GETTING LIVES

I have probably had a lot of things thought when people visit my blogs and read what I put and it is nothing I have not had over the years I have then disproved ..

• Nothing wrong with you!
  • Business partnership went wrong partly because of that line
  • Plus he was fucking mad
• Get a Job
  • Yeah .. tried that and see below
• Get a Life!
  • Look at the title!
  • Tried that and once again .. see below!

So I was sitting in this park .. dealing with a rare but usual craving for Smoked Salmon and Cream Cheese sandwich, which has now turned out to be a craving due to my low magnesium or Hypomagnesemia. While I was pondering things and how mainly my life was going to end and then I suddenly thought of the things .. wrong things people probably thought.

The difficulty when your posting about something is tat many visitors would not have seen all the previous posts and see all that I have done.

I am also well aware and even have family members that make up their own minds .. because everyone is so intelligent these days they do not need the Internet or books or shite, without even researching to see if they are right.

I have seen this over and over and over again in comments on blogs, forums and even on YouTube .. people arguing they are right and often with things they are very clearly wrong about.

I really do not know where the attitude comes from.

This makes it all the more insulting and frustrating when I have done all the work that I have and even acquired over 100GB in evidence. A very large portion of that are secret recordings of the people I accuse performing the acts I accuse them of. I have a great deal in the way of documents and reports too.

Now I tried many, many times to get the news media and the tabloids interested in all this but by September or October 2012 I gave up and started blogging instead.

Then little by little more and more of the stories I had long since claimed and covered started appearing in the news on TV and the tabloids .. so much so that I got bored of hearing people tell me about this.

But it still really bothered me that people might cast judgements .. abut me being lazy for instance, when they could not be more wrong.

Now below might seem like a very long list and I have realised there are things missing but .. trust me when I state without any doubt that each of these could be added to in the form of a book in some cases .. short story in others.

Well I did complete two books before I even started blogging .. did not get interest from big lietrary agents and small ones claimed what I had done was too big for them..

Hmm .. too big for the small ones and too small for the big ones?! Lol.

In fact if you go through the report below remember a few things ..

• I had a disability from 1992 ish which became a real distraction around 2000 ish
• I have that to this day with added extras and dangers
• Heart, Liver and Kidney Disease, Cardiac Arrest risk, Heart Attack Risk and Sudden Death Syndrome Risk and now with testable problems
  • Nan, Father and possibly Uncle all died of heart related issues
  • Very High Blood Pressure
  • High Cholesterol
  • Very Low Magnesium Levels, Hypomagnesemia
  • Inguinal Hernia Repair and starting of a second one

• As a Child
  • Around all animals
    • Become interested in
    • Batrachology
    • Herpetology
    • Ichtyology

• 1985
  • Kicked Out
  • Lived in Brighton .. the Old one
  • On Youth Training Scheme

• !986
  • Worked cash in hand for low wage

• 1996
  • Got fed up with job situation
  • Attended Waltham Forest College ..
  • Intending to go to university

• 1997 to 2000
  • Attended Middlesex University
  • Grandmother died 1999
  • Achieved a Distinction for my thesis
  • Offered a Doctorate by Peter Pasmore
    • Stupidly turned down

• Disastrous Relationship 2000
  • Lived in Bristol with unstable woman, Allison
  • Was beaten up regularly
  • Returned to London
    • Within months feet started to hurt
      • This would then be ignored by the NHS for 14 years approximately
      • I would end up diagnosing this confirmed later by Guy's Hospital (2014 ish)

• 2004 or 2005
  • Dad set up by the BBC
  • Claimed to have sold a Lion – a lie
    • He did not get over that
    • Died within a year
    • 500 people ate funeral blamed the BBC

• 2004
  • I start to write a couple of different books
  • One sci-fi Novel
  • One Spy Novel
  • One on corruption
    • As after being ignored and fobbed off by the NHS I actually start thinking something is up and plan to write this book as I figure out the truth
    • These do not get completed as I am made homeless ..

• 2005
  • Despite requests for help and now disabled ..
  • Left Homeless

• 2007
  • Find home in Enfield
  • Live there for ten years .. but deposit stolen at the end .. no reason given despite asking

• 2008 ish
  • Go into first of two business partnerships
  • Run retail store with no capital, was family store
  • I request help with this from Job Centre
    • Told there is no help any more even for those disabled
  • This does not work out after 6 months and I walk away
    • I have to deal with painful feet
    • Vomiting without warning
    • The Odd Seizure
• I am also unfairly kicked off Disability Living Allowance
  • I appeal this all the way to HMCTS who end up actually taking even more off me .. so much for law, justice and morals!
  • But then I had been fobbed off for years not knowing what ailed me but as I find out years later .. this does not even matter
  • Because they government are clearly up to something

• 2008-9 ish
  • I get attacked and then defrauded
    • Out of £4,000
    • By Bailiffs
    • No Warning
    • No Letters
    • This ended up widely featured online .. on Community Action Group among others
    • Intercepted by solicitor type, Sheila Harding, who claimed I was going to be a millionaire
    • Turned out she worked for Bailiffs .. looking for people that had evidence against them
    • She gets hold of a witness called Tony Murray who disappears off the face of the Earth!
• 2009 ish
  • Start Keeping Orchids
  • Get friendly with guy selling Orchids on eBay
  • Based in Caister-On-Sea
  • He asks to go into business partnership
  • But I spend 3 weeks up there and things are not quite .. right
  • I end the partnership before it has begun a few months after returning to London

• 2010 ish
  • I write and complete a book on corruption
  • I write and complete a second book

• 2011
  • My daughter gets into her third lot of serious troubles
    • Held against her will by radical Muslims
    • Children stolen from her
    • Her money being stolen systematically
    • I guide her out of it
    • MI5, GCHQ and two Merseyside Detectives become involved
      • I am told I am a genius by Detective Simon Broadhurst and I state yeah I get this a lot
      • I am later told by MI5 that I am a genius
      • Attempt on White Water Rapids Centre in Waltham Abbey Essex was foiled, though I find out a year after the attempt from a local

• 2012
  • Fed up with trying to find job, I can get to and actually DO ..
  • I start taking camera cycling
  • I start a series of Blogs
  • I start uploading to my YouTube Channel
  • Kind of a long term back up project if things do not work out

• 2014 ish
  • Turned down for new disability PIP or Personal Independence Payments
  • Except this is reverse when I spot a deliberate mistake and tell the DWP I know what they are up to
  • As the claim had taken a full year I get a £4,200 payment

• 2012 to 2017
  • Been writing and adding to the blogs as and when I can
  • Now have over a dozen blogs
  • Now tipped over 500,000 visitors

• 2016
  • I get a letter stating my Incapacity is ending
  • I get a letter stating they want to assess me
    • By this time I know ALL ABOUT Atos, the DWP and the lies
      • However though this is widely known all disabled people I speak to think that this is purely down to Atos and I facepalm myself for the number of times I tell them this goes all the way back to government. IN other words the DWP are behind it!
  • I have the fourth breakdown of my life
    • Once again the anxiety goes mad
    • Once again I go off eating
    • Once again I lose weight
    • I start to self-harm for the first time
    • I start planning how to go about ending my own life
• I get put on Universal Credit
  • This turns out to be a mistake after 5 weeks
  • But I get accused of doing something wrong, tough there is no extra fucking money involved
  • They feel stupid when I point out it was all their mistake and can prove it
  • I then have to start all over again and claim Job Seeker's Allowance
  • This happens with just around 18 months before the blogs and YouTube channel should work out financially
  • While under Universal Credit my Jobcoach realises how smart I am and starts putting forward the idea of staring my own business and going on New Enterprise Allowance
  • Not rusting them at all I do not tell them about blogs ad am not sure if I would be accepted as a viable business just yet?
    • Despite not trusting them Michael, my Jobcoach, tells me about IDS
      • Iain Duncan-Smith, I am told, is not a nice man
      • Someone he knew that worked for him said he was horrible
      • That he looked at the working class as slaves
      • David Icke flashed through my mind and a slithery tongue appears from the mouth of IDS in my head

• 2017
  • Grandfather dies
  • I am to inherit money
  • I approach the Job Centre about this and go on New Enterprise Allowance
  • I present printouts of screenshots of my various blogs and the number
    • After initially saying I wont get accepted the advisers eyes go wide when I show him how much I have already done, the screenshots and the visitor numbers
    • I am then accepted
  • I attend all meeting
  • I attend workshops which is really pointless and basic stuff
    • At the end of all this I get a call from my daughter
      • She and my grandchildren are victims of domestic abuse by Muslim husband
      • He is arrested and put in jail
      • We are told he will get ten years
      • He is already out ..
      • With a cheque for £20,000
      • And probably housed?
  • I travel up to stay with my daughter and grandchildren for 8 days
    • Three grandchildren I am meeting for the very first time
    • I tell her that maybe if she wanted I could move there .. be around and help out
  • I return to London and a week after going self-employed
    • I am stabbed in the back by the DWP and the Job Centre
      • They cancel all benefits
      • They cancel the New Enterprise Allowance payments
      • Except I have already purchased almost everything that was in my business plan bar three or four items?!
    • I now have no time to correct this ..
    • Also I had previously been told that the heart palpitations I was taken to hospital for two or three times need to be investigated!! JUST PRIOR TO MOVING HOME!
  • I am there for four months .. in Birkenhead under Wirral Council
    • Outside of an extremely nice chap at the Job Centre, Lancs man called Adrian ..
      • Months go by and no one helps
        • Despite the fact I realise my daughter has my condition of Fibromyalgia
        • Then tells me that she has blood clots never sorted out
        • Granddaughters diagnosed with differing levels of Autism prior to me moving there .. but nothing is done
        • Then discover my daughter has cervical cancer
        • Then despite asking many people, including Frank Field I get no help
        • I made a load of mistakes on moving and realise that yet again I was lied to by GPs and the NHS .. putting my life and others in mortal danger
        • My money eventually runs out and I have a breakdown
        • A well known liar spreads some shite and tips me over the edge and I return to London without taking a single photograph while up there!

• 2018
  • Back in London I try to get myself together
    • Other had already agreed to help but .. nothing happening
    • I try and go out and get photographs
      • Not always easy .. a day here and a day there
      • I am also in the worst possible location for wildlife photography and films
    • As 2017 was almost a complete wash out
      • Missing a couple thousand photos and few hundred videos
  • On the days I cannot get out
    • I write on my blogs
    • I decide to focus on putting my content on other sites
      • Flickr
      • Tumblr
      • Instagram
      • Twitter
      • Pinterest
  • Being screwed over by Google and their Adsense
    • Do not know why
    • Have asked but had no reply
    • People like me being screwed over by Google and their YouTube too
  • I get contacted by a woman
    • Perfect Hair
    • Perfect Eyes
    • Perfect but Middle Class voice
    • Into all my sciences
      • Quantum Mechanics
      • Astronomy
      • Others
    • Owns many of my books
    • Turns out she went through MI5 interview process
    • Owns GCHQ Puzzle Book
    • Owns book on biological warfare
    • My daughter reacts in utter shock, as do one or two others

And people think there are no conspiracies and that all the public services and courts are totally blind to what is going on in this country?

Yeah what after fifteen years of me alone being treated like shit and all that I have done and all that I have proved? Fuck .. off!

It is like the staff requirement for public services, or paid for by the taxpayer, is as follows

• Do background checks
• If background checks show them to be amoral employ them they can help
• If background check shows them to be stupid or naïve .. employ them..
• When it all goes wrong we can pin it all on the naïve and stupid ones ..
• The Jobsworths!!

EDIT:

Forgot I worked for Land Rover for six months and was asked to leave there to work for a guy I was supplying t the time he turned out to be a lying, cheating bastard called Chris who was full of himself.

THE INTERMISSIONS

It is a .. strange, strange time for me.

I have been buying things that have all been planned and agreed upon with several people .. official people .. so to speak.

Only .. right in the middle of all this and with an extremely large upheaval of my personal life mere weeks away and a trip away for a time being only days away .. something has changed.

Someone .. or I should say one of the agreed parties has thrown a spanner in the works!

This is an organisation that anyone with a brain dies not trust and they have .. changed their stance somewhat and this will be .. eye opening to many. I cannot say much more about it right now because even this is in flux.

Now I will tell you this ..

In the space of thirty minutes I had two separate people speak to me. One was face to face and the other was over the phone. Yup .. within ten minutes or so of speaking to one person a different one calls me on the phone.

I will also tell you this ..

The one that I spoke to face to face lied to me.

The one that I spoke to on the phone also lied to me.

I am also going to be self-employed from the 1^st September and that is only a few weeks away.

I also have to go away and that is mere days away.

I have a mountain of things to buy and a mountain of things to do.

Now this would otherwise be a nightmare because of the health conditions I have but as far as the pain is concerned this has gotten a lot easier.

As far as the getting too hot is concerned this has gotten a lot easier and it has cooled down at night due to it being late in the year so that has become easier.

This is because I have now owned a car for the last week or so.

Unfortunately it does not help with my memory problems. Nor any one of the other dozens of things it causes. Luckily most are not constant. Thank the stars for that.

Plus I am having some .. psychological issues over everything I have to do .. kind of a mental block combined with .. a little trepidation, or nervous. It does not make sense and I do not know why this is but then the brain is a much complex thing. Plus my Fibromyalgia seems to mess with it as it does so many others.

Yeah so what is going to make things worse for an organisation well reported to lie and cheat is thee fact that I suffer from a registered disability. On top of that is my right knee issue and along with the pain and memory issues there is also the high blood pressure issue.

I was not even sure I was OK to drive again but when I last asked my GP he said it was OK. But then as I know that the NHS have tried to lie on patients medical notes and certainly have mine so surely have others .. this answer might just be part of that?

This is something I did not consider in the past and every now and then I have wondered how many people have had car accident because of health conditions that the NHS have lied about? It must be a significant number and I dread to think it I could be really big.

Also a wrong readout on the car's computer did not seem to be much initially but then I went and read something on a forum about one owner of my Land Rover having to change an engine because of ignoring this warning?! Did not make sense and no one backed it up because it is to do with the coolant level. I went and bought coolant because I naturally thought it was low due to the computer warning. Opened the bonnet and I was surprised to discover it was full. No problem then. Faulty sensor that can get fixed when I service the car next. Then I read this owner writing that he lost an engine because of it and I did think maybe it did get low and he did not watch the engines temperature gauge?

Then I read something in the same forum about some kind of ball being inside the top up bottle, tank, and someone said something about it sometimes blocking a pipe. That .. would bee problematic! But even so if a blockage occurred it would raise the engine temperature! It is an engine coolant system, nothing rocket sciencey about it. Water goes round, if it does not then things get hot. Lol.

Still .. as I have not driven for a very long time it did get me worried about both breaking down and buying a new engine!

I came into some money .. I did not win the jackpot n the lottery and the money is not endless. It would not buy me a house anywhere, nor a flat in case your wondering. Not even far, far away from London. Unfortunately. Or I would have done that!

Being homeless is my biggest fear and I have had this fear six or seven times in my life and people with Fibromyalgia feeling fear? Or at least some of them? It is not good and is most certainly not nice, trust me on that. Look up 'Rubber Legs Syndrome' and a detailed explanation on that and how it comes about will make many realise how effing horrid it is. That is just one .. thing out of dozens.

So I am awaiting emails to find out how much it would cost, how long it would take and if I can ge it done before I go away.

Since being asked to go to a certain building TWICE in a week .. I have had two days of deliveries turning up and have a third on Tuesday.

I am also out practising and familiarising myself with the tools I have had delivered, see below.

So this is what I have now acquired since the car was purchased ..

• Sony A99 II DSLT Camera
• Sony G Master 70-200mm f2.8 Lens
• LowePro Toploader Holster
• LowePro Whistler Backpack
• Carbon Fibre Tripod (instead of the usual expensive ones I went for Amazon one at £75)
• Benro GH2 Gimbal Head (Basically a swing like contraption goes on tripod)

That is not quite all and all I can think of right now.

That also only includes one, damned heavy, lens. You cannot do everything with one lens even if you specifically only photograph in one subject area. Most people have more than two lenses and professionals normally have dozens. Though dozens are not needed but at least five are .. though two of these are out of reach. At least for now and the immediate future because the combined total of just these two is £17,500! Yeah .. I know. Lol. Unfortunately there are cheaper alternatives but these have recently been discontinued and I only found out last night. You also cannot buy them in the UK, at least not for my cameras mount design. Though a very top store in New York was selling them, B&H Photo, but last night only had used ones and suddenly the discontinued notice was up I had never seen before. Bah humbug!

The combined cost of the two lenses new? Knock £10,000 off the combined total of the two Sony lenses above and you would get both! Those above are the Sony G Master 300mm f2.8 and the Sony G Master 500mm f4. The other company is Sigma, same focal lengths and apertures and looks like same objective lens size too. They look almost identical .. except the Sonys are white and the Sigmas are black.

I also had not considered all the other things too and I have had to buy two very large SanDisk memory cards as well as a lot of cleaning tools, like for sensor cleaning as well as lens cleaning. I would not want to buy anything cheap in the way of cleaning stuff with stuff this expensive. Even so I did not expect the little bottles holding 8ml of fluid to cost between £20 and £40 when you get cheap crap for a couple of quid on Amazon. Again .. you do not take the chances.

This also does not include the fact that I have to buy new computing gear too and I need to build a new PC and I will need a laptop.

This will need to be able to deal with photo editing on very large files, the cameras is 42 Mega Pixels, as well as 4K video. These things take as much power as you can throw at them, especially video editing and especially so in 4K resolutions.

I have not oredered a single thing yet for the PC build because .. well .. I also have to move house and this was also all part of the plan. A plan that I was completely open with to all people.

Except one organisation who had been nagging me for months have now gone and thrown this spanner in the works. Right in the middle of everything and they have lied twice already. In two ten minute conversations.

Everyone told me to lie to them, even a right wing guy that curiously does not agree with having a welfare system! I did not want to do that. Except .. well .. I would tell by the body language that they already knew anyway. Or at least it had been flagged.

I spoke to thee right wing guy saying that they had already been told, I had forgotten about them myself. This was because they already knew! He said, yawn .. once again second guessing wrongly but insisting upon his views, that I must hav told them or they found out from this blog. Umm .. I never said anything about receiving anything on my blog and .. well like I told him dozens of times, they already effing KNEW! I had been on a course to start my own business. REMEMBER! Lol.

Also if you recall I also applied for a loan with Newable through this NEA course thing which I was turned down for? Yeah that was for £25,000 that I intended to pay back within a month or two .. exccpt they turned me down and so starting my own business and gong self-employed got delayed once again.

The funny thing is I only started it because of two things .. one was they were unfairly pressurising me at the Job Centre under Job Seekers Allowance they WRONGLY forced me onto and I was not getting anywhere looking for a job 35 hours a week. Yeah .. do not lose your job because they insist that you carry on doing a full time job looking for another full time job. You have to put the things you have done on their website using an account. Nothing wrong with that, per se, but .. you have to put loads of things .. more than the number of jobs for what you want to do you can possibly find advertised. You better believe it.

No they do not want to HELP you get a job .. they just want to stand behind you with something that ends up feeling more or less like the proverbial whip! I kid you not.

I was on Universal Credit, again WRONGLY, for 5 weeks or so before being transferred over to JSA and within two weeks they were pressurising me about starting my own business. As soon as they realised just how many areas I am knowledgable in. Plus I would like to try my hand at some manufacturing too. More tools and these were included in my plans as a completely different facet to everything else.

• Blogging on a dozen subjects (could add more)
• Photography
• YouTube
• Manufacturing .. Cases

There might be others but the camera gear would help with most, if not all, the blogs and the YouTube channel.

Oh .. did I mention that I only received half the money I was supposed to because someone stole over £300,000 of the estate and that their siblings and mine want me to be the one to take them to court?

Remember that even without the pains and psychological stuff I do have those short term memory issues and as you can see I have a mountain of things that I have to do!

But the spanner throwers do not give a shit .. government basically and government doing as government does. Fucking people over. Jesus what a shit country this has become and it is getting worse. I am still receiving messages that the UK is going to collapse any day now. Still waiting. Lol.

However .. there is a very important question I have to ask if they decide to put any force on turning the spanner. They had better think about their answers very, very carefully. Because to different answers simply wont qualify. In act it will look so bad .. I would not want too be them!

Why do these public services lie and cheat? Do they not know they they always get found out in the end? Even if the government try and tie up the news media it often grows so huge that the news media cannot ignore it any longer. Because if they do it will look obvious .. though most people with even half a brain have long since realised that the mainstream media either lie or are ignoring stories at the request of certain .. parties.

Ooh .. I just remembered I am supposed to talk to an SEO company about my blogging?! Damn it!

LMAO!

Now what else could I have forgotten?!

Videos of my new arrivals ..

THE REPEATED QUESTIONS

Is it not funny that you can ask the same question three times of people or organisations that look down their noses at you and simply cannot get an answer?

I have managed to get my third email from Newable, loans company that the DWP, NEA and Job Centres keep touting, and they still have not answered my primary question ..

So you cannot loan me any amount at all, is what you saying?

I did kind of get a better answer as to why I was turned down ..

.. my, umm, credit report?!

LOL.

I have not applied for a loan or higher purchase or anything that requires a look at a credit report in what is likely more than 5 years now.

Now remember that these people are being touted as a viable way for someone on benefits to start their own business?!

Yeah considering that we are 6 or 7 years into the worst financial crisis in a very, very long time and that this is a company that is supposed to loan money to people that have been on benefits .. are you fucking serious Newable?!

I have been pressurised sooo many times to do this and as I previously stated I thought that it might be helpful. Plus .. well so many people have told me that this is either a scam, speaking from experience, or they think it is a scam, that have never even read anything on.

Yeah it looks like a scam and it certainly explains why the very first thing that is mentioned right after telling you that a loan is available is to say 'don't take out the loan!' no because you will not get it approved, that is why.

I must admit to this ..

I do so very much wish I had applied for this loan two weeks sooner than I had!

Because I do not think I am going to get enough time to explore every avenue and ask the right questions to force someone somewhere to slip up?

I honestly applied at the eleventh hour because I thought I would be approved for the loan, not necessarily the amount I requested but a helpful amount, nonetheless?

But no, I was refused and given no proper help and advice other than to go to another organisation when in reality I was only going to be refused yet again, of what they said was true.

That is of course that they are not lying and are actually refusing me help now, along with being cut-off by the NEA, because they now realise I am a very real threat?

Oddly he used the word 'primary' for the reason for my bad credit score, which I knew I had some years ago now caused by the disability the NHS kept telling me I did not have. Sooo .. that bad credit was down to my health and the corruption and lies that the NHS has employed to save money for over a decade now.

So once again I am being penalised, as well as patronised .. great, for something that was the fault of someone else.

I really do not know a great deal about Newable, or how they fucking expect to find anyone with a good credit rating who needs to claim benefits (preposterous). I probably should look to see if this is government funded, which makes the refusal out of fear theory plausible. But as I stated I simply will not have the time very soon.

As stated I have also emailed the other Business Start Up organisation who I am sure stated were government funded?

I am just following the trail they have now put me on to see what is realistically available to anyone on benefits, fed up with the lack of job offers, interviews and unfair pressure that has any thought at all towards working for themselves.

THE N.E. EH? WHAT?!

Well it is starting to appear that a DWP and Job Centre program I was on is nothing more than a scam and therefore a complete lie.

I enrolled onto a .. program to help get advice and start my own business. This was done because there was another thing going on but I did this because I thought I might gt some valuable help out of it.

Now if anyone has looked into this NEA business you will know that it is an 8 week program.

You meet with an advisor once a week for eight weeks. During this time you go over things and you create a business plan and a couple of spreadsheets for your business.

Oddly at the seminar, taking place prior to the eight meetings over eight weeks, they oddly tried to encourage you to not take out the loan. I believe this is why one lady that was present turned around and stated that she would not be continuing, or really even starting, with the program.

What was also odd was that as she was going out the door the adviser tried to stop her and asked her why she was not going to proceed. I did not hang about to hear what it was she had to say. I could pretty much guess and had I been looking at starting a business with nothing I would have done the same, telling them where to shove it too.

But I continued on.

As well as the weekly meetings there were these workshops you had to attend to go over the spreadsheets, how to fill them in and what they are for. We were told there would be other workshops and that these would all take place at their offices in Kentish Town.

Yeah .. only .. I only had three of the meetings and only one of the workshops that took place in Kentish Town?! It gets somewhat stranger when just around Easter time I was told that our weekly meetings would not take place in Enfield any longer but at their offices in Kentish Town. Except I was never asked to attend another meeting nor attend another workshop. It just kinda ended.

It ended with an email around four weeks in stating that my business plan had been approved, which turned out to be a second approval stage I was not aware of.

There were some things I wanted to ask and I emailed the adviser three times over about a month but never got a response.

Oddly enough the Job Centre started to apply pressure to me and then very recently take their foot off the gas?!

I checked and I started this process that takes eight to twelve weeks around the 21st March, 1027.

As it is now the 11th June 2017 we are coming close to being at this for three months, which is more than 12 weeks. The process takes eight to twelve weeks as I stated.

Want to hear something really bizarre?

Well .. you may be already saying to yourself that I have gone on about this 8 to 12 week period several times in the recent past?

Yeeeeeah .. it is not the same thing. Although they are kinda loosely linked they are very different things and yes .. I have two things that are supposed to take 8 weeks minimum to 12 weeks maximum and are now on the verge of going over the outside times for both?!

MENTAL!

I am afraid it gets worse as I applied for the loan and went for thee maximum amount, due to something else that is happening, and I was refused without explanation. They simply said 'sorry, go elsewhere'?!

Now I emailed them and I very clearly stated, these are people making financial decisions, that I expected to be given a lower amount they would be willing to loan out. Yeeeeah ..

They emailed me back with the exact same answer!

They obviously think my understanding of the English language is serious challenged when in fact I simply asked, obviously in a way far too complicated for them to understand, it sounds like your not willing to loan me any money, is this the case?

No answer!

Now bearing in mind that .. I have already been working and building up this business for nearly five years, have a BSc Single Honours Degree and stupidly turned down a PhD, and worked for a solicitors practice ..

Umm .. if I cannot get a loan and proper and helpful advice with all that, then who the fucking hell can get a loan and proper help?!

*SIGH* I have asked this latest chap at Newable, a guy called Shane Chester, a more DIRECT question. Basically are they refusing me any kind of loan then?

I am not sure if he is the one challenged by the English language as the last email could have been from someone else and I cannot be bothered to look. So I stuck to sarcasm as opposed to direct insults. Give them the benefit of the doubt and another chance to answer a very simple question.

I am going to find it odd and bloody interesting if they ever decide to apply pressure to me about going self-employed. Because I would have been by then had they honoured what they stated in the beginning w would get.

Now .. forgive me but are they not supposed to b advising these potential self-employed business owners?

Should it not have been stated at some point that I would be refused the loan and given the same grounds that this Newable have refused the loan application?!

So once again I wait to hear a sensible answer hat is not gobbledy-gook from Newable and another answer from this government Business Start-Up people.

Plus I await someone else correspondence on another matter of which the weekly dates I am now smack-bang in the middle of.

I feel like a greyhound stuck in its trap waiting for a hare and the traps to open but which never seem to come.

These last few years and I do mean years, .. I seem to bee destined to wait for dates to come and pass me by in the hope that someone else does as they should do. In fact this seems to occur with some surprising individuals, private companies along with public services! And I am the one everyone either pressurises, looks down upon or expects fast and magical things from.

My word, no wonder this country is in the most God awful mess and only seems to be spiralling down. Most annoyingly I seem to be the only one that realises this and at the very least and judging by the recent general election, not enough people are aware of this.

If they had then the general election would have had so little votes as to not only send the strongest message in this country's history but could not fill 25% of the seats in the House of Commons.

LMAO.