ASSAULTS OF THE GRANDMASTER

Well that was funny ..

I had already exposed a spy in my ranks, second and probably more, and had previously warned people about spies. I had also warned them of meltdowns.

• Trump doing well in Mid-Terms
  • One idiot called HotSalmon revealed how much they melted down because they were trying to spin the best Mid-Terms for a sitting President in decades into very bad
• Brett Kavanugh not being locked up over hearsay, go figure
• GAB coming back when they convinced themselves they had it taken down

I had also noted that just like my spy .. many seem to come at me masquerading as actual rape victims .. which I was beginning to question already with my first spy.

Oh real nice towards real victims that one. Supposed to be caring people? Do not like others offending groups? Yeah? No. Only groups they deem worthy as I have been exposing for awhile now. Oddly they have .. patrons, you might call them, of these groups as affiliates. Well provided they are not fakes too .. these affiliations are now being scrutinised ..

OOPS!

You see I got this DM from someone . .nice guy who had changed his name twice because of these bullies and trolls. Threatening violence when they lose debates. In fact it has gotten so bad now they do not even try debating because they know they get beaten.

For instance I had one girl .. claiming to have been a victim of rape by a white guy in a park and because of this, only known as 'K' on Twitter, white guys rape more girls than Muslim men, her words.

I pointed out that 12 years of investigation, evidence and the 5 Muslim men and one white guy that abused my daughter did not tally up with that, nor did a report into it by Muslims themselves, the Quilliam Report, nor a news report by The Sunday Times. But ..

• All that was crap because she was raped by one guy?
• I should disbelieve Quilliam because it was debunked and ignore The Sunday Times without any reason and ignore my own eyes and ears because some random person who did not produce a single link to her claims said so?

This is literally the mentality of these leftist morons, it really and truly is and it is extremely rare for me to get a day where my jaw is not on the floor in disbelief at what they expect of others ..

It is sheer lunacy!

So a previous one called 'Lisa' laughed at Joker coming after me. Told this victim not to be associated with him, he is dangerous and all I got was “Don't tell me what to do!” very obviously not a victim and #INSTABLOCK as James Woods often states.

As explained before her hero who has threatened children and has more people and organisations watching him than you can throw a stick at .. went at it.

A shame then that her hero then got goaded to show his true self and in the space of 12 hours lost two of his many accounts, lost another two over the following four days and when I did finally find an existing account .. he had already blocked me.

Yes, Lisa .. your hero is really something .. I am soooo scared!

So that was over a week ago and my followers have been cottoning on as have others and my DM now has a life of its own. People are contacting me I do not know and knew people are adding me.

Seems they have threatened hundreds of innocent people.

So I go into this stream where I find my old and blocked spy giving it some to a couple of women and this is where I discover an existing account for the Joke. Sorry .. sorry .. I mean Joker. Fifth account I have found .. I am blocked!

She tagged him in along with another adversary I have not argued with for about ten weeks or so .. MOON! Or Moon Madness as I like to call him.

I start taunting the Joker and publish the profile showing I m blocked .. Joker wont come, lost too many accounts but Moon? Yeah .. they really do think highly of themselves, their morals and above all else .. their intelligence.

BOOM! Moon in da room!

Rant, rant, rant, rant and the usual I am a nutter, naïve and a liar and all the usual crap.

I am hitting him .. hard! I have discovered a hell of a lot of things these last few months and I am telling him details that would have hot home. I am also hitting him with piss-taking memes about leftists and pantifa. The Atifa logo switched with knickers in it (see below).

Ooh just had to deal with a private message on this and pass along some screenshots and details.

So yeah Moon was getting ever more angry. The insults were flying all over the place but I was waiting for the usual go to they use to highlight their utter hypocrisy and get him into trouble.

I am crazy, I am insane and the usual I am listening to others and I am lying.

These people really should do their research ..

• Hit him with Police Recordings on my blog
• Hit him with the Take A Break and Lover It Magazine covers also on my blog
• Hit him with hypocrisy accusation as going around accusing everyone of mental health issues and being crazy is highly offensive to people with mental health issues
• Shame then that not only are some of his friends claiming to promote awareness of mental health but ..
• Yeah the stream was under that of a mental health organisation ..
• OOPS!

I literally tabbed away elsewhere as I knew that one way or another he would not be tweeting anything else.

It is OK when your way over on that cliff's edge to insult groups of people but if your left of centre to far right your not even allowed to tell the truth about the groups they want to protect.

HYPOCRITICAL BULLYING, LYING, SEX OFFENDING SCUMBAGS THAT LIKE TO THREATEN FAMILIES AND CHILDREN.

These are members of Resisting Hate, Tell Mama and Hope Not Hate and there are likely many others that do this?

It is astounding that they al masquerade as a peace loving charity and not only receive donations from the naive public but are also paid and funded to do this!

Well I now help others on various formats and despite Google, Twitter, the aforementioned groups and many others that are trying to stop me and not receiving a single penny, living with various pains and a God damn dodgy heart that feels like it is going to kill me any day now ..

I do this for free and because it is the right thing to do.

Added to my list and taking over form posting blog posts, just look at the dates I have posted, I seem to spend my time chasing off these people to protect others .. their jobs, their security, the sanity and their children.

From an organised and funded group of loons that chase rainbows. No wonder why they use the rainbow colours as a logo because that is what they spend all their time chasing.

Lying, cheating, threatening, stealing, assaulting and character assassination among all other things to get what they want. Well I just think they get a kick out of it and use the caring group front as a front and figured out they could con and scheme money out of naïve fools for it at the same time.

You can find them all in the big cave, fourth one down on the right.

So Moon went bye-bye and then so did his account and I know that his little spy pretending to be a rape victim, yes that is how depraved they are, went down too! Life is a bitch.

Had a bit of a longish break there ..

So then let e look and just check. It will take time to get all this together .. yeah .. they do not know about my handicaps .. but they have been digging. Hard ..

The night I was doxed the photos me me came first .. a shit ton of them and I was besieged with private messages telling me what I was seeing on screen and was I not angry or worried about it and where was they getting them from ..

1. Yes I could see them
2. No I did not give a shit
3. Did not know and did not care

A week or so later I have finally pieced it all together and they have been diving down into the following

1. My Blog
   1. They have something but it is not what they think it is
   2. Had long since seen them with this .. something and been waiting for them to use it without knowing what it was .. but has not occurred thus far
2. Facebook
3. LinkedIn
4. Twitter they tried to get into an a very amateurish way
   1. Either that or they thought that my getting 30 mobile text messages stating someone was trying to get into my account was supposed to scare me?

God only knows where else they looked, not that I care ..

But what they have managed to do is make me notice them again, make me realise that they are not stupid kids. Find out that they have been up to illegal activities, terrorise people, dox people, threaten people's children and cause at least one family break up and one death.

All because they want to protect a very undesirable group of barbaric murderers and want a society that is guaranteed to end up as living hell because it has never worked anywhere it has been tried. It has, however, failed catastrophically a number of notorious times throughout history. Socialism.

They believe lies are OK when it is them telling them.

They believe that targetting groups with offensive behaviour and threats as long as it is the groups they decide .. like mental health for one that got two accounts taken down by me. Well .. I did not take those last two down .. I just drew them out to say their usual shit .. pointed it out to them so that others would notice and they would report them.

I was also too busy humiliating them when I also drew them into calling me a bullshitter on everything I said. Yeah one at a time I did what they did and tweeted stuff I expected them to believe on face value.

Another side to their hypocritical ways is that they themselves do this but know they are lying, get annoyed and start swearing at you when you do not believe them. Then you ask them for links, citations and such like and absolutely nothing is forthcoming. Because it does not exist. But you get sworn at for not taking their word for it.

Switch it around and your giving them facts and they dismiss every single one. So you tell them about reports and they say it is bullshit. You give the screenshots and they say it has been debunked, remember you supposed to take their word for it..

Tell the you have proof and data and they call you a liar .. yup over a dozen tweets .. I then started posting memes too. The Pantifa one, mentioning little facts I know about their personal life .. I could do what they do and dox them .. I have enough on many of them. But I will not stoop to any of their levels.

So just as he was losing it, called me a liar, announced to everyone watching I was a known liar and a bullshitter and they laughed at me and proved it so any times previous ..

Yeah then I hit him with at least half a dozen tweets with links to recordings, various magazine covers and other little facts .. like cancer my daughter has they knew about but laughed at, that the operation was in several days time.

OOPS!

Would you believe both these big guns fell .. suddenly .. silent?

Now I am really, really taunting him .. more or less begging him .. to come back at me. “Come onnnnnn MOOOON! Let's be having you!!” taunts like that. I still had several things to make the lying little toad, insulting to toads, look like the lying piece of shit that he was.

Checked to see if he had blocked me and he had not, was looking forward to putting another name on the list of nasty evil people that had blocked me.

People so self-righteous that they believe morals and the law, something they love to harp on about, do not apply to them.

Gave up waiting. Next morning I went to check to see if he had blocked and .. no fucking sign of him. Nothing coming up in the search. Weird. Could not find their little spy either.

Found out why about an hour later when I decided to use another method to bring up Moon's profile page .. SUSPENDED!

Oops.

Looked up the little spy too .. supposed to be a victim but going around trolling in people's streams and picking a fight and then calling in Moon and Joker .. SUSPENDED!

Double Oops.

Joker was a no show of course and after four accounts going down in a week he decided he wanted to hold onto what he had left as the fifth account I found I was blocked from and he did not make an appearance. Wise.

Now let me see .. these are the people that thought they could outsmart me and get me banned just I the last week ..

• Joker (lost four accounts)
• Moon (lost an account)
• Lisa (Lost an account)
• Victoria (Blocked me)
• Helen (Dunno .. dont care)
• HotSalmon (made a fool of over and over and .. low IQ .. dont care)
  • Others weighed in
  • Personality suddenly switched entirely and sounded like Joker .. then switched back again
• Dr.Strange (as above)
  • Others weighed in
• Charlie Potatoes (as above)
  • Others weighed in
• Strimbobs (OK I kinda went after him .. he ran .. I picked up another follower)
• Shysteee2018
• no one you know

May have been others? Do not remember and why don't I? Because I do not fucking care but there are a number of people that love it when I take accounts down or get blocked. I get cheers and well done comments either in tweets or more often in private messaging. Because they have insulted, called names, threatened or upset people.

There are others I do recall from previous assaults ..

• Baby Monkey
• Scott
• Laffin At the Fash
• Joanne
• Gina (That blew up in her face .. blocked me)
• Simon I
• Roscoe P Covfefe
• Mike Stuchbery
• BunnyBrownEyes
• Sam
• Michael #FBPE
• Gareth Edwards

There is a way longer list from things from months ago and there is a stand out name .. that I have had a suspicion of .. that even my followers have noted has had it in for me for ages. Yeah .. well I could not find a link to be sure. Then he went and handed me one.

One thing you can be sure about with these people is that they just do not bloody well think. They do not think about the links, what is lying around, how you can piece things together or even that they can show their presence when they think they are hiding.

Yeah .. when I blew some of that in their faces I earned a number if blocks.

The rest of the time teaching them every singe fact involved gradually winds them up to a point that they are foaming at the mouth. Normally when the swearing, laughter, abuse or threats come in .. BOOM! They then get a series of tweets with links, pictures, screenshots and recordings.

At this point I have more or less and blown their heads clean off their shoulders .. or I might catch them out on a lie. Now they are slamming their fists down on their keyboards and with no return they #RAGEBLOCK!

Rage is assured as 20 minutes or so they were having at me for losing my shit and accusing me of being mental, crazy, insane, needing psychiatric help (yeah low IQ loons would know psychiatry) and thinking that I was the one slamming my fists on my keyboard in rage? Yeah? No!

They think exactly what I want them to think and each time this happens I wonder if they have worked it out this time? But they always prove to me that they have not and we must be heading for a couple dozen times now?

They would be very surprised to find out where some of my data on them as come from too .. they really should be a lot more careful with those they mix with. Not too bright this lot.

I mean HotSalmon insisted like a rage queen for like an hour that Donald Trump did really badly the mid-terms and no matter how many times I tried to explain this and that it was the best result from a sitting US president in decades, which incudes Barack Obama, he would not have it.

So I spent the next hour taunting him that all normal and sane people which includes Donald Trump did not care and were not losing any sleep.

Of course more old faithful lines good for setting them off is Brett Kavanaugh, the mid-terms and GAB coming back online. Guaranteeing them that Jeremy Corbyn wont become Prime Minister does it too. That 25 million and growing want a hard Brexit is also another good one.

Funny as another thing I have not ribbed them about is despite them, or one, trying to laugh at y six bans I got in my first three weeks back on Twitter I have had none in around 8 to 10 weeks, losing track of how long I have been back now. Seems they just cannot get me banned regardless of how many they throw at me at once.

It gets worse for them because despite several friends and followers getting one whole week bans .. well I now know so have they as well as getting account after account suspended. Christ six have gone down at y hand in the last week alone!

Sooo do you think it might anger them if I point out that they are so nice that even on leftist socialist Twitter with their self-proclaimed moral high ground that they are still getting bans and suspensions?

Do you think it might then piss them off if I also point out that I have not so much as had a seven day suspension let alone having my account closed completely?

Hey? Maybe they are already well aware of this and it is just eating away at them slowly over time .. driving them utterly insane with rage?

I recall getting to memes .. one of a cat whacking away at a keyboard which made me laugh and another of someone dressed u as a knight, jab at the crusades I guess? Both made me laugh as they were funny but his was because this is how I see them?

They come out with such utter garbage they may as well just be hammering on their keyboards half the time with just their fists. Weirdly I also get asked if English is my first language? I do not react t this either and this gets them mad.

When they think that I am getting mad they get their hopes up and are hammering away with more shit after thinking that they see the whites (RACIST!) of my eyes. Then I go calm and their excitement from all that energy is immediately turned into rage.

If just a single one of the few hundred had done their research .. they just might have picked up on a few things about me and realised that none of that is possible? They cannot achieve any of the things with me that they achieve with others.

Two more things yu can guarantee with the worst leftist socialists is they wrongly assume and do zero in the way of research.

Now after reading the first tweet they post making it clear who they are and that they are going to be an opponent I am on their profile. Immediately. By the time they have put out their second or third tweet I have looked at everyone that they are following, because that tells me the most about them. I am then looking at their own followers.

By the time I have done all that I not only have my large arsenal but have a shit ton more on them and I am ready. I can guarantee that at this point none have even glanced at mine and even when they do it is just the basic info.

Before long as I am firing off tweets and deflecting false accusations and data I am half way down the streams seeing what they post, who they have been trolling and who has blocked them.

Bearing in mind you cannot do anything to me that has not already been done, am fairly smart and they should have remembered calling me Mycroft Holmes on our first run in .. you would think that they learnt something? Nope.

Well one has .. he has realised I have found out how utterly evil he is and he thought he was being clever when he popped up when I had in fact been trying to lure him out for weeks and inside of around 14 hours lost two accounts, got chased off on GAB bullying someone with Down's Syndrome and then lost two more accounts over the next week. Yeah .. he learnt then I had basically tricked him, had lured him, was now actively hunting him down and went silent and blocked me from his last, or one of the last, accounts he still had left.

No idea what happened to his Teflon ..

Mere moments before he was hit with a series of tweets that had him shut the fuck up and then mere minutes later had his suspension take place .. aww diddums ..

The account Lazarus, though not entirely sure, I suspected may also be Moon ..

Moon's account that went bye-bye is this one and he works with the charity .. charity lol .. TellMama here as well as with Resisting Hate .. except you wont find his account currently ..

HIT WITH REVELATIONS 1 .. 2 .. 3

Well 2017 has now started and I have often wondered how this year was going to go?

It is true to say that 2016 turned out to be the exact opposite to that which I was convinced it would be like and then some.

I had something that took at least 30% of my focus for a couple of years and several thousands of pounds in cash. That involvement partly destroyed 2016 for me.

Then half way through the year along came a corrupt public service to put the tin hat on 2016 altogether.

I have divulged about the latter but not the former.

Added to this I have had two other … areas I have been involved in I have also been holding back on and one of these has been over two years and that will come out and come to light and the readers will understand why.

Another thing has been going on about 6 months or more. In fact I wrote a piece on that one around 4 to 6 months back, I will have to check its creation date, that I never got around to publishing.

So there are three things … there are at least three things, in case I have forgotten anything?

Of course holding back on things does not help the numbers on my blog grow but unfortunately when you want to achieve the things that you do … you often have little choice.

None of these things involve the battle I have with the DWP and the solicitor I now have though … the solicitor … ma become involved in … let me fink?! Two of them?

What will become apparent is that with everything else I have had going on in 2016 I have also had these … three other things and one of them has now had a pretty major and dramatic development. That development occurred around 24 hours or so after I sent a letter to my solicitor to answer an odd question, a minor and worrying development, they asked me. In that letter I opened up a bit more about the blogs and online presence and the stage I am at. I also mentioned one of the three revelations I have referred to here so they may or may not be able to help. Now I have yet another thing to mention.

The day I posted the letter to my solicitor I also had a copy of the Metro Newspaper from Thursday 5^th January in my rucksack. The reason I did was because of the story on the front-page and to do with the NHS.

After posting my letter I visited a friends store and found another friend there when I got there who just so happened to work for Glaxo Smithklein, the drugs company. I asked one friend if he remembered me stating three years ago that I had realised my NHS letters were being intercepted and were NOT coming to me direct. He had trouble remembering until I mentioned that several letters had been pulled apart and re-stapled in the wrong order. Then he did and my Glaxo Smithklein friend asked me seriously if I had been drinking. I pulled out this copy of Metro and showed them the front page and said “No and this story proves I was wrong and is yet another one of my blog posts reported upon in a newspaper, without mention of me of course”.

Then I told Mr Glaxo about a conversation I had with a chemist and that when I mentioned some months ago that the NHS has been fobbing people off by lying to them to avoid treating them he said that he knew and that over the last few years the number of prescribed drugs he had been giving out had dropped off and they have had to stop ordering them in. This was because they were going past their 'sell by' dates and had to be thrown away. I then told Mr Glaxo that I was not expecting that response and that I was annoyed it had not occurred to me before to ask them as this would be obviously happening if I was correct. Mr Glaxo now looked shocked.

The story that was on the front page of the Metro basically stated that they had found out that the referrals were going through an outside and private company who were screening them. They were doing this to find out what was serious and what was not.

But why when a qualified General Practitioner was making a referral to a hospital?!

AND what was the process involved when someone was deemed NOT worthy of said referrals?!

Considering a qualified General Practitioner and a hospital specialist would see the patient and therefore deem what was serious and what was not … why on fucking Earth would the letters need to be screened in the fucking first place?

Plausible deniability, that is why.

As I already said to my friends and stated above . Yet another bloody story that I already discovered and this time years before the report that gets reported on.

So where the fuck is my award for investigative journalism when dozens of my stories have appeared in the news days, months and even years after I report them?

Not bad for someone with little resources, no car and a disability!

Now imagine what I could achieve with some money, support, no fucking meddling by public services trying to close me down and my own transport?! If I had not held back these last two years I may already be there? No, I would be there.

It is the 9^th of January today and along with the three revelations there is also a fourth thing …

• Revelation 1: Embezzling About
• Revelation 2: The Spinal Knife Wounds
• Revelation 3: The Doctors Are Out
• Revelation 4: Risky Business (this is currently OPTIONAL)

Those are working titles I just thought up off the top of my head, apart from the first one which as I said was written months ago. It is not even mid January of 2017 just yet!

I had already decided that 2017 was going to be a year of the 'tell all'. I have also decided and I hope it sticks to this that 2017 was also going to be the year of the 'do all', as I have had a couple of bad years as well as holding back a lot it was time for a course correction.

So other than this story about another NHS scandal I had long since told all about and the curious way it is reported on that suggests this has only recently been happening there is the above to come!

Ooh and how could I forget the recent statement that will become infamous about Theresa May talking about correcting injustices? Does that mean that politicians are going to go to jail? No because they were lying and cheating for big firms and everyone now knows that if your caught stealing when your starving to death you go to jail. Cause deaths while stealing or saving millions of pounds and you get a golden handshake and a platinum pension!

Later I heard that Theresa May had made statements about improving mental health services and I do not know right now if that was the injustices she was referring to?

Wow! Everybody bow before such greatness, she is going to make the mental health services better . .which were actually ripped to pieces by Tony Blair around 7 or 8 years ago now. Well, Theresa May, that is going to be sooo difficult for you to do considering you could not actually make the situation any worse!

Listen up Mrs May .. you may be able to fool a board of people somewhere, like Goldman Sachs, to become Prime Minister but I am afraid your bullshit just wont wash with me.

I was also a bit disappointed in Nicola Sturgeon's ransom of 'don't give the UK public anything of what they wanted from Brexit and we wont hold another independence referendum'. Yeah … that is NOT the way to go about doing things and will only put a divide between English and Scots … OK so an even BIGGER divide then.

Funny that as I never thought of that subject when the latest topic of conversation was how shit it was during 2016, how many things came out and what is in store in the way of revelations during 2017. I should have said at one point 'How many stories will get successfully or partially buried when everyone knows the truth?'

So at some point over the next week I am going to post up the first part in the 'Revelations' series that involves a very sad and sadistic story of embezzling that is extremely close to home. Extremely close and the conclusion of which will bring about changes in me and my blogs that will be very big to extremely massive.

Then over a four to six week period there will be a couple of others, though the order may get switched around, that will then be followed by a last one that also has the potential to change things in a big to massive way.

The absolutely and totally bizarre thing is that one of the middle two revelations was supposed to have a very big to massive effect on the things I do, the blogs I write and my YouTube channel all of last year!

LIFE, THE UNIVERSE AND ALMOST EVERYTHING

Yeesh. Why can boredom be so bad as to almost be painful?

My sister was telling me very recently how bored she has been on her eternity leave and said it must be really bad for me and how do I do it? The simple answer is I don't, ,not really. I do have periods when I do cope with it. Unfortunately that is slave to one thing I have no control over … the weather!

There are other factors to that come into play … outside influences, organisations suddenly deciding you have to jump through hoops. Your health which can be only very seldom or very frequent. The weather can be more or less frequent if you are particularly sensitive to it, as I am.

A mental health specialist was surprised to learn of my many interests, skills and knowledge while at the same time surprised at my lack of direction and boredom. Especially as I also have blogs that I work on in many of my subjects. But I also explained how they get neglected.

To many it might have seemed like a my musings were that of a deranged conspiracy theorist, except that it was never that far fetched and I planned to acquire the evidence and executed those plans. They never really stopped.

While I am typing this out I am also trying to listen to documentaries on sub-atomic particles, just finished listening to a speech by Miko Kaku.

Theoretical Physicists are always explaining what they do know about sub-atomic particles, what they are trying to prove, via the Super Collider and Large Hadron Collider, about sub-atomic particles and, more importantly, what they do not know about sub-atomic particles.

We have all heard about the Higgs Boson, or God Particle, but there are still things we know little about and things that are only theory, like Gravitons and Sterile Neutrinos to name but two.

I remember being pleased with the announcement of M-Theory to make String Theory … well kind work and I remember thinking of the 'M' stood for Membrane. I think the scientist that came up with it did not divulge the meaning of the 'M' until much later and when he did he said it stood for Magic.

I very much look forward to the creations of greater test apparatus for extra solar planets, gravitational waves and more surprises from sub-atomic particles and how they all work. If I manage to live that long of which there are a couple of question marks over?

Back down to Earth, quite literally, I have to somehow fend off a triple assault on my life that has sent some of my symptoms into overdrive.

Back to wondering why my brain, or body, tortures itself so much and so uncontrollably over things that it should not. Things happening which I should take in my stride but instead have uncontrollable breakdowns over. That is one question that is made up of three different questions.

I have complete morons to deal with that think themselves so clever when the reality could not be further from the truth. You can explain this to them of words of minimal syllables but they are still unable to comprehend. The mind boggles.

Then there is the other question and that is … just what exactly is going on in my own brain that has been boggling my mind for many years?

I may well be about to find out, unless these morons I speak of think its perfectly OK for the public to be lied to and cheating to go on because they believe there is a greater cause that only involves money. More so than human life or suffering … provided they can get away with it or that they think when the public find out they are too selfish for any reactions to take place that allows them to just carry on regardless?

However some things cannot be buried away and lied about. This is because there is an ultimate conclusion that cannot be avoided and that, of course, is death. They simply cannot lie and say there is nothing wrong when they know you will die from what it is they have lied about. Unfortunately for me, though it does not quite feel that unfortunate you might think bizarrely so, death may be the result and those results are … on their way.

After this weekend of the 17^th and 18^th of September will be the period of a week or two when you think you might get that phone-call as that is when the results would have been received. Unless, of course,, it happens sooner.

Many like to play down these possibilities while forgetting that they are in fact possibilities and the signs I have had and what I had read seem to suggest they are much more likely than usual. The times that things are done and the speed that the NHS moves is fixed. Those are the facts and they have even stated them, rather stupidly, on letters and on notices on their own waiting room walls. I did not put these there, the NHS did. I can only go by what I read and the fact is that the NHS takes forever to move a single muscle. This is also not the case this time around and so a third reason that makes me pause for thought.

But things will be what they will be … you cannot cheat fate.

Personally and if I am given a period of time I will spend it enjoying myself kicking the big three public services in the nether regions so hard and for so long they will be feeling me into the next century and beyond.

I can also tell those that think they know everything while being experts in very few subjects, if any at all, “I fucking told you!”

These things do not need a cancerous tumour to take place as I am sure that some cysts can in time become dangerous, if not quite as dangerous as cancerous cells building up in your head? A tumour and a cyst are … lumps, for want of a better term, and pressure in the cranial area is pressure in the cranial area and not good at the end of the day.

The Arachnoid Tumour has popped up as another possibility and maybe there are others I have not been able to come across and research? What I am looking for is something that matches 5 or 6 symptoms and maybe an extra one?

I could just as well be looking for two things to match these symptoms?

Forehead irritation, eye socket irritation, ears and nasal problem, blackouts, seizures and in the case of a brain tumour … stomach pain, though quite how that last one works is a complete mystery to me.

Not only am I expecting the head MRI to answer at least three or four questions … possibly one to all of them, but also the EEG scan should show something is up. Because I jerked three or four times from pain, which is not exactly what it was looking for I do not think, but it is something I get and happened while having all the electrodes on my head. Pain signal goes to brain, brainwaves are being monitored while it happens and so boom! A reading. Might not be linked to the seizures but I received strong pain signals while seated doing nothing so should be noted by health professionals?

So like when I was told there was nothing on my ultrasound test of my groin I will know they will be lying. There was not one but two things on the ultrasound test of the groin and they lied about both of them and then admitted it … while being recorded by me. Thems are the breaks with me I am afraid.

If I can speak to the Neurophysiologist about the Large Hadron Collider, sub-atomic particles, how Graphene works and other areas of science it is not a stretch to imagine that I first cannot be fooled and secondly prepared for it just in case I am?

I have always been prepared for it just in case I am. In fact I had to kind of 'wait it out' so to speak to see if they would ever attempt it again. It is all in the planning and the details.

I just did not know that my bloody anxiety would come back to dog me just when I was about to blow onto the scene again with both old and new … umm, material.

Part of me thinks that this will all really e the test of all tests of the system and the attitude towards human life and human suffering.

After all I am being attacked from all of the only three sides that are available … outside of legal action against my blogs that is. I have pains in my heels, arches, ankles, hips and back and added to this a seriously screwed up short term memory and skin conditions. A few … accidents that have the chance of occurring as well as embarrassing ones I have to deal with. Added to all this are the blackouts, seizures and difficulties with heat and humidity that has me sweating buckets and also another embarrassing thing.

Let us be honest here for a moment and for arguments sake sate I was able to do a job of some kind … who in the world would bloody employ me?! Anyone that would, would be one hell of a brave person! Just the memory problems alone would be a big no-no.

I left my house forgetting to take my medication on Saturday morning. I got ten minutes away when I realised I had left a lit cigarette on the side that was a real fire hazard. I had no choice but to go home, then could not find my keys only to discover them hanging out of the damned lock! This memory issues occurs several times daily … not now and then but daily.

Just that alone would put off almost all employers, quite unfortunate but very true.

Factor in all the pains and other things and then the fact that my condition means that I do not sleep like normal people. Even the physiologist that performed the EEG on me knew the importance of restorative sleep and was fascinated when I explained how Fibromyalgia sufferers never get it and even more so when I explained we are not even allowed the only prescription drug that can deal with this problem.

Except there is a much of morons that seem to be able, and like, to tell you what you can and cannot do?! They also do not like being directly called idiots or you inferring that they are idiots. Well sorry but if you open your gate and say something your not sure about but with conviction because that is your job … then your an idiot.

Whenever I am watching any documentaries to do with particle physics and the evolution of the universe it always results in my brain putting something into contrast.

Today it is that we have habits. Habits that some naïve people and morons alike think we can just switch on and off. I have always wondered why we cannot switch them on and off so I get annoyed with those that think that we can.

For instance I have picked back up what was a very old habit and that is smoking. I cannot quite get my headd around the fact that I have become so reliant on this habit yet again. I know the cause of the reuptake but it still baffles me as to why it is. It is more or less a nervous habit. Yet it does not really do a great deal for nerves, depression or anxiety and yet still we can end up feeling like we would not be able to cope without it. I am sure this is true for many for many other drugs and therein lies our biggest problem.

For years and years TV, the news media and the medical profession has harped on and on about how unhealthy these drugs are and done there best to get people to kick their various habits.

All those years and all that money and yet they have never decided to tackle the root cause of the problem and in fact quite the opposite.

Life has been filled with complications with more and more things to do, more and more things available to us and more and more in the way of bills, taxes and responsibilities. It became apparent a long time ago that this became too much for people and as this number of things to keep track of increased to the problem of bad habit forming has grown. You can also add much to do with crime into this equation too. Yes, not all addictions are down to this and nor all crime but a very large percentage of each will be.

But and as I have stated in the past we have continued to do things in old fashioned ways and allowed more and more things to pile up onto those we already have to deal with.

When your financial situation has certain … constraints then pressure starts to build up and I know this to be true and it has become more and more apparent as the years have gone by.

This is primarily because of my ever more failing memory. But there came a time when I realised that even without memory issues all of this would put pressure on anyone.

Morons that do not realise that companies and public services are not very good at things and do not ggive a crap that they are not very good at things often make mistakes. But companies, public services and morons all say “Ooh put it all on direct debit, then you do not have to worry about it!” which is good if you have a large amount of disposable income. But a large percentage do not or at some point find that their disposable income has evaporated. Maybe they were fortunate enough to see this coming and maybe they were not? The end result is the same though as you still have to end up juggling and you have to remember everything.

We simply cannot take too much on board and we are not very good at multi-tasking, at least beyond a point that is. You have all the trials and tribulations that comes with your career or job and if your in one, those of a relationship as well and maybe even children?

But you still have all this exxcess stuff to keep track of and on top of.

In recent years and with the Internet and crafty video games console companies and social media among many other things the amount of things your bombarded with from the Internet can swamp you to the point that you feel like your drowning.

It is funny how all these large companies just think that everyone has large amounts of money lying around doing nothing that they can dip into at their hearts desire? Anyone owning a Sony Playstation has found themselves having to pay a monthly fee as have those owning Microsoft's Xbox One.

The one thing that you can be certain is that the number of these companies wanting a monthly fee and the number of taxes the government want money for will both increase in amounts and in number.

Of course while your doing all that and juggling everything your told how bad you are and how we are all going to run out of food in a decade or two?! Wait … why keep telling us this? Because they do not want to have to deal with it and we have to take responsibility of all this too?

I sometimes ask myself what exactly it is that governments actually do that actually benefits the societies that voted them in? They look after each other, owners of big businesses and believe their bollocks and do very little for anyone else that means anything.

Just as I predicted on here David Cameron and George Osborne not only made no difference to the national debt but actually managed to make things far, far worse. They went just as I thought they would, though later than I thought, and still things actually seem worse right now than they did when they were in power.

I also stated two things and one is that the destruction was done long before them with Tony Blair over many years and that you would simply get someone else who thinks themselves way smarter than the last one and prove this not to be the case. Mainly because many have realised that Tony Blair screwed things up, as well as commit a few sins along the way, and everyone is a lot smarter than they were.

That does not mean to say they are smart enough and that still remains to be seen.

Now we have Theresa May and whatever cronies she has surrounded herself with … oh I do hope I am wrong about that.

One day I would like to see a change come about to truly make things fairer along with an apology to all disabled people in the UK about how they were treated and tricked.

Ever since Tony Blair was in power the government were creeping up behind disabled people with a large club to bang you over the head with while you were not looking.

I know that in the beginning Doctors and Specialists were not aware of this actually happening and I know this to be true because I have conversations with several of them. One even stated she suspected something was going on and had to do her homework before realising that it was.

Then the reports started to come in from far and wide that Doctors, Specialists and Nurses were being asked to lie about patients. This was so that the NHS saved money and the DWP saved money and indeed those that were doing this asking were from the DWP. It also become obvious to me that this would then save money for every local council too, as they provide support services to the disabled.

The fact that they did this while continuing to receive very large salaries from the public purse themselves filled me with rage. Contempt for these people simply is not strong enough a word for what I felt for each of them. The attitude was if their salaries from the public purse was theirs by birthright? That they were of a different species to everyone else? That they were far more superior and far more important than anyone else.

And he wondered why he got booed at the London Olympics?

The same rule applies to put an end to all this and that is that a large enough section of British society simply needs to realise the truth. Oh and give a fuck about anyone else other than themselves that is.

Still working towards that and it feels like it has been forever and a day.

Now I am going to go back to another of Brian Cox's lectures on particle physics, this time at Cern.

THE EVER LONG WINTER BLUES

Terrible is it not? This weather.

Once again for the umpteenth time the earlier predictions of a dry week have gone out of the window as has the prediction of temperature.

"Drier and colder" was what I heard several times towards the end of last week and while it has got colder it is not as cold as they predicted and is still wet. I am also sure I now see rain for at least a couple more days before this Friday too?

In my position it puts damper on everything and I cannot even just pick a destination and jump on a bus! Bah-humbug!

I have spent what must be the third, likely more, time I have remained inside the house, something I am usually very much avoid doing, mostly even one day at a time!

Totally bad period for this to all occur too, any other year but this one would have been way easier and I do find that somewhat typical.

Oddly enough I have also been offered a free car. Was a bit of s surprise that one and not sure how to take it, other then to say thanks. Have to look into the cost of running the thing and it could be a major help with a few things...well I realised once I thought about it. Lol. I am not exactly overly ecstatic about driving again right now to be honest. Probably because the powers that be rendered the whole thing not very enjoyable while being vastly over-priced, for an activity that has been around over 100 years. Yet another area they have tried to force you to give up via price hikes without thinking about how much modern day man and woman relies on it.

A bit like housing then? Lol.

I am also in the middle of some planning I have not divulged on here that involves me acquiring several ... gadgets and a couple, or four, I already have. I do need another two and one of those is pretty pricey. Unfortunately. I am also somewhat limited on ... well, space. But as things have not been going how I had imagined, thought and planned that they would I am resorted to trying to give it a go as things stand. Probably not the best of ideas but it may pan out eventually? Hopefully!

It will certainly produce many videos and pictures to upload to my blogs and my YouTube channel which recent uploads seem to suggest may well be wildly popular while attracting a whole new set of viewers altogether?

I need to muster the energy to first acquire these things and then use them in the projects intended for at least two to get things...going.

Oh and now I have amassed two reasons I have to attend hospital for and hope I do not keep forgetting?! Damn it. Though my osteopath appointment should be going through now. Oddly at my last GP visit I was asked if I was recording the consultations...do not know where that came from?

The NHS picking up the phone trying to stoke things up between me and my current GP practise maybe? In the hope of me not attending any hospitals in case I get more audio recordings of Doctors telling lies to order?

When I pointed out that many Doctors had lied, he asked if I thought it were possible they just got it wrong? I said "No." First off I know the difference between the two and am very good at reading situations and secondly ... even it it was the case ... that then means that I have met 36 idiots disguised as Doctors and specialists?! Just as bad. Besides that and I think I forgot to mention as I do have short term memory issues is that one admitted lying to me and that is on tape. It is also on here!

Unless a cloud storage has closed down and I have forgotten about it?

Weird that it came out of the blue like that, just the same. I have been with this practise over a year now and now that I am on the verge of actually getting them to refer me for the first time I get asked if I am recording?

Seems like suspicious timing?

Maybe someone at the NHS have now realised I have done more damage than they originally thought I ever could?

Maybe I am getting bigger numbers than they ever thought I could amass?

Maybe the realise the ability I have to amass or attract people from different subjects who will then come across the corruption evidence?

Maybe they are seeing my tricks occur in other places with other people and realise I have slowly amassed a small army now using the same methods against them that I have used?

Maybe it is all of the above or something else entirely? I do not know.

What I can say is that it will get worse. Because I am not being distracted by other things that I thought I would be this forces me to not only continue on but to increase what it is I need to do.

Rather poetically this may turn out to be something that they did to thwart me which in time will only be revealed and show that their methods only served to backfire on them?

So it has been a bit odd of late.

I am not in the place I expected to be.

I have been told of things said about me which were, well, good I did not expect to ever be told and from the from unlikely candidates too.

I have been offered a car.

I have been asked if I was recording GP consultations.

Oddly I got up this morning and my back pain was doing something new and preventing me from putting my right foot on the floor for a normal walking motion. In other words I could not walk...at least anything near normally. So that was not good and a trifle worrying. I also did nothing in the previous two days that could have aggravated that. I am pretty sure I will annoyingly also have forgotten it took place a couple of weeks from now?! Damn it!

God things are so bleak looking right now and I wish to God it would change very soon! Things are sooo boring!

I cannot deny that it often goes through my mind how drugs would make things easier, but I always avoid taking that route ultimately. When you often cannot see a way that you can change things, at least quickly enough, within your power it can be terribly frustrating.

This is a major reason I have made it openly known that I detest these overpaid organisations that take forever to do anything while making lots of cash Especially when it's your cash and taken by default.

That then drives me completely into a rage when they sit there on their arses and expect the cash to keep flowing like it is some pre-ordained destiny.

What makes the western world such a terrible place in modern times is that there are too many people wanting exactly that. Sit on their arses while other people's cash flows through their front door. As time goes by the numbers go up at ever more differing rates and the gap gets ever more bigger.

Not a joy to watch.

And now I want drugs! Lol.

I keep trying to find things to fill those gaping chasms but something or someone keeps coming along and screwing things up. Sometimes from the most unexpected places too.

Oddly enough if I acquire my gadgets in about a months time the weather could well carry on screwing that up too? Because space is a big factor and I do not have a great deal of it.

I am not perfect and my own life is a large reason why I am far from perfect. Those horrors and rather unusual sequences of time would have to have had a detrimental effect on me. On anyone. In fact many things I have been through would each have killed many, many others. But despite the faults I have acquired I will not allow my own horrors to make me into some amoral, selfish monster that I do not want to be. Or even just become a drug addict or alcoholic, no matter how many times the thought appeals to me.

So I sit here looking at the miserably grey sky outside thinking of how a little sunlight mere moments ago was nothing more than some evil tease to drive me to self destruction and wonder how long it will be before I can actually do something?

I also wonder if I will have the energy or even just the agility when the time comes?

While playing dodge-ball with other people's theories, egos, envies, wants and wishes. Or just plain old blindness!

What is the odds that it will be pouring down with rain when I have the Osteopath appointment? Lol.

But then again and when I think about it I do have a quite unnaturally empty life and have to cope with the pains and the possibilities of things worsening to the point of complete immobility without anyone else in my life. That is all OK but then sometimes I imagine myself being stuck here, or worse still dead here, for days without anyone knowing. That..does..get kinda scary.

There I go again with the thoughts of being stoned out of my head. Lol.

When you are trying from day to day to be positive and to strive to create things to be positive about and with the lengthiest of most miserable winters on record at the worst time imaginable I suppose it stands to reason that things can get gloomy.

But that does not me from hoping for a day when I can turn that gloom into a ray of sunshine to cling onto.

Maybe being alone for such a long time has a drastic effect, psychologically, on ones mind? That is what I keep telling myself of late.

The only way out of this is to find things to do. Things to occupy yourself with. I am afraid that in the UK and in these dark days that has become increasingly difficult to the point of impossible to do. Weather depending!

Lol.

Oh well, fingers crossed for tomorrow.