THE OBVIOUS QUESTIONS

My good God, NHS stories seem to be like buses and after one I think can't be beaten in the world of the bizarre it gets well and truly beaten in mere minutes!

I thought I had fallen asleep and without realising it awoke in the world of The Twilight Zone when I saw this story.

A mental health chief within the NHS ends up having a nervous breakdown and needing mental health treatment from the NHS?!

Really? I mean, REALLY?!

What was strange was how she answered the so bloody obvious question of how were the services?!

FUCKING REALLY?!

Jesus Christ someone somewhere is either an idiot, thinks the majority of the population are idiots and/or naive or both?

Well surprise, surprise the answer to what the mental health services are like are they were great ... or fantastic or something similar.

Is this a fucking wind up?!

First off, how in the world did this effect occur? The chief guess through her own system? What no heath insurance or money to go private?

Secondly if it just so happened that this bizarre sequence of events did take place ... asking them what the services we like they were/are in charge of?

Yes I can see the possible answers right now ...

"Yeah, you know what? They were really, really shit! It's farcical and you know first thing tomorrow morning I'm going to fire myself!!"

The NHS mental health chief who had a nervous breakdown - http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/blogs-trending-38720826

THE STARK REALITIES

I have been dogged all night from the anxiety attack from yesterday evening.

It's come to the point whereby it's obvious that the 80mg of Propranolol is not going to cut it.

I'm panicking about whether or not I will be able to handle lying still in an MRI machine and just going that when the time comes I'll be somewhat calmer. That being out the house will reduce the symptoms?

I'm also wondering whether or not I should take a second dose or at least take a dose with me?

Oh Jesus how I can't get over how I feel like this yet again.

While I was looking up to see the dosages for Propranolol I came across a link about Fibromyalgia and suicides and it seems to be a thing? Only it also appears there has been a reluctance to do any research or even just a statistical analysis of this?!

I find this absolutely incredible and highly suspicious. Oh so now we are going to ignore things that take people's lives and destroy entire families to save money?!

Here is an excerpt ...

How many lives have to be taken?  How many families destroyed before the necessary attention is paid to this life-changing condition?

http://www.fmauk.org/latest-news-mainmenu-2/press-releases-mainmenu-37/935-elevated-suicide-risk-in-people-with-fibromyalgia

This is on the Fibromyalgia Association UK website of which I attended a single support group with and then kept forgetting to attend them for a year afterwards.

Yeah among many other things the short term memory issues, known as Fibrofog, really are a bitch.

However bad these memory blanks are in afraid they are a few steps down from the anxiety attacks. As well as the heel and foot pains, if your affected in your feet that is.

Oh crap. Every now and then all I think is 'ohhh crap!' Why the hell does the human body do this to itself?! It literally makes no bloody sense. It's a self punishment that can't be controlled and of which there is no 'off' switch for.

I was a little surprised to find that FMA UK page mentioning Fibromyalgia sufferers and suicides but I shouldn't be surprised at all really. Oh crap.

Just felt like this weird wave like feeling of anxiety wash through my head.

Oh and now I'm wondering that if there is something to be found in the MRI of my head, say a tumour for instance, whether this could be combining with the Fibromyalgia anxiety to magnify things?

That might explain how the anxiety was so strong that I lost the feeling to my legs that time?

Oh crap. I hope the loss of feeling to my legs does not happen on any of the days I need to go to hospital. Like bloody today!!

I'm going to either have to see if their is an Urgent Care Centre at the hospital still and go there, if I feel like this while there. Or in going to have to make an urgent appointment with my GP .. again.