Thursday, 31 January 2013
Forgotten about these but they did try to ring yesterday...
Rang back today and these are the ICE Department, Independent Case Examiners, that no one seems to know about but me?!
Note how she states that they are supposed to investigate Job Centres although it needed a Channel 4 Documentary to reveal that some serious miscarriages of justice and LIES were going on?!
The file is edited to take out answers to security questions it was requested of me to set up.
Despite my want now to walk away from this I do have to remember that this blog WAS initially set up just so that I could store my data publicly for many reasons and one so that I can direct people here when I need to...
...but when it became all consuming and I thought I was being the hero by getting carried away I would end up writing lengthy passages about each thing!
As it has become obvious this is a waste of time I will just post my odd gatherings until a time when I do not need to anymore, I would imagine around April, oddly enough.
Hmm warbling there. To take someone with a bloody obvious condition that would obviously shock 100% of the public to discover in the attempt to show that they are the 'good guys' and they have 'changed' is nothing.
I do like to quote the line... You Can Lead a Horse to Water But You Cannot Make Them Drink!
I should also quote the line... People Are Easily Convinced and LED by the Nose With a Carrot!
I have seen this for a great many years and I thought that with the suffering going on and the state of affairs that this time, THIS TIME, the public will not fall for the dangling carrot!
Oddly something happened only moments ago...
I was checking my emails when I had an email from Squidoo, where I created a series of lenses but in recent times not done anything with them for some time. To show the viewers what this is I have provided a screenshot below.
I put a great deal of effort along with a great deal of time and bared my most inner most secrets in my life to help others and was somewhat disappointed that I was kind of cast aside when it mattered most.
Also the numbers on my blogs have kind of put me on edge, as even though they are 'OFF' I do not know how much they are 'OFF'. There are now approaching 5000 people who have visited this one blog alone. To be honest and as many as that sounds it is nothing and for things to really change not only does EVERYONE need to know the truth, as Charlie below puts it, but they also need to be caring enough and also KNOW what to DO with this truth.
To give an anaology a March of 5000 people is ... well NOTHING. Indeed you could add a zero or two to that and I would STILL INSIST this is nothing.
However if THREE ZEROS are added to this then, THEN something is definately going to happen and IS happening.
It does not take one blog divulging the truth but COMMON KNOWLDGE of the truth that will start the tides of change.
As for my FURY... well we are all but human and add in the fact that I have been told by a great many people including some more astute medical professionals ... I SHOULD NOT BE ALIVE ... so I can rightfully claim that I it is my god damn right to exhaust my ire!
How do you like that?!
Wednesday, 30 January 2013
Monday, 28 January 2013
Only thing is I have spent so much time on this blog for the benefit of others, it is not just a case of the BLOG itself you know but everything contained herein, that I have sacrificed a large part of my own avoidance of the inevitable things to come.
Unfortunately there are certain ... questions I should not ask myself. These very rarely have answers that help to drive you or be of any form of support to help drive you on.
One of these questions is ... Do people really understand that the above takes place?
All too often I see people join groups due to some catastrophe or situation that their minds have difficulty dealing with but what worries me is that once they have achieved their personal gain will they then peel off?! This for me is the worst kind of person who join up because there is safety in numbers but once an opportunity presents itself go cartwheeling off to pastures new and rich.
I do not play well with others and never have. This is not because I am not a team player, nothing could be further from the truth and I have proved that over and over again in my educations. No the truth is that not many other people are team players and I can also prove that from my educations to get a degree too! I have seen it over and over again and it is offensive to me when people think I cannot see it. I do and from five miles out too!
Oddly when people think it is being discovered they try to cover it up in some way or other, albeit badly. They do not want to be exposed in this way ... after all they convinced themselves it was genuine when they started on this venture or joined up with a group?! Only now that their own personal issues are 'settled' dealing with others or feeling sorry for them even, is now an inconvenience.
If you are going to claim to champion the less fortunate and the hard done by you need to make absolutely sure you first are genuine to yourself and if so and only then can you then claim to be to others.
I am not like this at all, I genuinely wanted to help and as far as I can tell I have with several people. This will continue on right up until April however I think when April does come around some of the facts to be revealed are going to be something of a wake-up call to a great many people.
After all I have always believed that to be a good teacher you have to be able to fire up emotions and feelings in the people you teach as this prevents it from becoming boring and keeps things interesting...
...I did state several times before that a great many people, a few solicitors too along with TEACHERS, said I would make a fantastic teacher.
Or to put it simply, would have been nice if something would have arisen so I can vastly drop the amount of time I spend on this fucking BLOG?!?!
THIS IS A MAN'S VERSION OF A BAD HAIR DAY!! WELL THEY DID PROVE MAN-FLU EXISTS?!
...but as I feared, which is kind of why I gave him the address to this blog, he did not mention me nor my case at all. Despite the fact that many people I know, some even passed away from terrible things, thought that my case being the worst they had ever heard of it seems that in this case it is not.
Well actually that is not true and I know this but the truth is people want to blame whoever is in power at the time for their own personal issues and that when they get theirs sorted the plight of others ceases to be of focus, that is unfortunately the nature of the beast.
However my Disability Living Allowance along with a local woman who is literally unable to reach around/under and clean herself after using the loo due to having missing and fused muscles that were actually caused by a major fuck up by Chase Farm Hospital and another woman o kidney Dialysis once a week to stay alive, well we all lost out DLA over 4 years ago and the Conservatives were not in power then...
...THAT is why I gave this blog to Michael Meacher MP to see if I would get attention only to then be ignored.
Yes it was annoying as the fact that I could get mentioned would have done wonders for this blog and therefore wonders for everyone I am trying to reach and open the eyes of but despite this being a possibility and despite having a whole series of the worst horror stories for anyone to have to live through along with those close to me somehow I knew that getting into the limelight would not be so easy.
Having this as an opportunity to prove myself correct, though I actually always want to be proved wrong, is why I decided to hand it over.
Oddly I was contacted by a BOFFIN friend of mine who used to work for Cambridge University and he did warn me on this particular venture and stated that I should be wary and that I would not get mentioned. Once he said that I did kind of know for sure and though I was tempted to post about it I could not to make it too easy for them to make me look an idiot and then mention me.
Being right is NOT FINANCIALLY REWARDING and I can tell you a very peculiar story about that one day.
It is really annoying as I am now furious with myself for actually allowing myself to believe that this may actually come to something. Well YES Carlton the Chemist was quite correct, though I would like a line of communication, if you read this, explaining further on what you know?! Wink-Wink!!
Yes so now a glum feeling along with being further glum that I did not stick to my own rules and what I know to be true instead of believing remarks by others that do not really now and that fact that many take things on face value...
...hmm that reminds me of another thing I normally avoid doing that I ended up doing that lead me to this juncture in the first place?!
Oh well... these reminders that occur to show I am right really are depressing!!
EDIT: After all I have stated that the numbers on this blog are being ... manipulated. The numbers for this particular blog are, in all honesty, nowhere near as high as they should be. Now if the numbers are NOT manipulated to the extent I think they are it only leaves one possibility.
That possibility is the one I feared to most and in all honesty we would have no right to complain about the carryings on of MPs, governments or rich people as it would turn out that the vast majority are exactly the same and only making a big beef about it because it is NOT THEM that are in this comfortable position or have that amount of money, that amount of power or a particular job or have fame.
I find it all the more self destructive on a countrywide scale that you have to go right across to the other extreme until you have people who genuinely care about human beings and their suffering only for members of the British Public to not warrant being included in this group nor warrant any help from them unless you are born overseas and better still if you have a different skin colour.
That would be the Human Rights people who did nothing nor did they even bother to converse when I contacted them regarding my daughter and myself... did not bat an eyelid, not a flicker.
So presently yhr best I can hope for is a few statements along the lines of 'oooh that really is terrible' and 'ooh how have you and your daughter coped' and other besides and these statements are supposed to solve all my issues because that is as far as it gets.
So if my numbers on my blogs are being manipulated as I stated then they numbers should be going VIRAL but they are not...
Alternatively if they are not then the number of people I have been connected with over the last 6 months should have told others about this blog, and I DO MEAN THIS BLOG AND HAVE 11 OTHERS, should have informed their friends and family about this particular blog...
...but the numbers do not match that. Oddly everyone I know on a face to face and daily basis consider the numbers AS VIRAL but I DO NOT and they ARE NOT. That is a matter of fact and oddly when I state that some silly video, funny video or video of someone getting themselves hurt in a comical manner on YouTube getting millions of hits they go 'oooh well yes of course it will, its funny!'?! This only gets stated by people who are NOT suffering in anyway. Those that are would say ... 'yes people are bloody stupid, are they not?!' and I would have to concur that they are extremely naive and go through a story telling of primates and their behaviour and that we are still doing the exact same things and simply do not recognise it.
I am not immune to it but I am fully aware of the most insulting and annoying traits and vowed NOT to employ them in anyway.
Oh and I think those that are saying this is all wrong, well I guess they do not argue with their partners, nor family members, nor neighbours or ever fallen out with friends or people even that you do not know?! Yes must be many living in PERFECT WORLD?! LOL. Well if you are tell me where I can buy a damn key and the location of the damned DOOR?!?!
As according to my late friend Kenneth Walter Bunn, RIP my old friend, that is where I should be living and in his own words thinks it is 200 years away at least and it is then that I should have been born!
Yup, this is the final furlong that IS for sure!
Sunday, 27 January 2013
Saturday, 26 January 2013
Well you will note that in earlier posts I stated that I was under Orgnathic Surgery at Chase Farm Hospital and you may recall that the work had been postponed because my Dentist had failed to act and perform work requested to do so by the hospital?
They then did this again after I had to wait four months for this follow up appointment and I may have posted about that recently...
Well after visiting my dentist it turns out that I need to see the Hygienist and that when I asked about paying the £60 over time she first said no and then stated that when I made the appointment I had to pay a £30 deposit?!
Well prior to her telling me that she stated that I had been told two years ago that I had gum disease, oh no I did NOT, and that I needed a hygienist at £55. I WAS ACTUALLY TOLD that I needed the hygienist due to my smoking which seemed ludicrous as at the rate I was smoking at the time I would need a regular monthly appointment for this!
Well post to her falsely telling me that two years ago I was told I had gum disease, which insidentally I had told all previous dentists who stated that I did not, she also stated after glancing at my file that this would likely cost £200?!
Oddly the subject of the X-Rays that the Hospital needed and Dentist did not which despite the fact that first off the Dentist should already HAVE X-RAYS of my teeth and secondly as this is NOT COVERED by the NHS, like hygienists fees, likely will incur further fees?!?!
I have to remember to first of email my dentist over all this as I have been fucked about for over two years over this, reminding him he asked me if I wanted a load of free work done, as well as contact either the NHS or DWP as I have a HC2 certificate about getting this PAID FOR before I decide before long to start approaching solicitors YET AGAIN and no doubt in vain as there are no, or indeed precious little, in the way of decent and honest solicitors out there in at least a 25 mile radius?!
So scam? Yes well despite the lack of informing me of this miraculous gum disease I cannot help but wonder that at my age i find it odd that this NECESSARY work I needed came out of the blue whoch was followed by TWO YEARS of being messed around so that I can then be sent back to the Dentist and find myself with a bill in excess of £200?!
A little set up between the NHS, nearest hospital and local Dentists? Seems a bit strange don't you think?
Less strange when you consider that my Dentist only recently took on NHS patients and that this was limited to one day a week. Hadi, a my PREVIOUS Dentist at the surgey, had previously informed me that the surgery was struggling for money, rented out a room to a Physiotherpist (I previously POSTED) and that the day I was being told this was a PRIVATE PATIENT DAY and that NO OTHER PATIENTS were in the building other than myself?!?!
In all honesty this was NOT something I expected at all. I do not really like many Dentists you will no doubt be not at all surprised to read. I had, however, liked this one and both Hadi and the practice owner called Simon and this was totally odd. They did not assume that they were more gifted and intelligent than the patients sitting in their Dentists chairs and did not speak down to you nor look down there noses at you, like two other local Dentists with bad reputations i could mention! One particular twat that came acrtoss like this and annoyed me was actually an Orthopaedic Doctor/Surgeon at Chase Farm called Dr Tai, if I recall correctly. God, he was an annoying twat!!
It was rather fortunate for Doctor Tai that we never met again after that first instance I can tell you that for free!
Thursday, 24 January 2013
My GP failed to mention he had sent a letter out to me when he told me he had referred me, odd too considering how dismissive he was when I was there on the previous occasion and how also he was reluctant to go along with the Charcot Marie Tooth Disease theory of mine.
Odd then that he tells me to make sure I inform them when I go of the CMT?! Hmm curious indeed and I do have to wonder just where this Rabbit hole will lead me.
One thing is for sure and that is that this journey will reveal all to me and I will be right there recording it as ever I have been!!
This is a back-up plan that I really do hope I do not need on this occasion but in all honesty there is a good and valid reason that more people should do this, it is easier to remain calm and not want to literally kick their arses around the hospitals or clinics even though most of them are deserving of it...
...if I know I am being fed lies and bullshit I can grin because I know i am getting it all down and it goes up on here, just part of my little tricks.
Only yesterday I was speaking to my sister at length about this and she asked me again how I had managed to quit smoking and I did go to lengths to explain how...
...at the end up I concluded that I am the public offices and all of governments worst nightmares all rolled into one but the irony of it all is that it was THEY that created me!! She laughed at this which was good as she had been expressing her hopes and fears with the latter outweighing the former by five to one!
So it is not only me you see that has been through this kind of thing and has happened to a great many people of which I am but one. I will admit though that I have been through quite a list of things and I shudder to think of anyone going through all the things I did or even just fated to do so. It is inhumane and completely unnatural of any society claiming to be civilised.
NOTE: I thought it odd he signed it and sent it and immediately struck me that scanning and posting someone's signature is likely to be extremely illegal so I blocked out 90% of it!
Just maybe that occurred to others besides me and that signature struck me as awfully big... don't you think?!
Wednesday, 23 January 2013
Among other revelations that have surfaced there were THREE primary ones regarding the NHS. One of these will be that I was subjected by the most audacious and diabolical scam to get me to spend money within the NHS that I am somewhat steamed about in all honesty...
I will also post on this in the next day or two but right now I am very sleep and only got three hours last night. I have no desire to want to play my new games nor watch my new film...
However what I will post about is a certain Ms Ennis I saw interviewed on one of the News Channels I think was BBC News 24 and what caught my attention was that she was thumbing through letters when I spotted one headed Whipps Cross Hospital and she went on to say that, like I have claimed and also said their MUST BE others, that she was repeatedly refused a diagnosis, refused referrals and even when she was referred the Hospital FAILED to diagnose her, told her nothing was wrong and said nothing more could be done and sent away...
However and just like my claims on this blog she said that she got completely fed up at being told one thing when her body was telling her something else entirely and she kept on. This went on for an amount of time that I failed to catch note of but I dread to imagine. This is because it sounded as if she had been referred two or more times and refused referrals in between for sometime also.
Well it just so happens that her insistence to be referred and her constant requests to be referred that she finally got around to getting a proper diagnosis and it just so happens to turn out to be none other than...
I kid you not!!
I heard this either yesterday or this morning and just today I was all geared up for another recording, which I failed to do as I was called in earlier than expected, and entered my GP surgery who asked what he could do for me, I thought not a good sign, but when I asked about the Podiatry letter he replied "Oh Yes, I got that and I have REFERRED you of to NEUROLOGY". After forgetting to start the recording app it turned out I had not needed it as I was expecting to be told more lies from the Podiatry like I had from the Specialist Physiotherapist who had only recently performed an about-face?!
I was all prepared with threats and means to apply pressure and my lack of sleep meant I would probably sound quite sinister too but was glad to realise there was no need for any of that.
However I did ask him about the absolutely dreadful Saturday I had a few weeks back were I passed out through pain due to constipation. I mentioned the Vagus Nerve, some weird screenshots going up on here about this too along with two others, and he nodded and confirmed that is what had happened though when I stated about my Hiatus Hernia, back problems and the whereabouts of this nerve he said he did not think that these were putting any pressure on it...
...failing to note that SOMETHING WAS and therefore realising that dismissing anything I suggest would be somewhat...hasty.
He also told me, rather suprisingly, that when I attended Neurology to TELL THEM I suspect I have the Charcot Marie Tooth Disease so had either completely disregarded his previous dismissal of my suggesting I had am suffering from it or was being sarcastic. Though going through the trouble to do what they are so reluctant to and refer me just to be able to use a sarcastic line, it did not sound sarcastic either, was going a bit far I thought. LOL!
So here we go again only this time I am heading up a highway that I have designated and belive to be the correct path to a final diagnosis. The diagnosis that he also told me in a previous meeting that 'some people NEVER find out about'.
As i was about to leave he also said "nice to see you again" and I replied it was good to see him also. Maybe a rapport I was finding difficult to establish no has been?
Wednesday, 16 January 2013
I have set out a couple of things and it seems they have paid off, not literally PAID lol, and I will be able to post some startling as well as helpful revelations in a post in a few days time.
I am also a little behind on a couple of other blog subjects and have a fair few things to post up and a good deal of media.
In fact I had to spend a few hours this morning doing some resizing and rotating plus there is a little video too, this things despite being on other subjects worlds apart from this blog they are in a unique position to help me with this one ... well as far as some of my claims I previously made are concerned.
Also due to the little backlog I have to work through and things about to occur there will be a nice flurry over the next few weeks on a number of different blogs which will include this one OF COURSE.
One main one on here will be to do with Charcot-Marie-Tooth Disease, Plantar fasciitis and anyone who has difficulty with their feet who have had nothing but arseholes that are supposed to be medical professionals so yes I have kind of been experimenting like I have done for years and now seem to be onto something and have been a couple of weeks.
But I will not change the habit of a lifetime and in something this important I have to be absolutely sure of myself beforehand!
So over the next two weeks expect a great deal on four blog subjects and outside this one will be the ...
Reptiles Amphibians Fish BLOG
British Wildlife BLOG
I copy and pasted the email I recieved and it it follows this sentence and I did not include links as I am having 'difficulites' galore with my connection today.
Please circulate and turn out!
Royal Courts of Justice, The Strand, London
The WCA was introduced by the Department for Work and Pensions to test the eligibility of disabled people for disability benefits. The test has been fiercely criticised by campaigners, MPs and the British Medical Association. The government’s own appointed assessor of the policy has ruled it ‘unfit for purpose’, yet it continues.
The WCA causes death and distress to thousands of disabled people from all impairment groups. Dozens die every week following assessment while nearly 40% of those who appeal have the decision to remove their benefits overturned, needlessly exposing people who already face many barriers in life to traumatic and harrowing experiences.
The Judicial Review will be calling for adjustments to the WCA to minimise the disadvantages that people with certain impairments face in being assessed. In a wider sense it will be calling the government to account for these continued attacks on disabled citizens.
DPAC and MHRN call on ALL activists and supporters to join us in a vigil outside the court to show support for those taking the case, and disgust at the shameful practices of the WCA.
See also the Atos Debate in the House of Commons on Thursday 17th Jan Live from about 11am on BBC Democracy Live
Monday, 14 January 2013
Well I am in the hospital and this time recording an appointment and department I do not normally.
I do not know why I decided to do this but put it down to a gut feeling something would go wrong that would turn out to be something ridiculously stupid and easily avoided. At NY cost yet again though really this is not for anything that is potentially serious. Indeed it is must definitely not and to do with having an operation that involves breaking my jaw I have been waiting for since January 2012.
That would be a full year then thus far and no sign of braces our a boxing glove, lol.
I am particularly interested in whether our not they spot that I have indeed successfully quit smoking entirely, through absent tar stains and whiter teeth?!
See how much they are firstly paying attention, secondly got whatever it was preformed by Dentist and not wasting time.
With my luck it will be a miserable failure for them as usual and I am expected to be dropped from this project and through no fault of my own...
...but then maybe this work was only initially offered from up on high knowing I was about to become a headache to the higher echelons of the NHS and a bit of treatment they should have performed 30 years ago will shut new up and keep new quiet?
I certainly would not put that kind of trickery past them!
Just as I suspected another royal fuck up. Right I have been discharged BACK to my Dentist after a whole year because they have been asked to take simple x-rays and have letter stating my gums are OK?!
I do remember now about x-rays and annoyed I did not recall and chase Dentist up on it?!
Though why they cannot DO THIS at the hospital our pouch up the simple phone, invented 100 years ago plus, I will never know.
The one thing I will TEACH this government and other members of parliament is a little word that I normally associate with Germans and Japanese...
FOR THE FECKING LOVE OF GOD MAN...
How the feck do you call this saving money?!?!
Sunday, 13 January 2013
As I lay there floating I thought about the things that have recently occurred and despite the texts I sent to one brother and my sister I floated there thinking not a great deal of it. I thought how curious this was when in reality it was that which I was expecting all along and had worked so hard to do. Albeit without confirmation as yet and somewhat earlier than I had envisioned it was as I expected.
At some point I had thought how I would react if I exited the bath and entered my bedroom only to see the Prime Minister standing in my garden? My immediate thought was 'oh fuck!' but then I though well it was bound to end up with me and him face to face at some point, better just deal with it'' That was it?!
After being suspended for sometime with my mind wandering I had thought how strange it was that I could get to this level headedness and calm over a possibility like that? The truth is my methods and many of which I have yet to divulge would always take me in this direction and there was nothing to stop it. There never was and it is indeed the reasons or I should state some of the very methods themselves that give it this power of perpetual motion.
Eddie Van Halen is screaming out a guitar riff as I type called Respect The Wind and its haunting melodies fill my ears while I contemplate everything I have strived to achieve. I recall how those moments of pure blissful suspension caused to wonder how things that would be considered by so very many to be crazy, mad and shocking news has managed to fade while blending into what I would call my reality!
The coming months of 2013 are likely to see more of this kind of event as the realisation hits those that despite what tricks can be thought up or the sign that I have fallen or failed to notice simply do not work. Not only that but I can also turn these around and use them as weapons towards those that would attempt to think them up in the first place.
This was indeed the reasoning to many of my announcements on here and exactly WHEN I made them like that of the screwed up numbering of this blog and all my other 11 blogs. It was allowed to continue for such a time until that once revealed it could not be explained away any longer and that records i collected going right back to the end of August are nothing short or fantastically impossible to achieve. Game over, at least for that trick but in this event I was hoping to completely extinguish the possibility of further trickery and lies.
I had long since stated that January of 2013 would be key and despite the previous estimations of things happening that failed to occur there was always and always will be another month and another set of reasons. Of course I had to consider other factors that many have failed to realise and this includes Michael Meacher MP and I stated previously that I have to be careful. Well yes I do and the important factor in many of these things is the very thing that still mystifies scientists around the globe...
It was abuse of time that many public offices used in the hope that members of the public failed to notice until I came along. In realising this I myself decided to teach them a lesson in the use and abuse of time while being honourable and honest in the meantime. Time is a factor in the postings I have been making since August. In fact it is there very reliance that I am falling back upon for the most part.
You see this blog has become my .... EVIDENCE!
Despite my claims against all of the offenders contained herein this very blog exists with my posting as EVIDENCE to what I said and WHEN I said it. So any claims to the contrary by any people or bodies willing to abuse the truth and bend it to their will would find it a little impossible to do so...
I SAID WHAT I DID AND I SAID IT WHEN I SAID IT.
From this there is no escape and any attempt to remove or delete it would be seen as a DELIBERATE ATTEMPT TO ERADICATE THE TRUTH!
Not forgetting the fact that it simply would not succeed and would only serve to hinder themselves further.
Strange, don't you think, that winter time forcing me from getting out into the wilderness with my camera to listen to the wildlife while warm sunshine bathes me and I have to rely on a bath of very warm water to achieve any philosophical meanderings?!
These were Big Issue sales people and in all honesty the report did not state any more than that but I knew as I am sure did many others that these two people were foreigners?!
To be honest as well as my predictions as to this taking place and that the government either firstly knew or secondly are fucking incompetent, I often see these people down in the High Street in Enfield and in all honesty I thought that in the last 2 years they have blatantly been put in harms way and that it was only a matter of time before something like this took place.
I also think it is just the beginning and it is only a shame that more did not read this blog. To the people that run the Big Issue Magazine I can only shake my head at the absolute insanity that has taken place. You give a bunch of foreign people, who the British Public are growing ever more fed up with, a bunch of your magazines to sell and place them in High Streets in very busy areas were 95% of the people are probably walking around without the money to buy the things they want, or worse still NEED, and these people come into your face more or less begging for money?!
Fucking stupid and blindly naive!! You should be ashamed of yourselves as your relentless never ending whining like those of Socialists to be correct fails yet again to take in human nature and you have ignored the basic fundamental principles that have cost two people their lives!
Now are you STILL DOING THAT?!?! This is what I would like to know!
These people also do themselves no favours that carry the Big Issue as they do come up to you whether or not your surrounded by marauding children or hobbling along with a walking stick and wave the Magazine in your face... like I said it comes across as more like begging and was a stupid idea in the first place but no doubt it gave a bunch of people the ability to sleep nights with smiles on their faces and a warm butterfly like feeling in their stomachs that they are doing their bit to rid the world of evil thought...
...until it went inevitably wrong that is!
Maybe I am wrong as I know nothing of the Big Issue Magazine maybe it is just a case of simple exploitation I do not know. Are they Socialists blinded by a odd urge to do anything that can be perceived by the world at large to DO GOOD until it is realised it is bad?! I have no idea all I knew was that whenever I see these people I thought first stupid idea and then crap idea and hmm maybe that is a very bad idea to thee lives could end up in danger idea and 'oh crap!'
I had thought ... no HOPED that if enough people would pass on this blog that scenes like that would not take place but unfortunately this happened too late, if it happens at all of course, for the two in Birmingham. Hopefully those others around may realise that this is the start and that it will only get worse from now on and that Britain is not Great and most importantly NOT the safest place to be right now.
We can but hope.
I also hope that there is no more like that but somehow I fear it will not be unfortunately.
Successive governments will reap what they have sowed but unfortunately innocent lives will be lost in the process if things continue along the path they are on. This will then bring on anger when the 'angry mob' which has now grown exponentially in size realise they have been taking it out, or taking the lives, of people that were innocent and then focus on those that are realising that they could have acted at ANY TIME in the last 3, 4, 5, 6 years?!?!
Of course there will be an amount of guilt thrown into the mix too from realising they were wrong. But maybe ... just maybe it might be that those that read this blog and disregarded it did not act accordingly so to 'enlighten' as many as they could to the truth.
Now there in a nutshell is everything that is wrong with the UK and this 'Looking after Number One' attitude that never works. You cannot fight a war alone you dumb fucks!! No one passes relevant information on until it lands on their doorsteps and affects them directly and then its a case of realising ... 'oh its my fault ... if only I had done a little more ... tried a little harder ... been a bit more helpful ... a little more courteous.. ' etcetera, etcetera.
When I recently posted that I KNEW my blog numbers were being manipulated I did explain that I had known for sometime now. I also stated that i am not even receiving the money you are supposed to be paid, from Google.
Now first off this 'missing' money from the numbers I DO HAVE TO HAND is not alot and indeed not enough to actually PAY ME. In fact it would only make it a little less then a third of the amount to trigger a payment. But then I never started this blog for money anyway. It was a couple of weeks after I started it before I realised you can get paid.
So thus far I have done it for nothing ... nada ... zero ... zilch!! Way over 300 posts, all the running around, getting gadgets I need, planning, luring, setting traps, running around the country, keeping scanning documents, tricking the Police, NHS and all the others that I have along the way.
It could turn out I never will get paid anything at all but that would not change a habit of a lifetime for me. My history is littered, and I do mean LITTERED, with people who were so-called friends only to turn on me secretly and use me in many different ways. Some of these would stand around and bitch like a collection of miserable old spinsters with nothing better to do.
What would bring on all this? Nothing really only what I can do and my level of knowledge would bring on a rising tidal wave on envy and jealousy beyond the boundaries of reality. Did I want this? No of course I did not! Was I happy about it? No! Every single time it hurt, every single time and it mattered not whether I let on or not.
That was the nature of the beast, the evil in my life. Only found in a biblical notation that I had long thought meaningless and pointless and in the ten commandments of all things and it has taken me 30 years to realise what they were on about!
So many may wonder over time why then I do this? Because I will not become party to this and when I have moaned about people that I have known it is because of an injustice that they themselves have caused me. I was also privy to the things that they said and WHAT they said because as many as there were queueing up for the day they would see me proved wrong on something, one individual actually used those EXACT WORDS TO ME, others were informing me of what was being said because they wanted to impress me or just become a better friend or mate.
Yes my story and my history is a somewhat long and complicated one but I have been very aware of it at all times with the odd shocks and upsetting surprises here and there. But I can tell you this...
Out of all the people around me and everyone that I know they have all but one thing in common ... they failed repeatedly and collectively to understand one thing ... what all this was like for me?
Sooo I did not want to be part of that. I did not want to be just another person sitting around moping and moaning with no idea at all why I was moping or whether or not I was moaning about the correct things that brought failure to my own life. I can tell some still do not quite 'get it' and think that someone should be happy never knowing and that I should learn to live with it?
Well to learn how to live with something you first need to know what it is otherwise the whole statement becomes null and void. Secondly and as far as I can tell I have not requested the answers to the age old question...
WHAT IS THE MEANING OF LIFE?...
...and until such a time that this is the only answer that I MYSELF am not aware of I will keep gathering the answers for the my friends is not only human nature but has become the very nature of my life that has led me right up to this moment. This VERY precipice that I am at now and the safety that my daughter is in and the help that I have brought to others and those I have yet to help have all become possible because of this, so no I am NOT going to change. Nor will I stop. There is far too much good needed to be done in the world and i am doing but a small part of it. Only the beginnings but a beginnings all the same.
Tell me ... what have YOU done in your life lately?
You really DO need to read the blog, the whole blog as otherwise I have to quote another age old saying and that is a little knowledge is a very dangerous thing...
...what in YOUR life is currently more important than the TRUTH?!
Saturday, 12 January 2013
I received a text tonight from my daughter asking if I saw David Cameron on TV on the news standing on a bridge at the end of her road?!
She trips me I might see her on TV and she DID meet her MP and he wants to see her again!
What a curious turn of events? The MP if Frank Field, I shamefully, or not as the case may be, failed to know who he was when my daughter told me she was meeting him day before yesterday. Err or yesterday?! Lol.
In an area that is like that back of beyond that most government had forgotten about, umm if that not most areas these days, a mere matter of days before high court and just after meeting an MP, not to mention Michael Meacher soon to do whatever he us planning to do, David Cameron appears at the end of my daughter's road?!
Hmm ...bizarre...very bizarre indeed and extremely interesting not to omit TELLING?!
My daughter thought it might be on YouTube but unable to find anything.
Odd after my divulging that I know this blog had been manipulated, I exchanged emails with an MP and my daughter meet Frank Field either yesterday or the day before. High Court this Friday coming, a conference held with journalists being the topic and the Prime Minister appears at the end of my daughters street in The Wirral?
Am I seeing the first signs of the whites of their eyes?
Well they cannot complain I gave then every opportunity and despite this latest event it is only the beginning...
...they ain't seen NOTHING YET!!
Tuesday, 8 January 2013
These numbers are not possible. You cannot have this link across twelve different subjects as the popularity from one would be quite different from the next in line.
But it not only DOES this but does it across twelve blogs whose postings number anywhere from 8 up past 50 and on until around 350 posts and yet this factor of ten not only persists but has done for several months now.
Now you also have to consider that out of all the blogs one and one alone has been very heavily promoted my myself on all the big name website, err this one, and appeared on the Home Page of the Daily Record Newspaper's website!!
Making the impossible even more impossible!!
Added to this that money is supposed to be accrued and yet that has not flinched in months as the current 22p should me more like £16?!
A blogger should get £2 for every 1000 viewers and yet I have had over 4,000 just on this blog and I have 11 others with the next best one being over 500 viewers currently.
So that does not make any sense at all either!
So the numbers are being influenced somehow but exactly WHO or WHY I have no idea presently but I have posted a question in a public forum, posted things on my Facebook Wall and emailed Google about it.
Manipulation of these numbers is illegal and tantamount to fraud for one thing.
So the proverbial tree has been shook and let us see what rotten fruit falls forthwith?!
Monday, 7 January 2013
Now remember I strongly believe I and my family may suffer from Charcot Marie Tooth Disease which leads to muscle weaknesses and not joints. I should also point out, provided I have not remarked on this already which I probably have and there is also likely AUDIO of me stating it to health professionals, is that I have always been confused that I get all these aches and pains but NEVER is it in a joint, closest being this painful clicking in my ankles but now and then.
Well in my research I discovered something else and along the lines of my remarks that if the CMT has affected my back then this could have caused problems with the Vagus Nerve which affects your breathing, emotional response (like fight and flight responses or fear and anger), along with heart rate and swallowing. As I also stated that compressed 'enough' it can cause sweating (had told Doctors I had problem with this few years back) fever type symptoms, low blood pressure and feeling like a heart attack and bad enough passing out.
Well there is another physical condition that can cause pressure on this Vagus Nerve and it just so turns out that this is something that NOT ONLY DO I HAVE but have requested an operation for it for over twenty years now and is spoken about throughout these posts and down to my involuntary vomiting?!?!
Remember I was REFUSED the operation and the very odd thing is that like one or two others this condition is normally associated with senior citizens!!
Now I shall go into detail about how and WHEN I first suffered from this condition and I was in my late teens. Around 16 I had just returned from living in Brighton where I was forced, by the government, while there to join the Youth Training Scheme, as it was known back then. This YTS was based in Marmion Road in Hove and eventually I was placed with a removal firm called GB Liners.
Only when I returned from living in Brighton, or Portslade to be more precise, I started suffering with heartburn that over time become more painful and a lot more frequent. It became so bad that my grandmother urged me strongly to register with my FIRST ever Doctor as an adult, called Doctor Tennekoon, who was also her GP though she hardly saw him.
I did and over time I was given drug after drug after drug, so this would have been around 1988-ish, and eventually I had to demand that he refer me to hospital which he did. After series of tests and the FIRST of TWO Endoscopy's, the other many years later, and a Barium Meal Scan it was discovered that I had a Hiatus Hernia.
For the next twenty years I asked various GPs, every single time I had a new GP or new clinic even, about having the operation but was told it would never be performed even though my original hospital Doctor (Dr White) at Whipps Cross Hospital thought I needed it while he openly admitted that the specialist, a Mr Pietroni (if I recall his name correctly) thought I did not! I also and may have mentioned it on this blog that when the Barium Meal was being performed I heard a Doctor, who was standing behind a seated nurse both looking at the monitor, state CLEARLY ... and I QUOTE "I have never seen one that size before?!"
Now I asked about this statement when I went saw various people afterwards but never got an answer and was told they did not know what I was talking about. Also I have no idea to what that Doctor referred to. It may well have been the Hernia itself or could have been something else as on this type of scan I dare say they get to see a fair deal?!
So imagine my shock when I find a website where it was being talked about that a Hiatus Hernia can place pressure on this Vagus Nerve. Also consider that I have often referred to the fact that I can vomit involuntarily and that I was told this was down to the Hiatus Hernia by Doctors but had NEVER read about this myself?! I was told this was Oesophagitis Grade C and I thought no more about it.
But the vomiting feeling I had Saturday night was identical to the vomiting I get from time to time and sometimes several times a day only this time it was combined with strong feelings of other things I often get from time to time like the blacking out, which I have done in local Sainsburys from time to time (have done for years and was told it was cannabis use the FIRST TIME?!), Nausea, Fatigue and SWEATING!! ALL SYMPTOMS I HAVE EXPERIENCED FOR YEARS IN MILDER FORM and never all together like they did Saturday.
Well now is that not interesting?!
The Hiatus Hernia can place pressure on the Vagus Nerve which itself can explain half of the symptoms I have had for years. The Charcot Marie Tooth Disease, itself could be the or indeed combined culprit, eventually affects your back and this is where the vast majority of the Vagus Nerve is to be found.
So how is it that this nerve, despite all the symptoms I have told Doctors over the years and feeling like I am sounding like a Hypochondriac, has NEVER EVER been mentioned in ANY conversation over all these years with all these so called experts quick to roll their eyes at you?!
Interestingly is that the Hiatus Hernia was not the ONLY hernia I had and one other that popped up, quite literally in fact, was my Inguinal Hernia which can easily kill you by causing Gangrene, was IMMEDIATELY operated on to my shock and horror and I even stated to my current GP, Dr Debbie Dressler, well I have asked for my Hiatus Hernia to be operated on for 20 years and told no, so why so quick to operate on this .. to which she said this one will kill you!
Indeed when I was checked over prior to the operation I was told that the muscle wall in my LEFT groin were also week and that I would have to come back and have a mesh placed in that side too before I get ANOTHER INGUINAL HERNIA?!
At this point I thought 'what the feck is going on with me?!'
Oddly I never got called back for the other side of my groin, curiously especially after what I was told. I also always said that it was all these little areas that seem to get affected and that my ligaments and tendons seem to not be 'all that'.
So now with some careful thought it has become much clearer to my understanding as to what is going on but GPs, and I mean ONE AFTER THE OTHER, have been quick to REFUSE ME POINT BLANK and without so much as batting an eyelid a referral for an operation?!
Indeed if you recall that my current GP asked me to come back in a couple of weeks time when I remarked about the Oesophagus and my vomiting as, and I QUOTE "THAT NEEDS TO BE SORTED OUT!" and I walked out of my current clinic thinking that after all these years I was finally going to have the operation that eluded me for so long?!?!?! I was over the moon!
But just as I have stated so many, MANY times on here an about face was to be performed with an air of nervousness to. When I went back and I MAY have recorded this I said "but you told me to come back as my vomiting and Hiatus Hernia needs to be sorted out?! That is WHY I am here and now you are saying there is NOTHING you can do and cannot refer me after telling me that was what you wanted to do?!"
Indeed when he originally asked me to come back he uttered the exact same words he did when i walked out of his clinic the last time, the time he contradicted himself, and I QUOTE "We WILL get to the bottom of this!"
I think now that they have got to the bottom of this a very long time ago and that I cannot believe that THAT MANY health professionals can be that naive and THAT STUPID! I think they have been under instruction for the longest time NOT TO ADMIT TO ME what was really wrong!
Of course when it come to why there are a couple of possible reasons and I think it funny that when I state what I have done on so many occasions that, the faces change but the lies and tricks remain the same with each public office springs to mind. This is exactly the same that Wirral Council have done for years that once they realise they missed something bloody obvious better to put peoples lives in danger including children rather than admitting you was wrong which would cost you dearly financially.
Now put THAT exact same theory into THIS scenario with my health and it seems to be a perfect fit and uncannily similar, don't you think?!
WHAT OTHER EXPLANATION COULD THERE BE?!
Now I also wonder that if they have managed to figure out about what I have been up to and are indeed watching this blog at all realising what I have now discovered may cause someone, somewhere to come out of the woodwork to 'deal' with this blog?!
Are these the final pieces of the puzzle I have searched for regarding the NHS all these years?!?!
Well I for one think it is HIGHLY LIKELY and maybe it is not so that the DWP can save money by NOT giving me DLA all these years but actually from the likely legal action for damages that could arise from my realisation of the truth?!?!
What I also find interesting is this...
I CANNOT BE THE ONLY ONE THIS HAS HAPPENED TO?!
Important Point: Many of the ABOUT TURNS have occurred AFTER my notes have materialised too?!