body .. but in places that would ut the fear of god into most women and that does not include a third one I expect them to take a biopsy of that lies slap-bang between the other two?!

I really, really do not know what I am going to do it this turns out to be anything .. I really, really do not and if I said I was scared as hell over just that alone it would be an understatement.

I am 48 with some health conditions that bugger me up as it is and seem to be getting worse all the time.

If anything was to happen to my daughter it would just be me .. two autistic children showing violent tendencies and having meltdowns through lack of help and support .. one needy-boy that screams the place down when not getting Haribos, Chocolate, Juice more and more food or not going to bed and that is when he is not winding up the other three.

If I am not killed over the potentially fatal news I am going to be killed by three children while attempting to care for them because there is no one else!

Jesus Christ .. how did life get this bad?

I have eve wondered whether or not .. if the worst was to happen .. and the authorities here were just crap and not helpful whether I would just return to London with them? Well not London exactly, no one in their right mind would want to live there today .. but one of the home counties? At least there I would have my own family members .. though with their own difficulties with the way the country is not sure if they could be much help beyond merely moral support?

Yesterday .. Sunday .. older with Autism .. several meltdowns before midday. Not enough milk in her cereals, despite being plenty. Bail water out of toilet before anyone is awake, water pouring through ceiling and into kitchen. Had already filled up the bath and been told-off. Empties second loaf of bread out that day leaving it all to go hard. Empties second tub of butter out everywhere. I go into the kitchen point to find her on a chair pouring last of the milk into half a jar of Black-current jam. That was one out of four children .. we are told she will get worse and I am seeing it. She meltdowns because she wants to sleep in mother's bed every single night, because she knows she can keep coming downstairs and she does .. a dozen times a night up until 11pm or later. Nearly took her little sister's head off a few times. Kicks, punches and bites .. does not share and we have four children!

Were told the younger one will be worse and already she does not speak more than three words and only singly.

Oh .. and my daughter just came back .. asked if we could go and pick up the older of the two with autism from pre-school, I believe it is, and hit me with a curve-ball ..

She was supposed to see her current landlord and hand in her notice to leave the property because another one has been offered to her by someone called Riverside a few weeks back. It is not exactly suitable but more suitable than the current one.

She decided to not hand in her notice! Therefore not move and remain in an unsuitable property.

Oddly this is down to the Fibromyalgia .. you get too quick to do stuff, get things at a moments notice and agree to them or even buy them and later you regret it.

I have spent many years learning not to do this but I till do form time to time and it is most annoying. But I have got this down to a minimum now and even now there are a lot of things I could do but I don't. Because the situation and the money s too precarious.

But I see a lot of wastage here with the children .. the food bill makes my mind boggle and this includes buying from the cheapest stores, like Lidl, Home & Bargain, B&M and Asda.

The reason for the change of heart it not wanting to have to take the children to school on a bus.

Here is a reason why and another one for today ..

We left the house to go and pick up the second youngest and the youngest one started to scream her head off the moment we got into my car. This continued and got louder all the way to the school .. then continued while I waited for her mother to return with the other daughter .. who has already helped herself to things in the kitchen without asking. Her screams were accompanied by a tantrum where she was kicking the hell out of the back of my car seat, so I was feeling repeated kicking into the small of my back.

Now imagine two of them doing that on a bus with another demanding Haribos and juice and crying his head off? The oldest will not want to be seen within a hundred miles of that fiasco and is at his wits end at times and is only ten.

I simply cannot imagine what things will be like a year from now?!

I have already walked about the back yard upon our return wondering if I should just return to London in the new year?!

My hearing is dull and I did not even want to drive because of that .. along with the coughing fits or deep coughs I have been experiencing since waking this morning.

Oh and she has to call the hospital tomorrow.

I did think that rushing for that home that become available was a bit too .. well, rushed. I wanted to tell her to slow down and think about it, after all it was a 3 bedroom property so the same as she was in already. She does not seem to think that the authorities will provide her with a 5 bedroom property which is what she will need if these children are to not suffer.

Like I have said over and over and over again .. it is an impossible and mind-boggling situation and no one at all appears to be helping in any way, while the dragging of feet and the refusal of help by all the authorities just appears to be accepted.

Maybe all those meetings that are supposed to be about these 'at-risk children have worn her down until there is nothing left?

The annoying part of all this is that if she still had the car I bought her or had been provided with a car because she has three disabilities in a family of five she would not have changed her mind about moving.

But then the positive side of me is trying to tell myself that this might work out for the best? Maybe she will get the help and support that has been held back for reasons unknown and be in a better position when the next property comes along? Maybe it might even be a more suitable property?

Maybe she is disappointed that the crowd-funding I set up for her has not worked?

It is both difficult to know and .. awkward to broach certain .. subjects with her.

Sometimes I think I am helping being here, before long I will look after two children while she then goes and picks up a third. It is difficult to get back to my own flat when I am expected to .. look after children at certain times.

My best chances are the weekend but have spent two weekends now feeling as sick as a parrot, this time with flu-like symptoms and anxiety after someone got me to drink too much on a Friday night and last week .. bad anxiety that lasted all of Saturday.

I end up thinking .. 'Oh I can do that Monday' but it never occurs .. or at any other day of week either.

I have even had a friend ask me why I am here so much and I simply answer that I .. think it is because I am taking some pressure of her. Not having to drag two autistic children all the way to nursey and pre-school and back before dragging them all out again at 3pm to get a third child?

I keep thinking of those families where a mother is found dead .. or a family where the mother take the lives of themselves and their children and think that if there are situations like this in the country then I am beginning to understand why.

It is like some master plan to kill off a percentage of the population the government or their puppeteers deem unworthy, which oddly comes down to how much money you have or who you are?!

The country is in a far, far worse place than the mainstream news media re letting on and even I imagined it would get to.

THE REPORT

I do not nor never will understand how areas of the human body can cause so much stress and pain and yet still be alive?!

I also don't understand quite how in this modern age we still don't have the drugs to deal with it properly. Well .. prescription drugs that is.

I awoke this morning after something of a night of.. forget that happens once a week. Friends around and a few drinks.

Had to go out and get a couple of things with one of them last night but .. flutter-flutter-flutter my heart was playing up a little.

Had to go out a second time, oh .. my .. God, this went wrong and more of a boom-boom-boom.

Now I a only mention a symptom now and then for a reason or if I think I've made a connection ..

This morning and against all common sense I awoke to very intense anxiety. I asked myself why in the world this could be? In my groggy state I even wondered if it was something else but felt like anxiety?

I had it yesterday morning but not as intense.

But I did push things a little last night .. oh crap, afternoon too when I was getting stuck into some house work to help out.

I just sometimes and myself why I'm getting this because the we nothing really to set it off, unless I have dreams that set it off but never recall the dreams?

Well I had that email from the Work & Pension Committee.

They wanted to use the cut down first I sent them.

But despite it being damning it was only two pages and not damning enough for my liking. So I sent an initial response stating that I would submit a full report, broken down into sections.

After all I only mentioned the current situation.

What I didn't include was a full breakdown for PIP as well as ESA along with Universal Credit which are the three they mentioned in their response.

Red rag to a bull, anyone?!

Hoooo-boy.

A two page report they reacted to and apologizing upon hearing or situation and then stating what they did? ESA, PIP as well as UC?! JESUS, Christmas had come early, surely?!

Now think about a report containing no less than six pages and me pointing out that even this is not complete?

Yeah well that's what they now have, after many hours, broken up here and there, some copy and pasting and six whole pages!

Sent!

In it I quoted three quotes ..

"Why does this keep happening to us?!"

"Nothing ever works out for anyone on our family!"

"I told my mum .. I want to die!"

Then I started the report!

The most complete report I've probably ever sent .. ever!

There are some conversations that are going to be extremely interesting over the coming days, weeks and months.

A lot of people are going to be hurting to varying degrees over this and they cannot say I didn't warn them. Not for a moment. I spent years warning each and every one of them telling each it was a matter of time. That guessing the amount of time involved wood be akin to guessing the length of a piece of string.

Despite the negativity of many online people including those that are disabled .. my view is that it's been shit for soo many people for so long that's it's hard .. no .. impossible to see an end to it all.

I see things .. a little differently to everyone else.

I've been working my arse off in ways many people couldn't imagine for a very, very long time and just the document gathering started over 15 years ago, possibly more. It then changed up a couple of years around 12 years ago and then the recordings started around 8 years ago. The blogging started 5.5 years ago.

Many others have not covered as many as I have, not even close.

Many others have not done as much as I have.

Many others have not yet anywhere near the amount of devices I have used.

Many others have fallen by the wayside long, long, long before I have done.

Many others are defeatist.

But with death knocking on my door with no less than four knocks and no matter the amount of pain and suffering .. I continue.

No matter how many times I'm sent to the darkest corners of my mind .. I continue on.

I battle on because I know there is an end game. It's inevitable. History had taught us that over and over again. Plenty of history books throughout .. well, history. Lol.

Find was what I needed. Time to reach the right amount of people. That was the proverbial length of string. How much time we needed?

The time was needed to reach the numbers and the numbers are more or less easy. A decent six figure number was what we required. Not everyone needs to read this blog .. just enough people needed to visit this blog. Because there is the one factor every single person forgets..

People talk.

If everyone, or rather the average, is that everyone speaks to one person about shit they read or heard about then you should the figures reached.

But as everyone knows .. it doesn't work like that.

Everyone had at least the relatives on average.

Everyone has two of three friends on average.

So the average could reasonably be six people but could be as high as ten.

The other factor is the six degrees of separation.

In other words the world of country is a network.

Except there is one other factor that increases the numbers above expoentially..

.. Smart phones!

Since smart phones crashed into our lives something changed. The average of just six people increased itself expoentially. And that's an understatement.

I know someone with 300 friends on Facebook and and I just even more than that Brits I decided it was too much and deleted a load. A lot more.

So even if we halve that to 150 .. that's a bloody speedy network, think a ten gigabit connection.

There was always another possibility .. or rather .. another network or .. networks. I unfortunately don't trust most of them .. probably most of them.

But there was always the possibility .. that .. something else would occur along the way and the very, very obvious is the mainstream news media.

When it's already obvious that they are corrupt .. you have to think of something else or wait for something else. If you don't possess the funds for an expensive, major legal battle that left the news media with no choice but to cover it.

Yeah .. didn't have the funds for that, though I considered starting up a crowd funding campaign specifically for that alone. Never really could reach the decision to do it or set a date to do it. 

Eventually I probably would have done. Not reached that point .. yet.

That left .. something coming from the proverbial left field.

This could have been from well known leftist, socialist or community group. A particular type of red political party that was .. well known enough.

Some of these are global.

There is, of course, that which is unknown or unexpected. The 'left field' as I tend to call it.

Well that left field was caught by me the other day and .. I'm not really sure how it happened to be perfectly honest. I really, really don't.

But .. it's happened.

They want to attack the government, the DWP and their henchman, no doubt?

Well that's what I've been doing. They want a team player. Someone that can help and I have the my blogs and my ever worsening story.

There's always an ever moving boundary that you need to cross but you never quite know where it lies at any given moment in time.

Your guessing at best but your hoping for the best each and every week. There's a point you know you have ventured beyond it but you still need that boundary.

To leave the Earth's atmosphere you need a certain amount of trust for a given length of time.

This is no different .. you need enough evidence combined with enough people.

I've long since had enough evidence .. and have a lot more too .. but it's enough people.

What I got from left field was the .. umm Government. Well .. sorta .. a kind of shadow government .. of possibly a bunch of people after other ones jobs. Possibly not carrying the courage of their convictions.

We will see.

The chance has come and it's been taken. An opportunity such as this simply could not be ignored. You would have to be a fool not to grab this with both hands. It's merely a chance to change things before the tunnel exit is reached.

Since finishing this piece which I entirely wrote on my phone with squinty eyes I have now received confirmation of the Work & Pensions Committee receiving my updated and more complete report.

They stated that would get in contact with me if they require anything.

Let us see if they do anything?

I have had a phone conversation with one of my friends in London and a friend of someone up here and told them about being contacted. Both are shocked and over the moon.

My friend in London and the ex-social worker said “Oh, Martin! If anyone deserves this with everything you have done and everything they have done to you .. it is you”

I also told him about the crap HMRC over-payments and now he tells me they did it with his daughter too! He said they are the most unhelpful people on Earth and if this is the case what fucking moron put them in charge of payments for children?! What fucking absolute dicks!

You should heave witnessed first my friends shock and then roaring with laughter when I told him they billed one person £35,000 for last year and another young lady £6,500 for a period between 2008-12 when she went form the ages of 14 to 18 with no children?!

He knows as long term visitors of this blog would be well aware .. I have been kicked in the teeth so many times that they have now rapidly progressed my Fibromyalgia into things I first did not know you could get with this condition and secondly .. I have had them from a few month to well over a year before recently discovering they are far more serious complications to Fibromyalgia I have developed.

Funny then that no hospital I visited or GP in the last 18 months have either mentioned the connection to my Fibromyalgia to me when I reported the symptoms nor have I been warned to watch out for anything ..

Like my bloody EYESIGHT!

Oh and my heart!

More on that to come.

THE UNIVERSAL SHAME

Hmm .. interesting .. verrrry innnteresting ..

Got tagged in this one on Facebook ..

A Tory MP is said to have broken down crying when the effects of Universal Credit on the poor was explained to her. Explained by Frank Field MP and involving some of his constituents.

There is even a video .. though I have not seen it as the audio does not work on this laptop and cannot be bothered to grab by headphones just yet. The headline says it all the the screenshot does appear to show a woman in tears.

Apparently one man had to be talked out of committing suicide and Frank Field was told about a child who was crying from hunger. This was told to him by the organisation called Feeding Birkenhead and they also told how the child was shown a shelf that had both toys and food on it and the child grabbed the food?!

Simply, simply stunning an the new age of historians must be filling their fountain pens and inkjet printers with ink?

I imagine many a book will be penned over the next couple of years if there are not a slew of them in the process of being written right now?

What was said will take you by surprise but this working together excuse falls on deaf ears for me.

Surprisingly the story is run by Evolve Politics which I have linked to previously.

https://evolvepolitics.com/watch-tory-breaks-crying-labour-mp-recounts-horrific-effects-universal-credit-constituents-video/

THE SUFFERING DRASTICALLY

I have been thinking a lot lately.

Admittedly I've a shed load of stuff going on I've not fully divulged and done serious things still ongoing.

There's been some big revelations regarding Universal Credit and now the Paradise Papers and oddly enough this latest blog post links those two things.

So it would m that if you don't have enough to simply get by everyone had the right to patronise you, insult you and decide that without a state, and therefore absolutely no civilized society, that a trillion pounds are paid off overnight. Of course everyone's taxes get cut in half overnight too. Plus their property prices go back to rocketing despite being in unrealistic territory.

A woman recently stated to me that she simply cannot believe how stupid everyone is, though I used the term 'naive'. I also stated that they could well stupid as they make these harsh comments on tabloid sites without actually doing the maths.

Well .. let's be honest here .. there really is no maths involved. The numbers are so far out of touch that you don't even need the exact figures.

That's how naive many people appear to be after seeing 90% of people that connected on The Guardian's  website over a letter from housing benefit arrived at someone's house stating that the recipient was hated.

It would appear that either most of the British population feel the same, or in other words bloody amoral unless your born in another country. Or just about everyone that works for local government, it the jobsworths among them, or public office in general went on their to make it appear .. as if the whole country agrees with the council or hates benefit claimants.

Yeah a few hundred or even a few dozen people commenting and up-voting could give the impression the UK is full of fucking idiotic and amoral people.

Nice.

But .. I've also had people tell me that no one will react to the revelations about three rich and the celebrities avoiding large amounts of tax?!

That's worrying.

It also demonstrates once again that those most influential in society along with those in positions of making life changing .. no making rules that make so many people's lives miserable and celebrities, who also have a weird influence on weak minded people, simply cannot do fucking basic addition?!

They lecture people on how you pay for all your rent, food, bid yet they have all been avoiding posting tax and stashing cash away.

But .. wait a minute? Your an individual, with four arms and legs .. you be to eat, sleep, work (or not as the case may be), own a house and a car .. sooo ...

I'm extremely keen to ask each and every one of the people quite how they need sooo much money and .. WHY the fuck they feel that they should not pay taxes .. when poor people and benefit claimants so even on the minimum money they get??

So how about just a little tiny bit of perspective?

A 38 year old mother of four children dies alone, freezing to death in her home after the extremely evil DWP stopped her benefits because she failed to turn up for a meeting because she was too I'll?!

I kid you not.

All fucking amoral arseholes can now go and explain their naive and amoral attitudes to the four children now without a mother and the woman's parents!!

This is the sort of stories I've been trying to prevent from happening but I guess people will continue to be fucking stupid, fucking terrible at maths while insisting that they are right. If your amoral, trust me no one is going to give a flying fuck if your right or not!

The victim's name is Elaine Morrall and her mother is Linda and Elaine lived in and was found in Runcorn. Not a million miles away from where I am now sitting!

Linda posted a letter on Facebook that states "How many people have got to die before this government realises it is killing vulnerable people?"

Sorry but this is where most people are a little naive ..

The government know they are killing vulnerable people and have known this for a very, very long time!

I also believe it's what they want to reduce the welfare bill permanently .. while at the the exact same time using the reduced numbers claiming benefits to make it look like they have been putting people back in work.

When these so-called TV experts are going to be reprimanded for using one single solitary figure  and making all the wrong conclusions from them, God only knows?!

As for the helping people back to work, helping those that want to help themselves and helping and awarding rise that help others .. well ..

I'm working on something. I've been working on something for well over six months and I can honestly tell you right now that not only is it close to a big finish .. it's going to be good too.

Unless your blind or new I've been helping people for over five years now. I was also in a eight week long process to start my own business. A process so full of shit it's dinky not true and a process that the DWP and Job Centre pulled out of at, not the eleventh hour but the, thirteenth hour based on a bare-faced lie and we turn followed by several other bare-faced lies.

But that's not the best bit and wait until you've heard the full story of the last week..

• Mistakes by insurance company ends up with car unpinned

• Attempt to save a young man's life after an attempted murder which then became a full on murder investigation when the man died• Several masked young men in rental car and boot full of weapons rampage through a school• Let down by one useless woman and sulking immature make friend ends up with daughter and four children in car trying to get to Doctors to get them to diagnose the same disability I have they avoided diagnosing for years .. leading to ..• Brand new Pirelli Scorpion tyre on my Land Rover Discovery suddenly failing catastrophically while on a motorway .. tyre ripped all the way around on the inside tyre wall• Leading to limping to petrol station where two autistic children not even supposed to be with us having meltdowns and wandering around a petrol station• Children I sacrificed time and money as well as moving to a place I really, really didn't want to move to do that I could help them because I know every single public service won't .. and have NOT!!This is absolutely no fucking joke and it's nowhere near all because ..• After stabbing me in the back more times than I can think the evil that is the DWP along with their complete lie that they are helping people back into work will, guaranteed, once again stab me in the back.
• Prove what I stated about domestic violence
• Soon prove that there are two autistic children, one problem child and yet another
• That the DWP and Job Centre not only knew about my plans but agreed to it and then poured the plug a week after I was supposed to go self-employed
• That despite this the Job Centre and DWP knew about the domestic violence and autism diagnosis
• Because I have all the emails from all of it and .. I have every .. single ... meeting, signing on, Jobcoach meet and NEA meeting recorded and every email too

However .. this time it will be somewhat .. different.

This is because ..

• I can easily prove I made the sacrifice

Meanwhile we are wondering if my tyres have been sabotaged, I was sold fake Pirelli Scorpion ATS tyres by a tyre fitter in Lancaster Road, Enfield or .. Pirelli Scorpions are catastrophically bad tyres?!

Next few weeks are going to be mind blowing and I'm missing tens of thousands of pounds in cash too because I was robbed of it just prior to my long distance relocation be a thieving, manipulating and lying family member.

Go figure!

I've wanted to die more times than I care to remember. I now find out my one and only child has get the exact same. We now know she has the exact same symptoms and therefore the she disability as me. But we are the only ones that four children are dependent on.

I .. fucking kid you .. not!

I've been holding out on many of the things listed and an still holding out on many others.

But not for much longer!

But .. where are these stories when it comes to the mainstream media? After the for story we had ask did week and the tyre fiasco today my daughter saw that story about the deaf mother and rushed to me and said ", Why isn't this story on the TV?!"

Why indeed?!

Not drastic enough because it only matters if the sufferers are foreign or there is a significant number of sufferers .. or dead people.

In other words you have to suffer very drastically or have enough people suffering drastically.

I would not want to be anyone associated with the mainstream media over the next couple of years. They think it's been bad recently? It will get worse.

Unless, of course, the majority of the British public really are amoral?

Even if this proves to be the case .. then the country is going to fuck up it's image, or what's left of it, with the rest of the world. If they haven't succeeded in this endeavour already.

A current situation also exists where Wirral Council is pointing the finger at a children's nursery in Birkenhead and a member of staff at the children's nursery has stated ..

"I have put in a complaint regarding Wirral Council, I am not having them turn this around on us!"

A missing social worker suddenly appeared that has been missing for over a week literally a coupe of hours after an email was sent with an official complaint and a copy of this printed out on a letter was handed over in person.

What they do not know as of yet is that due to the lack of getting anywhere with absolutely anyone, so-called advice agencies included, I have now emailed Frank Field MP, who has a dislike for the way things are and the DWP, and a meeting should take place tomorrow. But then an appointment should have taken place with a Doctor yesterday that did not. I have only been trying to get this done since I got here.

What is the appointment for? Oh nothing much .. just the fact that not only has my daughter's Fibromyalgia been ignored for years as mine has done but .. in her case she has now had a series of blood clots in her legs that is not only linked to Fibromyalgia but when it repeats it is more likely to spread to her lungs. Which is fucking deadly if you are not aware of that.

I am thinking they might have already known this as they have been keen to get my daughter into the surgery. But they have not told her and not taken into consideration that she has a condition that causes memory lapses, I have witnessed it and she is just like me, just been victim to serious domestic violence and still gets phone-calls from prison from the perpetrator and has two autistic children out of four and these two, along with one other child, cause immense distraction, are destructive, have meltdowns that cause large supermarkets to apparently freeze time and .. a host of other things besides.

My daughter has now found the link between her repeated blood clot and Fibromyalgia on her own and .. she is somewhat concerned and rightfully so .. because this has been ignored and time and fatal conditions do not make good bedfellows! 

I am still yet to speak to a Doctor who managed to make an appointment the same day as a Job Centre arranged visit. I have not even managed to check the times of each appointment to see if I can manage to get to both?!

I have explained my own situation to Frank Field MP, being cut off by the DWP and Job Centre after being deliberately led down the garden path.

Oh and an acquaintance of mine and a friend of a friend and a teacher/scientist with one leg missing from his Type, whatever the bad one is, diabetes had his DLA/PIP stopped. This mutual friend also has the same diabetes and still has all his limbs. he was the one that stated to me a few years back that they would never go after anyone with diabetes "because you can die from it". I bet he is concerned now? Funny too as he was a social worker for Camden Council for somewhere between 20 and 25 years and gave it up years ago because they are lying twats.

Just some inside information and that is that before the financial crisis even started they would lie and stall to save money. One client dying of cancer was stalled over and over again and they send back returns to the social workers stating "more information needed"! In the end he got so fed up he called them and asked "You have everything! What do you want, his fucking shoe size?!"

Maybe after we are all found dead .. someone somewhere might give a crap?!

http://www.liverpoolecho.co.uk/news/liverpool-news/mum-dies-alone-cold-house-13874491#ICID=FB-Liv-main