It has been a very long road to get
where I am today. An inordinately long time indeed!
Just doing what I needed to do on the
blog I thought I would need at least two years of hammering away at
it and as stated before this is due to the extremely slow pace that
everyone involved operates as many people have unfortunately found
out for themselves.
What should have been very clear to
people of late is that the salaries involved in contrast to the
services provided have a great distince between them. I have known
this for sometime but not many realised, or possibly thought it was
that important. I wonder what anyone who served in the Home Guard in
Word War II would have made of this. They likely would have thought
that if Englands shores were ever invaded again we would be done for.
Eighteen months has been spent thus far
posting about the things that went before as wel as those happening
currently. That is quite awhile indeed and I challenge anyone to be
able to do all that while not receiving monetary gain from it.
Unfortunately for me the things that Google told me convinced me to
have not one but a dozen blogs. Unfortunately what they failed to
tell you is that you would have to put two years into a dozen
different subjects before you had any hope of getting the piss poor
£60 per month smallest payment. God only knows how long others have
been at it on Adsense and still waiting?!
Had I realised I might have not tried
so hard through the warmer months of 2013 plus the Winter of 2012-13
racing around on my bike trying to acquire as much content as I
could. The number of times I came back and my body gave out as I
crossed the threshold of my front door I lost count of. Of course now
I realise this is down to my condition but each journey was still
between 12 and 30 miles. Not to be sniffed at but then I am used to
cycling and cycled to Brighton and back as well as Southend and back
as a kid, from London. In recent years it has become more difficult
and I hate the Winters more than you could know because the worse it
is and for longer the harder it is for me to get fit on the bike
again each Spring now. Something many close friends knew for a number
of years. I often told them it was strange because each year it was
taking me longer to get fit aenough to cycle to my usual haunts along
the River Lea.
Unfortunately this year between 2013-14
the Winter has been the worse as well as the longest for people that
cycle at any rate and for me this goes treble. Because the longer I
have been off the bike that adds to the length of time it will take
to get fit again! I am NOT looking forward to it! I have had a few
yearnings to be riding again the last couple of weeks now. But the
amount of rain as well as the wind makes this impossoble to do what I
want to do on a bike. The soild every is boggy and that is an
understatement as I have seen puddles on grass looking bigger then
many ponds I have visited over the years. I would estimate that one
in a local park is anywhere between 100 feet and 150 feet in length.
On foot or bike this is just impossible for one and damed difficult
for the other but factor in the doghy, cicky and painful parts and
even with the pile of pills it is simply a non-starter.
That, this winter, has been somewhat
annoying!
Last year I did not get to half as many
places as I was expecting to to get media content to upload to my
blogs and YouTube, again annoying.
It is odd how people and companies with
money act as if it grows on trees, proverbially speaking of course.
They just seem to act as if things are avaiable for free. Not only is
this preposterous for even fit people I can tell you is is quite
insulting for anyone with disabilities. I can also tell you that
despite what you might see out there in the way of disabled signs it
is still not that disabled friendly out there, still I guess many
will think something is better than nothing?
I had a bit of a panic recently, though
I did not let on, as that kidney test I had left me wondering and
worrying about a couple of things and living with requiring a kidney
dailysis machine was NOT top of that list. Nope it was 'what if I
have to stop taking prescription medicine?!' Coming from someeone
that hates taking it and put off asking for any pills or medicine for
years that is saying something.
So eighteen months of blogging about
corruption and most but not all of my other subjects but the build up
to the blog was itself a coupe of years in the making. In fact if I
wanted to split hairs I could say that all this as twenty years in
the making.
Twenty years ago I started collecting
symptoms and as I stated early on in this blog every year or so I
seem to acquire another one that added to the list. I was diagnosed
with a Hiatus Hernia which I was told was the cause of my heartburn
back in the late 80's which I know know is listed as a symptom of
Fibromyalgia. Though this could turn out to be far more complex than
you might think?! As I am a stickler for the truth I also am of
detail and I do not know whether or not it WAS a Hiatus Hernia to
begin with but later on become a symptom of Fibromyalgia. I shall
explain...
It is obvious that the condition is
accepted that a scrambling of the nerve signals to your brain and I
have often asked myself if MEMORY has something to do with it?! Make
sense? Well if not consider that you had a pain once before in your
life. The feelings of said pain would be stored in your memeory as at
the end of the day it is merely a set of electrical impulses. In the
scrambling of the main signal going to and from the brain your brain
could be registering the memory of pain and amplifying that memory so
that it appears to your conscious mind that this part of the body is
indeed in pain. What I could also add to that is that I went a long
period of time WITHOUT any heartburn and I mean several years!
The accident I had that I know believe
either bought on the Fibromyalgia or at least increased its intensity
was AFTER I was first diagnosed with this Hiatus Hernia. Factor in
that my second Doctor out of four in Enfield stated that I should
only have taken a Proton Pump Inhibitor, cuts down stomach acid
production, until the scarred lining had healed. That was Doctor Huq
and no other Doctor has stated this before or since. Indeed though I
did bring this up with my last Doctor and he seemed a litlte anxious
to see my medical records. Not only IS he the first Doctor to be
anxious to see my medical records that have mysteriously gone astray
but will be the first one to actually read them if he does as he has
now stated to me twice in conversation.
The one thing I can be certain of is
that it is now obvious that the Fibromyalgia goes back longer than
when I started pressuring the NHS for answers. This was when my feet
started hurting and that was just after I got my degree. Easy to
remember and detailed on here because I was unofficially living in
Bristol and some of the people I knew back then are on my Facebook
list still today. Not the ex girlfriend mind you, jus her family,
lol. It was when I left there and returned to London and only a
matter of days that the feet were hurting. The hips and ankles and
even back issues had popped up before hand. Not the knees however. I
had also just got the grades for my degree and they were admittedly 6
months late due to a deferral. Off the top of my head this was
somewhere in the region of 2000 and always remember I was waiting for
the Millenium Bug to crash all computers and aircraft fly-by-wire
systems. Though I did not really think that would happen, lol. I do
remember it was April and in the June I travelled to Italy with a
friend in search of animals, Calabria in southern Italy to be
precise. I think it was April 2001 to be precise in which case I have
had the feet problems for now approaching thirteen years. Oddly
enough I started getting the symptoms for Restless Legs Syndrome not
long after I moved to Bristol so precisely a year before the pains
the RLS appeared. Never occurred to me that the two would or could be
linked. Oddly and from 2001 onwards and with the other pains I had
already been to Doctors about it never occurred to any of them
either. Both before this pre April 2012 and POST April 2012 I was
treated abysmally 99% of the time! In fact leaving out my currect GP
there was only one GP I could speak highly of and two if you included
her stand in Doctor and there were named Hq and Pilani respectively.
But even so I still felt that the
contents of my medical records were entirely unfamiliar to them as
everyone else and I remember thinking how annoying it was because
they were now in use of computers which should make it easier!
Meaning they either could not be bothered to read of that the syetem
they were using wa utter crap. I have had several reception staff
tell me it is utter crap from different suegeris and clinics too. So
another inordinate amount of money wasted and lost then?! Probably
done it cheap and syphoned off the taxes used into personal
accounts?! I could have implements the same bloody system standing on
my head and blinfolded and still have done it better that they did.
But not to worry, they are clawing back all that money they lost now.
Of course this is just one single soliary instance.
It is my belief and will become clear
in the nxt couple of months that things could have been done very
differently. One of the things is that delaying tactics only ends up
making the net cost far higher than it would have normally been...
Why is it, or should I state WHEN WILL
IT, that of all these bloody surveys uyou see on the TV News and in
the Tabloids there are some I would find intersting and revealing
that they never do?
One I would like to see is how much
money has bene lost to businesses over the years because health
problems with THEIR workforce have been put off and put off for long
periouds of time? I mean any condition at all reduces the ability to
work to one degree or another. Be it a mere 10% or be it 90% it is
all a loss and all adds up. This is made worse when you consider all
the days off a member of staff has to keep visiting Doctors not
wanting to deal with it because someone from up on high has told them
to avoid it to save them money?!
Thnk the Rats on the sinking ship here.
Now factor in those people that have
been unable to work for years?! This has not only cost the company
they did or could have worked for but now costing the taxpayer
because of the benefits needing to be claimed!
You see it is not really that hard when
you think about it is it?
I know there will be a show in Channel
5 now in the coming days. I only hope they do not take the Channel 4
stance as they did with their lop sided show Benefits Street. I
wonder who commissioned that as it was on every day and that is
peculiar outside of a soap opera.
I will not be watchng the Channel 5
show for a whole host of reasons, lmao! This blog will achieve what I
want it to either with or WITHOUT the media. Of course had the media
reacted as they should have done when I first contacted them or even
when I sent them THE FOUR DVDs then I would not be whimpering about
Google and their Adsense crap. But it matters not as the direction is
ONE WAY and there is only one conclusion. Well unless people are for
more naïve than I could ever have possibly imagined?!
But then at the end of the day IF I
have been unable to HELP the British Public as a whole it would be a
shame as that is what I intended but it would not really affect me in
anyway now my other goals either. It will be those that turned away
or failed to believe what was staring them in the face on here that
lose at the end of the day...
I do not need 60 Million people on here
to succeed in the vast majority of my endeavours. I do not even need
60 Million people worldwide. In fact I think I only have to increase
my current visitors by a factor of 10 to solve all my personal
problems. Worldwide.
Provided that the weekly visitors of
around 2,000 cary on rising themselves this figure will be a lot
closer than you might think?! I would be rather shocked if I did not
hit that in 12 to 18 months provided the weather start working in my
favour and I can get my arse into gear.
Of course now that I have a hundred
thousand people that are aware of me, this blog and all my other
blogs on all my other subjects it will make a number of other things
relatively easy too. Being published repeatedly is one.
Another things of interest is whether
or not when the weather warms up and people socialise a great deal
more by going shopping together or meeting up in the local park
whether or not the numbers in thes blog will start to rise faster?
Faster than what I do not know because it was around 2,200 in a 7 day
week the last time I looked. But then my postings on many blogs have
been a little lackadaisical of late due to the weather.
I think in the winter, which I
orginally expected faster rises, I miscalculated because this is the
time when people stay in so find my sites individually. In the warmer
weather and everyone out and about more and with smartphones in their
pocket it is likely that more people will show each other this blog
and its secretly recorded audio and other factual data and the rises
will be greater. IN theory at any rate, lol.
Of course there is also that I believe
more and more of my content, subjects and even facts will gradually
fond themsleves in the news, because you have to be an overpaid
celebrity twat in a suit on TV to have any news to tell not a
disabled guy with a laptop?! LMAO!
The amusing thing about all this is
that considering what it is that they have tried to accuse me of or
get me to do there is one thing that I have that allowed me to do
this and therefore help as many people as I can...
...THE JOB REQUIRES THE PATIENCE OF
A SAINT!
...and saints have to perform
MIRACLES.
