THE WAIT

Oh my God-oh my God-oh my God!

Typed this out in a hurry on my phone before sticking it on charge to make sure I have enough battery for the next and very vital phone-call.

Ooh boy!

As if this morning wasn't bad enough?!

I'd been having a hard morning, it's also raining, and having a debate with myself about whether to go to hospital and have a row or ring '111' as I'm having anxiety and chest issues galore.

I then get a phonecall from my daughter which took my mind off it for awhile. Then she gets a call to say that my youngest granddaughter has had a fit in school and had to go. Worrying.

I remember being told she had, had fits when I lived there but nothing happened while I was there. In fact I thought maybe it was a one off thing and had since forgotten about it.

Bearing in mind at this point that my daughter had cervical cancer, older granddaughter is severely autistic .. except now they say she is not, despite being a massive problem to absolutely everybody. My daughter was also told she was being referred off over her own Fibromyalgia .. back in November 2017 and it's now April 2018 and nothing has come. Victim of domestic violence too and had to move house to which the council used the excuse to reduce her rent payments by 60%. Has a blood clot that was buggered up by not treating her correctly over her cervical cancer biopsy too and had a Doctor, only effing yesterday, forced to come out and say ..

"Couldn't you come down to the surgery for this?!"

Blood clot type red and yellow patches on her leg and back .. couldn't walk. Also had been in hospital over that the previous Saturday, Sunday and Monday and then asked to go to A&E to test for what they should have done on the Saturday.

I've had my daughter at her wits end and wanting to die over the stress this has caused.

I'm no longer there thanks to all these amoral, patronising, condescending tossers that work for what is now a 'Nanny State' of the worst kind because it has zero compassion.

So I lay here hoping everything is going to be OK and expecting a phone-call from my daughter from her home with the little one running around yabbering. That's not what I got ..

What I got was a video call with a half conscious little girl lying on a hospital bed with a tube down her throat and falling asleep. Me talking to her to keep her awake and her fighting and struggling to look at me on the phone screen. She couldn't manage it.

I thought she had been given drugs.

She had not been given drugs and my daughter has no idea why she is like that.

I'm currently terrified ..

I think I am goig to have a heart attack?!

Fuck .. the things I now want to type about this country, the NHS, the Local Council and the DWP who are now playing Russian Roulette with my grandchildren, daughter and .. quite obviously millions of people's lives.

Then there is this Alfie Evans crap going on.

Shit .. I should have told my daughter to remain calm because and I've told her before, of you lose it .. your automatically seen as being in the wrong. Because no one in the working class or lower is allowed to have any emotions. Also it helps draw attention away from themselves!

No I could say things far more derogatory and I could open up the offensive words dictionary but .. must .. hold .. back.

Fuck! This is going to be .. bloody tough!

LIES IN PROGRESS

I cannot believe what I was told on the phone today!

After being in hospital for three days in the trot for a suspected blood clot for someone who has cervical cancer and a mother looking after four children ..

"Ooh no blood clot in your leg but we're concerned .. can you now go to A&E?"!

Are they fucking serious?!

That's three visits over three fucking days .. waiting for hours for the umpteenth time and they send her to somewhere where she will have a six hour wait?! And who looks after the children and due the things mothers need to do? The Cheshire Cat?! Mickey Mouse?!

Jesus!

She refused to go and they kept asking, why? Really and truly they asked why.

This was Arrowe Park Hospital on the Wirral and I told you I've been there and got treated like crap, promised loads of things none of which were seen through and had a very bad vibe in that hospital. I never wanted to ever walk through its doors ever again.

I thought that the hospitals in London were bad?!

Well it's just been proved to me and I'm afraid it gets worse ..

After being told my granddaughter is Autistic which I didn't believe .. until the very next time I laid eyes on her when she got excited and started arm flapping.

Over the next few months we saw more and more things. As did the school and the social workers who were the ones that informed us.

Many tests were done and it looked bad. Real .. bad .. a test result of over 70 meant Autism and she scored 225!!

A paediatrician was supposed to see her before a final diagnosis. Long wait .. put of the appointment at the last minute from January until April. Last week she failed to turn up. I get told she was there today and suddenly .. she states something I saw in a very recent report and said to a shocked teacher

"Oh I see no Autism traits, she's just a little bit behind"?!

I could not believe my ears!

Bearing in mind this is from a daughter I had to listen to while she told me that she wanted to throw herself out of a window and kill herself, several times lately.

Her life as well as mine really have turned into the lives from hell.

Three things have been acknowledge by her Doctors ..

Fibromyalgia of which they said they would refer her and just like the lies and tricks I've had .. six months later no referral.

Cervical Cancer they missed .. because of the minimum age and seemingly gets worse each time they look at it. We originally diagnosed as Stage 1A. What it is now is anyone's guess.

Blood Clot they have long since known about and you get fucked about for three .. fucking .. days?! And they can't understand why you can't give to the remainder of your third day?!

Are you people fucking born morons?!

No .. what I need to tell my daughter, we got cut off because Facebook Messenger is garbage, is that this is, obviously a lie, a conspiracy and can only be down to one of two things ..

Me and this blog ..

Her Cervical Cancer as they are scared that being reported on for her cancer, maybe even he death and then being fucked about with a severely Autistic child would cause too much of a public outcry.

Funny is it not that the pediatrician can't get to my granddaughter in four months .. fails and then turns to again within a week?! Funny that .. obviously not that booked to then?

Even if she is right, which she's not and it's a lie, we didn't refer my granddaughter. We didn't think she was Autistic. We were told she was. Neither of us believed it and thought it must be a mistake. Then we started seeing things. Then more and more things surfaced. Behaviour went down like a lead balloon. Well .. others said she was and made the referrals. She also failed all the tests, speech and language. Others including three supposed helpers who did fuck all, all see her behaviour. The destruction. The violence towards others. Inability to have a conversation. The schools noticed and not one but two.

So ..

If everyone incompetent bar the pediatrician?!

Is every single one of them from all the different support departments, two schools and Digital worker department all fucking thick?!

Don't forget this is after moving over suggestive abuse that was pretty bad and made the local newspapers .. there's a link in a previous post if you can find it.

Un .. believable.

I knew it was going to be bad judging be her voice. I told her I was going to record it, which I did.

I need to ask her if I can link it in here and people can hear for themselves?

Though I'm not sure if things are getting through as my numbers are behaving very oddly and ..

Well .. let's just say I've been in contact with someone who is .. questionable and shows done of behaviour and doesn't do themselves any favours ..

I called them out too and they admitted two links .. not one but two .. to .. government and somewhat .. clandestine departments.

Young mother dies of cervical cancer NHS missed and took too much time on then it's discovered they made mistakes over Deep Vein Thrombosis, deliberately neglected Fibromyalgia her daughter's Autism was lied about by the NHS after it was already spotted by receive else and all the tests proved it??

How about that for a headline?!

Admittedly it's a bit long for this world where everyone suffers from TLDR in anything longer than an SMS or Tweet.

Recording of conversation got an agreement for publishing ..

She is my daughter but I still have to ask permission .. even from her .. but as someone who acquired a contract signature, no more than that for now, has done nothing ..

https://drive.google.com/open?id=1flNyAR6kQmuVfgjZNI-0sGf1CgG7fLbH

AS SURE AS AN ARROWE

Before I found myself in my current situation .. held up by tasks and .. well, others, I mentioned a very brief stay in a hospital on the Wirral.

This was by some margin the worst stay I believe I have had in a hospital, despite several members of staff being the most .. well, hospitable (no pun intended).

Now .. a name I mentioned to the idiot I spoke to, who was actually from Liverpool and was not factual despite his insistence of my medical condition, was recognised. As it turns out .. I now find out that the name I mentioned knew exactly who this was, more on this in a few months, and I discovered why this moron remembered the name ..

.. because they called him 'a wanker' more or less. Because he had the exact same attitude he gave me, was an idiot jobsworth that obviously believed that the NHS, namely him, should be paid for doing fuck all. As should the local councils .. despite obtaining money under false pretences and any idiot can easily find that out, hey, investigative journalists that avoid these stories like the plague!

Rather bizarrely and also a sign that he was not as intelligent as he liked to think that he was, I was very obviously not from around those parts of the country. NOT EVEN CLOSE. It would be obvious to everyone that I was either a Londoner or from somewhere very south-east.

Now with that realisation you might be forgiven for thinking that in their case they might ask themselves how they would measure up to other hospitals from so far away? Umm .. no.

I realised at the very end that there was a severe problem with this hospital .. because of the absolutely humongous change between th first four people and then the very last one .. contradicting what the other four had stated to me and in the same process asking me why I had asked and/or expected certain things to be done. Umm .. yeah .. wasn't me you fucking blithering idiot, it was ALL FOUR of your fellow colleagues that stated these things.

I got this distinct feeling that during the three hour or so wait, it was 11am when picked up and dark when I left, these staff members were either reprimanded for being human or more likely after I had left. Reprimanded and bullied was the picture in my mind. He had already stated that the '111' system was a complete waste of time and that they were all idiots. Well what do you expect you blithering idiot .. it was obviously another front created to shift blame away when someone dies. A bit like Atos, Maximus and Capita .. except they were not set up by the government and are private contractors that get paid handsome;y to lie and cheat so that the public services and government do not get caught red handed. Except now and moving forward .. sorry all you MP's but people are realising thanks to that you never fully understood .. the Internet and smartphones.

Oddly enough I was stating to someone recently about this 'takes forever and accepted as such by everyone' attitude of public services and government. I have always said no and that it would all end in tears .. too bloody late. Well this is also true of big private companies too. Someone mentioned to me that the major tabloids now ask for donations when you venture onto their web-page. I said that I knew and just like in government services they ignored a changing world due to taking forever or sheer incompetence, been left behind by other news services, no one buying newspapers any more and .. been left behind. Bummer!

But when they get it wrong .. they seem to think they have the right to expect others to pay for their mistakes, despite these mistakes being in the millions or even billions of pounds?!

I ask people that if any member of the public made a mistake and went to these people for help what would be the response? "No! It's your fault!" and despite this being a few hundred or a few thousand pounds. Oooh no! That would draw the reactions that your taking the piss or stupid. But when it is millions or billions and for organisations that were handing millions or billions .. not that is OK. Of course it is natural with these humongous figures that a few tens of millions or the odd billion winds up under the cushions of the proverbial sofa?!

So then .. Arrowe Park Hospital where they all fully expect to receive salaries while not providing services? Ooh how I would hate to be a public servant (servant? LMAO) over the next five to ten years. Anyway .. yeah it seems that ..

• Bullying been reported by the Liverpool Echo, surprise surprise
• Tribal Divisions between Nurses
• Hiding of hospital beds going on

Now remember me stating for over five years that the problem with people who are amoral and dishonest? Not to mention easily corrupted?

THAT THEY WILL TURN ON EACH OTHER!

In fact being a mental health professional and his rudeness I have wondered how many people with mental health problems have taken their own lives after speaking to him or someone with that same attitude?!

https://www.liverpoolecho.co.uk/news/liverpool-news/leaked-arrowe-park-report-lifts-14325034