There are times when
people disappoint me so much that I end up thinking ..
“You know what? Maybe
mankind has had its chance and it blew it?”
Forenote:
This is 12 hours late.
Have had a really bad two weeks .. really .. really .. bad. Its like
someone released something in the air or the damn water supply? I
have been at odds with a number of people that have been pissing me
off! Have had to bite me lip while people have whined about a load of
things I go into in a bit.
This seems to have set
my emotions off on a roller-coater and my pains in my finger-tips
from typing and wearing shoes blew up until pains across my hands. I
could not type or even hold my laptop without pain?!
End Forenote
I am in a living
nightmare and I pray sometimes for a truck, bus or bullet to finally
put me out of my misery as I only have a few tools at my disposal,
been hammering away at them and nothing seems to come from them?
Though in all honesty I have been aware of constant attempts to slow
me down or stop things altogether.
I am surrounded by
people who are wrapped up in their own lives, do not help anyone ..
constantly bitch and whine repeatedly over spilt milk or some time 20
years ago when they farcking spilt milk.
Sound over the top?
OBSERVE ..
Walked into a
kitchen to have someone shouting their head off because the full
milk has run out .. yeah except they do not use it and actually use
semi-skimmed of which there was plenty
From a third I
have heard a story 50 times or more in a year, a lengthy story that
involves London and Brighton, of how he has been accused of spilling
sugar ..
By the spilt
milk duo
One of the
above three has caused three heart/chest episodes
Caused a
massive family division .. walks into people's rooms without
knocking
Thinks they
have a right to private information in their own family
Tells how a
son is evil for not telling them how much they ear
Not talking to
their own mother because they wont give them control of her money
after she passes away
Not talking to
daughter because she wont agree with her getting control
If you do not
agree with her your right-wing and Hitler .. oddly I thought I was
now centre to moderate right but doing a political test I am
somewhere near facrking Gandhi?!
Now .. if you
recall, if you read recent posts, I am called Hitler by leftists
online too and accused of hate speech .. (yup did state there was
narcissistic socialist here)
The there is
the third person in the building ..
Has spent
years winding one up making them worse .. hates the people in the
family that are not related to him
Every single
night for a year now .. unplugs a router lead to the electrical
network in the house .. put a HD video on laptop to a second wifi
router and clogs up the internet so it does not work ..
Once has has
done this he goes into a cupboard and does not even watch the
YouTube videos
So between 9pm
and Midnight every single night I lose not just ONE but TWO routers
that are not connected.
When they are
away for a week this NEVER HAPPENS
YES I MAY HAVE
HAD THREE HEART ATTACKS/ANGINA IN THIS HOUSE WITH THESE PEOPLE!!
I was suspected
of having a heart attack about 18 months back
Did not know
this until I was in a hospital later
I told them at
the time that I could have told them that I had not had one
I could not
say that with any certainty now though
So trolls ..
do not go hitting my spam folder with your nasty comments and
laughter because professionals previously thought I did when I knew
I had not
Recent chest
events I have never experienced before
I was nagged
on the phone by hmm NHS '111' to go to a hospital in a town I knew
as a child that now feels very unsafe and I always tend to get
kicke dout of hospitals in the middle of the night .. yeah .. no!
NHS today?
Quickly get you in .. are they dying? Right OK. Is it something we
could plausibly deny? Yup? Kick them out to fend for themselves
then and do not worry about the pain or difficulty .. don't care
what is I their medical record!
I could go on with the
bullet points but I think I have made my point. Except it is not just
them either.
I have many things I
can talk about but due to the situation some I do not and people just
DO NOT GET IT!! So yesterday another mate that thinks they know
everything decides to ask me if I want to go off doing animals and
pant things ..
Looking at
Orchids and enjoying it it suddenly hits me .. what I had and what I
was doing with Orchids and everything I have lost .. heart issues go
BOOM as does the anxiety
This happens
looking at Drosera
Talking about
exotic animals
It happens a few times.
Major shite in my life
and major health issues but according to people .. I am just supposed
to forget about that and do shit .. because ..
You can just flick
a switch the the dangers and symptoms so they wont occur
You should not
talk about things that depress them and only talk about happy things
they want to hear
Except your not
speaking in a depressing way .. just talking about it is all ..
And this coming
from someone who walked into a shop .. cried and screamed for over
an hour because he got out of prison and wanted his flying hamsters
back he gave away because he was going in prison
For 'flying
hamsters' read 'Sugar Gliders'
Insisted for
months and shouted at me, never fuck off and leave me alone though,
that ..
NHS and GP's work
a certain way when they do not because I did as he requested and
the “COMPUTER SAID NO!!”
Insisted DWP and
Job Centres were a certain way .. for months sooo .
Yesterday he
rings a friend up who works for a Job Centre and what does he say?
Yeah .. Universal
Credit is shite mate .. it has farcked everyone up, no one likes it
in the Job Centres, a fact I already knew
People have no
idea or understanding of how I so long to be around like minded
people and even of late thinking how nice it would be to have someone
that understood who was also into photography.
The thought of
not just getting out of my own personal hell but to be somewhere
where my anxiety can calm down and stop setting off my heart and
chest pains but also getting back to photography is like an
impossible dream.
Trust me when I
state that every single morning I wake up is a nightmare and I waked
into varying levels of anxiety. I so, so wish I could get that to
stop and get out of here.
Often think a
lorry collision is the only way and many on the Internet are pushing
me that way and are praying it goes that way too.
Because of the numbers I was attracting over a short period of time.
They tell me because of my hate speech, read the truth, because of
this blog and the recordings on it 'Country of the Damned' and the
90% of recordings I do not have on it.
So as well as
sugar and milk what else do I hear?
Most common is
someone moaning at some other driver if I am on the phone .. so
milk, tissues, mess, sugar and bad drivers.
So I have been in
receipt of ..
DLA previously
.. then that was stopped for 7 years and finally they awarded me ..
PIP .. which
was then stopped three years ago
Had been
setting up and working towards going self-sufficient for well over 6
years except ..
My health, the
public services, the weather and public services and politicians
that constantly kept letting down my daughter .. kept farcking it up
Also wrote two books
soo .. I figured that as I am currently unregistered and received no
help despite promises from ..
Mary Ward Legal
CRISIS
Age UK
Basically a friend
thinks things are easy ..
He thinks I can
register with any GP when I have already told him they said no
He thinks you
can do everything 'Care Of' when I have already told him that you
cannot
He thinks that
you have to get paid and can do so my cheque when I have told him
they do not do that any more
He thinks that
with a dodgy heart, anxiety issues and everything else I can just go
down to a leftist run organisation like CRISIS where he admits there
is trouble, fights, shouting, drug running and other crap and I will
be fine?!
Unexpectedly
and after nearly 7 years of blogging about possible global
catastrophes that are scientific fact and only a matter of time .. it
is surreal that I type this out amidst a running series regarding a
very real series of events.
I
have spent 30 years thinking about these things and I never .. EVER
thought I would be sitting around wondering if doing anything at all
is worth it?
What
started out as an outside chance in a million has become clearer and
clearer and clearer and looks closer and closer and closer.
Now
at the moment that kinda grew as what was first the magnetic poles
splitting and moving ever faster .. this started me thinking. Then
the Arctic blast was predicted and I then realised this could be what
causes ice-ages and then started thinking about continental drift,
drop in crop and food productions .. farming, and any other things.
Would have to happen now that I am buggered health-wise and dependent
on things like Vitamin B and Magnesium supplements.
Also
thinking about my daughter and grandchildren too. How the hell would
I help them?
Apart
from my daughter .. and at times my sister no one else has wanted to
talk about it .. even the ones interested in science and sorry ..
there are no excuses for this.
Not talking
about it is not going to stop it from happening
It is going
to guarantee that should it start you will NOT SURVIVE IT
Yeah you
should really not be thinking about yourself and be thinking of
talking about it to help your own children or grandchildren should
the time come
One
things for sure .. if it gets right into the swing of it and
considering what I have put here .. and telling you now that you
cannot remain where you are and this goes DOUBLE if you live in a big
urbanised area.
What
do you think the chances are I will be travelling absolutely fucking
anywhere with any of the above?
By
the time you realise you will have to move there will no no cars,
buses or trains so people will have to travel in groups. Yeah I would
farcking prefer it if I did not have a shit ton of doubting Thomas
type people on my arse for days on end doubting every idea I have
like they have done for years regardless of how many times I got I
right.
I
do not mind someone putting forward a logical argument but hearing
something somewhere and just parroting it and claiming it is a
credible source when they themselves have zero knowledge or
experience in what it is their parroting is extremely .. annoying.
It
is why I do not make friends easily and on my own. Those that did
listen either moved back home or they died on me.
Hmm
maybe people should be a annoying Doubting Thomas? They seem to live
longer?
“No I think
your wrong .. that is not going to happen” even though it actually
already is ..
“What do yo
mean I am wrong? What makes you think I am wrong?”
“I just
cannot see it happening!”
In my head I
be like “FUCKING WHAT?!”
Or ..
“Well you
cannot stop it so what is the point in talking about it?!”
In my head I
be like ”FUCKING WHAT?!”
So I am being realistic ..
Others are not thinking of getting the best advice to consider
helping their loved ones
And I am the one in the wrong?
If the shit hits the fan in one to three years time take a wild
guess at what I am going to answer when every single one of them
calls me for advice?
Did you think I was going to say “farck off2? Well I would
except ..
There will be no communication by then and I would have arranged
to meet my daughter somewhere to get her and my grandchildren to
safety
Bet no one else has thought about doing that .. right?
Sound out there?
Yeah well they have just had two major record breaking storms in
the US with record breaking snow-fall they are measuring in feet and
not in inches ..
What if you get another two .. they are worse and they start
measuring snow-fall in metres and not in inches?
And yeah .. climate scientists never predicted even snow ..
Nor did the weather men until the first storm was more or less
upon them ..
So yeah .. I do not think anyone at all in North America right
now would consider anything at all being out there
My main issues about anxiety and travelling is .. people
If anything happens there will be far less people around ..
meaning travel will be less of an issue
I have been working on a post on just this subject .. the series
of events and the psychological reaction fro the masses .. if it
were to ever get officially announced
So everyone wants me to
pay by their rules, right?
So let us count
individuals alone .. that is a lot of different sets of rules now
factor in a all the public services who have been moving the
goalposts constantly for the last five years and then consider all
the individuals that are of the belief that the rules are the same as
they was 20 years ago.
My advice to climate
scientists and politicians would be this ..
You might want to
remove yourself from the Internet and your pictures and pray that you
are forgotten because ..
If the shit does hot
the fan and with all that grab for money and taxes of all those
billions .. people are going to ask where all the help was .. to see
this coming and the provisions for the public to survive.
Yeah if I was you there
is no way on Earth I would want my face to be seen and recognised and
I most CERTAINLY would not ell anyone I was previous a climate
scientist .. tell then you worked for Amazon or something, yeah?
Oh my issues and all
seemed to be mostly linked are ..
Fibromyalgia,
Hypomagnesaemia, Vitamin B Deficiency .. which causes ..
Pain in finger and toe
tips, feet, ankles (might be unrelated), back, shoulders and chest
along with memory loss, tachycardia, arrhythmia as well as skin
issues that require things like Tea Tree Oil, Lemon Grass Oil or
Lavender Oil. Or I will eventually get massive sores.
Those oils, it might
interest you to know. Are very good for skin conditions and will
likely help for eczema, psoriasis and other things? Cheapest way to
but them is from those large hair product stores. £5 for like 100ml
but you will note it might say 100% pure? Yeah they are most
certainly not and will even state they contain other oils.
Seems you can get away
with anything in the UK if your a certain nationality or religion
while the rest of us get hammered with rules and unfair taxation.
Out of what I have left
that has not been taken away from me ..
Orchids
Fish
Amphibians
Insectivorous
Plants
Japanese
Maples
I cannot enjoy ..
Photography
Cycling
Movies
Games
Music
On top of that I get
bitched and moaned at other spilt milk and bitched and moaned at that
I am not the company I used to be .. pleasurable and interesting.
Now someone I follow I
have just seen told has gone down on Twitter and someone has not only
announced this but tagged in Piers Morgan. Though I am not sure why
this is.
Never say him arguing
or even debating for that matter. DO not recall ever seeing him call
anyone names?
Oh and he only had
117,000 followers which is he relied on these followers financially
.. he might very well be getting punished.
On my blogs everyone
only read what I had to say and that was how I wanted it. I was told
it would be a good idea to start a forum or chat page. Think now he
was probably right but I was adverse to the idea.
People might complain
that I think I know everything but I first of all do not and I have a
very, very wide knowledge base. But a great many people DO actually
think they know everything despute NOT having the knowledge base ..
are insistent and yet have nothing to back this up and argue about
it. They they fucking hate it when they end up being wrong.
They then go straight
back to doing that all over again. Many wont read websites, watch
videos or eve listen to the theories but they are all experts. Many
wont even watch the God damn news because they say its scary and
depressing and I tell them they are not even showing you the worst.
It is like watching the
Devil who has blinded everyone leading them all by the hand to
oblivion and your yelling at them to stop, they refuse to .. blame
everything on everyone else and carry on walking towards eventual
death.
I often wonder how in
the God damn hell we become so effing stupid and so effing blind. If
this ice-age or other catastrophe ever hits and we survive ..
Priority in
EDUCATION
Not about what
religion you want to be on
Not about
whether you should be homosexual or not
Not about what
words offend others
ABOVE ALL ELSE
..
Stop
thinking that you know everything and what is going to happen on
Earth ..
.. based on
the 60 years you have been on the planet out of 4 billion years!!
Oh and let us not
forget the nasty evil narrative following pro-EU, pro-Muslim and pro-
Climate Change tosser that hammers mu GAB spam folder every day
still, proven biggest liar on Twitter over and over again and ignores
the links to mainstream news, the weather channel, the weather news,
the YO .. (gave up at this point .. hands hurt like hell and now I cannot recall what I was going to say!)
Shit while I was typing this things went nuts my hands and arms hurt.
People seem to like wrangling me with their lack of knowledge and
experience and do not stop to think and this sets of my emotions I
now realise also aggravate my symptoms..
I seem to have to do something to get them back in check and that is
altering my .. emotions .. which I know for one that I need to go
from anger to being upset. I have to watch something that upsets me.
Luckily I do have something I can use .. though I am not willing to
admit what that is.
Have put this to someone .. about putting me up in a flat somewhere,
where I can run a business for them. Never thought of this previously
.. but .. wish I bloody well had!
If I could find somewhere where I could live in, like a caretaker,
that would be cool. If this is somewhere, where I could reach nature
spots with a camera either on foot or using my mountain bike then
even better!
Way too oppressed here and without being registered I cannot do
anything.
Had hoped that hitting social media like I have that something would
come up .. someone would have an idea? Doing things online for others
.. political or otherwise .. promoting things for them?
My .. devices are all playing up now too .. I do not know if this is
their age .. but a lot of devices are playing up from wifi to phones
and computers so do not know it is down to the magnetic field doing
some high-jinks?
Cannot be certain just yet.
Could achieve so much if I could just shake off the anxiety .. get
something to calm the tachycardia and arrhythmia down and had access
to the right equipment.
Justice or death is what I am all about. Provoke and anger the
establishment to do something .. end my turmoil or shoot me. That ha
been the plan since I realised three years ago they were messing with
what I had spent four years building up. Helping as many as I could
along the way.