TOO MUCH TO FEAR

Oh .. my .. God What the hell is going on?!

OK that was too weird .. and too scary. I was first going to title this 'Too Much To Scary' but thought it sounded wimpish, lol, even though it is not me … per se.

Right then I got out on the bike after an extreme effort. But stopped by the main road to collect my thoughts. Visited my local shop for a can of Monster and a Twirl. Walked along with my bike and noticed my arms were doing that tingling thing.

Fuck! Just had almost total seizure annd just remember milk was not in fridge and was about to seize as the fridge door was closing and I bent forward and down and just about caught it Not before everything went black and that warm tingling electrical like fuzzy feeling I get when I have these blackouts.

Jesus this is turning out to be a hell of a day!

I GOT MILK! Hmm did I already type that? Memory gone blank .. oh yes I did, lol.

Well it is Tuesday and first time I had milk in the house since last …. umm Tuesday … at the earliest. I certainly had none on Thursday … oh wait and I told a friend I had, had no milk for three days … so last Monday. Eight days. Groan

So I did get a little bit of food … forgot to get couple those cheap bag of doughnuts … what? There is no way I can cook right now and they are damned cheap. I forgot them anyway and was one of three things I wanted. The other being Sarsaparilla, a dilutable drink if you never heard of it.

Anyway forget that, I digress.

I was walking along with my bike and my can of drink when I was feeling this tingling in my arms and then I was getting these hot flushing feelings except it was not hot and felt cold. I had already had some anxiety before I left the house. But I had gotten a couple hundred yards when this occurred and I though 'o shit, what's this?' Then I stopped and grabbed a metal fence along the main road by a Pelican crossing. Then I felt my left thigh go weak.

But I am out with my damn bike!

Panic mode!

How the f***uuu***ck does this anxiety bloody work and how does it just affect the leg thing, I was not even thinking about anything. Trying to focus about being out, the breeze and the noise … which turned into a low din just before the tingling started or around the same time, I cannot recall exactly.

Sometimes it comes on when you think about something … even something mundane you need to do it can just go boom. It goes off like Krakatoa if I think of the mainstream stress causing problem and sometimes it just goes off on its own.

I remembered when I felt like this years ago and you reach out for help and the so called experts tell you to 'not think about it' err you effing have to jerk off, 'do something constructive' that is stupid almost impossible and now with the thigh muscles shutting down … or read this book on CBT it is the cure of all evils and when nothing works they get frustrated and even sarcastic as they then feel useless But I thought about all the people that must have gone before me and been frustrated by all this. You want a pill and all you get is what they believe to be and act like are magic words. Then your told to come back in 28 days?!

'What the f***uu**ck? I cannot take 2 more days and your telling me to fuck off for 28?!' is what went through my mind in the past and I dare say has been through many others?

I can imagine people reading this thinking 'I feel you man, I feeel you!' I feel you to.

It is probably about to all happen again over the next eight weeks and this time things are going to go a little differently. Because I know what does and does not work, I know where it is coming from, what causes it and have names for them all. This time they cannot fob me off because I have no diagnosis .. I know!

No magic words just pills or the source of the stress needs to be dealt with and despite all that people think I can do and all that I know I have limits and now I know that the anxiety just comes and shuts everything down.

There is nothing you can do to prevent it when it comes out of the blue like that and no simple off switch.

Amazes me that Doctors never stop and consider for one second that patients could have tried a whole load of things before going to see them? Maybe even buying various pills and things from their local chemist? Nope, they act like you just got it that morning you made the appointment for the first time.

Oh dear … I have gone off at a tandem there.

I reached a bin with my bike to throw the chocolate wrapper away and finish my drink and throw that way too. Yeah like never stealing, cheating or doing people over I do not even throw litter on the floor. Dead against it and hate seeing it.

I splayed my legs out a bit and leant against my bike for support as it was obvious I was losing the use of my thighs for the third time now. I held onto the metal guard fence and got on my bike, wondering whether or not I would end up on my arse. I really do not need another accident with everything else that is going on. But been in some bad ones, that bought all this on in the first place, and falling off a bike not that big a deal. I was laughing the last time I did it. A lady in a car next to me wound down her passenger said window and said “Oh God, are you alright?!” to which I said yes as I was laughing. It was the first time I had used clipless (odd name as you clip in) pedals and I undid the wrong foot and when I stopped went the other way, lol.

When I pulled away on the bike I took it slow as I did not know how the things were going to be with cycling. Not great but they did it and I cycled very, very slowly down to Sainsburys. I was lucky as it felt like the left thigh was more affected than the right. So when I did get to Sainsburys after nearly turning around and going home a couple of time, I used my walking stick on my right side. Yup if I use a bike to go shopping anywhere the stick folds up and goes in my backpack.

Lucky I did not forget it! Otherwise I would have had to return home with no shopping for the eighth day in a row!

Jesus how are you supposed to focus and think about anything when you have so many things that can go on all at the same time?! If feels like your heads going to explode and with the anxiety implode at the same time?!

I am listening to another radio show that has been sent to me about … umm let me look, ah I thought it was Bigfoot and it is, it is called the Sasquatch Chronicles. Thought it might have been the Paracas Skulls again, or rather a different one. Still trying to get to listen to the first one he gave me all the way through. Started it tree times and ended up falling asleep so I downloaded the thing.

It is weird as I like listening to these and it seems to take my mind off the threats of impending doom. Over half my living allowance taken away and a court case to get it back, the possibility of being mmade homeless again and a neurology appointment because I am having seizures, or at least I have had one lasting ten minutes and have come close to others probably a couple of dozen times and other mild blackouts. Well, medium blackouts.

Maybe it is because I like mysterious things like this, aliens and things like that or I just have something interesting to talk to when I visit the shop. My interaction has been a bit lax of late and I have not been out on my photography and filming runs on my mountain bike, sadly.

To say it has not been good of late is something way beyond an understatement and I mean if the three things I mentioned of impending doom are not enough that even if it turns out I do not have a tumour there is still the things vexing me, the full on seizures and then added to this is the fact that I ave lost the use of my legs three times now.. Something that upon research is caused by very strong anxiety I have experienced of late which itself is caused by my Fibromyalgia. This can become permanent too and is known as a silly name called 'rubber legs'.

So a whole damned list of symptoms some that might be something killing me and another that might make me unable to walk the rests of my life and that is I do not become homeless. LMAO.

It is often said about me that you simply cannot make the stuff up I end up going through …. nothing for ages and then all hell breaks loose.

Funny too that I listen to these sows about Bigfoot and I think about whether it is real or not and while tehre are certainly a lot of people faking this and probably making money from it, there are compelling stories too.

I also find it funny that if it was all bullshit, along with other subject areas they claim about, then it is hilarious that people have made money out of bullshit and lies and I have done nothing but tell the truth and as yet not made a penny, lmao.

I have had it said from time to time you do not get anywhere by being honest and that is my problem and my friend Ken, who I helped while he slowly died of kidney cancer. Always said I was born a 100 to a 1,000 years too soon. The world is not right for me. Lol.

Nice to know that someone I met thought the future was a bright one, as not many do.

That show I said I was listening to right now? Well I just had a guy being interviewed whose searching for things like Bigfoot and Yeti, has not found anything and makes a great deal of sense and sounds like me when talking about others that bullshit and fake. He also mirrors what I have said about people that insist they are right and cannot admit being wrong.

Oddly although the show and interviewer is American the guy being interviewed is British, lol. Ah I just checked and his name, the Brit, is Adam Davies and is listed as one of the world's foremost Cryptozoologists. Someone that looks for new species at the slightly weird end of the subject, or at least I only hear of Cryptozoology when it is normally Bigfoot, Yeti, Dogman which sounds a bit too bizarre as these sound more like Werewolves.

He mentions about the attitudes of others around 45 minutes to 50 minutes in...

https://sasquatchchronicles.com/scep238-strange-lights-and-strange-creatures/

You just know listening to it he is talking about an attitude that is extremely common on YouTube in the comments where people start to argue about who is right. He states that this attitude is stupid because on either side you cannot prove that you are right and tat continuing to argue or even shout about it is not going to make a blind bit of difference to what the truth is.

Hmm, I like that guy.

This attitude is not confined to Bigfoot, oh no. I see it in video gaming and I see it in computer hardware in the comments section and is one very major reason why I rarely comment. Let us just say you would be hard pressed to find my comments. All one or two of them … ooh I do not remember how many I made even if it is in single figures. Unless half-wits that tink themselves superior say something on my YouTube comments … then I tend to put them in their place … or YAWN and then put them in their place.

Like this guy says … if your not quick witted and need time to mull things over do not react in a knee-jerk fashion as your opening yourselves up to attack. But give people a video games machine or they build a PC and get access to the Internet and suddenly there are experts on everything and everyone else is a dumb-arse. Lol.

Let us gibe an example …. the Dogman things souds as stupid as hell and sounds like an obvious set of hoaxes. I cannot say that they all are hoaxes or that Dogman does not exist … because I do not know and nor can I prove it.

Oh God, and do not even get me started on the religious fruitcakes. Or I should say the religious ones that also happen to be fruitcakes, or fruit loops, lol.

THE WORLD OF THE MYSTERIOUS

I have always had a things for mysteries ever since I was a child.

No matter what mysteries there was and how mysterious and outlandish they might be I would look, ponder and dream. From the galaxies, nebulas, stars, planets and their moons along with comets in te night sky to undiscovered and very weird eyewitness accounts right here on Earth.

These ranged form the paranormal like ghost sightings, mediums/clairvoyance to mysterious sightings of fantastical creatures.

One of my oldest and fondest memories was watching Arthur C Clarke's Mysterious World and its follow up of a title I cannot recall right now.

I was absolutely fascinated.

I would ask my father who also had a keen interest about the things I saw in that series along with any other documentaries would pop up from time to time.

I am … curious and I want to know .. everything. I do not think I know everything but when people claim that I do, not sarcastically, I always correct them, say that I do not but that I know more than most and do in fact want to know it all. Lol, apart from a list of boring exceptions.

The most interesting subject for me thha has more or less stayed this way was the possibility of this planet being visited by what are generally known as aliens. Or extra-terrestrials from another world, though another world could be applied to things much closer to home than most people realise.

To give you an example to that very odd last remark I would only have to point towards those people that theorise and those .. believers that follow them that thin that there is a hollow Earth, or the Hollow Earth Theory. My father was a believer in this last one.

I think that the Hollow Earth theory likely came about when it was put to the public and become widely known, though to be honest falsely, that the closest star was several thousand light years away and would take several thousand light years to get here. Except it would take a great deal longer. Because they realised or rather discovered that you cannot travel at the speed of light, let alone go faster than it. In theory. It is an old theory. Probably not strictly the case either.

I did not believe that the stated limit of speed was true plus I was well aware of other theories to cut the time travelling from system to system into a small fraction of that it would be even at the speed of light. I am of course speaking about wormholes.

Wormholes work on the idea that the whole universe exists on a vast membrane that twists and folds and that matter and light run across its surface. Think of a really large piece of paper that is several feet by several feet in size. Then draw the Milky Way Galaxy, for now, and the stars within and all the planets and moons to each star system. Then take that giant sized paper and crumple it into a ball of all sorts of contortions. Now think of the resulting ball of paper and think of this … now many of those stars are a great deal closer to each other than they was when the paper was flat. Now think of a tunnel that bridges two of these areas that are close together. That is how a wormhole could work .. in theory.

To us it would appear flat because we think of light of travelling in the straightest lines in nature. But we know now that light can be bent over relatively short areas by an immense amount of gravity. Like the super massive black-holes at the centre of gravity. So much that you ccan see galxies around the edges of the centre galaxy that are actually obscured by the galaxy in the centre of the image. The galaxies you can see around the outer edges are in fact stretched and warped and easily noticed when you look at them. Into almost a circular pattern.

This is known as gravitational lensing. Bearing in mind the size of the universe this is over a very small distance that the light is affected.

Now remembering te size of the universe once again it is easy to perceive that light that we look at from outside the galaxy has travelled such distance it would be not too far fetched to state that much of it has travelled in a straight line? Maybe even none of it?

Now consider there is at least one super massive black hole in our own galaxy and may be other largish black-holes and several other small ones and it is then easy to assume that some light within our own galaxy has not travelled in a straight line. That is relatively close, despite the vast distances and the amount of tens or hundreds of years light has taken to get to us.

If this is the case, and consider for a moment that it is … has anyone considered that one of the many tens of thousands, if not hundreds of thousands, galaxies imaged that one of them could be the Milky Way?!

I am going to allow several minutes for some noodles to actually get cooked.

The amount of time taken for the light heading of one way to work it's way around, considering if there is anything globe like or even remotely circular, would mean that any possible image would be of a much younger galaxy.

Might not quite be impossible to prove but would be impossible to identify said galaxy. I think.

The physics, quantum physics, astrophysics and question of life existing elsewhere in the universe is one thing but for our entire existence we are still discovering, theorising and spotting life on our own planet that was previously unknown.

Sometimes this has been downright mysterious.

The more mysterious and fantastical and the more the amount of credible witnesses and the more intriguing it is to me.

The absolute saddest point in the mysteries still surrounding strange creatures on our planet and creatures that are extra terrestrial in origin and visiting our planet is the people that come out of the woodwork. As soon as you have a few credible witnesses and half decent footage then you will get a flood of morons performing hoaxes for whatever sad reasons they have. Usually a thoroughly boring life but no excuse.

I have the most boring life imaginable but you will find no hoaxes or web of lies from me ever.

This level of sadness of human beings is only matched and at times beaten by the number of people that will shout and scream 'genuine footage' at the most crappiest hoaxes imaginable.

As I discovered lately to my shock tat a friend of mine was interested in an area of cryptozoology that was specific to humanoid creatures by asking me to order him a book titled 'Bigfoot'. I had known him over twenty years and do not ever recall him expressing this interest to me at any point in time.

Since I then declared my interest in the wider paranormal that included Bigfoot and Yeti from a young age he now openly talks about it. I realised immediately that there is such a bad reaction from others in areas such as this that there must be many that do not like admitting there interest.

I have no such reservations because I can and have put up damn good arguments and am well aware that it is harder to disprove than it is to prove. You can disprove certain sightings and accounts and even the fake videos but to disprove a creature's existence altogether? Yeeeah .. good luck with that one. Proving it does exist seems almost as hard and evidence almost entirely elusive. But find a dead one tomorrow and it is all over!

Unless of course there is a successful attempt at covering it up.

The idea of cover ups to the existence of Bigfoot in America and those others spotted around the world is widely accepted and believed by those that believe there is something, a Bigfoot, out there.

While at the exact same time the very idea that all of the governments in all the countries where another species of man or primate occur is something extremely hard to come to terms with. America, China, Russia and Australia have all done a bloody amazing job of covering things up. That is not including any other countries where this strange humanoid like creature has been spotted by people.

While at the same time and just as one expert woman stated in Bigfoot the Definitive Guide from the History Channel that when enough people have spotted it and stories of it go back to very old times there is normally something behind it.

Let us get something straight right here and now … there simply has to be more than one in absolutely each case that something was spotted. In fact I would have to state that there would have to be a considerable amount more than several.

Throughout history going right back to even pre-Jurassic times that species have not done particular well when their numbers have gotten down to the dozens or even hundreds. Today these animals of low numbers would make it onto a list, called the Red List, of animals that would be watched and helped by experts on animals. There are the obvious ones of primates and bears, like the Panda, down to Rhinoceros and all the way down to reptiles and amphibians. After this you get down to insects and really only butterflies in small numbers get anything in the way of the attention left over from all the others. This can and probably has proved to be a major flaw because there may well be other things they do not want to lose that could be connected directly to things overlooked like insects. There are the Fig Wasps straight off the top of my head. Added to this there are numerous Orchids that rely on particular types of insects from Bees to Moths.

There will probably be many occasions that these knock on effects can continue on and affecting something else. It may well be something that was once widespread but then had its numbers plunge to dangerous levels because of this knock on effect.

But unfortunately people only notice big fluffy, pretty, doughy eyed creatures or ones that are big and unusual.

Like everything else I notice the general pubic have a shut off point and it is almost like they say to themselves ..

'Well I am caring about this animal that everyone loves. Now my life is too complicated to worry about Moth or Butterfly when hardly anyone else does and there are plenty of others around anyway'

What they will fail to realise is that something else could have a knock on effect because there is a series of direct links all the way up to that animal you actually might have cared about.

Everything is linked one way or another and it is how life has evolved for billions of years, one thing depends on another either directly or indirectly for food and even reproduction. This can come fro evolution as two more more forms of life have become directly dependent on each other or even through trickery. The latter can be through the promise of reproduction, or sex, and even threats and anger and the absolutely best examples are found in the world of Orchids.

Have you ever smelt an Orchid in a store or a friend or family members house only to find it has no smell that left you confused? Well it kind of does …. you are just unable to detect it as you are not the right insect. Orchids can give off chemical signatures that might be an opposing hive of insects are that of a receptive female insect. The flowers may even mimic the colours of the insects it tries to lure. A group of flowers on one species of orchid with all the flowers bouncing in the wind may look just like a swarm of wasps and give off the chemical scent of wasps. Any wasps spotting this belonging to a nearby hide will get angry and try to attack the flowers of the orchid to try and send the wasps packing or kill them!

I have a hybrid of one of these Orchids and tend to refer to it as the 'Angry Wasp Orchid'.

As for Bigfoot it is somewhat intriguing and I have not really heard much about it for years, but just lately listening to eye witness accounts due to a friend's interest in the topic.

One I am listening to right now is a guy he said I should listen to called Vic Cundiff and a guy called Jake Thompson who is an eye witness telling his stories on what is called Bigfoot Eyewitness Radio I was told about being on YouTube. This one is episode 2.

Just listening to episode 3 and I already listened, well partially, to the first episode.

They also have something to do with what the call the Dogman radio shows and hearing this was also very bizarre and far more bizarre than this subject of Bigfoot. It is also far harder to prove as with Dogman it will be harder to explain if the bizarre sounding creature was far more feral and less intelligent than Bigfoot. At least with Bigfoot you could argue that there has been no corpse or bones found because they may bury their dead.

The problem with Dogman is it quite literally sounds just like that of Werewolves .. literally. From what I have heard thus far, though no mentions of silver bullets thus far.

Just as intriguing as the eyewitness accounts in radio shows and the one in fifty more more really sad and pathetic videos is the amount of people that are so willing to believe in some of these things. So many that believe without hesitation and one has to wonder if they have seen things they cannot explain nor identify and these accounts have the best fit for what they have themselves experienced?

It is also compelling how very similar the accounts and descriptions are and even down to the heights of these beings. They always seem to be from around 7 feet to 9 feet or slightly more and so common and similar are these accounts that it is generally believed that the females are around 7 feet while the males are around 8 or 9 feet or slightly more.

It is not this way with alien encounters but then to be fair and with the size of the universe there could me several alien species visiting and potentially millions of alien races that had achieved space travel even in our solar, or star, system alone? There are billions of stars and so there could be millions of races though I think it being in the thousands is more likely to be honest. That have achieved space travel that is.

The thought that was never far away from me from a young child is that with all those stars in the night sky and with each having 5 to 10 planets or more that we simply had to have been visited at some point in time. Even long, long ago in our past. Not stating that we have had just that it is possible for any point in time.

You might be surprised to hear that I discovered strange and bizarre mysteries much closer to home that the facts behhind I could not come to terms with at first and then when I did it took more than ten years and a hell of a lot of heartache, trickery and manipulation to first solve and then get the right treatment for. Is still goes on today.

This is the strange condition that afflicts me and has left me immobile at times, Fibromyalgia Syndrome and the absolute lack of help and the lies and falsification of test results I have had from the NHS on the subject.

Then of course there is the reason as to why?

Like I said this is on ongoing thing and it is about to get very, very dirty and will get a little too hot for some in the public services to handle. But they will only have themselves to blame.

I can of course and just like everything else put reasons to it that may well be the case … but this only results in them all looking stupid, unprofessional and a terrible waste of taxpayers money that has gone on for more tan 15 years.

You can bet your bottom dollar that if they have done this with me then they have done it with thousands, tens of thousands or hundreds of thousands of people. I would hate to work out how much money has been wasted in all that time with those sorts of numbers of people?!

On the topic of Bigfoot and other mysteries I have to wonder what I will stumble across in the coming weeks?

Oh .. my friend failed to tell me, if he indeed knew, that Lloyd Pie had some talk and a book about a very odd looking humanoid skull found that was elongated in shape that was called the Star Child?

He also failed to tell me, once again if he of course knew, that Lloyd Pie died in 2013 and that there seems to be some claim he was murdered by weaponised cancer. That instead of assassinating people that looked too obvious and suspicious they have a way of giving you cancer?!

I suppose that causing human cells to deform and mutate into cancer is a damn site easier than turning cancer cells back into their original form. Thinking about hat scientifically for a moment as it is the first time ever I have ever heard of anything like that. Using cancer as a weapon I mean.

An x-ray machine calibrated to go way over the safety margins and done two or three times would be one way I can think of, of doing this. Of course you would need one Doctor to lie about suspecting something and sent to another Doctor (fake or genuine) that has the dangerous x-ray machine.

But then being so easy and so obvious might be how or why they came up with this accusation, if it is of course a false allegation and just a few paranoid people.

However I must say that the number of deaths and closed accounts have happened way more times than needed for things to look suspicious. Too many coincidences of bad things, threats and deaths taking place on these subjects? I do think so myself but do not know the real reasons of course but it is extremely unusual to say the least.

Now there is another mystery in itself.

Lloyd Pie and his Star Child theory …

There will no doubt be other videos …. they always seem to be in a very low resolution but this was likely the early days of YouTube and before even 1080p or even 720p arrived?

One guy that claims weaponised cancer …

THE ANUNNAKI FILES

Very recently I watched a YouTube video that was two hours long and by an anthropologist called Lloyd Pie and about the sightings of unknown humanoid beings around the globe.

These are known famously via their nicknames and the two most famous are Bigfoot and the equally famous name of Yeti. Just as well known is the name in North America of Sasquatch.

In the last couple weeks, at the most, I had been looking up Bigfoot videos for someone I koow who had an interest in the sightings. I had not really thought about Bigfoot probably from my childhood days of the infamous video shown via Arthur C. Clarke's mysterious world.

I was shocked in two separate ways at when I uncovered over and over again.

First off was the sheer volume of videos claiming to be of Bigfoot and many of them very clearly faked. That along with the fact that many clearly faked programmes were actually mostly from the History Channel and even some of the Discover Channel. So much for wanting cable TV?!

Te other thing that surprised me was the number of very good looking videos that were extremely hard to fake or even impossible. Even in the ones that were possible you were talking of effects better than tat of Hollywood. Any one or team of people that had created fakes on this level would be hired and paid a great deal of money in the film industry.

On rare occasion I found some short lived solace with listening and watching some of these things and once realised he would not be ridiculed some links came thick and fast from this person that had originally mentioned their interest on the subject of Bigfoot.

I even came across someone who called himself ThinkerThunker who had knowledge of computer graphics along with photo manipulation who studied these videos. He even went some way to show that they could well be authentic by trying to show how he tried to find out if they were fake. He did this in very clever but very simple ways.

I could see why ThinkerThunker did this by the way he talked about some theories given out loud on the Internet to that they think a video is fake along with the 'whys' as well as the 'hows'.

I myself see this a lot. Everyone seems to either think they are on the level of Stephen Hawkin when it comes to intelligence and/or think they are Solomon when it comes to wisdom? They get an immediate feeling for whether they like or dislike something and then feel the need to start stabbing away at their keyboards and hitting that 'return' key.

Around 95% of the time or more that would have faired better to stop and think for a moment.

They look at something that is an engineering feat of the year or even decade, look at something someone has spent a decade or all their life studying and these people pout up their intelligent argument. Then someone comes along and with no history of study or even knowledgable on whatever subject it is and feel the need to open their gates. They think they are all experts of the Internet when they are clearly showing their naivety to the digitised word we now live in.

They fail to see when they are saying something stupid, fail to realise someone might come along smarter than they are, completely obliterate their argument and making them look silly. They fail to realise that these comments of theirs will simply sit there until someone more intelligent hat can show that they are idiots come along.

Not quite savvy when it comes to the Internet then are they and it matters not how expensive or design setting your smartphone is. But I am sure they think their latest Samsung Galaxy or iPhone imbues them with wisdom and knowledge.

Oops.

Day after day, month after month and year after year they come in hoards regardless of the subject matter and they open their gates up..but why?

Well on the one hand they do it because they viewed their argument or comments to be very difficult to be disproved at least for many weeks or months. For example 'that computer chip will be shit' or 'That next phone will be better tat everything else because it will have 'a', 'b' and 'c'.'

There are a large number of people that either have to do things to make them feel superior or intelligent or that something they have has to be superior then what everyone else has.

This is the 'My dad can beat up your dad' effect. Their ones bigger tan yours, stop giggling, my ones faster than yours and so on and so forth.

Put people in situations where they are forced to live on their own without any interaction with other people and they go a bit … strange. So is it not hilarious that the moment they are with someone else at some point and some of the time they end up stating they have something better then the other person?

We are a contradiction more times than we care to admit or even notice.

The same occurs with our relationships involving love as a couple, regardless of sexual preference, as they fall madly in love and want to commit their entire lives with this potential partner. Thhis normally leads to marriage between the two a majority of the time. Saying vows to each other while being witnessed by the combined mass of family and friends.

But how many marriages last?

Oddly I wanted tot get married and stay married forever when I was a teenager and into my early twenties and yet I have never married once.

I digress.

So there I was doing something I cannot recall on the Internet while my phone was emitting this talk by anthropologist, or claimed anthropologist, Lloyd Pie. He spoke for an hour about Bigfoot, about the sightings, the evidence and the possibilities. He was even funny and drew a fair few laughs from his audience that remained silent the rest of the time.

He made some good observations and some good points and was done in a clever way that had impressed me. He singled out Darwinism and that surprised me, had not heard that challenged very much. He pointed out the difference between the amount of chromosomes between humans and all other primates.

He moved about the globe explaining all the different sightings and the different parts of the world and even stated that there were not only these ancient hominids still walking around but claimed there were at least four different types.

With one in America and one in the Himalayas it stood to reason that if there was any truth to the stories then there were then two different species.

I had heard about a programme about the Himalayan Yeti that involved tests on a series of samples of hair that all turned out to be Bears.

Before long I had moved in from the minefield that is Bigfoot videos on YouTube to getting radio programmes on the subject involving interviews by radio hosts, who had seen the Bigfoots themselves, of other witnesses to the alleged hominids.

As well as listening to these quite intriguing and compelling stories I was also discovering claims of cover ups and that others had been subjected to ridicule. This was odd. Sure I know that someone that sounds convincing may actually believe they saw something they did not by a simply misidentification. But to happen so many times is a bit odd. Could there be an ancient man still walking around and unknown to us? Well, yes.

One video had some scientists on the documentary and one woman explained that prior to discovering the fossils to the famous little humans in the Indonesian region nicknamed 'hobbits' that people on a nearby island had told stories for decades of little people who were wild and being 'seen'.

She correctly stated that when stories have been told over a very long time there is normally something behind it and now some think that they will find these hobbits still alive when for decades they took no notice of the stories.

So the telling of stories over a very long time normally results in something being found out and this is true of the animal kingdom too in so many examples. The most recent being the giant sized spider and its scientific name of Theraposa blondi.

Well I have some news for you as the native North American Indians have been telling stories and creating carvings of Sasquatch for around 500 years!

Oops.

In his … well, lecture he even shows you a picture of the skull and jaw of someone who loved in Russia who was claimed to be an actual descendent of a Yeti like wild man she had bred with humans. The skull and jaw looked quite something.

He also states that we are genetically engineered beings with primates which was achieved by having some gene splicing and having some chromosomes fused. That is provided you need equal amounts for successful hybridisation?

Of course we do not know how many chromosomes Bigfoot, Alma or any other being tat might still be walking the Earth has. Not even sure, sorry for my lack of knowledge here, how many chromosomes any other long dead species has.

There are also claims that this fusion of chromosomes comes naturally through evolution but I do not know if it has been witnessed or even researched among the rest of the animal kingdom.

I found the cover up claims regarding Bigfoot odd and the one thing I heard was about the logging companies losing money and I simply doubted that. I thought it was more likely that if they were covering it up it was because they had captured some of these beings and were performing tests on them they would like to do with humans but not allowed. After all no one will report several missing ten foot tall Bigfoots and no one would go looking for them.

Probably the evil, manipulative and greedy drugs companies that no one wants to do anythhing about or keep in check?

I also found the ridiculing of those on the subject somewhat strange. There is nothing wrong with a fantastic sounding theory as long as it was possible and history is littered with them and the most famous one that everyone knows is the world being flat.

I myself do not know whether there are these Bigfoot type beings walking around but am also not about to ridicule anyone else that has beliefs that there are.

Some wonder whether or not a remnant of or cousin to Gigantopithecus blacki may actually be what Bigfoot turns out to actually be?

Bigfoots Wikipedia page as 91 entries in its notes section.

I was a long way into the lecture when I glanced at the time it had been running and it was around half way through a two hour lecture, went back to my online stuff and then heard a certain word, lifted my head a little and stared into the space of my empty living room in the dark.

'Did … he just say “Anunnaki”?' I thought to myself and looked at the white Moto X laying to my right hand side. 'Naah I must have imagined it' when suddenly I heard the word “Nibiru”!

'Oh crap' I thought to myself 'he is talking about the Anunnaki! How did we go from Bigfoot sightings and possibilities onto the subject of these old Babylonian Gods?'

I was filled in somewhat on these Babylonian Gods some years ago when I met an American woman living in Cambridge, the UK Cambridge. She explained the theory behind her beliefs about the Anunnaki and that were were all here by the design of these Gods that had this other planet they called home that swung away from the sun before coming back in again over very long periods. It is sometimes known as Planet X but normally referred to as 'Nibiru'.

I now paid more attention to him as I was interested in being reminded by this theory and I remembered being shown a picture of a stone carving that was thousands of years old that depicted the Anunnaki Gods and in the skies above them was carved the group of stars we know as the Pleiades, or Seven Sisters with the seven stars. Except we can only see six with the naked eye! I was asked how could a people of thousands of years ago know there was seven? Well … there are more than seven but I could see her point.

Things got a little surreal with a touch of weird when she eventually explained that she was visited by one of these Gods and that he did not, or you were not supposed to mention his name of Marduk and I thought that this potential relationship might not be for me.

Lloyd Pie went on to explain how there was supposed to be a planet formed where the asteroid belt exists and that if you took all the water away from our planet Earth it looks like a planet that has been destroyed by some cataclysmic event. He was right, it does and had thought that for a very long time. Probably where the theories of Earth and the Moon once being different and formed from a collision? A collision with what though?

Sure enough there now is this widely accepted theory that there is indeed another and larger planet out way beyond Pluto and the Kuiper Belt. So aware of the theorists behind the Anunnaki and Nibiru that NASA went as far as calling it 'Planet 9' instead of 'Planet X'.

So disillusioned are people, or I am thinking it might be that reason, that even those that claim about having a Reptilian race have put those famous people of very guilty crimes as belonging to them. Perhaps because the crimes were so heinous that they could only have been performed by being as cold hearted and callous as reptiles?

There is a reason that the area of the brain where all our basic instincts come from is called the 'R' Complex as 'R' stands for Reptilian. Someone too that and ran with it.

I often think it is just a way of normal people trying to find something that makes sense, or fits like a jigsaw puzzle than explains the crazy in the world.

It would come across as even more crazy because for several decades now the TV and everyone on it have been our role models and our guides. We have replied on TV and those on it for explanations, news and even entertainment. So many things.

Unfortunately as the years have gone by the TV and the people on it that we have trusted so much have gone in a different direction and even the older of us have been discovering tat household names from when we were kids have been up to all manner of things. They ave made themselves out to us on TV to be something they are not. Quite the opposite in fact.

Also TV sometimes gives the illusion that anything in it is widespread and likely much more so than it is in reality.

So we create scenarios to explain away things we do not like or that simply disturb us to the core.

The subject of Nibiru gets somewhat crazy when you look it up on YouTube as there is so much craziness in all this too. Probably because a shed load of ding-bats noticed you get a great deal of hits from it. So people started creating Nibiru or seeing Nibiru wherever they looked?

The worst idiots are the ones that kept predicting its return to the solar system and the impending doom came with dates of a few months time. This has likely happened every year for the past 6 years or so and may even have been a prediction date that passed by without incident twice each year?

These people simply had little understanding of astronomy when they did this and did not have much in the way of common sense either. Because anything further out than we are from the sun will take longer to go around the sun. Or in other words its 'year' will be much longer.

Mercury completes its orbit of the sun in a little under 88 days while we take a little over 365 days while Mars takes a little under two years. Go out further to the gas giants and things get looong! Jupiter takes around 11 years, Saturn takes 29.5 years, Uranus takes 84 years and Neptune 164.8 years.

Now imagine how long it takes the dwarf planets of the Kuiper Belt like Pluto, Haumea, Makemake, Eris and Sedna? Pluto culd be double the distance of Neptune at its furthest point, so over 300 years to orbit? The next large object could be double tat and so on and so forth? We could be talking about a thousand years for the dwarf planets that are on the outer edges of the Kuiper Belt?

For a long time these outer icy bodies had orbits that swung further out before swinging further in and Pluto even ventures inside the orbit of Neptune and no one could explain it. The elliptical plane it follows is also at an angle to all the other major planets. They have had … makeshift explanations for it but the truth is no one really knew for sure why their orbits varied the way they did.

So in the meantime you have had these theorists talking about a tenth planet, or Planet X, which ended up being called Nibiru. Now I thought I was originally told that Nibiru was a lone planet but have been reading and hearing that it actually belongs to another star that orbits the sun, a brown dwarf I think one explanation was. That would be somewhat harder to believe as it really would be a much easier think for astronomers to spot, a star so near our own.

They did find something though! They have now predicted that if you placed a planet of a certain mass that is way bigger than Earth, let alone the outer dwarf planets and place it much further out than the Kuiper belt then all of a sudden the motions of the Kuiper Belt objects, dwarf planets and even Comets being slung towards the Sun suddenly make sense.

So now they are not only looking for Planet X … oh so sorry they are deliberately calling it 'Planet 9', they are asking for help from amateur astronomers to find it.

The theorised star that Nibiru is sometimes stated to belong to is called, if memory serves me well, is Nemesis. They likely both have other names they are known by?

Weird, huh?

So how big is it? Well they think it may be around ten times the mass of Earth and around between twice the Earth's diameter and right up to the diameter of Neptune.

It's orbit is predicted to be 700, at its middle distance from the Sun, astronomical units which means 700 times that of the Sun to the Earth, being 1 astronomical unit. Neptune is about 35, lol. This ninth planet at the middle distance form the Sun would be twenty times greater than Neptune.

So we are probably talking over an orbit of several thousand years? Which swings closer to the sun and then further away and at the end of the day and at the distances we are talking about we are purely guessing.

If for arguments sake the Nibiru theorists are onto something there is no way of proving them wrong because the last time the planet came around was around the birth of Jesus. Oh crap, do I hear you think? Star of Bethlehem anyone?

At the exact same time the opposite is true. Outside of a biblical fairy tale we have no records going back that far.

Whichever camp you are in the truth remains that we simply do not know.

So provided that nothing crazy and obviously fabricated nothing can be ruled out.

There is one thing that is true though and that is that if the Nibiru theorists started to have anything in the way of their predictions start coming to light it would be the most amazing work in the history of science! Oh wait … the Anunnaki are involved so might be the history of religion?

Maybe Nibiru is the home of the being everyone perceives as God?!

Lol.

Laugh I may well do but a humongous amount of people believe in God of one form or another and what with the Star of Bethlehem and all … a very bright light like that spoken to have appeared above Bethlehem returning to the skies at some point? Oh my word would that get people talking and predicting?! Like there was no tomorrow!

Oh wait … depending on its trajectory when it appears there might not be a tomorrow?! Hmm or God might decide to start the rapture and then Armageddon? So there might not be a … ooh you get the idea.

Or if there was a Star of Bethlehem it might have been a supernova?

To think … O have often had these thoughts about people believing my predictions, data and even my audio recording proof? One look around YouTube and I give out a big sigh at what some things seem to attract.

LMAO!

I do not know if some people genuinely believe all this or that they have tried to make some sort of career out of it because there are a lot of people interested, and may be a lot of believers, and it generates a hell of a lot of Internet traffic and the money made from talks is lucrative?

I suppose it is no more far fetched than following ancient texts written by man about some God and how we should live our lives?

Still, Bigfoot videos and talks became a nice distraction from more serious and impending issues I have and while the drugs took to their time to have an effect.

Now that they have I hope it lasts in the remaining time I have left that is running out. At least allowing me to be … umm, operational and either stop that which they are trying to do or get a plan in place on how to continue forward and continue with my blogs?

And just because something comes along that on the face of it sounds crazy and made up does not mean that it is. It as to be argued with, dealt with and dismissed just like anything else. Even though this at times is unfortunate.