NOT SO CHARITABLE

Well this is a weird set of circumstances.

After I sent of what I decided was the final email to Age UK after they wasted my time for two years risking my life, turned out had lied to me, got things wrong and then I discovered they passed my information on to an organisation called Antifa who then used it to try to scare and threaten me online .. something else pops up.

I have had this for years from the likes of Citizen's Advice Bureau to the Mary Ward Legal Centre and others

Years.

Now let me tell you this .. this is what these organisations never bother to find out when all they wanted to do is keep on about how everything is the fault of the Conservatives so much so they were promoting socialism and Labour, while Jeremy Corbyn was leader of the Labour Party.

Not only am I a professional but I have professional friends and one of those was a social worker for 25 years for Camden Council and he does not have anything good to say about them. He is a Type 1 Diabetic, has now been lied to, has been messed about and provided with a medical assiatant dog that is not only utterly shit at what it is supposed to do but has had two previous patients he was told it was a disaster with.

It runs away. I know this because half the time he talks on the phone he is always calling the dog back and blowing a whistle.

Another dog trainer stopped to talk to him while I was on the phone and she was shocked this dog was supposed to be trained and had a history of disasters with previous patients.

He told her “I am on the phone to a friend, he is really intelligent and he said 'but your a diabetic, what happens if your sugar is low and the dog runs away and you go running after it? It could CAUSE your death””

I heard this lady tell my friends something to tell the trainers and my friend replied “Oh I have told them that, but they wont have it. They know it all despite not training the digs correctly” to which he was once again shocked.

I also know they are leftist socialists.

This is what I know about leftist socialists.

Oh they tell you how they are all about these different things and all these causes but they are most certainly not. You can catch them out every single time 100% and it matters not how many you go through and I have been through thousands. Maybe tens of thousands.

I have been blocked by thousands just on Twitter.

Every single time its the same.

What they are interested in is money and power and they use this bullshit claim they are into all these things as a way to get money and power.

For well over ten years I have hated every charity and I said to many people 'how is it people donate tens of million each year and yet after more than a decade of doing this the causes seem to be just as bad as they have always been?'

• Children

• Cancer

• Heart Condition

• People dying of thirst somewhere

The other thing I know for sure and have a two decade long history of it is I have NEVER .. EVER .. walked in any charity or help centre and had them ..

1. Genuinely give a shit

2. Know what they are talking about

3. Get something right

4. Actually do something

The odd thing is that some years ago I have a friend who was a socialist and he was diagnosed with kidney cancer. I had always helped him with any problems and because he, like everyone else I know, called me a genius I was the first person who turned to.

A man with over 20 years more experience than I had of the world and used to be a projectionist.

So he had seen me not getting any help and suddenly there he was not getting any help and his genius friend with a bad disability was going around his house every day to help him because no one else was.

His name is Kenneth Walter Bunn and is buried in Enfield.

So have we got this?

Me with Fibromyalgia Syndrome which is itself listed in the top 20 of painful conditions who had been refused help by charities, help agencies and public authorities for years despite them either thinking they have a right to your money or begging you for it in no end of TV commercials. Me having to go and help someone dying of cancer who himself was getting nothing from anyone else anywhere.

My condition is in the top end of this painful condition and over the years I have experienced 273 symptoms for it, relived most of them were one-offs or rare. Though today my heart, blood pressure and magnesium levels are affected.

But I get nothing at all. And I do mean nothing.

For years and years everyone around me thought I must be lying about my condition i9ncluding my type 1 diabetic friend and he would absolutely testify to all I have stated in my blogs. Oh plus I have recordings. Even of this.

Now people are asking how I survived all this time and told me they are so sorry that I was treated the way I was for years and simply do not understand who it is these people are helping.

They seem to be able to acquire a lot of money from somewhere, enough to pay for TV adverts and, as I noticed, sponsor moves with Age UK featuring in a pretty good movie on Film 4 I believe was one with Diane Keaton in it but filmed on Hampstead Heath?

Had wondered for years why I was rejected. Has happened to my daughter to and is a child rape victim and cervical cancer survivor the NHS missed and now I discover they have missed heart murmurs in my two granddaughters. These are also linked to Fibromyalgia which I also know my daughter has.

And with my two granddaughters both special needs ask me what they have all had?

Nothing. Nothing but lies, condescension from people that would have had me slap them after not giving a shit about the welfare of children and incompetence while they talk to members of the public like they are inferior and morons while they have posters on the wall showing the fascists wont allow anger or violence towards them while they knowingly leave you in pain for years.

As my ex social worker friend put t a couple of months ago ..

“You were right. You were right all along, you was spot on about everything and it is even WORSE than you said it was. A decade you have been fighting over this while no one helped and everyone thought you was mad. You deserve a million pounds for the service you have given to mankind”

Goes a little over the top at times.

Well people tend to do this as I had Jehovah's Witnesses in Enfield nickname me 'The Messenger' and a Christian man I met at Fishers Green call me 'a warrior of God'.

I do not know why people come up with these things.

Despite my bravado, which drives hard-left fascists up the wall, I never feel like I have gotten anywhere nor getting anywhere.

Had someone who was an early member or one of the founder members of hacker group Anonymous, who also owe me £1,000 for an article I wrote, tell me that they had read several of my blog posts and said

“You are better than Tim Pool and should have more followers than him, how have you not got millions of followers?!”

I answered ..

“I do not know but I am suppressed and I think that others have put loads of faith into stupid things and I only hope for their sakes it works out for them”

They said they was going to help.

Seems to be no matter which side it is you get treated like shit. Or just overlooked or ignored or they are happy for you to work for years and years and years for free. While complaining about where their taxes go.

It never ceases to amaze me just how frikking stupid people are that seem to thin they are intelligent.

So after refusing, which I am sure is illegal, to provide me with details of any independent complaints, which they SAID they had, and after 3 months and 8 to 12 emails I have had it with Age UK. I did warn them the last two emails what would happen if they do not comply and provide with with contact details.

Unfortunately these socialist filled organisations always wrongly believe they are superior in all ways and they are untouchable.

Yeah you might want to ask the government that who handed over a 4 bedroom house to my daughter and then fully furnished it and said they wanted to keep things off social media after I hammered Boris Johnson, Priti Patel and the Home Office for weeks with a link to this blog which contains evidence. ON MANY MANY THINGS.

So below are just a few of literally hundreds of screen-shots of me battling Antifa who were lying their ass off and they have one that works for Age UK who doxed detail;s of me online with one of them very unique to me. Yeah one of them is Projects Manager to Age UK which really was not that hard to find.

Like I said .. they are not superior to anyone in any way but someone in power collected a load of morons together, put them in key industries like ombudsman, public services, the health service, DWP, local councils and charities and fashioned them into pawns.

Sorry but I have met Dogs smarter then these people.

If you are reading this .. NO .. you are NOT superior and if you are Age UK .. YES I am all the things I said that I am that you called me a liar over.

Oh yeah and they called me a liar and complained they did not have my address.

After Antifa spent a year diving down Facebook and LinkedIn and others trying to find it and I was even threatened by one that I am stupid and would be easy to find.

That was just two days ago and they call themselves ZombiePiano.

I said .. “well go on then”

Then the excuses came and IU ran them ragged around the houses and they are full of it. These people are nasty, hateful shits. Nasty, venomous little shits whose only desire is to rule over others and command everything they do. And they do not posses six grey cells that work as a team.

Then as I am getting ready to do this I go and find a charity in America linked to three Hollywood actresses who are Amy Schumer (no surprise), Brie Larson (absolutely no surprise and laughable the shitty little person) and Reese Witherspoon (OK that was a surprise).

This charity is called Time's Up and is accused of raising $3.6 Million dollars and like 90% of it or more went of themselves and hardly helped anyone.

This was a gift from the Gods and this is EXACTLY what I had been telling friends and family for over ten years and asking where all this money was going?

I get really angry and it pissed me off that everyone is acting like the Devil's fucking minions and its like living in a hell but where its feel like the last couple of years for many its been a couple of decades for me.

Fuck name I have been blogging about this for over 8 years.

When I am not angry the scientist in my tries to explain these shitty, low IG idiot fascists and wonder if is the magnetic field or one of the other major changes going on with Earth we have not seen before they are keeping quiet.

They call this a Grand Solar Minimum and anyone with a solar cycle graph and a telescope can see that the solar cycles went out of whack in a way that has not occurred since 1648 to around 1700.

Its going to get colder and winters longer for a number of years. I cannot tell you how cold or for how long but its a minimum of 20 and could be 60 and even up to 200. No one really knows but one woman scientist is good at this. But even she was silenced. Had a paper removed despite being published 261 times.

Its why there is talk of a Great Reset. No its not because of Covid as these sorts of plans require the minimum of a decade and likely several to come up with.

So those in power have screwed it up for years, lied to us, screwed it up some more, set everyone against each other, ignored the will of their people and now want to bring something in after lying about the end of the world and want to remain in power?

Well as well as doing away with money, all your freedoms, your privacy and salaries and make the world into one giant socialist system.

How the fork they think they are going to get everyone to accept this or allow the to remain in their positions of power is beyond me.

More and more people I speak to, foreign people owning shops, are talking to me about all this and losing their temper over it.

So here now I a video of my favourite YouTube couple Clownfish TV talking about the Hollywood MeToo type charity and some screenshots of those that have been trying to dox me I am sure they would kill me if they could get their hands on me?

https://youtu.be/I95780vJDBw

Screenshots ..

One tweet where they threaten to find out someone's address and say it is easy. But then never do it when challenged.

https://twitter.com/ZombiePiano/status/1333513052902236160

Sorry to disappoint but Age UK do not have my address.

These people will even call people liars upon hearing a statement they do not like when it was a statement made by someone else because they refuse, have been conditioned, not to listen to anything.

The same group of Antifa claiming something is a lie because a YouTuber called Tim Pool said it, except he did not.

Then after refusing to watch it and making assumptions its everybody's else's fault.

Tim Pool is centre-left but they insist, like everyone else who ever disagrees with them on a single thing, that he is far-right.

https://twitter.com/Andrewemcameron/status/1333508378107260929

My trouble is I do not trust anyone .. and certainly not in the public services and do not know who to turn to to help myself. Now that I have helped my daughter out.

I am ..

• Disabled

  • Where all all the disability charities?

• Heart condition

  • Where are all the heart condition charities?

• Memory Loss

  • As above

• Over 50

  • Look at how Age UK have treated me

• Homeless

  • Where are all the homeless charities

• Victim of Number of Crimes

  • Look how the authorities treated me

• Saved Lives of Animals like Swans, Deer, Cats

  • Where were the RSPCA who I get told refuse to come out?

• My Problem or Issue?

  • Single white male?

  • Tell the truth too much?

  • Being centre-left not far enough left?

Told people I am in a livng hell and I literally just had a heart eposide because an idiot told me I was wrong about, get this ..

• Sensor size in cameras do not affect aperture and only focal length

• Trying to explain he is wrong, people say he is an idiot, and full frame cameras are expensive because of this he suddenly7 screams at me, slams his door so hard I thought the hinges would come off

• Causes me to have a heart episode I get no treatment or tests for

Not ever mention this in awhile .. if you consider please do not overdo it

https://www.patreon.com/saintallnights

YEARS OF SPILLING MILK (Pole Shift Part .. well maybe a little?)

There are times when people disappoint me so much that I end up thinking ..

“You know what? Maybe mankind has had its chance and it blew it?”

Forenote:

This is 12 hours late. Have had a really bad two weeks .. really .. really .. bad. Its like someone released something in the air or the damn water supply? I have been at odds with a number of people that have been pissing me off! Have had to bite me lip while people have whined about a load of things I go into in a bit.

This seems to have set my emotions off on a roller-coater and my pains in my finger-tips from typing and wearing shoes blew up until pains across my hands. I could not type or even hold my laptop without pain?!

End Forenote

I am in a living nightmare and I pray sometimes for a truck, bus or bullet to finally put me out of my misery as I only have a few tools at my disposal, been hammering away at them and nothing seems to come from them? Though in all honesty I have been aware of constant attempts to slow me down or stop things altogether.

I am surrounded by people who are wrapped up in their own lives, do not help anyone .. constantly bitch and whine repeatedly over spilt milk or some time 20 years ago when they farcking spilt milk.

Sound over the top? OBSERVE ..

• Walked into a kitchen to have someone shouting their head off because the full milk has run out .. yeah except they do not use it and actually use semi-skimmed of which there was plenty
• From a third I have heard a story 50 times or more in a year, a lengthy story that involves London and Brighton, of how he has been accused of spilling sugar ..
  • But mere minutes ago .. going to tell him how a third heart episode was being caused only yesterday your told
    • “Not interested! I don't wanna hear it!”
    • Repeat a story for the first time and he gives you a sarcastic look and says in a patronising way “Yeah you have told me this before”
    • Of the 50 times he has told me the spilt farcking sugar story how many times do you think I did the same to him?
• By the spilt milk duo
• One of the above three has caused three heart/chest episodes
  • Caused a massive family division .. walks into people's rooms without knocking
  • Thinks they have a right to private information in their own family
  • Tells how a son is evil for not telling them how much they ear
  • Not talking to their own mother because they wont give them control of her money after she passes away
  • Not talking to daughter because she wont agree with her getting control
  • If you do not agree with her your right-wing and Hitler .. oddly I thought I was now centre to moderate right but doing a political test I am somewhere near facrking Gandhi?!
  • Now .. if you recall, if you read recent posts, I am called Hitler by leftists online too and accused of hate speech .. (yup did state there was narcissistic socialist here)
• The there is the third person in the building ..
  • Has spent years winding one up making them worse .. hates the people in the family that are not related to him
  • Every single night for a year now .. unplugs a router lead to the electrical network in the house .. put a HD video on laptop to a second wifi router and clogs up the internet so it does not work ..
  • Once has has done this he goes into a cupboard and does not even watch the YouTube videos
  • So between 9pm and Midnight every single night I lose not just ONE but TWO routers that are not connected.
  • When they are away for a week this NEVER HAPPENS
• YES I MAY HAVE HAD THREE HEART ATTACKS/ANGINA IN THIS HOUSE WITH THESE PEOPLE!!
• I was suspected of having a heart attack about 18 months back
  • Did not know this until I was in a hospital later
  • I told them at the time that I could have told them that I had not had one
  • I could not say that with any certainty now though
  • So trolls .. do not go hitting my spam folder with your nasty comments and laughter because professionals previously thought I did when I knew I had not
  • Recent chest events I have never experienced before
  • I was nagged on the phone by hmm NHS '111' to go to a hospital in a town I knew as a child that now feels very unsafe and I always tend to get kicke dout of hospitals in the middle of the night .. yeah .. no!
  • NHS today? Quickly get you in .. are they dying? Right OK. Is it something we could plausibly deny? Yup? Kick them out to fend for themselves then and do not worry about the pain or difficulty .. don't care what is I their medical record!

I could go on with the bullet points but I think I have made my point. Except it is not just them either.

I have many things I can talk about but due to the situation some I do not and people just DO NOT GET IT!! So yesterday another mate that thinks they know everything decides to ask me if I want to go off doing animals and pant things ..

• Looking at Orchids and enjoying it it suddenly hits me .. what I had and what I was doing with Orchids and everything I have lost .. heart issues go BOOM as does the anxiety
• This happens looking at Drosera
• Talking about exotic animals

It happens a few times.

Major shite in my life and major health issues but according to people .. I am just supposed to forget about that and do shit .. because ..

• You can just flick a switch the the dangers and symptoms so they wont occur
• You should not talk about things that depress them and only talk about happy things they want to hear
• Except your not speaking in a depressing way .. just talking about it is all ..
• And this coming from someone who walked into a shop .. cried and screamed for over an hour because he got out of prison and wanted his flying hamsters back he gave away because he was going in prison
• For 'flying hamsters' read 'Sugar Gliders'
• Insisted for months and shouted at me, never fuck off and leave me alone though, that ..
  • NHS and GP's work a certain way when they do not because I did as he requested and the “COMPUTER SAID NO!!”
  • Insisted DWP and Job Centres were a certain way .. for months sooo .
  • Yesterday he rings a friend up who works for a Job Centre and what does he say?
  • Yeah .. Universal Credit is shite mate .. it has farcked everyone up, no one likes it in the Job Centres, a fact I already knew

People have no idea or understanding of how I so long to be around like minded people and even of late thinking how nice it would be to have someone that understood who was also into photography.

The thought of not just getting out of my own personal hell but to be somewhere where my anxiety can calm down and stop setting off my heart and chest pains but also getting back to photography is like an impossible dream.

Trust me when I state that every single morning I wake up is a nightmare and I waked into varying levels of anxiety. I so, so wish I could get that to stop and get out of here.

Often think a lorry collision is the only way and many on the Internet are pushing me that way and are praying it goes that way too.

Because of the numbers I was attracting over a short period of time.

They tell me because of my hate speech, read the truth, because of this blog and the recordings on it 'Country of the Damned' and the 90% of recordings I do not have on it.

• So as well as sugar and milk what else do I hear?
• Most common is someone moaning at some other driver if I am on the phone .. so milk, tissues, mess, sugar and bad drivers.

So I have been in receipt of ..

• DLA previously .. then that was stopped for 7 years and finally they awarded me ..
• PIP .. which was then stopped three years ago
• Had been setting up and working towards going self-sufficient for well over 6 years except ..
• My health, the public services, the weather and public services and politicians that constantly kept letting down my daughter .. kept farcking it up

Also wrote two books soo .. I figured that as I am currently unregistered and received no help despite promises from ..

• Mary Ward Legal
• CRISIS
• Age UK

Basically a friend thinks things are easy ..

• He thinks I can register with any GP when I have already told him they said no
• He thinks you can do everything 'Care Of' when I have already told him that you cannot
• He thinks that you have to get paid and can do so my cheque when I have told him they do not do that any more
• He thinks that with a dodgy heart, anxiety issues and everything else I can just go down to a leftist run organisation like CRISIS where he admits there is trouble, fights, shouting, drug running and other crap and I will be fine?!
  • God give me strength!!

Unexpectedly and after nearly 7 years of blogging about possible global catastrophes that are scientific fact and only a matter of time .. it is surreal that I type this out amidst a running series regarding a very real series of events.

I have spent 30 years thinking about these things and I never .. EVER thought I would be sitting around wondering if doing anything at all is worth it?

What started out as an outside chance in a million has become clearer and clearer and clearer and looks closer and closer and closer.

Now at the moment that kinda grew as what was first the magnetic poles splitting and moving ever faster .. this started me thinking. Then the Arctic blast was predicted and I then realised this could be what causes ice-ages and then started thinking about continental drift, drop in crop and food productions .. farming, and any other things. Would have to happen now that I am buggered health-wise and dependent on things like Vitamin B and Magnesium supplements.

Also thinking about my daughter and grandchildren too. How the hell would I help them?

Apart from my daughter .. and at times my sister no one else has wanted to talk about it .. even the ones interested in science and sorry .. there are no excuses for this.

• Not talking about it is not going to stop it from happening
• It is going to guarantee that should it start you will NOT SURVIVE IT
• Yeah you should really not be thinking about yourself and be thinking of talking about it to help your own children or grandchildren should the time come

One things for sure .. if it gets right into the swing of it and considering what I have put here .. and telling you now that you cannot remain where you are and this goes DOUBLE if you live in a big urbanised area.

What do you think the chances are I will be travelling absolutely fucking anywhere with any of the above?

By the time you realise you will have to move there will no no cars, buses or trains so people will have to travel in groups. Yeah I would farcking prefer it if I did not have a shit ton of doubting Thomas type people on my arse for days on end doubting every idea I have like they have done for years regardless of how many times I got I right.

I do not mind someone putting forward a logical argument but hearing something somewhere and just parroting it and claiming it is a credible source when they themselves have zero knowledge or experience in what it is their parroting is extremely .. annoying.

It is why I do not make friends easily and on my own. Those that did listen either moved back home or they died on me.

Hmm maybe people should be a annoying Doubting Thomas? They seem to live longer?

• “No I think your wrong .. that is not going to happen” even though it actually already is ..
• “What do yo mean I am wrong? What makes you think I am wrong?”
• “I just cannot see it happening!”
• In my head I be like “FUCKING WHAT?!”
• Or ..
• “Well you cannot stop it so what is the point in talking about it?!”
• In my head I be like ”FUCKING WHAT?!”
• So I am being realistic ..
• Others are not thinking of getting the best advice to consider helping their loved ones
• And I am the one in the wrong?
• If the shit hits the fan in one to three years time take a wild guess at what I am going to answer when every single one of them calls me for advice?
• Did you think I was going to say “farck off2? Well I would except ..
• There will be no communication by then and I would have arranged to meet my daughter somewhere to get her and my grandchildren to safety
• Bet no one else has thought about doing that .. right?
• Sound out there?
• Yeah well they have just had two major record breaking storms in the US with record breaking snow-fall they are measuring in feet and not in inches ..
• What if you get another two .. they are worse and they start measuring snow-fall in metres and not in inches?
• And yeah .. climate scientists never predicted even snow ..
• Nor did the weather men until the first storm was more or less upon them ..
• So yeah .. I do not think anyone at all in North America right now would consider anything at all being out there

• My main issues about anxiety and travelling is .. people
• If anything happens there will be far less people around .. meaning travel will be less of an issue
• I have been working on a post on just this subject .. the series of events and the psychological reaction fro the masses .. if it were to ever get officially announced

So everyone wants me to pay by their rules, right?

So let us count individuals alone .. that is a lot of different sets of rules now factor in a all the public services who have been moving the goalposts constantly for the last five years and then consider all the individuals that are of the belief that the rules are the same as they was 20 years ago.

My advice to climate scientists and politicians would be this ..

You might want to remove yourself from the Internet and your pictures and pray that you are forgotten because ..

If the shit does hot the fan and with all that grab for money and taxes of all those billions .. people are going to ask where all the help was .. to see this coming and the provisions for the public to survive.

Yeah if I was you there is no way on Earth I would want my face to be seen and recognised and I most CERTAINLY would not ell anyone I was previous a climate scientist .. tell then you worked for Amazon or something, yeah?

Oh my issues and all seemed to be mostly linked are ..

Fibromyalgia, Hypomagnesaemia, Vitamin B Deficiency .. which causes ..

Pain in finger and toe tips, feet, ankles (might be unrelated), back, shoulders and chest along with memory loss, tachycardia, arrhythmia as well as skin issues that require things like Tea Tree Oil, Lemon Grass Oil or Lavender Oil. Or I will eventually get massive sores.

Those oils, it might interest you to know. Are very good for skin conditions and will likely help for eczema, psoriasis and other things? Cheapest way to but them is from those large hair product stores. £5 for like 100ml but you will note it might say 100% pure? Yeah they are most certainly not and will even state they contain other oils.

Seems you can get away with anything in the UK if your a certain nationality or religion while the rest of us get hammered with rules and unfair taxation.

Out of what I have left that has not been taken away from me ..

• Orchids
• Fish
• Amphibians
• Insectivorous Plants
• Japanese Maples

I cannot enjoy ..

• Photography
• Cycling
• Movies
• Games
• Music

On top of that I get bitched and moaned at other spilt milk and bitched and moaned at that I am not the company I used to be .. pleasurable and interesting.

Now someone I follow I have just seen told has gone down on Twitter and someone has not only announced this but tagged in Piers Morgan. Though I am not sure why this is.

Never say him arguing or even debating for that matter. DO not recall ever seeing him call anyone names?

Oh and he only had 117,000 followers which is he relied on these followers financially .. he might very well be getting punished.

On my blogs everyone only read what I had to say and that was how I wanted it. I was told it would be a good idea to start a forum or chat page. Think now he was probably right but I was adverse to the idea.

People might complain that I think I know everything but I first of all do not and I have a very, very wide knowledge base. But a great many people DO actually think they know everything despute NOT having the knowledge base .. are insistent and yet have nothing to back this up and argue about it. They they fucking hate it when they end up being wrong.

They then go straight back to doing that all over again. Many wont read websites, watch videos or eve listen to the theories but they are all experts. Many wont even watch the God damn news because they say its scary and depressing and I tell them they are not even showing you the worst.

It is like watching the Devil who has blinded everyone leading them all by the hand to oblivion and your yelling at them to stop, they refuse to .. blame everything on everyone else and carry on walking towards eventual death.

I often wonder how in the God damn hell we become so effing stupid and so effing blind. If this ice-age or other catastrophe ever hits and we survive ..

• Priority in EDUCATION
• Not about what religion you want to be on
• Not about whether you should be homosexual or not
• Not about what words offend others
• ABOVE ALL ELSE ..
• Stop thinking that you know everything and what is going to happen on Earth ..
• .. based on the 60 years you have been on the planet out of 4 billion years!!

• Get the news to tell the truth and make it FARCKING LAW that they should watch it twice a week!!

Oh and let us not forget the nasty evil narrative following pro-EU, pro-Muslim and pro- Climate Change tosser that hammers mu GAB spam folder every day still, proven biggest liar on Twitter over and over again and ignores the links to mainstream news, the weather channel, the weather news, the YO .. (gave up at this point .. hands hurt like hell and now I cannot recall what I was going to say!)

Shit while I was typing this things went nuts my hands and arms hurt.

People seem to like wrangling me with their lack of knowledge and experience and do not stop to think and this sets of my emotions I now realise also aggravate my symptoms..

I seem to have to do something to get them back in check and that is altering my .. emotions .. which I know for one that I need to go from anger to being upset. I have to watch something that upsets me. Luckily I do have something I can use .. though I am not willing to admit what that is.

Have put this to someone .. about putting me up in a flat somewhere, where I can run a business for them. Never thought of this previously .. but .. wish I bloody well had!

If I could find somewhere where I could live in, like a caretaker, that would be cool. If this is somewhere, where I could reach nature spots with a camera either on foot or using my mountain bike then even better!

Way too oppressed here and without being registered I cannot do anything.

Had hoped that hitting social media like I have that something would come up .. someone would have an idea? Doing things online for others .. political or otherwise .. promoting things for them?

My .. devices are all playing up now too .. I do not know if this is their age .. but a lot of devices are playing up from wifi to phones and computers so do not know it is down to the magnetic field doing some high-jinks?

Cannot be certain just yet.

Could achieve so much if I could just shake off the anxiety .. get something to calm the tachycardia and arrhythmia down and had access to the right equipment.

Justice or death is what I am all about. Provoke and anger the establishment to do something .. end my turmoil or shoot me. That ha been the plan since I realised three years ago they were messing with what I had spent four years building up. Helping as many as I could along the way.