OBSTACLES & HINDRANCES

Wondered whether I was running into the age-old problems on Twitter as I had wondered about this blog? Admittedly I had not republished any of my evidence in a number of years so I did that recently with the blog titles 'Country of the Damned' and 'The Files of Truth'.

The issues are that there is just so much that two things are possible as a reaction .. the first is that it is all so fantastical that people doubt the story. The other problem is due to the severity and clandestine nature of some of it it may well be fear?

I do what I do to make a difference and do not see much point in picking fights with brain-dead socialists, the far left ones at any rate, to just whinge. That is NOT what I want to achieve.

Primarily I want my daughter to get help and obviously myself because I am not much use to her right now and I feel helpless and guilty over that!

But I also want to help others .. as many as I can so I find it a little bizarre that out of 1,700 followers all doing their nut about the same thing that the very revealing 'Country of the Damned' post pinned to my daughter's stream now as well as my own .. has only been retweeted on Twitter 63 times.

Frustrating is that even though it has only been retweeted 63 times .. in just 7 weeks the post has been viewed over 1,600 times. The frustrating part is, as I explained the numbers to my daughter, imagine it had been retweeted by just half of our followers? Tens of thousands if not hundreds of thousands seeing just some of the truth?!

I have done everything I am able to do over a decade and it has cost me beyond belief, almost my sanity countless times and added to this probably around £30,000 to £40,000 .. my home, my car and even my business plans!

Received help in that time? Next to ZERO!

I would like to return north and get out of the hell hole I am in .. except it is not easy for the following reasons and why we need help ..

• Getting about
• Knees, feet, heart, energy, thighs
• Supposed to cycle as this helps the condition
  • Cannot do this currently and ..
  • Nowhere to keep a bike in Birkenhead
  • Children will hurt themselves or damage the bike

• Anxiety
• Phobias
• Memory Loss
• Confidence
  • I can return if I regain my confidence

• Standing
• Walking
• New Places .. except countryside settings
  • Needed around two years to get used to the area and feel like it was home
  • Never made it four months due to lack of help

• Daughter
• 4 Children WITH her .. two autistic .. three destructive
• 3 Bedroom House
• Not even paying half the rent
• Messing around over Autism
• Would not let her work, social services
  • Threatened to sue her for neglect if she worked ..
  • Had happened to many others around England and Wales
• You cannot own anything like
  • Computers
  • Expensive Cameras
  • Tablets
  • Phones are regularly broken
  • House just not suitable
• Locks placed on all doors .. got broken off
• Food wasted on a daily basis

• Lives in Birkenhead which makes me .. uncomfortable
• Confusing to get around ..
  • Very complicated in some places, straightforward in others
  • My short term memory loss

• Bought her a car
  • Car was confiscated by Police
  • As a insurance payment was missed we failed to realise
• Paid Road Tax
• Paid few months Insurance
• Paid food
• Run people around, picked kids up from school
• Tyres on car were punctured twice, Pirellis
• Paid for decorating materials
• Paid deposit on current house
• Bought things for grandchildren, many broken within days
  • Neither house was suitable for children

• Nothing from local council at all in support, money or even right housing

• Only 15% of rent being paid
• Benefit cap on two children
• Council Tax now expected to be paid .. despite getting nothing
• Not allowed to work or will be sued for neglect

• My Business ..
• Blogging x12
• Photography
  • Flickr
  • Alamy
  • Photofolio
  • Art of the Deviants

• Screwed by ..
• DWP & Stopping PIP
  • Stopped DLA years ago
  • Stopped Housing Benefit
• Universal Credit
  • Jumping through unfair hoops and sanctions
• Working Tax Credits
  • Cancelled at the 13^th hour
• NHS
  • Refusing to diagnose me for years
  • I had to self diagnose one condition after 13 years of asking!
  • Missing symptoms to things already diagnosed

• Google
  • Lost TAGS for 6 years
    • Android App did not work
  • Screwed advertising for over a year
    • Google Chrome and Blogger was not displaying ads in 'DESIGN'
  • Suspicious viewer numbers
  • Google Adsense Revenue frozen 23 months currently

• Previous to blogging I spent 3 years chasing Radical Muslims
• Went into business twice
  • Own Aquarium Store with partnership 'CF' but ..
  • No Help to do this and ..
  • Partner was an idiot
  • eBay Orchid Store
  • Partner was an idiot and crazy 'AM'

• Currently no income whatsoever
  • Not even benefits
  • No GP
  • No Dentist

That is the level of help in the UK if your white and disabled and this fact is totally ignored and even denied by help and advice agencies that I now know are run by socialists.

As are the local councils.

Want to save money?Yeah take everything away from white people on all levels .. no comeback for that. Better still let us grab the by the scruff of the neck and bury their noses in the shit while we do all this to them.

Funny they harp on about racism when it is performed on a daily basis and has done every single day for at least a decade. I am living proof of this as is y daughter!

Not a gambling man. Need the right place, assurances and money coming in to be able to fight my health issues and achieve what I want to do .. to be of help to my daughter and grandchildren.

Yet I am constantly being hammered in the face on TV and online about how fuckking privileged we are because we are white.

Yes this is what white privilege does to you from time to time ..

PERSNICKETY PICTURES

Well that was .. weird and to be frank .. fucking .. annoying!

As if I am not getting enough shit from everyone else of late ..

• DWP
• Local Councils
• NHS
• British Government
• Other .. clandestines probably responsible for the above and the following
• Google
• Google Adsense
• WordPress
• YouTube .. sooo Google for the third time

Leaving me with almost nothing except a bike and a camera I was supposed to use to its full extent last year but did not, thanks to the above.

Not using it to its full extent this year and had everything cut off, including pills that kind of keep me alive and keep me moving I now do not have any more .. they cut off everything I had left soo ..

I uploaded the pictures I did have in the long term plan to sell them.

Because I should have started getting pain by Google about 18 months ago but the money was frozen with no reason provided on one site and the goal posts moved on two other sites.

So I was led down the garden path by everyone and worked my arse off and then got fucked over, cheated, had agreements pulled, and lied to.

So a little earlier, or in fact later depending on your point of view, I uploaded some photographs I had. The hope being that if at some point I could actually sell just one or two that it might show others something but give me some confidence that of late has gone. Completely.

It might give me the push and the energy to get out and get a lot more photos? I have trouble doing this with my health at the nest of times and the important things, like drive and energy, I have also been lacking of late.

It is sooo .. annoying!

So I found Alamy first .. then decided I should use more than one, this turned out to be lengthy and I had no idea who these people are and do not take things on face value.

But a lot of companies and organisations are lying cheating twats, make themselves deliberately aloof while afflicted with a God complex attitude to everyone else. Yeah .. except I am no ones fool.

Oddly as well as the money being frozen the numbers have been acting up for quite awhile now and I wondered how I could put this to the test. So a few days ago I did.

I found a group of people spread across both Twatter and UpYourTube and I started opening up a bit and I put a few links about. They got noticed ..

.. but you would never believe this looking at the numbers .. oooh dear! Ebem my daughter's eyes were opened further.

During this time I was awaiting my photos going through quality control and BOOM! They were all rejected. I sent another lot and the same happened. I sent an email and I had a bit of a moan as I was using very top equipment. Of course the God complex came in and was told that having a top camera does not mean top photos. I said that I was well aware of this but the scrutiny they were putting on 42 mega pixels means that they must reject everyone with 24 mega pixels and below?!

Oddly my next lot got accepted.

Then the next lot got accepted

Then the next lot.

Currently this stands at 58 images in a row that have been accepted?! But wait? Two out of the first six were rejected and that is a success rate of 66.6% out of six images. I then get 100% out of the next 58 images?! How the actual feck?!

It gets worse.

I doscvered that selling photos with buildings in is a little .. tricky, at least here in the UK and I thought, what the hell?! I have one picture of a building, that is going to get rejected on another site?!

Turns out it was the only one out of two dozen accepted?! What the actual fuck?!

Sooo .. test number 2?!

I sent a bunch of pictures up that had been accepted already by Alamy, who like very high resolution pictures. Take a guess at what happened?

They rejected the exact same pictures that Alamy, who I thought were far too brutal with their quality control, had already .. umm .. accepted?!

If you think that is not bad enough I am afriad it gets worse still .. for Adobe Stock who was being unfair bastards ..

Because I accidentally uploaded a set of four pictures twice ..

.. so explain how one whole st was accepted and the other set was rejected for technical issues?!

No your not reading this wrong and your not drunk or have over intoxicated with drugs .. or of you are that is not your problem ..

Yes two sets of four photographs .. the exact same pictures I uploaded twice thanks to my short term memory problems .. one set accepted and the other exact same set .. REJECTED!

Would you believe there is a third site and my photos have been in quality control for like well over a week and closer to ten days?!

That would be Photofolio.

I chose all companies with a base in Britain .. and now thinking they must have been got at too?

Yeah .. no one is getting at me, no? That is why this weird shit keeps happening is it?! Lol.

• DLA Cancelled unfairly
• PIP Awarded and then later cancelled unfairly
• IB Cancelled
• Talked into working for myself
• Business Plan Accepted
• Course attended
• Business Plan Accepted
• Sign Off to go Self Employed
• Week later all agreements pulled by Job Centre/DWP
• Ad Revenue Frozen on Blog
• Goal Posts Moved on YouTube
• UC Credit Cancelled .. not SANCTIONED .. but CANCELLED!
• Photos curiously rejected
• Photos on another site rejected, even those accepted by another site
• Ad Revenue on Google still frozen after more than 18 months?!

So it seems that making millions or billions by getting a shit ton of people to work for years for free seems to be catching on?!

I think that these groups and truthers claiming that the elite and those in power are all evil devil worshippers/satanists as well as running paedophile rings might be onto something?!

A shift towards slave labour on a global scale has come into play and no one seems to be saying anything? Lol.

Do not like paying taxes or wages these people do they?! LMAO!

Like controlling what you do or say though, right?! Nasty evil place the world is and weird that it has taken this long for people to start waking up to it.

And to think I decided to broaden my photography from wildlife to landscape, texture, architecture, abstract, monochrome, modern buildings and anything else I could think up. Fat lot of good that is doing me when they get persnickety over stupid things.

Well I took some screenshots of the photos ..

Sorry but how is anyone with any health or difficulties or even mental health or memory issues supposed to work with this shit?!

SHAVING REAL CLOSE

I keep forgetting things. This has been going on for a long, long time now.

Sometimes I forget things that might seem a bit mad .. like forgetting to take pills when you have health conditions or pain. This probably does not make sense? Hell, it doesn't make sense to me!

Yesterday I forgot something. An event. A kinda major event and not the first either.

I have been making a push to try and start selling my photographs but it has been a bit tough and frustrating on both several hardware levels, hosting levels and .. health problem levels. I often say to my daughter that neither of us can actually catch a win or get a single break.

So after a couple of discussions I moved a piece of hardware and the Wifi connection has improved a lot though there will still be times when it goes down fully and there is nothing I can do about that ..

Virgin Media has always been utter shit from my own previous connection to those of half a dozen or more others I know that had one.

But I also had a problem with working with my photographs and using two different but old and slow computers. I post process on my desktop but do not really like spending too much time on it.

I do prefer to do any uploading or writing on my laptop.

I am also running out of space as the photos, especially in RAW file, take up a lot of space. So I decided to get an external hard drive and bought a Seagate of 3 Terabytes.

A friend of mine keeps insisting that my health conditions are down to my state of mind, and not a physical thing, and he also insists it is easy to get a Doctor and suggested he take me to his who was crying out for patients? Fed up with trying to tell him I agreed for him to take me to his. At least this way when they refuse he can see for himself?! That was supposed to be two days ago and I am still waiting.

I am also awaiting an email from someone else that I hope will offer to help me and who I will go and see?

I have items in storage to that need to be sorted out before I lose everything.

It feels like a million things going through my fragile mind and most of the time it feels like my mind is being physically torn in two.

While trying to go out and get this hard drive that is how it was. Anxiety hitting me and heart playing up and wondering how I am going to do this, even get to Argos, which was a waste of time anyway,

The hard drive I could save processed files to and create two folders, I now have three folders in all on my new external drive. Put everything on it when I am on the desktop and then switch it to the laptop for uploading and typing in tags and such.

So with a push off I went down the road.

I crossed a road and just before I reached the other side I looked to my left and a silver car was whizzing towards me and I had to jump backwards.

He was going pretty fast and I very nearly hit by the car. I was not shaken .. just surprised that I had done this and that it had happened again. Yup .. I said 'again'.

As I stepped back onto the pavement I then was hit by something else. This was the exact location where, back in the 1980's, I WAS struck by a car!

I was on a bike on a road called the Crossway and I was turning right. I was hit on my left, blacked out, rolled across a bonnet, up the windscreen and onto the roof of a Peugeot 504 Estate in metallic blue. Then I rolled off the side and onto the tarmac in the middle of a junction.

It was around this point that I woke up .. lying on the tarmac and I actually thought I was waking up in bed and was wondering why my pillow felt so bloody hard. As I came to I realised where I was, what had just happened, struggle to my feet and walked to the kerb. I then felt a piercing pain in my right thigh and collapsed unconscious for a second time. I woke up a second time to a ring of faces looking down at me and could hear my name being said by someone. Turned out to be a girl I went to primary school with called Nejila, a Turkish girl.

I had torn my thigh muscle and I could not move my leg and it was stuck in an angled position. So I could not walk and that lasted a week or two. Of course I was taken to hospital.

I had long put that incident down to the reason I ended up with so many health symptoms which was eventually self-diagnosed as Fibromyalgia twenty thirty years plus on from this incident. Then confirmed at Guy's Hospital a year or two after I diagnosed it.

So you can imagine it was somewhat odd to suddenly realise I had almost but knocked down again in exactly the same spot?!

I then had a pain in my right leg, tried too many shops and Argos did not have the hard drive I decided to buy. One with a hub. So I have to keep unplugging and plugging in this one that I have now. Bummer.

I then forgot all about this close shave with a car.

So I started placing photos onto my drive and I ended up with three folders ..

• Alamy
• Photofolio
• Adobe Stock

These are sites to sell your photographs only .. it is a right pain in the fecking arse!

I was rejected several times by Alamy, which oddly enough is always first on most 'sites' lists of place to sell photos. I do not know how as ..

• Insist on 3 photos for initial submission
• Quality Control is absolutely BRUTAL
• Quality Control also makes some seriously unprofessional rejections
• Like blur outside focused subject?! I mean fecking REALLY
• They also randomly check your photos and if one fails they fail them all
• Even if you are using FTP to upload 100 photos
• Which are only checked at random anyway
• Photos have to be over 17MB?!

I asked about this and they sent me a portion of a sky in a monochrome photo that was black via post-processing. On a 42 megapixel image that had been zoomed in a great deal as it was grainy as hell.

There were two red circles they had drawn and I was squinting my eyes while wondering what in the hell I was looking at while also wondering why in the hell they were pixel-peeping like this? Eventually I could just make out there were these .. darker blobs. I very much doubt you could see these marks and they put it down to dirt on the lens which was funny as it never affected any other photos I uploaded that were taken the same day.

I said that this was a bit silly and asked why they had done this and they stated that they might be selling photos to use on billboards?! Fecking .. really?!

First off this would be quite rare and secondly .. I have a fecking 42 megapixel camera and very few models have more that that without spending a whole heap more money.

Sooo your going to blow the chance to sell photos to 95% of your buying customers because one might want to put it on a billboard? Sounds very stupid .. a bit like rejecting another photographer because he had blur. or 'bokeh', in his image outside the test subject.

When I pointed out my model camera, as another was rejected for softness, I got a patronising reply abut how the camera does not take good photographs?! Totally missing the point that they were zooming on on a very, very high resolution image and seeing imperfections that were barely noticeable.

Also bearing in mind with a 66% success rate for photos and a 24 to 48 hour wait for quality control and a whole batch rejected because of one photo? Yeah .. now imagine trying to get 500 to 1,000 photos uploaded to a decent sized portfolio? Which I and others believe needs to be around 2,000, how long will this take you?! Lol.

I then thought what the fucking hell .. they have got the God-complex Google effect?!

• Put all financial issues onto photographers
• Put onus onto photographers, and not buyers, onto pictures being absolutely perfect
• Ensure that millions of photos are top quality
• Get half or more of the money simply for hosting them

I am clearly in the wrong business here?!

Bearing in mind the lengthy processes involved and then you have to tag or label everything and that you have no idea or guarantee that any of these photo sales sites are any good or not. Only crap that these paid reviewers say on their sites.

Money for nothing? Check!

So that is how I ended up looking at Photofolio. I thought 'fuck this' there must be an easier way? So I found them and sent a few test shots there way.

• Oh .. takes longer to be assessed
• Photos have to be smaller than 20MB?! (Over 17MB with Alamy)

Well this is .. consistent.

In fact I bet the only thing that will be consistent is the God-Complex and sitting on your arse earning millions for hosting?!

Next!

Had a look at Adobe Stock and pretty much knew I would have had an account with them from years ago? Yup! New password and I sent them some too to see what happens?

Yeah this is fun, with with anxiety problems (I have self harmed), heart problems, memory problems, having difficulties getting out to take pictures, pains and a million things going through my mind in any one waking moment this is .. nice! Lol.

I actually started to think about selling my camera gear after all that!

*SIGH* what with everything with my daughter as well going through my mind, the corruption, the terrible murders going on by the British government of disabled people everywhere. Well not just disabled people either.

Often my daughter and I say how we hate living in this country. Well it is odd to say that as it feels more like an open prison because you cannot escape anywhere. No respite at all.

Will we ever get a break?

Oh and I heard from Take A Break Magazine which only took two weeks and they completely got my email wrong ..

'Sorry but your story is not right for our magazine'?!

Yeah .. I was emailing them about my daughter who they had already covered in their magazine and so when I told my daughter about the email, who could not believe what they said ..

• They are idiots and did not realise what I was saying
• Someone scared them off the two of us