THE RIDE BACK INTO HELL

HiIt is 3.09am add I start this post and I'm back into another night of hell.

This very annoying a well as painful on and off as I finally thought I was in the body clear!

It's not quite as painful at that dreadful night but it's not far off at times and I am already panicking it will go that way.

How can a condition continue for best part of ten weeks? It's bloody stupid a had a little sign earlier it might return and should have taken several Tramadol.

All the other symptoms are present too, abdominal pain, wind, diarrhea and vomiting...

Damn it!! Have to keep pausing due to sudden increases in pain and vomiting. This is no way to live! Well it wasn't previously but this just makes it ludicrous, lol. I have always had this urge to apply a lot of pressure to my stomach with pretty rough stomach aches. However my chest still hurts from breaking, not a bone, whatever I did a few weeks back which I thought was a rib.

Damn it!

I have had to stop a couple of times to throw up and deal with abdominal pains. I then could feel myself getting weaker by the minute as well as sleepy too. The pain was subsiding at the same time and child not have been a coincidence? Eventually it subsided enough that I left my tablet pc alone and laid on the floor with only a towel to rest my head on and my robe around me. I feel asleep but only for a short while as discomfort somewhere I can't recall had me gradually get to my feet and make my way to the bed.

I fell asleep. How it for I do not know but must have been an hour at least.

It is now 6.25am. Annoyingly I was awoken by abdominal pains! At first I thought it would simply pass and tried you remain in bed and yet that is not my present location. Feck me, what must I bloody do to end this?

My relaxed listen to the new Pink Floyd album I purchased while it seem like a distant memory now. One wonders if this disruption of relaxed periods of the seldom moments of enjoyment will become forever disrupted with periods of pain?

I truly wish I knew what the answer is to my current problem! This has already become tiring and to much now. I am not going to be able to take another night like this one and it's not even over yet. I sit crumpled up waiting for something, anything to move to rid myself of this current predicament. 

I also have to admit to the condition of Crohn's Disease flashing through my mind this time around. I helped someone who had this condition and there is a link to something I now believe is responsible that I know used to set him off...

Jesus! More pain and vomiting before getting annoyed and using the two fingered salute to the back of my throat, hoping the sickness would go and/or the trapped wind would move. I'm not bringing up much and this ceased earlier in the night. Yet as always there is the feeling of going to be sick ever present. Strange.

I am leaning all over the place. Extremely weak and feel like I want to collapse constantly. Ewww.

Sleep! Floor....again.

Odd. How lying down on the toilet floor can seem so inviting and comforting? Then trying to get up I seem to be shaking, literally. Must be the lack of sleep and energy? Really felt it this time. Thinking of whether I stay in, tired and in case of embarrassing accident, or go out, need loads shopping for home, shoes.... still and likely a film to make up for slightly disappointing Days Of Future Past. Well it's not like The actually is anything left inside me at all?!

Hmm the is a new album from both Moby and Mike Oldfield I have not heard?!

The time is now nigh impossible 8.08am.

Goodnight.

SOMEBODY SHOOT ME

I am not having a good time, really I'm not. I had thought I over things and considered leaving the house to get some much needed this.

One of the things I wanted to acquire was something I cannot remember the name of on a webpage I cannot remember the address of to deal with one of the nasty symptoms I have been experiencing.

I thought better off it and rather glad I did. Or rather did not.

The discomfort... well everything had died right down and a little discomfort was dealt with by checking my PC which had been left on all night.

I had joked on my computing blog about a computer game I bought out of my local Game Store I had wanted to play for years only to find out that despite their being a DVD inside the very nice box it contained no game?!

Yes you read that correctly and I am afraid it gets worse.

I then went into the company's website to download it annoyed that this was the first time I had to do this since a little game called Half Life 2. Onky it was not there?!

I had gone into their website because the disc I had s supposed to download the game except after 5 hours it still stated 59 minutes to go which it did when I stated it, which is how long it should take. The share days that all was well and the server was online but five hours and nothing doing. So I started to seek out issues in the Internet.

Now what do I find next? Well not only have a large number of people had the same issues but it turns out the game is actually... FREE?!

Yes siree you read that correctly and nor was it clear on the special edition box! Neither did it mention either that the game was an online only game, a pay to win game, which I hate and neither did the guys in the store notice it when I specifically asked them, it isn't online only? "No not Tom Clancy titles no, they are always single player."

Oops!

So after a bunch of people said it was not pay to win I thought I would leave it on all night? Lo and behold I was shocked when around 11am this morning around 75% had completed. It seemed to have slowed down and wanting a distraction for a couple of hours I fired up something else. Cut a long story short and fast forward six hours and.... it is still on 75% and still states 3 minutes to go as it did 6 hourse before.

I was actually feeling a little hungry and wanted to avoid bread but remembered I had some pineapple chunks in juice. All the webpage had stated to eat fruit and veg and not being able to get out I ate that. Did not make it to the end of the medium size tin when I was in the throne room clutching my guts during salvos into the cavern of doom!

I could not fecking believe it and wanted to tear the house apart with my bare hands! If I could get them away from my guts for a moment that is.

Fortunately the nightmare vision of another night in agony without sleep seem to be a little premature.... fingers crossed!

Bother!!

Oh yeah and my list of possibilities grew with some undesirable additions my family has a history of I dare not make public! My life literally won't be worth living from the nagging over something I cannot do anything about.

One possibility my great grandfather had.

Another a friend of mine had but I can't see that. I think people were just possessing of a little knowledge and was proving dangerous? So I worked through the list striking them off as I went.

Colitis, Colostridium difficale, Helicobactor pylori, Crohn's Disease and a few others for removed off the list. Not the one I wanted or right word be removed mind you!

Maybe tomorrow I'll have to make a call, maybe tonight even? God I hate having to do that but I guess seven weeks is a bit long? Ooh crap I know what I am going to hear from another source too?!

Damn it!