THE LOW POINTS

Oh the feeling of .. betrayal.

Still working and cross-referencing data to do with Behcet's Disease, still cannot get over that .. recent discovery, and what I now know to be called Hypomagnesemia.

It is shocking revelation that I have catalogued on this blog each and every visit I have had to Accident & Emergency and it must be stressed that I have never .. ever rang '999'. Ever! Each of these hospital visits, or the ones that I recall anyway, have been for two things .. anxiety attacks to the point of suicidal thoughts or self-harming or heart palpitations along with chest tightness and shortness of breath. These are catalogued and go back a few years. They go back way, way over a year just for the heart palpitations alone. In one visit to North Middlesex Hospital one chap was quite concerned about these palpitations and as I have stated before and at the time .. concerned about how long they endured. Several hours until I went to sleep was what I had told him at the time. They did a barrage of tests but found nothing. Oddly I never EVER recall having any blood taken at all. More about why I mentioned that in a moment.

Right before I was being forced to move 250 miles away they then decided, after my third or so visit, that this should be looked into. I asked the Doctor at the time if he was joking and he asked why I had said this. “I have had this for over a year, been in here three times over it and now I am about to move 250 miles away and now you decide this needs to be looked into?!” SIGH

I move north.

I then finally get around to registering with a Doctor which took me a long time because there was a lot going on .. domestic violence, four grandchildren, two cases of autism, harassment from prison, murder, cervical cancer, falsification of medical records, theft and lies.

I get what they called a 'Rapid..' umm .. something. A quick .. appointment as this is my heart and probably because they think they might have missed something and that I might die? They did and they carried on missing it and .. I am not dead yet. Though it has felt at times like I am about to and did this very day .. while buying nail clippers of all things?!

Well .. in fact they missed not one but two things!

This is after ignoring the fact that I had Fibromyalgia after an unknown period of time where they quite obviously missed that too! Could have ignored it through embarrassment or fear of being prosecuted legally? Could have just done this to save money. But I started pressurising them about this around the year 2001. That was after my first twinge of pain in one of my feet which became permanent and I had had for several months. I got all kinds of diagnosis, none of which I agreed with and I proved them all wrong. Tenosynovitis was one. Plantar fasciitis was another and there have been others.

To be fair one of my several issues with my feet is very much like Planter fasciitis .. except in reverse! You see with the aforementioned issue it is stiff and painful in the morning but gets better throughout the day the more you use your feet. Then the next morning back to square one.

After discovering and self diagnosing Fibromyalgia, after wrongly self diagnosing Charcot Marie Tooth Syndrome, I understood the issue to be a lack of sleep problem. To be precise a lack of restorative sleep. Now I am not so sure any more.

Now to me the foot pain was just another in a long line of symptoms that had been popping up over the previous twelve years and I was certain that no one could possibly have this many symptoms and that most, if not all of them, must be linked. But I was told this was not possible.

Now my previous symptoms had just been a collection of highly annoying to highly embarrassing things. Tiredness, skin conditions and clicking ankle joints I had always called Achilles Tendinitis because that was the closest I could find to what I was experiencing. There were other things besides but I am not going to try and remember everything.

As previously stated a previous GP stated one day that he thought I might be suffering from low magnesium when I had complained about my legs aching really badly. From waking up in the morning I was constantly rubbing both my thighs all day and night.

At his request I bought vitamin pills containing magnesium and this worked, to my surprise.

That was the end of that and I continued to buy these pills and take them daily for the next three years or so. Only .. I only discovered recently that a whole raft of really nasty symptoms I have are also down to this damned deficiency. I also discovered it can kill you in a number of ways.

Now I know this is called Hypomagnesemia.

It explains a lot of the more recent, well up to ten years or so, symptoms I have had.

I have no GP to go and discuss this with.

Very literally twenty four or forty eight hours later my daughter is diagnosed with Behcet's Disease and this comes from me pressurising her for six months because she has what I have. I assume they are going to confirm Fibromyalgia. Though despite claiming to refer her in October or November 2017 no letter ever arrives. This comes about because of a series of different pains and one so painful she cannot walk. They still bloody well missed it on the first visit but on the second ..

'Oh you have Behcet's Disease' is what they told my daughter.

I had never .. ever .. heard of this before. So I looked it up.

I then read this webpage regarding this Behcet's Disease and I am stunned to find it lists almost all my remaining symptoms that have mostly dogged me for twenty five years plus.

I then assume that this must come from Fibromyalgia only to cross-reference a few things and discover that they claim Fibromyalgia develops in people that suffer with Behcet's Disease. Go figure!

So yeah that is the short version and I am still trying to cross-reference things while I specifically look for any possible issues with magnesium absorption. Because I take magnesium and yet I still have some of the problems. Which suggests to me that there is a problem with the magnesium absorption and as this low magnesium can be immediately fatal in some things or go around the houses to become fatal in others it is best to find out. I would rather die on my terms and have my death mean or count for something, as I am currently trying to achieve, than happen suddenly and amount to nothing at all. That .. really bugs me.

I also do not want to go through a load of suffering over my own death either.

A friend of mine who had been a social worker for twenty five years or more was shocked when I told him. He said that he was aware of what I was telling him and had seen a documentary about Sudden Death Syndrome. He went on to state that some people somewhere working in a forest, do not know if it was Brazil or somewhere, had just died overnight. He stated that when they looked into it it had something to do with Potassium as he recalled and this was linked to low magnesium and that it was a shock to find out I was still having issues, despite the supplements. Oddly I cannot recall what he said when I told him I had been diagnosed with low magnesium three or four years ago? We went a few years without speaking and I think I was diagnosed during the time we were not talking. My short term memory is giving me issues here but I seem to be recalling him, from just earlier today .. umm or yesterday, being shocked at my low magnesium diagnosis. So maybe he did not know? But I have been taking the supplements for so long now that my brain keeps telling me he must have known?!

Anyway he was also shocked when I described Behcet's Disease and not only did he realise it had a list of things that I have suffered with for many, many years but as it turns out so does he. I did read about links to diabetics and he is .. well, diabetic and has been for decades.

I am now expecting him to go away and check this out. He has experienced a particularly nasty symptom that despite me having it .. his was more of a .. sensitive nature. Oddly my daughter has something similar. These are pretty unique things that kind of .. well stand out, so to speak. So he was pretty keen to look into this further for himself.

I am also wondering whether he is going to get back to me at some point and .. go somewhat nuts because it turns out he has had this for years? Because there are some pretty horrible things that it does. We have the same joint issues .. the Achilles Tendinitis I mentioned earlier? He has the exact same issue and has had for years, like me. Funnily enough there was a time when he as absolutely convinced I was diabetic and insisted on doing a blood sugar test on me. I bet him it would come out normal. I won that bet.

I do tend to get things right and had ruled out diabetes years earlier plus .. well I would have thought it would have come up in the blood tests I had, had performed on me in the past. Pretty sure that testing for diabetes is a very common thing for hospitals to do. Miss that if your type one and its curtains my friend. No margin for error and so they do it. If its something there is no fear of you dropping dead from then they tend to ignore you and send you away. If it is something that they could claim at a later date is easily missed or fairly rare then .. yeah .. they will fob you off on that too!

By all accounts Hypomagnesemia is fairly rare and Behcet's Disease is even rarer.

They also cannot claim they did not know about it any more. I have emailed my solicitor along with Healthwatch and in the next few days I will email the NHS and I will email a court that want me to attend a hearing. Plausible denial is no longer an option!

The thing for me is the .. anxiety.

I have told and told and told psychiatrists .. those .. ones that do their job for them whose titles I cannot recall. I have told counsellors in mental health in the likes of both the NHS's IAPT as well as Mind along with every other big name organisation you can think of. You know? All those ones that claim that none of us should ignore mental health any longer? Yeah all those ones. Well I told them that this is chemical. I told them in no uncertain terms that my problem was CHEMICAL! Do you know what they did? Ignored me!

Well now I know that I have Hypomagnesemia and Behcet's Disease so guess what I am in the process of doing?

I can now both show and prove that it is chemical and I also have the medical records to back it up and I cannot get out of it while I am here and .. watch them all ignore me again while they all advertise on TV about how they are not ignoring it any longer. You watch as the government will tell you n the news media how they are not ignoring it any longer and are doing .. umm stuff about it.

But you will watch here as I get worse and I will contact each one in turn and no one anywhere will do anything about it and in the end you will come to a single realisation from all of this ..

.. that no one anywhere does anything about it and it is all bullshit they feed you. So that it looks like they are doing something for your hard earned taxes or your hard earned donations.

It might end up being the very last thing I manage to prove?!

Huh? I had an email to state that I have had three views on my LinkedIn account?!

Hmm? Now as it turns out I have this weird .. connection. Or I am connected to someone else who is connected to someone else who is talking to someone I know ..

.. in fact when I explained this .. connection it blew the mind of the person that I know! LMAO! I am wondering if it is this .. mutual connection? Guess I .. might find out in time.

While in a paused period of typing this out the irritation in and around my right eye went into .. fecking overdrive! I was beside myself last night. I was digging, squeezing and twisting the skin above my right eye and pushing hard into the top of my eye socket in a continuous and vain attempt to stop the irritation. It really is a complete mystery as to why sometimes it becomes more irritable then other times. This was by far the worst period though. Oddly it mostly used to occur at night years ago but now can manifest during the day and just last. It really is the most bizarre feeling.

Of course it now has the added danger I have long since only wondered about the possibility of .. blindness. Yes siree after driving me to the edge of insanity it now appears I could go blind, though judging from what I experience it will only be in one eye? I think. This is because absolutely nothing at all ever occurs with my left eye. Despite the fact that my right eye has been like this about five years. Certainly several years. Hmm .. well it would be listed on this blog .. so I will either have mentioned when it first appeared or I mention it throughout the life of this blog? If the latter is the case then I have experienced this 6 year or more.

It does not bode well when you read that if this condition is not treated it can lead to blindness!

It is also typical that I find myself in this impossible predicament at the worst possible time and, of course, a time when I really do not need any extra pressure.

So I have emailed Healthwatch, I think I mentioned? I will now need to email those I have already emailed and .. explain the new discovery.

I find it odd that as I have revealed the latest revelations regarding the NHS and have noticed a barrage of others around the Internet and that there are three Facebook pages dedicated to the failures of the NHS. Now that all this has occurred a certain royal wedding is being used to praise the institution? Sickening. Seventy years of the NHS and now it has been turned to shit and a highly corrupt organisation. It is no longer an institution and has not been for a long time, despite the bleatings of the blind, naïve, jobsworths, amoral people out for self-preservation and idiots. There are literally thousands, tens of thousands and maybe even hundreds of thousands of cases today that prove that it is consistently failing people and has been for a long time. It has also been killing people for a very long time to.

My daughter said something again to me that she has said twice recently. A friend of hers repeated something she recently said with a bit of added pizazz and a question ..

“Is your Dad coming back?!” and after being told they did not know for sure she went on “You know I thought your dad was crazy .. the things he used to say about the NHS. But he was right .. he was fucking right about everything!” to which her once doubting boyfriend also agreed.

By no stretch of the imagination were my claims, predictions and facts restricted to the NHS so do not under any circumstances think for one moment that my .. machinations are restricted to this one public service. It is all public services.

Indeed there are three that I call the evil trinity. One at the top which lies to protect itself, save otself money and help save two others money. Except one of these two others is technically over one hundred different organisations, or public services. The NHS at the top with the DWP and Local Councils underneath and of course in the case of the latter .. there are countless councils spread right across the country. Or technically .. countries.

Bot now Prince Harry states that the NHS is wonderful so all these thousands, tens of thousands and maybe even hundreds of thousands of claims must all be crap then? Yeaahh .. no one is really dead .. they are all just hiding somewhere? All those others that have suffered unbearably and the NHS treating them like shit and knowingly leaving them to suffer? Naah they are all making it up!

Well it seems that this royal wedding seems to have some controversies of its own to contend with?

I mean .. if those claims that a certain person stated that she wants to be the next Princess Diana are true? Oh .. my .. God. This would not mean anything to me but I am absolutely sure that to a great many people this would be an outrage and there would be an .. outcry. Though I am not entirely sure what they would expect from such an outcry. But you just know sometimes how people would react. Especially when it has anything to do with Princess Diana. Then there are those claims in recent reports about a certain someone being shallow by their own relatives. Now there is some other crap and I did not even bother reading beyond the headline. In fact I am not even sure I finish reading the headlines half the time?

'Oh well this must be true because someone that was deem unfathomably important states it is so'.

Then they expect other mindless fools to just follow suit like a gargantuan herd of sheep.

Sadly .. many do!

Oh another thing I have been experiencing .. in case I forgot this in recent posts, is I am finding touching certain things irritable. Annoyingly this is confined to just two things .. laptop touch-pad and smartphone screen?! Grr! I have even resorted to biting my fingers to try and get rid of the feeling!

REVELATIONS 4: THE FASHIONABLY LATE

Yup .. this is late. As so often is the case it is fashionably late.

Yeah .. well I am fashionably late yet again.

Oh but wait? No and just like all the other times .. it appears to be me is in fact down to someone else that already has the long since label of being .. well, fashionable late.

The public services.

Now I have done posts leading up to some big changes and changes that will spread right across my blogs .. except and as would be understandably so thought, it should have happened before now.

In fact my last post about this thing was titled 'The Last Week' and I had and very almost did post one called 'The Last Weekend'. But I held back because .. I had a gut feeling. Except and as so many may have previously thought, I should not have gotten this right. I should not have decided that what has been given to me was wrong. It was against the odds. Let me explain..

This change has a date that I do not have and then a transition period of a couple of months where a lot of similar changes are going to happen.

Now this is following a .. procedure that is defined in law that cannot in any way be changed that would affect me or 9 other people. Not for the worst at any rate and only for the better.

NOW! In charge of this process, only acting as a go-between, between a court and us, is a solicitor not really reachable by me. Well .. not in the face to face sense.

This process involves ten of us and there is absolutely no one else between us and this process.

So if and when explained the above line will become absolutely clear, something I thought I would have done a few days ago.

Now we get to the point of the matter ..

I can both show at a later date, which I will, that this process was to end on Wednesday the 14^th June at the latest and given two days for a letter to go from the solicitor and me .. should have reached me by Friday 16^th June. Except it did not.

Thee idea of the post title 'The Last Weekend' was to write it in such a way that the readers would be left wondering if this was .. well the last weekend or the forthcoming weekend. In case it was late.

NOW! Here is where I let out a little more details ..

We have had something wrongly taken. In the form of a rather large .. object. There that will get readers wondering.

This was not only wrong but there was a huge play to misinform as well as manipulate a lot of people and one of those groups has me in it.

Think about that .. me. Lol.

The person that did this does not pay attention, thinks they know the law and was someone I used to see very regularly and was very close to .. except I stopped doing that some years ago and there were two reasons for this ..

One was that they started talking bullshit.

The other I wont go into .. I have to be careful about saying too much and giving anyone some info that would allow them to .. well let us say 'prepare themselves'.

The game has been afoot for a fair old while. Longer than you probably imagine and then when you guess that it goes back about 18 months because I have dropped hints on here let me tell you this. It goes back to around two years before I started blogging!

When I started I said I was going to do many things. I said I was going to achieve many things. I also stated I was going to catch a lot of people and organisations out that would otherwise be seen as impossible to catch out.

After all I am merely one man and with no resources or tools, at least when I started out, so what exactly could I possibly do? Many large groups and organisations have attempted to achieve the things I want to achieve and have failed. Over and over again. From solicitors to protest groups and even including Memberss of Parliament, though too few with the latter. Far too few. These had many individuals working with of for them and had resources and therefore money.

No single person was ever going to achieve anything. A person acting alone could not possibly be seen as any kind of threat against some of the biggest organisations.

How could any one person achieve any of these things. It is not even worth thinking about.

But it does, can and is working. But how? Well I suggest you read the above line again and then think about it for a few moments.

Who would ever guess that one person could achieve anything?

Most people I know even think that one person, they or someone else and even me, could never achieve anything or change anything.

I have provided you with yet another clue.

NOBODY .. WOULD .. SUSPECT. Even when made aware. Lol!

Also this individual would have to do this in a clever but very slow way .. think of an assassin, if you will, on a mission to .. well, assassinate an individual. He would be not widely seen and would be camouflaged, move at night and even then .. move slowly. He would focus on the areas that are .. neglected. Or in other words study to find weak points in areas that they could capitalise on to achieve their goal.

But awhile ago I was seen. I have also seen plenty of evidence that people that could not possibly know as they did not know from me .. have become aware. Giving themselves away to being informed about me by their actions or indeed, lack thereof.

How many of them have been informed about me and possess a file? I do not know.

I am not interested in knowing. It provides me with no benefit whatsoever so not worth my focus and it becomes obvious to me in time anyway. I just .. do not let on. The only signal I would likely give away is a wry smile. But no one would even take that as a sign that I know. Because when it is realised that the person knows that you know there give a certain .. look.

I have not had the look.

So then .. after reeling off all that to get the picture in frame let us go back to the point.

On April 10^th I got an eemail and then a letter from a solicitor that did not say very much, other than to point out that they were following a set of rules in law that cannot be changed. Which I already knew.

I wanted two numbers and I never got them.

Sometime around the end of May I emailed them again and I tried to sound a little .. demanding and I was also being very sarcastic while not being .. obviously sarcastic.

To make things clearer I was told that “This wont take long” .. except .. I was given no time frame for how long it can take, between the shortest time and the longest time, plus I was not told when it started. Even though I specifically asked about the latter..

“When did this process initially start?”

I asked this because I did not know and we were informed some while after it as started and I not only could but already did look up the time frames. There were two. Which of these two time frames were involved would rather depend on whether yet another public service, though I use the term 'service' very loosely here.

And now I will tell you that I specifically asked if this other public service would be involved. Once again I got no answer.

So now think about this for a moment .. I am, along with 9 others, the ones to directly benefit from this which is laid out by law. So 9 of us have the right. Except at least eight of us have not been told anything.

Let me put it to you that if I was to ask you that if someone stated to you that 'This wont take long' could you tell me on your opinion roughly what time period is that? This was not given to me at any stage, despite asking twice!

Now imagine you were given a period of two to eight weeks or another of eight to twelve weeks for the process to be carried out? What would you need to know the exact dates of the earliest and latest it ended? Well you would need to know when exactly the process was started, of course. Yup .. one of only three questions I asked .. TWICE!

I have been told of which of the two time periods our process has fallen into and nor do I know when it started. But I did eventually get told something. Which was only garnered after initially poking sarcasm their way. Despite the promise of updates. I will get to this shortly.

Oh solicitors, solicitors? They are just so fucking stupid when it comes to Information Technology and yet when they speak .. anyone would think they were the Queen of Sheba. Or, indeed, the King of somewhere?

Facepalm.

So I had one single date which was the 2^nd of June which was roughly an idea that it would end somewhere near or not long after this date.

Yeah so as I said I was given .. a time period after being sarcastic while not obviously being sarcastic? How did I do that, I hear you ask?

Well .. we was all promised it would not take very long and with that we were also promised .. updates along the way. Of a process that two to eight weeks or eight to twelve weeks that had already started prior to my initial correspondence.

Updates.

The process that would not take long has gone on for more than 6 weeks when I contacted them and poked sarcasm.

In the email, my 2^nd email was not answered, I stated that as we was promised it would not take long and that they had promised us updates and then received any over a period of more than six weeks we all believe that something must have gone wrong and could they confirm this suspicion so we could take another course of action?

You see what I did there?

Of the three emails I sent only the first one, which they were … let us say publicly asking for, got a response, the second no response and the latest one with sarcasm garnered a response.

In this I was still not told the two figures I had been trying to find out since January the 8^th of 2017 and was told the following .. which really gives nothing way soo ..

The 'documents' were given to the 'public service' on the 18^th May (2017). This takes between 2 and 3 weeks to come back in which case I ask you all how you want to 'receive'.

So therefore .. as I stated previously the process would end roughly, or meaning when we get told the two bloody numbers we have wanted to know for 6 months, on the 7^th June at the earliest and the 14^th June at the latest. THEIR OWN WORDS.

Look at the date that this post was posted, along with the time.

It is roughly 22:40 now and the date is the 20^th June and just like everything else I have asked .. I have been told .. nothing.

Except .. the solicitor was wrong. The solicitor also did not explain a certain something and I believe this was not only deliberate but also in violation of the law.

Yeah you see she got the period of time it takes this public service .. wrong.

It is not 3 to 4 weeks but in fact 3 to 5 weeks.

I gets worse as this period falls into the first of the two categories, or periods, I had constantly been asking for but had not gleaned an answer out of them.

What do I mean by that?

Well .. remember I said that the process can either take 2 to 8 weeks or 8 to 12 weeks and you may recall from an earlier post that due to my knowledge (in other words I always mean FACTS when I bloody well state this!) our process should fall into the 8 to 12 week category?

Yeah well the factual 3 to 4 week process falls into the 2 to 8 week category.

Now is this clear? The 2 to 8 week category. Meaning that the object removed was bigger than first appeared. Remember that to for a later post.

Sooo .. if this falls into the 2 to 8 week category then why the fucking hell has it taken .. more than ten weeks?! The 2 to 8 week process cannot take ten weeks!

Oooh … did I say it has taken ten weeks?! Oh deary me I am sorry ..

Well as I stated .. I was told by someone lse that a solicitor had already been instructed so .. PRIOR to me being told, which is why I specifically asked them. When this was first revealed to the very first one of the 8 of us, yeah yeah just ignore the 9 and 20 numbers, that was after a two day delay in response to a specific question.

Yeah it gets more confusing because I discovered the solicitor handling what is essentially the affairs or interests of 10 people by doing a Google search. Then I emailed them and solicitors are also fashionably late and so .. the 10^th April was only the date that I got an answer.

The fact that my whole affair is actually listed very publicly means that the website had to be set up at some point. How long had that actually been there when I found it? It was the first .. search I had ever did on our affairs. The odds on me doing my very first search the very same day the web-page went live is .. well you can imagine the odds are astronomical.

Also the solicitor has to instruct this … office of public affairs, let us call them that, and it would take time for the web-page to be created.

So you can imagine we must be looking at, at least a week they were instructed prior to me discovering them. At least a week so could be more.

So we are not looking at 10 weeks here we are looking at more than 11 weeks and with no confirmation of any type of .. finality to any of the proceedings.

Soo .. we are looking at a 12 week period for a period that was supposed to take 2 to 8 weeks and we have been given zero in the way of an explanation for this.

Soo I had to inform three of the other 9 involved. Yes, yes the number of involved switches between 7, 8 and 9? Patience, patience. I had a response from one half of this group and he stated that I need to talk to another member of the group (incidentally the one that was told there was a solicitor involved) as they have now decided to .. well, hire a solicitor.

About bloody time!

But .. I cannot blame them because I know they simply had trouble believing things, I know I did and as I stated I simply could not believe the things I was told and among those things I was told of what was to come and that I and two siblings, two brothers and one sister, was OK with it.

It also turns out that this .. action was not as it was first portrayed and was a very, very clever ruse and once again it was me that discovered the ruse.

In fact one family member called me the previous Saturday and said “Have you heard from the solicitor?” as it was now 3 days past the final possible date she gave us. I said “Do not even talk to me about that! They are late but I do not even know if they are officially late because they wont even provide me with a timescale, category or even the date the were first instructed!”

Now here is the interesting bit ..

He said that he wondered that the reason it has taken longer than the solicitor quoted is because this public service had rumbled the truth and that someone must have forewarned them and he wondered as to who it could be. I simply said ..

“Are you serious?” He said “Yeah, why?” before I explained that when this started back in January that it was I that contacted said public service and when he then expressed complete surprise I simply said “Ryan? They were the VERY FIRST people I contacted”

I could hear this doubt in his voice and I simply said “I can forward their reply emails to you” and later I said to my sister that I was shocked that he did not seem to know that I contacted them. I gave both of them the email address of the public service and the London based one at that. I later found out, cannot recall how, that it was indeed another office up north and I emailed them too. Back in January and trust me I did no beat about the bush, gave them exact details as to what had gone on and what witnesses I could provide for each instance that I could work out what had been stolen. Very easy.

So yeah .. I did state to my brother that as soon as Saturday came and I still had no email and no letter it crossed my mind that the solicitor and the thief were both about to get a big surprise?

What did I state at the beginning?

Large and/or professional organisations with lots of money? Hwo could one person possibly do anything to these organisations or public service?

Yeah .. I did that.

I am also doing this!

But what do I mean when I state that 'I am also doing this!'?

What I am doing and have always been doing, that's what.

The clues are all here and have been here for a very, very long time.

Now excuse me .. I have to go and try to remember to type out a letter to HMCTS! Plus send it, of course. Damn these memory problems and blanks .. something else I have to work around along with no financial back up or resources.

Miracles are not exactly easy in this situation, you know!

LMAO!