THE STORY PAGE OF WALKING THE BREADLINE

Well I find another page on Facebook with shocking stories ..

.. there just seems to be no end to them and I am getting several things a day I am tagged in and struggling to open my laptop and type in peace to get another post published.

I always seem to have children around me until around 10pm, if I am lucky, by which time I am absolutely knackered.

I just feel lucky that the last few days I have not had anything strong in the way of heart and chest issues, which had gone from monthly to daily since I arrived in a location 250 miles away from the land I know.

In fact in the south I know mist places .. from all parts of London and east to Southend, south to Dover and west of there to Brighton, the original, where I lived a long time ago for around 18 months and have a grandmother live there.

All the home counties I know and was born in Middlesex, Perivle to be precise. Grew up in East London. Delivered around a 200 mile radius, even to Great Yarmouth.

There are places here I have only visited briefly in the past and even thought about living in for a year with my new trusty camera and equipment. Except I am missing two items and a PC to be able to handle the very high definition RAW files and 4K videos.

The Peak or Lake District for one, Snowdonia for another.

A bit further away but also on my radar was Scotland.

I had a little break just prior to writing those last two lines and the previous paragraph .. and I am supposed to be typing this in a room other than the living room I am currently sitting in ..

.. a Support Worker is supposed to be here. They are not coming.

 Now a Support Worker is someone that comes when a Social Worker cannot .. which is odd because a Social Worker has failed to turn up many times and I know what she looks like and can even tell you she is from Luton. But I have no idea what the Support Worker looks like.

I had to leave to go and pick one of the Autistic children from school and they were supposed to arrive shortly after getting back here. That was why I was asked to go in the car to pick her up .. otherwise I look after the youngest with Autism while the other is picked up by her mother.

This process is then repeated again around 3 to 3.30pm to get a third child. Being ten years old the oldest has just started to come back on his own ..  bit of training before he attends secondary school next September, 2018.

We had been back in the house for five minutes when the Support Worker called around 2.05pm or a little later to inform us they were not coming.

The council has already long been listed as inadequate. Someone was trying to remember when that was because they have 6 months to sort this out.

Oh .. that is weird .. I just did a check to let her know and it turns out that it was over a year ago?!

But I was told they had six months to put things right?

Plus a child died a few months, maybe weeks, before I got here two streets away?

Plus another one is added to the list that does not turn up to these ... chair/support meetings for these children that are at risk! Not one or two but well over half a dozen meetings .. around 9 I think it is now that they have not turned up to out of 11.

Next month in January 2018 there is a court case linked to the domestic violence all these visits are for. No .. the autism I have previously referred to was discovered while all this was going on .. TWICE. First and in the face of everything else we get told about one. But then they test the other one and she is worse. They do seem to be trying to rush it but trying in my book is not good enough.

Not one, not two but three areas requiring help and support.

Then we discover that the mother has inherited my disability and many things that have confused both her and her Doctors for a very long time, like several years, are answered in an instant. Then they find three lumps in very different places and thus far .. two biopsies have needed to be taken.

Seven reasons support is needed!

There IS support. Me! Except I am being screwed over and only getting my rent paid currently and have the aforementioned disability which causes very high blood pressure and some issues I am currently being seen about. Issues that have made me think I might drop dead any day.

When you are also faced with the possibility that you do not want to think about, that I will end up being the sole carer of these four children who are getting zero support .. other than visits looking for reasons to damn the mother, in her words, it is .. fecking scary!

But this is just one in a long list of stories and ours is not even listed on the page below, though I have alluded to it but only in parts.

Try the stories on the Facebook Page .. Walking the Breadline ..

https://www.facebook.com/walkingthebreadline

THANK YOU SENDING ME THIS FIT LOOKING GENTLEMAN

That is the line that was actually included in a letter from an Orthapaedic Surgeon to my GP at the time.

I had realised it as odd and later realised it was code .. fob him off because he looks fit.

I was also later lied to .. had a row face to face .. he tried to trick me by calling my bluff which unluckily for him was a double-bluff.

BUSTED!

That was the first time I had them lying to my face. Several more quickly followed and the recordings started either just after this or just before it.

If you look fit you will get fucked off unless its something that either will appear obviously quickly, a household name or kill you quickly.

Unfortunately for them the condition they lied about I later self-diagnosed and then later discovered they had known about it for at least two years.

Also unfortunately for them the serious sides to it that they either gambled on not appearing, high blood pressure, postural hypotension causing grey-outs and black-outs, effect on your heart and chest as well as eyes and other things that can be picked up on .. failed.

I have all the above and that does not even include the fact that the bit that everyone seems to have ignored is the research and reports to state that Fibromyalgia has strong links to suicides and cancer which I already linked to in a previous post.

When People Think Your Illness Isn't Real Because You Don't Look 'Sick Enough

This is the infamous line I have heard for fucking years, 13 to be exact, from friends and family because the NHS fucking misdiagnosed over and over again and then lied.

Now the DWP pull the shit on you too because they know most of the public are stupid idiots that think like this.

I always put the word 'failure' or 'failures' in the tags or labels but this annoys me, because they are nothing of the kind.

Not just to me too and someone close to me has three cancer scares and waiting four months fpr two children to be listed as seriously Autistic.

No fucking help which is why I spent a lot of my inheritance and started up two crowd funding campaigns, dont even ask, with GoFundMe and JustGiving and a Patreon account for me!

https://themighty.com/2017/09/lyme-disease-invisible-not-looking-sick/?utm_source=Facebook&utm_medium=ChronicIllness_Page

THE SOUNDS OF CRACKING

A second case of perfect timing in less than a week.

One was someone that should now better with me that could not understand how you can attend a hospital appointment and they are not quite sure why you are there.

Listed as inadequate and this is in a flurry of Doctor and hospital visits I have never witnessed the likes of on just a couple of weeks. I have know many people who have died and some of those died of cancer and I have never .. EVER seen medical staff move like this!

The latest was a woman on DPAC's Facebook page that did not really see a problem with any of the public services I am involve with and suggested the problem was me. Lol. Obviously does not read the tabloids or watch the news. Because there has never been anything wrong with the public services anywhere .. EVER?! Oh, wait? No it is anywhere from every other week to every other day.

Not to mention the fact that recently that there as the revelation that lung cancer screenings had been fecked up and now the NHS has contacted all trusts about it.

Like I aid to y daughter .. no mention of how long these mistakes were filed away and then there is the question of how much damage has been done in the interim?

Then early this morning I spotted another news issue and this time involving disabled people, though whether this is a section or not I do not know, and the resigning of Theresa May's Social Mobility Commission. No less than four of them, would you believe?

It seems nobody wants to end up with these horrible labels they will then have trouble removing and it is interesting that it is moving up the ranks.

They cite the lack of progress towards a fairer Britain as the reasons.

Funny because as far as I can tell it has been heading in the opposite direction for more than ten years.

It is also funny because it has gotten to this .. bizarre stage and yet the mainstream news media has not remarked on any of the stories, well 90% of the time, since this started. In my personal experience this started long, long ago. Well before I moved to Enfield which was in June 2007 and therefore way before the financial crisis started.

In fact when I look back at the start and despite the sheer shock and unison of 'o's and 'no's coming from the House of Commons when the financial crisis was announced, it was almost like they knew.

They started to attack the helth conditions that not only included people unable to fight back but had likely no one who would understand what they were saying and even support them in fighting back.

Patients with mental health problems.

I feel pretty sure that is where it started and because it was the easiest target for them to go at without repercussions. Legal Aid had also been slowly dismantled years before too so even less of a chance of any comebacks.

Once this was achieved, one Psychiatrist I had spoken to only realised late on they were attacking those with mental health issues, they could then move onto the next group.

The clever plan here is that they might move onto a number of groups before they were rumbled and that even when they did people would point the fingers in all the wrong places. At the time this was the private company appointed as assessors, Atos Healthcare. Now only known as Atos.

I knew the truth but many disability group members did not. They thought that by getting rid of Atos or making the DWP and government aware of what Atos was doing would have them gotten rid off and that very literally over-night. I knew this was all wrong too.

Among those to resign are former cabinet ministers of both the Conservatives and Labour!

I wonder if others might follow?

Well look, for the love of God, at the number of governing bodies, watchdogs, ombudsman and chairites in each and every case. They have done nothing and with little or feeble excuses in each case. These number into the, very literally, many dozens. Even the health service alone has four or five bodies, maybe more? PHSO, PALS, NICE, GMC, CQC and possibly others? There is five and I have been wrapped up to no avail with the first four of those five.

Hear that, dumb-arse woman? I have been involved with four out of five health service watchdogs and they have done nothing. Not even asked for the evidence I claimed that I had.

Yeah .. I have my ways when I am pretty sure I am dealing with an organisation that is basically a con, payig themselves salaries of either the taxpayers money, winds me up the most, or from public donations, winds me up almost as much.

Hmm come to think of it I wonder how many of those donations are made as a tax dodge anyway?

The DWP have at least one, ICE or the Independent Case Examiners but if you are dealing with them, plan to deal with them I strongly urge you to check their email addresses. They run through the DWP's mail servers .. or through their buildings, in other words. Not really something you could truly call 'independent' now, is it? I do not know if there are others. CAB are absolute crap with the DWP .. unless your unable to speak English.

The Local Councils have the LGO. Or Local Government Ombudsman and I am fairly sure there is at least one other body. Oh of course .. Ofsted .. where children are involved. They have listed this council as inadequate sooo where are the others and where is the LGO?

Well all know about the Police and the Independent Police Complaints Commission. Yup a big nada and bullshit from them too!

Scope?

Disability Rights UK?

Age UK?

The list goes on.

Then there is the private side to from advertising to energy and on to communications. And even bailiffs. I have had reasons to contact the watchdogs and ombudsman for each of these not to mention many more besides. ZIP!

So will these four resignations within that one commission be followed by more? Will those on the verge of having enough, moral ones that is, then follow suit? Will this be followed by the amoral ones that get too scared that they will be exposed as amoral and before doing so quit to keep up the charade, and assure themselves their next career, all start walking out too?

One can only hope and only time will tell.

Notice how no one within the either the reporting or the discussions about the EU divorce bill has mentioned anything about disability rights? They have not even spoken about human rights, well not about their native people and as I already stated .. nothing on disabled people or even children, for that matter?

It is simply disgusting and the one and only thing that keeps me going, other than four children and a daughter who is constantly feeling ill and/or in pain, is that other people with a high standard of morals and are not naïve or beavering away on their on plans to do something about the injustices with absolutely everyone.

Being secretive towards your own people simply does not pay and in the long run is doomed to failure. Because they never stop at the obviously lies, like things involving the secret services which could be questionable anyway, they start thinking they can lie about the next thing and the next thing and then the thing after that.

Before you know it they are lying half of the time and everyone knows it but somehow accepts it for just the way things are.

They think it is not directly affectig them yet and they still have their jobs soo .. what is the point and as one naïve woman put it to me “It wont ever change” and “You cant change anything!” leading me to ask why in the fuck she bothered even going on the site where people are trying to help each other out? Yeah .. every insists on thinking like that then yes it wont ever change.

It is a self-fulfilling prophecy.

I do not like people giving the wrong advice, or that people are naïve and walk around with blinkers on and .. I certainly do not like self-fulfilling prophecies!

So I thought for a couple of years about either creating a website .. the company used was not very good in their design, or a blog. There was also the possibility of a YouTube channel. So I started a blog .. then another blog .. then another blog and I ended up with twelve. I had already technically had a YouTube channel I only ever uploaded the odd video to. So I started to get more filming when and where I could and start slowly adding to that.

I am not an idiot. I did not think I as going to change things over-night.

Though there was the possibility that when the government and its bodes inevitably discovered what I was doing they might change things? They might have done in small ways?

What I was aware of was that to change things in the UK alone I needed as many people being aare of my blog and my recorded data and documents that I could. This would mean that it would at least have to being the millions.

Even with the viewers being in the single figures when it comes to millions there would inevitable me more aware of me because .. well people .. talk. Surely you know that Surely THEY know that?

Whether these millions had to be in a single blog or across everything I was not sure.

I did think that with some of my exposing early on that I might reach a million in a year or two? But this has turned out not to be the case, unless someone is messing with the figures being reported to me?

But I do not nor can not think about these possibilities of someone messing with me because .. I jut have to keep going .. somehow.

My other blog have taken a hit of late through doing the things others seem to be shirking their responsibilities over.

But I am seeing the signs, finally, that this is getting harder and harder for them and with Iain Duncan-Smith resigning that was a first as well as a surprise.

So .. is a barrage of label dodging about to take place?

I have already witnessed a backlash against governing bodies and charities on Facebook and I have been predicting that one for a very, very long time. Before I even started blogging 5.5 years ago and more likely around 13 to 15 years ago.

Oh and my daughter bumped into some people down in the town centre here, told them about her own story and then about me .. seems they want to talk to us. I was given a newspaper and thought .. 'ooh this seems strangely familiar' only to have it confirmed when I looked at their website address that they were a far left group. Well I am assuming .. far-left.

Remember what I said about the history of revolutions? Well take a look at their website address …

www.revolutionarycommunist.org

Even the Financial Time has reported on these Social Mobility Commission resignations but then .. they are bean counters that failed to see the missing beans and .. this involves politics and Theresa May directly and sooo .. means uncertainty and so mean money .. so yeah, once thought about not that surprising, lol ..

Financial Times ..

https://www.ft.com/content/e4426dce-d808-11e7-a039-c64b1c09b482

Sky News ..

https://news.sky.com/story/blow-for-pm-as-social-mobility-tsar-alan-milburn-quits-over-unfair-britain-11154336

Theresa May's entire social mobility commission have quit because 'she's too busy with Brexit to help the poor' ..

http://www.mirror.co.uk/news/politics/theresa-may-social-mobility-quit-11630715?service=responsive